side notes

So in the past week i've been taking melatonin due to my lack of sleep lately. It's been putting me to sleep alright, unfortunatly I can't remember any of the dreams i've been having. But somehow I still know that i've had dreams... I think i'm gonna stop taking it an see what happens...

D1 - Someone repeatedly tried to copy my super powers. I thought they were crazy as they were doing it all wrong
It was a beautiful woman standing infront of a cresent moon, the moon had a yellow light on it.
She tried seven times making a low tonal sounds. On the last attempt she succeeded.

D2 - On holiday heading back with luggage to a car park, car was gone had to hike up a trail to another car park, feeling lost.

D3 - Going out, on way down the stairs, look in on Sam to see if he wants to come. He is already heading out with a new mate, I feel lost again, and look for an old coat reminscent of past times.

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After dream one.
My mind is contemplating dream meaning, one syncronitiy after another coming to mind of recent times.
Dream meaning comes to me with an accompaning strong physical sensation.
Meaning was that not only do opposites change into each other but other elementary forces can interchange,
such as love becomes fear, fear of losing control changes into pure love.

I felt a burning heat that moved like larva in a tight stream up my chest. At the same time the world seem to flip between waking and dream state, with everything in waking state appearing as a dream sign and sync. My mind was a total rush, as everything seemed to become clear for a moment.
It subsided and the sensations remained for about an hour.

Haven't paid much attention to dream recall this time.

[URL="http://imgur.com/a/GHDWh"]nr 10 and 11[/URL] (2 a5 sized entries on an a4 sized paper)

nr10 is lucid, nr 11 nonlucid

about nr10: the dream characters were more elaborate than usual and felt almost like real people. at one point i could force a girl (non physically, i have some control over the actions of dcs, if i want them to want me, they will) to want to have sex with me but i didnt because she seemed reluctant initially, because i wouldnt feel good about it. at some point i told a guy that this is a dream and that i am dreaming right now. i asked him if he dreams and he said i was crazy and superstitious (or religious). later on i used powers to light lamps and looked for people to give dream powers so they could be of more help (we were in a survival type situation in a warehouse and had to work together) and i was looking for a responsible person. (this goal was forgotten moments later) i also thought of asking a girl if she could listen to me summarizing my dream so i can remember it better when i wake up and said "hey.. can i ask you something?" and there the dream ended.

pretty cool.


edit: this past week ive actually been getting lucid once a day on average. yes. holy crap thats amazing. yay for nose plug rcs and counting down from 100 thinking "lucid dreaming" on every count. now the next huge step is to learn how to prolong dreams. if i can do that... its happening! its finally happening = D

according to laberge: rubbing and spinning are effective
yell clarity

to bed late (not by choice), ~1am

+ team-based conflict. Sabotage: one guy used an incendiary clicking device to attempt to ignite the underground gas lines via the electrical outlets and blow up several city blocks. "You can't escape" he called out. I ran anyway. Through a door, a guy far stronger than me was pursuing, but I had prepared a small pitch-fork just outside the door and picked it up and stabbed him putting him on the ground, and I called for reinforcements and they beat him up on the ground.

+ (f) returning to the cages, a tiny (female?) dog had been rewarded and entered the cage of my old dog "L". L came along later?

alarm @ 5.5 hrs, very tired, got family member up, back to bed. Alarms are terrible for recall. I had to reach to remember the above.

eventually summoned the will to stop following random thought chains and implement my Back To Sleep Mojo (tm) with the intent of lucid dreams. It worked again

BTS mojo: start with deep breathing. Totally relax and let go of everything: tension, thoughts, all trying and effort. There is a very special "sinking" feeling for a moment at the end of a long exhale when you successfully let go of tension and start to sink deeper. What I do then is try to hold on to that "deep sinking" feeling, including during inhales and exhales. While breathing, I sometimes imagine I'm breathing through my "3rd eye" in the middle of my forehead. Breathing in dream energy and breathing out tension and thoughts. HI may begin during this time. Try not to focus on them, but simply remain lightly aware of them.

+ I'm walking outside in an apartment complex (small, 2 story) in between buildings. It is dark (early morning I think). I hear a sound to the left and look up and see a man through a large sliding glass door [DREAM SIGN], he's doing remodeling in his apartment. He's using a scraper on the glass door, and it's really squeaky and noisy, I think it's rude to be doing that at this early hour, it could bother the neighbors.

