side notes

I’m sitting in class in the front row on the right. The teacher puts down a sheet of paper on my tan desk. I pick it up and look it at. I got 800 points on my math homework. I think that sounds good.

My [old] friend Liz looks back at me from the desk in front of me tells me she got a 400 (or was it 600?) and that higher is bad. I ask how low you have to get for it to be good. I can’t remember what she said.

Suddenly, my cat Smoke jumps onto my lap. The teacher, who’s handing out papers to the row right of me watches as I obediently put him down on the floor.

-Gap-

There’s a sign-up sheet for “Misery”. Apparently you submit a picture with the theme and whoever wins gets something. I point it out to Liz. There’s a picture on there someone drew directly in a box of a face with pierced lips. I find it more funny than ‘miserable’ looking. Sitting back in our seats, I tell Liz I want to join but don’t have any pictures with me. She gets up and says that she’ll sign me up as a placeholder as I go get a picture.

I know just the one I want to use. It’s a picturesque landscape scene with a cabin in it, the whole thing is drawn in blue, and it’s raining. I find it lovely, but some might find it miserable.

Liz is worried about posting pictures up there without credit though. I say that I’ll make sure it has the source written on it.

-Jump-

I’m looking through booklets with sheets of paper, and point a spread out to Liz as a good candidate for ‘Misery’. It’s lineart of Gamzee and Karkat dressed up as hoodlums looking glum, and Gamzee has a cigarette in his mouth. I stop and consider if it’d be allowed as a submission because of that.

Inspirations: Maybe because of the Ella dream. The drawn face reminds me of Sweet Bro and Hella Jeff. Gamzee and Karkat because I’ve been thinking about Homestuck lately since getting back into method of loci, as I used to use Homestuck flash game maps for mind palaces. 'Sourcing' from fanart issues in fandom.

1. Two animal-like creatures scuttling north along a road. Then they turn into Gon and Killua?

Inspiration: Maybe my previous road dream. And Gon & Killua because I recently saw one of my old goals with them and have been watching Hunter x Hunter.

2. Me and mom are in some woods. She holds back as I spot some pretty aquamarine colored marbles on the dirt ground and I start picking them up. To the left, I see a heaping pile of dirt, and realize that the ‘main piece’ must be there. I go over and kick the top off. I uncover a smaller bowling-pin shaped marble. There’s something small stuck inside of it but I didn’t get a close enough look to remember what.

3. I’m outside at grandma’s house. I walk up to the back porch and see a younger girl with longer, wavy blond hair sort of crouched underneath it at the back. For some reason, I think she’s mute, but then I realize she’s just deaf when she starts talking, and her voice is kind of loud. She starts writing her number down on a slip of pink paper.

I’m inside at the stove cooking, something about marshmallows and flour. There are people in the house that are similar to the family in Here Comes Honey Boo Boo.

I’m talking to my [old] school friend, Ella, (I think at different times it was on the phone and seeing her in her room omnisciently, it’s confusing), it’s in the future. I’m upset with her because I called her twice and left messages but she never called back. She sighs in exasperation and says that it must have been her dad; he apparently has a habit of meddling with the phone or something.

Inspirations: Maybe because grandma’s house is a memory palace. Number from my PAO system? Mute/deaf from blind dream? Cooking from WL cooking (recently made a S’mores with marshmallows and peanut butter cookies with flour). Recently talked to mom about Honey Boo Boo. Phone probably comes from previous dream with a phone.

Below is a graph depicting the results of my first 3 months of serious dream practice. Organizing the data has boosted my confidence and given me an objective way to evaluate progress.

Goals for March: 5 LD
40 Recalled dreams

1. [Non-Lucid]
Watching a guy/friend play this racing game, he does really well, I decided to have a go to to try and beat him, first go I failed almost immediately and said "uhh that was just a test" so I tried again and I'm terrible at this game and thus fail repeatedly.

