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I m back to old school.
I am topper and good athlete so most people are fan of mine like it was few years ago
I am managing things and I remember the feelings of being in frontline
well it was a great responsibility, but I believe I like responsibility as it makes me feel that I am special
I choose to continue that dream of that school... It reminds me that leaving that school was a mistake , I wish I could change it, I could be with those friends again... but I am glad they r alive in me as they came in my dream......

I JUST WANTED TO SAY, " I AM GLAD YOU GUY CAME ..." but realised it was a dream and I choose to lose my lucidity and live the whole dream forgetting it was a dream forgetting it was not real, because i really wanted to feel that they haven't forgotten me, Avis and I wanted to tell them, "I haven't forgotten u guys "

I had this dream last night that I honestly don't know what to make of. Lots of stuff happened, but this is the gist.

I was living in a live in school (it was not college because we lived in the class itself and learned whatever the teacher felt like teaching us) that was located in a town build onto the side of a mountain. I believe the town was called New York except it was not. We were doing stuff in class and I remember that I was sitting next to a girl that I used to sit next to in high school that I really don't like. We were looking at papers and she kept doing stuff that annoyed me. Then everyone got up and we walked around the class. People were eating and then I noticed that I had a lump in my throat and I had a feeling that it was a chunk of something caught in there. I started coughing, trying to bring it up and couldn't. A few people from class started offering advice as how to cough to bring it up and my coughing turned into hacking. After a minuet of that, I suddenly got the urge that I was going to throw up. I dropped suddenly on my hands and knees and coughed up a wad of paper and a small chunk of something. I looked closer at the paper and found that it was a fancy folded paper plane. I felt like that the girl I don't like had something to do with it, but then someone in class came in wearing a toga and everyone else wanted to follow suit. We all put on togas and agreed to wear them for the rest of the day. Some girls who weren't in the class came in and my friend and I started talking about how skanky they were because they would go out and find random guys to do it with. I started feeling self conscious because the girls were dressed slutty and it made me feel unattractive. Everyone suddenly wanted to go outside and walk around town so we all filed out the front door and I decided to watch one of the skank girls to see what she does. I noticed she started walking around all slow and absent mindedly, then a guy came up and asked her if she wanted to go somewhere. I suddenly had a need to feel prettier, so I started walking along the guard railing that kept people from falling off the mountain the way she had and soon enough a guy stopped me. He had a dark air about him and talked like someone who knew what to say to get people to do stuff. He asked if I wanted to go somewhere with him and I noticed that a few beefy guys started to slowly circle around. I suddenly felt very uneasy and wanted nothing to do with any of this, I mainly just wanted a boost in my self esteem. I asked if I could think about it and he told me I could, so I went back to the school. I was hanging around outside and the school janitor came up talking about how he knew a cop who did set ups. I asked if what the guy that stopped me was doing something illegal by asking random girls to go with him and he said yes. I asked if he could set up an arrest so he texted his cop friend and set it up. I went back to the guy after some time, and before I said anything I noticed the cop behind him making a gesture that said "Is this him." I nodded yes and they arrested him. I watched them taking him away and ignored all the insults he was throwing at me, then I went back to school. I was talking to my friend about how I might need to flee the country because being here made me feel unsafe seeing as I just got a sex peddler arrested when I got a text from the cops saying "oops he got out." I called them and asked what was going on and the guy was talking in circles and stammering, then I noticed one of the things he said sounded familiar so I asked "Is this him..." and he said "Of course this is me, who did you think it was??" I was working on convincing him that I just got scared when I noticed a pikachu smiling up at me, then I woke up.

I felt incredibly relieved that it was all a dream when I dozed back off and had a brief dream about him telling me he would find me, so I jerk woke myself up. I stayed awake after that.

9-20-13

Leaving in the Pick-Up
Me and Al finish packing the back of the pick-up. Its going to be a long trip, but I figured if we also pack some cushions or even an entire mattress, then the ride will be easier. I almost forgot my toothbrush! I'm finally ready and go wait by the pick-up with others. Al has been waiting the longest and eats his lunch in the meantime.

