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starting with tonight, when i go to sleep, i will record my dreams here. this is just an affirmation.

June 19, 2011
Lucid Dream 244: Yoshi, The Young Phenom
Series: Star Power, Episode 2
DILD



I was in a locker room getting ready for the upcoming hockey game. I was on the Tampa Bay Lightning. My friend Diddy was also on the team and we were sitting on the locker room bench beside each other. Our coach, Denzel Washington, entered the locker room and told us it was time to roll. We all got up and marched out through the hallway. Our skates were tapping the ground in unison as we walked out of the locker room and down a long hallway. I lead a chant to the beat of our skates tapping the concrete..."Everywhere we go-OOO....people want to kno-OOW...who we ar-RRRE...so we tell them...we are the LIGHTNING....the mighty, mighty LIGHTNING." We reached the end of the hallway and stepped onto the ice. Some skated to the bench and the rest of us skated to the center of the rink.

I can't remember the very start of the match, but it was a finals game against the Rangers (which isn't even possible ...both are in the Eastern Conference). I noticed Diddy break on a pass by the Rangers, so I streaked down the right side of the rink. Diddy stole the pass and made an absolutely beautiful pass to me as I approached the net. I one-timed it for the first goal of the match. Instead of a face-off, the referee just threw another puck into the rink. The previous puck simply vanished. One of the Ranger players retrieved the puck and started heading toward us. I read his move and stole it from him and streaked down the center of the rink, all alone. I faked a slapshot and did a quick "flick of the wrist" shot in the vacant part of the goal (the goalie fell for the slapshot fake). The game carried on and I can't recall everything that happened, but the first period had ended and we were up 4-0. I had all 4 goals in the first period, but my skates had broken. I took off to the locker room to find some more and I suddenly became lucid for no apparent reason.

I couldn't wait to get back out on the ice whilst lucid, so I searched the locker room for an extra pair of skates. I a pair of old boxing boots/sneakers. The ones that almost lace up to the knee. I put them on and just acted like they were skates. As I stepped back into the hallway, I heard the familiar clank of metal on concrete. I looked down and noticed they now had blades on the bottom and had changed color from a dusty brown to a lime green. I skated on the concrete and toward the rink. As I stepped out onto the ice, the entire crowd erupted with cheers. It was an amazing feeling to have that many people going crazy for you.

There was a faceoff this time and as we were lining up for it, I could hear the broadcasters talking. "The Lightning has found themselves a player to build this franchise around." The other broadcaster responded. "This Reed kid can really play. Once these playoffs are concluded, the coach and GM are going to be working out a long term deal for sure." I was skating around getting a feel for the rink. It felt much like the dreams where I have skated around with my tennis shoes. I started skating backwards as the Ranger with the puck approached. He quickly passed it over to his teammate who started his slapshot. I skated over in front of him and allowed the puck to slam off my chest. I then kicked it out in front of me and took off. I was zig-zagging defenders as I made my way toward the net. I lifted the puck into the air with my mind and then swung at it like a baseball. The puck zoomed at light speed, ripped a whole in the net, and tore a hole in the rink wall. The goalie didn't even have time to react. I was even surprised at how fast it flew. They called timeout for people to come repair the whole in the wall and I lost lucidity at this time.

We resumed play and we ended up winning 7-0. In the locker room we were partying. Everyone was popping open the champagne battles and we started playing champagne pong. Me and Diddy were dominating. I woke up sometime during this party, but I can't remember exactly when it was.


Series Details
"I thought I told ya...I'm a STAR...you see that ice...you see them cars...." In the dream series, "Star Power," I take on some of the most glorified positions in the world. Living the life of the rich & the famous. A movie star, nfl star, rock star...you never know what I will be next,so stay tuned for more entries to the series!

