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A few nights ago I had my most memorable and successful LD to date. I used a WBTB and WILD Method with a mix of reality checks and talking to myself with the LD to solidify a very stable LD environment. This is a first for me.

Time at approx 04.00am and checked the time again after at 04.38 my estimate is that it lasted around 15-20mins. I accomplished two of my three of my short term goals and had a lot of fun along the way. However at the end of the dream it took a rather unexpected turn.

Setting: Laying on the couch listening to the Last DV's podcast that very evening, was especially motivated. Once again i can hear the sound of rain and wind outside (this could be trigger for me) As I closed my eyes HI was much more vivid than I can ever remember. I am still awake and appearing in my minds eye some items of clothing hanging together in a bunch, different colours and textures and scruffily placed on a hanger.

All of a sudden, snap its solid, really there, fantastic clarity, textures and patterns extremely vivid. Now I realise I'm in. I think to myself I'm here, I should be able to change these old clothes to something else. I imagined the bunch of clothing becoming a tree, and sure enough they started morphing, growing leaves and shoots, budding and getting larger completely covering the clothes until it was a fully grown bush, it wasn't a tree but to see it change and grow In front of my eyes because I had willed it was magical, very emotional even.

I decided to fly and jumped straight up, but only managed a kind of slow float, I kicked my legs as though swimming to travel up and as I did, water started pouring all around me, I reached to cover my nose ( At this point the dream became more stable than usual) and doing so reminded me to do a reality check. With water all around and me floating up I did the nose pinch and breathed in.

I'm in a city scene shopping area at night, a widened pedestrian area somewhat rundown. The air is humid and wet, a pleasant night after a downpour, warm, and a smell of fresh rain on the roads. Neon signs and old posters hung in the shop fronts and many people where wandering around. At this point I talked to myself 'this is a dream, why don't you look around' I didn't think it, I actually said it out loud to myself in the dream and I felt this really anchored me in there. I used 'out loud' talking to myself more throughout the dream to maintain it. I also heard voices of people I knew from waking life and at one point my 4 year old popped in there and I actually saw him float on by.

Last months 'task of the month popped in my head and i went into a store, a tall thin gentleman with black skin and short black hair was talking with another I couldn't see, I interrupted him, apologised for the intrusion and asked him excitedly 'what is the meaning of life' he opened his mouth to speak and as he did I got a sinking vacuum pulling dizzy sensation feeling in my chest and I was outside again. ( it's possible the LD destabilised through excitement)

Some floating around a shopping mall now which was also an event venue, a sports competition was taking place but it was also a gaming convention, I spoke to a DC who told me a way to get a BETA key for a game I am waiting for.

Outside again now and interacting with the DC's I would ask I young guy to look at a symbol on his tracksuit, I'd ask him 'what is it' , he said an Adidas sign, I told him to look again as it changed in front of his eyes, he looked confused and didn't say anything. I did the same thing with DC's and large digital clocks that I saw hanging in the shop fronts, asked DC's the time and then watched with them the numbers morph to something intelligible.

...I'm now in a small room, standing at the open doorway, there is a large wooden table in the middle and a woman is standing to the right of it. She is very out of context in my dream if i can explain it that way and i sensed different in some way to all the other DC's . I also knew her very well (within the dream) She has long red hair and is wearing a headband of vine and flower. She has on a long green, what I would describe as medieval dress, the embroidery and detail on it was amazing, it looked like a costume but was so well made and the fabric too was different in someway not modern perhaps. I went over to her and picked her up in my arms and we walked out the door...

I been here before... This was a home where I resided after a long drive through the great plains surrounded by a tremendous forest filled up mostly with roads! There were so many layers one could come by driving all the way through it. Each layer of road would take you higher up until eventually you reach the clouds fogging some of the roadways up there. Fortunately, I was at the very bottom and at the center of this gigantic stadium of roads.

