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My second one was last night. I went to bed early and listened to another guided meditation. I woke up in the vibrational state by my room door. I felt like I was already sitting up and could hear different distorted noises. To my left I could sense or see that my wife was sleeping there which was weird because she sleeps on the other side of the room and no one has ever slept in this spot by the door. Anyhow, I tried to get out with no avail when I saw a reflection or shadow or something of a head on the wall. When I turned my focus to it I floated right out. I floated right into my walk in closet and tried to go through the wall to get outside. That didn't work. So I turned around I floated out of my bedroom and into the living room directly towards the wall. I went into a superman position and went through it to the outside. I thought I would see the area between my neighbors house and mine or even might be inside my neighbors house. None of this happened. It almost seemed like I couldn't see. And it might have had something to do with what happened next. I could sense I was floating up into the sky. Kind of fast. The funniest thing about this was I can remember pulling up my underwear which seemed sort of slumped off. I thought that I might get cold or lose them altogether if I didn't. Right after that this I ended up popping into my living room and floated again down the hallway to my bedroom. Another weird thing was that when I approached the hallway, my dog was there looking at me and kept backing up as I floated over to the corner where I REALLY was sleeping. He backed all the way into this corner. Then I woke up.

My first one kind of went like this, I was listening to a guided meditation after waking up at 2 am and staying up for awhile. I fell asleep and woke up towards the end of the video where the woman said, "rise up"... and instantaneously I rocketed to my ceiling, but right before I got there I heard her again say, "rise up" but this time it was distorted. I could sense I was actually laying in a different spot in my room than where I normally lay. But I could almost see things from a 3rd sense or something. I mean, it felt like my eyes were closed but I could see. While I was floating there feeling naked, almost vulnerable, I told myself to just go with it and stay calm. I was there for maybe 10 seconds when I wondered if I could open my eyes and be in another realm. When I opened my eyes I instantly projected back into my body and the recording was still playing exactly where it should have given the 15 or 20 seconds I was out.

I was a spy, sneaking around a corridor. There were giant windows on the right side of the wall. I was talking to someone over a walky-talkie. We kept using funny acronyms to describe situations and what to do during certain ones. I think I had 3 options: to kill everyone in the room, to take a hostage and keep them as insurance and then run away, or simply trying to slip by. I walk into the first big room. It's a library, with a bunch of DCs standing around wearing ski masks and holding guns. I take hold of one of them, disarm him and put him in a choke hold. Then I think to myself, "Wait, wasn't I just in bed? What am I doing?" I drop the dude and try to stabilize by rubbing my hands together, but I faded out before I could do anything.

A fragment in which I'm waiting for someone in a subway station and meet an android, though they've been banned. She looks human except for her eyes: they're filled with a constantly-moving white light, and her eyelids are covered in jewels.

Utena's dueling someone, and her clothing's changing as she does so. Other duelists are running up the stairs and arrive just in time to see her win, and Touga says something complementing her on her confidence, that she could trust that the changes going on around her would serve her.

He goes on to say something about those changes reflecting past eras, which transitions into images with some vague connections - something about a limousine, and then something about flight patterns with an image of a witch flying on a broom, which leads into the next scene:

A guy who's just now become a witch is looking out the window at the approaching dawn, and he wants to go flying and feel the world wake up around him; but he has responsibilities to attend to, keeping him here.

Before going to bed, I remember wondering why a friend of mine hadn't accepted my Facebook friend request. Upon falling asleep, I had a dream in which she approached me and said "I finally accepted your friend request." And that's all I remember.

So last night after logging out after a brief conversation with havago, I went to bed and began my new nightly breathing/ focused meditations. As usual it was difficult to keep my mind quiet, so I get myself back on track. Getting really relaxed and focused finally. All of a sudden I have an intruder! Again! So this time I telepathic ally say Wain I'm meditating. I start to go back to my breathing and my intruder says "WHAT" really loudly. I mean right next to my ear for Pete's sake. I stuck my hand out and passed em as note. Then realizing I forgot to write on it, I grabbed it back and scribbled NOT NOW! YOU CAN VISIT LATER.
I guess that did the trick because the rest of the meditation went well and i fell right off to sleep.
Don't know if its my sub breaking into my meditations lately or what have you, but its not freaking me out so much now.