We have to go get on a couch to somewhere so we stop playing and exit the room which turned out to be a cinema, outside are lots of parked buses, the coach I'm getting on seems to just be a slightly bigger bus but then we walk over to the side and the coaches hull carries on sideways like its flexible in the middle, we walk further round and opens up, there are spiral staircases (Laura randomly appears for second or 2) I take the left staircase.

When I get to the top theirs a barrier and a woman with a device in the shape of a stick that she attaches to my chairs left footplate, then I go on through. Now I come to a wall we have to climb, I don't really remember what happened except all the while I could hear 2 women arguing and swearing at each other, we almost reach the end, to get to the end we need to grab onto a ledge, so trying this i slip and fall grabbing onto some random blue string dangling from the ledge but unfortunately for me it can't hold my weight and I fall...probably to my death.

Fragments:
I'm looking for Mr.Thelton for some reason, I eventually find him.

Possible dream signs:
Laura

1. [Lucid]
I'm in a taxi heading somewhere, I recognize the route, //suddenly I think to myself "if this was a dream I could levitate" and perform the levitation RC, the RC failed but I was almost certain this was a dream, I became filled with joy at this point, but my subconscious kept thinking of reasons why this is waking life and in turn nothing happened and the taxi carried on.//

2. [Lucid]
//I'm laying in a bed, its dark, I keep repeatedly looking to my right and I see a dark silhouette of someones shoulder, I kept feeling a tingling sensation all the way through my body and this felt really good, I also kept curling up into a ball, all the while worried about the time.//

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Legend:
// - Lucid

Fragments:
In a strange narrow area with ladders everywhere used as platforms.
A parking lot

Possible dream signs:
Taxi, Ladders

I remembered a dream as I was going through my palace last night and found a trigger I almost forgot was there.

I was with a group of people in a dark storage unit. I was wearing my long-sleeved dark shirt with flowers and a ribbon. We’re assessing the stuff inside to steal, which is mostly made up of exercise equipment. I find a nice elliptical machine and point it out.

Suddenly, we hear a noise at the door and voices. We freeze and wait in hopes that they’ll move on. I think they have dogs.

They burst in. We make a run for it. We get across a fence and are running across grass as the police chase and shoot us down from behind.

Inspiration: Me thinking about my elliptical, my zombie wearing a uniform trigger (had to look up ‘white uniforms’ when I was adding it and police outfits were the results).

This is just a little fragment I remember.

I was walking into a field/ park( with that green chain link fence) and I saw Mario( the Video game character). I was supposed to distract him, although at the time I didn't know it. I went over to talk to him and we decided in a challenge to climb trees to reach a person. As we got to the trees I distinctly remember commenting that the trees were poplar and I touched the bark. Mario agreed and we began to climb. I beat him to the top and there was a man and I grabbed him.
Then I was in a comic store and the male cashier showed me a message from my three sisters and a guy and they were drunk. And then I chose toothpaste from the glass case. There was two kinds but one was actually acid. It was like a trick but I decided on the first one and the man got it for me and brushed his own teeth. I kept hearing bubbling noises but it I had chosen the non acid toothpaste. Then the man told me that a series of events could have been avoided if I hadn't taken so long with Mario. I was like, "of course if I has just given him cheese". And then I saw a scene of Mario eating cheese.

1. I’m at ‘home’, and Rane comes up to me and asks me if I need anything from the store. I think about how I need pure pumpkin and mini chocolate chips. I try to find something to write it down on. There are brown strips and white squares of paper, but they’re all written on already. I go to the bottom of the brown stack and find a folded one with nothing on it.

My handwriting is near child-like, with all-capitals. After I underline it, I see that instead of writing my name, I wrote “TAKEN”.

A young guy comes in to hear what I need. I think he’s too young to go on his own and to pay for it, so I take out my card, but he shows me that he already has one. He was a bit heavyset with short, blond/brown hair.

-Gap-

We’re walking through the store. As I look through my wallet for my card, I realize…it’s not there. I quickly grab my buggy and start speedwalking away. The guy calls out to me but I ignore him.

