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2010 (approx)

I fell asleep without doing my affirmations in my journal.

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My husband was flirting with me, and he touched my left side, below my ribcage. I cringed and pulled away because it hurt there. It felt like a really bad bruise. He placed his hand on my ribcage again, I said, no, don't that really hurts. He grabbed me by the arm and held me in place then forcefully began rubbing the tender spot beneath my ribs. As he rubbed harder his face contorted into this demonic face and he smiled an evil, malicious smile. I couldn't pull away and he continued rubbing, knowing it was causing me terrible pain.

I woke abruptly IRL and noticed my left side, below my ribcage was very sore. When I felt there, I noticed a lump - for real. I ended up seeing the doctor and found it was a Lipoma. Six months later, I had it removed.
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Afterthought: I am thinking that the activation of my chakras either sensitized the nerves here so that I felt it or it simply brought my attention to that area. Because during meditation my chakras (base, sacral, solar plexus, heart) were all throbbing away. I actually checked my pulse rate several times believing that my heart rate had increased, but it had not. My pulse was steady even though the beating inside me was very strong and insistent. The solar plexus centered chakra and the heart chakra are the ones that thundered away. Did this have an effect on my side? I don't know. Perhaps just coincidence.

11-04-12
Around 5:30am

Hiding
Genre: Random
Non-Lucid

First thing I remember was that I am in a different time period and a different world from what it is today. I believe I am in either the Game of Thrones world or the Skyrim world. I was in a house, which was a large amount of distance away from anything else. With me was three other people, one man and two woman. I don't remember who they are at this point though. I get the feeling that we are hiding one of the girls from someone. Next thing I remember is that I am looking out of a window, with a pair of binoculars. I see someone in the distance, I can't tell if it is a man or women, all I know is that he/she is wearing a red jacket. I can tell this is the person we are hiding from.

I tell the other guy in the house to go get the girls and go upstairs. We start to panic, he takes one of the girls up the stairs while I try to convince the other girl to come. I believe this is the girl that is hiding from that person on the road. She decides that she is going to run, and see if she can get away. She goes and I head upstairs, just incase the person on the road decides to check the house out. I remember I a set of keys which are used to lock the bedrrom doors. I head upstairs and go into the room. I close the door and try to lock it. It takes me a couple of tries, the lock has now changed from a regular lock to a lock you would see on a bathroom stall. I finally lock it and turn to the other two.

The two are sitting on the bed, and I get the feeling that the man is my brother, I don't know why though. The women tells me that she just got a text from the person on the road. I turned around, and the door wasn't there anymore. Instead, the door had turned into just a thin plank of wood going across where the door would have been. I wake up at this point.

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11-04-12
Around 7am

Attempted Murder
Genre: Action
Non-Lucid

I am in my old college, I think. I am in my old Psychology lecture. The class becomes really boringthat I resort to doodling on my paper. I am getting worried that the lecturer will notice me because I am not supposed to be there. The lecturer asks a question, and a girl that I know answers the questions. But she is in the back of the lecture, so the lecturer has to move to see her, and she moves to just in front of my desk.

I decide to wait until the break, before I leave. Once the break comes, I begin to leave. Next thing I remember is being in an argument with someone I don't know. The argument eventually escalates and we begin fighting. I start to get the better of him, but then he decides to take a knife out. I decide to get the hell out of there, because I don't plan on dying in college. The guy chases after me and corners me in a stairwell. He lunges at me with the knife, but I manage to grab his wrist and force him back. Suddenly, a police woman shows up and helps. I notice she looks like Louisa Lytton.

Now, I can leave. But as I walk out the door, I realize I have left my bag in the lecture hall. So, I decide to run to the room to get in, so I'm there before the lecturer comes back. I get to the room, I take a quick look inside to make sure she is not there, she's not so I go in and get the bag. I walk down the corridor with the my bag, and take corner carefully incase the lecturer is around the corners. She's not but I now notice I am in my old High School. I see one of my old teachers, and he begins chatting to me. We chat for a bit before I attempt to leave once again.

