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10/4/2013

I meditated before sleeping. Got up at 4:19 for a minute, then got up again for longer a few minutes later. I didn't go back to sleep.

Dream 1:

I was in Ireland. I remember the forest. I also remember a woman, a party ball, and a map. With the map, I identified a reference point to use to find where the map is. I said Athens was the place. I also remember some legs.

Dream 2:

I remember a town in the Middle East. It was one of the Islamic Fundamentalist nations.

Also, the night before last night, I turned lucid, but this time I kept my eyes closed the whole time to see what would happen. I ended up waking up -_- .

In this dream I got to rescue some fish from a fish tank that someone was closing down, and I put the fish loosely into my purse, and they somehow staid alive in there. Then I was actually inside a huge tank like a swimming pool, and I was supposed to release the fish. The challenge was how to release only the freshwater fish. When I opened my purse the saltwater fish got out and got away and I had no chance to catch them here. I consoled myself that even though they were saltwater fish in a freshwater tank, but all the fish in my purse had originated in one tank, and somehow survived, so maybe they would again.

When I woke up I remembered another dream or fragment, nut now it's mostly gone. I remembered there was something I wanted or wanted to do but my husband said it was obsolete, and then I got a phone call confirming it.

So, I figure this the best place to just let it all hang out… By that I mean my confusion on something that has been going on for the majority of my life.

Every year, about this time, I start having these intense dreams. Now, these aren’t normal dreams, more like nightmares.
I have been having them for as long as I can remember which, goes back to at least 4-years-old.

Last night, after falling asleep, I find myself in a house with two other people, their identity I couldn’t tell you who they are but, I felt like I’ve known them my whole life.

Keeping the details to a minimum, because I only remember spurts.

What I do remember is a demon three dolls and feeling like my entire body is experiencing electrical pulses at least two separate occasions this is all happening while my semi-conscious self is fully aware that I am laying in my bed, in my actual house, yet before I awake I am in an attic having a full fledged conversation with a demon and two others with these three dolls illustrating how each of us view this demon’s physical appearance.

Writing this down or even saying it out loud makes me feel crazy. I just find it weird and I figure a blog is the best place to vent this and maybe someone who has the ability to answer what this experience is will respond.

Otherwise, I’ll probably just continue on as normal. At this point in my life this is going on about 20+ years of experiencing these dreams and sensations. So, it’s nothing new I actually worry about the answers I may get. Somethings are better left not knowing.

I hadn't been able to recall too good but i managed to after a few days although they were just fragments.

So fragment 1:
I was just sitting on my couch and i texted this girl i used to like and now we're just friends(not friend zoned) and somehow my girlfriend managed to know that i did that and she just left and texted me to talk to my friend instead of her.
-btw i did text her on my couch but i dreamt it the same way


Fragment 2:
I was on my bed in my dreams and I was just sitting there and there was a fat guy laying down or sleeping or dead at the end of bed where my feet were, i couldn't tell if he was dead and i think there was a second guy but i forgot where and my fragment was just of that image.


I've never had multiple fragments that i remembered before, usually only one whole dream.

Hey DV! I've broken my dry spell finally, which lasted exactly one month! Unfortunately, my recall is shot to shit in the recent weeks. I did however manage to remember a small portion of my lucid from last night in which I completed the basic task of the month. I would type more and in color but it'd real only be like a paragraph. But basically I became lucid by checking my watch twice, and then thought of what to do. Then I remembered the scare a little kid task. So I walked around and then saw a little boy and girl sitting with a baby. So what I did was I shouted "Blah!" like a monster or something. The baby immediately began crying and the two kids were somewhat shocked, then they left. Sadly, that's all I can really recall, so hopefully tonight I'll have better recall...and another lucid!!!

I was travelling around a country. I had to complete tasks, so I could continue my journey. I remember seeing a map, similar to Candy Crush Game. My mission was to ride a horse to an area which had a launching pad. I was meant to ride onto the pad and it would launch me to my next location.

I was travelling through an area which had a lot of soldiers. I must have been wearing the same outfit as them, because they were not bothered by my presents and I felt as if I was an outsider and would be told to leave.