I wade through a bunch of people with kids and carts loaded with Christmas items – trees and presents, as apparently there’s a contest going on. Some of them are complaining about me but I just focus on getting out of the store.

I’m standing at the bottom looking up the steps. There’s an older man sitting there, and he starts telling me about how people don’t make their salads with lemon right anymore. Instead of replying verbally, I start typing up my response on a typewriter-like keyboard, but a regular screen. It’s something about how it all boils down to laziness. I notice two typos but struggle to fix them.

Suddenly, a woman standing on the left gives me a knowing look and says ‘you’re blind, aren’t you?’. I stare at her blankly for a moment, but then go along with it. She takes the ‘computer’ from me and points out my typos. As she works on it, I try to read it from where I am, and she says ‘you’re looking the wrong way’. Perhaps she assumes I’m trying to look in the direction of the man, who's talking. I look a bit to the right of her into the bright yellow sun, as seen coming out of trees and such.

-Gap-

I’m walking away from the store. I get a certain distance away before I stop in place, as if I had a thought, or waiting for something.

A man calls out to me that I forgot my purse. I look over my shoulder and see my old black purse sitting on the ground.

I’m looking for a vehicle to leave, but remember that I didn’t have one, I could leave by….I don’t remember.

Inspiration: I forgot my card a few weeks ago when we headed out to the store. Lemon is a trigger in a memory palace, as is Christmas trees and presents. I'd been thinking about pure pumpkin and mini chocolate chips for a few days because I needed them. I recently switched from a black purse I used for a long time to a new brown one.

2. Lying on a bed side by side with another girl. She gets something on her hand and points it out. We get up and see that there’s a light blood stain on the sheets under where I was lying. I deny that it’s from me, because I don’t have blood on me anywhere.

I’m wearing a dress with a built-in bra, but am still wearing one underneath it, and don’t take it off to sleep.

Inspiration: I'm thinking the 'Triad' dream sparked off a whole set of F/F dreams. XD

3. A shower is halfway full of water as I go to step in, and I see that there’s a floating pair of men’s underwear. As I carefully pick it up, I see that it’s stained. Wrinkling my nose, I put it on the side of the tub out of the way.

4. I remember a fragment where I was in a building and people were talking past. I waded into them to get to the wall, and carefully went around a wood section when the way was clear. I believe a guy came to help me.

The guy is crushing on me, it’s almost stalker level. He asks me to listen to a music CD he made.

-Gap-

I get into his bag and find the disc labeled 3&4 with notes under each section. I confess to him that I did it and that I loved the songs.

5. I’m sitting on my grandma’s porch talking to a man who’s sitting in a chair across from me. I say something about 'something being in my memory palace'.

“Whose memory palace?” The man replies, and as I go to answer “mine”, he points next to me. I look over to see Sherlock Holmes (BBC) sitting there.

Inspiration: Recently did an interview about my mind palace and mentioned Sherlock.

6. A diamond in my ring is missing, someone says they can fix it? I know there was more to this but my trigger probably wasn’t enough.

Notes:

I am really excited to try adding/accessing my memory palace while within a dream. Imagine how much easier it’d be to just add things from within a dream here and there, than to have to lay there and remember the dreams all at once. Only thing is with that I might not be able to note the time, unless I still wake up – I could add the time then.

Or what if I put stuff in my memory palace to access for when I’m in dreams? Like TotM, things to try, a storyline, character, etc that I want to incubate...

1. A woman is walking through a trail with another one. She suggests the other woman show her breasts, but she replies that she got away with it last year at Christmas, but there are too many people there now (for Halloween). The woman looks around and sees various groups walking around.

A man, their lover, watches nearby from a tree, thinking they look good together.

Inspiration: Listening to ‘Triad’?

2. Walking through a building.

In a room full of beds and stuff, it’s a place for people to hang out and rest. I’m lying down, and a couple on the bed to the right of me are bouncing around being a bit noisy. I know there’s no rule against it, but I know the people in the room are trying to sleep.

Notes: I love the ‘walking through a building dream’. I don’t know where I take the layouts from but it’s fun exploring.

