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Found myelf driving a fire engine. I had a friend and her children with me, we had to get to a large exercise of some sort and I thought it would be a fun thing to do. It was the middle of the night. The address we had to get to was on my mobile phone. I asked my friend to read where we had to get to from the mobile phone but all she did was ask why I hadn't checked before we set off and why we were just following the fire engine in front, and refused to tell me where we were going.
I had to stop so pulled off into a side street, then I woke up.

Still have no idea if this was a lucid or not, but I'll post it anyways.

For context, earlier in the night I had a nightmare or two. (I forget the details). When I woke up, I remember thinking to myself, 'Yay, nightmares! Nightmares means I'll be more likely to have lucid dreams'. I had just read that natural lucid dreamers tended to have them because of nightmares as a kid. Anyways, I promptly fell back to sleep.

Then, I dreamt another dream (don't remember this one either, weirdly enough). Supposedly around the end I thought to myself, 'Wait a moment, I'm dreaming.' Or something like that. I didn't perform any RCs (I never got in the habit of doing that), but I thought repeatedly, 'Am I dreaming? Am I actually aware that I'm dreaming? Let me make sure.' and stuff like that.

Finally convinced that I did all that I could to ensure that I wasn't just dreaming about being aware that I was dreaming, I started to move around in this weirdly grey void. This is weird because I have really good recall, and my past 1000+ dreams have been super vivid visually.

Tactically, however, it felt really weird. Kind of like I was in a different state. I was super aware of my movement, and so it felt 'dense'. I don't know how to describe it. And it felt like I could easily slip out of this state.

Anyways, I decided to wake up after a minute or so because it was really weird, new, there didn't look like there was much else I could do, and I wanted to tell people about it. I'm not sure if I actually woke up or had a false awakening, but if I actually woke up I must have thought that it was too awkward to use my phone for some reason. Then I had a few more dreams and woke up in the morning.

Did I have a lucid dream, or did I just dream about what my mind pictured a lucid dream would feel like? I don't know, but I figured I'd record it as one anyways. If I have another one, I can see if it feels similar. I call it the Schrödingers dream because was it a lucid, was it not? We will never know.

This was strange indeed. My parents were gone from our house and I remember I was trying to get into some kind of safe in their room. Except it looked like it had a normal dial combination padlock. Ironically, my parents have a locked closet in real life that they hide all the delicious snacks in, and I totally know the combination. (Shh, don't tell them.) But either way, it was the exact same combination in the dream. 17-47-11

How did I remember it in the dream? That's what really confused me. It could have been anything else, but it was the right combination.

I eventually got into the safe, but my parents came home and I had to close the lock and go out into the kitchen.

Things were different now. The power was out, and the house was very cold. There was even snow in the house. I remember opening the door to the stairs and seeing the snow sloping off the stairs, like it had fallen there somehow.

I went upstairs to turn our air conditioner into "heat mode" somehow. But of course, it's an air conditioner, so there's no such thing as that mode. It got warmer, but then it got cold again.

My parents left once more, and I was able to get in the safe and get cookies.

Also, they were really delicious.

Dream food is great.

Non-dream
Dream
Lucid

Dream 1 - Killer
It seems to be night time in an urban area with large business buildings towering around. I think I killed a couple people on the streets, I have no memory as to why but I think I was doing to serve justice. Things get a little panicky, I mean... I apparently just killed someone. So naturally I seem to try run away, I run into one of the business buildings and take an elevator. I feel like someone is chasing me. I make it back out on to the streets somehow and catch my breath a bit.

Dream 2 - How long does it take to make a hot chocolate
I'm at a school or something, I can remember vaguely the layout of everything but it's impossible to describe. I'm hanging out with a couple guys and girls. I remember making a hot chocolate, I had the powder in it and poured hot water in and stirred... Then I drank it and felt powder. Looking down I realized I hadn't managed to get all the powder to dissolve. So I tried adding more water.This went on for an outrageous amount of time. Doing stuff like reheating water... I think one of the guys was dressed wrong, he was actually a girl in disguise which she kept a secret. We were handing out fliers and this song was playing.. For some reason it's a 'Fun Girls Power' theme song playing in the background O_O my god it was quirky. Also entirely original . While the song was playing a montage started happening which was completely irrelevant, there was a picture of a girl with silver hair which was another friend of ours too. The montage seemed to resemble school life if I think about.

