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This is Shadow the Hedgehog

I had a dream that involved me in an environment quite similar to the apartment space I live with my mother. It was warped in a way that the area inside (my room and living room) were much larger in space and taller in height. My mother told me to get the mail which I did even though I didn't want to and was completely annoyed. I went and got it and gave it to her. She was on the phone chatting to her friend and making comments about how worthless I was and my failure at my previous college and when she looked at the letter and she saw that it was about my other college I applied to and saw I wasn't accepted, she criticized me for it.

However it happened, the next moment I was sitting on the couch with her as there was a TV playing some reality type of show of a guy in a lab coat wearing goggles. It mimicked that of the same scenario in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory with the lab room and transportation of a chocolate bar. The guy from my dream had amiibos, one with Samus in a top hat (much like the video of one from YouTube that I cannot find right now) and one of Sonic the Hedgehog. The scientist spoke about bringing them to life and he did so by inserting their information into some device that brought them up onto his television screen. Eventually, Sonic was standing out of the TV set, spouting the same phrases as he usually does and the crowd behind the scientist grew ecstatic over it.

I was bothered by it, I knew that I didn't like people who spoke or did stuff dealing with anything Sonic the Hedgehog related since it never seemed to go down the right path nor resonated well with me. It was also something I passionately connected with and seeing that made me feel awkwardly torn. I wanted to go hide in my room and my mother, knowing how I felt about it, started an argument with me. She said stuff like, "Stop being weird!" "Stop acting like a baby!" but I ended up locking myself in my room anyways blocking the door with some sort of umbrella shaped object. (Here comes the most vivid part of the dream) I can remember feeling a strange breeze as if the window was open. I then could see Shadow the Hedgehog. Much more dark in appearance, so dark that his face became almost impossible to register. Shadow's fur was very much slicked down in a somewhat jet black glossy finish. He was standing around half my height and he looked emotionless and almost lifeless, very still like a statue perhaps. Think of it like a ghost/spirit from a horror movie that stands in front of you movement-less. My dream self knew he was alive though but I was too afraid to act since I didn't know what he would do.

Next thing that happened in a split of a second, I was in his arms, carried in a bridle position. Shadow was perched up on the windowsill of my room as he opened the slider mechanic underneath. I looked out to see a large crowd of people. Civilians, paparazzi and news reporters and even the police. They had guns pointed at us ready to shoot. I didn't feel afraid at that moment though, strangely. I looked up at Shadow and I could see a smirk form upon his muzzle as I caught a glimpse of his teeth.

Anchoring himself along the sill, he pushed himself forward over the crowd of people keeping his grip tightly on me. Then I woke up back into the waking world.

• Notes — I figured this dream was reflecting the negative parts of my life (more so currently happening) and how I always wished I could escape and leave this planet. Shadow, being someone I wanted to fulfill my wish, it's no surprise to me for him to appear and carry me out from the apartment. In the end, I will say that the ills of my current life are still a main focus in my mind but the chance of being able to achieve the desired freedom is still in reach of hopes.

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• Date— 1/12/2016

• Went to bed — 2:30AM

• Woke up — 9:50AM

*Time logged — 9:52AM

• Total sleep — +8 Hours

• Stress level throughout the day — Moderate (I kept having flash backs of past events from being cyberbullied and discriminated in physical life but nothing that brought me into tears)

• Techniques/Practices —

*Daytime — Reality Checks, daydreamed (of Shadow The Hedgehog)

*Recall — Mantras (Stated to myself that I would see Shadow the Hedgehog in my dream and that I would remember it)

*Inducing Method — I listened to some traditional asmr and looked through various picture I had of Shadow The Hedgehog. One in particular is the one I added to the very top of the post.

• Dream Signs — Overly large version of my house, the scientist guy bringing to life amiibos and Sonic showing up, Shadow the Hedgehog appearing in my room, the crowd of people outside my window in a parking-lot type of area where in this physical realm (my window only points out to a bit of grass, a fence and another apartment complex).

• Perceived Length — 15 Minutes

• Emotions — Depressed to Emotionless

• Awareness — None

12/1/2016 (mon)

Before 4.20am
ND "Rain Catching"
Most of the dream is spent wandering around after a strung out guy who is making an art film about war. He shows me part of it which features flags on a wall in the shape of various countries, with war like slogans appearing over the top. It is shown using a holographic projector. The guy starts waving a net on a pole back and forth over the projected image.