23:

Standing in a building looking out a window. A man is running around out front making a lot of noise. I realize he’s trying to draw zombies to the building. But then a squad of police-type guys dressed in white suits come and take the zombies down.

Inspiration: Thinking about The Walking Dead coming on the next day.

25:

1. I’m helping my grandma (dad’s mom, deceased). There are people around us. I get her some food. She asks for something and I hold up a thin bottle of pills. I bring them to her but she says that not the kind she was wanting. I look at the label and see that it says to take one when you’re feeling down and it’ll make you content.

I say that I can understand not wanting to take it, I barely like taking ibuprofen when I have a headache. She says that she’ll take those over ones that just dumb the feeling down rather than treat it.

Inspiration: Sister getting the wrong thing in the mail, my own feelings towards certain medications.

2. The visuals in this are kind of nonexistent but here’s what I think happened: ‘Me’ riding in the arms of a robot as we escape. We ‘drive’ backwards on some kinda of road for a long time, and he has to keep telling me which way to distribute my weight. We felt very close, very important to each other.

Next thing, I’m waking up and asking where he is. Someone tells me that he’s in the freezer, recovering because he was fatigued.

Note: Possibly inspired by my watching/thinking about Almost Human.

3. Mom putting some grape kool-aid flavoring into some water, and me thinking, ‘oh, she bought some?’ and feeling down that I didn’t get any, had no money to.

Inspiration: From talking to mom about wanting more and what flavors we’d get.

21:

All I remember is a yellow school bus, and that the other two dream things were yellow. Oh, one was soup, inspired by me wanting chicken and noodles and putting it in my palace.

Inspiration: Probably adding yellow things to Lucas' House for a visualization exercise. XD That is so cool, must do some experimenting with that if it keeps happening. It could be effective incubation. Maybe I could make one house in Sandgem Town specifically for incubation.

22:

In the school yard. I hear a man yell for his kids. The mother was neglecting them. I flew up to them, there were three. (Two little boys and a girl?) I swooped them into my arms and flew away with them.

I feel like there was something else, but I don’t remember it.

1. Mom helping my clip some of my nails, which have chipped off in places, including beyond the quick.

Inspiration: Worrying about my jagged toenail?

2. There’s an ad on Tumblr for a ‘discount’ on Memories.

3. A dark-haired, muscled young man is being held and tortured in a dark, cell-type area. He apparently lost his female love to the torturers, and they killed their baby and pinned it to a wall.

Then, a young man and woman come to him, opening their arms to him and drawing him to them, his saviors. The female had shoulder length brown/blond hair or maybe longer, male had shorter hair.

4. In a storage-type building, a group of friends are giving away units full of gifts in an exchange. They’re all standing in the entrance to them in a circle.

Two girls are sitting up in a loft-type area above the units. One of them is showing the other a card of a drawn woman. One of them says how they like the style it’s drawn in.

Inspiration: I told mom earlier that evening that I liked the style a card she showed me was drawn in.

Long story short: Computer broke, couldn't fix it, using crappy laptop now. :[ The dreams from 2-18 on are ones I've stored in my Pokemon Platinum memory palace.

1. Me? and a fairy. Or I was the fairy? Wandering around a house. Outside the house looking in a window, the fairy is inside. I bust the window to get her out.

Inspiration: Fairy is one of my Persons in PAO (#84).

2. A really big tennis ball falling over a cliff and onto an old shack, down into a ravine.

Inspiration: Used a tennis ball as a trigger in my bedroom memory palace for 'the park'.