Non-Dream/Lucid/Non-Lucid/Dream counter

DREAM 1: I were in the living room with my mom, talking about something. My mom was sitting in my chair and another "mom" appeared from my room. Yep...the cloned mom that tried to attacked me in another dream went back. I knew this time was the shadow (We'll get to that later...through you should know about the shadow if you read my first post in my DJ). I was like "WTF the shadow is back? I must be dreaming!" so I did an RC to confirm it.
I confronted my fears and just told that cloned mom to leave. I had to do it...I wouldn't let my dreams haunted anymore by stupid shadows (Subconscious 0, Me:1). After she left I was trying to do something but my mom started talking with me and I lost my lucidity and forgot what I was going to do. (Subconscious:1, Me:1)
DREAM 2: [Here I dreamed something about witches and I was solving a mystery...but I barely remember a thing from that dream. If I recall something I promise I'll tell you...as it was a very interesting one.]
DREAM 3: I woke up in the living room. Instead of doing an RC, I was convinced that it was reality and I was trying to remember the second dream (Yeah in the dream I totally remembered it...Subconscious: 2, Me: 1).
I was so convinced that it was reality that when I did an RC and I saw I can breath through the fingers I though maybe the reality check is not designed well and you can breath even if you plug your nose in reality (Subconscious:3, Me:1).
Like it was not enough at the TV I watched a Scooby-Doo episode that was starring...my second dream. (Subconscious:4, Me:1)

Despite the fact that the subconscious won, I actually completed another one of my lucid goals and had another lucid dream!!
So... Get the trash out of my subconscious (Confront my fears) [X]

Dream Legend:
The shadow - The shadow is a recurring character that appears in many of my nightmares. He morphs into my mom and chases me to freak me out in my dream.

1) No recall...

2) Personal dream I'll not post here.

Dream
Lucid

I distinctly remember i couldnt focus my eyes its as if they were just moving on their own and they were heavy. I had this happen to me once before so i wasnt panicing in the dream. But i ended up in an argument with my grandma becuase she called my dad side of the family drunk bums. So we while we were arguing i was walking around trying to get my eyes to focus. So i ran to my bathroom to check my eyes so i lifted on lid and looked at my eye through the mirror my eye looked normal except my pupals were extremely dilated. I left the bathroom to go continue arguing with my grandma and as i was passing her i bumped her knee and she kicked me and i was like:
Me: What the hell?!?!
Grandma: You hit me
Me: It was an accident jeez!
Grandma: Whatever

I was so mad but as i sat down to watch t.v. my dream switched to where i was a Navy Seal . I was appearntly a traitor becuase i had like 20 other Navy Seals shooting at me i killed about 5 then when i snuck up on one his friend came from the back and stabbed me i felt no pain thank god. But as i turned around to kill him he shot me like six times in the chest and as i layed there dying my dream started to fade and i woke up.

Crazy right?
Can anybody tell me how to control that visual distortion thing that happens to me?

Vividness-7

this is a dreaam i had a VERY LONG time ago.

I was in a street with a girl and a guy i dont know. There were small tornadoes about the size of 2 houses stacked atop each other. We were running away as the tornadoes ripped through houses as bricks of the houses swirled in the winds. there was a tornadoe following us and we ran faster until the guy pressed a button and we teleported

07/12/2011
Dream Fragment One:
There was some type of art contest going on. I remember rummaging through some of the entries with EH (a really attractive friend of mine, whom I seem to be dreaming about quite often, lately). It took forever to get to mine, which actually turned out to be of noticeably less quality than many of the others, but it was still somewhat decent. I could have sworn that I had more entries to show her, but it turned out to be only that one. Later, I was sitting on the floor, and she was straddling my lap with her arms draped over my shoulders. I was kissing along her neck and we were whispering some things to each other. My (deceased) dad was asleep in the other room, and we were trying to keep quiet, so as not to disturb him, or anyone else who was in the house. Later, my ex, MJ, and friend, J, came over. I was telling J about the amazing time I'd been having with EH. We all know each other, and MJ was talking with EH. I could tell MJ was plotting something. She came back over, beaming to me about how her and EH were now 'best friends,' and I had a feeling that this was, somehow, going to lead to trouble.


Dream Two:
"War on the Water"

I was a part of (another) special military force (on some G.I. Joe type shit), caught up in an enormous firefight, in a village with high grass surrounding it. The enemy was a guerilla force, which was very skilled in hiding in the bush and using camouflage. They would pop up in random places, and we'd have to be quick to react. I remember having some weapon that fired hundreds of tiny spikes into the grasslands, blindly, to take out whoever might be hiding in them. One guy cornered me with a rocket launcher, around the side of a building. He was too close to fire on me, though, and I ended up throwing a grenade actually into his mouth (somehow), and diving around another corner just before he exploded. (I had watched the end of one of the Rambo movies, yesterday, which had the whole 'hiding in the high grasses' war scene in it.)

