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I am shrouded in darkness, as the light seem to slowly seep out of the world. I know that this is a dream, but it feels so real. I am a spectator in my own mind as the floodlights burst on, and the music begins to play. "AND NOW, THE SEVEN TIME DARTS CHAMPION OF THE WOOOORRRRRLLLLLDDDDDD!!! DREAM MASTER 27!!!!!!!!!!" The music is deafening as I make my walk down through the crowd who are all chanting my name. I can feel the heat, the intensity and the pressure of the occasion. As I walk onto the stage, my heart sinks slightly. My opponent is non other than the great Adrian Lewis. We exchange a respectful glance, but now I know it is time. This is the ultimate test. The darts match to end all darts matches. I can feel the sweat on my face. I can feel the blood coursing through my veins. This is darts.

I don't know if this is some sort of premonition? Maybe I will face Adrian Lewis in a darts game soon. I am very good at darts so it could happen if I become professional. I think this dream may have been my minds version of a dress rehearsal for the walk out and the whole situation. I know if it does happen, I will be better prepared now...

This is my first DJ entry in a long, long time, and I've deleted my previous entries. I plan on updating my DJ regularly now.

I had a non lucid, where I was in a forest. There was a spider sort of insect on a waist-high green bush, crawling up and down it erratically. I got the feeling that I was inside some sort of 3d computer graphics program, because I felt like I had clicked a button so to speak, when I "activated" some sort of lighting effect- I mean, I removed the source of sunlight.

I say "I" did this because it felt like I had made it happen somehow, and it was a result of something I had done, although this seems illogical now.

Instead, everything was illuminated, from every angle. There were no shadows anywhere because everything was illuminated equally and not from anything- it just was.

I remember thinking that this disorientates spiders, it was just a sort of gut feeling. The spider did not move at all for about ten seconds, then it flew at me, or jumped, I am not sure. This gave me a fright and woke me up.

I had fallen asleep after listening to the "I thought I ate a spider in my sleep..." creepypasta on YouTube, read by CreepsMcPasta.

I went to bed early last night on 3 glasses of wine (yeah I know) and mild depression. I woke up around 2am with memories of a dream where my brother was very angry with me. I have these dreams fairly regularly, where either my brother, my mom, or my husband really seem to hate me and I can't figure out what it is that I have done that has made them feel this way, or to this extreme. I also had memories of being near a black dog -maybe a lab/mastiff mix?- who was viciously defending her puppy from my dog Cayna and I. I was trying to slowly back away and keep my dog from interacting with the angry dog mama, and my fingers were very nearly bitten off several times. When I woke up with these dreams still on hand, I felt too sick and too apathetic to write them down.

I read for about an hour before I laid back down to attempt sleep. WILDs were on my mind, they almost always are in the early morning hours because I've had so many in these circumstances. I usually know I have to lie on my back and remain very still until I feel myself getting sleepy, then the buzzing/synthesizer noises come and then I feel myself push out of my body and float away from the bed. I tossed and turned and slept for minutes at a time until I returned to lying on my back and feeling really sleepy. I heard loud discordant crashing sounds instead of the more usual buzzing/synth sounds. I felt myself rise out of my body, and I floated to my right and up until I was against the wall. Where my face was touching the wall, I could see an Iggy Pop poster hanging there in the darkness. I don't actually have this poster or any poster hanging there, but I didn't think much of this, and I continued to float, but towards the ground at the foot of my bed. My dog's bed is there, and when I landed I saw her; her face slightly distorted like it has been in other lucid dreams, sort of snarling and scared. I tell her it's ok, I'm dreaming. As usual, I worry if I am really at the foot of my bed and talking out loud. I get up and try to fly. It works, and I start wondering around my house. The clarity wasn't the best I've had. My house was dim, somethings were normal, and others weren't. As I approached my front door I thought, 'Wait! I should experiment here. Should I meditate? (I've done this before with strange effects) Then I decided I would try to reinvent the interior of my home, because as I was trying to fall asleep earlier in the night I have visualized a fantastic treehouse/hobbit-hole house in a forest of giant trees. I closed my eyes and told my self that when I opened them, my house would be amazing. It didn't really work. My kitchen had expanded and looked different, but my old rotten house was still mostly there. From here I lost lucidity or my memory of what happened next.

