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21:30 put on my new blue-blocking UVEX safety glasses, wear all the way to bed time. People with chronic bed-time insomnia report these help better than sleeping pills. I don't have bed-time insomnia but figure every minute of getting to sleep faster is more dreaming during the night and better rest. I also wear them for WBTB where I need to turn on some lights.

23:00 100mg 5-HTP hoping for REM rebound and deep restful sleep for first half of night + bedtime

Prepared 2x4mg Galantamind, 1x300 choline bitartrate, 2x300mg Alpha-GPC
No REMee tonight, in anticipation of long BTB after taking the G.

00:00 Monday 2014-05-05 LD #36 Galantamine, TOTM

03:47 alarm, took G mixture and banana (to ensure pills actually hit stomach, and get some additional energy to brain for epic long dreaming)

04:45 wide awake, take 0.3mg melatonin to help with getting back to sleep

05:44 not sleeping yet, feeling a bit hungry, eat 3 small corn tortillas with about 1/3 of an avacado and small glass of milk, to prevent staying awake from empty stomach rumblings and to provide fuel for anticipated epic long LDs.

Lots of HH: mostly faint dark blobs flashing in front of my eyes. A few HI: 1) a box of breakfast cereal on a shelf, 2) a newspaper with a headline, and 3) beautiful blonde shepherdesses with some goats in a pasture.

07:45 somewhere around here finally fall asleep. Indulging in stimulating daydreaming too much. Finally stop that and put full sleep relaxation kung-fu into place. Try hard to enjoy where I am, "not trying" to sleep but just float in relaxation. Somewhere in there my thoughts finally subside and I sleep.

+ watching TV and I knew the time on the TV was wrong, it showed 03:00 but I knew I had been up for hours so it should be more like 07:00

+ TV show: (scene from the Sopranos?) Two guys in some sort of tropical hut open to the outside, one guy is saying "we're done for, they're going to find us", the second guy (in Hawaiian shrit?) is important (Tony Soprano?) I'm pretty sure they won't wack hiim, another guy walks in from the left, I focus on him, a somewhat hazy gun is in his left hand he's holding it up pointing it into the room, then somebody off-screen to the left shoots him (the one with the gun), he has no shirt on, I see the bullet shoot through his body, entering around his right side mid-ribcage and exiting from the middle of his chest, bright red blood starts gushing in a stream from the entrance wound, his face goes slack, his hand starts moving slowly to cover the entrance wound, I think that won't help at all because if he covers it up it will just start gushing from the exit wound.

+ wife tells me something and I respond like it doesn't matter (because I'm dreaming?)

+ I'm in a cluttered room in a random house. I'm reaching for a large round cookie tin at the top of a tall cabinet (raided my folk's extra freezer for a tin of frozen brownies yesterday IWL...mmmmm, frozen brownies!), I grab it and am bringing it down to me, and my mantra hits for no apparent reason, "I'm dreaming..."...HEY! I AM dreaming!". Quick nose pinch confirms it, I can breathe! I try to put the cookie tin down on the ironing board to my left but I miss and it falls to the floor, for a brief instant I consider picking it up but I laugh at myself and realize I shouldn't give a sh*t cuz this is an LD and just turn away from it heading to the right. Feel unstable, vision is fading to white, I instantly rub hands. I rub them and feel for them and look for them, this always works wonders for me but not today, I feel them but can't see them. I try my full-body pat-down but only get a few pats in before stopping, I see my dream body a bit but I'm still in vague whiteness. I "bring out the nukes" and spin around counter clockwise for a while [I haven't done this since LD #1!] still in whiteness, I wonder if I'll end up somewhere different, I stop and I'm back in the room. I continue forwards out of the room, there's a small hallway there with a darkened room to the left. What should I do? TOTM! AH! Shots with Angelina Jolie! What is the other task??.....ah ok, the force, I think I'll start there it's easier, just TK something as there's nobody around, I look around and see some notebooks lying on the ground at my feet. I take a few steps backwards into the room I started in with my eyes on the notebooks, hold out my left hand and will one of the notebooks to come to my hand, AND IT DOES! Woohoo, first mindful TK. "That's awesome" I say and toss the notebook back down where it started. OK, SHOTS TIME! I start thinking about Angelina and begin working up a summon for her, but I wake up.