Were only waiting on mom. I thought she was almost ready. It seems to take her hours to wash her face. Finally were ready to go. We pile up in the back of the pick-up. I gripe at some girls to take off their sneakers while they are sitting on my mattress. After that, I woke, disappointed that I didn't know where we were going or why

Thanksgiving and Roaches
Mom has cooked a huge meal for everyone. She serves me turkey wing, even though I told her I didnt want any. Sis asks "how much is it going to cost?" and mom looks offended "Im not charging, I cooked this for you". At the time in my dream that seemed illogical. 'who keeps for family for free?'

After enjoying the meal R's boyfriend shows up. His hair is orange. That's when someone mentions "what the hell dude! what were you doing!" That's when I notice that the orange hair isn't orange hair, but roaches! His head is covered in roaches!

"Its on you now!"

I flip out and wake up

Free Willy
from the airplane view I can see an orca in the ocean heading towards the beach. I wasn't expecting to see them so close to the city, along the pacific ocean.

On the ground, I run inside seaworld, only briefly questioning how the hell did I get in for free? I run into the penguin room. The penguins are running around free, unrestrained, around people. And they're smiling like people too. But, there was a sign not to interact with them or feed them. Ignoring the penguins I run up a flight of stairs and stop on a deck over looking the ocean.

"Look!"

From up here you can clearly see an orca. First two, then three, then four. The crowd was stunned as we counted them. The wild orcas were gathering just below the enclosure of the seaworld orcas. The captive orcas were in a pool on the 4rth floor deck. One by one, the captive orcas heaved over the ledge of the pool and gravity plummeted them into the ocean. The crowd cheers for the newly freed orcas.

In my dream, I was a paramedic working a school shooting scene. This is really odd to me in waking life, as I have no medical training and have never worked in the medical field. I remember walking in under a sign with the school name on it (can't recall now what it was) and thinking to myself, "Lots of people are going to wonder what it must have been like to be here in the aftermath, and here I am, not enjoying it at all." Once inside, I was taken aback at the large number of policemen, firemen, and paramedics, all just standing around, and I thought to myself, "These jerks are only here for a show. Their jobs gave them the excuse to answer the call, and here they are." And then I remember hoping I wouldn't get too much attention or requests for interviews.

1. I was in a part of a neighborhood of where I used to live about ten years ago IWL, I’d only been there once or twice. I’m walking away from a house, and suddenly slow down to take in things around me. Things come more into focus. I look down beside the sidewalk and see some yellow(?) and purple tulips growing.

2. About a strange family. In one room, two people are having sex. The one on top kisses the other, who freezes. The one on top thinks it’s because they don’t like it, but it’s actually because they were surprised by it, because the top one apparently had a hangup about kissing? Something about shark teeth??

Someone is outside the door spying through some opening on the door.

Something about a little boy.

3. I find some manga on the bottom of one of mom’s bookshelves and wonder what they’re doing there, since she doesn’t read them. Except that they’re longer, wider and thinner than manga. At least one of them was Sailor Moon, and there were four I think. I take them out and away, after scooping a few other bits up into my arms to leave. There was a yellow card and a white paper?

Notes: Soo I wonder if my practicing awareness is why I slowed down in #1 and focused? :O The shark teeth in #2 could come from Rin in Free!.

September 20, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: Not enough!

Woke up running out of the bed because I had over slept. I had the entire dream in my mind and by the time my feet hit the floor it had turned into a fragment . All I remember was my sister working as a nurse and I was her patient and she was trying to give me blood and I was refusing to take it. She was so adamant about the blood transfusion trying to encourage me that I will be alright if I take the blood, but I continued to refuse...I even remember her chasing me with the syringe full of blood.

me and hailey m and some other people were at this huge convention in the woods and there was a huge auditorium and a big screen with all these images and an audience. i was surprised to see hailey bc she was pregnant with triplets. we became friends in the dream. she was a welcoming cousin, just like i guess i always subconsciously wanted her to be (since she always is my friend in my dreams). i remember there was this fundraising bucket with money in it. i took over 10 dollars and didn't tell anyone.

to get out of the woods, we had to walk bc cars weren't allowed. it sucked, there were prickly things everywhere and large animals. we ended up in some lady's boat house and stole a lot of food while she was looking.