The film skips to being about mass killings. The next piece is about someone killing everyone in a department store by coverinig the floor in rat poison pellets. I question this - wouldn't they have to eat the pellets to be effected? The video skips to showing hundreds of people lying dead on the department store floor, and a racoon-faced man with a beard laughing about it.

Then it turned out to be a flash-forward, or a possible future scenario. I am in the store and everyone is still alive. One of the employees opens a card and the others gather around to read it. They start discussing the card and the rat-poison killer.

The dream skips back to the strung out guy. He is waving the long net-on-a-pole back and forth under a gutter where rain is running down off a roof. Maybe he is trying to catch the rain in his net. I wonder if this is supposed to be some fancy analogy for war and how pointless it is. Then he gets rainwater in his eye and it blinds him. In panic he starts running through an alley between two buildings. He jumps over a footpath gate and runs away.

At this point a woman shows up and the plot goes kinda sideways. Basically, there are two women, one I really like but who isn't that interested in me (let's call her B), and one whom I don't really care about but am sleeping with to get information ('A'). Neither of them are AB, my RL partner, and there is no mention of her at all in the plot. A is part of a drug gang, making me some sort of undercover agent working for B.

Anyway, so while chasing after strung-out film guy, I bump into A. She seems in a good mood and invites me for coffee at a nearby cafe. She is normally broke but apparently has a large amount of cash, so I try to find out where it came from. She is evasive and won't tell me, despite a great deal of flirting, kissing and touching (with clothes still on 'cause we're in the cafe, although we are way beyond acceptable displays of public affection here... think drunken uni-house party behaviour). "Can't I just treat you, for a change?" She replies, getting tired of all the questions. I decide to back off for a bit.

Leaving the cafe and A, I head over to B's appartment because all the foreplay has left me feeling extremely horny. There are a couple of guys who look like wrestlers heading into the appartment next to hers. B walks up while I'm standing outside the door. Damn she's hot. She questions me about A, we make out for a bit then she opens the door. It leads straight into a bedroom. I lead her straight over to the bed, but a bee flies out and attacks me. I try to fend it off and wake up twitching and trying to slap the bee away from my face. It is a few moments before I realise that there is no bee.

4.30-6.30am
Short LD 334 "Star Power"
I flup through photos on my phone. There are some of me. Among the photos are videos of people dancing, and a young kid with shaving cream on his face.

My friends JR and ST are sitting with me in a bar, drinking. We chat about dreams and I recall a (fictional) awesome dream from the night after I saw them both last. JR fell up a grass bank, or something... I try to find the dream entry on my phone but have trouble with the phone being typically unusable in a dream.

The surroundings shift, placing me in an exam room with AB. All the desks are taken. I move a metal filing cabinet and cover it with a piece of wood to make a desk to work at. There are bags on the floor that I shove out the way. The exam involves a bag of 'Lucozade tablets'. They can be used to clean things? While trying to read the instructions I notice that the guy at the desk next to mine has undone his trousers and is playing with himself. :yuck:

It occurs to me how utterly absurd this all is. Must be a dream. I leave and head outside, finding a children's adventure playground on a grassy hill. It is night time. There are no clouds and the sky is filled with stars. I recall the challenge task and reach up to hold a star. It feels warm, like a lightbulb, yet sharp like a jagged stone. I gently close my hand on the star and absorb the energy from it. Opening my hand the star has disappeared from the sky.

The stars are now arranged in patterns. They look like magical symbols, or possibly Egyptian heiroglyphs. Nearby DCs are looking at me and asking what I'm doing.
"I have the power of the stars!" I laugh.
To demonstrate I repeat the earlier action of closing my hand around the brightest stars in the sky to absorb their power. I feel incredible, as if I just downed an energy drink and won X-fighters. What can this star power do? I try and unleash it as energy bolts and do a sort of Spiderman web shooting pose but nothing happens. Feeling a bit hyper and full of energy I do some parkour over the playground benches and climbing frames.

At this point I recall the phoenix TOTY and think about setting fire to something, but wake up instead.

