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Very excited about having my first for sure without a doubt WILD.

I didn't take any supplements. I napped when I got home from work from about 330 or 345 to around 7 (I slept way longer than I wanted to). I tried going to sleep around 11. I tossed and turned for awhile and was really focusing here and there about lucid dreaming, I felt myself almost asleep with a nice buzz going through my body and I was picturing a dream scene, or just an object. I turned over which I thought would mean I would lose it but as soon as I turned over I entered into the buzz state again, on the brink of sleep. I had an inkling of awareness and I was focused on a table with a plate on it. I kept thinking this for a couple of minutes and then WHAM, a dream formed around me. LUCID: I wasn't sure If I could or should move yet but I moved my arm and was able to move it in the dream scene. I gave a little smirk happy that I was in a lucid dream but calm. I was in a house (none that I recognized), I was sitting at a table with a white plate and some silverware. I stood up and noticed it was dark outside. I walked out the front door and looked up at the sky. I noticed the moon and stars. I thought I would try to make the moon bigger and put my hands in front of the moon and tried to stretch it bigger. This didn't seem to work at all. I then tried to make it light outside and I think the shades changed from a purplish like a dawn to a more dark. I thought of flying up and looking for something to do but decided to go back in the house instead to find some people to do the TOTMs with.

I began to go inside but it was dark so I flipped the switches and they actually worked. I went inside and went into a bedroom imagining someone was in there. My dad was in bed and I think he was awake already so I decided to do the basic task on him (or what my stupid dream self thought the task was). I asked him where the spoon was, as I was asking him he disappeared, just vanished into thin air. I shrugged and a little irritated went into another room. This time it was my younger brother and he was sleeping, also the sun was coming up at this time and I could see it was getting light outside. One of the dogs I have currently was laying on the floor in there and he was asleep. I woke him by asking him about where the spoon was, he said he didn't remember. I asked him again and he said he thought in the dishwasher. Thinking I had finished the basic task I was going to go for the advanced task. I told him to watch this and kinda looked at my hand and made a couple of my fingers longer. I put it to my eye and began to push back. My brother bolted up and out of his room and to who knows where. I kinda followed but was more focused on getting my eye out. I kept pushing but just felt pressure and never got to the back of my eye where I could pull it out. I gave up in the kitchen and headed outside.

Outside it was now light. I looked next door in the back yard and there were a bunch of young girls standing around a pool. I kinda jumped/floated over the fence to see what all the commotion was about and saw they were all looking at a snake or lizard in the pool that was swimming around. All of the girls were in swimming suits and were about to I assumed have a lesson. I think I said watch this and I used telekinesis on the snake, wound him in a little ball and crushed it. They all said EWWWW and there was a black cloud now in the pool. I walked through the gaggle of girls and looked at them. They were all still looking in the pool. I looked back at the black cloud which was pretty big and the carcass of the snake was still there. I then grabbed the snake with my 'power' and tossed it out of the pool. I then tried to collect all the black stuff with my mind but didn't' seem to work. They were looking at a bunch of little bugs that were on the water now and they called them like skitters or something. I took a close look at a couple of them and went ahead and headed out.

I jumped over the fence again into the front and was skipping along the sidewalk looking at the neighborhood. I was in a neighborhood with really separated houses and large green yards. I began to come upon a larger house which I planned on going in, it was really big and was an old house like many others in the neighborhood. I thought this one might have some sort of business run out of it like a old folks home or the like. I also thought this dream was lasting an awfully long time and then woke up.

While I didn't get the TOTM done I am stoked at the length of this dream and the fact that this was my first concrete WILD. This was not supp induced at all either.

8/21/14 Thursday

last night bed 11pm - 5:45am

I'm standing on a first floor balcony of a corner house. I watching a guy on the sidewalk gesticulating and yelling frantically. He is mad at something. I think he is suspicious of a guy going after his wife. Then he notices that the guy is already in his wife's bedroom. I get a sence that he is dangerous and it's not about a fling, but something more sinister. I watch the guy climb up the patio support to the balcony I'm standing on and rush into the room. I can hear them yelling.

