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For the past month, I have been unable to remember most of my dreams, and if I do, it is only a fragment of one. Now, I usually would write these fragments down, but, for some reason, they almost-instantly disappear from my memory as I reach for my DJ beside my bed and sometimes, under my pillow. This is semi-unusual but it normal only happens about 20%-30% of the time, but, it has risen about 100% of the time.I need help.

I didn't write down my dreams. really, I'm getting lazy. I know I should, but I just roll over and go back to sleep, and only remember snippets.

My mother was in one of them again. And I remember another one being quite scary (or meant to be scary; "scary" dreams have never bothered me haha).

I need to put in a little more effort if I want a lucid dream...for all I know, I could have had one last night!

Still catching up

Date: 2 May

Total sleep time: 6 hrs

Recall method: tried to memorize dream, recorded when opportunity

Fragment1: It looks like I have bought a pack of snickers, which is actually mars, but when I have a look it is snickers again

Dream2: I am in a building, most likely trying to find my way out, but parts pf the building are locked. Some specific women have relationship with bad guys who are gang members. They are dangerous and soon there will be a fight between us and them. Later, a guy with long hair comes and helps us, so we manage to win. The gang members turn to more pleasant manga type of characters and we discuss the nature of time.

Fragment3: I am in a store where they sell stuffed toys. Initially, they are trying to get rid of the toys by giving them away, a bit later they are selling them with discount. (I really should notice this more often, first it is A, then it is actually B). I relate these toys to DV, and wonder if I should get some and send them to DV members, but I don't have the address.

Fragment4: I am near a familiar park in my hometown. I see some unemployed women, they carry a sign that they are looking for a job. I try to cross the street, when I see a bear cub and a cat. In this case, I try to walk around because I am rather cautious, but soon come close to the animals. I focus on the cat which starts to purr and does cat movements. I unintentionally startle it a bit.

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Date: 3 May

Total sleep time: 7 hrs

Recall method: tried to memorize as much as possible, noted when opportunity

Dream1: I think I am supposed to meet a guy and am thinking about going somewhere as the scenario develops. I am in some bed and there is a transparent line that is like a field of energy. This field is very dangerous, it comes like an earthquake through space and then can kill you. I am trying to keep my distance from this line and expect it to appear once again, but surprisingly to me it doesn't? (Good time to RC even in this crazy scenario!)

Fragment2: I am going to an event and am on the bus station (add to DS) with my classmates. I am actually coming and then going back to HK.

Fragment3: I am sitting, looking at a table with lots of food. I also see some piglets. I begin to ponder whether they can actually associate the food with them becoming food themselves. I don't want them to get affected by this.

#1 - House Sitting [Non-Lucid]

Supposedly I was looking after my friend S's house while she and her family were away on vacation, but it didn't actually look like her house. I had my PSP with me and I was playing some game on it that was like filled with these giant patterned block towers that you just had to bounce this ball down in certain ways and see where it goes, hard to explain exactly but it was very basic yet trippy. Someone was there who I think was fairly unstable but I remember them being N at one point, and I was trying to show him the game but on a bigger screen. There was an old TV set up in front of the bed in the room we were in and a flat screen TV up on the back board of the bed, so first I tried the former with no luck. We decided to try to move the bed to try the latter, and as we did drawers of it started opening up and I saw this cute bathing suit in one that was mostly teal with some black. I randomly decided to pull it out and put it on, which I think it might have just skipped to not have to justify why I changed in front of N.

By the time I payed more attention to the bed again I noticed that it was completely flipped around and I figured we were probably just about good to try to hook it up again, but then we heard voices coming from outside the room and I knew that they must have returned from their trip, and I had known in the back of my mind that they were supposed to be arriving soon. I took the suit back off and just shoved it back in the drawer from behind the bed as S came into the room and N just kept her busy. She didn't seem to care that the bed was backwards. Strangely the first thing that happened is that S asked N how his trip was, but I rationalized this to myself by thinking that N must have just gotten back from vacation as well right before coming over to hang out with me. But that's the last thing that happened.

