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09-21-13 I had such a long vivid LD last night. I however am not having very complete recall. I do know that I ended up having to stabilize the dream through my sensory reduction trick no less than 6 times. Every time I attempted to get sexy with a DC the dream would start to collapse as soon as I was getting anything out of it.
High points in this very long dream:
-Studying transformation with my DG first of objects then on myself. I gave myself angel wings at one point. They were not allowing me to travel super fast, so I grew little wings on my feet like Hermes. I was able to look down at a very vivid ground and see my shadow. The shadow showed all the details of both sets of wings. I also noticed that I could see individual blades of grass and other fine detail on the ground. I mostly flew from roof top to roof top, but also flew along rail road tracks.
-Early in the dream before my DG showed up I had attempted to get some action with a DC of a woman I used to know. Not only did this destabilize the dream before long, but my subconscious took over the DC and bitched me out. The DC ranted about how I was never going to marry her, then told me I had gotten her pregnant. I was completely aware that this was a dream, so I just listened with no anxiety to see what my brain would say using this DC.
-While my DG was coaching me on transformation I remembered a task suggested in a thread where I asked for advanced tasks. The suggestion was to rapidly age someone. I looked around for a child and immediately found a very young girl (perhaps 4 or 5 years old). I used the same kind of mental work I do when transforming in a mirror. It worked and she morphed growing bigger and changing over about 20 seconds, until she reached an age of about 30. At that point I stopped aging her and attempted to feel her up. This caused the dream to destabilize and I had to focus on reducing inputs to stabilize. I was so close to loosing the dream I ended up having to reduce down to looking at a single letter 'U' and just maintaining that until the dream came back.

I assume the reason I had no luck fooling around was the presence of my DG. He often forces me to pay attention by such means. he also asks why the hell I think anyone would put up with me doing gross things when they were in the middle of trying to teach me.

I think the entire dream could have been no less than 30 minutes, but it could have been up to an hour.

I technically had 3 LDs last night but I was so tired that my memory was rough. I only vaguely remember some fragments of the first two but the last one was much better.

Lucid Fragments:

In the first one, I only remember trying to stabilize by rubbing my hands in the dark. Then some vibes and my arms felt like pins and needles like I had poor circulation. I waved them around trying to start the dream back up.

The second one, I got lucid and flew around a room that looked like my bedroom in Texas when I was a teenager. I then phased out the window, but there was a thick white fog that enveloped me and the dream ended.

#233 - DEILD - 6:00AM

I have a brief awakening realize that I keep dreaming of being at work. I was irritated that wasn't lucid so I concentrated on the imagery with my usual mantra. I thought of work again so that I could re-enter the dream. I told myself that this is Sunday, so if I find myself at work then it has to be a dream. I see a strong image of a bundle of electrical wires up close. Then, there was some other confusion.

I have a short memory gap here, but for some reason I am looking at a bottle of some sort of chemical; though I am completely lucid. Maybe this is actually where the dream started? I realize I am standing in the shop at work and still saying my mantra. I stop and become curious what is in my hand. I focus on the wording and see that it is an ingredients list. The names of the chemicals are so completely ridiculous that I can't remember most of it. However, I do remember the first one on the list was something like, "cherryvodkarifiousulfatmate". I giggle out loud at this craziness! As I study the wording more and more, I begin to see an actual sentence. I feel there is some importance to it though these words strike me as completely crazy as well. I concentrate to remember it, but I forget almost instantly.

Now, I remember my main goal; to find Dolce and ask him some predetermined questions. I wonder around the shop a bit and notice that nothing is where it should be. As usual, I am extremely near sighted and anything very far away becomes blurry though I can still tell what I am seeing. During my exploration, I almost run into Efrain working on something at a form-board. I think that maybe he knows where Dolce is. So I ask, "Hey man. Do you know where Dolce is?
Efrain looks up from whatever he is doing, "Uhhh. Yeah, he's over next door in the back room."
I begin to think that I'll never make my way all the way over there and a part of me decides to give it up, but I am still curious what he's talking about. In case I decide to try, I ask, "What room is that?"
He looks at me like I should know, "The Melaluma."
I pay close attention to the odd word. I repeat it in my mind a few times and then ask, "The Melaluma? What the heck is that?"
He looks slightly annoyed now, "Just enemy me. Ok?"
I know that he means to say, "Just humor me" and I laugh out loud. Efrain joins in and we laugh together for a few seconds. Then, to be funny, I throw something I am holding in my right hand on the floor in exaggerated exasperation. Was is the chemical bottle? It bounces like a rubber ball and hits Angie, who is coming out of the womens restroom, square in the crotch! She freezes and looks around. I am laughing so hard on the inside, but I play it cool; I look away like I didn't notice.