There was a home located there, I've been there before. It made no sense to me how I got there, but I paid close attention to how it felt being back at this same place.

Unlike the other dream, there was no one at the residence this time. This time, I'm leaving the land and I'm only back here to make sure everything is fine before I go. I saw the same layout of the home as I did in the other dream. I didn't have time to check for specific items or details of the room, so I continued my way outside, where I had discovered a new place to explore.

I walked outside to see if I found anything interesting. I saw parts of the gigantic stadium of roads, and I also saw a group of women outside the home performing religious chants. I also noticed the weather changing slightly from sunny to a bit misty. I walked past the religious people and made my way towards one of the most beautiful scenes I see in a lot of my lucid dreams!

Once I entered a new scene, I noticed a whole class of students walking towards the area I was heading to. Some of these people, I already know but a few others, I do not. We were walking on grass now, beautiful, brightly green covered grass. We walked alongside a fence that eventually led us to a dead end. At this dead end, there was a wall set horizontally from it. This wall had a faded yellow color to it. I also noticed that this wall led towards a gap between one side of a fence, the one where me and the class where standing by, and one end that was about 20 feet away from the fence next to us. This made me recognize something. I looked up to get a better look at the view across the other fence and noticed a big green, grassy field, along with a set of buildings and playgrounds beyond it. At that moment, I realized I was at Fairfax Elementary School.

Fairfax is like the death bed for me. Dreaming of this place over and over again, experiencing astonishing events with past relationships with people, and remembering it to be the beginning of my timeline, I am truly motivated to keep lucid dreaming to keep my spirits up.

I stood on this field and witnessed its wonderful moments of peace. Me and the others had then finally decided to go back home. There were people I seen across the field around the playgrounds. They all clapped their hands as we were heading towards the back of a school. We all clapped as well. I raised my voice and began shouting out of happiness. My voice raised the excitement from the others on the playgrounds. We would longer able to see them after entering the exits of school grounds.

Although it may not seem so beautiful now, this next moment had me really joyful minutes after waking up from the dream, especially when I was in it. I saw one end of the school to my left and the other classrooms at my right. There was also a forest in the direction we were heading. I noticed a lot of vividness at this time. I paid close attention to the quietness of this area, as well as how many people were there at the time. There was a janitor walking around the back of the school and a few other students walking towards their classes. I heard almost nothing while I was walking past this scene. I ponder over it only because this was the first school I ever attended, and I happen to dream a lot of it. If I could, I think I could thoroughly remember what it all looked like...

Before I knew it, I entered the forest and discovered a new set of fears that eventually made me want to wake up out of the dream.

Dream 1

I was in a super market with my Brother. I thought I saw Nat Mc. She was coming my way and I was reaching for some Tuna on the top rack. I grabbed one of the cans and it was open. I started to eat the tuna from the can, as the girls came my way. The girls were now Latoya and Rach's Mum. Latoya tried to give me a kiss, but held her hand out, for a shake of hands maybe? I didn't want to be greeted that way as I had just ate tuna, and probably smelt like one. Latoya had blonde/orange hair. I told her she looked great with that colour hair, and asked her if she had done it like that before? She said no.
I saw Rach A next to me, and said Hi, what's been happening?

False awakening (no lucidity)

I was trying to DEILD and was finding it hard to get back to sleep as I thought I failed. I got out of bed to whoosh the blankets, thinking it would help my chances of getting back to sleep. I jumped back in bed and want to sleep. *Face palm*

Dream 2

I was at a random house, and was doing something on the PC. I noticed Maryanne C(MC), and her kids had visited us. I greeted MC with a kiss on the cheek. I went to greet the kids, and gave them one hell of a awkward hi-5.