Bed @ 2230
Woke @ 0220

Cave level
I'm playing a 3rd person game of some kind. I'm in a mine level, in the main shaft. Large caves open to the sides. Everything is brown and gray, and the level geometry is very bumpy. I'm at the bottom of the level, and I know the whole level slopes up. As I'm exploring a large side room, a green liquid starts to come in from the lower end. The first time it touches my character, there's a kind of sizzle. The next time, he dies. Now I've restarted in the main shaft. This time I know what's coming, so I don't wait but start running up the tunnel. Eventually the acid catches me, but I make it a lot further. I do it a few more times and get further each time. Somehow I know that this is a bonus level and that my character's level determines how long it is until the acid starts to arrive - the higher my level, the greater the delay.

Now people are LARPing the game. Someone tries an attack class, then someone else tries another class. Each class has a differently colored robe. Now Adam and Jamie are trying it together. Jamie is dressed in a brown robe, while Adam is standing off to the side. For some reason, they're doing it such that Adam is telling Jamie exactly what to do, including where to go, when to jump, etc. Unsurprisingly, things go hilariously badly.

Now it's my turn. I choose the Hammer class, though I'm dressed in my normal street clothes. I pick up a pepper grinder with a large handle, walk over to Jamie, and pantomime whacking him on the head with my pepper grinder hammer. I tell people that, because I used a hammer (improvised or not) I get a hit bonus. The bonus is 50%, so my attack goes from 100HP up to 150HP. I'm disappointed - that's not powerful enough to kill even the weakest creature in a single hit. I'd hoped that I'd be able to deal with the first few low-level creatures easily before reaching enemies that took more than one hit. I ask someone where Ben and Mandy are, since I thought they'd be here, but he says they went to bed at 10.

while falling asleep i was trying to get a dream scene going by imagining typing on a keyboard (ssild?) then i was in a dream (but didnt know) playing a game with my eyes half closed and typing on the keyboard (like i was doing while falling asleep) and my brother started talking and i said "shhh im trying to something"

and then i woke up for real.

Woke up at 4:40am without any dream recall and decided to start a WBTB for about 15 minutes.

My recall after that was fragmented, but there was still some lucidity.

There was a short lucid dream where I was walking through my city.

I woke up, then I actually WILDed into the next one: This was another short lucid dream where I was walking past the local University with crowds of students. People were handing flyers out to the students.

Then a longer lucid dream where I am on a building site which seems to be a series of platforms over the sea, with scaffolding extending high up into the air. In the dream, the people working on this platform were my enemies for some reason. When I became lucid, instead of hiding from them I kicked one of them into the sea while he was carrying a bag of something (cement?). Then I climbed to the top of the scaffolding, and got very nervous when I realized that I was stood high above the sea on a plank of wood on flimsy scaffolding. That's the point where I woke up.

Then there was a non-lucid. I'm in the gym. I'm working out alongside some guy who is supposed to be a manager at work, but I don't recognize him from real life. He is hogging the bench with a lot of his work stuff - folders, papers, etc. The place just feels crowded, and I just want to bench press in peace.

Finally, there was a dream in which I am talking to a woman from work, but I don't remember what was said.

mostly just interested in rest

still quite a number of dreams

+ rummaging around through childhood home fridge, I find a leftover chinese dish that I think I can warm up in the microwave. I also find some (celery?) sticks with some dark sauce poured over them, I start eating these. My dad has moved the utensil drawer to the living room buffet, I see him placing a fork/knife into its slot in the drawer.

+(f) in the house with college roommates, climb narrow twisting stairs to NI's room

+ playing my instrument, playing other makes/models with teacher, suck spit in, realize teacher played this instrument too, spit it out on ground. Try mixing and matching parts from other instruments together, creates odd sound in certain ranges. Try new instrument and it sounds really good except when you play really quiet, then there is an annoying rattle, I determine it is around the C# key/hole.