then the dream switches to "uc irvine". but it was a dream version, super unrealistic. VERY vivid (maybe bc i took dream enhancer vitamins last night). i was in this room conversing with a lot of people. matt was there and i was so happy for him bc it was his first day at school and he seemed like he was having a great time with lots of friends.

i look over, and what do you know? hes banging this girl in public IN FRONT OF ME and he looks at me and looks sort of guilty but keeps going. i was so hurt that i ran away. but first i said some passionate speech to him and he was like sorry sorry. but it did't make me feel better.

the rest of the dream was me wandering the irvine halls looking for matt. my logic was fucked bc i knew he didn't care about me bc of what he did, but i love him so much that i was kind of unaware of the girl he banged like half the time. such a sad dream

LUCID: in the dream i kept staring at my hands and i knew it was a dream but it was so damn vivid it was ridiculous. i was really tripped out. but then my fingers were regular 5 digits, so i thought i wasn't in the dream anymore. that happened right before i was done figuring out what i wanted to happen in my lucid dream. unfortunately i was stuck, also, bc i have no plan of what i want to happen in my lucid dreams. gotta do that.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some platformer.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some rts that was like mix of warcraft 2 and starcraft, at one point

Dream 3(fragments):

There was something about getting out of some dungeon and opening doors using keys and some special ability that manipulated keys and positions.

[Title inspired by the wonderful roguelike Cataclysm]

First off, I remember some random bits early in my dream: I was trying to get some object in the middle of a lake. It turns out that there are no boats nearby for me to get to it, so I had to retrieve a boat from a boathouse that I own, I open up a Saints Row Third-esque map and went to get the boat, then got it to the lake somehow. Although I say lake, it's actually a pond in the middle of a city. I don't remember what I got.

Then I remember having a bath in one of those small tall japanese bathtub. It actually felt good.

Then for some reason I remembered driving a motorcycle across the city and avoiding missiles that fall from the sky.

Then now I remember being in what seem to be a house-bunker and closing a door because I saw a zombie. There are 2 people outside who want in. I told them to kill the zombie and we'll talk.

Ultimately they failed, but didn't die. The zombie was intelligent and was able to talk. I don't remember what it said but I do remember having to jump away as it tried to blow up the door with a rocket launcher. Luckily the door was fine. I opened the door and blew the zombie up with my own rocket launcher. But then some more nasties came and I locked the door.

Later in the morning I got out and found really weird enemies, like giant rats, a normal-sized rat riding a giant disembodied head of what seems to be a walrus. After I killed them I found the two people from earlier. I apologized to them about last night.

Then I woke up.

I had the strangest dream last night, it felt like it lasted for DAYS! It was a very, very, very long dream, we (me, my family and random people) were on the run because of - surprise, surprise - the zombie apocalypse. We kept going from one place to another, "stealing" abandoned buses on the street, invading abandoned houses (that were always so dark and dirty)... we also had a few problems with other groups, ended up having to shoot some people, then the zombies showed up and we were back to running. Crazy dream, really crazy. But definitely interesting, I can't recall having a dream that lasted for days ever before, so... fun!

I become fully lucid while doing my Apollo trick, and lose all visuals in the process - I have a sense of having a body, but there's no setting. (The Apollo trick is meant to get me out of nightmares, but I have no memory of any dream scene before this, except the thought that I 'lost' visuals.) I start floating close to the 'ground', although there's no ground, and a setting starts to form: the road outside my IRL home.

Memory gap. Next thing I remember is a non-lucid dream in a different setting, involving accidentally upsetting my IRL sister (my recall for this was quite long and detailed). Woke up at 5:37 AM, less than an hour after getting to bed.

Recall for the rest of the day was terrible. Vague fragments of dreams set in Being Human and Lost Boys, with a possible false awakening after the Being Human one - I don't remember 'waking', but I spent a dream scene trying to describe that previous dream. The only details I managed to remember: as Mitchell, needing a werewolf to briefly hold me down under the surface of a river, and the one I've got on hand doesn't live up to George in any way.