22:10 bedtime, 3mg melatonin hoping for REM rebound in morning, looks like it worked!

03:14

+ in frozen yougurt/ice cream shop I'm at counter a man (and woman) clerk are on the other side of the counter the man is to the right, a woman with a child arrives to my left into line. I'm fumbling with my wallet and money, I'm choosing what to get. I'm trying to see what flavors are available. I ask "what's in that one?" and the man offers me a cookie, I say "no, what's the flavor of that one." It's a mixture: cookies, bizet, caramel, chocolate, he says "the flavor is whatever you put in there", it's not really an ice cream more a dessert mixture, you're supposed to add ice cream to it. I notice that while I've been choosing a long line of people has built up.

05:32

very long series of dreams including a lucid

+ in a car with wife, I'm driving, driving on a road, which is a narrow shelf between a hill sloping up and to the left and a river off to the right. I see 3 animals on the hillside to the left we're approaching them, one is a small orange fox poking out of a hole, and there are two other animals above (1 below) the fox. Immediately after that I see a mother rabbit holding back its baby rabbit with its teeth so that the baby does not jump into the road. Just after that I see a hedgehog walking slowly across the road I don't want to hit it I maneuver the car so that the hedgehog passes between the wheels, I turn around and look behind me out the rear window to see if I hit it, I see the sandy road but nothing else.

Going farther forwards I miss a turn-off to the left, now I'm concerned because this road is narrow and there likely will be nowhere to turn around. I eventually do encounter enough room and turn around. I'm thinking the next time I'm lucid in a car I shouldn't bother with just simple flying, I should summon a Star Wars hyperdrive control and use it to launch myself into a random place deep in space in the galaxy and just turn it off randomly and see where I end up. I think several times about pushing the hyperdrive control to do that.

Approaching the turn off I missed earlier I look up the hill to the right and see city buildings, I think this is the right road and keep heading towards it.

+ With wife fixing something at an outdoor maintenance place, my wife is pumping out water, I'm just standing there watching, 3 guys come up and do something. I see two blue backpacks on the ground against a wall, I think they're mine, I start touching them, the 3 guys get upset I'm touching them, they're their backpacks it turns out, I say "excuse me" in a foreign language. They're still looking at me I say "well I said excuse me." I'm concerned they think I'm not a native because I speak their foreign language with an accent probably. I tell my wife we should get out of here because I'm nervous about these guys.

Then I think hey I'm a man I should do the work, I get down and take over the pumping. It's a bicycle hand pump, and we're pumping the water out from another (stand-up pump), so I screw the stand-up pump together with the hand-pump. We have a sleeping bag/roll spread out on the ground under the pump. These guys are pumping out water over on top of our stuff through a tube of water, over our bags, etc., I'm moving their water hose to the side away from our things it keeps coming back. I keep adjusting their hose and finally make it stick in a better position.

While pumping I look down closely on the ground and see a big frog/toad. I say "Hey, froggy!" I see it close up. I hold out my left hand and it jumps onto my hand. It's gooey/squishy, think I may catch something from it so I turn my hand over and plop it back to the ground.

+ leaving a museum with my mother can't find her, I realize I don't have her cell phone, I think "I want my mother!" I'm carrying a lot of packages, a woman clerk is helping me get out, there are people in my way, I'm pushing through them. Outside there are a lot of people standing around, and there's a guy with glasses who looks a lot like TZ, I think it's TZ at first but I look closely and decide it's not him. There are several guys who look like him. He's teaching a science lesson to a group he's leading.

+ Standing inside my childhood home sister's old bedroom (where I'm sleeping IWL this night) and TZ (really him) is standing also, he's there to collect his things. I look around the room and I see pure white walls, I say "hey did they paint the walls of this room recently?" Then I get a fake memory of them painting this room. I don't know if I should speak to TZ because we've (IWL) had a falling out. Now we'rd both just heading down the stairs I'm in front, I"m still trying to decide if I should speak to TZ. I decide we've been family friends for so long I should say something. I turn around the look up at him and say in a friendly voice, "Hey, how's it going?" He gets upset we're walking down the stairs, he sticks his elbow out at me and says "what you're really doing is this" (his gesture, meaning I'm keeping him at a distance), he's insulted that I"m even trying to speak to him. He's really rude. He keeps waving/poking his elbow at me to brush me off. I'm tremendously offended and upset by this. He goes out on to the deck via the back porch, I go into the kitchen and look at him standing on the deck through the kitchen window. He's with his new girlfriend and I want to set things straight with him, so I go to the back porch door and look out but he's kissing her so I come back inside and say "oh never mind". I'm looking for something in the refridgerator and there's some kind of a book club meeting going on in the house.

