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+ (f) church, priest, service, altar under a protruding "ceiling"

+ outside on steep slope, my cat is fat, because it is walking to a place where there is free food. I see an outdoor market (where food is on the ground?) besides me on the slope. My cat is behaving like something is stuck in its mouth. I think it's bones. I try to pull them out, and I take out a small segment of what looks like a fish spine of a small fish about half an inch long. I wonder if there are chicken bones in its mouth, too, but it appears to be just fish bones.

+ playing chess on a crowded dining table, it's my move, pull board to me, the table is quite crowded with plates and things and I have to push them aside first before I can reach for the board and start pulling it to me so I can make my move. Our fingers are dirty from the food we're eating, and the pieces have sticky bits of food residue on them, we'll have to clean them later. I get a look at the position and I'm confused, there are weird looking things on the board, a lots of what look like olive pits are all over the board. I ask what those are and my opponent says they're pawns. These olive pit "pawns" are everywhere, I don't remember them being there before. There are large clumps of them all along his 7th rank (my 2nd rank) about to be promoted. There are also a full row of them on his first rank. Now I know he's cheating because pawns can never be on the first rank. I say "there's no way! My queen is in the center of the board and I would never allow you to get so many pawns so close to promotion!" I'm quite upset at the cheating and we exchange angry words.

+ S2's girlfriend L is messing around with the airplane and we're getting concerned. I see myself(?) sitting under the airplane. I see that L is causing the propellers/engines to spin around, which are getting close to hitting my head. This could also damage the airplane. We run to the plan and stop her and roll the plane back to its proper place in the room.

+ pour myself a glass of champagne (or some sparkling beverage) in a quick gesture (wonder if it will foam over the rim of the glass but it doesn't, I stopped pouring soon enough) and drink it from a large champagne flute while sitting at a counter in a large, open atrium (in a casino?). A dumpy middle-aged woman with big blonde hairdo come and sits near me. She has some hair sticking out of her nose. I wonder if I should invite her to my room, I imagine being with her and it's not really an exciting prospect.

+ at the blackjack table, playing a hand. I'm sitting in the middle, directly across from the dealer. The guy next to me on my left says he's already seen 3 aces come out. I get dealt (face up) and ace. I think there can't be any more aces. I have a $10 chip in play. I take hits, I'm getting small cards, I'm trying to add up my hand. Soft 13? I get dealt 3 more aces. Still a soft total? No it's like hard 15 now. Hey, how can that be [so many aces], I ask the dealer how many decks we're playing with, he says "two," I say "ok that explains it." He deals me more cards. He's waiting for me to add up my hand. It's definitely over 21, I've busted. I bring out a $3,000 bill and say I want to change it for more chips. The dealer says "changing $100,000?" and I get a sinking/scared feeling in my stomach. No way, that's way too much money to be gambling. I look down and no it's just the $3,000 bill on the table. I tell the dealer I want it changed into half $10 and half $5 chips. The dealer is having problems figuring out how to do this change. I try to imagine how many $10 chips that would be, then to divide the amount in half and to double it to get the number of $5 chips. I think I should give this suggestion to the dealer. At some point I wonder what the minimum bet is at this table and I look around but I don't see the sign.

I imagine a guy doing a trick with his cards to change the amount of his bet after he's been dealt his cards. He waves his hand holding the cards over his chips and picks up on of his chips with his thumb and hides it against and underneath the cards he's holding. I think that's why they don't let the players hold the cards any more.

+ I arrive back in a small town to interview the residents, it's for some documentary. I've been here before, numerous times. I'm in a beauty salon, and I approach two seated people. I know them both but I've forgotten the name of the one to the right. I start interviewing them. More DCs approach, they're somewhat hostile, they don't like me doing these interviews. I recognize some as the founders of a startup I worked for. They're upset because the town (company?) is not successful and don't like the interviews. I see one young man who I "remember" was an underdog in life yet he became the successful founder of this beauty salon.

+ (f) talking (to SaPav's mother?) about how once I fell into a tide pool and got all wet. I imagine myself trying to walk around a hole in the ground, I must have lost my balance and fallen in.

+ I've given a gift to SaPav [S2 classmate]: a large self-standing clothes drying rack. It's quite tall, it reaches to my eye level. S is really excited about this gift, and starts hanging all his family's clothing on it. I say in a foreign language [incorrect I think] that "you can also hang a lot of hangers on it!" and I run my hand through the dozen or so simple wire hangers hanging down from the wires on the right side of the rack. I look at the rack, S has hung up about 40-50 pairs of really brightly colorful men's briefs. They have filled the entire drying rack's surface.

