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- dream: This dream was a mess. Incredibly long and a lot of things happen. At first my girlfriend breaks with me. Then I'm busy saving another girl by a stalker; finally the girl was saved by someone else but I bring her with me on a hotel room and I have sex with her. Then I go to the room aside and discover that my girlfriend was there and could here everything, and she was very sad. I tell her that I want her back and this thing makes the other girl very sad. At the end I stay with the new girl but desire my girlfriend back.

This in extreme synthesis. It was never ending and it includes me going in places, doing actions and talking with people... Thing in common with the best dream:

- dream: I have to take a flight to the Netherlands, and I'm in Italy. I'm at the church and two guys push me out of the church in secret to ask me to join a body building competition, which I decline. I come back to the church to finish the mass and in the meanwhile I tell this to a friend. Then I go to a large gathering to take advantage of the catering service. Then I start to complain with my father that I want a proper lunch before to take the flight. Then I play football. Then I'm at the highschool where I'm the only student who understands the lesson and the professor asks me to help another student. Then my girlfriend comes in the lab complaining that I'm very late to take the flight, which I reply that I have an assignment and that I can take flight later...

Meh?

Strange dreams all night planning out the video I had to make today.The footage was from the government, and I was reliving all the shoots, all the processes. The dreams were of such an impatient nature that I'm now awake at 5:30 just to get a head start on this and be done with it.

This was 2 days ago.

I'm walking on a street doing something, and orange kitten starts to form on the ground. I look at it and say "I thought we said no more cats in my dreams".

Haha, this is amazing! I did decide that I don't want cats in my dreams a while ago, because I always feel sorry for them or I'm worried that they get lost or hurt or hungry or something. I really don't like those dreams.

So for my decision to come out like this in my non lucid is just amazing. Makes me believe that intent indeed is extremely powerful tool and all we have to do is use it and know that it works.

Thank you, pardner : ) Please come again!

Only remember one from last night and I am surprised I even slept long enough to have any kind of a dream but I was riding a Harley Sportster (which I don't have so obviously a dream) and concentrating on shifting since this is something I would like to learn again. I have my license and have been thinking about getting one but it has been years since I rode. It felt pretty natural but I was a little worried about doing so much and contemplating getting three wheels instead since I am getting older. Just riding down the road when I see a line of motorcycles coming in the opposite direction. They are all on the sidewalk hahahaha. Must be my lack of sleep. Anyway I decide to have some fun and see if I can levitate the motorcycle so I imagine myself flying with it and I can feel it coming off the ground. I do a u turn flip and go back in the other direction to find the motorcycles on the sidewalk. They are no where in sight. I land on top of the roof near a water park. The thought crossed my mind that I could ride the Harley down that big slide. Then I remember the challenge but I am not on the ground, I look up and poof I am on the ground. I get off the bike and the kickstand wasn't all the way down and the bike falls over. Hmmm...maybe that means I need three wheels. I feel like an idiot and hope noone is watching me and totally forgot about the head through the ground at that point.

My kitten was playing by a cliff which was also part of a house. Like an out door area. Then all of a sudden I see a huge crocodile's head not moving and then I assume the crocodile comes up the cliff and eats my kitten. Then I see a guy and maybe one or two other people down below. The guy gets up and I think I'm invited to a house and there are people in it. The dream stops there and I hear people from the show friends because friends is what is on television.

I vaguely recall slipping back into sleep while trying to recall another dream, and dreamed that I was back home with my parents. I realized that I am dreaming, but I woke up.

I’m in my house, it's night, I watch by the window and I see three men who enter the garden and try to break in the house, I get scare and I realize it’s a just dream and wake up lying on a bed in another room, I push my bed back and start running in the house and shout by asking a question but the dream starts to fade and I start running in the dark but I still can feel the wall. I re-appear lying on the bed in the other room, my laptop is infront of me and turn on. My webcam is turn on but not facing me and I can see the room on the screen but I get scare that a face will pop up on the screen. Then a big cat appears and starts to meow. At the end I start feeling my real body on the bed
and I woke up.

06-Nov-2016 - 2 ND + 2 LD - Various, not much interesting stuff

ND#1 - I need a password to animate some small robots
ND#2 - A girl in a bathtub is texting her female friend some light insults through her smartphone (inspired by an installation seen yesterday at AIoC)

LD#1 - Fly out of Phyllis tower (WILD)

I am at SkyDeck, the glass below me opens, and I fall down. I try picturing this like it is not a dream, try feeling what would be like happening for real. While falling I wonder if this could be a dream and just start flying far away from the tower, above Chicago.