+ standing in a sporting good store, talking to several young guys (brothers) and their father, I say if you're working out (with weights) and build up some muscle you'll feel good about yourself and you'll have better luck with the ladies. But the most important thing is confidence...confidence, and .... (can't think of anything else), just be really confident. One of the guys says "but what if they don't choose me?" And I say "Well, you know, then YOU go and choose THEM, be confident and assertive." These guys all look the same and I'm kind of creeped out by this and leave.

Then I'm walking down climbing under ground through very short narrow openings. I have this idea, "Oh, no, not the Jared's again" (they're the guys I was just talking to in the store), "I'm tired of dreaming, I just want to have some restful sleep (and I'm lucid). I'm continuing through the area. I look into one room with huge fat old naked swollen women (like monster ticks or cows), I say "Hello, ladies!" and keep moving on. I continue on walking and come to an open area in a mall, a cosmetic/perfume area. A girl is sitting at a desk to my right. I look at her, she's young & attractive, I say "ok," and walk up to her, while I'm walking she suddenly appears old. Then her face becomes fluid and unclear like her face is switching between many different faces very quickly. I will her to be young again and she is young. I stand her up from her chair with a hand on each of her shoulders and say "OK, come stand over here" and I put her a bit to the left of the desk, on the first step leading up to another part of the cosmetics department. I put her there so I'll be able to embrace her easier. I start getting the waking up feeling and I instantly take several steps backwards away form her saying "Oh, no" (with inflection like "I'm not going to allow this to happen, no way" ). I recite my sivason dream yoga immunity to shock mantra, "My mind controls my reaction, my mind controls my reaction." I step up to her again and I wake up.

08:06

another grand adventure

+ I was with some people and I wanted to show that I was Captain America. My costume was down in a back room, with other giant hockey jerseys lying on the ground. I summoned the Captain America bouncy ball, a child's small bouncy ball (1/2 inch diameter) painted with the emblem on Captain America's shield. I felt things in my pockets and I wondered which pocket I should check. I decided that I expected to find it in my left pocket and reached in and pulled out the ball! The ball I knew has the poweris that if you hold it up against a dream character's head, they do exactly what you want them to do. It takes all the work out of DC mind control. I showed this ball to a guy and I joked that I would throw it and it would fly around the corner into another room and that it would give me control over one of the cute girls in the room.

I was returning to the jersey room to return my costume and the ball and I come across a strange table circular saw with many wavy saw blades built into a cube frame. In a closet there were about a dozen replacement blades (3D) for the saw. Kind of looks like a room fan. I think this is a safety hazard since someone could walk into it and cut off their leg accidentally.

So much going on hard to remember it all.

With a group of people, in a room, we're travelling somewhere, we're on a quest. I'm sitting behind one of the girls in the next booth, behind her, and I move my face up to her right ear and nuzzle against her right cheek through her hair trying to put a move on her, I say "are you concerned for your parents? It's OK because Captain America is on our side and he will help us."

Our group is in a car, we approach a large open expanse of water, it is night, I'm sitting in the back seat of the car. We need to get over to the other side of this lake/ocean. There are dozens of highly bizarre ferry boats and water vehicles in every direction ahead of us. Someone (my sister?) in the car says: "isn't it funny that in dreams your car can always driver over water?" (we're already heading out on to the water in the car. I'm looking around, the view is fascinating and bizarre. To the left I see a 3-foot tall Tyrannosaurus Rex about 10 feet away wading through the water. I exclaim "Hey guys there's a 3-foot tall dinosaur to the left! It's a Tyrannosaurus Rex!" Nobody responds. This huge slug-shark thing with a long body and shark-ish face is approaching us I yell "Step on the gas, the shark-thing is heading right for us!".