Today i dreamt i was in my parent's bedroom.
i was lying down on their bed. on the bedroom door
my dad was hitting Boni with a kitchen paper roll
for some reason i told him "stop hurting her" he seemed angry
and came to me, he strangled me, i tried to scream "MOM! MOM!"
My mom saw my dad strangling me, she brought a knife and snapped
him on the left leg. for some reason i felt ym arm being snapped as well
i felt that awful pain, i wanted to stop that nightmare and i woke up.


Dream elements:

-Dad
-Boni (my brother's female dog)
-mom
-parent's bedroom



Technique used: ----------


hours slept: 12 hours

I awake in a room...
The roof is open looking up into the blazing sun seeming 2X as large as before...
The building I am is one room and barren and empty with nothing in it but a small piece of the wall were a window seems like it should be is broken open... I look around and get up off the ground and walk out through the door...
Outside is just sand and to the east I believe there is a two story house and a corn field to the north is a forest to the south is a sea and the east more desert...
I walk north towards the forest and find no way into the forest...
Footsteps... Quickly moving closer from the south... Advancing I hear a voice saying something...
A man with tattoos on his arms and looks almost exactly like kamina from gurren lagann hits me across the face than and teleports into black smoke...
"Catch me if ya can!!!" He screams from inside the forest...
I teleport in the same fashion in and dash through the forest... I run until man... He wears a golf cap and a trench coat... He puts a gun into my face and says "watch urself boy" and cocks the gun...
I look down the barrel of the gun and the gun and it shrivels out of existence...
"Ahhh,so ur the one" he says in a calm voice and straightens himself up.
"What do u mean sir..."I stand up and look him in the eye
"You should know it hehehe" he vanishes out of existence leavening a grave in his place that is illegabal...
END

I believe this is my dream guide
POWERS,
Teleportation
Matter destruction
Enhanced speed

Jan 4. 2014

Last night bed 12-1 am - 10:15 am

Had a bunch of dreams. Woke up, recalled a dream, but didn't write it down. Then had some more dreams.

DR:
I'm with classmates. My moms kitchen. Sitting down with others for some "orientation". Something goes wrong and I leave. I'm now in some water park. Thinking which water shoot I'll go down to escape. Looking inside some tubes, some are closed off.

I'm walking away by a sea wall. Want to just sit down and be looking at the ocean and sunset. But I also want to go down to the beach to collect seashells.

Classmate is running after me. Giving me some papers. A small kid is pick-pocketing me. I grab his arm and start asking who is his parent. I drag him by some people standing outside their one story houses. From the look on one guys face, and scared look on boys face I know that guy is his dad. Inside of the house a woman laying on bed is throwing up blood. Lung cancer. That's why that man sent his kid to steal. I still don't like it but now I understand. I don't know how to help them.

Final day of zombie land...
It's finally over....
The darkness fades as I awake in a hospital bed room, everything so white, sterile, shiny. I look around me to see myself surrounded by smiling faces... There are so many... People I helped... Civilians... Unknown faces... I force myself to sit up to feel a pain in my gut... I look down to see there is a huge hole in my stomach...I immediately hold my stomach as a pain starts to well up over it.A doctor comes in and immediately puts a respirator over my mouth and I get knocked out... I hear the words rest and it ends... All 71 days of this constant repeating game of survival is over and I can now rest peacefully... (This sequence of dreams ended on 8-9-13 it started on 6-11-13 making it I fall asleep here I wake up there I fall asleep there I wake up here... Many peaches are missing from this story... (Comment please if you want to know anything that happened in the dreams if you want info on what a dream sequence is ask me I will be glad to share.)

I am turning the corner into my neighborhood, I'm walking with someone, I don't recognize them but just assume they're my friend. We hear a voice call us from behind and we turn around to see. It's a male who looks to be in his late fifties. He asks us if we want to go to the acid field. We say no thanks, because he has the look in his eyes that there's creepy intent behind them. Then we start to walk towards my house again, but then he says something to us again, he says "let me give you a ride to acid field." I still don't trust him and want to go home, but my friend start walking with him, I don't want to leave her alone with him so I go with them. Then we are at this place in a hidden run down hangar. There's junk everywhere, and junk for seats. He tells us to go sit somewhere, so we do, there's about 30 other people my age here sitting, I recognize some of them from high school. We're all watching these two girls fight, and there's a pair of boy getting ready with the hand wrap to fight next. I come to the conclusion that the guy was collecting people to fight at his fight club and that I would have to fight, I looked around and saw no big competition from boys or girls so I didn't mind, but instead he sent me down this thin path that was lined with jungle, roots, vines and it was night. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, but then I knew without seeing her that my twin flame was here, and I completely submitted and laid down on the path. I was going to sleep near her. Then sudden;y it was day, I got up and continued walking forward and the jungle came to an opening and it was rows of unused farmland and I saw her green tent on the left side of the path and when I saw it move I ran into the field on the right of the path and kept running. then i woke up. [what a coward]