LD#2 - The crawling girl (WILD)

I am at the first room I visited at AIoC. The glass door opens and I see a face close to the floor, it's a mildly ugly girl with short black hair. She crawls in using her thing arms. I also see her body is snake-like, twisted and contorted. I cannot give a follow-up to this dream.

05-Nov-2016 - A forgotten ND + WILD - Phoenix

6:30AM WILD, ~40min
I start at a customer meeting room I was yesterday, explaining our products, at once I stop and let a train of naked girls enter the room. It's nice seeing all engineers look at them. I am close to making group love, but thinking better about it, I don't really feel like sharing all that... So I make myself selectively much bigger, and focus on the girls for some time. <SNIP>

Time to focus on dv TotY Phoenix task now. I need few attempts to conjure a stable and suitable scenario; one is a cheese fondue, then a small fire close to a bench. The good one is a round bonfire with black stones all around, which I feed with wood sticks / branches.
As soon as fire and scenario are stable enough, I drop some stuff in it.

A cat eye first, then a bird beak, then a chicken leg. It's a bit disgusting, I don't know why I picked this stuff, but I feel it's kinda necessary. The fire consumes all those items.
I wait for the fire to diminish until I can see is embers and ashes contained within the stones.

Then I do something with my hands above it - can't recall what - say some stuff and look at the circle.

A fiery beak appears in the middle of the circle, pointing up and rising upwards, until it becomes a full head.
Then from two opposite edges, two flames rise up diagonally, big and fierce.
I feel my body shiver as this happens.
Then the body rises up, the legs, and a very long tail, that keeps coming out of it and twisting on itself, until all the phoenix is visible in front of me, made up entirely of orange flames.

I shiver strongly at its sight.

I would like to focus on some more tasks, but the focus on my body has made my sleep light. I get up, it's 7:30

04-Nov-2016 - 1 ND - Travel with colleagues on the windy shuttle bus + WILD - The dragon and the turtle

ND - Travel with colleagues on the windy shuttle bus
I am traveling with some colleagues on a shuttle bus, I am sitting at the last row. There is a small table in the middle and on top a sort of notepad with plastic-wrapped pages. On the opposite side there is J, a M colleague. It's windy outside, and wind partially enters the bus, lifting the pages. I pick up the notepad and store it somewhere.
We are talking about how gliders fare with this strong wind, and I make a gesture with my hands imitating the path of a glider hit by a sudden burst of wind, quickly raising my hand up on a vertical path.

The bus takes a uphill left turn, then a round right one. On the outer side, we notice two people climbed on a high metallic ladder, working on an electric line wire; one more worker adjusts the ladder with the people on it (!!) - all of them share the same black outfit.
We comment on how dangerous that move was.

The bus reaches a parking beyond a gate, I see DA, a F colleague, with an amazing six-pack (!!)

LD - The dragon and the turtle
WILD 5:30AM, ~30min
I start on a passage connecting two black skyscrapers at a high level, walking on top of it. I feel myself transforming into a dragon, and I start flying on the landscape. I am looking for a small village to perform dv-TotY.

I find one, between a meandering river and a forest. First I descend and breathe fire on a windmill, which goes up in flames. Then I spit a fireball to a person walking alone nearby. Then I see some small houses with thatch; I breathe fire on two of them, and they go up in flames too.

Then I question what I am doing, I don't like at all the feeling I am getting from this. I feel a strong wave of regret and I want to repair it.

I perceive myself becoming a blue dragon, and start spitting water on the poor people and houses. The flames are extinguished, but all I get are black charred remains. That's not enough.

I change again, and become a white dragon with long fur (akin to Neverending story dragon); I also perceive some kind of yellow-ish star-shaped aura around me - hard to express it. Anyway, I know I can now resurrect people.

However, the village is not in sight anymore.
I fly over the land, looking for it, but only see more trees and strange store-like apparitions. I feel myself as having human form again.

I find a large tree covering my field of view. Its leaves are bright green, small and pointy. I decide behind it there is going to be the village.

It does not happen. I find the ocean instead. It has a dark-blue/gray color, it's not calm but not too rough either.

I see three very small people - tall like 8cm - floating on its surface. It's a man, a young one (girl?boy?) and a woman. They seem unconscious. I pick up the woman in my left hand and look at her in my palm.
She's got long blonde hair, dark trousers and a white shirt.
I gently close my hand around her.