We're across the water and it's day time. I'm racing up the stairs heading into the city with one of the group. He's on the stairs I'm on the hill to the right of the stairs. I think this dream is long, I can't wait until I wake up and can compare notes with [my stair racing friend], since we're shared dreaming (fake memory), I want to see if his memory of this dream matches mine. We reach the top of the stairs and we need to find the alligator statue to prove this is the right city. I think where it will be, to the left or the right, where should I expect to find it. I choose the right, I turn there and see strange painted emblems on the ground, I think I say "I've found it!" but my friend says no that's not it. I look into the city and it is covered with billboards and banners, all written in (what I think is) Itailian. I say 'Look the writing's in Italian this must be the right place".

*It was a little bit stressful day, I was more tired than usual. I got to write some notes. It was what I got:

- .../chimps, like porn actors who don't know how to think but how to reproduce...

- .../a police officer in civil clothes tries to follow me. I let him to get confused and lost away...

- .../I see some people gathered like in a TV show. It's something about a game of telling stories. They broke up the vessels. That way, there's no sequel, just 2 episodes...

- .../It's once again the creepy lady's house where I rented a room, it's mixed with one side of the stairs of my school. I'm playing with some cards on a drawing table. then I'm talking with one of my new neighbors who is testing me. Then he dives into the water that appears around the table. I see him getting back dressed in a Fred Flintstone costume. It looks similar although the feet don't match, it's like an inflated rubber costume. He pretends to push the table-boat using his feet to propel the way the cartoons do to move their cars. I laugh because of his feet got stuck inside the costume, at the end it gets deflated on the table with a pair of scratches in the feet, when the real Fred Flintstone jumps out of the water yelling his classic "yabba dabba doo". Then he propels our boat and his boat with that funny movement of the feet. I end standing on the upper side of the stairs which is adjacent to a window. I see from above a couple going upstairs, to the room which is one level down from my point of view. He looks like Woody Allen and he's talking about a test I have to take by killing somebody. That idea disgusts me, I see them reach the door and get in, my Aunt-mom lets them in. Next to me, there's a woman speaking something about Architecture. I realize she forgot to mention something about the walls. I see her graphic floating on the air, then she splits it in two, explaining something about its design. It's like a tutorial or some...

- .../I hit like in a post, then my wife asks me how could I do that if that's a racist post. I review it once again. It's on a newspaper which shows some pictures of a sad Batman comic. I scroll down the comment to read more. It shows a progression of pictures that lead to some UFO's flying on the pyramids. I couldn't like something like that! I should have read it all first, how stupid! Then I want to write an idea which should stand for something like "in order to dislike some facebook post, one must like it first". We are sitting on a table in a park. There are clothes racks with white sheets all around. I cannot write the idea on the paper. Then my wife tells me I have to hurry up because of the bus is coming. I try to write it down with no success. Then she stands up and goes to the bus station. I want to put all my things back in my bag, but it's all a mess on the table. I know I'm missing the bus and she told me she's leaving without me if I'm not ready. I see the bus, and realize it'll be impossible to put all the things inside the bag, I want to pick all things together up and arrange them in the bus, but my mp3 player and some other things are still on the table. I give up, I miss the bus, feeling horrible. I think I can reach the other station first but I don't know how. I leave the things fall on the floor, thinking for what should I do now. I think perhaps I should wait for her at home until she gets back, I'm confused...

* I go to bed, and as usual, play some Sudoku (hard level with diagonals) to fall asleep. I let an empty piece of paper next to my bed in order to write down my fast notes. I slowly fall asleep while holding the pen and Sudoku in front of me, I close my eyes...

- I see a sinking ship, then I decide it would be a great idea to write down this sort of imagery I see at the beginning. I turn and start writing about the ship...

* I realize I'm still holding the Sudoku and pen in front of me, then I turn and start writing some fast notes and go back to sleep. I leave the game and pen on a side, put my self comfortable and close my eyes thinking perhaps it's a good idea to start writing this fast notes since the very first moments...