#2 - Trip Sitting [Non-Lucid]

I was at my house in my room with S there, and strangely I was holding on to her and she seemed to be slowly losing her balance. We were standing at the foot of my bed and suddenly I realized that if she swayed too much she might see my bong that I have in a place where most people won't see it, and I become nervous because she doesn't approve of weed. She actually does look in just the right place to see it, but there seems to be something wrong with her and I don't think it actually registered.

At that point she became this guy PR who I knew and occasionally saw and had classes with all throughout my public school career. I believe I suddenly gained false memories at this point, because I remember somewhat vividly remembering this but I don't think it actually happened, of him smoking DMT, for what I think was the first time. He's becoming more and more loose in my arms and so I just slowly let him down on the ground. He's totally immobile and just to make sure I'm not crazy I check his heart rate. It's fast but normal, so I just wait it out for a few minutes, which the dream kind of sped through.

I was sitting next to him on the ground when he started to stir. He was moving clumsily and muttering some ramblings to himself, so I just put my hand on his back and told him to calm down and take it easy. He takes a breather to orient himself, and then he looks at me and asks "What just happened?" I was still trying to make sure I had the situation right myself, so first I asked him if he even remembered anything. He said yes, so then I briefly described a DMT breakthrough to him and how it can take you to another world full of entities, and I asked him if that's what he experienced. He said yes while still looking very mind-blown, so I patted him on the pack and said "Congrats, you want more?" His eyes got wide and he said "Noooo...." and I just laughed and said don't worry about it, obviously he would need time to integrate. I jokingly pointed out that we always have weed instead and was thinking about going to grab the bong, but then the dream ended.

Had a very minor lucid dream last night.

The earliest part of the dream I recall I was on a coach going on some kind of trip. I didn't recognize anyone around me. However I did see someone I used to have very strong romantic feelings for years ago. I went to talk to him. I don't remember what we talked about but I remember him saying he owed me a drink or something and he was being friendly and seemed to want to get to know me better which I was really happy about. The coach stopped off to get petrol and me and this guy (for the sake of this lets call him T) went into what looked like Waterstones or Borders. Suddenly his kindness died off and he started being horrible to me. He went off to look at some books whilst I wondered off up some stairs feeling confused and hurt. I remember thinking "this feels a lot like a dream. I haven't seen T in years" and then it clicked and I was lucid.

I didn't have complete awareness or control. A lot of it was still fuzzy and I felt an urgent need to go and find T. I ran around and found him on some stairs. Now a lot of the time T appears in dreams (lucid and non-lucid) and a lot of the time when I want certain DC's to appear who I have romantic feelings for T appears instead which gets very annoying.
I stopped him on the stairs and told him I was sick of this and I didn't appreciate him turning up and I wasn't taking anymore of this again. I rambled on about a load of other things and eventually told him goodbye.
He looked a little confused but he said he would leave and with that he was gone. Soon after everything went grey and try as I might to stabilize I lost the dream.
When I woke up I felt a bit like it was a lucid dream wasted. I could have gone off and done something fun but now I've woken up a bit and thought about it I guess it was quite an important dream. Hopefully that's the end of T hijacking my dreams.

Anyway hopefully tomorrow I'll have a less serious and a much more crazy and bizarre dream for you.

Dream recall from today's naps, barely managed to fall asleep but got minilucid out of it.

I was at the stairs location near the exit from my home, i was talking about transformation with someone and we were switching some portraits on some screen deciding who can come up with the best form to do for some event. At one point he asks me "Will you rather be ____ than ____?"(can't recall words), i respond "Why not?" and then he tells some joke and dream fades out.
I wake up and take off headphones, noticing that binaural beats are still playing, but shortly i...
Wake up again and i take off headphones again but then i wake up properly.