I look down, and see a fairly large, levigated stone. I climb on it with both my bare feet.
The stone animates and become a turtle; its shell dark and shiny like the wet rock it was before; I can clearly see its head and legs; I perceive it like an old and wise entity.
The turtle turn to its back, pointing towards the open sea.

It moves slowly, but I fear the wave would tilt me off its shell, but when the first ones come, I hardly notice their impact on me; I am firmly attached to it, it seems.
After a couple of waves, I open my hand to look at the woman, she's still there, unconscious.

We hit more waves, I see the white crests, the rise and drops of the sea, it's all very vivid.
Then I notice some form in a rising wave; I look better, it's a human face, which I ultimately recognize as my own !
I am seeing the reflection of my face in the waves, in an impossible way, only marginally affected by the wave shape, it's difficult to put in words. I do a sort of grin, to see the result in the reflection, and I can see my teeth look kinda strange.

I now focus my gaze somewhere else on the waves, and recognize more facial features, an eye here, a pointy-teethed mouth there; they are not connected, somewhat creepy, but I am not scared.
I have an ominous feeling here, like i am witnessing something incredible, linked to divine. Again, very hard describing it.

Finally the turtle reaches a landing point. It's a small pier, leading to a gently rising stairway; on both sides, high green hedges with some bouganvillea. I perceive this place like some mythical land inhabited by ancient gods.

The woman is not in my hand anymore. I walk a bit more in this town, which now seem more like a normal place to me.
Unfortunately dream recall fades here.

Last night of comp was a bust. I had to deal w/ life & kept waking up via Meesha cat every hour on the hour. She has grown increasingly hungry because her body is storing up for winter & the mice, birds & rabbits are becoming more scarce. I'd love to just put out more dry food but she isn't buying that. She needs a combo of wet, dry & snacks. She is also in the last phase for a female Mainecoon cats cycle to reach her full growth. They are notorious for being extremely large but she is a female so she won't get as big as the males but she has already exceeded the low end of the scale for or a female of her breed so she is basically having her final growth spurt. I just have to weather this time of less sleep. During the week Mike will give her more wet & dry before his early departure to work. I had to deal w/ my parents regarding my grandmother Daisy. Mind you, I have not had to challenge them like this in my adult life so this hurt me quite a lot by things that were said & asked of me. But not only did we make up but it opened the door for me to tell them all about my lucid dreaming, me being a emotional em-path, being in contact w/ my mom's dad who passed away 24 yrs ago. My parents have been atheists for a long time & just assumed I was a Christian & not what I am which is a spiritualist. I found out that they aren't so much atheists but have a lot of the same understanding as I do to different dimensions & parallel worlds. I cried while telling them all of this stuff & they were so understanding & interested even. They shared their views of things that helped too. It was quite an enlightening event. I'm very happy w/ the results. I now have an even better relationship w/ them than before.

A small indian boy shows me a old dusty book. He opens it and presses his thumb strongly on my forehead. Light peels from my forehead and I am a grey void. I realise I am dreaming. I feel a warm sensation all over my body. Soon a dream forms. I am at the end of my bed. I look out the window and see what looks like the milky way, but inverted! I fly out the window, and swim through these clouds of gas. It is wonderful. I eventually 'wake' and thank the indian boy. Suddenly I panic that this book could be put to bad purposes and I tell the boy to make sure no one with bad intentions gets it. I spend the rest of the dream running away from the french gangster who wants the book.

Bed @ 2210
Woke @ 0425

The crown prince and the traitor
I'm watching a story unfolding? The crown prince and his close friend have just been in a battle with the traitor's men. He's railing against them, angry that three of his own men were killed by the prince's friend. Despite their valor, the prince and his friend have been badly wounded, and they're under the power of the traitor.

Now some time has passed. A puppet prince has been established in the city and both the crown prince and his friend have finally woken from their ordeals. I see them trudging up a hill, looking around at what's become of their land. They're going to meet with the puppet prince, a one-time friend who they now believe to have betrayed them. Now they're with him in his office - a large, modern room with a huge wooden desk. Despite their mistrust, he makes it clear that he still believes in the prince and not in the traitor and begs their help in overthrowing the traitor's government and establishing themselves as the rightful rulers. Now I'm the prince's friend and begin to question the puppet; eventually, I judge that he's sincere. I'm so overcome with emotion that my nose fills and I can't breathe. I try to breathe through my mouth, but I can't. I try to calm myself, trying to breath through both my nose and my mouth, telling myself I'll be OK, and hoping that I don't have to suffer the indignity of passing out in front of the two princes; but even if I do, I trust that my unconscious body will relax enough to breathe. I continue my efforts, starting to feel a bit of panic, until I finally wake up (for real) with a completely stuffed nose.