New dream: I was with my Mom and Step-Dad in an upscale department store/hotel. They were trying to exit the store by climbing up some rocks that were part of a display, and I was trying to explain that all they had to do was walk through a couple of hallways back to the hotel and exit from there. They didn't seem convinced, and anyway, had already managed to mostly slip through a crack in the wall to the outside sidewalk above.

Then I was with my brother in McDonalds (!!! I haven't eaten fast food in a long time). We each had our laptops and it seemed like we were having a meeting. I was just going to order some coffee. At first we were trying to squeeze into a booth with 4 other people, and then I noticed all of the other empty booths around and suggested we use one of those. The dream gets even less cohesive here—my brother's wife was there, then we were either at their house or my Mom's. Dialogue happened but I can't remember much of what we talked about. A portion was about Shepherd puppies, and people breeding them, and how one guy had a web-cam on his to help sell them. I was trying to share my knowledge of Shepherds but no one wanted to listen.

Then I was in a car, maybe in the backseat but someone else was definitely driving. My mom and her husband were saying things about me that I found really out-of-touch, like laughing about how I love certain things/celebrities that I haven't been into since i was a teenager. I tried to correct them but they just smiled like they knew better. Then my Dad called. (he passed away last year) He told me Happy Birthday (not my birthday, but maybe I was thinking of Father's Day?) and was his usual excited and goofy self. He also joked about me liking a certain celebrity and things I used to like when I was a teenager. I turned to the woman driving, who I could now see (and I seemed to be in the front passenger seat now) and I knew she was my dad's girlfriend(dream only, not IRL). I tried to tell her that I wasn't the same person they thought I was, and she seemed to pay more attention, but still didn't really believe me.

Last, I was walking and talking to a vague someone and explaining to them how it seems that I must come off as stupid to everyone because it seems like everyone treats me that way. The look on their face told me that they also thought I was stupid, but was trying to placate me.

Thoughts:
I gave a lot of exposition throughout, so there isn't much extra to add. I think I have self esteem issues, anxiety, and guilt over not seeing my family much nor feeling very connected to them.

First dream

It was an evening. Strong wind was blowing and sky was covered by dense layers of dark-red, huge, towering clouds. I was in my father's carpentry workshop, we were working on something with father, sister, my friend and two other men. My backyard was changed and door to old toilet hut were placed right in front of the workshop. The doors were opening on their own and despite the strong wind, sister scared me that it was a ghost opening and closing them all the time. I looked at the clouds and saw loads of lightnings shooting across the sky. I said "There's a photo session up in the sky, we should get back to home." We went back to my house, it looked like it was before renovation. My friend said "Wait, I've got to go meet someone at the wolf." I immediately realised that the wolf is a name he's calling one of the streets. We went out, it was just after the rain. We saw something strange - a blue orb of energy, surrounded by an orange, circular energy beam. It moved towards us really quickly, disappearing and appearing in another spot. I said to my friend "Look! It must be an anomaly, just like in stalker games!" We went around it, but then I decided to throw some pebbles at it. Two throws missed, I got a feeling that it's watching me. Third throw hit that orb and it exploded, releasing huge amount of steam. We went onward.

Second dream

I was in school, ending my classes. We were going down to cloakroom, I took my stuff and went for a bus. There were only a few passengers inside. I looked out through windows and saw that storm is coming. I felt that the bus is going to fall on it's side, so I leaned through a window and pulled a few strings that made it keep balance. When we were driving in a crowded town, I found myself in a cargo that was placed externally, on the bus' side. I was trying to not get crushed when bus was driving by other vechicles. Suddenly the engine turned off and I had to leave the cargo. I met up with two girls from the bus, one was very rude and we couldn't stand each other.

Fragment

I was in my house, in a living room. There was a tied up couple lying on the floor. A man in a black suit with red tie and a blonde, completely naked woman. I was holding a gun in my hand. The man said that they're not my parents which made me shot myself in an arm. Then he said "We're just freaking, kid!" This made me rage, I shot at them a few times.

Programmed myself to wake after every dream, which I did but I find it very much like coming up for air then plunging back under the murky waters, quite disorientating. So lots of chaining.
Also I tried FILD a lot.

D1 - Escaping from my father I travel across europe. I am being traced by a chip sticking out of my iphone.