May 05 - 8:56 a.m

Sitting in a casino with lavish surroundings with a guy who looks like Birdman. He had rings on all fingers and lots of diamond chains on. He had diamonds in his teeth, i was sitting across from him in the casino environment talking with him and i got to see an in depth look into his lifestyle. At first i thought he was on hard drugs the way he was talking to me because he talked like he was putting little effort to pronounce the words, very quiet and mumblish. Once he took his glasses off and looked into my eyes i got the feeling he wasnt on hard drugs, he was just the most intelligent being ive ever seen, it was an intence feeling seeing his eyes, its even hard to describe. He had cataract looking eyes , they were very glazed , very bright light blue eyes, they looked like ice almost. He told me" Never take from the earth. Don't even touch it unless you absolutly need it, even if some1 is offering it to you. Crazy feelings. I woke up right after he said that because my window was open and i was freezing.

i keep dreaming about the sun and sun related things, like his cataracts. Ive been looking at the sun for 2 weeks now and i have filthy rich people show up in my dreams recently.

[Home from work around 3pm. Sleep from 3:15pm to 9:15pm - deep sleep without dreams. Sleep again at 12:15am, alarm set 4am. Woke with no dream memory and back to sleep immediately. Woke around 6am.]

Dream 1
Finally, I get to take a nice hot bath and just relax for a bit. My tiny cat Harley is sitting in her usual spot on the side of the tub staring at the water. Suddenly, she overcomes her fear of water and just jumps in! She's so cute, swimming around in little circles but as she settles down and just sits in the water, I start to panic the water level might go over her nose and she would drown. I drain a bit of water from the tub and almost regret it as the chilly air hits my skin. She must have felt it too because she climbs up onto my chest and curls into a wet, furry ball. Perfect, I can get some more water back in here now.

Dream 2
I'm living in my grandmother's house again and my bedroom is downstairs. I just bought a futon and want it set in front of the TV, so the room needs a little rearranging. Time to take a break and get some homework done. There's a paper due in History in three days, so probably time to look at that. Looking at the assignment for the first time, the question follows a "what would you do if" kind of format but the scenario is incredibly vague. How close to this scenario do I have to stick? Can I change the plot? Characters? What we're doing? There's no way I can write it like this. [For the life of me I cannot remember what the question was, but I was having a lot of trouble!] Well, at least it only has to be three pages long. I'll just ask the instructor tomorrow and bang it out. Mouth falling open, I realize I've made a gross mistake. The paper isn't 3 pages long, it's 23 pages! Oh. My. God. NO way I can get this done in time. Panic sets in.

Dream 3
Finally given the opportunity to open my own business, I open a drive thru restaurant from my bedroom window. Aaron, my latest trainee from the manager program, is working with me as well. The night has been slow, business-wise, until about 5 minutes before closing. I would love to serve the guy, but he's driving a semi-truck and there is NO WAY that's fitting in the drive thru. After explaining that to the driver, he gets very irate and demands I bring out some coffee. To appease him, I ask Aaron to get him a cup.
"But we ran out of coffee, remember?"

Oh shit! He's right! "Then give him some food. Just something to get him out of here."

"Bitch! I don't want any god damn food. I ASKED for coffee! You dumb or something?!"

At this point I am tired and in no mood to deal with this guy. Starting to lose grip on my temper. "Sir, there is no need to be rude. I'm very sorry, I do not have any coffee right now. I am more than happy to get you something else but if you are going to continue yelling at me, you can leave. Thank you."

I close the window, lock up, and turn the lights off. Hearing the guy peel out of the parking lot, I double check to make sure he's gone but now there is two more semi-trucks outside. What the fuck? Half hour later, now that everything is clean and we are ready to leave, the two trucks are still outside. Seeing me, the drivers get out and walk towards me. They look very similar - mid 20s, maybe 6 feet tall, shaggy brown hair, light skin, dark eyes - so I conclude they are brothers.

One in a leather jacket starts hitting on me and dropping cheesy lines which his brother find hilarious. Thoroughly annoyed at his obnoxiousness, I curtly tell them, "We're closed and I'm going home. Night." The second brother threatens to do damage to the house or something if I do not serve them. Of course, I still refuse.

Out of nowhere, leather jacket man starts throwing up and cannot stop. The brother, and then myself, start to panic.