3. Mom and Smoke paralyzed.

Dream
Lucidity
Notes

I was at Megan's house along with her mom and a few other people. I had my Remington 870 along with the 5 slugs my roomate gave me in the waking world. I was talking to Megan about what she's been doing and she tells me how she hates who she's with. There is a car next to us and from the reflection in its' mirror, I notice it's Megan's boyfriend. He gets out and walks to a shed while holding a shotgun. I get angry because it looked like he was threatening or bulldogging me so I get my shotgun and I shoot at him in the shed. He starts shooting back but he doesn't know how to use his gun. I run out of ammo and tackle him and choke him out with my shotgun. I get up and everyone tells me I'm going to jail. I see a sheriff but then notice it's a Correction's Officer holding a brand new AR15, so I give him the shotgun. I ask Megan a few more questions and ask "Be honest; did you ever cheat on me?" She stays quiet and the totem I had turned yellow and said that she felt bad for answering. I get told that the cops are coming and I do a 'dream rewind' as I call it. I'm back right before the firefight but instead of shooting him, I run and choke him out right away. I see something and suddenly realize I'm dreaming.

I look at my hands telling myself "stabilize the dream! "I go bast the barn and I'm on NM47. I remember what I read about activating my senses so I kneel down and touch the pavement with my finger. The pavement then has a hole with eggs in it and I grab and eat one. No taste but it was runny. The egg was uncooked. My shemagh was in my eye, causing it to hurt so I adjusted it. I pinched my arm and felt like it was getting pinched. I hit my thigh with something but it didn't hurt. I saw a car about to pass so I said "It's time" and ran along with it. I acted as if I was doing parkour on the street but there were no obstacles so I was just imitating the moves. A white and black sports car came to my left and I raised my right hand, summoned a flame, and launched a fireball at the car, causing it to explode. I saw a truck in the distance and sped up to catch it. I looked at my hands to stabilize the dream again. I was then in a village on some plains. There were hills to the right and blue mountains to the left. I was on the roofs running from one and jumping to the other. There were two kids playing and saying they were Lucid Dreaming. I jumped between them and said happily, "No, I'm lucid dreaming!" I grabbed one of the kids and told him "I haven't seen water in one of my dreams for a while so let there be water!" I pointed to the hills but then changed my mind. I spun him around and pointed to the mountains. After a few seconds, a huge wave of blue water came over the top of the mountains. I ran away and the village was engulfed by water. Rain started pouring down.
I found an even smaller village with brown roads and grass. The colors were vibrant and it looked familiar. It almost looked like the texture of it was from minecraft. I remembered what I wanted to do in my first lucid dream: Hug my mom goodbye. I looked for a specific structure and entered it, taking an elevator to the basement. I noticed the marble floors and the weird design they had. I stood in a small room and my mom appeared. She looked like a zombie and she was very weak. I went to hug her but it was hard to do so. My dream was fading and I sensed that I was going to wake up soon. An orb appeared at the bottom of my vision and it would block my view as it raised. I figured I'd have to return another time because when the orb consumed my vision, I peacefully woke up.

The dream was hard to control and I know I didn't have a high level of lucidity but I was still lucid. Next time, I'll strive for a higher lucidity level. Upon further reasearch, I believe I lost lucidity when I looked at my hands when I reached the truck. Maybe even before that. I know I was lucid after blowing up the car, though.

1. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in Minecraft walking around with some other people, I walk over to this structure, too my surprise was a tall mossy stone creature with long arms started to attack and chase me so I ran.

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm watching a cat (brown and white) jumping of this walkway into the sea below, this cat is a good swimmer as it paddles its way to the wooden platform at the other side, it jumped in again i think but this time the cat took a while to resurface as we worryingly watched air bubbles rise, then the cat popped back up.

I'm with a few family members and I'm talking to Becky about something secret.

We then go to MCDonalds, I was trying to find the MCDonalds in the dark of night so took me a few minutes, I walked down a steep road and found it, walked inside and took a left and saw Ellie and Becky at a table so I went over and sat down.

3. [Non-Lucid] [Vivid]
I'm sitting down in this restaurant at a table connected to the wall, I am eating something I think then this old woman with white curly hair and white woolly jumper comes and sits across from me and says "Show us your teeth" I'm like "uhhh no" realizing I hadn't brushed them and then kinda clamped my mouth firmly shut as I become very self conscious.

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Legend:
Vivid
Dream

Possible dream signs:
Ellie, Becky, Dad, Minecraft, Teeth?, MCDonalds