D2 - Staying in Ireland, in a farm house. Waking up early in a bedroom, with double windoes overlooking the farm courtyard. I am a child but do not want to go visiting the farmyard animals with the other children.

D3 - I am a child again and I am unable to stop the bathroom tap running (a phobia of mine when I was younger). I am yelling for my My mum to sort it out.

oooo I don't really remember having dreams where i'm a child before Oo, must be deeper.

I had about four false awakenings LOL

First dream night of 6/19/16. Second dream occurred earlier in June 2016

Bits and pieces of dream fragments. I was at my old home in Denair. I was in the back pasture. I was looking at my neighbors home. Nothing had changed. I was looking around the pasture and just-- home.

Then I was on a trip. We were at a large event. I was with class mates? Peers? We all needed to be seated in fold down seat chairs for the event. I found my spot, the seats were assigned. The seat to my left was vacant. We neared the start of the program and my seat mate arrived. He had prosthetic legs and used braces on his arms to get around. He asked if I could help by folding down the seat for him. Or maybe he didn't ask and I asked him. But, I helped him by pushing the seat down and he was able to ambulate in to the chair. Next thing I know, we are done. The event is over. And we are waiting for the bus to pick us up to take us to our next location.

My seat mate said he wanted to stand up and move around a little bit. So, I offered to stand with him. We were talking. I felt fond. Like he was a brother or a dear friend, even though I barely knew him. It was getting dark out. We were talking like old friends and I remember touching his shoulder and feeling comfortable. Not like we were strangers.

I knew his name was Landon. Somehow. We were quickly becoming friends. And then we heard the bus start and watched it pull away. And I exclaimed and then grabbed my phone. I told Landon not to worry. That they must have just forgotten us. And I called the instructor and told her she'd left us behind. SHe was cross but I explained I was waiting with Landon and he needed to stand up --- because of...yknow. It was awkward. He was standing there with me. She said they'd turn around. I turned to Landon and told him it'd be okay. They were turning around and coming back to get us.

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I was on a trip. My father and sister were there. We were in a hotel room. Had somehwere to go the next day. But we were in San Francisco and I kept begging them to go out with me. Let's go! So I finally convinced them to go see the Golden Gate Bridge with me. We walked. The start of the bridge began as a tunnel, instead of on top of land. There was a special entrance for pedestrians to walk from the tunnel up to the bridge. So, we were walking on the bridge and I was so happy, when suddenly it started to shudder. People started running back toward us. A frenzy. I turned and we all started to run back toward land. The bridge was swaying violently. There was panic and everyone was stampeding. My sister was beside me, my dad behind. As we reached the end of the bridge and to the tunnel, it cracked and water started to bubble up. My sister and I leapt. We all leapt. We came tumbling down on the other side in the little bunker/tunnel. Behind us there were groans of metal and water. Spewing everywhere. A jagged heap of twisted iron. You could hear screams of people trapped. But, the metal continued to sink and then it was just rushing water bubbling around the metal.

It was then I looked around and realized my dad was nowhere to be seen. I turned to my sister and we didn't need to say anything. We didn't have to say a word because we both knew. My stomach fluttered. Emergency crews began to show up and started to put blankets around survivors and I was numb. I couldn't think. All I could think about is how I left him behind. How he'd probably stayed behind to help someone. That I hadn't stopped to make sure he was with us. That I'd just run in sheer blind panic and didn't stop.

The emergency crew said it was too dangerous to go in to the water with the bridge still unstable. They said the bodies were likely gone- under all the sediment and iron. They did not have hopes of recovering them. The personnel began to escort us somewhere else. To a common area so we could continue to process. I made the call to my mom. I don't remember what I said but it was awful. I couldn't stop crying. She was very short and abrupt.

Time passed. And I was still numb. It wasn't real. It hadn't happened. Had it? I went back to visit the site. The bridge had been rebuilt and corrected but they kept the old section there- for memories. I went down to the tunnel and there was a sign up with the names of those lost that day. It wasn't real. I couldn't feel. I just stared at his name on the sign and cried. How could this happen? How could I leave him behind? How could I just selfishly run?

A few days after having this dream, my sister and father were unexpectedly flying across country and had a flight cancelled that caused them to be stranded in Texas. I picked them up and we were watching a Warriors game on TV, who's team logo is the Golden Gate Bridge. I told them about my dream and we considered it a bad omen for the game. The Warriors ended up losing.