NON LUCID
*Working in South Korea for a large corporation

The dream started off with me getting on a cruise ship (just some background info I'm going on a cruise in a couple of days so this explains this dream), once everyone was on the boat we headed out to sea, the boat was not as large as a normal cruise ship and looked more like a fancy 1 deck boat. We headed out and saw this massive tidal wave coming right for us and we were heading straight for it! This colossal wave crashed into us and everything went black and I was being careful with my breathing and trying to see when I couldn't breathe and even though I was totally submerged in water. Next thing you know I'm looking for my iPad some reason to see if it was broken and someone comes up to me and says its going to have a massive crack in it after that, I then look at it and its completely fine. My dad comes up to me and says it was a good idea you brought it so you can do your RE assignment?! We are still sailing out to the edge of the water and hit this blackness... it is space? We sailed off the borders of Earth up into space, when we were up there the planets were massive 2D shapes, Jupiter was a giant massive red circle and the moon was giant as well with white craters, this 'space' looked like a kindergarten drew it XD. I even saw something that looked to be like a blue telephone box. We then come out of space and go back to Earth through something that looks like my garage, It was all black and I was holding my breath and waiting for them to close the garage door so I could breathe and get back on the boat but I could breathe the whole time, we got back on the cruise, cruisin' along and made it back to shore.

Semi-decent WBTB gave me good viviness but zero lucidity. Let's try that again shall we.

I'm with my mother in her car, and we're traveling through the contry. It's very peaceful, everything is sunny and the forest are lush and bright, deep green. We talk about someone I'm worried about IRL*, and on cue we're trying to get out of a hospital parking lot. It takes some maneuvers but my mother manage to get us out and back on the peaceful road. We reach a small twon, build on a steep hill. All the house are in old, weathered beige stones, with red tiles roofs and accent of potted plants and bright drapes. The road are paved with stones of the same color that the houses. Some of the houses are linked together with small aisles and overpass, it looks lit the town grown on itself over the years, becoming quite maze-like. I walk in a house and go up some stairs to enter another house, where the very old owner agressivly throw me out. I smell smoke, and see that the town hall is on fire, emitting a thick yellow smoke.
There are children running from it and firemen running to it, I join them to steer the reimaining children away. One of the fireman thanks me, and ask for my help to do the same with dogs trapped inside. The smoke is suffocating but I try, and soon there's dogs running everywhere. I don't recognize any of they breed, but some are clearly overzised. One of them, lanky in build with dark shaggy fur take a liking in me and follow me around, giving me doggy kisses and rubbing against me.

*The engineer I worked with during my training period. He gave me some new recently and things aren't easy for him.

So I was at this weird place, it was like a huge patio. I had to hide from those big... tripods. I've just finished a book series, Tripods, and then I started The 5th Wave, so I guess I've been a bit... affected.

Anyway, I hid from the tripods because I knew they were bad aliens. As I was trying to find a place to stay, I ran into the twins from The Fosters. They were staying inside this really tiny, ugly, dirty bathroom*. Jesus wasn't really all that happy to have me there, but Mariana convinced him to let me stay.

After a while, we left and there were lots of young people around, unsure of what to do. We had our phones, but I knew that our numbers weren't ours anymore, because... somehow, we were in the future? So I left and I ran into this group of adults.

Angelina Jolie as Maleficent was there. The group was sorta judging her? As in a trial, but in a park. The leader said that she owed them the spell/potion for eternal life. She laughed and said that it would never work on him, since he was old, fat and ugly.

Then, she got serious and said that we needed to protect the kids. That if we ran into kids asking for food, we should give whatever we had, even if it was little, cause there were kids everywhere trying to live on their own after the alien invasion and they'd probably all be starving.

After that, she also reminded us to take care of the dinosaurs. She pointed at them and I saw three weird... things... trying to get away from the ropes that were holding them to trees. It was hopeless, they weren't strong enough.