+ in some campground, I call for my son S2 to bring me "some ice cold fresh water from the lake." He says that's a great idea and goes to get it in a bucket. I bring a dirty bucket with me but decide against that, I go back and see my Sierra cup on the ground and will use that to accept and drink the water.

+ I'm walking up a path that leads out of a building to outside. I'm talking to a female university student (behind me?), I say how I used to live in this neighborhood. We're walking up an outdoor stairway (over a small chasm?) leading to a theater. "And the great thing about this location is that you're so close to the theater!" This is the back entrance to the theater. As we enter the theater I hear a rehearsal in progress, we're a bit early. I wonder if they'll let us in to the seats yet. I hear two young women singing. They're supposed to be singing unison but they're not quite perfectly together. The very slight dissonance creates a lovely effect, more interesting that perfect unison. I'm wondering if we can go to our seats, (open a door, see a lobby?), (there are groups of young people hanging around here?)

+ (f) church, priest, service, altar under a protruding "ceiling"

+ outside on steep slope, my cat is fat, because it is walking to a place where there is free food. I see an outdoor market (where food is on the ground?) besides me on the slope. My cat is behaving like something is stuck in its mouth. I think it's bones. I try to pull them out, and I take out a small segment of what looks like a fish spine of a small fish about half an inch long. I wonder if there are chicken bones in its mouth, too, but it appears to be just fish bones.

+ playing chess on a crowded dining table, it's my move, pull board to me, the table is quite crowded with plates and things and I have to push them aside first before I can reach for the board and start pulling it to me so I can make my move. Our fingers are dirty from the food we're eating, and the pieces have sticky bits of food residue on them, we'll have to clean them later. I get a look at the position and I'm confused, there are weird looking things on the board, a lots of what look like olive pits are all over the board. I ask what those are and my opponent says they're pawns. These olive pit "pawns" are everywhere, I don't remember them being there before. There are large clumps of them all along his 7th rank (my 2nd rank) about to be promoted. There are also a full row of them on his first rank. Now I know he's cheating because pawns can never be on the first rank. I say "there's no way! My queen is in the center of the board and I would never allow you to get so many pawns so close to promotion!" I'm quite upset at the cheating and we exchange angry words.

+ S2's girlfriend L is messing around with the airplane and we're getting concerned. I see myself(?) sitting under the airplane. I see that L is causing the propellers/engines to spin around, which are getting close to hitting my head. This could also damage the airplane. We run to the plan and stop her and roll the plane back to its proper place in the room.

+ pour myself a glass of champagne (or some sparkling beverage) in a quick gesture (wonder if it will foam over the rim of the glass but it doesn't, I stopped pouring soon enough) and drink it from a large champagne flute while sitting at a counter in a large, open atrium (in a casino?). A dumpy middle-aged woman with big blonde hairdo come and sits near me. She has some hair sticking out of her nose. I wonder if I should invite her to my room, I imagine being with her and it's not really an exciting prospect.

+ at the blackjack table, playing a hand. I'm sitting in the middle, directly across from the dealer. The guy next to me on my left says he's already seen 3 aces come out. I get dealt (face up) and ace. I think there can't be any more aces. I have a $10 chip in play. I take hits, I'm getting small cards, I'm trying to add up my hand. Soft 13? I get dealt 3 more aces. Still a soft total? No it's like hard 15 now. Hey, how can that be [so many aces], I ask the dealer how many decks we're playing with, he says "two," I say "ok that explains it." He deals me more cards. He's waiting for me to add up my hand. It's definitely over 21, I've busted. I bring out a $3,000 bill and say I want to change it for more chips. The dealer says "changing $100,000?" and I get a sinking/scared feeling in my stomach. No way, that's way too much money to be gambling. I look down and no it's just the $3,000 bill on the table. I tell the dealer I want it changed into half $10 and half $5 chips. The dealer is having problems figuring out how to do this change. I try to imagine how many $10 chips that would be, then to divide the amount in half and to double it to get the number of $5 chips. I think I should give this suggestion to the dealer. At some point I wonder what the minimum bet is at this table and I look around but I don't see the sign.

I imagine a guy doing a trick with his cards to change the amount of his bet after he's been dealt his cards. He waves his hand holding the cards over his chips and picks up on of his chips with his thumb and hides it against and underneath the cards he's holding. I think that's why they don't let the players hold the cards any more.

+ I arrive back in a small town to interview the residents, it's for some documentary. I've been here before, numerous times. I'm in a beauty salon, and I approach two seated people. I know them both but I've forgotten the name of the one to the right. I start interviewing them. More DCs approach, they're somewhat hostile, they don't like me doing these interviews. I recognize some as the founders of a startup I worked for. They're upset because the town (company?) is not successful and don't like the interviews. I see one young man who I "remember" was an underdog in life yet he became the successful founder of this beauty salon.