I made my way to an area which looked like a food crop. It heavily guarded and look, as if they were not going to let anyone through. I was watching there movements, and hoping for a obvious read on the movements they were making, so I could sneak passed. I was thinking of proning (army crawling) when I would make my move. The guards started walking back, all together. I soon realised, I was immune from getting caught, as I was wearing the same uniform. They looked like medieval guards, which were holding spears.

Food Crop


Medieval Guards

As I reached closer to the launch pad I ended up waking.

Dream Fragment:
I was told to write exactly what I want down on a piece of paper for my goals.

Side Notes:
I remember exiting this dream, but forgot to DEILD

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some video game where i had to find something.

Dream 2:

I was playing some video games and there was one which was mix of half-life 2 and STALKER, plus it had wanzers from front mission 3 apparently. I was doing one of the last levels which was happening in some dark open hanger, there were snipers and i had to guard some NPCs, i also had 'editor mode' with which i was fixing lack of detail in some parts. Then there was end part but i accidentally fell down and found some stuff happening which i managed to prevent, then i've found out that there's secret ending can be triggered. Building now was rather ruined and there was Prof. Kleiner trying to do something in an office, then something was about gun and i was transported into some glitch dimension filled with colors and GMod stuff, like floating Heavy's heads. I fought stuff at first but then figured out that to trigger secret ending i've had to go through this area without damaging or touching any enemy. Luckily gravity was rather low so i managed to jump over most of enemies through the level. There was last segment where i had to run to teleporter while dodging a group of G-Man's with sniper rifles. At that the game just ended. Then i've started talking to a dragon with which i was apparently playing this game coop this whole time or something?

Dream 3:

I was watching yogscast video, it was something about minecraft server. They were creative mode-flying around and then Simon started punching cows into holes that were leading into abyss. Then they went into building where game turned to be GMod, they were talking about stuff and then went to cinema. They started watching another video.
That video was about console gamers that were playing some fighting/racing game, they got bored and started watching another video.
And then that video was about some anime people with swords arguing about something and then two of them started chasing another one around the pool and then slashing him.

Dream 4(fragment):

Big dragon was talking to two smaller ones.

I love messed up dreams like this.

I remember seeing a scene where there was people doing psychedelics in a rest room. All they had to do was stand in a puddle outside of a cubical and that would give them the tripping sensation.

I was trying to smuggle drugs into a school for a group of people. I made my way through my home town, remembering walking up to at least the paint shop.

I reached the school and made my way to the toilets. I went inside the cubical and a guy was in there with me. He was explaining to me what was going to happen when it came to the drugs. He explained that we needed to have certain coloured poo in the toilet bowl, all from light to dark poo. I think I had already had a poo in the toilet earlier. I don't remember seeing other people have a poo in the toilet, but there was now 5 poo's. The guy was explaining to me about how we got the different coloured poo. He said something about being active in sports? I looked into the bowl and noticed that the 5 poo's mostly looked different, some not so different.

I think the door was open the whole time, and I bought out the drugs that were in my pocket, and placed it on top of the toilet, near the flush buttons. A guy that was involved with us, was standing outside the cubical, gave me a look of disbelief. He couldn't believe I would pull drugs out, so anyone who walked passed could see what we were doing (I think I recognised him, Ash R's mate?).
Someone must have alerted authorities about the drug use, and we were tipped off. I was told that we were probably going to be patted down as we left the building, so I put the drugs down near my ass. I could feel it there, and thought it may have been sticking out a bit.

As I was leaving with someone, we were confronted with doors. As I went through the door, it was a similar area to where I had just come from. It was as if we were in a maze and had to choose correctly to leave the area.
I remember a Chinese guy, he was quite tall and had the look of a mob boss. I think he may have been after the drugs?

I reached stairs, that were very steep. As I worked my way down them, I noticed police man on both sides. There was 3 police man on my side and I had a problem passing them. I think they were willing to let me passed.

Dream fragment:
I saw an Echidna laying on it's back. I could see it's stomach, as it was trying to get upright.

Echidna - I don't think I ever remember seeing an Echidna on it's back, but it was very similar to the second picture.