Then, we had to chase down some of the leaders of this enemy faction. We got down to the water, which seemed more like an enormous lake than an ocean. They had a boat in the marina, and they took off down the water, running pretty-much parallel to the shoreline. We had boats of our own, and were about to get into one model, when we were presented with another, upgraded model. This thing was bad ass. It was like a futuristic rocket-boat - all black - that skimmed on top of the water and had boosters on the back. When they started it, it sounded like a jet engine. This boat just soared across the water at an amazing speed. A few miles down the shoreline, we came up to a landmass that jetted out from the coast a little bit. There was a short skirmish with some of the enemy, here - one of whom didn't look human, but like some human/beast hybrid that had long black spines that stuck out, down the back of his head. During this fight, some of my teammates had been abducted. The ship that the enemy had been on suddenly submerged and dropped down into a watery tunnel that led beneath this landmass. We were about to follow, when one of my other crew members said that we needed to go back and get the other ship that we'd left behind, as well, just in case something happened to this one. He convinced me by telling me how deep they were going, and how horrible a death it would be to drown, simply because we didn't have a back-up ship. I was sold.

Soon, we were racing back, in the jet boat, to where we'd come from, weaving through some of the other ships along the coast. Back where we had docked, it took us a moment to find the other ship, but we soon had it - along with some reinforcements, and were headed back to the mystery land mass. We never quite made it, though. Along the way, we were intercepted by these large, ethereal creatures. They reminded me of Hindu Gods/Goddesses. They were each identical, aside from the fact that they were different colors. They were very large - some 40 feet tall - and seemed to have a sort of glow to them. They had multiple arms, and each one held a very large, curved sword in it. The entities were all clearly female, and had light wisps of translucent gowns fluttering around them. They gave us some type of threat, as they floated there, on top of the water, but I don't remember much of what they said. It seemed that their mission was to stall us there, though, so I don't know if they were working with the enemy or not. After talking for a while, they asked an enigmatic question; whether or not we'd noticed how the water level had been rising, as we were talking. Looking out over the horizon, I could see a swell. The water was definitely rising. But why? I got a really bad feeling.

I knew something huge was coming. It was just a sudden assumption that turned into an unmistakable awareness. I told everyone on my team that we needed to get out of here - now. These entities were not about to let that happen, though. As soon as we attempted to vacate the area, they attacked, swooping and diving all around us, throwing their enormous blades at us, which rotated around and returned to them like boomerangs. One of them launched a blade at the jet boat I was piloting. Instinctively, I launched myself high into the air, my vessel being destroyed beneath me. Now, boatless, I dropped back down toward the water. Suddenly, though, I stopped. I was hovering - practically standing on the water. I realized that I had the ability to fly! This immediately affected the battle, and I was now flying and fighting and dodging these things and their flying swords. Feeling just on the cusp of lucidity (yet I don't think I ever quite realized I was dreaming), I also began using telekinesis, myself, realizing that - once one of those oversized blades came spinning in toward me - I could mentally deflect it and send it whirling off in another direction, guiding it with a wave of my hand. I also quickly picked up on the ability to loosely control the paths of these weapons, offensively, sending them flying back toward the entities and trying to do them in with their own swords. The fighting was extremely fast-paced, like fighter planes dogfighting over the water; dipping close to the sea and then changing course at breakneck speeds. The rest of my unit continued to fire their weapons from their vessels, unless they had already been destroyed.

Ultimately, though, we just weren't making any progress with these things. The huge swell in the water was just getting bigger and bigger. The swell then turned into a wall of water heading toward us. It was a few dozen feet high, and I could see that, after it, the rise in water level would be completely overwhelming. 'Standing' on the surface of the water, once again, I quickly increased my altitude in just enough time for the wave to pass beneath me. On the back side of the wave, the water level was now practically touching my feet again, and I looked back toward the shoreline just in time to see the wave smash into the rest of my crew and the passenger boats in the area, immediately capsizing them and washing them away. I looked down toward my feet to see an enormous black shadow forming. Something massive was surfacing beneath me. I pivoted on the water and shot off in one direction, the surface of the water speeding off into my peripheral vision. I could see that this shadow was following me, though, moving just as fast as I was. Again, I went even higher, arcing up above the water and looking down below.