"Call 911! What's wrong with you?!" For whatever reason, he takes his time picking up the phone. In attempt to calm down Mr. Leather, I sit down and put his head in my lap. However, he then throws up on me and the smell is so ghastly I'm about to be sick.

Fighting to keep it down, I yell again, "Did you call the fucking ambulance? Where is it?" A few minutes later it finally shows up.

The EMT jumps out of the back and yells, "Does he have insurance?" Since when do EMTs ask for insurance?There's no answer so he asks again.

"Yea, yea, of course he does. The card is in his wallet."

He reaches into his brother's pocket but pulls out three wallets. "Wait, is that my wallet?! You guys are thieves! This is why you didn't want to call for help!"

Then I see a small Latino boy by my front door. As the EMT calls the police on the thief, I walk over to the boy, but as I get closer I see he is terrified. "Como te llamas? Como estas?" "Estoy bien..."

He switches over to English and I'm impressed with how intelligent he is and how he has almost no accent. He explains the guy stole something from him, a very fancy painting, and now that he's super sick, the boy is worried he might never get picture back.

"Don't worry hon, I'll find it for you." The scene changes and now the thief is locked in jail. Well, he's not dying at least. I found the picture and gave it back to the young boy. He was so happy and his smile so brilliant with gratitude, I remember seeing sunshine in the background. Dream ends...

Observation
After each dream, I remember retelling each one to someone. I don't know who and they didn't say anything. It seems this happens a lot in my dreams lately. Is this how I might be remembering them so vividly when I wake up? Hmm...

Note: This is my first lucid dream that I have had in months. It was really a great experience to have again. Almost forgot what it felt like, almost. It is rather short, but I hope you enjoy reading it half as much as I enjoyed having it.

I am inside a cafeteria of what resembles my old high school. That wasn't enough to tip me off though. I look around, there are people sitting chatting and eating lunch everywhere. I can hear multiple people having conversations at once. There was a black man that was staring at me, about 4 feet away, sitting at a table. He definitely looked too old to be in high school, and this is where I realized I was dreaming. "I'm dreaming", I thought, trying to block out the face of this man that looked very angry. He looked like he was pissed at me. He stood up and pushed me. I pushed him back and he threw a punch to my face. I retaliated with a mean right hook and he dropped to the tiles on the ground. I plugged my nose and started breathing as that's my go-to reality check. I reinforced to myself that I was dreaming. It was a really awesome feeling.

As I start heading to the front door, a young black kid runs by(it looks like the older guys brother), giving me the stink eye like he wanted to fight me. I just ignored him and was thinking about trying to run up the wall and flip off. I lost my train of thought and looked ahead. There was a display case with pictures and trophies in it. I punched through the glass. My fist didn't break the whole glass pane but it put a little hole in it. I felt the corner of the glass pressing up against my skin, I thought for sure that I would be bleeding. Luckily, nothing happened.

I looked to my right and seen the ladies restroom. It really made me wonder what was inside, so I started heading towards it, walking around crowds of people that were everywhere. As I walked into the ladies room there was a girl peeing at a urinal. I didn't really think anything strange about it at the time. I looked under the stalls and I seen the feet of another person using the toilet. I looked to my right and there was a small hallway. Me being curious, I headed into it. It went around a bend, then to a dead end. I stopped and looked at it for a minute, then proceeding to turn around to leave. What? What happened? There was no longer a exit, instead there was a hole about 1ftx1ft that lead back into the ladies room. I got on my hands and knees and pushed my head through trying my hardest to make it out to no avail.

My phone vibrated in my pocket like I had received a text. I picked it up and I had missed texts from a name called "Vancouver". I have an iPhone 5 so it showed up like "Vancouver (4)". I unlocked the phone and there was a game screen on it. To be exact, skyrim. It was my character sitting in a scene I recognized, Whiterun, if you're familiar. Whenever I would move my phone around, the screen would move as if I were moving the characters aim around. I pressed the home button because I wanted to read the texts. I couldn't figure out how to read them so I locked the phone and put it back in my pocket.