+(f) electronics projects: blinking lights, circuit boards

+ playing in orchestra, big solo coming up, I'm walking around, some violin players offer to help me count my measures, I want to grab my music and sit with them but I don't have time, I hurry to get back to my instrument but I miss the entrance

+ in former adult home, big renovation projects going on around the garage, the walls are opened, and they're installing new locks. I see long wooden beams that the locks bore through. Problem is, they've installed the deadbolt handle on the *outside* and the key hold on the *inside*, that's no good, it'll have to be changed, I look close and see they're already screwed in to the wood. Go talk to some guys in the garage corner, up high there is a large toaster oven mounted on the wall near the ceiling, they're saying they use this to heat gloves/mitts. There is some dried stringy stuff like old chicken stuck to the walls of the oven on the inside.

+ in (parents bedroom childhood home?) with friends (NI?), there are piles of office equipments (staplers, paper clips, etc.) on the floor around our chairs

+ I'm rubbing up against a clothed girl, gymnast? I step back, some scenes of naked girls showing it all (x-rated?) to the "camera" briefly, I wake up.

01/10/16 It is late so I will just give a seriously abbreviated version and get quickly to the end, which is the important part.

I was screwing around in a dream where I was trying to keep men from coming into my friends house. I knew it was a dream and fought a couple guys with a stick and so on. Eventually I wandered away thinking it was getting boring.

In my travels I eventually met up with my current Dream Guide. She is less like a Dream Guide and more like an astral entity who likes me and treats me like a boyfriend. I like this one a lot! Every other Dream Guide has chastised me or punished me for losing focus and wanting to explore sexual things in my dreams. I had many discussions with the last one about how it was unfair to make my dream world devoid of sexuality, as while he is a monk, I am not. He eventually arranged for me to have this new guide. She is affectionate and patient.

We were in a house and others were there, but she seemed upset. I took her outside away from the others and she was upset so I held her in my arms. It was very tender and vivid and emotional. I resisted the urge to explore her curves with my hands. Not only because she was upset, but because I just had a dream an hour before and was clearly being monitored for good behavior.

I was approached by some people who told me when I was ready they had a feast in honor of my acceptance (?) Honestly part of me wanted to spend my time getting touchy feely with the girl, but I resisted again They sat me down at a table and placed a platter in front of me with many small dishes. "We have prepared 26 of of our best foods for you to sample!" I examined the plates and it was like various appetizers, but I did not recognize any of it. Wow! was I realy going to get to taste that mant completely new dishes, and if they were as good and real as the food in the last dream, this would be awesome. I picked up the item closest to me and it looked a bit like a 2 inch piece of tentacle, perhaps fried and glazed. I went to taste it and with no warning suddenly woke up. Dur~15 min.

Went to bed a bit before midnight. Really had issues falling asleep, took me at least until 01:00. I set the alarm for 06:45.

Presentations
I'm in a classroom. The presentations of our project groups are about to start. The lecturer asks me to present for our group. I tell him that someone else in our group has already prepared to present. The lecturer asks me to present anyway. My voice changes just a little bit, I guess it breaks a little. I ask him why. He backs off, seeming a bit intimidated. I go up to my group to tell them and we laugh about it a little. In my head I've got the joke ready that that's the advantage to being black: it's easy to scare white people. I don't make the joke.

We're on the 2nd floor of a building. The walls on two sides have arched holes in them so you can look outside. There's some parkour going on. It looks like a live video. One guy falls from the 2nd floor. I take a look over the edge. The guy was lucky. He's still hanging on to an edge just a bit below, so he didn't tumble all the way down. A teacher for a different course then decides to stand on an object which was used in this particular parkour run, to prevent more people from doing it. It's presentation time again. The first teacher ends up buying us all food, but only some of us get to choose. He makes a girl take orders from all of us. Everyone is shouting and I suggest that she writes it down, cause she's not gonna remember that many orders. My friend is sitting next to me. He complains that it's unfair that some people get to choose their orders and others don't.


I had another dream but I don't really have the time or energy right now to go into it. It involved my Indonesian classmates, a train station, drugs and being late for an appointment with my thesis supervisor. The dream sucked

01/10/16 I have still been having tons of lucids but have been focused much more on Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu so I totally have blown off my DJ. That is bad form and stingy of me. The two most recent (this morning) are ones I need to document and maybe that will spur me to start sharing my lucids with you guys again.