9/20/13 quick notes... recall absent all night. LD was only save here. I think a few FAs. No plan to try tonight..work night..but house alarm by C IRL. 6am SSILD. DILD knew but decided to do RC..went fuzzy then floating in void. Floating was very neat, slowly rotating like astronaut. Don't RC if already know? (If not about to jump out window or something.) But transition was fine. FA caught, Wife was L (T's) through roleplaying and very hot..agreed to quickie. Pulled off shorts and then see wifes white shorts she wears to bed and then I remove them, we both get undressed and she is sexy and I am very very excited. Yes..a longer LD before but thought I would remember easily... remember thinking this is continuing & wondering if I am speaking in my sleep. My room was different...smaller bed by window but bathroom was in same place. Only count one LD...too unclear if DEILD chains...

I am getting frisky with my girlfriend on my bed. Some one jumped in my room and turned the lights on. I’m standing, naked, on my bed as there is a crowd of family members at my door. I reach to pull the fan light switch, but can’t seem to pull the switch. I try to pull the covers over me, but she had already taken them. I hear a family member whisper, “ you should be ashamed”. I think, “well FU, I don’t care”, but I don’t say it…Some one gets the lights off… I am now in the living room… Someone is attacking us, but a few of us get away… My girlfriend and I are in a row boat, with the attackers. Something happens and the boat gets cut into several pieces. Our piece of the boat floats away from the attackers… We are paddling the boat to a huge truck that is in the water. We get to the truck and get onto its room. We are surrounded by water…I put my head down and pick it up. When I look up, I see that I am laying on the room of the truck and that there is no water around me. My family and friends are there and I get off the truck. I see a meteor flying down from the sky. I see it turn from a ball of flame into a large metal ball. They tell my to go look at it. I tell them no, because of the fact that the attackers might be there. They tell me, no, that was only a dream. I eventually am convinced that I WAS just dreaming. I talk about my dream… then I really wake up

That wouldve been the best time to do a reality check. Next Time.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1(fragments):

Was talking to SilentEternity on skype.

Dream 2(fragments):

There was some story where some anime person entered some place, encountered a dragon and was about to attack, but then two small dragons appeared and prevented the fight.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing Akashicverse and it was apparently stage 4, but it was different and there were many enemies that were structured part by part, Hellsinker-style.

Dream 4(fragments):

Was talking to SilentEternity on skype again. Then we were playing Doom and at one point i've entered some square-ish room with red wolfenstein 3D-esque walls and four pillars and i had to fight four Cyberdemons which also could fire BFG9000 projectiles of all things. I've managed to dodge them though. I wake up and try to DEILD but can't get back to sleep, though i get brief vivid 1 second long HH(or maybe it was FA) where i am in the bed looking at hands and they are scaly.

[COLOR="#800080"]It started with me waking up.I was in a different place(couch) than where I fell asleep on.My sister was on the other part of the couch.So I woke up a bit confused,How I got there?I looked at the picture on the wall and it was making all kind of weird faces and noises.I was scared so I screamed but then suddenly stopped.I was thinking:[/COLOR][COLOR="#008080"]Wait a second,Why is that picture on the wall making those weird faces?I must be dreaming.I do the hands RC and I don't notice anything wrong about them.I keep insisting on it because I knew it's not real life.Eventually noticed something wrong about them and became FULLY lucid.I looked around,And said to myself that I should jump out the window.But I didn't did that,I was too afraid to do it.Afraid because the dream was too freaking vivid and I confused it with real life even though that picture thingie won't happen in real 100%.I walk down the stairs and I'm in the front of my apartment complex.I tell myself that I should really try to spawn Kris.I imagine him being in the back of the apartment complex and I walk there.I saw some gates and there was this man.He wore a black shirt(Just like Kris) and some black pants.He had his hands in his pockets and looked at something.He turned to me and told me that We need to talk(He was being totally serious).It was totally not Kris,He had a grey hair color and looked like he was in his 30s.I look at him confused while he mumbles something I don't remember.Suddenly,Some other people that looks similar to this man walks to us and stare at us.They were wearing some bloody red shirts and black pants.[/COLOR]

That's all I remember T.T(I'm pretty sure the LD was much more longer but I can't remember anything else.)

REALLY vivid I say.