I begin to walk down a flight of stairs, but there is a group of people there with me. It seems to be the basketball team, the reason I think this, is because one of them is throwing a basketball around. The guy throws it against a wall, and it returns back - hitting another guy in the face. I notice one of my old friends from High School is there. We begin chatting for a bit and when we get to the bottom, he asks me if I want to come to a club later with two other people. I tell him to give me his number and I'll tell him later.

1: I was sent by someone to to get information from a group of bad guys who were HQ'd in a shack. They were right across from my house, I was surprised I never noticed them there. I went there and beat all of them. They still wouldn't talk, then I threatened to cut one of their heads off and use it as toilet paper and grabbed one of them too show I meant business. I picked him up and ran off with him, that's when he started telling me what I wanted to know. I don't remember what it was though.
2: I was walking with velma from scooby-doo and she lead me into a diamond mine, where daffny was mining diamonds and told us of what her plan with the diamopnd mine was. I don't remember what she said though.

Apr 10, 2012

My meditations have always been vivid, and when I start the process of dream recall I amp up, or in my case now, start my meditation schedule. When I meditate, especially in the beginning, I use metamusic/hemi-sync/embedded binural beats with headphones to assist my focus. It's just my method and won't work for everyone. I find it blocks out my bodily noises that are especially distracting at first - heartbeat, breathing, gurgling stomach...as well as blocking out external noises: clocks ticking, cars, airplanes.

So, in this particular meditation I used the 'Between Worlds' metamusic CD, which at one point has a very heavy beat that reminds me of a tribal setting. I had no intent other than meditating and focusing my mind on the music. But scenes of nondescript tribal people in a circle around me came to mind, and I couldn't shake it. So, I went with it. Everything was blurry though. It was almost like I was in a drug induced state within this 'visualization'.

The tribe acted in chorus with the music. They chanted and played the instruments I heard - one of which is a didgeridoo. Google it and listen to the heavy sound vibration and you'll see what I mean. You can also google Hemisync and binural beats to get an idea of what I use.

Then, my focus shifted, and I felt a pulsing in the first/second chakra. It's not a helpful way to focus your attention because it ends up being a complete distraction, which it ended up being but in a good way, I guess. Anyways, the first chakra is in the lower pelvic region and the second one is your sexual center, I suppose. It's they are the two most primal and basic of the charkas, IMHO. [Feel free to correct that if someone knows otherwise.]

As the first/second chakras pulse, my attention gets drawn specifically to that region and my pelvic region begins pulsing with the music. Well, the music had a very heavy beat that began slow and sped up. The visualization - or my imagination - which is one and the same in the beginning - happily went with that.

In the center of the tribal circle lay this man - I never saw his face just his legs and I knew he was naked, but I did not see any naughty parts . Again, the whole scene was blurred. I felt, more than saw, myself moving toward this man and I did a sort of 'hands in the air and move like you don't care' type of dance to the beat. I fell to my knees and straddled him and began moving to the beat in my visualization. As the One thing lead to another and...I'll leave it there as I don't know the appropriateness of this post. [so apologies ahead of time]

Now, what always gets me with meditation is wondering why my brain pulls me to one direction or another as I don't recall thinking about sex before I started. While some might say this is a GREAT meditation, do it again - it becomes a complete and utter distraction from the main goal, which is to focus and clear your mind. Well, if you're focusing on sex and climaxing, that's not going to clear your mind. Next time, [today] I will use a different CD because I think it will become an issue and my mind will immediately go to the tribal scene like a little girl on Christmas who can't wait to open her presents and runs directly to the Christmas tree...

Dang body - you're a treacherous sneak!