+ (f) talking (to SaPav's mother?) about how once I fell into a tide pool and got all wet. I imagine myself trying to walk around a hole in the ground, I must have lost my balance and fallen in.

+ I've given a gift to SaPav [S2 classmate]: a large self-standing clothes drying rack. It's quite tall, it reaches to my eye level. S is really excited about this gift, and starts hanging all his family's clothing on it. I say in a foreign language [incorrect I think] that "you can also hang a lot of hangers on it!" and I run my hand through the dozen or so simple wire hangers hanging down from the wires on the right side of the rack. I look at the rack, S has hung up about 40-50 pairs of really brightly colorful men's briefs. They have filled the entire drying rack's surface.

+ in some campground, I call for my son S2 to bring me "some ice cold fresh water from the lake." He says that's a great idea and goes to get it in a bucket. I bring a dirty bucket with me but decide against that, I go back and see my Sierra cup on the ground and will use that to accept and drink the water.

+ I'm walking up a path that leads out of a building to outside. I'm talking to a female university student (behind me?), I say how I used to live in this neighborhood. We're walking up an outdoor stairway (over a small chasm?) leading to a theater. "And the great thing about this location is that you're so close to the theater!" This is the back entrance to the theater. As we enter the theater I hear a rehearsal in progress, we're a bit early. I wonder if they'll let us in to the seats yet. I hear two young women singing. They're supposed to be singing unison but they're not quite perfectly together. The very slight dissonance creates a lovely effect, more interesting that perfect unison. I'm wondering if we can go to our seats, (open a door, see a lobby?), (there are groups of young people hanging around here?)

I’m on the set of this new Jeopardy-like show. In fact, the set, podiums, and everything I see looks a lot like Jeopardy. It’s even hosted by Alex Trebek. The show is all about lateral thinking, and requires the contestants to link two completely different topics through a chain of related topics (kind of like the game show Chain Reaction, except less wordplay and more actual general knowledge). I was playing along in the audience for a bit, doing absolutely horribly. Then, I for some reason get selected to be a contestant. I’m incredibly nervous, and sure enough, I do horribly. My opponents are flying through the categories before I can even think, and though I do manage to get a few answers, I get completely blown out of the water.

The show finally ends, and I’m very eager to leave, as I feel like I’ve completely embarrassed myself. I make it outside the building, where two of my friends are. They tell me not to worry about it, it wasn’t really that bad. I look over to a TV next to me to see that they’re doing the scene at the end of every episode where the contestants stand and awkwardly chat with Alex about God knows what. Shoot, I think I’m supposed to be in there. I quickly run back inside, but the set is now completely devoid of people. The scores are still showing on the podiums, serving as a not-so-subtle reminder of my horrible performance.

I go over into the next room, and see Alex Trebek and what I assume are a few producers reviewing the footage from the episode. Alex has now changed out of his suit into a pair of navy blue sweatpants, a Dallas Cowboys sweatshirt, and a blue baseball cap. I find it slightly humorous, since he’s usually incredibly professional and fancily dressed. But not wanting to watch the tapes of my failure with them, I continue to move through the building.

I stumble across a couple kids who look like they’re in junior high school. They instantly recognize me from the game show and start to mock my poor performance. I try to tune them out as I keep going, but they follow shortly behind and continue to heckle me. The scene changes a few times, and each time they’re there doing something to me, either picking on me, messing with my things, or just generally being annoying.

Finally, I’m in some kind of park by a river. I’m running up this hill to find these kids with a firehose spraying a large jet of water into my open car. I run and try to grab the hose from their hands, but they run away while continuing to spray everything. I yell that there’s incredibly expensive equipment in there, but they don’t care. I’m finally fed up. I slam my hands into the ground and shout. “ALRIGHT, LISTEN HERE YOU LITTLE SH*TS!” I feel bad at first because I don’t usually cuss, but something about this seems right. Maybe a little too right. I suddenly realize I’m dreaming.

The kids still aren’t paying any attention. I close my eyes and build up the rage inside me until it starts to burn, literally. I let out a huge scream as my body combusts, and a bit of a shock wave comes out as my entire body catches on fire. I look up. They’re definitely paying attention now. Terrified, they start to run, but I run after them, seeking my revenge. I catch up to each one of them and teach them a serious lesson. I slam the first kid’s head into the ground (it sounds a lot worse than it was), and then kick the second and third kids into the river.

After the dust settles, I sit the kids down in a couple of lawn chairs and explain to them why they should stop acting like a bunch of stupid brats and actually get their crap together. I don’t remember exactly what I said to them, but they seemed to pay attention and receive it well. Also, I may have still been on fire, so there’s probably that too. And then I wake up.