Bedtime:
11:00pm
WBTB:
3:30am
Wakeup:
8:00am

The first dream I remember I had before my WBTB alarm. I woke up because I was scared.

Dream 1 (fragment)
My roommate and I were running down a boardwalk somewhere in the night. I don't remember if we were running to something, or from something. We approached what looked like a long, huge, thick snake on the boardwalk and we stopped, but when I looked closer, I realized it was just a large hose, like something a fireman would use. We kept running, after a while, we approached what was unmistakably a large, dinosaur like lizard on the boardwalk. It was facing away, and I was hoping if I looked closer, it would turn out to be something else, but as I leaned in, it turned its scary face to me and lunged in, opening it's huge mouth to attack.

I woke up like how you do from a nightmare, where you sit straight up in bed. I wrote down the tags and went back to sleep.

My WBTB alarm went off, I sat up and rubbed my eyes, said to myself "Ok, this is it, I'm going to WILD, my mind is ready!" but again, I attempted to WILD for maybe 45 minutes before I gave up. Nothing was happening, I tried several different positions, but it wasn't working. Eventually I fell back asleep. I did manage to have 2 to 3 more dreams. When I woke up I didn't remember any of them, but I turned over, and they all came flooding back to me, so I wrote them all down.

Dream 2
I am at a group interview with about 10 people. I remember the interviewers (who were several teachers from my beauty school) saying the interviewees were all from my high school and the high school in the town next to us (this is all strange because I graduated HS 5 years ago, but I didn't question it). We were all asking the teachers questions, which was apparently how this whole thing was supposed to go. I was asking a lot of questions and thought I was doing pretty well for myself. I remember they were going to let us go on break, and I raised my hand for one more question, "What are we going to do now that Aveda is discontinuing the Toning Mist? I need to use that after my cleanser so that any residual cleanser gets neutralized, otherwise my sensitive skin might have a reaction." This is a real "issue" happening at the salon I work in IRL, but in this context seems very strange to ask them. Everyone seemed very impressed with my question, however, and they told me to use tinted moisturizer. They gave me some and i rubbed it all over my hands (?) then I asked if I could use the bathroom. The women room was right around the corner, but I was trying to find the mens room, walking through different doorways and hallways. I ended up in an area with all clear glass or plastic walls, very confused. So I found a stairwell and went down. I found myself in a locker room, and there was a man there who looked suspicious of me. I asked him where the bathroom was and he gestured to no particular direction. Eventually I found the bathroom and used it. I remember feeling really horny in there and made a note to myself that I should come back here after the interview (lol wtf), then i made my way back upstairs.

Dream 3
I was hosting a gameshow in a library. There were entire families participating, and they were there on vacation. I don't remember what we were all doing, but everyone seemed to be having a good time. At the very end, this guy who I went on a few dates with IRL showed up and we sat a table, he poured himself a glass of juice and added a shot of whiskey to it, but didn't pour anything for me. I remember as he turned to grab the whisky, applesauce started coming out of my mouth, but I immediately realized I wasn't supposed to let that happen to I sucked it back in. The crowd saw it and gasped, but the guy didn't see. Then he drank his drink and the show was over.

After the show, my roommate and 8th grade girlfriend were there helping me clean up. I remember saying I missed spending time downtown, and I never got to do that anymore. Then I started catching up with the girlfriend, who I haven't spoken to IRL since we graduated. I told her I quit smoking weed, and she told me she gets high before dinner in hopes that she can get drunk during dinner. I accepted that as a good response and we parted ways. I remember gathering all my things and walking to the El with my roommate. I had so many bags and they were all this vivid deep blue color, one of my favorite colors. The el was also decorated in this color. I remember as I gathered my bags I thought I looked crazy, like I just had this feeling I was turning into a crazy old person. We walked down this long winding ramp lined with blue that matched my whole outfit and bags, toward this rather large hill.

This is where I'm unsure whether the same dream continues or a different dream.

We're on a train toward the hill, but now I know we're in Ireland. Also, I'm not with my roommate anymore, I'm with someone else but I can't remember who. Once we get to the hill, I'm searching for someone with blue hair named Odin. I can't find him, though in my dream "memory" I know I had seen him there earlier that summer. I remember seeing little people walking around in the crowd. Not leprechauns, but actual little people. They were older and dressed very nicely, in silver and blue suits with top hats.