I had a Vivid Dream but not Lucid.
I took a Lucid Dream pill or I listened to some audio and I passed out in the dream.' (IT FELT REALLY LIKE I PASSED OUT)
I woke up and I was at some computer and it was giving me a Tutorial to Lucid dream It told me to reality check "right now" at that moment I was paying attention to everything else the tutorial didn't mention WILD or any ILD's I didn't reality check though.
_Apple Juice_
I heard If you drink apple juice your Vivid-ness gets better and you may have lucid dreams.
As long as it doesn't have sugar than I'm in for it. I think I'm getting closer to lucid dream

NLD, first sleep: Several of us are downstairs in a house at night. The front door is wide open. Through an adjacent window, I see a man sitting on a bench next to the road outside, waiting for the bus. Perhaps he tires of waiting, because after a while he gets up and walks right in the front door. I recognize him as "The Vagrant," a character played by Johnny Depp. He wears white face make-up and an old fashioned suit and hat, resembling a mime from the Charlie Chaplin era. I feel hospitable toward him and offer to let him sleep in the wife's room, as she is not home. (I have no sense of who "the wife" might be; there's something impersonal about all the DCs; they are more like roles than individuals.) Someone standing nearby ("the husband"?) gives me a dirty look for leaving the door open and then telling the vagrant he can stay. I don't openly acknowledge the glance, but gives me a sense of foreboding: I don't know anything about this guy, and I've just offered to let him sleep in one of the upstairs rooms. If he turns out to have ill intent, we'll be leaving ourselves vulnerable when we go to sleep.

Scene change. There are about three of us upstairs now on a sort of balcony, in addition to the vagrant, who is swinging on a rope. He has not said a word since entering the house, and I start to wonder if we should be worried about his intentions. I consult the DM, who is not physically present in the scene: "If I do 'sense alignment', is it blatant?" It feels as though I ask the question aloud, but in a way that does not manifest audibly in the dream scene -- I'm asking OOCly (out of character). The DM confirms that, yes, the effect would be blatant, meaning that I can't cast the spell on the vagrant without him noticing, either because I have to make distinctive invocations and gestures, or because he would be able to subjectively feel the mental intrusion. I don't want to cast the spell if the vagrant will be aware of it, because at this point I already strongly suspect that his alignment is not on the "good" spectrum, and I don't want to alert him to my suspicions. After the vagrant leaves off swinging, one of the other players on the balcony asks the DM if she can use the same effect on the rope that he has just let go of. She's trying to be clever: a rope, obviously, won't notice anything amiss or feel itself being scryed on. However, she seems to be missing the obvious, so before the DM has a chance to respond, I scoff jokingly, "You can't 'sense alignment' on a rope!"

Note: I'm interested in the way dreams can take on aspects of other forms of representation. Mine are often heavily influenced by structural elements from films, video games, and even tabletop gaming, the first and last of which were strongly present here.

NLD, second sleep: The fabric of the dream was very thin and immediately frayed upon waking because I did not keep still enough. There was an elaborate plot that I wasn't able to piece back together. However, I was with a group of people that were playing costumed characters, acting out scenes that were somewhere between a play and a LARP.

Afterwards, an actor who is a dwarf (of the genetic, not the fantasy variety), comments to me about his disinterest in playing out live-action versions of stories he has already filmed or done on stage. "Kid, we want to see it, or we want to hear about it. We don't want to live it. We've already done that."

Note: This dream appears to have been incubated by the thoughts I wrote down after the last dream about the various representational formats that have been an influence on my dreaming. Dream would like to remind me that I left out plays and LARPs. Thanks, Dream, I guess my dreaming is also influenced by plays and LARPs (even if I haven't engaged in either since the '90s). Anything else?

Dreamed I was in a car with my girlfriend and there were zombies outside...

There were two dreams that I recall parts of. Both non-lucid.

1. There was a self storage place with a concrete ramp and I was keeping stuff in there. It was pretty full. There were some bicycles that I needed to move inside. But there wasn't really enough space. As I was loading it someone nearby had an international scout. She couldn't get it started and wanted me to help. I went to help but when I got there she managed to get it started. She drove it away down to the bottom of the muddy hill.