Non-dream
Non-lucid
Lucid

Dream 1 - Moonwell of Love
It's almost like a game, I'm a character who seems to be stronger than everyone else. Everyone else is kind of a newbie. There's a girl who I'm with (although it's a 'game', it seems it's more like a real world with levels?) who I race to reach a moonwell. There are two moonwells, they resemble the moonwells you see in Warcraft. I reach one first, so she has to go to a different one. The water in it is blue and glows slightly, I wade into its shallow depths and feel my power being replenished... My mana is recovering, which I seem to have used earlier on in the dream. Almost like an announcement, something occurs saying that I've reached the stage 1 of the love blessing. The requirements were that you have to love someone truly and unconditionally. There are 6 stages and when you reach the end you attain special powers. Because everyone else is new I thought I was the first to discover this power, but I was apparently wrong. A man approaches and he is buff as, he apparently has the blessing of love and kind of seems like an enemy.

Dream 2 - Seeing old friends
I'm wandering down a hallway at school (so many school dreams O_O) and see a class with its door open. I peer in an see Hanno, and old friend . I strike up conversation, surprised that he recognized me after not seeing each other for so long. Some other friends show up and gradually I feel myself being pushed out of the conversation. I decide to leave to go to form class (a class just before period 1 begins to check attendance). As I wander out of the door I see Aditya, an old friend who shared the same form class, except he's HUGE now. He's really tall, and his body looks badly proportioned too. Like his legs were way too long compared to his upper body. We talk a bit and another friend shows up, this is around the point the dream ends.

Dream fragment - There's a school trip on today, it's occurring at my university Marine Science class where we have a trip to go skiing (not related to the class itself for some reason). But I completely forgot we were going on a trip, I thought we just had to meet up and do some test and then go home... I ended up realizing I wasn't wearing warm enough clothing and that I had no gear, like towels and a toothbrush so there was no way I could go no the trip. I approached my teacher and asked if she could step to the side with me for a private conversation, where I admitted embarrassingly to her that I hadn't prepared for the trip .

Dream 3 - First day back at school (yet another school dream )
It's the first day of school and I think I'm unprepared because I haven't got the right clothing on (green shorts, a black shirt with a thin black hoody and a dressing gown over top). I seem to have headed out to the streets around the school (which resemble the residential area of my university) possibly to get food. I start heading back and arrive at school, but on my way back (I was running for some reason) and spotted a girl I knew called Mikayla. She was sitting on the deck of persons house chatting with her friends, I decided to ignore her because I didn't want to intrude. I continue running through the school, not sure where I'm going. I pass a girl who looks like Mikayla who was hanging with another girl I knew, Rhiannon. I pass them and stop, then spin on my heel and yell out "Hey, Mikayla! Is that you?".
"Yeh, hey" she replies. Kind of seemed hesitant which was pretty lousy -.- we were best friends lol
"Did you dye your hair?"
"Yeh I did haha" this time she seems more interested, and we talk a bit more. But then for some reason we all like... Fell over? And they bumped their heads on a wooden seat and nearly knocked themselves out. I propped them both up against a wall sitting down to help them out. A teacher then shows up and WOW she was a bitch. She started accusing me of assaulting the girls! Couldn't believe it, I used my syllogism to figure that she had been told to be strict with students because it's the first day at school. She had a whole bunch of students with us now and we were all in trouble for some dumb reason. The bell went and I wanted to go to my 3rd period English class so I could get my bag which I had apparently left at the field camp in the previous dream fragment. We weren't allowed to leave though, because we were supposed to be getting on a bus to go to detention or something... She (the old bat of a teacher) ordered us all onto the bus, but for some reason I had the feeling she forgot about me and I realized I could just... Walk away . So I did.
I headed off to my English class, and a long the way I spotted my old friend Oliver from school. I had thought he had also been on the detention bus though. He told me that when we got onto the bus he went to the rear exit and hopped off without the teacher noticing haha. Sly dog. We ended up talking and just catching up with each.

This was perhaps one of my most interesting experiences yet when trying to lucid dream, and is possibly a sign that I'm getting close. This night was my 9th attempt.

As I was falling asleep, I completely unintentionally slipped into the WILD method. This happened as a result of allowing my thoughts to race, yet keeping myself on the edge of sleep and staying completely mentally aware. Without noting at all what just happened, I saw myself playing a game in my head - Counter Strike: Global Offfensive. I was lucid at this point, despite only being half-asleep, and questioned the future of how humans may later develop technology that allows us to play games in our minds. After getting a few kills, I ran down a hallway in the game with an assault rifle, and held a molotov to throw it out a window, but chose not to and re-equipped my rifle. I was hoping desperately for there to not be an enemy at the end of the hallway, and my mind was already getting petrified and frozen in horror, to something which I had no idea about, and only seconds later did I come to realise it - I was entering sleep paralysis. The visualisation immediately seized, and I felt my body getting paralysed and an intense ringing in both ears that grew overwhelmingly strong, supported by a type of wind-blowing sounds. Even though I knew that this could be turned into a lucid dream, the experience frightened me too much, and I therefore chose to abstain and wake up.