- .../then if my brothers have the same chip, I must have it too...
- .../and it's because of they hit the like button just for the first seconds of the videos...
- .../I'm hearing the fast riff part of the song "It is Done" from Mors Principium Est...
- .../I see someone shows me a red thread cone to explain something I'm thinking. The cone is very sharp...
- .../two carpets together. One green and the other gray. There's a polishing head that cleans one of them. I see the heads spinning exactly in the border without touching the other one...
- .../long ago I want to update my DV signature with a spoiler with my dream goals. Perhaps I have found a way to remember these ideas that pop up from time to time just when I'm falling asleep and I don't remember during my WL...
- .../Hey, I can use the orange color for HH to write this in the DJ!...
- .../when you wake up and bring some dream fragment, which looks like a crispy piece of meat, the kids shouldn't touch it with their hands...

* Both kids are sleeping now, I don't hear no more playing noises coming from their place...

- .../I just want to make a sample of how it goes...
- .../Share your dream from last night in <one sentence>. The sentence could be used as the link text to the DJ entry to make it simple...
- .../when I woke up yesterday right after the dream from the "remotest memory", I remembered most of it but I didn't have something at hand to make a fast note or voice recording, of course! I must correct it...

* Then, it came to my mind the first recurrent-never-remembered-until now-fragment of a sequence of dreams, which brought me back a recurrent dreamscape which is a composition of all the city downhills of the former town where I lived... It's amazing to remember all those dreams... a lot of scenes cross in front of my eyes... those dreams were so vivid and were almost left into Oblivion...

- .../that's why it should be loaded the second section first. That way you don't lose the data when loading the first part in the second place...

* That was the last note before falling asleep...

.../I have one-wheel roller skates attached to my knees. I'm skating kneeling taking my little kid to the kindergarten. She has normal inline roller skates. I give her to her teacher (who's a woman I never saw in WL). There's something about Orange color...

* Wake up and write some fast notes, then go back to sleep...

.../I get to school at night, I'm wearing my school times clothing. I find a girl friend who I didn't remember long ago. I ask her about some twin brothers who studied with us because of I forgot which one of them was our classmate. One of them was in another class but I didn't remember who was who. She pointed who was with us. I see the other one at the basketball court, then I tell him: "Of course, you were in the other class because of the uglier from you was in our class". Then I follow the girl upstairs to our classroom. I see a couple of friends more. It's nice to remember them. Then I notice that my place is not free. I look for a free chair, put my bag on it and start singing "Set The World A Fire" from Megadeth. I realize my voice is a little bit creepy, it's funny, then I let it go...

* Wake up and write some fast notes, then go back to sleep...

.../I'm in a recurrent dreamscape enjoying the view, I'm getting to the peninsula which is called "island" by the locals. It's mixed with some ancient ruins. I hear somebody screaming there. I take a closer look and see a young man cutting some logs. I decide to go back when I see another man walking on the road. I prefer to keep my distance. When I turn I can see the roofs of the houses all tight together covering the hills in the sides of the road. The sight is very dreamy. Then I realize it! When I see a person getting closer, I decide to walk on the roofs to avoid him, the roofs are all connected with stairs. The man takes a short cut and climbs faster than me. He gets to the upper side of the labyrinth first, I just decide to go on climbing up since he doesn't seem to bother. I hear a local folk song, it's very sticky. It was the melody which long ago I was looking for, finally I hear something new! The lyrics are not what I expected, because of it's about the opposite team, although sounds really good and this time, I decide to let it go when I reach the roof of my grand parents' house. I sit for a moment to hear it clear. I climb down thinking about the different devil costumes I wore those three years. Then I put a bear dress on. I don't remember having pictures of this one, I have 2 kerchiefs in each hand, I notice I didn't do the blue one although it looks nice too. I see both my Dad and Aunt-mom (she took care of me when my biological mother passed away when I was around 2) getting in the old bakery to talk. I just don't want them to see me. I go downstairs while looking at the costume, I "remember" dancing with this. It was very fun, although perhaps I should take a couple of pictures now. Then I see my Dad absently walking, I evade him very easy...

Journal Entry Lucid #31-34 Dream,Lucid, (Comments)
Background:Finally finals are over and I can relax.

