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Dream 1(fragments):

i was playing some video game.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was doing some stuff and then lots of people dropped on me but i've managed to overcome them.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some kind of doom mod that increased power of all weapons, and increased player hp too, the level was some city ruins and i was winning against testing bot who was set to highest difficulty.

Dream 4:

I was playing minecraft(apparently) with yogscast(apparently) and we were in some bunker thing, it was apparently part of their base but it haven't been used for ages. We were exploring around and i've managed to find some basic equips and we were talking about who gets what and i've gotten bow and arrows. We went exploring further and there was a forest, underground. Then some kind of bush/vine maze and a pool with dolphins and then more caves further.
Then we teleported back and i suddenly had Doom weapons and interface and waves of enemies appeared all around, invasion mode-style. We still continued exploring bunker while fighting and managed to find a few crates with important items in small rooms. Fighting was more difficult than usual though mainly because player speed was rather slow, that became ridiculous when two cyberdemons appeared and started wrecking stuff because they were moving actually much quicker than current player speed, and i've had to retreat to underground forest area. I've still managed to destroy them using rocket launcher, plasma gun, minigun and some other powerful weapon, though i got hit a few times in the progress and was rather low on hp afterwards.

I'm just outside the front gate in front of my home. I'm going inside one of the families' cars and going to be waiting for the rest of my family to get inside. It's going to take them a while for all of them to get in.

I waited a bit longer but they still didn't show up. I then decided to start the car up making it easier for us to ride on the road already. Suddenly, something happens. A few seconds after I turn the car on, the car began moving. It moved in reverse for a few seconds and the mirrors on the front seat passenger's side was torn apart by a nearby wall. I was in trouble.

I immediately took control of the wheel to try and get the car to stop. Unfortunately for me I have a tendency to afraid of being insides cars in dreams. The car begins to take off by itself. I begin to worry, but still, I must make sure I do not crash as bad as I did before.

The car begins to ride itself down the road and I begin to panic. I have always been afraid of being left alone in a car in dreams. While inside this moving car, its speed begins to increase. There were a few cars coming my way but I tried my best to get out of their way. I hit a few other obstacles on the way such as trashcans.

I eventually found out this wasn't real but I was not fully lucid. I then began to think. There's a good chance that I may die now and if that's a possibility, I'm going to make sure I crash in to Trinh's home.

The car begins to go as fast as it can and eventually I knew I was going to die soon. I felt a sense of adrenaline and excitement, almost as if I wasn't afraid to die. I was soon able to see Trinh's house. Before the car could reach the home, I closed my eyes and began to think it was a mistake. I wanted to wake up, and so I did.

I didn't get much sleep (less than five hours), but I had one long dream that was crazy as hell.

My mum had told me I had to go on this trip, it was very important and I had to pack a bunch of different clothes (because I'd go through super cold and super hot places). I agreed to it and she told me to stay somewhere else other than our house the night before the trip. Again, I agreed to it.

Before I left to the apartment she had found me to spend the night, I had to have dinner with my family. It was the family from my father's side of the family and I think one of my great-aunts was saying that she was too old and was going to die soon. Somehow, I didn't care that much about that.

As I was having dinner, my cousin from my mother's side of the family sent me a message saying I could spend the night at her place. I said I'd love to, but when I left the dinner, I ended up going to the apartment my mother had told me to go.

The apartment only had one room, it was huge. There were windows everywhere (no walls, just windows), but no furniture. It was obviously very old and abandoned, the front door was one of those doors that run to the side, and on the back of it, there were stairs, so pretty much anybody could walk in. For some weird reason, I had no shirt on and I thought it was hilarious that people on the outside could see my boobs (even though I was on a high floor). One of the people outside went upstairs and he also thought it was hilarious I had no shirt on. We talked and he had boobs too, but he also had beard. I asked him how long he had been on hormones and he said only four months. I was happy to have found another trans guy.

Outside, I saw a group of guys who had also seen us. They came upstairs and I was very afraid of them. The trans guy and I picked up stuff we had found on the floor and hit the guys and we ran outside. I got inside a car by myself, no idea what happened to the guy, and there was a woman there too. I told her I'd drive while she handled the "challenges". There were three challenges and, as one person would drive, the other had to press the buttons on the radio. There were three buttons, one for each challenge.