So I walked away and I found some "soldiers" being mean to starving kids, even beating them with a chain. For some reason, I took charge of them and decided to beat the soldiers with their chain, to teach them a lesson.

*Yesterday, I had decided I needed to do a RC whenever I went into a bathroom. I actually forgot to do that, both in real life and in the dream. So. I need to get on that. It's obviously a strong dream sign. BATHROOM = RC

I had two very short LD's last night attempting to summon a favorite character from a book series I read called the Bartimaeus Trilogy. For the past few days, I've been telling myself that I was going to summon Bartimaeus as a character next time I LD. I've been looking at potential photos, trying to really get the image down in my mind.

The first dream, I can't remember the story leading up to the LD, but I do remember walking down this dark road in a forest, I was trying to fly, or take off flying, but then I suddenly realized that I was dreaming and instantly I start doing a little happy dance like, "Score!" (I'm super excited about this btw! Ever since I began making this a focus, I've been LD'ing more often, which was my goal). So, I remember that I'm supposed to focus on Bartimaeus and I'm trying to picture him coming down the road, while I'm hovering above ground on a...towel. But he doesn't show up. I immediately loose control of the dream and right before I wake up, I have a short dream fragment of me flying in the air with Bartimaeus next to me in the form of a cicada.



I had several dream fragments in between, nothing memorable. At one point, I woke up and rolled over to my side facing the window and I enter into a nonlucid false awakening. I opened my eyes and looked out this small window of light surrounded by darkness and in the window, all I could see was a tree branch surrounded by daylight, so I thought it was time to get up and start my day. I put some shoes on and grab a bicycle and start pedaling down the road, but it wasn't my usual road. It was the route I used to take to school back when I was a kid living with my parents.

So, I'm pedaling to the nearby woodsy park and I'm biking around this family who'd stopped to take a picture of themselves. It was an elderly couple with a child and a college-age red-head, daughter. So, I'm pedaling past them, but the daughter is running to keep up with me. I turn back behind me for some reason and I see the rest of the family collapsed on the ground. So, I run back thinking they're dead or fainted, and I call after the red-head girl, who turns out to be Lindsay Lohan, to notify her of her fallen family, and she says, "Aw, man! My alarm clocks are broken again!"

I was so confused. "Alarm clocks?" I asked. She said, "Yeah, they're not dead. Those are mechanical people." So, I'm helping Lindsay carry these "alarm clocks" back to my house so she can get them repaired. As we're hauling these mechanical people up the road, I call my Granny P (ha! remember her from the last dream?) and let her know what's going on. I even call my mom she knows to expect me and Lindsay carrying these bodies up the road.

The road we're going up is called Haltom Rd. Along Haltom Rd, are brick walls that separate the street from people's back yards. Lindsay and I pass by this area on the ground where there was a ton of different fruits: strawberries, oranges, apples, grapes, fruit of all different colors. So, I tell Lindsay that we can't pass up this opportunity! That we've got to take this home. Just wash them in the sink and they'll be good to go! So, we start collecting all this fruit in our shirts and these random bowls that appear out of nowhere. (Don't know where the mechanical people went.) All of a sudden, one of the brick walls open up like a door and some Willy Wonka looking man steps out, accusing us of stealing his fruit. Lindsay and I look at each other, drop the fruit, and run.

So, this strange man and some of his goons are chasing us down the street. I turn a corner to try to loose them, which I did, but all of a sudden, I was lost. I could not figure out where I was on a map; nothing looked familiar to me, but everything was detailed and vivid. Then, I suddenly realize that I'm dreaming! "Yes! Score! Twice in one night!" I think to myself. So, I try to summon Bartimaeus again. I sat down on this grassy area and watched the road like a hawk, waiting for him to appear. But he walked up behind me with some other young boys and sat down in the grass in front of me. For a second I wasn't sure if it was him or not because the "handsome youth" form I'd been focusing on was a little distorted, but then I asked, "Is this the best that you can do?"

"Yep," he said. And I woke up.

Non-Lucid
Lucid

Fragment:
I was at a hotel, in the pool. I had my phone with me, which was weir since I was swimming. Somebody commented on it.