2. In another scene I was watching a movie and there was an alien who was wearing a leather jacket with funky wooden armor on it. Kind of like a number of small wooden scales with symbols on them, in a random patchwork that only covered about half the coat. It wasn't clear whether a) in the dream I was watching a movie, or b) I wasn't really physically *in* this part of the dream, but the scene was just being presented to me in a movie-likeway. It's a subtle distinction, but quite real. The alien was presented in a scene which first showed the jacket, and then slowly panned up to the head to reveal a non-human head, kind of a cross between fish and lizard looking. And there were some Japanese people, but I'm not sure of their role, not sure if they were in the movie or were watching the moviewith me.

That's it.

Confused non lucid bits and bobs.

1) I was reading a two page spread from a paper. There was a photo of Niaomi Campbell (who had bulbous eyes) but the article was about Cindy Crawford . (IRL I have no interest in these people!) Crawford had just become an actress, apparnatley the article compared the weights of '9 stone Campbell & 22.5 stone Crawford' I asked my wife about the film she had been in, I remembered then said 'That was the one where she had a clone at the end?'

2) At some sort of industrial site, lots of metal stairs. Tucked away under one was shop (it was night so it was closed) which was a 'Monster Munch' shop , selling those delicious crisps exclusively. I was standing on one of the stairs, and a woman/creature was running around beneath me shouting that she wouldn't go back..

3) A visit to the Doctors to make an appointment, the woman who dealt with me was short , dumpy and had glasses.

4) Me and a former employee were away to work out the circumference of the earth - using a calculator and a blue glass eye. She looked something uo and said 'Its 365.25' As I was entering it I said 'Of course, the length of the year.'

I haven't tried lucid dreaming in days and noticed I probably induced the SP feeling by trying to get lucid. It was my way but the time I stopped trying I didn't have SP anymore. So that's great! I'm getting lucid without SP or trying too so even better.


I don't recall the first or second dream. I only remember the third.

Third Dream

I was in my house with my family and a baby. I don't know whose baby but I was suppose to take care of it. After a while though I brought it back to my sister because some intense battling was occurring in the environment. My sister asked me why I was incapable of watching him but I said it wasn't important. I noticed I was now in a big store with my mom. There were backpacks around and I asked my mom to buy me one. She said no and I got mad because I needed one for school. I noticed a boy watching me and got nervous but than my mom pulled me and showed me the backpacks were worn out, I told her to just look for a good one and left the scenery. I became lucid when I noticed my younger brother talking to two unknown people. Something the girl did made me mad though and I decided to scare her a bit. I told the boy and girl if they kept messing with me I would put my fingers in their sockets and rip their eyes out. They were a little freaked out so I left with my brother. But than they started chasing me. I decided to lead them on a wild goose chase and flew away. We ended up inside a school and I ran down the stairs a lot. During the chase I recall getting distracted and talking about ice cream. When I exited the school everyone was in a line and got into a circle. I drank water after asking for some and sat down. A girl started playing the violin and I wanted to play with her. I saw a flute or bassoon and started playing it. The music wasn't coming out very well though. When she stopped everyone started clapping. Another girl asked about a question to her problem and I said maybe she should hold a charity even though I don't know how to start one. She said it was a great idea and everyone started to disperse. We all started walking and I began conversing with boy. We appeared in a clothing shop where three lady's tried taking control over me. One of them grabbed me from behind but I couldn't get her off. I told her to kiss me and she kissed my neck but I kicked her than jump kicked her face like a boss. She was complaining about it to the other two girls.I ran out with other people and swam through a dirty water. I was going to go with the boy I was talking to but I went back to the shop cause I felt like saving my brother. When I arrived I found myself doing a hand stand and someone was tickling my feet. I almost bumped into a man who was talking on the phone. He said in Spanish that a girl was acting like a kid in front of him. I walked and saw my brother working and told him to come with me because I got this far trying to save him. He didn't want to go though so I left him. I tried putting on a green short cause I think my pants dissapeared. But out of no where it turned red and childish. I went through a portal and ended up kicking a bed where a digimon like little girl was. She complained to her brother if he kicked her bed. He said no than I woke up.