I'm browsing YouTube. *I see a video about changing height in dreams. *I click it and scroll down to see the comments like every time I watch a video in reality. *The two top comments are nearly identical. *"Eat apples, they help you grow taller!". "Use apples so you can be millennium size o3o"
I don't watch the video. *I move on to the next related video.
It's a minecraft texture pack work in progress video. *The texture pack has multiple textures for every block that swap out randomly for every individual block do it doesn't look tiled. *I watch as the creator shows the grass first in his small showroom cave. *Then he passes by a wall of all the other blocks until he reaches the end. *He then says that the pack is a WIP because of the next blocks. *"I've applied the same technique to red stone as well" he says, walking by a flashing red stone contraption. *"and here's glass". *He stops at a large chunk of glass. *I observe that the texture pack is very red in general hue. *(dreams ARE in color! ) The video makes me want to play minecraft. *I close out YouTube and open up minecraft.
I spawn in my world, in a cave looking for resources. *I walk forward a ways. *It becomes apparent that gradually I am actually living in the world of minecraft, not typing away at a keyboard. *I suddenly see a creeper. *Oh crap! *I stand still in shock as it slowly walks toward me. *I *regain my senses and stumble backward slowly. *It catches up. *I instinctively step on its foot nearest me. *It makes a crunch noise and I suddenly wake up.

I am taking part in a game show! *The first challenge is for the strong contestants do I'm sitting out. *The goal is to climb as high as you can in a room after a certain amount of time that nobody knows. *I watch a girl who is having a hard time climbing. *The others are very high up already as if there was a cargo net on the walls. *Suddenly it's time. *All the results show up on my screen. *The girl tied with the other team's girl contestant, and the 2 males on each team scored higher but somehow tied in pairs of 2! *There must have been ledges on the walls to grab on to.
Now it's time for the second event. *I watch a few contestants in costumes tumble out of a hole in the wall into the big room. *This event is all about acting out a word while in costume. *That team acted out falling well.
I meet my team. *3 girls and N... who will be capturing our performance on his computer for the judges. *Everyone is picking a costume. *N pulls me aside. *"Be sure to win the strange 9 pipe problem" he whispers, pointing at the best prize on the computer screen. *I nod. *Every contestant who participates wins a random prize, and I'm feeling lucky.
I walk back to my team practicing in costume. *Our word is "frictionless" and we are stuck trying to figure out how to act it out. *One girl points out that all their costumes are from a Mexican TV show. *They start talking to each other in Spanish, giggling.
I walk over to the last remaining costume and pick it up. *It's Pluto, you know, Mickey Mouse's dog. *Giggles turn into laughs. *They all think it's funny that I got that costume. *N isn't laughing. I walk over to him while putting my right arm in the costume. *He points to a piece of paper on the desk. *It's some art by me. *I have given some to N before but I wouldn't give him that. *He assures its for good luck, we will need it. *I start putting my left arm in the costume. *The costume is too tight, I can't fit my arm back in the arm hole. *I force it harder and harder. *I look at the paper. *Written on top in N's handwriting it says "Good luck getting the costume on x3". *Suddenly I wake up.

Was in a house with some family members when we started noticing that the sky was getting covered by black clouds. Then this airplane flew through the clouds a certain way and the clouds turned into a massive tornado we all run inside and the house gets lifted up and we start flying through the air before we hit the ground the dream fades.

All I remember is that I was explaining something to someone about how my cousin died, but his mom and older brother were there and I didn't want them to know I was talking about him.

I've been having awful recall lately. I need to start going to bed at a normal time, and not my usual 2:00am. Does anyone else have trouble with this?

04.11.2012

Finding Spirit? Alyzarin on Webcam? (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Dream 1: Finding Spirit?

Thinking back on the dream, I find that the person that looked like Spirit from DV, she was wearing a pink dress shirt, just like the dream I had with Auron being a detective, and he was wearing a pink dress shirt as well with some dark pants.

I'm running up some stairs with a kid, and it seems we're running away from a monster, or some type of human being. I ask the kid why he's moving up and down the stair so much, and I think he told me how he's basically running on the food he ate as energy.

The child was bald, and I think he was wearing horrible clothing, probably only wearing a long brown cloth wrapped around his body. I can't keep up with him, so I assume that he escaped.

I see a lady in a pink dress shirt, and black pants come out. It took me a while to understand what's going on, and I asked her,

"Wait, you're the monster?????"

I forgot what she told me, but I go down the stairs to get near to her, and then I started to fear her more and more because of what the kid said of running from some monster.

Then when I get a good look at her, she looks familiar, but I can't put my finger on who exactly.....

Spirit? The DV member that is.....