I decided since my birthday was soon, I should throw my phone in the water, so I could get a new one. After I threw it in, I picked it back up out of the water in about 3 seconds. I turned it on, it still worked.

I dropped it again and let it sit for about 10 seconds. It still worked.


Dream 1:
I was in my Physics classroom, doing a presentation. I don't remember what I was presenting. After me, two other kids went up. Something from my presentation caused the board to blow up, and the two presenters completely vanished.

Nobody seemed surprised or anything, like this was a common occurence.

Dream blurs, I'm going to get something in the classroom.
A kid sitting down says, "you're a b-a-d-a-u-s.."
"Badass, you mean?" I asked.
"Oh yeah, that."

I was going to the bus loop, I had to take the bus to the airport since
we were flying to St. Louis.

I couldn't find my bus, and they were starting to leave. I flagged somebody down and asked what bus to get on.

"269", he said.
Bus 269 pulled up, but it was just a golf cart. She drove me to the airport.



Fragment 2:
I was playing a game. A new item was released with only 200 copies available, and it cost $10000. I decided to buy it, trying to profit off of it.

I'm sitting in some bleachers. I look to my right. I see a girl with a hat on. I try to picture my girlfriend in the dream but I think to myself, this isn't my girlfriend...

I'm in a car going somewhere with a couple I sort of know. I would probably never get into a car with them in waking reality. The girl is laughing at what seems to be someone outside the car.

In the second part of the dream I think that this would have been a cool way to meet myself for the task of the month for October...

I was walking through this old castle and there were cells all along the hall way. I was walking with the queen who was wearing all black and walked like she had something up her butt. We were making our way across the second floor and there were windows on our left that only let in a small amount of light. It was cramped because to the right of us, not more then a couple paces away, the cell bars stood looking all the woman( there was only woman prisoners lol). I was becoming increasingly agitated at the situation and as we made our way out into the spacious main hallway I grabbed the closest guard and ran with him down the stairs. He was flung over my shoulder and as soon as I saw another guard coming up at me I launched myself with my slung guard and landed on top of both of them. I then ran to the great hall which had a lot of people who had been let out of their cells to make and serve lunch. I ran in and the chaos began, I was grabbing candles (convinced there was something about them that would insure the escape of the prisoners) and I hauled them to the first floor cells. My grandma came around the corner from the cells and said she was proud and smiled a lot, she then walked away as I smiled at her and then went past to continue the rescue but woke up.

I'm standing on a wide staircase that's outside in someone's backyard. I'm standing in the center of it. Above me are a group of people gathering together and I'm sure they are talking about me and laughing at me. A couple members of my family are a part of the group. I'm annoyed but not quite mad enough to yell at them or doing anything about it. I think, “screw them!” I turn around quickly and look below me. At the bottom of the staircase is Hoya. I look down at him and he looks up at me. We both smile widely at each other and while looking at him, I scream at the top of my lungs, “ THREE - TWO - ONE!” He immediately yells back, “NAEKKEO HAJA!” We then run to each other , hugging and laughing as we sing the whole of "Naekkeo Haja" as loud as we can.

+ first waking: no concrete recall, definitely dreamed but couldn't move beyond vague impressions

busy mind. Calmed it with modified SSILD (fogelbise style, all senses per one breath)
got back to sleep!

+ (LD#149) I'm on a bus. Sitting in front of me is a girl and (her family members?). My hand is one the back of the chair. She's wearing an open-backed shirt and my hand is really close to touching her skin. I think about brushing my hand against her skin "accidentally" but I don't. The girl then turns around fully, kneeling on her seat and seems to be looking right at me and starts talking, but I figure out she's talking to her "sister?" who is right behind me. (The girl in front of me has red hair & blue eyes?). I glance behind me and see the sister, she seems to be a twin of the girl in front.

I decide to do some "stuff" hidden by blanket on top of me. At one point something comes in to view briefly and I wonder if the girl behind me sees it. I cover up with the blanket again.

I look up and see a reflective mirror strip near the ceiling of the bus. I look into it and see a row of girls a few rows back. 2-3 of them look like identical twins (like the sister), and one more of them looks similar enough to definitely be a sister.