1. I had just appeared in my friend Patrick's house, and immediately I became Lucid. I looked around me and noticed that I was all alone, no body was home. It was extremely dark inside and no lights were on in the house. As usual, everything had a blue tint to it, but this time, everything appeared to be more electrified. I walked down the hallway and then into the living room. Still dead silent. I realized that I was just wasting time standing around, so I opened up the back door and walked out.
As I did so, I closed the door behind me. Patrick's backyard still looked the same, and he still had the same black gate. I opened up his gate and walked out. I noticed that it was daytime all of a sudden, and I started walking down the street. As I came to the end of his driveway I looked to the right and left of me on the street to see what everyone was doing. I saw a few ladies socializing, and a few kids playing. I decided that I was going to fly, and so I took off and flew into the air.
I was struggling a bit with my flying abilities at the moment, and then a thought came to me, "This is my dream, and I have complete Dream Control so I can fly like a pro right now". After I said this, my flying abilities became almost perfect. I continued gliding through the air with ease, and I was really enjoying myself. I flew down the street I was on, and as I came to the end of it, I saw a dude riding a bike. I landed next to him and talked to him. He had short black hair, and was wearing a white t-shirt with blue jeans. He told me about what he was selling, and I saw that he had a small white cardboard box in his hands.
He then opened up the box and showed me what was inside. Inside, he had 3 pairs of skateboard wheels. So, more specifically he had 3 groups of 2 wheels(hope that makes sense). Each pair was a different color: one was a light red, the other blue, and the last one was green. I got so involved in this conversation with this guy, and I lost my lucidity. I found myself just going along with the flow and not really paying attention anymore, so thats why I lost it. About 30 seconds after I lost lucidity, I woke up.

2. I had just walked into some sort of building with my friend Natalia and 2 other dudes. We walked into a certain room that was almost all white and inside of it there was a big truck, and I'm guessing it was for show. We all sat down at a table inside and started talking. I saw that Natalia was wearing a pink cowgirl shirt, and she looked really pretty. Somehow, we got on the subject of guys, and what kind of guys were Natalia's type.
Suddenly, she looked at me and described her kind of guy, "I like a guy thats skinny, but not too skinny, and one that dresses really good. He also has to be muscular." As she said the word "muscular" she punched me in my abs and smiled. I played along, "Yea that sums up a pretty good guy". After a few more minutes of talking, we got up and left the room we were in. We walked into a hallway, and this is were I basically lost the group of Natalia and the 2 other guys. I stood in the hallway for a second and saw that it had a gray carpet. The walls were still white, but they looked a little dirty.
I looked down the hallway to an extent, and saw a group of kids standing in a doorway. I walked down to it and saw my old friend Nick from 8th grade. I also saw my crush and my god, she looked perfect. She was wearing a blue denim jacket and skinny jeans. Her hair was in a ponytail and she had the right amount of bangs hanging down to where it fit her perfectly. I was so in awe that I wasn't really focusing on anything else. wow.
I started talking to my crush, and asked her what she was doing. While I did so, I noticed that my old friend Nick was looking at me in a weird way. I asked my crush if she had a boyfriend. She said, "Yea, we just broke up for 2 days a few days ago, and now we got back together." "Ah ok, thats cool. Hey do you mind if I talk to you about something in private later? Don't worry its not creepy, I just kinda wanna keep it secret." I asked her. She replied, "Yea thats fine. I'll talk to you in a little bit." With that I walked down the hallway to do something else.
Later on, I came back into the hallway(no idea what I was doing before this, totally forgot) and walked to a public seating area. Here, there were about 4 or 5 round tables that were green in color. Tall plants sat in 2 corners, and it came to me that this must be the lunch area. I sat down next to my crush as she was eating lunch, and we started talking. I remember asking her about her boyfriend, and talking about a lot of other stuff, but I don't remember really any of it.
After we finished talking, I left the table and walked somewhere. The dream then ended and I woke up realizing, "Crap, just missed the dream sign that I almost never miss."