Later at some point after falling asleep again, I started to dream about being in my school at night. I was staring at a truly beautifully, illuminated moon at what seemed to be midnight. Then a few seconds later, I visualised a man swimming in a pool, looking directly at me and discussing the topic of lucid dreaming, making it go over my head without any notice. This was where it concluded for the night.

NON LUCID
*Trying on a very strange hat as my hair shapeshifts
*Seeing andre as a kid with a full grown beard
*Trying on a new high tech device that using eletricity for an anti-depression effect.
*Being shown this video of a beautiful furture like city, I was personally involved with the video somehow.


LUCID*I met with my old friend I use to live next to when I lived in The Reflections apartment complex. Shortly after running into her this random DC attempted to kill us with the gun he was holding. This all took place on a baloncy at night.

Had a long, confused dreams about a debilitating sickness slowly crippling me. Don't feel like writing about it here, but making the entry to keep both my private and public DJ consistent.

False awakening -
Awoke and started having sex with partner then....partner walked in room. Now there are 2.
I felt so uncomfortable guilty that I hid partner no.1 under covers
then real awakening came...thank god

WBTB attempted: 10:30 - 5:45 (7.25 hours) Felt first wave of heaviness/vibrations stage then lost awareness to a racing mind. I think I slept to long before I tried.

I was going to a new world with a bunch of people and we entered a beautiful valley with a bunch of people. It had a weird feel to it like it was a mine-craft world but much more detailed then that, at least for certain aspects (water). Me and Simon were the creators of the world and we were almost done making it. We were just setting up objectives now and putting hidden objects in tough places to be found by players. We were debating whether or not we should be putting the lamp in the mouth of the water fall (It was a mouth of a face, really cool look). Or the skull shaped rock. As we were talking Simon soon got fed up and launched the lamp up at the water fall with inhuman strength and accuracy. Here is where the dream got cool. The genie popped out and started busting a tunnel through the back of the the water fall, it shook the whole earth and he kept going into the valley walls and busting back out. The whole place shook. He passed under us like a mole and that was the height of the shaking sensation then I woke up.

So, I don't think I've ever had this happen before, where I waver in and out of a Lucid Dream. So, this entire entry is one dream sequence and there are times when I know I'm dreaming and then I forget and then I realize I'm dreaming again. I don't know if that's happened to anyone before, though I'm sure it has, but these are all DILD.

So, the dream started off in weird dream fragments, where I was showing off my new apartment to friend. At one point, it was super crowded with people and I was yelling at these hyper kids to go outside and play and then they turned into dogs and cats and I was trying to kick them outside. Then the apartment shifted into like a second story gazebo. There were people partying around me in the gazebo and people partying below me on the ground. I remember the floor of the gazebo kept shifting on me: one point it was solid wood, then it formed holes, then looked like a poorly made trampoline with a sandy, wood-colored finish. The ground was wobbly like a trampoline with holes and tearing at the seams, and I was trying to tread lightly so it wouldn't break; I feared that everyone was going to fall through. I think I LD'ed for a split second because at one point, I was trying to imagine the floor being solid wood to fix the shifting issue, but it didn't work. I don't know why I would be focusing on the floor if I didn't know I was dreaming. So, anyway...

It's nighttime now in my dream and I'm back inside an apartment instead of a wobbly-floored gazebo and I'm hungry for dinner. So, I decide to go get pizza hut. I'm suddenly inside a pizza hut and I guess I had called ahead because I just paid and grabbed the food (pepperoni pizza with buffalo wings and ranch!). I pause to check the bag and make sure that everything is in there. Then I start heading towards the front doors. There is a short flight of stairs leading to the front doors and I see a man walking in. The man was seriously handicapped. In real life, he would have had, at the very least, a cane to walk with. His hands were gnarled and deformed as well as his feet. He leaned to the side and struggled to walk. He was thin, tall, white, brown hair, and glasses. He literally looked like a walking Stephan Hawking. Seeing this man struggle to walk by himself broke my heart, so I went up to him and offered to help him. He appreciated the help and I let him lean on me for support as we walk together down the handicap ramp and into the line. The man told me that the reason he was so disfigured was because he had done hard drugs all his life: heroine, cocaine, meth, etc. The other people in line started talking trash about him once they over heard he'd been a serious drug abuser. "How could anyone live their life like that?" "That's what happens when you throw your life away." "No wonder he looks so messed up."