Finally, my pursuer appeared - bursting out of the water with jaws wide open. It was as if Godzilla, himself (the 1997 version) came jumping out of the water like some sort of leviathan. (It was, without a doubt, the largest sea monster I can recall ever dreaming.) I frantically increased my speed and the gigantic teeth snapped closed behind me - so close that I actually had to tuck my legs and then kick off the monster's closed maw to fly even faster. The only thing I ever saw was the head because its incredible size blocked any possible view of the rest of its body. This colossus just continued to chase me - diving in and out of the water and keeping pace with me - repeatedly snapping its teeth within just feet behind me as I tried to fly faster and faster away from it.

I don't remember the outcome of the chase, though. But damn that was intense.

I was in the music room playing an instrument, sight reading some music. I think Mrs. B. was there.

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I was at my old school, in Mrs. G's classroom. I was doing some project or something. I showed it to Mrs. G. who showed it to Mr. B. Mr. B. was really impressed for some reason. Then I saw some paper that was apparently from him and talking about how impressed he was with all my accomplishments. There were references to other art/music things from the past.

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I was at my old school still, but with random people who were apparently my friends. We were outside. They had to go somewhere so we randomly got on the bus that led East. They got off at the next stop. I had nothing else to do so I got off too, but I was wondering why they even bothered taking the bus.

I decided that I should go West instead for some reason. I briefly remember being in some weird old abandoned house, on top of something (resembled occurrence in another dream... how peculiar). But then I was quickly back at the bus stop.

Now I was on AN. St. going West, but I was with DO and some random people who were apparently her friends. They were all boys as far as I could tell, and much younger, maybe like 10 years old. We were running and randomly hopping over fences. We apparently were going to a candy store near JA St. and AN. St.

We reached the candy store. I think it was nighttime now. We went inside. Inside it was a dark atmosphere, almost futuristic; everything was black or dark blue.

This one little kid, maybe around 10, with brown hair and braces proudly pulled out a 50 dollar bill. He then started grabbing all the candy in sight. I was excited at this - someone was going to buy 50 bucks worth of candy for me!

All I grabbed was a tub of PC cookie ice cream (does it even exist? O.o). I opened the tub and just started eating it without even wondering whether or not I had payed for it.

I saw the kid grab all the chocolate bars he could off of the shelf.

Then I felt my phone vibrate. I picked it up. It was my mother calling. She was frantic, telling me there was something important to tell me. The atmosphere was loud, so I decided to go outside. The kids were following me, and I was trying my best to explain to them that I had to get to a quiet place so I could understand what my mother was trying to tell me.

I ran away two blocks, right to the gates of JA St. and AN. St. I said "Ok... it's quiet now... what'd you want to say?"

She started mumbling about something, saying something about loonies and toonies. Then she paused. I prompted her and tried to get her to hurry since I was out of sight of the group now and wanted to go back and eat more candy. But she wouldn't spit it out.

Frustrated, I yelled,

"HURRY UP I'M KIND OF IN THE FUCKING MIDDLE OF SOMETHING HERE!"

I then realized that I had just cussed at my mom and that she'd probably be pissed, but yet she wasn't even mad. She just said okay and then I hung up. I was confused as to how she had been so frantic and yet told me nothing useful, and willingly let me cuss at her and hang up.

I ran back now, but I was confused. There was no group. No candy store. It wasn't even AN St. anymore. Hell, I was walking down some random forest path. The vegetation was all a very dark green, and the sky was shades of pink and purple and orange. Suddenly I reached a train track. I wanted to cross it, but the lights were flashing, so I was worried a train would come. I stopped and waited for it to come.

Then DO was walking down the track. She saw me and walked toward me, grinning. She was wearing a purple v-neck t shirt and pink sweat pant capris, and I think light blue crocs. I exchanged words with her, one of them being asking if she still had candy. She laughed and gave me a small piece, and finished some on her own, but apparently that was all that had been left. I still wondered how they could have possibly finished 50 dollars worth of candy without feeling extremely sick.

The dream ended there.

