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I recalled this dream upon awakening at 6am:

In this dream I took an iT class. The instructor was a feminist, and I was her favorite student.

I befriended a male fellow student, and during breaks we would go to restaurants together. he was color blind, and could not tell green and blue apart. After the final day of the course was over, he said he could not join me at a restaurant because he had other plans. I followed him for a while, but then gave up, and found a restaurant of my own to dine in.

There was too much cigarette smoke. I sat down. A little girl sat down next to me. She had a binder of art supplies, so I showed her that I also had an art supplies binder much like hers. Another girl came. She stood there next to us. She noticed a really cool sticker that was kind of 3D lying on the bench beside me. The new girl wanted to have the sticker. And the girl sitting next to me wanted it too. But there was only one sticker.

I contemplated whether to tell them that neither of them could have it because it was probably forgotten there by some other little girl who might return for it. Or whether to use Salomon's solution: suggest that we divide the cool sticker in half, and see whether either girl is willing to part with the entire sticker rather than to distort it by dividing it.

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I could have sworn I remembered another dream at same time upon wake up, but it disappeared.

Side note: That last part of the dream made me smile because it is about such a typical parenting dilemma. I've got two boys not two girls, and in the dream the girls were not supposed to be mine, but this situation is one that as a parent I have encountered many a time: there is only one and of course both want it.

Around 12:30 (so only after first sleep cycle of the night) woke up with this dream:

It was decided that I shall have a baby, but I do not give birth but receive e baby fully formed. She is a baby girl. there are issues: too much light falling on the cradle, too much movement of the cradle contraption that she sleeps in. For a moment the baby in the contraption in light looks otherworldly.

I need to cover the baby with some sort of rigid screen so she is out of sight. To access her, I need to go around her cradle. On the other side is the bed of her Hindu nanny and the Nanny's son. The nanny accuses me of my being there means that her services are no longer needed. I reassure her that they are, but that I just need to nurse the baby. they are surprised that I wish to nurse her.

For a moment the baby seems too old to be a baby, and maybe threatening looking. She can talk! First she says she needs to go to the bathroom, but when she realizes that I meant to nurse her, she is ravished. First she latches onto my arm, apologizes, and latches onto my breast instead. I am confused as to her age. Is she a baby who can talk, or is she older and if so, should I nurse her? But why would she be that small if she is older. Andher eyes appear wiser than her apparent age.
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I believe this dream tone metaphorical: are my ideas old or new? Do they threaten others? Am I right to nurture these ideas? they can speak for themselves, and yet are helpless without my nurture. I think this dream was inspired by discussions of spirituality on DV.

Also I have been reading Greek mythology to my sons, and the idea of fully formed daughter (Athena) and baby that can talk (Hermes) was probably based on that.

Last night I had my second Lucid experience!

It was a really unique dream... I had full control, however I didn't realize I was dreaming - I just accepted I was all powerful. I was a private investigator in a huge city, and a bit through my dream I developed God-Like powers. I could do anything.

I used these powers and became a super hero, hunting down my nemesis for the length of my quite-long dream. It was great. The dream was populated with thousands of DC, just like a real city, and it was incredibly vibrant. I found myself on a rooftop bar after my nemesis had narrowly escaped, and something about the place made me think... Wait... Am I in a dream? I realized that I was dreaming, and I got incredibly excited because I had all these wonderful powers. I looked at a table where my friend was sitting and did a Darth Vader force choke at it, and it began to shake. I still had my powers! I remembered a quote from Sageous that said I should forget entirely about stablizing because it actually more often than not led to destabalization. So instead I jumped off the huge Sky Scraper I was on and landed softly on the ground. My friend followed me, with Frozone type powers from the Incredibles. I began to sprint as fast as I could down the street, cars and headlights blurred into a single line as I broke the sound barrier. Suddenly, my friend pointed out our nemesis running a bit ahead of us and I was sucked back into the dream, consumed by the chase. I was still vaguely aware that this was a dream, but I didn't take control again, probably because it was so fun!

What a great time!

I meditated for a half an hour an hour before bed, and took one 5mg Melatonin. Then before bed I did an in-depth MILD, by stating my intentions. Very cool!

I was playing AI War and it was somewhat different, firstly there was only one planet and secondly battles were happening at much smaller scale. It was also multiplayer campaign(Can't recall who i was playing with, but most likely SilentEternity). We had a few powerful ships and out objective was to protect the base and some mining operation, there were also some huge metallic constructions in background and the game was somewhat switching between
2D and 3D. I was placing alot of turrets(which were the only objects that looked similar to actual game) around but they were not powerful enough to stop much enemies and we had some problems later on, but in the end we built some really overpowered starship which nuked most of the enemies.
Then i was talking about the game in the dreamviews chat and people really liked it, especially JiGGa_JuStIn apparently. Then there was some talk about powering something using false awakenings or something like that( ).