The building on the right of me also has a glass wall on the 2nd floor apartment, I know there's a woman in there I'd like to sneak a peek at. I'm staying below the window and trying to remain unseen. (The light comes on?) I sense she's walking around in her robe. I hide under the overhang, and her legs in the reflection of the glass via a building to the left. I think that means she may be able to see me, too.

At one point my wife comes out and I try to hide but she sees me, she's in her bathing suit I guess she's going for a swim/sauna, but she doesn't suspect me.

LD#176 (2/10 goal for LDs for remainder of Feb)
I felt sure I was waking lucid in "my room" in the dark. The room seemed right. I sit up on the side of my bed, and notice vague bits of furniture about, including an alarm clock? [false]. I have a small bit of trouble maneuvering out of bed, but made it OK. Decided to head outside and fly into the night sky and explore the city at night and have fun. Pretty high awareness, and very clear. I get outside and look up at the sky. I think the stars were "beautiful" but in retrospect they were pixelated like computer graphics, and the sky was rather gray not black. The stars were swirling around the sky a bit, interesting. I went to take off flying into the sky and I hear suddenly and unexpectedly a very creepy male voice behind me that startled me and freaked me out a bit, he barked out some statement that I didn't understand. I took off and looked behind me and very very clear and vividly saw two guys on top of the roof of a building. I circled around to go fight them. summoned my lightsaber in to my hand, at first it was the size of a pen with tiny little bumps on each end like a miniature dumbbell from the gym. I reached over with my right hand and "pulled" it which extended it, at first too large, then pushed back a bit and got it to be the perfect size. landed, hit the "on" button expecting awesome sound and visuals (but they were kind of weak like usual), and started fighting. There were several opponents and more coming it seems. Tried force lightning on a 3rd guy who came on me from the right: extended my right arm straight and made a "claw" with my fingers, but managed only a few sparks at best. impaled several guys with the blade at close distance with lunges, one in the chest, one in the face. several good swipes, but just not the vivid blade and effects that I want. There was a bit of resistance to swinging the blade, like swinging a sword in water.
I'm losing the fight, they're getting their attacks in close to me. The main opponent almost got a swing (he had a lightsaber too I think) to land on me, I had to sacrifice my saber to block it and then jumped backwards off of a pier to escape. In the distance in the water some people are standing on a platform.
I climb back up on to the pier a bit away from the fight and look at who's here. It's sort of an open area, looks like a party is going on. Right in front of me, my attention is grabbed right away by a lovely blonde woman in a sexy, revealing, white evening dress. Her hair is in a medium-length braid down her back, and her right side is facing me.

Spoiler for sexy time, explicit:

I approach her and notice as I'm approaching that she's naked underneath her dress, and see that she has a nice patch of blonde public hair. This gives me a "zing" because true blonde pubes are really rare. As I approach her she is now sitting on a bench with her legs slightly open, and I'm kneeling down in front of her. She is looking at me and giving me a playful smirking smile. She is naked now from the waist down and I get a great view of her very substantial bush which is a large triangle of thick, but short-cropped blonde curlies. I tell her "Excuse me, but you have the most beautiful hairy p***y I've ever seen!" She shifts down a bit making her (ahem) fully available to me, and I dive in for oral. It is an exquisite moment: I feel the moist, warm, flesh of her cleft for a few seconds before

the dream fades.

Hello there, and welcome to my Dream Journal!

If you happen to be on the search for my actual DJ, maybe filled with action, stories or texts about how I learn to earn to
Lucid Dream, sorry buddy, you'll either have to look a page further and see if you are pleased with the results of my "mindscape", "thought palace", "dream world" or whatever you may call it. Maybe you'll find amusement, maybe not.

Either way, I don't care and won't care what you think (I'm already dropping some info on my psychology, so deal with hat I serve).
A teacher of mine, that I discussed dreams with, once told me: "Never show your dreams to other people, they'll rip your life into pieces, it happened to me."
I seem to be good at ignoring advice... what the heck let's just get to it:

So, if you didn't already skip this page alltogether, what can you expect here in the future (if I happen to find the time to write down my findings...):

1. annual tasks
2. monthly tasks
3. weird dreams when I got bored
4. expect deadly doses of ponies for anti-bronies
5. the study of the dream realm itself, so to speak:
6. is science possible in dreams
7. what about poetry or music?
8. how can you write a story while taking part in it?
9. philosophy (if I get bored)
10. how large can a city you build in your dreams get?

If this does not scare you away I do invite you to my journey, be my guest!

With good wishes for pleasent dreams
WhiteCosmoz/ Corona
"And remember kids: Reality is an illusion, the universe is a hologram, buy gold, bye!