Then I had a dream shift where I think I was floating around these inter-dimension light turquoise blocks. Everything started to spin, and it gets even faster.

It was like being in a pocket dimension....

Then I wake up..........it's around 5 something AM, and I decided to just categorize the dream as "Vampire" for some odd reason before going back to sleep.

I wasn't really too keen on doing a WBTB, because I was worried that I might sleep past the 7AM alarm I had set up.

Wouldn't want to be late for my Biology exam starting at 10:20AM, and I have to eat a big breakfast, since I have to do a lab that apparently takes the whole 2 hours to finish, but we'll see about that....

Edit:

Dream 2: Alyzarin on Webcam?

I saw alyzarin on webcam, at least, that's what the person on the webcam was presuming to be. She had light brown hair with some shine to it, and was wearing a white shirt with pink sleeves.

In my dream I met a girl that I liked, so I became lucid and flirting with her. The next thing I know, we were hugging and stuff. Finally we relax a bit on a couch, snuggling. She puts her head in my lap. She is looking up at me, and while she does I do her in the back of her head. It actually goes into the back of her head and feels good, and I can tell by her expression she is really enjoying it too.

Dream Journal April 11, 2012
Messy Locker
I was going around school, but everywhere I went, I was going way behind everyone. I was never ready to leave any of my classes when others were, and for some reason, it seemed like my entire locker was randomly spread out around the school, so on my way from one class to another, I would sometimes find a big pile of belts, books, and just stuff ALL over the place. When I did arrive to class, already being late, I didn't have my homework done either, so it sucked twice as much.
-4:50 AM

Double Pussy Slide
Me and some other girl were going down some real long red slide the twisted and curved and looped a lot. At one part of the slide she would speed ahead of me and turn her body into like a double sided pussy, so I went through her every time I went down the slide. And I went down the slide at least 3 times.
-4:53 AM

Fell back asleep between 5:30 and 6:00

LDthat lasted an hour to a hour and and a half!
I just knew I was lucid right after a WBTB. I didn't fall asleep till 5:30. It felt like this LD lasted hours!!! I RCed SOO many times! I was in a carnival in one, carries friend was trying to hide her gift under a blue bucket, and then later Carrie flattened it. One I was in school and everyone was trying to stop me cause I went down to the gym, then out the gym door to try to sneak outside, but there was some banquet on the stage so I got caught... I think I might have accidentally killed someone, because everyone even my sister and cousin and aunt were asking me to stop. Then my sister showed me something on her droid, so I just calmed down a bit, but I was still jumping everywhere! IN one part every teacher started class by being on the toilet and I saw their legs, then they flushed. It was weird and gross. IN one part my dad was driving me places and I was telling him it was a dream, and he was like "nahhh" but then I told him to look at the clock in the car, it said 7:77! That was obviously wrong, and I wasn't asleep that long yet! There were a whole bunch of hobos in this little campground full of old cabins. All their clocks were saying weird times and I remembered, and said, then numbers on clocks can’t add up higher than 23. And then someone said something like how hard it would be to open a safe. In another part I was in an amusement park! There were a couple rides and I wanted to show people this was a dream. I went on this one where it is a big circle being held up by something like a crane, and it spun in circles. There were little seats on the circle too. I told some girls this was a dream, and only one girl stayed on with me. I started swinging the ride around and she was scared then I totally flipped it upside down and she fall of and went "Splaaat!" I hopped off the ride and saw a pile of goo. So I put my hands over it and started reviving it! Then she came back to life! I also saw some rollercoaster that went off its tracks but it hooks back on its tracks after about a 10ft jump! And there was one roller coaster that went up real high, the tracks disappeared, and it latches onto a Blimp and the blimp carries it to the other side where the tracks start again~! (Scary amusement park for people who don't know it's a dream!) In another part I was in my basement and I found something that I wanted to spear someone with, and I went up my stairs and threw it at my cousin Brandon. (It was some like toy gun that's actually a pen so it’s long and narrow.) Then I was in my mom’s bathroom and she was in there on the counter and I was trying to seduce her and she liked it. I would have to RC ever so often because I didn't want to forget I was dreaming. But every time I look away for a sec, she would disappear! And then I'd go into a different part of the house and I'd find her. Then I'd take her back, and we'd try again. She said we should try in the bathtub, but the water was a grayish-brown color and it was just dark and scary, so I was like nahh let's not go in there. I put her up on the counter sitting down and I was doing stuff then she said look in the mirror. (There are two mirrors on my counter that can open and shut, so one of them was open, making the mirrors reflect each other, looking weird.) I could see myself and her in the mirrors, but I looked away quickly just so I didn't see anything scary. (But me and her both looked normal, so it was ok! lol.) Then in the carnival place, there was some ground so I wanted to try to earth bend. It was hard though because there was that clear kind of carpet on top of the ground and there were pipes! So I tried it, lifting my hands like I was lifting the earth, but I only bent some pipes and the carpet stuff. Earth bending is really hard, haha. I need to practice that!
-7:33 AM