I became aware of laying in bed in the dark and attempted to remember where I was sleeping. It seemed like my mom's old house on Wallace and somehow that did not make sense. I pondered that and realized someone was in the next bed over. The room was really too small for two beds. I guessed it was my cousin over there, and he started to move about. I asked him what the F$#k was going on. He told me his parents were there to help me go to work. I didn't think that made much sense so I got up. I went down stairs into my mom's basement. Well that was a big clue as my mom's house did not have a basement. There was a bunch of fish tanks on racks down there. Now that is something from my past but should have been at my dad's house. I am starting to understand that this is a dream. I kind of knew it at first, but this settles it.

One of my dream signs is tropical fish that are not inside the fish tank. I stare at them during the day, and in my dreams my brains tosses in pretty fish in front of me, but often neglects to put them in water. I check and sure enough the tanks look wrong and the fish move beyond the confines of the glass. Fully lucid now. I explored the fish laboratory when I was approached by two men who seemed to not be regular DCs. They seemed like astral entities. I point blank asked them if they were part of my dream or if they were actual entities. They did not deny being entities and started walking with me.

I decided that I really needed to behave myself, as way too often I am a dumb ass in my lucids despite being aware and do things like seek out sex despite other entities being present. In fact I have often enough tried to get sexual with the entities themselves. It is not that I rationally decide to act this way, but being in a dream lowers my inhibitions way worse than alcohol. I have had my assorted Dream Guides blow me off for months at a time after bad incidences, and even was banned from entering the main astral city for some time. I was going to be on my best behavior, as it has been many weeks since I have been approached.

I quietly walked around what I suspected was some sort of astral landscape, perhaps a city or a training area. There were lots of people so maybe The City. I walked up a street that was sort of like a fair grounds. I started to explain to the two entities how I could tell the difference between my own dream imagery and the real substance/life forms of their realm. I demonstrated that my own DCs could be summoned and would act exactly as I wanted. I imagined two women walking up and they appeared. The men watched me curiously as if wondering what I was getting at. I told one of the women to give me a hat, and suggested it was in her bag. She pulled a hat out of her bag and put it on my head. I told her to kiss me. She immediately gave me a kiss. I became aware that the men had basically raised there eyebrows (emotionally not imagery) like," here he goes again." I stopped myself and thanked the DC for the hat and she disappeared.

I walk down another street and go into a large building. this looks a lot like a casino and has a large buffet table with all sorts of food. We are walking past this huge buffet and I am not at all sure if I can take food, as these people do have some sort of value exchange like our currency system that I honestly barely begin to understand. I get the feeling from one of the men that taking a single tiny item is ok. I select a deviled egg looking thing and eat it. OMG! Dream food is almost always bland and only about 10-20% like real life. This has a strong pleasant flavor and agreeable texture; it is clearly the best dream food I have ever tasted. It actually took me a few moments to chew it up and swallow it.

I asked one of the men what was up, if they were keeping an eye on me and going to follow me to watch what I do. I got the feeling (emotional communication) that that was in fact the truth and he just kind of shrugged, like "well you got it." The next area had a lot of people who were now interested in me. I talked with some young guys about how to me this was a dream and that my body was somewhere else. Some of them thought that was curious and asked me what I could do. I have noticed that The City has gravity and almost no one ever floats or flies around, and that when I do it exhausts me and is difficult. I stepped up onto thin air and sat floating above the ground. they did not seem impressed. The street had a tall fence along one side and I said I could jump over the tall fence. They told me that I could not jump any higher up the fence than them. Several boys started jumping up onto the fence and back down. I pictured with confidence how I was going to easily leap all the way up on top of it. I jumped and went no higher than them. Ok, confidence. I jumped again and grabbed the top, but ran up against an energy barrier that was the classic power lines I have run into hundreds of times. I have learned by now that they mark off areas and are not meant to be f%$ked with, and I am supposed to be on my best behavior. I jumped down and kind of mumbled, something about f$%k this.

When I walked away from the crowd one of the men with me pointed out a building and told me it was "the whore house" and I got the feeling he was letting me know that a well behaved man would go there if when visiting The City he felt the need to be a pervert. I have run into this topic one time before, and was surprised at the idea that this place would have prostitutes. At that point (another dream long ago) it was explained that I have no currency and while I can summon handfuls of money it was not real and could not be traded for services. So, I showed little interest in this building and kept walking. I found something that looked like colored chalk and started tossing bits of it at things for no good reason other than perhaps boredom. I noticed a lady going around marking things with the stuff.