Before going to sleep I heard a deep vibration or buzzing in my ear, it lasted for about 10 seconds and then stopped completely. It was extremely loud. Anyways my dream was that of a spinning ring, at first it was spinning in the air attached to some sort of leather cord, then it was on a table (no leather cord) being spun by the guy who appears in most of my dreams. The ring also changed in details, at first it was simple, looked as if made of silver or white gold, with some sort of tribal design. Then the ring became ornate, with a rainbow stone in the center amd smaller stones going around the band (smaller stones were of different colors).

P.S. no explanation of a spinning ring in dream dictionary

During my nap today, I had a dream I was somewhere in a field. Suddenly, I was struck by lightning, and the force knocked me to the ground. I could feel the tingling sensation throughout my entire body as the blue energy raced across my skin. Whenever I opened my eyes (as if I was peering into a mirror) I could see the blue light radiating from inside. Physically, I was in no pain, I felt the tingling but it was faint and not painful at all. Mentally, I was calm, gazing at the sky overhead, completely aware I was going through a very peculieur change. Then I woke up.

P.S. According to a dream dictionary lightning eyes is a symbol of a supernatural being, lightning itself is a symbol of prosperity or good luck, also it is a symbol of strong feelings for someone.

I've had this reoccuring dream for a few years now about a young man (pale, green eyes, good muscle tone, all in all attractive.) An until here lately I didn't think anything of it, until the specific details of my dreams drastically changed. Lately, whenever I have this dream the young man will tell me not to fear, to be patient, and he and I will soon meet. So, dream interpreters, I ask you what in the dickens is my unconscious trying to tell me? For someone of my age (I am incredably young) I would probably tell them to just enjoy the dream and never mind the details becuase the unconscious is a very fickle person all in its own. But the sudden change from unrealistic to incredably realistic seems to serve a very interesting purpose. Now I have done some research and unfortunatley, they all involve soulmates or something of the like. Which is bizarre in its own right and I'd like to stay away from that circus as much as possible. But please if you feel confident in your explanation, do share, even if it is as bizarre as this description.

Had a lucid dream where my imaginary girlfriend and i murdered my entire family in a storage facility. We were laughing like maniacs while chasing them down and killing them with magic. Before that we were driving my mom's dorango. She crashed,. My sister attempted to run my down, so i pushed the truck off the road, into a body of water.

MILD day 3

Did my mantra before sleeping.
Woke up at usual 2:00. Did mantra again.
Woke up about an hour later. I think I practised my mantra, but I do not know for sure.
Woke up again, thought about FILD'ing, but then I rolled over and had to use the bathroom. Bye bye FILD.
I think I woke up another time. Don't remember, though.
Alarm and daily routine.

Note: I did dream about DJ'ing. Is that a good sign? I don't really know, but I do know that I have never dreamed about that before. So I would only assume that it's a step in the right direction.

In conclusion. This night was a success although I don't think it was. For some reason, I have been extremely tired lately. Perhaps it's school and I just have to get used to it, or I actually need more sleep. I will be going to sleep earlier tonight to see what happens.

2/11/2016

I was sort of looking below to this type of castle. As if it was a miniature version of a big one. I was in a room, but I do not know what room. When I went to look inside of the door of the castle I saw my Dads dog having fun in there running around the walls. It ends.

I was in the cafeteria of my school. There were far too many people than what it usually has. I was walking by this table and then when someone was looking at me, they said hey Juan. I got mad at first and confronted them. They did not seem to notice me and they were actually looking behind me at a guy actually named Juan. I looked at felt stupid and tried to play it off. Then I trudged through the crowd of people to sit down where I normally don’t sit. Usually, everyone has their table they sit at and where they sit at the table. In this dream that was messed up, as well as there being people that I did not even know. I was sitting there rather uncomfortably as I was on the edge. It ends.

I was sitting in study hall, then apparently I was writing in a dream journal. (I hope this means that I am getting closer to LDing!) I do not know what dream, but it felt as if it was a class assignment and I was just writing in it to get it done. (As I do for a lot of things in school.) It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

non-dream dream lucid-dream
i am sorry that there is no dream for today, but i wanted to post this because i wanted to demonstrate just how important a sleeping pattern is. as you can see from the title i only got 5 hours of sleep last night, because i slept over at a friends house, which directly correlates to the number of dreams i can remember. It is, i feel, important to note that you should no seclude your self or stop seeing your friends, bu if you are serious about lucid dreaming, don't go out too often (no more than once or twice a week). But bare in mind, i am still a lucid dreaming noob.
~ Thanks for reading

MILD day 2

Did my mantra before going to bed, was much better at not drifting thoughts.
Woke up and usual 2:00 AM remembered a dream. Went back to sleep trying to repeat the mantra.
Woke up an hour later and remembered part of a dream.
Alarm and morning routine.