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050413 One long night of dreams remembered(slept in)

spend a little longer before going to sleep telling myself that I would remember my dreams and I know that I am dreaming. I go to bed late after midnight after one of my games this is in real life. I wake up around 4 something and I am NOT able to remember any dreams at that point. I go to the bathroom and use my phone to try to wake up a little more and when I go back to bed I tried the SSILD cycles and I still seem to have trouble remembering the steps and following them especially doing all three together at the same time. Upon waking in the morning around 6 something I lay there recalling my dreams. One dream I was in a maze of a locker room that was coed, mostly families. The men's and the women's area are right next to each other and open, no doors. I accidentally went in to women's area and quickly back out. I was
going back through the locker room I noticed it had several sets of doors on one side like another way into the locker room from the ticketing offices. I decide to go back in? Another time to look for my towel ?? I remember seeing 2 company towels in different areas. Some guy is folding laundry and I wonder if they are washing a new set of towels that maybe I could grab one. Some guys are talking about real estate saying something like we find out if we get 1.5 or 1. Also refinance talk?

At beautiful view loan guy is there using salesman like skills in discussing something maybe a refinance. 2 different times salesman skills were used. Someone comments...always the salesman about him .. The beautiful view is vivid and daylight scene. I said something like Wow beautiful view to the others in the room overlooking the view. The room seem to be perched up at a high point maybe on a hill. I comment how I came up there and didn't even notice the view at first. That I am...quote unquote going around in oblivion. And I remember thinking about awareness and thought about or maybe did mention that I was working on awareness. I don't believe this made me lucid. I was saying did you see that it is up on what do you call those? someone answered piers. Yeah piers isn't that beautiful. So the piers were laid out in a v-shape and behind it was like a small island beautiful with a tall hill. On the piers were some kind of man made design didn't seem like
buildings but something to make it look beautiful? Like landscaping I think. ( as it comes back to me)

European train? People on train start clapping. I ask what the clapping is about . Oh it is union appreciation..postal workers etc..guy: "back in (hometown) we..." I say "I'm from (hometown)...We could appreciate the workers more..the ones that work.." he ignores me?

Arguing with wife. At airport? Or train station? I say something like oh so you want to do that with your boyfriend instead of me?(no boyfriend known IRL) No response as if it's true so I storm away I leave down an escalator at busy busy airport or train station. It seems like we started off in a hotel room but I can't remember.

Different dream or tied into one of the others I am walking to my car that is parked in a free parking spot seems like an area where I'm worried if I might have had a broken window and it even seems like there's a window out or down as I'm sitting in the car maybe? (From the way the sounds are coming into the car) On the way to the car I pass 3 small rough looking boys that look mischievous and one of them throws a small round beige thing on my neck maybe a piece of candy? Up ahead is a rough looking man that looks like he is serving as a lookout and when he sees me he kind of signals to someone like No no not him as if I will not be a good target? My car seems fine and I consider leaving it there for the rest of the day and whether or not it will be safe to come there at the end of the day, could be night time. It is definitely daytime during this dream scene.