Lucid Dream #31, day: 04/29/14 time: 3:10-4:38am " Regular Joes have super powers too. ":
Context of the dream, people have super powers and are being recruited to join and train(I guess military).
I am in my garage,relaxing on a couch, the garage door is open. I see people walking in and out of my house with bags. I thought to myself this remind me of an apartment complex. The people look like teens somewhere around 17-18. Some of them flooded the garage. One girl was wearing lingerie and she start approaching me slowly. She said, "today I feel like I need some attention". I didn't want any attention so I looked at her friends butt. She got mad and left. I hear someone say no and they dropped their belonging in the street. I fell on the floor and it ripped a hole in road. I told them that I will get it for them. The cars were speeding like they were in the freeway. I backed away. I overhear a fat girl freaking out about having superpowers.
I realized it was a dream. I went to the fat girl and I told her that she has more power than she realizes. She started freaking out even more. I was thinking "they don't even realize they are in my dream." I started to look around. I am in a restaurant and nobody had food on the table. I spin again and I saw a women that had a burrito shaped like a purse or vise/versa. So, I flew over and I bit into her purse and it tasted delicious. For some reason it felt like a long time in dream and I felt hungry so I woke up.

Lucid Dream #32, day: 04/30/14, time: unknown" Def Jam Bobble head":
I was at a club of some sort. Purple and blue lights. I am walking in the hallway and I walk past the bar. I see a familiar figure, it was D-mob from def jam and boy did he have a big head. It was a bobble head. I hear the intro of the song "dum dum....dum dum". I did a RC but it failed. I said no way

this is a dream. I was laughing so hard though. He stopped and approached me. He said furiously, "what's so funny? Do find anything funny?" all while his head bobbled up and down. I cracked up in his face. He got mad and tried to swing at me. I dodged them while laughing. I all of a sudden got angry and levitated him. I then threw him through a wall. I knew what I wanted to do next but I saw a baseball and a cup, like bear-pong except it is with a baseball. I wanted to see how much control I have with telekinesis so I set it up. I Tk the baseball and I tried to make it in the cup fast, I missed. I levitated the cup back up and got the ball. I tried again a little bit more slowly and missed. Third time I painstakingly put it in slowly and I made it. I became happy and complete so I woke up. So I didn't do exactly what I wanted but it is ok I will get it.

Lucid Dream #33, day: 05/01/14 time: 3:10-4:45am " Maybe a lesson":
I am on a cruise ship. I am a balloon or I felt like one. I floated up and up. I see a dog next to me.
I realized it was a dream. I was now in my old church's bathroom. I walked out and went through the exit. I see a house right in front of me. I thought how strange. I didn't want to investigate at all. I just wanted to leave. It started sprinkling, I couldn't feel it but I could see it. I went up and flew about ten feet or second story of the home. I see a Japanese girl and her parents arguing. I tried to fly away but it felt like I was bounded by the house. The girl says to her parents, "I don't want to live your dreams anymore". I then could fly away and I sped off which woke me up. Maybe my subconscious wanted me to see what she had to say.

Lucid Dream #34, day: 05/02/14 time: unknown "":
I see a cop get killed and I wanted to leave the area. I am now in the backyard of my house. I then realize it is a dream
I walk towards the house to see my family. A car is in the middle of the yard. I used TK(telekinesis) to lift it then I launched it. I hear my parents inside. My dad is talking to somebody on the phone. For some reason I thought I was going to get valuable information so I stayed. I didn't get anything so I tried to fly out. I woke up.

- The most remote recall I have, there's a beautiful woman with me, I'm happy because of her presence. There was something about an animal, although I cannot exactly remember what it was.

- The announced visit takes place, she's with us and we are having a nice conversation. I give her a couple of hello kisses. At the beginning we are in my present days house, then the place turns into my grand parents house. I make some jokes about taxi drivers that finally make her laugh out loud. We are making comparisons between two societies, making jokes about how stressed people live in a big city. It's warm and I take my rain jacket off. My Aunt-mom and my Old-Aunt who passed away a time ago, appear sometime in the scene. My kids are playing here and there. In the middle of the conversation, I have a red plastic laser-sword in my hand, I absently play with it.

* She comes to visit us tomorrow.
* I don't remember her DC getting in a dream before.

Hey DV. I had two lucids in a single night a few days ago, I've just been to busy to post about them. I can't recall much from them, but I will say I'm glad because I had four lucids in one month, which is three more than I usually have. But all I can remember is flying in the first dream, and in the second dream I remember pulling an April Fools joke for the TOTM. I'm hoping my recall will get better, as well as my ability to stay asleep longer for longer lucids.