I was at my old house in blacks land, and my Mum was across the road at Janette's house. Mum wasn't doing too well, I think she was terminally ill. There was mattresses set up on the ground with blankets. There was a few people on them, including Mum. I wanted to spend as much precious time I could with her, and try and make her feel comfortable. I must have left and came back shortly after, and I could hear her talking to the person next to her. She said ''I was her favourite son''. I think Mum was now Kayley, and her problem had to do with her eyes. I wanted to start a charity/fund for the illness that was going to maybe take Kayley and Mum away from me.

3rd person, this image of vast blue sky and white clouds, even on the ground, which is perfectly flat and reflective, reminds me of salt flats, and in the distance there's a bed with a body lying on it, and a figure walking towards it. The dream zooms in to follow the figure, a middle-aged man here to return his lover's soul to his body, the man in the bed, 20's/30's ish, curly blonde hair. There's a second body on the bed, a naked woman, and unexpectedly, when the man revives and sits up, the woman sits up too.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

While reading an article on the internet, I start thinking about the symbolism of owls as messengers or representatives of wisdom, and that the information they deliver is always reliable even without knowing the source. After some more internet browsing, ending up looking at TV listings, I decide I need to get away from the tv/internet, I should go meditate, clear my head. (Disappointed I didn't actually get around to meditating before I woke up, I'm curious how that would have gone.)

non lucid
*Me and my cousin start to pet a huge rabbit and realize that it has a disease around it's genital area. I think could this be some kind of animal STD. Weird.

I'm at work with some girl. We borrow a radio and a multimeter and do some work on wiring in a power box. At some point we start talking sweet, and lie down together. She has dark brown hair and eyes, Then some other girl lie between us and starts chatting about old songs. She has light hair and her appearance breaks the mood. I recall mentioning the song Mrs. Robinson, by Simon and Garfunkel.

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID

I'm at my elementary school, where odd trees have popped up. They have fat, striped trunks, and instead of leaves, there are white and pink blossoms. People are saying that these treess have magical properties. A DC and I are having a competition on the Kindergarten playground's slides.

The dream skips and I am in a strange, dark world, with a green plastic camcorder. It resembles a late 1990s camcorder, and if you open up a plastic cap on the side, you can watch TV in a tiny circle. Rugrats: All Grown Up! is playing, and the quality is extremely poor.

The dream skips again, and this time the DC and I are in a weird world that looks like a casino/boardgame paradise. There are numbers, colored squares, and giant dice. The DC and I keep sliding around, and we eventually come to a stop. I pick up a giant dice and place it on some numbered tiles. But then I start sliding on a jagged peice of flooring (not sharp, but like little mountains). The DC and I decide that we must find a portal to escape.

Another part of the dream appears to take place on a public beach, but that part is fragmented.

[Dream 1]
In a large building on the 5th or 6th floor. It room is quite large, and has multiple windows, but the room is still kind of dark. My siblings are there doing various things. But only one activity prominent in my mind. One of my sisters is upset about something involving pokemon cards.

I take her into the hall way to talk to her and find out whats wrong. She's standing beside a desk thats placed in the corner of the space. Somehow as i ask her what's wrong she disappears, and it takes me a moment to figure out she fell into a ventillation vent under the desk. I jump down and pull her out of there.

[Dream 2]
I'm at the house I lived at in highschool. There's a bunch of Spec Ops guys there and we're preping for a training evolution. I'm packing my bag, trying to figure out what I need to bring; before I leave i remember noting there's a dog in the back. Also noted a wolf, but don't remeber it.

[Dream 3]
I'm on a bus with Spec Ops guys and we are passing through a gate to some military base or military area. We start driving into the woods and I mention it looks familiar to a guy i know who's there as well. He says to look again. I look and see a metal shed thats rusted and abandoned next to the dirt road and I tell him that yeah, i remember being here now.

We get out and my group and I grab out bags and wander into the woods at night. We are suppose to evade capture. After not long we stop at a stream but then spot a bunch of running poeple and lights coming our way. The group starts scrambling away, but i run the opposite direction and shout to distract them. I get tazed but don't feel it, then tackled, and lead away. They bring me back to thier camp, explaining that we did very poorly. We get to and RV or Bus and I hang out there. Dream gets confusing then.