3. I was inside of some pretty big house. The interior looked really fancy and white. The owner was throwing a party and me and my friends Patrick, Trey, and Dylan were all there. Inside, we stood over by a mirrored shelf and chilled. I looked around and saw that there were disco lights circling around the room. The lights were purple, pink, and blue in color. We continued standing there for a while, and then, out of no where came a guy that lives down the street from us: Devin D.
He came up to us and started talking to us. He told each us something personal, and gave us some advice. He tried to make fun of me, but I told him I didn't give a f*** about what he says and that I wasn't going to take crap from him. With this he left us, but in all he was talking to us for about 5 minutes. Earlier in this dream, I remember walking with some short guy in a top hat and a suit. I was with a group of people and he was basically giving us a tour and some other stuff. After that I left the tour and went with my friends.
After Devin left, I looked for the exit of this building. Once I found it(It was directly to my left), I walked out. When I walked out I have to admit, I ran into something that I wasn't expecting. I suddenly found myself in some kind of weird place out in the middle of no where. It wasn't a desert, but it looked like a rocky land with a completely crimson colored surface. The air was really foggy, and everything was pretty dark and shadowy. Up ahead in front of me, I saw a crimson colored Dragon standing on the edge of a cliff. He looked more real than any dragon I had ever seen before. He was huge and had sharp dragon scales all over his body. His head was more flat than most dragons, so he kind of looked like the black main dragon from the movie, "how to train your dragon".
But in all, he looked nothing like a cartoon. I looked into his eyes. They were a piercing yellow- orange in color and truly brought a bit of fear to me. My sister was next to me now, and she had some sort of staff that could shoot out small balls of energy. We were supposed to kill this dragon with it. I took the staff and shot the dragon in the back. Suddenly a health bar appeared above him. The shot did barely any damage, maybe a minuscule amount. The Dragon then turned around and was extremely mad. He slowly started approaching us, all the while I was rapidly firing the staff in my hands.
I continually shot energy balls into his open mouth and slowly, but gradually his health started diminishing. I was really surprised that he hadn't breathed fire onto us. We kept on backing up as he got closer to us, and continued shooting him. I remember getting this dragon's health more than halfway down, but I don't remember anything more.

4. I was with my friends, Dylan, Patrick, and Trey inside of my house. We were all standing in near the dining table. Me and Dylan had a small plastic package of food each. In my package, I had an ordinary meal comprised of some lunch meat, some crackers, and one dessert. In Dylan's package, he had all dessert, there was nothing else, just dessert. I remember having to put my food in the microwave to warm it up as the directions told me. I told Dylan when I was done, but he didn't have to put his in the microwave.
I went over and got another good look at Dylan's package. The container was all blue, but more of teal blue in all. Inside were 4 sections of desserts, the container was split in four. There were chocolate cookies, chocolate crackers, chocolate brownies, and something else. It all looked really good, so I offered Dylan to trade my good food for his dessert. He declined. We never really ate our food, and the dream ended soon after I made my trade offer.

5. I was riding on a bus, sitting in a seat that could hold 3 people. My old friend Nick, from 9th grade(a different nick than the one from the first dream) and some other guy was sitting in the seat with me. I was in the middle, Nick was on the right, and the other dude was on my left. We were just chilling when the guy sitting behind us, Patrick who is a senior, started talking to us about flip flops and slides. Suddenly, Patrick gave me a free pair of Nike Slides. They were black and had blue accents.
I slipped the slides on and thanked Patrick. He said no problem and we continued talking. In the middle of our conversation the guy sitting to my left said really loud to Nick, "Dude, do you ever wash your feet? I can smell your feet from over here and it smells gross." Nick made no comment. All of a sudden I started to smell that smell that belongs to dirty, nasty, smelly feet. It reminded me of an old,aged cheese. It smelt truly horrible, and I wanted to get out of the seat.
I looked down at Nicks feet, and he was wearing green flip flops and of course, he didn't have socks on. As I continued sitting there, all I could focus on was that horrid smell.