Sleeping in...more dreams..
My buddy is watching a greek mythology movie and he lights up while he thought I wasn't paying attention. it was during a scene with a Half Man half horse creature with a bare butt..gave me the idea that he might be gay. Before I was talking about his name being Tim instead of Timothy. in real life this is probably from the Lucid video guy with lucidipedia because whenever I watch the video I think he looks like my buddy and I think the lucidipedia guy's name is actually Tim. I look at his drivers license and I see a different name it seems like he didn't want me to know his real name.? Later dream, girl Friday asks me "who calls me boo?" I say that would be your boyfriend. It would be weird if I called you boo right.. She says right.. Undercurrent suspected but not known as if she wanted me to call her boo or wanted herself to be my boo(I don't even use the term "boo" IRL).. I guess I would call you (insert nickname L has for girl Friday). Later..some kid got hurt two different times in the leg and on the second time she
got impaled in both legs by deer antlers "you know how there is always miscellaneous junk laying around at the park" someone says. They were going to have a pillow fight. As I pull up the little girl's head it is S S. Who did this to you I asked. I was worried it would be N. She said it was so and so (not N). She showed me her injuries one was like a blister and she said she liked it..it was like a nice bubble I guess. Maybe this turned into the boo conversation with girl Friday(injuries, boo-boo's). Later I am sitting on the floor with D in the office and I'm telling him about Arnold IRL, a success. Then C comes along and we're talking about the office use to be here. Then later we are in a different part of office overlooking a lower section and it is C and one other female I can't remember who. C says you need to find a rich man. I say rich man? Maybe one of the women here. I
suggest. And it seems like I felt like they were hinting that I should be with her. Before the rich man/woman comment it seems like they were talking about some previous technical issue that I hadn't heard of and someone asks me well how long have you been doing this?..Like they couldn't believe I hadn't heard of that previous issue. Go back to sleep and had a daydream? with girl Friday where I start off in the living room where we were the other day and I remove A and the little guy and L and the drunkard basically sweeping them from my dream scape or fantasy scape and there she is lying there in her short blue jean shorts curled up in the fetal position kind of like she was in real life and started looking at her butt. I think I restart(the daydream?) a couple of times when I maybe start getting the mini dreams as they can be distracting from the focus. I slowly undressed her and we had various dialogue. We had intercourse. It was such an intense
experience that I wrote down that it was an emotional orgasm. Later the SSILD cycles gave me a strong sense of the various feelings throughout my body, odd awareness. I think of the circulatory system arteries veins starting with the heart pumping in my body. Made me look up how the arteries and veins connect IRL.

Seemed to have dreams about being pulled over more than once last night. Other than that, I can't recall any details.

I find myself in my old bed with a woman. She has brunette hair, and is pretty curvaceous. I hate using this term, but like thick, like If I got her pregnant, everything would be all over after that. Anyways, we're naked in my bed in a sideways 69 position. We're not licking, just playing with each other. I don't RC because well, nothing gross is happening.

Tuesday 5/7/13

Last night bed 11pm - 9am nap 9:20 - 11:15am

DR - 12:45 Comminicating with tech admin, someone has 2 accounts

DR - 9am Hectic dream. Getting kids ready for school in the morning. They are dressed and ready, so we go and play on the street. Mom comes home, why they not ready? It takes them another hour to get ready. It's my fault.

DR - It's my first day at school - last year of highschool. It's already 9am, school starts at 9 and I'm still at home. I'll get there faster on bike, but it's snowing. Then I'm thinking where in the building will be my classroom. That's when I realize, I already graduated from there and today it's my first day at college. But I don't know which one, only that classes start later than at 9.

DR - Guy is standing at some metal panel and is being electrocuted. Some guys are getting ready to save him. They pull him off and one of them calls on a walkie-talkie for Rescue 1. They are in another city, but they are coming. Someone brings some medical instruments covered with paper towel. I'm suppose to take some of them to the school dentist, but I question if they are sterile. Girl says yeah, they are clean, I just washed them. I know they should be sterilized, not washed, so we argue for a while.

DR - Guy is making hot-dogs. All different kinds. I yell at him, because he has them on my new sofa, just like that, without plate or anything.

Date: May 6, 2013
Sleep Time: 6 hours
Lucid Dream Technique: MILD & WBTB

Dreamed I was taking care of what I believe was a flea. I cared a great deal for this flea. There was an emotional attachment so strong, I felt like this flea was a part of me. My love and commitment for this flea was tremendous! I cared for this flea like a mother loves and adores her child. I provided comfort, security, and attention everyday to the flea. Even though I could barely 'see' this flea with my naked human eye, I knew this flea existed and I knew this flea was a 'life.' Then, one day, I anxiously came home and went looking for the flea and to my astonishment, my flea was nowhere to be found. I mourned for what seemed a lifetime, for my love was gone and no more...I cried forever.

Note to self: What the hell ???

There was a woman I wanted to interact with on some romantic level (to be determined) but knowing it was a dream my knee-jerk reaction was that I told myself to stabilize first and was examining my hand..This time it did look weird and was quite vivid (the previous time I did this in a Lucid FA my hand looked quite normal). I think there were 6 fingers but as I started to count them the dream started fading so this is when I remembered the suggestion on the forums to just do what you want, don't focus too hard on stabilizing. No longer seeing the woman, I decided to take off flying and enjoyed it. I was flying in a white scape with nothing to see so I tried to think of some place interesting and it starting turning grayish, still flying. Not satisfied with the progress, I imagine I am in space and I see a planet and start looping around it from pole to pole. The planet most resembled earth. Thinking about it afterwards it reminded me of a scene in Superman when he flew around the earth (along the equator instead?) to turn back time I think it was. Not sure if I am going to go back and post some of my previous eventful LDs or dreams.