Suddenly, one of the engineers comes franticly storming in the area looking for a blueprint. All the commotion confuses me and the dream destabilizes.

I have a false awakening in that old bedroom in Texas again. I am lying next to someone but I don't move because I feel horribly tired and weak. I have a hard time opening my eyes, but I manage. I see an alarm clock with an orange light going off; there is a slight sound then it stops. This seems really odd and I decide that I am still dreaming. I worry that if I don't wake up soon and record my dream, I will forget it like the others. I try really hard to wake up but SP gets me and the vibrations start up. I just relax while recalling the dream in my mind.A few seconds later I wake up.

I have some other intensely vivid non lucid dreams. I didn't record them but here's a brief summary of the two I recall from memory.

In one, I was collecting bugs like, praying mantis, grubs, and other strange things I don't recognize to cook them. They all looked dead and gray. There was cooked corn and potatoes mixed in all in a large aquarium. I felt confused and grossed out so I started throwing it all in the trash.

In the other, I was riding a bike but caring a car tire with me. I tried to help a kid who was struggling with his. I began to wonder how I was able to carry mine. Then, I was in school but the teacher was a guy I know from work. The subject was cycling and I assumed I must have somehow failed this class. The teacher talking about studying for the final and too look at the old test to study. I looked in my folder but could not make sense of what it said.

I may have just had my first lucid.

In the dream, I was in a first-person video game. The backstory: I am an old, undead man whose wife is afraid of him and I need to catch her. I could see myself (well, my undead, dream self) in a mirror in a bathroom. The bathroom looked like my grandmother's, but nothing else did. Eventually, something happened and I was in front of the mirror again, but I looked like an Asian man. I said, "Wait, we're Asian now?" and, "Wait, am I dreaming again?" I plugged my nose and could still breathe (though it felt strange), so I knew I was dreaming. I closed my eyes and said, "Clean slate," and the dream world became a blank, white space. I closed my eyes and said my crush's name and she appeared. I immediately started having sex with her, but it felt strange. I felt detached. It didn't feel like I was *ahem* thrusting. In fact, the dream switched to third-person and ended quickly. Unfortunately, I wasn't tired enough to re-enter the dream.

Now, I'm not entirely sure this was a true lucid. I didn't feel truly concious and felt detached, as I said before. Also, the sex part didn't go as I had planned it; I had planned to do a bit of romance and foreplay, as opposed to mindlessly diving into it.

I think I either a.) was dreaming about being lucid or b.) attained lucidity, then lost it. Either way, it's progress!

Dream recall from today's WBTB/nap.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was on my PC and there was something about picture of a golden dragon.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was at home and i thought about doing RC, so i looked on my hands and they were rather normal. Dream faded out seconds after.

Dream 3(fragments):

Some stuff was going on at home again, also something with BSODs.

Dream 1 :[COLOR="#800080"]I was in a dungeon and there was a person near me who put on a mummy costume.[/COLOR]

Dream 2 :[COLOR="#800080"]All I remember from this one is that It had my best friend in it and that it was night outside.We were supposed to go somewhere I don't remember but she refused to come and I told her to at least get on the YM.She nodded then she left,I entered on the computer, opened kvirc and started to tell everyone about my mummy dream :/ .[/COLOR]

Now I know Ed’s running short of material. I found myself in an Ed-made episode of “Only Fools and Horses.” I had a nice fat wad of cannabis and Dell and Rodney (who were potless) were slavering over it. (I don’t remember this in any episode?)

They tried every trick in the book to procure it (even though I was sharing with them) They rolled ridiculously fat reefers (which I objected to of course) and finally my wad disappeared completely and I tackled them "Where is it…C’mon, who’s got it?”

I sat here wondering why my brain turns out such feeble (and, apparently pointless material) then I’m struck by the obvious again. The cannabis had gone…I couldn’t find where it had gone and one major dream sign for me is mislaying or not being able to find something…it was that DS that triggered my first lucidity. Doh!

There are, so far, crumbs of comfort in most barren nights. One was the fact that I’d confidently not written this dream down (famous people…won’t forget it) When I finally got up it was gone and I cursed myself for not writing it down. I sat there for a while, trying to mentally reach out (as you do)…and it came back to me.

Sometimes I think the brain works against me…then I realise that dream signs are being proferred all the time and and dream scenes built around things that could trigger lucidity if I wasn’t so “unaware” in the dream.