I was about to go off on these bitches (they were all middle-aged ladies standing in line), but the man suddenly became a young hippie woman with long curly hair (no disfiguration at all) and she started cussing everyone out in line. "Fuck you guys! You don't know my life! How dare you judge me!" etc. So, I figure she can handle herself and I'm walking away from the drama back towards the doors when I realize that "Hey! Wasn't that hippie woman a man I just walked to the line? What's going on here?" Then it clicked. "Ah! I'm dreaming!"

So, in my last journal entry from yesterday, I advised myself to focus more on the details of the dream before I start summoning DC's in order to make the LD last longer. So, I did. I looked around the pizza hut. I tried to read one of the hand made signs, but it read jibberish. I walked outside where it was nighttime in this big city. I'm trying to make out the details of the faces of the people that walk past me and I catch a big (I mean BIG) guy with a red shirt, shorts, his baseball cap on backwards, and I could tell he had a bit of facial hair. (In fact, now that I think about it, he looked like Phil from the documentary Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead) But when I look at him, his face is blurred out, like a censored person on a TV show. So, I run up to him, calling, "Sir! Sir! Excuse me! You dropped some money!" I just said that as an excuse for him to stop and let me get close to him. When I could clearly make out the details of his face, I moved on, confident in my control of the dream. I observed the city I was in: tall black buildings with purple, sinister clouds in the background and a storm coming through. It looked like it was going to be a nasty storm, but the sight was beautiful! Here's the best example I found online:



So, everyone starts running to escape the storm, so I run too. I turn a corner and it looks like the storm swept the edge of the dream because before me in the distance, it was nothing but thick black and purple smoke and from this smoke, people began forming and solidifying. It looked like they were running from the storm as well. So, I don't know if this was the edge of the dream creating DC characters or what, but I wasn't about to run towards it, lest I wake up. (Any thoughts on this btw??) So, I ducked inside a nearby building. It looked like a large office building, multiple floors and the ground floor was a large waiting room with plenty of chairs, couches, and people who'd also run inside to escape the storm.

Here, I think I stop LD'ing because I begin to think that I'm going to be spending the rest of the night in this building to wait out the storm. I find an empty couch with pillows where I could lay down for the night and a middle-aged white woman comes up to me accusing me of stealing the spot from her, that she was going to sit there and I was being rude by taking up the entire couch. I got so mad at her, I yelled, "Fuck off, bitch! There are plenty of other chairs in this room if all you want to do is sit!" I said, "If the room starts to get really crowded and there's nowhere else to sit, I'll move." And just like a spiteful dream, the room instantly filled up with people and I was forced to sit up and share my couch. So, I'm unwillingly part of some circle of women, all of whom were older than me, ranging from 30-45 years. I was clearly the youngest and I felt out of place. The women were just yakking away, chit-chatting about something or another and I was definitely uninterested. I was ignoring them, listening to my MP3 player and I knew they thought I was rude/snobbish because I wasn't participating in conversation. One of the women mentioned that she was a cartoonist or something like that and I lightly chuckled because I thought it was a cool occupation, but the lady next to me thought I was snorting at the woman and she started lecturing me. I suddenly perked up mid-haranguing. "Oh yeah, that's right!" I thought, "I'm still dreaming!"

So, I stand and stretch, about to explore the dream again, when I see the ladies are playing some poker game, gambling whatever they had on their person: Pens, nickles, granola bars, etc. So, I decide to play a hand for no good reason, just so they wouldn't find me a rude snob. I gamble my buffalo wings from Pizza Hut that I still had with me! I'm dealt three cards: 2 of diamonds, 2 of hearts, and 2 of spades. They were small and I immediately noticed that they were double sided, so everyone could see what everyone was holding. I even asked the lady, "We can all see each other's cards?" Like, what's the point in gambling? No one else had a problem with it and I had the best hand. I laid down my cards and yelled "Full House!"
which wasn't entirely true because the cards changed from triple 2's to a 7, 5, 2 of different suits, but I knew it didn't matter because I was dreaming and I decided to leave this pathetic game and start doing some dream stuff.

I actually took some time thinking about which character I wanted to summon, which I usually don't. I just shout out the first name that comes to mind. I couldn't decide if I wanted to summon Tomaki or my granddaddy. (Today is his birthday. He passed away when I was 7). Tomaki, for the record, is a shape-shifter, so I didn't put much effort in trying to imagine his form. I figured whatever form he decided to take, couldn't be a disappointment; it'd just be a surprise. So, I called out his name, "Tomaki? Tomaki, are you in here?" There was a staircase next to me and a figure began to descend from it. I remember getting antsy, waiting to see what form he would take, but when he approached me, I was disappointed nonetheless. He looked like an old, thick-bearded fisherman in a yellow raincoat and rain hat.