Date: May 7, 2013
Sleep Time: 6-7 hours
Lucid Dream Technique: MILD & WBTB

Dream Fragment: Dream I was at a restaurant and I ordered a lot of Chinese food with an extreme amount of Broccoli Rabe. I ate and ate until I couldn’t eat any more. Funny thing is…out of all the food I ordered; I only ate the broccoli rabe.
Feelings or thoughts: Totally content and satisfied.

I was at a concert in a big room. The room was somewhat dark, with a blue-ish glow. Tony hawk comes out and people start cheering. He comes up to me and I give him a high five. This makes him really happy so he decides to give me a million dollars. My mom persuades him to give me 2 million instead.

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Later on, I got up at about 1:30. I laid down to try a WILD. I wanted to give up after about 20 minutes, but I persisted. Shortly after, I got the vibrations. But they went away quickly. My eyes even opened up during the process. Afterwards I just went back to bed regularly.

I was in school talking to some girls in my year/the year below me in a group, at break-time. We were talking about this girl "Aine" in my school and the girls were talking about how jealous they were about how nice her body was, I was telling the girl I like in the group (Hazel) that she has a better body honestly. They called Aine over and she started talking about how nice her body was which seemed normal in the dream-world last night, and then she was saying she wanted better legs but she was happy with her boobs, bit weird haha.

That's pretty much it.

Date: 5 May

Total sleep time: 3 hrs

Dreams: None remembered, although I am sure I was dreaming something when I had to wake up to prepare for travel

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Date: 6 May

Total sleep time: 9 hrs

Impressions: While I was looking forward to the REM rebound, I actually got a lot of heavy sleep today and retrieving memories was rather hard. This is not the first time I have noticed this effect since I began keeping a more extensive DJ. That's why I decided to put some emphasis on it this time, heavy sleep deprivation actually led to more deep sleep and less memories. Anyways, it's good I got some decent sleep. Now, prepare for lucid!

Fragment1: A friend of ours who is pregnant irl, she may be expecting twins

Fragment2: A conversation about dreaming and lucidity, I vaguely remembered this after briefly waking up, thought things are getting better because I am thinking about lucidity

Fragment3: A good friend from school. I take my time to check out the way he looks, slighly different. There is some feeling at the back of my mind when I observe him, (he is a DS), but I am totally absorbed by the story. He tells me about a class get together they planned but one of the girls made a big scandal? I reply that I remember the event and also say that I have had a dream about the whole thing. I mention dreaming a few more times during the conversation. In the dream I also have the feeling my friend may have dreamt about something similar.

Date: 4 May

Total sleep time: 8 hrs, possible REM rebound

Recall method: memorized, later wrote down

Location: hotel

Dream1: Two girls that I don't like at all are back. One of them actually has lost a lot of weigh and looks quite fit, and doesn't look like herself at all. I become concerned that the other one will try to come home and convince my bf's brother that she likes him, so that he falls in love with her. I look for a place outside to give my bf a call and warn him about the situation. I do that, then get distracted by some rusty doors of a yard.

Fragment2: Another dream where one of those girls participated

Dream3: I am back to some place, most likely living with my parents. They have invited relatives over and I don't like that, so I decide to go out. Before I do that I engage in extensive TK, lifting all kinds of objects, including rolls of toilet paper. I notice that it is easier to lift some smaller lighter ones. I then look for the keys and find my way out.

As I go out, there are two aggressive dogs that notice me, one small that is trying to bite me and a bigger one. I go back into the house. The DC of a friend of mine is now here as well. I tell her about the situation, she is very confident that there is nothing to worry about and says she will accompany me. We go out, at the same time another woman from the same building comes out and calls the dog by some name. It now behaves very friendly, I want to know its name, but can't get to ask the woman. We reach some kind of subway and I see that most trains are cancelled or there is one every hour. I have also forgotten something, maybe the keys. My friends's DC is very helpful again, suggests that she will go back to get them, I just have to wait for her. I tell her that there is no sense of going out so late, because it will be hard to get on the train if there are many people and it comes only once every hour. She is calm and replies that we will walk back home, no worries about that. She goes to get the keys or whatever and is soon back.

We go out, looking for a place to eat or drink. This guy attaches to us, he works in one of the nearby restaurants and knows the area rather well. He is flirting with my friend, but I know she has a bf, anyways, that's her business.

I am sitting on a table with some guys that I think I know. I see huge cups of raspberries passing on some kind of conveyer in the air. There are also cakes. I see another guy that I know, and he is celebrating his birthday or something, with one of the big cakes, but nobody is paying much attention to him, because they don't like him.

Comments: My friend's DC was very helpful this time. I should really learn to get my DCs to help me more often.