(Recall was a little lower today. It's because I recalled my dreams in a different order from usual. Going to get it back up tomorrow).

22:30 pre-bedtime, 1mg melatonin @ 22:00 for resetting bedtime, memory review, set intention for lucid dreaming in the night

22:52 bedtime (yay on schedule!)

(didn't need to consult notes for anything but time of the entries, <but used the one-sentence summaries post as a reminder>)

03:25

+ childhood neighbourhood: on a bicycle at the top of the park on F blvd, old bully MB is there but we're on good terms, I say "this is what you can do a on a bicycle!" and I ride to park-left, up over the curb, and gain speed and ride towards a place where the curb forms a jump and jump WAY up in the air, performing several (3?) back-fiips together with the bike, then steady upright slowly floating down to the ground spin the bike side-ways underneath me in a circle several times, and land on my feet with holding the bicycle up in the air by the seat stem in my right hand (ta da!).

Walking up towards A. blvd above where it meets F blvd past the park a group of girls is there and they're talking about something (networking?) which I disagree with, then they talk about wine, why not grow it here? I think you won't get much, and say "What'll you get, 100 cases? Well, we could sell it at the park for $3/bottle".

At the base of the hill where A and F blvds meet I go DO up in the sky and observe the scene of an accident up on the F hill towards S ave. There are 4 what appear to be motorcycles stopped with their riders, there was some accident there. Close up zooms in to one young Asian man trapped in his "pod" his internal organs are all failing due to the heat inside the pod, he says "No, don't try to save me, save the <ones who come after me>" (who aren't there yet?).

+ I'm standing outside observing lovely golden California hills, standing on a long steep slope (right side facing down the hill), I see to the right the hills go way down to city/the bay. I think I really want to do some hang-gliding here, from here all the way down to the bay. I think that it would be good to try out the hang-glider on a short flight first to make sure it won't collapse on the long, high flight down the hills.

I'm indoors talking with some guy about an <antennae?> that will raise altitude, either he or I make a comment about the updraft winds that would be involved.
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The MOTHER of all "wake can't get back to sleep"s at this point. Some SSILD variants.

05:10 can't sleep, get up to kitchen, sit with cat on lap and drink milk, read a bit from "Nine Princes in Amber" (zillionth reread).

06:15? try back to bed. Still can't sleep. Another hour goes by?

Should I get up again? No. Argh. Counting breaths. Too aware. Fast SSILD

Letting go. Yes, there's some drowsiness there but it's really remote. I just *KNOW* there are some LDs in me waiting to happen, just waiting for me to sleep. My strong intention setting at bedtime is probably keeping me up. Also, I went to bed earlier, in a very firm strict re-setting of my sleep schedule.

Let go on exhale, let go on exhale, total physical and mental relaxation, empty the head, LET GO on exhale....and at some point I fall asleep.

08:57

There were a lot of little scenes, very jumbled, took me quite a while to make sense of them during recall, didn't totally succeed.

+ I found the cat's laser pointer pen, it was by the sink in a <glass of water?>, I try the controls, I poke around and find the button that activates the laser. A bunch of weird stuff has grown around the head of the pen, sort of a ferny-forest of white plastic tendrils, I have to move them all out of the way so that the light beam can shine. I mov e down the hall to the room where the cat is (it's dark), I shine the beam, I see the beam shining through the air and hitting a chair, and the cat <bats at it?>

+ I drive my son S2 to wine store, and I remain in the car, and wonder if anyone will say anything about that, I see a little bit of the store inside the door I see containers on the walls. I watch S2 through the glass window being shown the wine by a clerk, they walk to the left side of the store at the edge of the window, I see the clerk take out a sommelier sampling cup-thing and pour two samples from what look like thermoses, I wonder if I can try the samples but I'm driving. <S2 is too young to be drinking, should he be sampling it?>

+ girlfriend montage:

My GF invites me over to her place on the phone, she wants me to arrive at 11:15pm, I say I can't do that because it's too late and my parents won't let me, I think she may think I'm a wuss for being controlled by my parents so much.