I glanced around. A picture in a picture frame caught my eye. It was on a shelf that was about eye-level, that also mystically appeared. I picked up the picture and inspected it. It appeared to be a Japanese mer-man. It looked like an engraving and blue was the only color. It had incredible detail for it just being a single color, I thought. I looked at it closer and remember thinking about how focusing on this painting would help increase the stability of the dream. It worked too, everything went from slightly blurry to crystal clear.

Then, I awoke with my right arm tingling from falling asleep. I can't help but imagine if my arm didn't fall asleep that I could have continued that lucid dream. I really need to learn to sleep on my back, I always have problems with my arms falling asleep. Glad you read it, feel free to leave a comment if you like!

Welcome DV members. Thank you for checking out my online dream journal. I believe the dream journal is a priceless tool and an awesome function of this forum. Adds another layer of awesomeness to what is the Dream Views forums! I am going to try to put at least 1 entry into this DJ a day, lucid or not, remember or not, just to keep my motivation up. My problem with LD'ing is that I could never keep my motivation up. I'll do good for about a week, then completely forget about LD'ing. That is changing! Lucid dreaming has been an interest of mine for years, and I've been having them for years. It's time for me to really learn about how to have amazing dreams and keep them going for as long as I can. I had my first LD using the Sporadic Awareness guide. It really blew my mind the first time I had a lucid dream after reading all about them on this site. They really are quite the experience to have.

I am going to try to place the dreams from my dream journal (new journal started on 5/5/13) onto here so I can get some insight on what others think about my dreams, and maybe make some new friends while I'm at it. You may see me around the IRC every once in awhile, so if you see me in there be sure to say hello! I am going to color code my entries and try to provide as much information as possible. Hopefully this will train my mind to retain as much information as I can during my dreams. When I LD, they are usually DILD's or MILD's, I haven't had much experience with any other technique besides WBTB. The type of lucid dream I had will be on the entry as well.

I really hope you enjoy this journal, and I hope that it evolves into something great over the course of time and frequent LD's!~

I was playing some Doom mod with SilentEternity. I forgot to set difficulty level when we started, but when i checked it was one level below maximum. I asked if i should set to max, but then we decided to leave it as is. The level started outside, then there was enemy base, two other marines were helping us, but i am not sure if they were player controlled or bots. Some parts of the level were some platforming puzzles, like there was one part that required jumping between small rocky platforms in the canyon.
Later on there were some ruins to which we got through teleporter. There were alot of big powerful enemies, and it were not enemies from Doom, but some weird creatures, one of them was giant thing covered with vines and it was shooting very damaging vine projectiles. After going through the ruins we were back outside and we have reached our target which was corner of the map with a number of bosses that could be fought in any order. The first one was some warrior dude, which was supposed to be powerful, but i had plasma shotgun that fired green flaming projectiles, each shot of which was taking out like 1/10 of boss's health bar. Then there was some big crab-looking boss and big monkey-looking boss, which we dealt with easily as well. I started thinking that we should have upped the difficulty.
After the game i was posting something on dreamviews and then i was in some dark room in different place and i was talking about something life related with gab, who apparently was male( ). I recall we were talking about something pretty deeply, but can't recall what exactly. Then i got some weird message from bot on Youtube, but it was not just bot, it was official YouTube bot of some kind, and started talking about that. Soon the dream ended.

I had more dreams to write, but I didn't get the chance to type them because of minor computer problems. Therefore, I forgot a majority of them.

Dream 1: DYNAMITE: I dreamed that I went to a Do it yourself type-store (Home Depot) and I bought dynamite. Each set of dynamite was sticks of three cylinders stacked in a triangle shape (like Loony Tunes) wrapped in plastic. I had two red sets and two grey sets. Red was stronger than grey. I went to my house and I set a grey one off on a pile of rubble in my backyard. The explosion was intense, but the blast radius was actually quite small. Maybe about the size of a large beach ball. I set off a red one next to it and the explosion was slightly bigger. I got excited, so I decided to lure the family dog under the kitchen table, tie him to the remaining dynamite, and set the timer. The dog had no clue what I was doing, and simply acted casual except for the fact he was tied up. After 5 minutes I decided it was wrong to explode the dig, so I untied him and got rid of the dynamite.