So I did a lot of intention setting prior to bed and when I laid down I was repeating some mantras and trying to remember some of the TOTMs and what else I wanted to do. I was trying to convince myself of all of this and it seemed to just make me anxious and not be able to sleep. When I finally put my mind to rest a bit and start drifting off I could feel myself going to sleep, partial dreams and partial awake, it was very strange. My dream seemed very unstable and very chaotic, I could see buildings and objects just growing which apparently I was causing, nothing vivid whatsoever though.

I woke up many other times with just snippits of dreams but didn't really concentrate on recall since I just knew I was going to have a lucid later (which never happened). Instead I focused on getting back to sleep.

Woke with this one in the morning which wasn't really super vivid but I recalled quite a bit none the less.

I was with a DC in a car. We were headed back from somewhere but not sure where. I was in the buff for some reason but not sure why. I was very upset at my nudity and was just kinda covering as much as I could while we were driving. We ended up in a auto shop maybe a chop shop, not really sure. We stopped by the supervisor who was by a computer or something and asked about how much it was going to be to get a car that we 'aquired' fixed. The price popped up on the register as 12 thousand something maybe a 234 but not really sure about the last three digits. We continued and parked, I think I was clothed at this point or just forgot I was in the buff. There was a couple of guys working on buffing a car with a squirt bottle and small hand held buffers. We turned into the guys who were buffing and the DC I was with found my sun glasses on a motorcycle which I had apparently misplaced. Don't remember this transition but I wound up at home in a kitchen getting breakfast ready for my daughter. my wife showed up and wanted to show my step son the car we got. We went to the garage and there was a white porche sitting in the garage. She told him to take a look inside and he started to drive it, turning out of the garage. I was yelling at him to stop (not yet able to drive), he finally started to back up and I realized the car was just a Honda morano or something not amazing like a porche. He almost backed it into a wall and finally stopped. My wife began to get on him and he ran at me trying to get away, I held out my arms or hands to block him from getting me and wound up making him do some crazy flip backwards.

That was about it. Nothing too amazing, I had really anticipated a lucid last night too. Maybe tonight!

So I was having a nonlucid where I was flying, which got me lucid. So I tried to will myself to fly faster (since I usually fly slow because I get vertigo). I did a sort of superman pose, which made me feel more streamlined, so I was able to gain speed. I tried to remember a task of the month, but all I could remember was "change gender." Which is stupid. Because it's not. What happened there was I was somewhat recalling the conversation I had with CL and BrandonBoss in the TOTY thread about if it still counts to change gender for some of the fairytale tasks. Since for example, a straight guy might not want to make out with the Beast, as Beauty lol.

Anyway, in midflight I grow boyparts, and land at some random clinic. At this point I really really believe that the TOTM is to change gender and have sex. So I end up in one of the rooms, and the nurse practitioner is a petite woman in her 50's. She's attractive, so the age doesn't put me off. She asks me some medical questions while her back it turned to me, and I just strip down as fast as I can, answering her questions in as deep a male voice I can muster. But then I caught a glimpse of myself in a full length mirror in the room, and I see that I'm still female. It reaaaaaaaaaally bums me out for some reason, and I lose lucidity. Don't really remember much else.

I want to do something that I've been thinking of for a while. Sorta like a "stabilization" thing if you will, but really more of a reaffirmation of lucidity. Every few moments or so in a lucid dream, I want to have a "time out." I'm hoping this will engage my rational mind a bit more so I don't get too caught up in stupidity. I really feel like my lucids have been shaky at best lately.

Legend: Non-Lucid , Semi-Lucid , Lucid

Urban Exploration:
Part 1
After playing around on a computer at school and talking to some teachers, i decide to go urban exploring. I arrive at a place which looks a lot like where i live. Long driveway, surrounded by hilly fields and a big house at the top. As i walk up the driveway, i notice about 50 people sitting around and talking (they are all people i know). I need a group to go into the house with so some of these people will do but i can't bring all of them. I start walking around and hitting people on the head with a stick. I knocked out about 30 leaving 20 people left. I could then split these 20 up into two groups to explore the house with.