I realized that I had drifted off of my good behavior a bit and that throwing anything randomly at other things was no way to stay out of trouble. I did my hand mudra exercise and slowly recited the English alphabet. As near as I can tell I got it correct. I then walked up to a food cart of some sort and it had these wonderful looking wrap sort of things I really wanted one but did not reach for one. One of the men came up to me and in a very friendly manner put his hand on my shoulder. He asked me, "So have you decided that you want to be a part of this instead of running around acting like a berserk crazy person?"

I told him, "I certainly never have intended to be berserk or crazy, and I do desperately want to be part of this. I am overwhelmed with how amazing this place is. The food tasted almost 100% real and the buildings are almost completely stable and persistent in their visuals (they do shift some if you watch closely)." I looked at a near by building and after a moment one of the lines shifted, but still it was clearly way more stable than I would get in my own dream imagery. I looked at the building next to me which seemed to be some sort of real estate office as it had pictures hanging of houses and such. The texture and the color of the blue paint was very impressive.

I realized I needed to stabilize again and summoned a flip top lighter to my hand and focused in on the details and started to toy with the flip top until I felt stable. Me and the man started walking up this street, but before long the dream became unstable. I tried again to stabilize but somehow got pulled back to my body and realized I was now laying in my bed. I decided to wake up and record the event. Dur~20-30 min.

DJ Log: January 11, 2016 – 6:30AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am standing near a fast food restaurant and realize that I have to use the bathroom. I walk inside and find the restroom door. When I walk through the door, it leads back outside into a chain-link fenced in area behind the restaurant. I walk up to this ring of strange looking toilets that are unusually high on a pedestal and have no walls around them. They are more like small sinks and they have foot pads beside them and no seat of any kind. There is a little stick figure illustration showing how to stand up and squat over it. I look around for a moment and see that there are several people walking around a car wash just ahead of me and everyone in the drive-thru is just outside the fence. There is no possibility of privacy here, but I really have to go. There are some other people using these things, so I figure it can’t be that bad after all. Looking around a bit more, I stop and think to myself, “This is just a dream. I don’t have to worry about anyone watching me poop.” I try to climb on top of one of the toilet things, but it is almost impossible to balance myself on the foot pads and get my pants off at the same time. I step back down and take off my pants, then climb back up. Realizing that I forgot to remove my undies, I struggle for a bit to take them off, then I end up waking up.

11.01.2016

I Live To Serve Her & Flirting With a Girl (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m on my way to open at work, and the parking lot, if it’s even considered one, is so grandiose that getting from point A to B would seem to take a long time, but it didn’t. I see a large gray stoned wall that looks like stone doors of some sort. I’m wearing some gray dress pants, and a gray shirt as well, though, before the encounter with a certain dream character, it felt as if I was wearing a green shirt instead.

I’m in a fairly active mood, and feel so energetic that it slowly bleeds into how I interact with people. The first entity within my peripheral vision was an Asian male that’s probably in his early 20s as me that looks like a parking lot attendant I know. I’m not fixated so much on him other than the fact that he’s wearing a bright, lime shirt, and black shorts.

He’s just strolling around, I guess, and as I’m moving forward, I encounter a blonde female with a heavy foreign accent. She’s wearing a white vest, and some black pants/shorts. She has her hair tied up in a ponytail, and as I get closer to her, she professes to me, in a manner of jest:

“You should live to serve me,” and smiles. As I’m trying to process the words, I was looking at her reaction to really see if she’s just joking around

But I couldn’t shake off the feeling that there was something between the lines of said profession.

I basically shrug it off while retaining a transient smile, and go inside the doors that start to open up. It’s this spacious garage with all sorts of stuff that I didn’t bother paying attention to. The two main colors that came to mind were brown mixed with a bit of dark violet, and this light turquoise color that has this chalky overtone to it.

I see two girls that I’ll nickname Bail and ArtGirl10; the former of darker skin complexion, and the other that’s lighter. I fixate on the latter, and she says I look different physically. For some odd reason, I get a surge of motivation to start flirting with her physically. I go up to her, smile, and take my finger to rub her nose.