Dream 2: CANYON: It was dawn, the sky was orange and purple with stars still shining. I drove out to a desert with orange sand in a red jeep (I don't own a jeep, but I live in the desert) and parked next to a canyon. I got out of the canyon and began to walk toward the canyon. I walked up a natural ramp which led me to a cliff. As I walked, the dust went into my nose, and it smelled like peanut butter. I got to the cliff and a path led me to a circle that went around a natural structure that looked like a loop-de-loop that was made of rock. The path led me higher up the canyon, and I thought I'd get lost. The path then led downward and led me back to the jeep. I was disappointed the path didn't take me anywhere exotic.

I remember waking up thinking this was a healing dream. Well, that was the intension anyway: I had a pounding sinus headache which would not do away with medications, so I napped in the hope that I would feel better afterwards. I now do feel a bit better: still got a headache, but a bit more manageable.

In the dream I kept getting PMs by Sageous. I don't recall actually reading them and no contents or subjects, but I remember opening them, and they kept coming.

I wonder whether this dream is more like a metaphor for my headache: being bombarded by PMs?

Unfortunately did not get lucid last night but had quite an odd dream. I was walking around a place I don't recall from waking life and was approached by a girl I knew in high school who told me to come with her as she had a spare ticket to see Bill Bailey perform stand up nearby. I followed her as I was really excited. We arrived in what kind of looked like a cinema foyer and when I asked her for the ticket she said she didn't really have any. I was very annoyed but that's when I saw another old friend who took me to this special queue. The woman behind the counter was a high school teacher who I never liked and she started to flirt with me, which was really weird but I went along with it and managed to get free tickets out of it.
At this point I had a perfect chance to get lucid but failed. She had a little bag and tipped it upside down and tons of metal dice fell out. Now in waking life I have a metal die that I sometimes use for reality checking. As all these dice tumbled out she asked which one was mine. I inspected loads and said I wasn't sure. With enough awareness I could have reality checked but alas I didn't. We then went and got our seats and I noticed the first friend had sneaked in and the second friend wasn't happy about this and started a fight. That's when the dream ended. I never got to see Bill Bailey. Shame

Sunday 5/5/13

Last night, bed 1:15am - 6am (Didn't fall asleep till 2am)

WBTB 6am-7am. Had a cup of one bag mint tea with green tea and one bag of peppermint tea just minutes before nap. Got up once at 8 to go potty. Dream afterwards. Got vibrations twice, after turned on my left side, but no LD.

Thought about ToTM. I imagined, how I will detach my thumb and put it back on with helo of either duct tape, or laser shooting from my other finger.

This is what I got:

Non-lucid nap DR: I'm walking down the street, that looks like is in village where my gramma lives. Single story houses. I'm going to a house I have previously been to. But I don't remember well how it looks like. I overhoot by a few houses and have to track back. I recognize the house now.

Inside, I'm standing at the kitchen sink with some older lady on the other side of it. I'm showing her my left middle finger. It looks bruised and deformed. She tells me "honey, you have ? fly worms in there". I look closer and I see heavy movement under the skin.

That's when my finger breaks open at the knuckle and out come pouring black worms. 1 inch long, kinda skinny, color of black, coagulated blood. And it seems like that's not enough, bunch of smallish beetles come rushing out too.

Worms fall in the sink and I wash them down with water. Lady is complaining "now I'm gonna have a worm smell in my sink". I can see, how that would be upseting.

Bugs scatter all over. But I chase them down, until there is just one left. It's little more colorful than others. It's a special bug. I keep swatting at it with a ruler, but keep missing. Then it gets under some stuff on the desk. As I move the items around, I see a sea of fleas on the desk. I figure, I better let them be. But I do get the last bug.

There was another dream after this one, but I only feel, what it was about. Will keep thinking about it.