-I can barely remember I'm trying to put something into place but it's very evasive. I think there's something about a friend of mine and his cousin from my school days.

*Today my kids have the day off and as usual, they woke up very early in the morning.

Today, like yesterday I was really stressed and again I couldn't remember my dreams.

so, short DJ entry again. =(

Remembering went so good, but today I couldn't remember my dream. =(

I think I know what caused it, it was because I was upset/extremely stressed. In my mind I thought I was calmed down, but I probably wasn't.

Well I hope I remember my dream tomorrow.

Note: This is a part of a much longer dream, but this is the only part I can remember clearly.

The dream follows on from me and a group of people I don't know escaping a prison facility. We escape into a large mainly metal city, which has a very steam punk/futuristic look to it, with rusty brown buildings and smoke coming from vents etc. we are in orange jumpsuits, and are running from guards in black armour.
Note: I can kind of draw, so I will probably add sketches/illustrate these dreams at a later date.
After running away form a while I get separated from these two guys, and i make my way for quite a while, I manage to find a sort of futuristic police station and commandeer a flying ship (too hard to explain what it looked like) as I fly this ship away to rescue my friends, it transforms into a high tech steam punk glove that looks like a pointed foam finger, which I use to direct my flight over the city.
I land and lose the glove, as I find my friends chained in a line with other prisoners, who have been caught and beat up pretty bad.
I am caught as well and herded into a room where we are sorted into two groups, one group go to a normal prison because they were employed and had family.
I saw one of my friends from school was wearing a black jumpsuit who had obviously switched sides to work with the guards.

My group were to be sent to a lunatic asylum/test facility because we were unemployed and had no family that would miss us. We enter this facility and it actually looks pretty good, sort of like a luxury resort. I meet a girl from my old school and we start having a conversation about her favorite musician.
Then a woman walks in and orders everyone to get on the floor and put their hands on their head, adding that the first to do so would get $500. I comply, as does my friend, but there is a girl who is arguing and resisting the woman and the guards. The woman counts down from 3 and the guard executes her on the spot with a syringe filled with clear liquid.
Then we are told to sit in these seats, in rows like at a cinema. They were large, dark red and surprisingly comfortable.
I notice some more of my friends, all from different times in my life. I am called down to the front along with 5 or 6 other guys for the first experiment.

We gathered in a circle and we each held on to a large syringe in the middle filled with clear liquid. We were told to try force the syringe needle into the person opposite us, we all start pushing, and it's clear one guy is weaker than the rest as we target him.
The syringe punctures his neck, and I think he died from that. Then there was a second part of the experiment; we were told one of us will try to use the syringe again, this meant we had to decide whether or not to let go, because if we did, we could get injected. I take responsibility and make everyone else let go.
One guy is sweating and repeatedly glancing at the needle, so I break it off and put it in a bag, handing it to the guy in charge, feeling triumphant.

Date: Apr 28
Sleep Length: 5h

Note: I don't expect much recall the next few days due to substances that decrease recall.
Therefore I might try CAT.

This was another broken sort of recall. I can't remember a whole lot before I got lucid, but I still managed to do so, so I'm happy!

I dream I'm in a house, and this house's interior is actually quite large. It looks like it could quite easily hold nearly two-hundred people. There is a large "ball room" for lack of better term, and there are tables and people all over partying and having a good time. My friends are dancing and partaking in a very odd game, which involves you driving a cart across a track and then smashing into a wall(yeah I'm as confused as you are).

Rather than partake in that, I leave the room and go out into the hall. There're many rooms all around the area, so I decide to investigate. I look around for awhile, until I walk into a bedroom where my three or four friends are sitting around. The only two I know were there for sure were my friends Jason and Robert. The other two were possibly my friends Zaine and Brad. Anyway, they were looking at Magic: The Gathering cards together, and as I acknowledge them I realize am dreaming. I now leave the room and explore the house until I awake. Unfortunate, but it was still quite the short gap between lucids for me in awhile.