Three Bridges

I had this dream this morning after the Sky Tavern dream.

Several other people and I were standing by a river with a single, small bridge crossing over it. There were two guys on the bridge taking it apart because they were going to build a much bigger and wider bridge. But then, one of them asked us if we knew how many bridges they were going to build.

I didn't quite understand the question. They were going to build several bridges side-by-side at this one location? Yep. A person beside me said "three bridges" and one of the guys said "yep." Someone also said something along the lines of "with this, we're going to get a lot of visitors."

When I woke up, I felt great, hehe. Several times better as a matter of fact. I feel as though I got an aura boost or something like that. Interesting stuff.

Sky Tavern

I had this one before the Three Bridges dream.

I recall making my way up into the sky somehow and managing to reach a tavern. I crawled through a door in the floor and pulled myself up to get inside, lol. Now, I'm sitting at one of the tables with several other guys drinking, I think, and we see some other guys crawling up through the opening.

Two guys crawled through the opening and one of them had a girl slouched over his left shoulder. He laid her down on the tavern floor. Apparently, she had lost both of her legs on the way up here.... But no one didn't seem too concerned about her. She looked like a cat girl with really, really short hair and a painted design on her face.

I was walking along the edge of a large stream, only it was dried up. There was only a few puddles left here and there. I start noticing a vehicle would go by every so often, using the dry river bed as a road. Up ahead there is this broken down old rusty metal wire fence that crosses the river, and the vehicles have to keep running it over to get by. It acts like a ramp, the vehicles hit it and are launched up a short distance into the air. They land with a splash in a puddle and keep going.

Something tells me I shouldn't mess with the fence, but I become lucid enough to defy my dream. I go down into the river bed, snap the fence apart in a spot, and pull most of it out of the river bed up the far bank. After I do this, the traffic increases as if it were a busy freeway. I'm trying to hide from view behind a tree so that the drivers don't see it was me who moved the fence. That's where it ends.

Remembered nothing when I woke up this morning, no matter how hard I tried. However, when making my breakfast, I saw the word 'fit' on a bone marrow donor card, which suddenly made a connection in my brain to the subject of the dream I'd forgotten - amazing how the mind works!

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10/4/12

I'm in a shop with a DC, buying some sort of drink or sauce. Of the three options available, I advise him not to go for the oyster flavour.

Later, we're in a club, both silently competing for the same girl [the same girl from my dream a few nights ago, that I've only met once]. As we walk to another room of the club, I talk to her about clams [I seem to flirt with the strangest topics in dreams, but it somehow never fails] and she tells me she's never tried oysters. I say that I should have bought her the oyster-flavoured drink. She grabs my hand subtly and I decide to stop talking about seafood. It all ends happily ever after as we dance at the front of the club.

Haven't had one of these in a while. It seems to be the same as every other zombie dream I have, where I watch everyone descend into madness as they slowly turn into zombies. Except instead of a virus, it was because of a small stink bug everyone was turning into zombies. Towards the end, I was riding on a bike with some other person trying to escape under the cover of night for safety. Last I can remember, was being at dry wash that had some green grass in it, almost like a prairie. Hopefully this will kick off my recall once again, and I can keep trying to achieve lucid dreams. Happy dreaming everyone!