The second challenge was a girl who looked like the girl from The Ring. She was in the middle of the street and all I had to do was drive by her and the woman next to me had to press the button for the next challenge. She didn't, and so it was game over for us. I got mad and told her to get out of the car, since I'd have to start it all over again because she had messed up.

When she left the car, I moved to the passenger's seat and two guys entered the car, along with a girl. One of the guys was my cousin. They started driving back to "my" apartment, and then my cousin went to the backseat (...he was sitting between the driver's seat and passenger's seat... and my cousin is HUGE!) with the girl. I noticed she was kinda passed out, but he wanted to have sex with her anyway. I got freaked out cause that was rape.

The police stopped our car and everybody was gone except me and the guy who was driving. They checked our IDs (and that included my cousin's and the girl's), and mine said "probably a mistake", as in I was just in the wrong place at the wrong time. That got me relieved, but then the guys who had invaded my apartment found me again and I had to run. The guy who had been driving the car started shooting them and I got inside my building right as one of the guys got his head shot. It was not pretty.

When I finally got to my apartment, there were two people there, one of them used to work in my high school. They were talking about how they had found a passed out girl outside of my apartment. They opened the door and the girl who had been with my cousin was laying on the floor and she looked dead. It was terrifying.

45 dreams recorded...loads missed, dropped, snuck away unnoticed or time not recorded. The SST of midnight must include a +- of half an hour (mainly caused by the first two months...I can now generally drop-off between 11.35 to just past midnight.) So, I have sub-divided the night into 9 x one hour segments.

TIME IN HOUR SEGMENTS	AMOUNT	PERCENT
1.00 - 1.55	5	11.1
2.20 - 2.45	3	6.7
3.20 - 3.40	5	11.1
4.15 - 4.55	3	6.7
5.00 - 5.45	6	13.3
6.00 - 6.45	5	11.1
7.00 - 7.50	7	15.5
8.00 - 8.40	9	20.0
9.00 - 9.20	2 (lucid)	4.4

Obviously 9.00-9.20 is the golden time...but a pain in the arse (old people don't like 8+ hours of sleep) also, with such a narrow window, anything that can go wrong does go wrong...which is why I'm trying for awareness, to bring lucidity into the earlier zones. It's interesting that (as scientifically predicted) old people's REM periods are much more spread-out. Also the first dream period is currently matching the 6.00 AM period. Of course, margins of error will diminish the more data I collect

2013-10-04 (day city, night country alone)

exercise: weights & 30 mins cardio
01:07 bedtime
02:41 (still trying to fall asleep? Didn't seem so long, maybe slept and woke up)
04:02
In a car. Cars were parking but crashing into buildings on right side of road up against the stores.

Riding down a sandy hill on a (motorbike? bicycle?)

walking/riding down a dark road, half muddy on the right. I'm following some people, I ask "does anybody want to get the newspaper?". Someone coming up behind me on a bicycle, meeting us there. Nobody responding to me.

04:02 MILD based on last scenes
08:21 woke earlier, had some recall, didn't get it recorded. Woke up, read in bed.
11:12 trying for a nap
13:30

My cat turned almost entirely white. 80% of her lower body. Head and chest area is still colored correctly. I'm very confused, trying to think how this could have happened. I'm concerned it might be sick. I look at the fur and I run my hand through her short white fur backwards (from tail to head), I see the texture of her fur, looks realistic. Handed the cat to someone, here comfort her. The cat was batting a kitten's face. It was trying to get the kitten to do something. I was astonished that the cat was making intricate gestures with her paws (fingers?) to try to get the other kitten to do something. The kitten was slghtly sticking out its tongue. I mimiced these movements, like a "come here" gesture hooking a finger, first one way, then with the finger upside down. Imagined petting my cat while falling asleep at nap.

In a house with a crazy family, "Don't wake up uncle John," sitting on a couch in that house. Turns out it was the mother who was big fat and crazy. I see them emerge from a room above the living room.