I'm in the kitchen of my childhood home, and my mom and grandma are making some sort of dish. I'm talking to them about LDing, and in a semi-serious way, I tell my grandma that at any moment, what we're experiencing could be a dream...this could be a dream. I then say that the scene does look a bit dream-like. I do a nose-plug, then double check and I become lucid. I'm very happy at this point; I'm amazed at how vivid at convincing the non-lucid was. I quickly decide to leave the area instead of exploring the house. I want to head into the darkness in the front yard in order to practice willing the dream scene to explode into vivid color and design. I make my way to the front of the house, and the front glass doors. I head over to phase through the glass and begin exploring outside. I jump through, and take in the night-time scenery. A tall tree with sparse leaves stands across the street with a purple hue glowing around the entire thing. Tall foliage makes its way down the road on either side of the tree. I go to begin flying toward the tree to explore more, yet rapidly wake to my body.

Dream
The dream begins with me and someone else running towards a house at night. We're trying to free the ghost of a girl who was murdered, she haunts the house we're heading to. We go inside and walk around for a while, I can't remember how but we avenge her spirit. I'm in the lounge with the ghost while my friend heads off somewhere. She looks about 17-18 with medium length Egyptian style black hair, she's quite attractive but I'm nearly 5 years her senior so I have an 'eh no thanks' thought going through my head. I sit down on the couch, it's a pretty simple square room which has either a beige or light yellow wallpaper to colour. She wants to thank me for helping her, so she flicks the lights off... It's pitch black and I can feel her getting closer to me, she kisses me but I have a feeling she's up to something. I turn the light back on and tell her I'm not interested, I say something like "I'll go check to see if my parents are ready to leave yet". I still felt some kind of evil about her, I didn't want to fall for her seductive ruse.

I head into the next room, it's a lounge that resembles the one in my parents' house. My mum is sitting on the leather couch with my dad sitting on the arm of the chair, between them is a damply lit lamp that sets a heavy tone. It feels like they were talking about some adult problems before I walked in and interrupted. "Are we leaving soon?" I ask, "yes we're just about to head out" my mum replies. I get changed into my pj's, they have dinosaurs on them I think.. I feel like I'm a little kid and we're heading home after being out camping for a week. We're in the car now, I'm sitting in the back seat, my parents are in front with my dad driving. It's still dark outside, though not completely. There's a torrential downpour too... The road we're on is coastal, to the left is a rocky cliff rising up high while to the right is a rocky seawall with big waves lapping up against it. We drive around a bend on the road and an epic scene awaits, a huge shape bursts from the water. At first I'm unsure about what it is, but I recognize that it's something from Avatar the Last Airbender (it isn't...). I think to myself that it must be a multi-legged bug monster or the evil mecha episode, except it's happening live (it strikes me as odd that it's only just happening yet I've supposedly seen the episode). I get a closer look and realize it's the evil mecha episode, oh fuck. I remember how in the episode it gets chased by a good mecha and they collide near the bridge crossing, breaking the bridge. Fuuuuu... It would take forever to get home if the bridge broke :/. "DAD! Speed up! We have to get across the bridge!" I yell, hoping that I've convinced him despite knowing that I'm a kid and that no one believes kids.. He speeds up though, we're flooring it and the evil mecha is accelerating with a huge gush of water jetting into the sky from the speed its going at. We come to the turn at the bridge, my dad does a turn and break to skid the car to a stop (no easy feat with slick of water), we bump into a side wall slightly before accelerating again. The evil mecha has arrived at the bridge and turns around to face the approaching good mecha. Our car crossing the bridge, the torrential rain pelting the roof, the huge mechas shrouded by a thin mist as they charge towards each other. Everything happens in that moment, the mechas collide as the car touches the otherside of the bridge, a huge force explodes outwards and obliterates the bridge behind us. I'm thrown out of the car as it skids to a halt by the edge of road. I fly through the air and land in the ocean, there's something else that flew out with me though and I try to swim and get it. Fuck, it's too far... There's a dinghy nearby, I'm anxious about the water depth so I swim over to it. It's almost completely submerged, but atleast I put it under me to ward any sharks away. There's a rope attached and my parents start pulling me back to shore.