(discontinuity?)

I look forwards and notice that the girl and her family who had sat in front of me had moved across the aisle, I think they moved away from me because of my "stuff." There is another family sitting in front of me. I notice I'm sitting next to a girl on my right, rubbing shoulders with her. I turn to look at her, placing my right arm over her seat back. I get bold and lean down/over and kiss her. I'm lucid now and I say out loud, "I'm dreaming." I continue to kiss her, several "smacks", lightly pulling on her lips a bit for the sensation, feels totally convincing, and I fade to awake.

Very stoked about the LD. Get my self calm again with SSILD and am just about asleep again when I get a phone call, and then get up for the day.

I'm at my friends place, he's playing a board game. We're in a laundry room in the basement, there is a window at the edge of the far wall where grey daylight comes in. The board games has something to do with whales. After rolling some red dice a few times and getting predictable results my friend talks about getting new dice. I tell him of some new dice I've seen that look very futuristic and we go into an in-depth discussion on how they might be off-balanced. I suggest 3D printing a tester die just in case.

There is some confusion about how the game is supposed to progress, I forget what the situation is and what I should be doing. After my friend informs me, a bit annoyed, where I should be on the board (I have a whale piece by the shore that is attacking another piece) I roll and see if I am able to proceed. Another person I know is there as well.

I turn and see two old women sitting on a wooden bench through a large window on the wall behind me. They are just sitting there, being old women. I turn around and see the game has turned into a kind of Jenga-type thing, there is a cube of made of bricks. I try to pull one out and the whole thing collapses, I feel a rush of shame.

As we are packing I talk to my friend about playing Magic: the Gathering at some point, enthusiastically expressing how much I want to play it. I remember that I might have ruined the surprise of his surprise party.

I take my bike back, I'm walking through the place where my friend's sister lives, it is pretty foggy. I talk to my friend Micheal for a bit before going off on my bike. In the middle of the road I see two hedgehogs on tip of each other. I break quickly and look at them. Are they fighting or having sex? In any case, it's dangerous for them to do that in the middle of the road. I try to scare them back into the bushes but they seem pretty unafraid of me, still totally connected. I go to their other side and start to wave at them, they slowly head into the bushes, still together.

I walk down the path a bit and see two more hedgehogs sleeping by the side of the road. I look at them with great interest, I admire their quills, so long and sharp. I hear someone coming up behind me. Two people pass me and startle the animals, one of them is Ron Burgundy from the Anchorman movie.

I walk away between two concrete apartment buildings. It's night now and I drive through the unfamiliar streets. Am I deep in the east side of the city? I drive my bike down narrow pathways in an industrial area, not sure where to go. I enter a building, still on my bike, looking for a way out of this maze. It's even more cramped here, tables and chairs, stumbling in the dark.

I decide this was a bad idea and head outside again. Biking, I see another person walking toward me, I'm alarmed at first, what is he doing here? He passes me by with no incident. I continue to make my way.

I'm in an inky blackness, can't sense anything. There is only a realization. This is a dream, this is a dream.
A familiar excitement rises in me from my toes to my stomach. I know I can't get too excited. Suddenly in front of me a school appears. It's a red, brick school, a wing of it stretches to my left. It is a foggy day. I walk toward it, looking at everything, studying and examining, everything is hyper-real. Bricks, windows, the asphalt. I look into the window to my left and see my reflection, it is as I would expect, even my hair looks dopey as usual. Walking down I see a woman teaching a class of children, their faces as distinct as the "real" world. I enter the school, dazed, I don't know what to make of this, what should I do?

The hall is lit with a yellowish light familiar from childhood. I turn right and walk down the hall. Things get fuzzy, I feel things slipping away. I know I must take action and I begin spinning in a circle to stabilize the dream. I see the lockers on the sides of the walls. The dream begins to feel stable again. I turn to see a balding man with glasses, a teacher, walking out. I look into the room he left, it is a small room with a window at the top edge of the far wall. Something like a bathroom, but there is a bed there. It has a 70's style quilt on it.

I leave the room and go down the hall in the other direction. I meet two teenage girls sitting on a bench to the left. I hear them talking. The dream destabilizes......