Swimming pool down below me. Water polo, the coach had been fired. They're playing a game in the pool, coach bad-mouthed someone. There are a lot of kids in the pool, it's pretty full. A ball or something flies up and hits me? The young guy who has the ball in the water polo game stands up, he's working really hard to do something, physically,

At a large party in a large open house / atrium. There's an annoying guy in a blue suit. I pass him and say something about "blue man." He and his friends make some joke about me and start cracking up, he's literally ROTFL. I think shooting an arrow through his head or his heart to see how he'd laugh, then. I ignore them.

Teeth falling out. A bunch of teeth were falling out, went into bathroom, confused at what was heppening, I'm trying to put them back in, I feel the empty spot in my mouth with my tongue. Someone's bothering me while I'm trying to put them back in.

Walking by some woman, trying to push my way by. I had walked by her earlier and told her some numbers. There had been a show downstairs, (and a room near the show, where there was a teenage orgy?) where schoolkids were lined up sitting on top of a very wide 3-foot-high storage cabinet, each little spot had two holes. The kids were supposed to do a little presentation, say something to the kids in the room in order to prompt the kids in the room to come out and look at them, and then disappear down the hole into the cabinet, hidden, and the older kids in the orgy room were supposed to come out and wonder where the little kids went. A teacher arrives with a line of other little kids to perform on the cabinet (or watch). They said some numbers. The woman who stopped me said, "were those the same numbers that you told me before?" She (and I) was amazed that I had predicted the future with these numbers.

Woman in a nurse outfit, dressed up as an actor/performer. Outside on a street. She was going around getting people to sign up for her show.

With WW, watching an opera performance in a (cafe? room?). I see the singers keep entering the stage enter and sing. They look like 19th century fancy people. I see their hair. Sitting right in front of a stage. It had to do with speaking English, and rich people could get on the Concorde (airplane). Stewardesses said there still were some seats left, going to (Paris?).

Woke up slowly, still felt groggy, like I could have slept more, but decided to get up so as not to ruin the sleep schedule. Tried a bit of FILD. Thought of ping pong as a relaxation (first person view more relaxing), thinking about the sound as well as the visuals. Lots of little dreamlets, one which i brought back after fading briefly, they vanish when I focus on them.

Room was too cold at night, couldn't relax. Slept way better for nap once I put on warm socks.

Seeing scenes of dreams I saw many years ago and had forgotten as I'm falling asleep.

Stay positive about sleep!

Cat, and other parts of dreams came from incubation thoughts!

I wish I could have become lucid, so I could lightsaber chop the laughing blue man in half .

Late morning REMs are long and recall is great at this time!

NON-DREAM
DREAM
LUCID

I didn't see this dream, but I heard some dialogue. Apparently someone was apologizing because either I or they were being slow.

#235 - DEILD - 7:38AM

I woke from some dream and went to DEILD. As if almost by will I hit very strong vibes and began "movements" to transition. Part way into it my son yells out and my wife rolls over. I fell like I am free from SP but the vibes are still mildly there. I try to relax but feel way too awake now. The vibes stay with me until I get up to pee. I didn't check the time but it was still dark out. Now that I think about it, it must have been earlier than I first thought.

I lay back down to WILD and wake into that odd indescribable feeling. There were no vibes this time up the other signs were there. My memory is bad here but I think I was in some unfamiliar house. I look at my hands to increase vividness. Once satisfied, I step to the left and purposefully fall into the void. I wanted to perform one of the TOTM's (scare a kid) at the place I spent my day yesterday, Silver Dollar City. I reach out and feel the wooden fences and railing that are all over the park. I begin walking and feeling the impact of the hard asphalt on my feet. No for some reason I begin doubting myself and think that I can't hold this teleport together. It feels difficult to concentrate and I relax, letting awareness slip away.


I have a long a vivid non lucid where my girls where letting the sheep in the house. long story short, we lived out of town in what looked like a double wide. There were large windows, green carpet and a kitchen on the other side. I was on the couch watching TV when I feel one of the cats jump on my lap. I look and see that is it a gray baby sheep. I freak out and yell at the kids. There is pee and poo on the carpet. I step in wet carpet with my socks on and get even madder. I let the sheep in the back yard but notice they are getting out of the fence. I decide to go fix it. I wake up to WILD again or I just enter the next dream I am not sure.