There's a minor scene change, instead of heading back to the shore I'm in the water again. My parents are in the dinghy and I swim over, my dad wants to show me what to do in this sort of situation and is being all like "Oh so just in case this ever happens to you and you're on your own I'll show you what to do". He was just inferring it was good time to practice. The dreams ends here .

Well, diseases have been a common theme in my dreams. In the past, it was generally cancer and/or some type of random organ failure. This dream, the medical nightmare involved me having aids. Basically, I was contacted by a teacher from community college, where I went early in my college career. The teacher said that an HIV test had been run on all of the students. Everyone else was negative she said, except me, and that I had aids. Hearing this news I was in utter disbelief. I was just terrified about the whole thing and what the prognosis was going to be. I had little knowledge of the disease, and I wondered how I could have gotten it. I ended up going to a doctor's office that was supposed to be some sort of clinic for people that were suffering from aids. In the office, I was pretty much scared out of my mind, thinking that the doctor may give me a grim prognosis. However, I found it equally mysterious why I had it. It seemed as though there was simply no means of having contracted it. My mind began to go to horrible scenarios of that I could have been taken advantage of by some mysterious person and had no recollection of it, just the stuff of nightmares...... because that literally was what it was, although I didn't know it, yet.

Dream Two------extension of dream one, with subtle wakefulness in between where I was still confused and frightened by the previous dream

After leaving the clinic, I was on the street of my hometown. I was going to walk up the street at night through the questionable neighborhood to see my parents to pick me up. Oddly enough, the whole aids thing just kind of dropped, which made no sense as I was naturally terrified about the whole thing. I mean, I guess I remembered it, I just wasn't thinking about it. Then, my Mom was in this shop where she was baking. However, upstairs supposedly there was some guy in there that could kill me. It was dark and mysterious, and people were saying not to go in there that the guy could kill me. However, I couldn't see him. At this point, I began to develop very low level insight that I was dreaming and the whole thing became much less scary. Then, I decided to leave and call a girl from where I went to college that ditched me, as I knew I was dreaming. She basically just gave me the brush in the dream, so I just kept on walking, then I woke up.

When I woke up from this dream it really scared me with the aids part of the dream. The aids thing couldn't be possible in real life, as I haven't done anything that's risky along those lines. However, the dream first had me so shook up that I just wondered if maybe somehow I did or that I could have some other kind of horrible disease. Then, after a few minutes passed, I realized that it was merely a dream and I didn't have any kind of disease. I have to say that this dream honestly gave me a lot more empathy for people that actually have received that diagnosis and had to deal with that experience.

No dreams. Taking meds. Have Vertigo & can't go swimming again. The whole world is spinning. Need rest.

Bedtime: 12.30am



I'm unsure if I was already in a dream. I could feel vibrations through my whole body. I started to accelerate, moving forwards very fast. I started to really enjoy the sensation. Then I tried to control it and go the other way. I started moving the backwards, faster and faster.

I could hear an alarm. I thought 'oh shit it's a fire alarm, I have to wake up!'. I 'woke up' and went to put out the fire. I was lucid here but just reacting to what was going on. Somehow I knew that this was KK's house. I went to the fireplace and a stack of wood next to the fireplace had caught on fire. I started to put the fire out with water. Then I realised that gas had been leaking out of the fireplace.

I woke up.

Bed: 23.00
Wake up: 06.30
Now: 06.35

Waterfail
I'm having a dream within a dream. In the second layer I start fidgeting with my tooth which is in the upper right section of my mouth. Eventually it comes out, leaving a new tooth which has just pierced the gum to develop. I immediately realise what this means. I start moving my hands to perform an RC, but I know it's not even necessary. Yup, dreaming. After maximum 2 seconds of indecisiveness, I attempt to complete my waterball challenge with werty52. It's a total bust. I have my eyes closed and get thrown out of the dream in mere seconds. I have a FA, without realising it.

Gossip
I'm in a shop or something. There's multiple lines. My ex girlfriend is already standing in a line, at the very end, with a black guy close to her. I approach her from behind and rest my hand on her stomach. It seems as if we're still together. The guy starts talking to me about another black guy a few metres to our left. He asks me if I heard the guy. He asks me so in Dutch or in English. I reply that I heard him, in Surinam. I figure I don't want to be overheard by the guy who we're going to talk about, though odds are he also speaks Surinam. I also realise quickly that I've put myself in a bind. My Surinam is not that great, so I hope the guy won't make it difficult. Luckily he switches over to English pretty fast. He says something about it being impolite, but he's talking about it being impolite for the other guy to talk Indonesian..? Meanwhile the line is moving and my ex is asking me what we're talking about. I decide on telling her shortly after, though that moment doesn't come.