Note: This is the first dream in about 3 years in which I can feel 'touch'. Unlike 3 years ago, the sensation wasn't more intense than in wake life, it was pretty equal

Date: Apr 27
Sleep Length: 4h + 5h
Techniques: DILD + WBTB
Dream Summary:
(1) Yesterday I spent the whole day on DV, so of course I'm dreaming of DV. It was a house and there was a bunch of people doing sleep experiments and trying stuff. I decided I wanna do one of those experiments, so I went into a certain room. It looked a bit like a hospital, there were some beds and on the beds there were camels, huge camels, with some pillows on their backs. One has lost its pillow, so I gave it another one. Then I climbed on top of it. For some reason the whole room was underwater now. I had some glasses and decided to wear them, then I realized I can see very clearly underwater. Sadly one of those glasses broke and I couldn't see that well anymore. I kinda managed to destroy many glass in the room (unintentionally). People were angry at first, but then we all laughed about it. I think we were talking about the movie "Finding Nemo" then. That's my favorite movie for children.
Later when I wanted to go there was another group which tried this experiment. They were all sleeping and some of them were naked for some reason. I was curious, I wanted to feel the camel skin/hair, so I approached it and touched it. Then I've actually felt it. I guess I never feel in my normal dreams because I don't focus on touch so much. The reason I'm starting to feel in my dreams now might be Daytime awareness.
I also met someone who was surprisingly nice to me.
Vividness (1-15), Awareness (1-10): 5/2
Emotions: curiosity
Tags: DV, experiment, camel, glasses, underwater, breaking, touch

As I fall asleep, I practice visualizing and mentally exploring my "base". It has gotten more detailed as it has grown organically over time. I've only managed to reach it in one lucid dream, which was blurry and short, but... well, time and patience. I think part of my problem is that I tend to think of it as 'home', but when my dreaming mind goes "home" I end up in old apartments and bedrooms. I may need to rename/reframe it as something else, like Focal Point, or simply the Cottage. It will be a good springboard, once I manage to make it into a stable setting.

I've worked on visualizing it as I fall asleep at first not because I expect to have my first lucid dream there (there's a great deal of NREM before your first dream) but because I want visualizing that setting to become automatic for my V-WILDs later at night.

I've had a lot more success with V-WILD than anything else, although the dreams tend to be "fuzzier" - not sure why. They tend to fade quickly. I suppose it's something I'll need to work on.

My first few dreams... I don't recall them. I wake up. It's 7-8 in the morning and I don't need to get up any time soon, so I let myself start drifting off to sleep. I decide to try a WILD but I'm too sleepy to want to put much effort into it, so I decide to drift and latch onto the first setting that presents itself.

That setting is the store that I work in. It is a dreamlet that I am standing behind the row of cash registers. I am still mostly awake at this point, but I decide to go with it. I mentally "walk" out from behind the counter and start walking toward the market section of the store.

As I "walk", the visualization gains vividness and clarity. It begins to become more than merely a visualization, although it is not yet a dream. In the past, I may have tried to "push" it into a full blown lucid dream, but that mistake can cause the dream to collapse. I have learned to simply let it gently glide into a dream.

By the time I reach the center of the market, it has become a full blown dream. It's still "thin", though (hard to explain). I am standing in market. The layout has changed, though, and it's not the store I recognize. I'm standing next to an open refrigerated section with several shelves lined with cartons of fruit - strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, etc. The dream begins to fade a little bit. I run my hands over the fruit, trying to stabilize it. It doesn't seem to work very well. I remember that I need to engage more than one sense, and one of those senses is taste. I grab a strawberry and try to shove it into my mouth, but there is something like a force-field in front of my mouth, preventing me from doing so. I can't seem to put it in my mouth with my hand, so I toss it into the air and catch it in my mouth. It tastes how I would expect a strawberry to taste. I begin walking down the aisle, and the dream fades.

When another dream begins, I am no longer lucid, although I still have an instinctive feeling that what is happening is not "real", although I am not sure why.

I am riding in a small, worn wooden boat across a gunmetal gray lake, toward a barren shore. The sky is overcast and gray, and the lake is very flat and still. There is a man waiting for me on the shore. He is very tall and thin - almost gaunt - and dressed in odd-looking dull gray leather armor. There is a thick red woolen scarf wound around his shoulders, neck, and the bottom half of his face. He has messy black hair. I think of him as my cousin, even though he is nothing like any of my cousins in real life except for being very tall. I reach the shore and step out of the boat. The dream shifts and fades.

I later had other dreams, but they were fragmented and I can't recall them.