I put the television on her the kids to amuse themselves. We were sitting around and I saw a big bat standing on it's perch. It's perch was just a couple pieces of timber nailed together. It had spread it's wings right out and started to fly around the room. I was convinced it was being controlled by wind force that was in the room. It came inside the lounge we were sitting. It was now spinning as fast as a ceiling fan, coming closer and closer to Sarina's face. She was letting it get closer and closer, trusting that it would stop as it gets too close. MC's boy said to us, imagine if we were on dope and saw this happen.

I noticed a piece of paper that Luke St had written on. It was a convocation of that Luke and the chick from Bathurst (Orange hair?) was having. Some things that were written was, that I was maybe gay? and that my big lips are what scared her. I assume she meant something else.

Not LD #3 but a good night generally. I'm hampered by OAP pains at night (my legs and neck...not excruciating, just enough to distract) I've now found that tensing my leg muscles brings temporary relief and that helps. I tried Bako's Autosuggestion Tutorial last night and I also switched off the alarm.

02.50 AM Woke feeling ill (again) Sure there was a dream to be captured but feeling ill made me miss it.

04.25 AM I now know that around that time is dream time so, (hopefully) I'll no longer need an alarm I've a hunch the alarm hampers "pre-alarm" dreams. Still feeling faintly ill but I got the dream.

There was a property which had a large "workshop" with big folding doors. A coach party of men had stopped nearby and there was a suggestion that they were drunk (never!) and I feared larceny so I was closed the doors. I looked around the adjacent properties. (definitely more looking around and noticing detail)

There was also a conversation (this dream...an earlier one?) between a manageress and her male superior. She had a problem and he wasn't helping her solve it. He "wasn't going to tell her her job" and he was basically saying "get on with it." (virtual twat!)

Did a WBTB & WILD after one hour. I cannot progress beyond SP and what I call "rushes" No bells, lights, whistles, dancing girls, Grand Parades...not a whiff of a dream (Damn you Ed!...a cartoon would do!}

07.35 At some sort of fete or boot fair and examining a piece of rock and noticing the detail on it. Then looked at a clump of what were supposed to be small shell fossils. The detail was incredible...and impossible of course. Small fossil shells leave imprints in rock, not whole shells (forgive Ed. He's just...unconscious) Then got into an argument with the father of a rude small boy. The debate was impassioned and the traded insults seemed to be coherent...very detailed and civilised...no swearing...no violence (category U...green to other countries)

09.30 Was I (the next) Dr Who (after Peter Capaldi)?...Dr who gets positively geriatric. "We" had cornered a villian and I held a shotgun??? (no screwdriver?) I gave it to my assistant while I apparently decided to wake up.

Conclusions. Much more awareness (but not enough yet) I like Bako's tutorial and getting off to sleep seemed easier...although, being older, I have to really squeeze to get back to sleep after 08.00 AM. I haven't yet sufficiently conditioned myself to DEILD it seems.

Gradually honing my diet (now includes Cod...sorry Cod, I know you're endangered but my needs are greater I think...what's your life against my dreams?) A good collection today...I feel I'm always at, or around, the door of lucidity nowadays...gotta up my awareness and memory and further refine my diet

Lucidus Alohomora!

My new Harry Potter spell (Alohomora apparently opens locked objects) A very appropriate spell I think.

All I remember is watching some sort of orgy of three people. I neither participated nor felt any emotion from watching though.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some video game and there was some railway place where we had to deal with undead.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing some RTS, the level was kinda dark and there were alot of enemy bases.

Monday, 9/16/13

Last night, around 11:30 - 8am

Drink of water before bed, and every time I got up.

I know I had a 'busy"dream. When you have tons of things to do. But didn't remember it well when I woke up in the morning, and now I remember even less.

> D. Boon playing guitar on stages, Twice

The first time I saw him on a stage that was for a large outdoor venue and he was heavier-set in the dream than he was while he was alive. He also spun like a top on stage once on purpose.

The second time was in a club of some sort. He finished playing guitar with two other people who may or may have not been George Hurley and Mike Watt and then D. started mouthing off, Cussing about some person and then going to the back of the stage and he looked through a small hole in the wall.