Type: Regular dream.
Lucidity: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Vividness: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10

It was nighttime and I was inside my house. More specifically, I was in the living room. Our living room is fairly spacious, being about 30x20 feet, and this held true in the dream. I was only looking at one specific part in the living room, but I could sense the airy space around me. One of the longer walls (this room was rectangular) had the front door to our house in it, near the end of the wall. On the short wall adjacent to this one, was a beige loveseat and a burgundy, modern-looking leather chair. There was a maroon rug with tan accents that would change to gold if light shone on them in the middle of the room, taking up a good quarter of the space, and on the same wall as the door, in the middle, was a fireplace consisting of tan bricks. The opening was lined with silver. In between the fireplace and the door, but closer to the fireplace, was a tall window.

The room was not lit very well. However, some pale (almost bordering on sickly) darker yellow light was coming in from the window, landing on the edge of the carpet and a bit of the fireplace. The rest of the room was very, very dark though. To add to the surreality of the room, there was no actual floor! The bottom of the fireplace and walls faded out into a blurry black abyss below, where you couldn't see anything but black. I was floating in a cross-legged sitting position (along with the rug, which was also floating) in front of the fireplace.

I was floating there for a few seconds, and then my sister walked up behind me, also suspended like I was. I looked to the side a bit and saw her sit down. In her arms, she was carrying a normal cardboard box. She tilted it out of her grip and let it fall down into the blackness. Right after it disappeared, a few packages of unlit fireworks came floating up and stopped right at floor level, as if they'd hit an invisible barrier beneath us. They just floated there, not moving at all. One package was shaped like a circular balloon weight with shiny purple foil around it, and another was a simple cylindrical shape that was aqua blue in colour. It was very close to the size of one of those mega-sized Smarties or Mentos tubes.

I took the aqua cylinder and it resisted my grasp a bit, not wanting to move, but I still got it rather easily. I then squeezed it right in the middle and it crumpled in this area, almost like one of the twists on a New Years cracker. The cylinder then (forcefully) flew out of my hand, and stopped three or four feet in front of me, not going higher into the air but just staying near 'ground' level. It let out a small explosion that was self-contained, not coming out more than a foot. The light created by it was light was dim, not bright, even during the initial explosion. It blew out into a sphere of dim sparks and light, then flew off on an arc, the remaining particles spreading out and dissipating.

The firecracker shaped like the shiny purple balloon weight had vanished, and I couldn't see it anywhere once the first firework had gone away. My dream self thought this was normal, and I was expecting another firework to go off in a minute.

Not five seconds later, another firework went off. First it created a small, bright white light where the last one went off, and then blew up outwards, changing from white to a thin, transparent purple and blue bag-like blob, exactly like a jellyfish! The shape was smooth and circular, slightly flattened out like a normal jellyfish, and even cooler was that it had very thin, tapering pale purple tentacles that were almost glowing with a dim pink light.

My sister passively warned me to "stay back". Still in a cross-legged position, I shambled backwards a few inches without getting up. Then, I saw a bunch of the same type of tentacles appear around me, as if I was a jellyfish. It was an effect of the firework; I looked at my sister and she too had a radius of tentacles coming out from around her, fading to nothing as they got to her midsection. I remember being fascinated by this, and then I woke up.

I'm with J and L....and my phone is on vibrate...and it starts ringing. I have my hands tied up or something....I just know I'm busy doing something else. Anyway, J grabs my phone from my pants pocket, and tells me who's calling, and I don't want to talk to them. Right after that, she reaches back into my pants, and then unbuttons and then unzips them. She takes a look at my junk, and she's just stares at it. Moments after that, L comes over, and we play fight a little bit......WTF?

13-07-11 I am on a beach and there are someone there that I am supposed to remember. The scenario concerns shared dreaming. I turn lucid at some point though the trigger eludes me and the vividness of the dream isn't great. The person running the show isn't who I expected. A couple of other rookie lucids are there with me as well. They all tell me their names and I find it important to remember them, but they are soon forgotten. Was there a Mark in there, and someone whose name begins with an R (Not supprising considering I readh MoShs shared dreaming thread just before bed). In any case the whole thing is a bit difficult to explain. The beach seems to be this gigantic hub and the leader is passing from one person to another assisting them, either with control or something else.

When I step in an start directing the show a bit, it is with great respect for the people around me. I say something like.

“Right, time for dream stabilisation, how do you guys normally do this?”
There may be some mumbling amongst 3-5 people standing by the waves before the answer is returned.
“Have you tried spinning?”
“Think I have done, but not in a while.”