[woke: on front]

Am in back yard. I have fun suspending myself in the air, as others watch confused (though not alarmed).

Go back in house. Some sort of discussion is happening. I suspend myself more, while talking. Monz and others make plans to go outside. I decide to too.

I go outside, and mention I'll be going on my own. Am flying around above our house/neighborhood outside.

While flying, I see a car drive in with some people I know. (I think Nathan, Kevin Shram van Haupt, and ~2 others) I decide to drop in with them. They of course welcome it, so I settle in. They start driving, and we soon make it to a parking lot for a large mall.

We're looking for place to park. We notice a police car with blinking lights in road, apparently just watching for law-breakers. For some reason (possibly just fun), kevin (the driver) decides to pull out and leave very quickly. They drop me off at mall, then go to corner with police. Then they floor it, and their car makes skid noises and shoots away. The police car follows in pursuit, and I walk around trying to look non-chalant as about 10 other police and fire-department vehicles appear from the mass of cars and also begin their pursuit (or try anyway--the ones that saw where they went).

I decide to continue on into mall. I see hundreds of people inside (it's quite packed), and I have fun just walking around. I see a number of stores, including restaurants, coffee places, a movie theatre, and storage/industrial type places. While walking, a message is announced on the loudspeakers about a car having just driven away from law enforcement. I get self-conscious, from their possibly having had cameras that saw me associated with them, and to save myself the in-dream drama, decide to leave and just explore more outside.

I fly around the city, and see lots of cool places, including a heavily urban area with large towers and crowded streets. While flying around a large, many-storied apartment/hotel, I decide to rest on the roof of a midpoint of it. I look out for a while. Then notice someone down in a lower section moving around. I watch him, and notice he seems to be approaching me. For cautions sake, I fly up above the tower, then over to its side to leave. He yells out and says "wait!". I pause and go back a bit, but still keep my distance, and ask "what?". As I suspected, he wasn't to be trusted as he got out a rifle, and began aiming at me. I mentally shrug my shoulders, and propel myself swiftly into the open air.

Now going toward the more urban area, I fly over lots of crowded downtown-type roads. While doing so, I remember my dream goals... 'Oh yes, one of them is to find an exotic plant or animal and ask the inhabitants for its name and origin'. I let myself drop down onto an old parking lot area, and scan for interesting plants. I end up choosing a thick green plant with a single large, splayed-out white flower. I pluck it up, and look to ask the passers-by about it.

I speak out loudly, "What is this plant called?" A few people answer, some more confidently than others. The two I remember were "Zamboo Bush" and "Wiki Plant".

I ask "What is its origin?". They pause for a bit, till one older lady responds, "I don't know". A young girl responds a few seconds later, "How are, your views?", which was laughably funny/ridiculous.

Anyway, I'm pleased with myself at this point for completing my first Dreamviews task-of-the-month, and shift my attention back to the dream-world at large.

I decide to inspect the sky. I look up, and notice that the sky is not open/natural--it's just a surface painted blue with clouds and such. I'm a bit displeased with this. In addition, I notice that the towers in the downtown area go right up next to the surface. I ask the passers-by if the sky is artificial, and add that it's different where I am. At this the young girl from earlier asks where i'm from, and I say "Way, way far away. Would take days... No, thousands of days to get here.", but then, realizing I myself am here, add, "It was faster for me because of our advanced tech." (laughing to myself that I feel the need to lie to a dream-character just to avoid uninteresting-at-the-moment discussions)

view fades, then reforms in a bit in the tower we were looking at. Am with a younger boy, who appears to be someone i'm acquainted with. He shows me forward in the hall, and into a large conference room like area. We go in, and there are ~15 men in business suits. They seem to be talking about their work that dad. I look around more and see dad, who starts talking with head guy/boss. After a while, boss points over at two pairs of glasses near computer and asks if one's missing. (apparently when flying near towers earlier I had 'lost/broken' one) dad says no, he's always used just those two remaining ones (and I wonder if he's trying to cover for me).