I slouched and said, "Tomaki, really? This is the form you're going to take?" and he said, "Yeah! Why do you keep doing this??" Like it's my fault the DC didn't come out right. -_- I think this happened because I was thinking about my granddaddy, even though the DC tomaki looked nothing like him.

I was wandering aimlessly in the swamps of the Zone, avoiding anomalies and mutants. I checked my inventory and saw that I'm low on ammo. I entered a building in an abandoned village. It was dark everywhere, I could only see the entrance. The building had wooden floor. Suddenly I became lucid. I told myself "This is dream." and proceeded with a nose-plug RC. It was cold, there was something wrong with that place. I wanted to leave it quickly, so I phased through the wall, but instead of coming out from the other side, everything went black. Shortly after I have awakened.

LUCID DREAM YAYAYAYAY

Okay, so first things first:

I was walking around the uni campus. Then I met Callie, from The Fosters. We went to class together, but I kept feeling there was something going on between us. We got to class and she sat somewhere. I was gonna sit behind her, but the seat was taken, so I told her I was gonna sit on the other side of the room. She followed me so we could sit together.

Then, we were supposed to work on a project or something, so I told her we could go to the aquarium of the campus. We went there and I took her hand. She actually smiled at me and it was super sweet. We walked around the place some more and I asked where she wanted to begin. She said she wanted to go to the highest floor and make our way back to the ground floor. I said okay, but she decided to go to the bathroom first.

Then her mother (Lena, also from The Fosters), who was also the teacher, ran into me and asked me if I wanted to see a new room they were working on. I said I would, so she opened a door. And there were frogs in there. She walked in, showing me around. And then a frog jumped at me and I freaked out, but I didn't to look stupid, so I slapped it away and ran to the door.

When I left the room, I was outside the aquarium and it was night. Lena asked about a couple of teenagers and I said I didn't know cause I don't pay attention to people all that much. Another The Fosters character, Mariana, was there too. We were friendly enough and Lena laughed and said oh you teenagers. And I was like "uhm, actually, I'm 25. But Mariana here is a baby, she's only 21".

And then. I thought "I haven't done a RC in a while now. But that'd be stupid. I know I'm not dreaming. Wait. Am I?" So I looked around and it hit me that YES I WAS DREAMING!!!

So I felt myself on my bed, knew I was about to wake up, so I let myself... uhm, be on my bed. I wasn't very corporeal and the dream wasn't too stable. But I made myself get out of bed, walk around it, until I was in front of the wall. I kinda went forward, thinking that I could go through the wall and find myself at a park.

The park was blurry and I was still aware enough of my real body. I figured I had to do the TOTM, so I shouted "ME" and it was a bit like chat (I was there for quite a while yesterday). Another me showed up and I was like "So what were you going to tell me?" and then the other me started yelling "FUCK YOU, YOU STUPID LITTLE FAGGOT, JUST FUCK YOU AND LEAVE ME ALONE" and he ran away.

I didn't care much about that and I knew I was about to wake up, so I shouted "LEA" and someone showed up. She didn't look like Lea, but she was supposed to represent Lea. We were kind of avatars and I wanted to declare my love to her, so the avatar me had a dialogue box and lots of symbols showed up there. I knew they were bad, but Lea just kept smiling. Then, she opened a dialogue box too and more symbols appeared. After she was done, she walked away.

I woke up and my bedroom looked way more brighter than it had been in the beginning of the lucid dream, which made me realise the dream was a bit more stable than I had thought.

Fragment: there was something about taking the subway? I dunno.

+ flying alien ship descending down to river from high in the air, searching for sister ship, see it up against bank vertical, many other ships appear then getting in the way of my landing in the river.

+ overflowing poop from toilet from a really massive dump, not my problem

+ intimate contact with girl

+ playing in orchestra: the key signatures are wonky, the key is Eb but the two other flat signs are missing from the key signature. The brass instruments are playing one note but I'm playing an e natural instead of an flat? There are key changes in the notes but they're not structured correctly.

+ people standing in formation and singing, I move to the counter and the guy who was first in line steps aside to the left and does something there.

+ drinking the drink (smoothie?) that many others drank before: the jug/vase is large and dirty I go to wash it. This drink has passed through the digestive system of countless people before us.