10/3 I had a couple of short lucid's but my non-lucid dream was the most interesting!
First of all I am NOT going to read too much into this dream. At this point it's definitely just a dream possibly fueled by news stories about the government shutdown and talk of not raising the debt ceiling. The earliest part of the dream that I remember I was on a bus or tram traveling into a city. (I take it to represent the city to the north of my home IWL). We are pulling up to a downtown area a big building kind of like a civic building. There is a huge crowd gathered around the building almost look like they're lined up and for some reason at this point I thought they were college students coming back from a trip. But there were so many of them and I asked someone next to me what they were doing? I do not remember the response. Then I noticed they looked angry and they were chanting something and raising their fists pumping them in the air. We passed the crowd and we're coming elevated so perhaps on elevated tram or bus going over the overpass and I see a fire down below in the middle of the street but its
small and for some reason I don't think much of it but then I do see more fires various businesses/stores on fire. They're begins to be a lot of debris on the street on the left side and the right side piles of debris and it is about this time that the bus or tram driver makes short announcement something along the lines of well it looks like the issue was resolved by the public. There were a few cheers and a few laughs on the bus. Myself, I felt awkward. We were in an urban area and a lot of the people that looked upset were African American and I was thinking that this whole bus or tram was full of Caucasians and that this vehicle might be a target when we get off. We are now passing a body of water on the left and there is a piece of what I first thought of as a cruise ship in the water...the section where the captain would look out. But as I looked closer I realized it wasn't quite that big, perhaps a very large yacht. Then I start seeing police
standing in a marina area . There are yachts that have been pulled up on to the docks out of the water and some of them smashed some of them just pulled up. In one spot a police man is standing in the water up to about his waist or stomach and I assume that he's guarding the yachts that are still in the water and I think to myself I wonder if is gun is below water and will no longer function. The various things put out of the water gets smaller and smaller and there is this surfboard that I grabbed perhaps as we're getting off the vehicle but I don't actually remember getting off the vehicle. There were still police around and no crowds so I guess it seems safe and we walked into a building that must have been a sports club or a resort of some type and at this point my wife is definitely with me(dream mood changes to all is okay, just remembered at some point on vehicle I was thinking that I need to go downtown to where my wife would be and make sure she is ok..but now she is with me?) and we go to an outside area by the pool and decide to lounge on some of the lounge chairs by the pool. There is a woman and
perhaps her daughter sitting across and slightly to the right of us and the daughter is looking at me in a flirting way, possibly aged 17 to 19. I look away and over to my right and I'm looking at another lounge chair with a towel sitting on it and it kind of looks like the towel is moving but at first I think that it is the pattern on the towel...it is rolled up in a sloppy ball...and I think it is one of those patterns that give you the illusion of movement. But then I notice that the lounge chair is moving also and I look closer and there is a raccoon that is playing with the chair. (I saw a raccoon 4 days ago digging in a trash can in an urban area IWL). I feel like I was semi lucid at this point. The raccoon starts coming over to us and I know that my wife will not want it anywhere near her although she doesn't seem to be reacting so I lightly toss some ice from the cup I'm holding towards a raccoon thinking it will scare him off but it comes closer to me and goes at my neck and
this makes me fully lucid. At this point it feels more like he is tickling me and the dream fades into vibrations and then back to staring at a close up of some beige carpet probably less than 1 square foot so I must be right on top of it. I know that it is a dream so I think I should reach out and feel the carpet but dream fading again back to light vibrations. I know(can feel) the vibrations are too light for quick re-entry or to even attempt to magnify them after trying briefly. Before the riot/revolution dream I entered the void through vibrations but I can't remember if I did anything from there so probably did not too much... Besides my non lucid dream was the most interesting one and it was so vivid. All of the above was after 6 a.m. when I woke up feeling very rested and even though it was a work day I decided to do some cycles of SSILD. Regular dream before that point involved me driving in a car and I hit a couple of grocery carts that were in the middle of the street I was
trying to weave between them. Earlier there were also what felt like were a couple of false awakenings where my wife was upstairs popping old balloons so she could throw them away while I was downstairs doing something productive I forgot what. And I remember going around the house quite a bit...it felt like a cross between my current house and my grandmothers house that is long gone.