> Car trying to pull another and me realizing it was too small to pull as the engine would be ruined

I was in my driveway, Then the old Jaguar XJ6 was there and later I was driving a 1957 Studebaker. (See video linked below) There was talk of the wheel wells not being rusted out as I looked in the trunk, At one point.

Later I was driving the Studbaker (Though it looked more like a 50s Nash metropolitan at this time) and I tried to pull another car in a parking lot (Near a Staples which was not where it is in waking life) but I realized the engine would be ruined so I stopped.

> Splinter Cell-esque guy ruining places that were being used to destroy things

This was a rather long one. Someone was destroying industrialized polluting places on islands (And killing people in the process)

At one point I saw some characters who resembled Pinkamena D Pie, As if they were clones.

At another part the person kicked a guy named Murphy out of a crane, Killing him.

‘We’ were being held hostage by some guys. We were lining up Mexican dishes (refried beans being one) on the back of a couch (or was it the porch?).

There was a room in the house with cats and dogs, I thought it surprising that they were getting along.

For some reason I was allowed to go outside. I walked through heavy rain until I reached a waiting group of young people (17-20).

Inspiration: Mom threw away some leftover refried beans yesterday.

Notes: I’m fascinated by the ‘heavy rain’ thing, this is the second time. I wish I could actually feel the water and temperature of it. Maybe it’s something I can work on in a lucid dream. I wonder if I should put ‘food’ as a dream sign since it’s become a common theme in my dreams.

It was fancy dress day at college and I was in a maths class but this was at my high school and everyone was from my high school wearing the uniform, except me so I felt like I should have done that instead, so I was trying to persuade my friend to let me borrow a shirt tie and jumper

Apparently, long, boring dreams are here to stay.

First, there was this whole thing about me being back with my ex (actually, in some parts of it I was back with one ex, in other parts I was back with another ex) and having to hide from my mum. I also had to find my cousin somewhere.

The other dream, I had to go to my (other) cousin's graduation. It was weird cause I felt like it was supposed to be my graduation, but then it was high school people and I just wanted to leave.

09/16/13

I am in line at an auditorium. I am waiting to see a Disturbed concert. I get my tickets, I am amazed how cheap they are… which is good since I realize I don't have much money. It is a small show, not a huge auditorium. There are seats around the stage. Most of Disturbed is already on the stage, and there are people standing around the stage. I am surprised at how few people there are. I have the idea it is a concert that hasn't been well publicized, only specific fans would have been able to find out about it. I make my way to the front of the room, right by the stage. I know the music here will be loud and I look forward to it. The band members are taking their places, but David Draiman is missing. The person in the lead singer position is Alex Mercer off of Prototype.

I ponder that only briefly, wondering if that means David Draiman is out sick today. I think that is a bummer that he is not there, as I have no idea what Alex Mercer will sound like singing… Well, I'm already here for now. Someone in the crowd apparently shares my concern and decides to express themselves by throwing what looks like a can of beer at Alex. Alex uses a whipfist to reach out and grab the guy, who, by the smell of him, promptly shits his pants before getting thrown to the back of the room. I hear one of the other band members laughing and saying he loves it when some idiot does that. Another one says he doesn't… he got stuck cleaning up the mess last time. No mess this time except in the idiot's pants, I see, as he quickly leaves the auditorium. The band starts playing. The song is Devour, which is one of my favorite Disturbed songs. There was no need to worry about the sound… somehow Alex sounds exactly like David Draiman. As they are singing the song it looks like Alex is staring directly at me. I do not realize it is a dream, so the idea of Alex Mercer staring at me and singing, "I will devour you…" isn't particularly reassuring. But I guess it doesn't bother me enough to make me leave. I continue listening to the song until it's over, and then they start playing The Curse. Before it gets very far I wake up.

non lucid
*I was sitting in a sky like area with some unknown people. I thought with there help I could easily generate bodhicitta.