I am someplace outside with people around. There is a rock wall (Silver Dollar City?) next to me. I don't think about where I am but I have to pee really bad and I don't want anyone to see me. I decide this is a dream and realize it doesn't matter. I go ahead a pee hoping that I am not really peeing the bed

Now I am sitting on the toilet at home. Not only am I going number one but I am doing number two as well. This may sound contradictory but I feel like I am fully self aware but I think that I woke up like this. I conclude that I must have sleep walked while lucid. (a fear of mine) and some how acted part of the dream out. I laugh when I remember what CL said in the last podcast. (my memory maybe wrong here CL if you read this let me know) "Some of us can just LD while sitting on the toilet but the rest of us have to really work at this." I decide that must have been what I did. I realize I still feel really odd and really sleepy like I do in SP. I think I must be half way there now. I close my eye for a bit and feel like I am floating then quickly reopen my eyes. I look down and see there is dirt on my toes. I think it was because I was wearing flip flops in my dream. I decide I better get up and go lay down. As I walk back to bed I get a super HD image of a man talking to a woman. Again I remember the podcast were CL talked about how dreams can be more vivid than waking life. The image vanishes.

As soon as I lay down I enter an in dream WILD. I get out of bed with difficulty and blindly walk back into the bathroom and then my sons room. I look at my hands for vividness and suddenly I can see fine. The room is lit up with sunshine but it is completely empty. I walk circles a few times waiting for vividness to increase. I am a little afraid to leave the room because I think the dream will fade if I do. But I realize the only way to get a TOTM is to just go for it. I think about how my house should look and open the door.

There is a bright light and with some concentration I find myself standing in the living room. I look around for a witch but only see my black cat lying under the dinning table. Realizing animals are DCs too, I decide that this is the witch in disguise. I dive head first toward her and end up gliding on my stomach a long way. When I get to my cat she is now on the mat in front of the kitchen sink. She is lying there like some cat goddess and somehow looking very regal and highly intelligent. I say, "Witch. Hey, witch. Cast a spell on me... please." I put left hand out to her. She replies by putting a paw on top of it. As soon as she touches me, I begin to convulse uncontrollably and my skin turns a multitude of colors and patterns. First it's black and gray stripes, then yellow and orange stripes with yellow polka dots on the orange, then yellow and red stripes, a paisley pattern and so on. I laugh out loud and let out a goofy sounding "wow". The colors and patterns become more and more complex and I become lost in it like I am on some sort of psychedelic high. I hear a sound like a vacuum cleaner in the next room. After a moment every thing around me fades away and I am consumed by the colors and patterns. I enjoy the show for a moment longer until I finally wake up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps

Dream 1(fragments):

There was something about minimalistic forum games illustrated by lazily photoshopped pics, one of which was about some midget and another one was called "ROLL TO BE TRIDE" or something like that with pics of some one eyed thing.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some 3rd person shooter style game and it was happening in some sandstone maze, i've had to escort some npc which could open up passages that were blocked by wooden boards using crowbar and there were some stairs. Then after i've also had brief false awakening.

I was at some sort of party and there was a bowl of magnetized olives to play with.

A fragment about which James Bond films I like and which I don't. I pretty much don't like Goldfinger.

A security auditor called a former coworker of mine H still mistakenly thinking he works for our team, and he said that he would insist that H be fired if H still worked for us due to how he responded to auditor. The auditor met in person with me and with my coworker J. He was very pleased with J's response. By the time the dream ended the jury was still out on whether I passed this test. I knew my answer was not deemed as good as J's but better than H's. would I keep my job?

I had a good two hour walk on an amazingly clear and beautiful day. I stood on a high point and "communed" with nature and told myself that my brain is me so I am the dreamer and the dreamee. I therefore expect to control my own dreams. I'm not sure Ed was really listening but I won't go away till he does.

Only two late dreams last night but I expected that my walkout would tire me some.

6.30 AM
Found some dropped items on the floor around an escalator (finding things = DS) Someone losing things = DS) I somehow deduced that a woman with a baby had dropped them and I ascended the escalator with them. I somehow managed to get pissy with two guys who were trying to push through (emotion -anger =DS) Got to the woman and then couldn't find most of the things I had collected up (me losing things = DS)

Then the scene apparently changed to me standing on the roof of a house. I was close to falling off and the roof was treacherously wet and slippery and I felt anxious (emotion = DS) for my family?????