So…put it there Ed….I love yer buddy…although you do seem to be too “soap-opera” in your output and you know how much I hate them…are you listening? You’re worse than the wife…at least she doesn’t know that lucidity isn’t a complete crock of shit, but you do…don’t you? You better do else what is this whole thing about?…if I can’t rely on you then who can I rely on you grey wrinkly splodge of fat (fade out)

1. Kazemaru and Hiroto (from Inazuma Eleven) lying on their backs fully clothed in a made-up bed. It was kind of like they were on stage, you could ‘feel’ the audience’s assumption, but when the characters open their mouth and say something deadpan, it turns into a comedy when you realize what’s going in, and everyone laughs.

2. I thiiink the setting was like in a cave on slab-like beds and maybe it was in a game. We were ‘watching’ some Saw-like horror movie. When I saw a character holding a device that cut out tongues (looked like a tongue cleaner), I had to bury my head under something. I remember at one point I ‘swam’ through the tunnels. I think I realized there was no water, and that’s when some seemed to appear to carry me. That’s when it seemed like in a game somehow.

3. Rane came in while I was on the computer, asking for help. I scrolled through an area in Firefox like ‘Group Your Tabs’, only I was scrolling through my tab pages like a picture slideshow. I was trying to find a ‘safe’ page to open and leave it on. Near the beginning, I passed by a page thumbnail showing a chest-up hentai girl with orange hair. I remember thinking that how would Rane know that was one of my pages, I could be anywhere on the net and it could be someone else’s content.

~Dipping a finger in creamer and tracing it around text on a yellow sticky note. Rane says “you’re weird”. I realize that I had used my dad’s French vanilla creamer instead of my own.

I walk into a new room and realize that mom is the one who needed the help. She wanted me to get her some corn, and ‘milk instead of water’ (or the other way around).

I just spent the last two day hiking at the Grand Canyon. The only dream I remember while sleeping at Phantom Ranch at the bottom of the Grand Canyon was a brief fragment involving a cat.

(I'm pretty sure the reason for this is because my friend and I saw a ringtail cat before going to bed.)

Actually I know that I had a couple more dreams right as I was waking up, but I no longer remember them because as soon as I woke up my mind was completely on the fact that I was in the Grand Canyon.

Dream Fragment 1.
Kayley mentioned that she couldn't live with her boyfriend as he drank too much and argued. She asked me if I thought it would work out between the two if she was to live in a separate house.

Dream Fragment 2.
Saw Luke B.

I was at a random house with Big Brother contestants(BBC). I was trying to squeeze a long air conditioner duct through the top of a window, in the bed room. I'm not too sure what we were using it for. There was BBC on the roof at one point.

We were all sleeping in a bed room. I was on the floor with others. I could see BBC dancing outside of the window. I decided to get involved and bob my head to the music. Tully (BBC) put her hand out for me to hold, so we could have a dance. I held onto her hand and that's it. I didn't know what to do.


Big Brother - Tully

We were all sleeping again. I must have been uncomfortable and decided to move my legs to the opposite side of a BBC, and must have woken them. Someone next to them said something about ''Was it juicy, Carrots?'', they said YES. I remember putting my feet in a pile of carrots.

I was at my old house in blacks land. I must have been sleeping with my dog and I decided to jump out and sleep on the other mattress which was on the floor. I left the room and heard that Dad was still on the PC. I went back into my room, and Dad came in and mentioned that he was playing shit because he has been angry. Mum came into my room not long after and told me to jump back into my proper bed.

I was now sitting at the dining table at stone hill house. I was trying to flatten a bag of brown sugar, so I could get all the air out of the bag. The air wouldn't leave the bag. I spilt some of the sugar on the table, and was trying to sweep it up back into the bag.
I saw Dad kneeling down in the kitchen with my Mum. Dad looked upset and I think Mum said to him that she was going to leave him. He mentioned about my brother moving back in. I didn't want Dad to lose everything he worked for and was considering giving him 60,000 to help out.
Dream ended.

I was at Burger King but it was a night club. I was with a Ashman, Sugar Sisters(SS) and Mikkayla.
I was waiting at the bar and the SS gave me a condom. They offered to put it on with their mouth. I don't remember putting it on, but I know that I was embarrassed for them to put it on me in case I got on an erection . I was standing at the peeing tray having a piss, and I noticed that the condom was on my penis. I saw others standing next to me having a piss also.
I saw the the SS come in with a guy, they must have offered to put the condom on him. They went into a cubical and I peaked through the open door and noticed the guy have sex (Doggy Style), with one of the SS (Katie). The other sister (Lucy) was a bit embarrassed because we had seen what was going on in the cubical.