*I am at the hindu temple and I notice how strong the energy is coming off of Krishna's shrine. I look looker closer and it seems that the universe is circle the statue. I also notice other beautiful holy statues. My step brother is there with me, he is scared and doesn't know what to make of all of this.

*Someone is stocking me and making a lot of videos of me on youtube. I think I look strange when I look at my self.

I'm floating in the sea with a small oxygen tank and no other equipment. The water's clear and empty - I'm wishing I could be snorkeling on a reef (unusually, there's no visual image to go with this thought; it was blatantly inspired by this site, though) and thinking about freediving (this thought did have images to go with it). Back on the shore, I get into a hot spring with some IRL acquaintances who are talking about drinking, and about a storm coming.

'Julia' has reshaped herself into 'Jules' and I'm meeting him at a university cafe. He tells me he led a rebellion. They all died. Now he's lost his taste for bloodshed, except in the comfort of our own bed. I tell him he's much better at this than I am - whenever I've tried being female I've wound up overcompensating with strange obsessions for guns or fast cars.

OUAT's Rumpelstiltskin, Belle, and three fairies are sitting around a cramped table discussing storming-the-castle plans, theoretically - but the conversation defaults to the fairies badmouthing him for screwing things up in their absence. Belle leaves to go speak to two people locked up in a dungeon, at least one of whom she'd put there herself after he tried to attack her, and her attitude towards him has an odd lack of awareness of being locked up as a bad thing; she's spent so much time locked up in one way or another herself she sees it as normal.

Setsuna/Alexiel speaking to Sara/Belle, saying that after freeing her from 'beyond the end of time,' why do you think of death.

A vague fragment about the three main characters of Zelda leads into me being told by a girl (presumably representing C., this dream is blatantly inspired by her, I've never played this series) that normally she'd recommend someone start with a different game, but for me, the characters and storyline in this one are perfect. On screen, the villain closely resembles Rothbart. The game so far has been one long cutscene, to the point that my IRL sister watching with us (who presumably appeared because of Rothbart - I associate that movie with both her and C.) is surprised to be told it's a game and not a movie. When I look back to the screen again, it looks like a Disney movie.

This is my first journal entry on here. I just became a member because I didn't want to be a member until I was successfully lucid. Here is my first true lucid dream.
I am driving my car on a river that is full of plants. The further I drive, the less grass and plants I see. I suddenly know that I have to drive on the patches of grass to maintain speed and traction. I am driving on less and less plants and I start to sink. I gun it on the last patch of plants that I see and shoot the car into a large green bush. The car is facing straight up and I have to keep on the gas to stop from sinking… I’m out of the car, standing on the branches of the tree. I say, I wonder why the car started sinking as soon as I thought about it. ”I must be dreaming” I look at my hands and they are messed up. I see a green hedge near me and jump over it. I land on a street behind a house. The grass is green. I walk down a sidewalk to the front of the house. There is another tall green hedge in the corner of the sidewalk. I take a right and walk in front of the building I was just behind. I see a street lamp to my right and a concrete plaza in front of me. I hear a voice say”…streetlamp…important”.. I don't remember exactly what I was told…. still lucid, I am walking down my street and looking at the dream landscape. I want to yell, but I don’t. I get to the end of the road and it is now dark. A car careens through a fence near me. I look at a mailbox that has a 7 for the address, I blink and it turns into a 4… I want to fly, so I take off down the streetlamp lit road. I jump and slowly fall back down. I continue doing this and each time, I get higher and higher. I focus my intent through my forehead and this works! I am floating above the neighborhood. A DC floats up to me, holding a chicken bucket. As we float higher, a ceiling comes into view. I semi lose lucidity and he begins saying” and I was at a party and they had fish eggs in their beer pack, the next week, I had to deal with an epidemic of bulimia, yeah it was on shower heads and everything”… That’s all I remember.