She giggles for a bit and asks where I got the shirt, because apparently, it costs like $70 bucks online. I have an “uhh” moment, and we part ways after that. Meanwhile, Bail says, “3 XXX,” and I feel I’m shifted into another dream.

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11.01.2016

Shaking Hands to Break Gregarious Tension (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside of a house that is dark brown mostly pertaining to the walls and ceiling, and golden for the flooring; a little nuances of brown blotched in as well. I can see that there’s this indirect gregarious tension with my presence in here, but the individuals remain quiet while trying to find something to distract themselves from making it explicitly awkward.

To dissipate the tension, I took the decency to start shaking hands with everyone, and they all naturally complied. I reached to the point where I interacted with an obese female that’s wearing this black dress with some dark pink flowers surrounding it along with a fancy black hat as if it was 1930s style, or something.

I started to hug her for a bit, and as I’m trying to release my grasp, I awkwardly touched the gap towards her armpit, and eventually to the muscles that would connect to the top left region of her breasts. I try to pretend that I didn’t notice this, and see seems fairly nonchalant in this being done. I turn around immediately, and proceeded to move forward, and then to the right to go into another room.

The entrance to the room that I have to turn to the right once more involves this dark red drapery that hangs to the sides like “Y Y.” I see there are some chairs that are dark red for the base and back rest, and bordered with golden colors. I go inside to immediately sit, and just reveled in being alone while feeling I’m waiting for someone, or some event to take place.

Oh, what the heck, I'll also post here some of my dreams. Not every one tho.

#1 Poor little wasps
I saw behind the curtain of the window some dark little shadow-dots. I thought there was flies. When I looked at them it turned out that there are little wasps in a row. Without any thoughts I opened the window and tried to expel (?) them. It was winter and big snowflakes was falling down, also to my room. Then I started to feel bad for them but I didn't stop. Snowflakes started to stick to the wasps, then they was slowed down. I knew that they will die because of the snow, I realised that they was just waiting there for the better weather. I felt so guilty and sad, I woke up after that :c However dream was really beautiful visually. Vivid colors (yellow, white and blue) etc.

#2 Jelly-kittens
I was on my bed and on the little piece of paper I had 4-6 tiny little cats (1cm) which was alive but made of some transparent gel. They was standing in the circle. They was kinda sticky. I was responsible for them. They ate wood chips which gave to them. THEN equally small dinosaur came over! And he tried to eat or hurt my kittens. So I automatically hit him with tiny stick. Unfortunatelly one of the cats was glued to him. Also rest of them dropped of my duvet and I couldn't find them. When I did there was less of them (3-4?). And on the end of the dream (which is a little blurry) I lost them all. So guilty and sadness as well again. I wouldn't be a good mother ._.'

Ok, rest of these are boring/private. I'll add here only some interesting stuff (when I'll be bored probably) and LDs.

I was in the woods behind my house, and it was the summer time. I had a strawberry with me, and put it in a bird feeder for the butterflies to eat. I remember seeing a cardinal nearby, and imitating it's song. I walk farther into the woods, and see a pond. It starts closing in on me, and before I can get wet, I cling onto a tree, and climb up it. My dad then picks me up, and saves me from the water.
I am with one of my cousins near a pond, and we are fishing. He tells me that he is going to go in the water, and I am going to fish him out. I do that, but he comes out as a fish. A little bit later, all the fish turn into dogs, either small or big. They move into two different sides, the small dogs and the big dogs. The scene transforms into my basement, and I am on the small dogs side, ready to fight. My sister is on the big dogs side. We start throwing balls at each other, and my mom yells from upstairs at us to be quiet. We stop fighting, and the dogs aren't there anymore. I notice my parakeet, Sunny, laying as though sick dressed up in miniature clothes. I pick her up and take off the clothes, and she turns into Hermione. Ron and Lavender Brown are there too, and Hermione is refusing to talk to either of them. I walk into what is normally the exercise room in my house, but it is a dance room for Hogwarts. The song is about dementors, and everyone is dancing.