8.00 AM
I unfortunately turned over as soon as I awoke and I think I lost the front of this dream. I was on a train and I think I had to collect some clues as we travelled through the countryside.(looking for things = DS) I think I'd done the journey once, then repeated the journey...only. this time, the train apparently went beyond it's previous turning point and continued into countryside that was uniformly dark-brown and uninteresting

Ed clearly wasn't impressed by my "Head to Ed" so no breakthrough last night but I ain't giving up Ed I'll eventually be so aware that I'll be flying around without dreams so stick that in your Cerebellum and smoke it

Just getting back into dream journalling

1. I remember seeing my possible future employer standing there looking at me

2. I remember being with four of my friends

I was going to change the water in the fish tanks when I discovered that all the fish were swimming in the kitchen sink. The kitchen sink was much bigger than in reality and the layout of our home was different. I caught two of the fish at once into my bare hands and carried them into the fish tank. As I was carrying them they were struggling in my hands and it occurred to me that doing two at once may have been a mistake. I would have to transfer the rest of the fish one at a time. The fish tank was almost impossible to see into, so I cleaned the lights, and that improved visibility. Then I told a woman (don't remember who but in my dream she was familiar and belonged) "When I cleaned the lights that did it." She was amazed that all it took was the cleaning of the lights.

Fragment: there was a large maelstrom in our toilet but it was not going down.

Another dream "False Friend": I was giving advice to my older son. Apparently another kid had told him that he wanted to be friends with him again, and did something for my son, and expected my son to do something for him in return now. And my son had told that boy that all he ever wanted was to be friends again. And I rather thought that the kid wanted to be friends again because he wanted something from my son. I advised my son to tell this friend that if he betrays his friendship again, he will not be his friend for good.

In my dream I found what looked like pieces of scrap paper near the printer in our home office. I looked and they were pieces of copies of my family's birth certificates with highlighted notes on the back on sections of information that we still needed to provide. I recognized my mother in law's hand writing. I "remembered" that she was doing some project for us that required paper work with birth certificates.

That's when I noticed the "original" white out on my certificate. I got upset and told my husband "Your mother cut up the only original copy of my birth certificate." Him "No she didn't." Me "Yes, she did. Look at the white out." Him "Well, this is their fault." Me "What?" And that's when I woke up.

Notes: My birth certificate does not have any white out on it. My mother in law would not make such a mistake as to cut it up. I have not given her any such project, and she is currently in another state where she lives. I would not recognize my mother in law's handwriting by site. Whose fault was it supposed to be at the end there??

this is a lucid dream within a dream. it confuses me too. anyway:

i'm on my bed with this chubby chick. she's telling me about her violent past. then i become lucid, and in a moment of clarity, i realize i dont have to listen to this. and then i realize that a dream is the perfect place to play out your sexual fantasies

i start kissing the girl, and i can feel that i'm losing awareness. then there is a flash of someone eating me out, and then i completely lose lucidity

because i 'wake up' and go to school, think about my dream and what it means, and get on my laptop

and then i really wake up on my couch, feeling a bit of 'wtf'

Hey guys. So, I haven't been around here for a while.. but I thought this "event" was significant enough to get myself back here. So, every once in a while (random times really...), I get into a dream state where I (until now) am not able to see or move and I have EXTREME vibrations. This is one of the few times I have a. not gotten scared of it, and b. been able to use my eyes and move. I don't like being in this state really because I can't move and that always scares me. I'm not really sure why... but that's not the point. I find that I usually get into this state when I am EXTREMELY tired (as I was the night this happened). So, how I actually got into it though, well.. I don't remember 100%, but I remember going to bed early and waking up (not sure if i woke before this happened or after...). But, when I was in this state, I looked at my clock and saw 11:44. Then, I couldn't move or see again, so I tried to wake myself up. (I need to figure out an effective way to wake from these... sometimes i cant wake :/) When I awoke, it was 11:45. Now, I know that the only possible explanation for seeing the correct time in my sleep is that I woke before I got into that state... or maybe looked at the clock in my sleep (but i doubt that...), but still... it intrigues me.. I could have sworn that i looked at it when I was actually asleep. It was one heck of a night... let me know what ya'll have to say about this and sorry for the bad writing skills... i'm too lazy to take the effort to make it easy to understand. Thanks!