+ wife building bad roof, doesn't cover the edge of the building on the ground, the entire structure wobbles badly, thick rows of nails stick out sideways from the beams instead of being hammered down on top to secure the boards on top of the beams. The ceramic wire case will require welding, a special welding for ceramic. I hold the broken ceramic wires in my hand and fit them together, they go together well but will require the welding to hold them firmly

I went to a party and it was for something that I cant really remember but it was just a small get together and Buskis parents and sister were there and I was disappointed that he was not. After that we headed up heading out through this town and suddenly I was with a baseball team of which I was part of. We were heading down this long highway in cali that stretched for miles and had a winding snake pattern. the coach said this i where a bunch of start ups are started and the stops along the highway are cool. We stop at a field to take a break and there is a hill which blocks our view into a stadium. There are yellow bars that are hanging off the from of the stands which are facing away from the stadium (lol) I decide to jump up on them and climb. There were a couple cute girls close by and that probably influenced my decision as well as the coach talking about how yellow and gold the famous filed was. As I pulled myself up I started to fatigue and remembered that I had just lifted today (in waking life) and that risking my life wasn't the best idea when relying on the muscles I had just burned out. I made it to the top which had an object that I had to grab above in the pole ---(&&&)-- si I reached and grabbed above it as the older couple that was sitting right where I was climbing up got up and moved so they didn't have to watch anymore. The bars hunf off with an open slot so that a screw and bolt could be used on flat surfaces. I put a couple fingers in there and prepared to hull myself over, remembering that if I failed I fall and most likely break my neck or leg. I then woke up, I never did clamber over the top. My heart rate jumped skyward as I woke though and my chest flet like it was getting a beating from inside. deep THUMP-UMP THUMP-UMP

I was in a room and there were a lot of dc's tasense then the lastthe form of a lot of my family members. But i knew they werent. None of them seemed good. They were trying to make me believe thier ways and told me if i keep going on thinking how i am they would Take my identidy and prety much make sure im a laughing stock and kick me out of the land. This did not seem right.
I don't remember what happened but I was kicked out. Then a big storm fell upon them. The looks of the sky was unlike I've ever seen I can't even begin to explain it. When I saw this I began to sing open the eyes of my heart lord open the eyes of my heart I want to see you. When I did that it began to hail huge shaterd glass hail.
Their was a pick up bed cannapy conveniently open for me to go in. I went in and continued to sing. As I layd my head down coverd my self with a blanket that was also coveniently there and dosed off.
When I woke I was being driven some where else. It was pure sun shine. The place there felt good and full of happiness. Then somthing happened I don't remember. I know I went some where else like on a mission it felt I was on.
This part don't make sence but it makes more sence. I was in a room with a bunch of people again. None of them seemed good. Exept two was with me that was good this time. We were watching somthing on a TV the people there was supposed to perform a live event on the TV for us to bare wittness to some how.
They played somthing but stopped and rewound it and then edited it to them messing around with snakes. so we would not know what actually happened. But I seen the flip And I started to object and say that's not how it happened I saw what you did they all looked at me with an evil glare.
Then I turned to one of my friends and asked did you see that. He said nothing then I went to ask my other friend but he was turned to ash. Then I looked back at them and said somthing but I don't remember what but I know I was talking in my sleep saying it. The last thing I remember saying if you are truely a man of God you will let me go. Then I woke up.

End
Notes:I prayd despritly before I dosed off. the very first dream I had after an hour in a half I had this dream. I ask god to show me guidance. to show me what he wanted me to know, in my dreams for those visions speak loud. So that I may know the real truth. In
my theory maybe this was symbolic meaning for what I was studying the night before on if I should believe it or not. The history of the christians. How it was said that a group of christians violently attacked other groups of christians and imprisened them for what they believed in and burnt there books untill nothing was left of them. Leaving them able to edit thier own to what they believed.
You know how jesus says turn the other cheek and love your enemies and your neighbors as your self. Why did this group seem to not follow that What does this really mean look it up. It could be in other theory with out the prayer my mind filling info. But with this strong feeling I put into the prayer makes me think other wise. And for it to be so strong of a dream and the very first one I have also makes me think. Like im sorry but I have to show it to you this way for you to understand and feel the meaning.
Although it's tottaly OK I can take it I'm not afraid any more. I do not walk alone. If at all I am an open minded person. My mate suggested it could have been a spiritual attack. Maybe it could have been both or all three But I point out what I said. Before how strong I felt that prayer was. I know I will be able to confirm some day but untill then this is highly noted.
Also note I don't usually yell or speak so loud out loud when I dream. My mate was in the next room and could hear me off and on for an hour. Weird I need feed back pls any one. I hope it was just a file but if not what then huh. And anyone who says anything might be like my friends in the dream they ether don't say anything or they turn to ash."disappear " also note I don't tottaly believe this but I know it has some meaning to it or somthing its weird.lol