D1: I was at my house and was going to have some people over. I acquired some acid and was planning to get high with them and have a party. My parents? or someone told me to keep the house clean, otherwise I'd be in big trouble. So I took the acid, and next thing I know, the house is a complete mess and I remember nothing. So I quickly clean it up. At one point the cops come looking for me so I go to my ultimate hiding place, under the water bed(this was at old house) and hide under there underneath a blanket, but I think they still managed to find me because they tore the house apart looking for me.

D2: I don't know if I was asked this question or if I myself asked it, but the question was, "If you could go back to one day in your life, what would it be?" And I just wanted to go back to a happy childhood day, so I picked the day I had my birthday party at the roller rink. Next thing I know, I'm like 10? years old and I'm in my room getting ready for the big day. For some reason I'm hanging up pictures of Santa Claus. I never made it to the roller rink, darn it.

D3: I was back in high school. I was quite enjoying it, but I was in the main lobby doing something, like baking muffins or something random, and I started to get super dizzy. I went to the health room and there was a guy before me who asked to go outside and they let him go. When I asked, the nurse said, "I'll schedule an appointment with your primary care doctor" and I said, "No, I need to get outside right now!" and she just kept saying, "I'm sorry but you'll have to make an apt with your doctor" and I said "I've already seen my doctor!" "You have?" she said. "Yes! I have a condition called Vestibular Migraine and it makes me dizzy and I need to get outside right now because I feel as though I'm going to pass out." At this point I was crying. I think she finally let me out.

Seems I can't even escape getting dizzy in my dream life.

D4: Then, I woke up but then was in "half sleep" and I was back in my high school just enjoying seeing it again, walking down the hallways. There were 4 locker hallways and some of them had string lights on them, it was kinda pretty. I remember trying to find my 2015-16 planner that I lost. Also, I remember walking by a classroom and hearing a teacher shout, "Laura!", as if she wanted to say hi and introduce me as a former student, and I didn't want to be seen so a ran away and hid in one of the hallways.

I had quite a few non-lucid dreams this night and these are my favourites:

Little space journey
I was on a space ship with a few people but only one of the persons was known to me, an old friend. At the moment we were in a hangar of a space station and I could get a glimpse of the exterior of our ship.
It had huge but very thin wings each with multiple turbines integrated to it. A blue flame shot out of the backside and later I noticed that the wings are actually very flexible and consist of multiple parts hold together.
Now comes the really interesting part. My friend and me are supposed to travel to the smaller station out in space first and the transportation method was quite risky to say the least.... it was a box.... just a box.
You could enter the white metal box and then they would shoot us towards the station so we can reach the entrance.
After entering it took barely a second and we were pushed out. The box was circling like crazy but who cared? We had zero gravity and safely floated in the middle. In this moment we both got a pretty worrying
thought. We remembered that being in space without any suit or other protection would make you overheat as you can't transfer your heat to anything in the vacuum. But both our suits and the box looked allright so
we stayed relaxed and enjoyed the journey.

The dark lord
I started off in a big, gloomy room. The red light was actually fairly pleasant but some persons that surrounded me were not. Not all of them seemed suspicious, just the ones that were doing business in the darker
corners of the room. I looked up at the ceiling and noticed that I was directly under the roof when I suddenly had some kind of vision. A beautiful city at night with lakes and a huge tower in the background could be seen
but the two persons near the bridge were even more interesting. One sat on the ground, completely covered by an orange-yellow hood while the other one had a robe turning his back towards my inner eye.
The person on the ground said that they were absolutely sure that the dark lord was here in the city and the person on the bridge agreed. Still he had to add that he had no idea how to find him.

Maybe this will be my task once? Who knows...

The way back home
There was not much to see out here. Wide grass fields, some poor fences, a few gravel paths and this little house in front of me. Two strangers accompanied me on my way home. However we would actually find that.
Suddenly I sensed some presence at my right and a masked figure stood at the edge of the house. The fact that it was holding a revolver towards me didn't make anything better. Luckily I have some pretty reliable
"plot armor" in my dreams and the guy simply didn't manage to use the gun against me. I was really wondering why it took so long before one of the strangers threw a few stones at him making him collapse.
Well, that was easier than expected....
The other stranger told me to take some of the stones with me so that we could mark ways we already visited. Not sure if this is helpful. I mean, we are in the wilderness, not a labyrinth.