Big Brother - Sugar Sisters - Katie & Lucy

Big Brother - Mikkayla


As I left the toilets, I noticed that the dance floor was empty and I wanted to get this party back up and running. I started jumping around and having a good time, to hopefully get others to join in. It worked, a lot of people gradually started coming onto the dance floor. I remember seeing Luke B.

I noticed a couple workers, cleaning and packing up the area which sold food.

We all had to leave due to the place shutting down for good. I was bummed out because it was close to home, and could get home easier. I heard that there was going to be a club taking over, except it would hold R&B nights. There was have a sign saying ''RB Nights''.

I was now with Ben F, and a few others. We were headed home, and I offered to walk home because it wasn't too far away. They insisted to take my home but I wouldn't let them.

Dream ended.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was playing some shmup which was horizontal and had lots of organic enemies and hexagons, there was some scoring system with collecting energy orbs and an player weapon that was like aura from Hellsinker. I almost went lucid at one point.

Dream 2(fragments):

Some kind of management game followed by brief false awakening.

Dream 3:

I was with someone and we were traveling through forests, then we came into some city and there was some virtual tournament we entered or something. We got some points that i spent on various things, some weapons and upgrades, also there was weird card system where one could pay fee and see half of the cards in selection and then get random one of those which gets turned into proper item and one could buy it, i've got some special ability 'card' from it. Then i looked through gamemodes and noticed one that haven't gotten played much, who i was with explained that it was pretty unbalanced. I got into one game and it was class based combat on pretty big arena in fog between two teams, there were also alot of mechas.
Upon returning i've used the rest of points and we went infiltrating some very guarded place for some reason. It was building with alot of expensive looking stuff in it, like home of some millionaire. We were going through some rooms and there was one big open room with lots of seats and a bridge. The building was guarded by guards in black suits, who could be roughly split into three types: Rather short ones with melee weapons, average ones with some throwing weapons and fat ones that fired pool balls of all things from his hands and they were pretty quick and bouncy, but i could deflect them back, but they could too. We were mostly going stealth, though fighting at times, i've used claws and apparently some cannon while the person i was with used sniper rifle or some kind. Soon we were found and rather outnumbered, so i had to use some power that transported us between dimensions or something.
Now we were in small enclosed area with tons of garbage, we have lost our inventories, but i've still had power. I managed to turn some garbage into generic 'matter' that looked like multicolored spheres and then caused some reaction making it multiple at rapid speed, turning into rainbow cubes, each of them had 999999 'matter' and i just kept multiplying them until we had infinite 'matter'. Then i've managed to craft some weapons out of that, teleporter device for myself and ultimate sniper rifle for person that was with me. Then i've teleported us somewhere, which were ruins of some city. I told person that it's too dangerous and that he should get out of and that i can finish this mission alone now, but he decided to be with me. Some huge mechas attacked us and i started using teleport device to summon armies of various creatures that rushed the mechas.

A newly-made vampire is sitting in a car parked in a garage early in the morning, and is refusing to get out of the car because he's afraid of the patches of sunlight in the garage, he's sure he won't be able to avoid touching them. He's a full-grown man, blonde, bearded, looks Scandinavian in ancestry. The driver, his maker, a dark-haired woman, is calling him a big baby and telling him he'll just have to take his chances.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

IRL friend S. is working with a theater company connected to a shop, which stocks videos of their shows although those videos are out of the way and most customers don't realize the shop and the theater company are connected. They're talking about having to close down (not sure if this refers to the theater company or the shop or both).

A traveling woman reporter is commenting on some serial killer with an MO related to books, and observing that his trail coincidentally matches up with her travel patterns, she's joking about being suspected herself.

A man and his daughter in a forest, the man had some oath with a bird, representative of the forest, and now there's a deer leg wrapped in parcel paper lying on the ground by their camp, violating that oath. He didn't kill or butcher the deer, that was someone else, but the parcel paper was his, borrowed, and this is going to lead to misunderstanding and enmity between him and the bird. The man and his daughter are leaving, she's objecting because it's not their fault but he insists that they don't argue, just go.

I'm in my IRL mother's home, and ranting to her about that previous scene, which is now thought of as a Bible story. I'm opposed to its message - the final moral and point of the story is different, but this scene here, designating man as something separate from nature, is something I'm deeply frustrated by and I don't care that it's not the focus, I consider it irresponsible storytelling.