Boss guy goes over by himself some. I follow him and say i'd be willing to talk more about myself, since he seems to know i'm from another world (he made comments of the sort while talking with dad). He gives an "I know all about you" sort of smile. When I say I'd trust him with the knowledge, he smiles more, and starts making jerking movements with his arms/upper-body. I add mentally "Well, enough to talk about it", as I realize he might not be fully trustworthy. Which was true, cuz from his movements he begins attacking me with some weapon/monster thing that's coming out from near his arms (it seemed more as an overlay/other-layer than actually coming out of body, though, and nkt terribly threatening).

I do not feel like being attacked though, so I jostle myself mentally and wake up a couple seconds later. I then started writing main points of dream. Didn't last long though, as I woke up for real ~20 seconds later. I mull over the main events to keep them in memory, do an rc for awakeness confirmation, then begin writing down the events for real on my tablet.

An environmental catastrophe was about to happen to the Earth. Humans were aware of this, and there was a system installed in which we all had to wait for our name to be called (sometimes in groups, sometimes alone) and step aboard a small asteroid-like rock that floated nearby a cliff. The asteroid was like a disposable mini-rocket, and as it launched off with each group, it begin slowly disintegrating until the people aboard would fall to the ground and die, or be injured and die later. It was terrible, but not very real-feeling. I watched a friend die, then came my turn, and I woke up before I died.

I fell back asleep and entered a similar scenario, only this time it felt more real. I was living in a 'Fall-Out' type village, with very few amenities and maybe 50 people at most. We were under the control of another group of humans, like a military or militia. We had a local stand where a guy sold things like cigarettes, food, drink, drugs, etc. There was a man who delivered small amounts of rations regularly. I saw some soldiers going into some of the other homes on the compound and I knew the end was coming soon, they were going to take us away, and some [vague] bad thing was going to happen. During one moment I seemed to be playing the role of a child, although I also had my current dog, Cayna. I heard that the soldiers weren't allowing animals to come along and I began to panic. I knew I couldn't leave Cayna behind. She would starve. I knew she had been abandoned before and I dreaded the idea of putting her through that again, at my hands. I was leaving the home I shared with other people and I think I told a woman and her 2 kids that I had a dog and I was so sad to be made to leave it. I asked her if she was ready to leave too, and she said they were staying, because they have a cat, and if you sleep outside with your pet you can stay. I was thrilled and went to get my mother [random woman in dream, not real mom]. I saw her in the back of a car being driven away. I cried for her and she looked back and seemed to be crying out in pain of leaving me behind.

I had Cayna though, and now I seemed to be back to my regular age because my husband was with me. I knew sooner or later we would be forced to commit mass suicide. I felt an enormous amount of dread. I thought, 'This is the worst possible ways things could end.' I wondered about Cayna again, and how she would survive without us. I thought she would have plenty to eat for a while—the left behind food and corpses...but then something convinced me that her death would be horrible if I let her live and I began to wonder if the safest thing to do for her was also poison her when we had to poison ourselves. My heart hurt; how could this be happening? I thought wouldn't it be wonderful if somehow, right before the and that someone said we didn't have to die after all? We could go on living! I felt a sting of hope rise and die quickly. I looked at my husband who was teary-eyed as well and told him that maybe the best thing for Cayna in the end would be to take her with us. He cringed and seemed to emote that he didn't want to talk about it. I said, 'I understand but I just wanted to say it now so when the time comes we had talked about it.'

Some time went by. We were outside this entire conversation, my husband and I. He suddenly told me to hold still and he began plucking at something on top of my head. He plucked off a ladybug -still attached to some of my hair- that he said had burrowed itself into my head/hair.

Thoughts:
I had some allergy issues right before bed, and my throat felt tight, felt itchy, and it felt a little hard to breathe. I've had allergy induced asthma before and it wasn't that bad, but I decided to take a Benedryl to relieve my symptoms. My husband spends lots of time playing Fall Out 4 lately, and I think the post-apocalyptic town was designed with that in mind. I have been a little worried about my dog. She is aging, and I wonder if I am giving her the absolute best care that I could be. Do I exercise her too hardly when we run? Do I feed her too much? etc. I found it interesting as I typed it out that my worries about abandoning my dog turned into me playing a child being 'abandoned' by my [dream]mother. I'm not sure what that means though.