I start spinning, but not your average spinning. I utilise a technique I have picked up in my non-lucids where I gradually spin with my body more and more parallel to the ground. People either try trampling me or try and jump over me and I become a bit playful and start doing some whirled spinning jumps up amongst the people standing right next to me. I turn around and spin around with my back towards the sand. Though this is fun I don't think I am engaging the scenario enough and I soon wake up.
…

I recall only the dream after I turn lucid. I may have been lucid prior, but what is written is what I remember. I know that the dream was long prior to what I remember though. I am in some sort of hall. It reminds me of a mixture of a factory warehouse and a sports hall. I think of what the task of the month is and I remember it is about ”where the wild things are” and becoming their king.

I don't encounter any wild things to my memory, but I undertake a quest to summon their king and dispose of him. There are three pre-quests I have to fulfil before I can find him. These three quests will grant me three keys I have to use to get the final key. I start the first one but start thinking that I may not have much time left in the dream, so I decide to cheat by flyng up and grabbing the key from a wooden box with a narrow opening in it. My flying isn't really controlable at first but I manage to snatch the key before I start the descent.

I defy my lack of ability to fly as I head for a risen platform hovering above the floor where the King will spawn. ”I am dreaming I know I can fly!” and this thought makes it possible. There are four boxes on the platform, one at each corner. I put in the key and turn it. There is a mechanical vibration in my hand as I do this and looking out over the floor I can see four elements descending from the ceiling forming a square. I know the king will be in the middle of these. I look around on the other key hole boxes on the platform and wonder why there are keys in all of them, though i reason that if I hadn't cheated I would have had four keys in total.

After a short while the king makes an appearance, He approach from a gate on the lefthand side and as he makes his way towards the descending things he is ethereal at first. I figure I will have to wait until he takes on coporeal form to attempt an attack on him. At first when he takes on bodily form he is naked and very white, sorta vampyrish, however I am dreaming and have no fear so I jump down flying at great speed towards him. When I arrive he has taken on a bunny suit and is slightly fat. I tell him I challenge him and put up my fists preparing for a boxing round.

Before the fight starts we are interrupted though by 3-5 people wearing black cloathing, the leader seems to be a woman. I feel slightly frightful and grab the king and take him behind a shelf.

”Wasn't I dreaming, I am sure I was dreaming, there is no need to hide” I think to myself.

I look at my hand and as I do a couple of extra fingers start growing so I am reassured and take the king and walk over to the people. I also know that I can't really hurt anyone so I talk to the woman and tells her to grab hold of the kings legs.

I grab his head and rip it clean off and I am somewhat relieved that it makes the sound of clothing being ripped as this happens. He was only stuffed afterall.

I start walking towards the gate the king appeared from and think to myself. ”Damn, you got that ”where the wild things are” story completely screwed up, this probably won't count anyways”. ”Ah well it was mildy enjoyable in any case”. After this I wake up.…

I am in a room and a handful of attractive women are there and I am talking to Kaiser about Caroline Loven. I tell him that I have been with her 4 times. I am going through the excersise starting at 5 trying out 3, but decide on 4 (the actual number is 2). I am unsure as to how the conversation arose, but think we were discussing attractive women we had been with.

Skip

I look outside the window and am surprised to see a large red building move towards my left away from me. I think it a bit weird, but quickly someone tell me that TV2 is going to get their asses handed to them for this as apparently they are to blame. I recall the television show and don't find it particularly weird (Would have hated myself for missing this, if it wasn't for the fact that I had already had one lucid that night ^^).

I wrote this some time ago, but not in my offline DJ:

"I had a dream that made me sad when I woke up. I don't remember when I dreamed it, but I recently remembered it. It wasn't the dream itself that was sad, so it wasn't that my day was affected by something imagined. However, the emotions in the last moments of the dream did stay with me at the instance of wakefulness. In the time just after realising you're awake but before you realise where you are, I went from so unbelievably bliss full to hollow and empty feeling.

I don't know how the dream started or where it went to get to this final point - it's probably inconsequential and certainly nonsensical - but at the final point in my dream, I was happier than I can remember being for a long time. My dream was very simple, I think, but since I only remember the last moments I can only say conclusively that the idea was simple. In the dream I was seemingly as I am now apart from one single difference. You may see it as minor or you may see it as major. I was married, presumably, and holding the love of my life who was pregnant with our first child. I remember the sunlight on her face and her smiling. I just felt content, and wished things could stay like this for ever.