My mother's deeply religious Christian IRL neighbor is visiting her with his two sons (the neighbor does have two sons IRL, but these two DCs bear no resemblance to them). Although he's not offended, he says that I should focus on the main message of the story instead. I had no intention of starting a religious debate and am happy to let the subject drop. His youngest son, on the other hand, has gotten angry and wants to prove the point to me. I find fanaticism attractive on him. I'm aware he's both attracted to and deeply uncomfortable with me, thoughts about queer issues and gender issues on my mind. He comes to the window where I've been standing and lifts a rock outside and throws it into a tree. (With his mind, apparently - there was some awareness that this was dream logic, and that if we'd been outside he would have just used his hands.)

The conversation moves on to safer topics but I pull him aside, ask him what that was meant to prove. We go outside so he can finish making his point. He leads me over to his father's yard and shows me a hedge covered in red berries concealing a small tunnel leading underground. He seems afraid, but he says he's determined to make me a believer. He's so worked up about this I don't have the heart to tell him I'm already a believer, just not his variety of believer - this isn't the atheism-vs-theism debate he thinks it is - but that's all right. I'm still thinking about queer/gender issues when I get into the tunnel ahead of him.

In the tunnel, I'm a girl (who, in the dream, I thought of as resembling the oldest Narnia girl - she doesn't particularly, but this scene reminds me of 80's fantasy movies in general) crawling on my hands and knees, while the boy with me is sitting on the grass outside, worrying. The dream 'camera' briefly switches to 3rd person, allowing me to see the boy, myself, and just around a bend in the tunnel, a door, open just a crack, showing a dimly lit room with a woman dancing inside, the Queen, and it's the inhumanly beautiful Queen I want to get a glimpse of, although the boy is convinced this is a bad idea. Back to 1st person, I reach the door, peer through and see an image as if the dream 'camera' has zoomed in, focused on the Queen's lips painted so dark they're nearly black, her throat, her decolletage, and an awareness of ornaments of frozen drops of water or tears, telling myself I must remember every detail of this.

There's either a false awakening or a partial-awakening where I'm lying in bed 'recording' this dream, only to realize that I'm not physically writing anything, after which I actually did wake up and 'continue' writing right where I'd 'left off', the part where the boy threw the rock.

(This is from September 16.)

I woke up into a lucid dream from an episode of sleep paralysis. I looked around and was in some kind of dorm room, there was a futon on the floor, a small area with a microwave and mini-fridge, and the regular dorm room surroundings. I also saw a mirror on the wall and wondered what I looked like, so I looked into the mirror and saw myself. I was confused at first, because I knew I had wings, but I couldn't see them in the mirror, so I kept concentrating on my reflection until my wings appeared. After that, I attempted to call Afiel into my dream, using every trick I could remember. Yelling his name, visualization, closing my eyes and reaching out, etc, but none of it worked. At that point I was annoyed, because this was my second lucid attempt to bring him about and I didn't want to fail again, but then I looked into the mirror while visualizing him and there was his reflection in the mirror! He was standing behind me; using the mirror had worked. I spun around and he was standing there looking all excited that we were able to do it, and I ran over squealing like a little girl and jumped into his arms. He said he honestly didn't think it would ever work and he was just humoring me all this time, and that he was "pleasantly surprised" when he woke up in my lucid dream. I wasn't sure how to leave the room since there was no door, but I had pretty good control and stuck out my hand, which caused a big hole to open up on the floor. We both jumped through it and came out on the other side in midair, just above the lowest layer of clouds and the ground below us like green patchwork. Afiel didn't seem to have a problem flying, right away he spread his wings and caught a current of wind. I, however, was immediately falling as soon as I exited the hole. I spread out my wings and tried to steady myself, and was able to finally get myself going in flight after a few failed attempts at hovering. As I flew, I saw Afiel much higher up, his huge black wings were maybe three times bigger than my little white ones and he was blocking out the sun. I followed him up and we just flew around together enjoying the view and laughing. I remember at one point seeing something interesting on the ground, so we landed in the grass and were surrounded by lots of cool old stone structures. We flew together through a lot of odd places just exploring, occasionally ending up in weird dimensions that didn't make sense. Every few minutes or so I would be surprised that my dream was so vivid and was lasting so long, and had this feeling that Afiel was somehow helping me keep it anchored. Even so, I kept randomly touching things and rubbing my hands together thinking it could possibly buy me more time. We flew through a weird ribbon-like thing in the sky and wound up in this scene that was a giant translucent blue cube about a mile in size that would start over at the beginning once we reached the end, like some kind of dimensional loop. On the sides of the cube I could see offices and floors of buildings just floating around strangely, and beyond that was infinite darkness. The darkness eventually closed in and the dream faded away.