In conclusion, dream recall became better, should have written down dreams right after waking and attempted to WILD. If I did not remember them, I would FILD.

2/10/2016

I was at school, or that I could see from outside. I was running to a tractor-trailer that was your generic black tractor and white trailer with no corporate markings. It was daytime and it was raining lightly, why I was running to the truck. Next I am in the truck and the dream suddenly transitions to me in a garden of some sort that is in New York city. I am standing there amidst this garden where I do not know where exactly I am. There are apparently chickens around me. Apparently I pissed one of and it starts to go after me, flying and pecking at me. I try to shoo it away so I don’t hurt it, but it keeps coming at me. Then it goes for my ears, that’s the last straw for me and I grab the chicken by the neck and chuck it as far as I could, I run into a garage that has some sort of an SUV and I pull out of there as fast as possible so I don’t get attacked by the chicken anymore. It ends.

I am sitting in my school’s lunchroom and we are having some sort of a special lunch. All that I can remember is that there were tater tots. We eat the lunch, (nothing happens) and then we are clearing the lunch. All of a sudden there are hundreds of tennis balls that start to bounce all over the room. The lunch manager is not looking happy at this point and tries to collect the balls. Then I walk to the science room where there are many people and I walk up to a friend and show him something on the computer, recent tabs for some reason. He says my life could be ruined and walks away. I wonder at that point. Then the recent tabs change to Java programming and my counselor is there and he seems all amazed by what he sees and attempts to write some code on the whiteboard, which does not work very well, I chuckle. It ends.

No LD’s tonight.

2/8/2016 I am starting to notice that possibly a dream sign that it is always midday or bright out in my dreams. Again, I really did not try to LD tonight so it is what it is.

I was sitting in a house that I do not really know in WL but in the dream I did. I think I also did understand that my Dad and brother were there as well but I did not see them. I was in a bedroom, sort of sitting on a bed and it was midday. I could see the sunlight seeping through the curtains. I remember being insanely bored, not knowing what to do and just sitting there upright in bed not having an awesome time. Then it transitions to a school room where it’s a computer lab. I was not sitting at a computer and contemplating taking a standardised test (ACT I think). I sign in and take the Maths portion and that is all. (I think that this is telling me that I should start studying for the ACT/SAT) Then I transition back to the house walking into the kitchen and still not knowing what to do. Maybe I saw my dad or brother but it gets fuzzy after that. It ends.

There was this bit that I was on a school bus alone with this weird dude and it was midday and we were driving down this semi-hill and there is a Lamborghini that is a cop car that is passing by. (Probably from GTA V) We go under an overpass. It ends.

No LD’s tonight. (Didn’t really try either)

I've tried the SSILD again the past night. I had a LD but what happened it was a very strange and new experience to me: during an usual dream I found myself in a bathroom of an old building, like a school or a hospital.
At some point while looking at the mirror (that was steamy) I became lucid (I don't remember if something in particular triggered it or if it just happened) but then I became aware of my body in the real world.
I'm not sure if I was aware of it for the whole time and the dream itself was some prolonged HH like the night before, or if I became aware of it just after gaining lucidity (it's hard to explain or even realise it), but at that point I was in my bed, with my eyelids still closed and the dream I was having it was similar to a projection on my closed eyelids. It also became an old black and white movie, similar the ones of the world wars.

This is something new to me, I was living only the visual experience of the dream in a very clear and detailed way, like watching a movie (but not with my mind's eye as when day dreaming), while becoming aware of my physical body. Also, the black and white thing is new, I've always dreamt in colours, I don't know if it was some way with which my mind tried to make sense of the fact that I was "watching a dream" with closed eyes.

Furthermore when I woke up in the middle of the night, after one of the dreams, I also had auditory hallucinations, like if someone was speaking to me (I've done a RC just to make sure that it wasn't just a FA), sadly I don't remember what the voices were saying.

During the rest of the night I had some other of dreams (not lucid), but in one in particular there was something new that I think I've never done in the past: I shape-shifted myself into a bird as a disguise and to fly away from someone that was following me with the intention to hurt me.