Then I woke up. Not like being torn away or fading out but instantly jerked into that semi-concious state, one moment there, the next here. I realised I was alone and wondered why. Then I realised I didn't know this woman and couldn't remember her face. How could I forget her? Finally, full conciousness hit and I remember life as it is. I realised that I had been dreaming. In the moment I remember being the saddest I have been in some time. I remember feeling hollow. Then I got on with my day, and forgot about it, mostly."

That was the most emotially intense dream fragment I've ever had. I don't know what made me remember it now, but when I do remember it, I feel sad. It sounds cheesy, but I can still see her face, when I remember this dream.

I became lucid for some reason and though for the totm I had to kill a guy with a knife and a gun so I picked those up, but when I checked the gun it only had one bullet.

So I have been trying really hard to get lucid more quickly within my dreams (as well as increase my frequency of LDs) but all I have been able to do is have more intense and vivid dreams with WAY better recall....which is a step forward too, but I want to get a lucid dream every other night...anywho...here is a dream that I had last night that was real intense and kind of stuck with me.

I remember being in the city that I am currently living in. It was night time. Usually in RL my city is for the most part peaceful, however this was not the case in this dream. My city was almost post apocalyptic looking with abandoned cars at the side of the streets, dozens of sick and homeless gathered around makeshift fires, drug dealers on every corner, and frankly it was unnerving. Me and a couple of my friends from school were on a quest to find some drugs. We weren't planning on using them but for some reason we felt like we needed to find some in order to survive, whether that means sell them for some cash to live off of or doing something else with them. It was super important that we not only find some drugs but also find out who was the "drug lord" that ran the main drug deals of the city. I had the feeling that we were in danger from certain people and it may have been other people or the drug lord himself I am not certain. We followed a local drug dealer to find the drug lord. The dream shifts and we end up in trouble with the same drug lord. I apparently gained information on him that if given to the police would bring him down. And I had planned to do such a thing. Because they knew I had info that would ruin them they were after me. They had tracked down my friends and threatened their lives. They had contacted my employer and threatened him as well. I was caught with no one to trust or rely on. Only a couple people would help me out and they were assassinated. One man, a kind of bigger fellow, said he would help me bring them down. He was driving his car and I saw another car tailing him so I ran after him seeing if I could flag him down and help him before he was run off the road and killed. The car chased him up this sort of industrial/factory/machine hill. A mechanical hill that served some company. He used is truck/suv to drive up this very steep hill dodging machinery while trying to evade his pursuers. I began ascending the hill as well to try and help him. I look up, I see that as he was coming out of some sort of tunnel he had been shot, a sniper from out of no where had killed him. I saw blood splattered on his windshield. Then the next thing I know his suv is being crushed by some of the machines and his body no more. I traveled down the hill and was confronted by 3 women. One blonde, the other two brunet. They were either were very high up on the chain of command for this drug lord or they combined ran the drug operation themselves, I can't quite remember. They offered me a position within the drug operation itself and wanted to talk with me about it over a milkshake, yes like the ones from steak and shake. I sat down with them, fearing for my well being as well as my family and friends who they had threatened.
I woke up.

Dream Fragments from last night:
Fighting a dragon with stefon. Using Tilex on my shower.

Nap:
First dream:
can't remember well: I think there was some fighting. I'm on a boat and important stuff has happened, Mama and Dad were on the boat. I leave the boat and get sick, mama follows and starts talking to me.

Second Dream:
I'm at Home Depot looking for pills to help me with lucid dreaming, I even remember seeing the word "lucidity" on them, but they were for tanning (?). I'm wlking down an Isle putting some kind of lotion on my back for a rash, and when I get to sthe end I hear a conversation. Russel Brand is working at a counter, I walk away because I have my hands covered with lotion. I get the feeling I should go back and when I do Jason Segel is there also. I tell them how awesome they are, Russel Brand acts like a douche, but Jason Segel is real cool. He lets me hug him, and we both go to the bathroom so I can wash off my hands. Half the bathroom is shut down, but I get one of the good urinals and go, while going a girl makes a sex joke (Lotion on back). (Starting to wake up so dream goes weird) Scene changes to a boy asking the girl to wear a promise ring.