Fragments
I'm reading over an email from Jeff saying that he's fed up with how badly Windows works and asking if anyone can help him get started with Linux.

Something about a boat and the water.


BTB @ 0445 /w MILD
Woke @ 0710

A few days back, there were two nights in a row where I was having dreams like Inception or something. Essentially, I knew that I was dreaming, but then I would have false awakenings inside of the dream. So I would think that I was awake, but I was actually still sleeping.

In one particularly memorable dream, I was part of a laboratory experiment on sleeping. The idea was a bit absurd, now that I have my waking brain to analyze it: If I drank water during a dream, when I was thirsty, would I still be thirsty upon waking? I fell asleep inside of the dream, and took a nice long draught of water. I woke up inside the laboratory dream and found that no, I wasn't thirsty anymore! The scientists were all excited, and so was I. Then I woke up for real, and realized how cool that was. Unfortunately, I was still thirsty, so I took a drink of water for real.

Experiment result: If you are thirsty during a dream, you should just fall asleep inside of the dream, and drink water within that dream. xD Or just wake up and drink water for real.

In another dream, I think I knew I was dreaming and so I flew, but I wasn't conscious enough to think of anything more than that. -_-

Last night is a bit more hazy, and I have an insane amount of homework to do today so this will be a quick summary:

- A little girl who was left behind on a haunted island (with spirits and such) finally got found, rescued, and reunited with her loved ones. I think that I helped her somehow, but I honestly don't remember. I had a degree of lucidity in that one.
- Another dream happened where I became lucid while driving a car through some mountains. Decent amount of city around me. I was singing and thought it would be a brilliant idea to practice my singing voice in my dream, where nobody could hear me. However my logic wasn't working too well and for some reason I thought I was actually singing out loud and was going to wake up my roommates. This caused me to wake up and realize I wasn't. -_-
- I was in some sort of theater, and asked everyone in the room something like, "Hey! Who here knows they're dreaming right now?" My brother was there, too. I was hoping that someone else would remember, or maybe there'd be a shared dream or something, but I honestly can't remember what anyone said...
- I was watching some sort of advertisement, and there was this girl in a swimsuit who was sort of attractive except she had one of those gross spray-on tans.
- I have a vague memory of some sort of romantic/sexual dream, but I sadly can't remember it. Maybe I'll have a continuation of that theme tonight? :O We will see. That would be awesome!

You know why this night was so successful, though? Affirmations plus sufficient sleep! The night before, I told myself I WILL lucid dream tonight, and I guess that determination worked its way into my subconscious. Plus Daylight Savings Time helped a TON. Woo!

Before 8.30
Medium LD
After a brief interruption I chain back into a dream, but not lucidly. This time I am sitting on the bed, reading a paperback. My parents show up and start asking about what books I have read previously. Blank memory. Damn. I cannot recall anything. "Something about vampires?" I say, then admitting my inability to recall and blaming it on Aphantasia. -Since my memory is conceptual/verbal rather than visual, I can happily re-read books and re-watch films multiple times.

They change the subject and ask how my push-up challenge is going. I hop off the bed and start doing some push ups. They are completely effortless, as if my body has no weight. Ah. This must be a dream. I continue doing press ups and show off by getting a DC to sit on my back.
"How many can you do?"
"Like this? Infinite."
I get bored of doing push ups and tell them to gather their things. "We're going on an adventure!" I tell them. Figuring it would be nice to include my parents in a lucid dream for a change. (Might keep my mind out of the gutter as well. )

Outside the bedroom is a wide hallway with toilet signs, so I ask if anyone needs to go before we leave. They don't, so I head outside with everyone following me. There is a tornado in the distance and the winds are very strong. I demonstrate my super strength by climbing up the building and then holding on - the winds are strong enough to drag my body out horizontally from the wall.

We continue as a group and find an Indian looking bazaar. One of the shop/stall keepers is my friend ST, and a girl that introduces herself as Helen. I greet them before we continue to where the stalls are clustered around a valley of a dried up river bed. There is a sort of exhibit/display at one end of it, like a small ornamental water feature.

Then we arrive at the entrance to a museum of sorts. Mum wants to look around, so we walk around the various advertisement boards and go inside. The room contains large marble statues. They are around 25ft tall, so I levitate everyone in the group up to get a closer look. Then I sky-swim up and around the room as well.

Down on a table are a collection of orange plastic bags. The text on them reads Civil War. I go open one of the bags and find a special edition notepad and pen inside.