I talk to the people sitting down and they walk up to the house with me. Once there, we split up into two groups. Ben declares himself leader of a group. (Ben is a guy i know and one of the people that were sitting on the driveway). We walk into the building and find ourselves at a sort of main chamber which splits off into two paths. One path on the right and one on the left. Ben and his group go left and my group goes right. We enter a room which has a shape sort of like a octagon. Small walkways were attached to the sides of the walls which went around almost the entire room. In the middle, there was a machine on a circular platform with pipes attached to it that connected to the back of the room. Around the middle platform, there were waterways which were about 6 foot deep. These waterways went around almost the entire room except when the pipes cut them off.

As we approached the room, my stupid group decides to immediately jump into the water and start swimming. They went left around the middle and headed towards the back of the room. I went along the right wall staying on the walkway. As i approached the pipes in the back, the walkway ended and i had to start walking on the concrete which the large pipes were attached to. as i walked, my group talked about the stories of this room. It's supposedly here to take water from a lake and process it into drinking water but the previous owners used the room to kill people. I make my way to the pipes which connect to the middle machine and jump onto the concrete under them. The pipes here were elevated. They had sprinklers attached to them and constantly sprayed water below them. I quickly pass under the sprinkler spraying the least amount of water but the water it sprayed was dirty so i ended up sticking my head under one of the clean sprinklers. As i do this, i suddenly pass out.

Part 2
I wake up in the same room, except the water ways no longer exist, the room is level. There is no machine in the middle, it was replaced by a table and chairs. There are windows on the right wall letting light in from the outside, those weren't there before. Near the doorway to the room, i see my desk. As i stand up, i also see my jacket on the ground and a girl passed out near the wall. I put my jacket back on and attempt to go get the girl up but i hear footsteps so i get behind the table and look under it. One of Ben's group members is walking into the room. I relax a little and stand up, although i still have a weird feeling about all of this.

Ben's friend shouts some nonsense and Ben eventually makes his way into the room. I subconsciously dislike him now because i get a feeling that all of this is connected to something he did. He starts talking, i think i forgot all of what he said, but a van backs into the room and in it is Ben's friends dressed up oddly, like all of them are about to perform a heist or something. Ben gets into the van and says something about urban exploring and leaves.

I notice a fire in the main room. They kept it alive all night, throwing in old notebooks and paper to keep it burning. I walk over to my desk and out of habit start checking the stuff on it. I notice my wallet and check that to see if anything is gone. It really shouldn't matter since there's no way this could be my actual desk. I then start checking the drawers. One drawer has a dvd about militia from Chile and as i look at it, I enter a trance and picture myself actually in Chile watching events happen. But i shortly snap out of it and put the dvd up. The dream then ends.

Dream of: 28 December 2013 "Planting Flowers"



some dreams are more than effervescence

Although its the middle of the winter, I've taken out the lawnmower to cut the grass at my 17th Street House in Portsmouth, Ohio. I first start cutting the grass in the vacant lot next door. I even start cutting the grass in the back yard of my neighbor Bill's house. I had never cut his grass like that before. Since I have my lawnmower sitting low, its obvious that I cut his grass. I realize I shouldn't have done that because Bill probably didn't want me to cut his grass.
While I'm outside the fence behind the House, I use a little white circular machine which looks like one of the little robotic sweepers which are used inside houses. Instead of using it for sweeping an inside floor, however, I set this machine to moving out in the alley. After the machine picks up quite a few things, I bring it back into my backyard and look at it. Among the items picked up by the machine can be seen a little cup which looks as if its brand new. The cup looks designed to hold milk for a baby. I think I'll keep it. It would be usable if it were simply washed. I also see what looks like a small piece of gold about a half centimeter square.
As I'm sifting through this stuff, I look through the door in the back fence and out into the alley. Lying on the little patch of green yard between the fence and the alley are lying four large orange clay planters. Two are round and two are square, while all are about 2/3 of a meter tall. They all look in good shape. I pick up one and carry it into the House. I think its good that I've found the planters because I have many packages of flower seeds which I've possessed for years. Now maybe I'll be able to plant some of the seeds in these planters.
When I walk back out to fetch the other three planters, they've all disappeared. Someone has stolen them! I'm chagrined. When I continue looking, however, I find two of the planters, so only one was stolen. Nevertheless, its terrible that I can't even go into the House for one minute without someone stealing something out by the alley.
I carry the remaining two planters into the House and prepare to do my planting.