I'm with my GF, she's really mad at me, the way I speak to her, she gives several examples of phrases I've used which make her mad, she thinks I'm being impertinent and short with her, I disagree and ask her to give me a concrete case where I did this, and I give an explanation that I was <talking to a friend in some way that made sense that I used that phrase?>

I <follow her?> enter her room feeling bold about we can have some "action", I catch a glimpse of someone else <her sister?> in the room and immediately turn to leave back out to the hallway, I get a bit bolder and think "no I'm going to do this" and re-enter the room, <don't see anybody else there?>, see my GF then make for the door again to leave, I see her mother (darkish skinned middle-aged woman wearing glasses quietly sitting in a chair not paying me any attention), I walk past her without saying anything, I think, heck, it's my GF's mother, I should at least introduce myself, I go back to her, extend my hand to her saying "Hi, my name's <my name>" and wait for her hand, she offers it and I shake it, I notice that she's REALLY small, like midget-proportions about 2-3 feet fall max and think that this explains why my GF is so petite.

I can't remember my ex-wife's (false memory) name, and that bugs me. She had blonde hair and I recall taking her to my bed in my room.
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+ I walk up to a "sleeping" girl lying down and bend down to kiss her, as I'm about to touch her lips her lips pucker up, her eyes are still closed, I get lucid at some point during the fairly long (10 seconds, yeah that's long for me when lucid, sigh) deep "snog", I'm thinking about trying to maintain focus and awareness but I wake up/transition (not sure which).

+ Walking into a party in a fairly dark room, some guys are mixing/distilling a drink flowing out of a tube into a (blue?) pot on the ground in front of them, a girl is standing against the wall and puking on the floor, something about little gummy candies (either in the puke or the drinks) and she was looking at them. I recalled after walking around a bit that I should gave goosed the busty but unattractive girl I saw when I first entered the party.

Heading up a spiral staircase don't want my friends to see me, they see me, I look into their bright blue eyes, one is a young JoDu, they say something to me but I quickly walk on past them (prelude to the party?)

+ closely contemplating a home-made electronic telephone. The handset is to the right of the phone body which is large and square (1 square foot) and is covered in some sort of plastic/cellophane. Inside underneath the cover and top of the phone body can see a glimpse of a circuit-board. The handset does not sit up right against the body of the phone, I reach in there and pull out a <sock? wool cap?> and it then fits better.

Dream - Lucid

I was at work at the bakery. I was walking by a room where the managers were having a meeting. None of them were in their work clothes. I saw my manager there. Her back was to me and her hair was half pulled up in a short, high ponytail. I thought about how different she looked when she was back here working.

I then had to approach her about something. We were still inside, but I had to wade through this high grass that was flooded with this milky white water. The discoloration of the water was caused by chemicals that were being used on the grass for some reason. I was worried about the chemicals making me sick. I finally got to the other side. I looked down at my leg, and there was this huge bruise that took up my whole kneecap. It then started to move around on my leg. I wondered if I was seeing things, but no, it was clearly moving. I then saw this weird brown streak coming from a healing scab. Someone, a female employee, pointed it out and asked what it was. I thought it was a sign of infection in my blood, as was the moving bruise. I was afraid that it would move to my heart and kill me. I started to panic. I said
"I need to go to the hospital. Call 911. Call an ambulance!"
I then started to overflow with panic, thought about the ambulance fee, and I passed out.

I was feeling like I was buried beneath consciousness; I felt like I was out quite deep. I started to surface, and when I opened my eyes, I saw that I was at work, sitting next to my manager, Shannon, on a grey bench attached to a wall. I guess nothing was wrong with me. I looked down at my knee, and it looked better and less bruised. I looked up and asked Shannon
"What happened? Was I just panicking?"
She responded
"Yes."
She then gave me a copy of the hospital bill. It had a description of everything they did and how much it cost. For instance, the used a strong anti-anxiety of some sort to calm me down, and that cost $321. That's the only figure I remember though. It listed the life flight to a different state's hospital, which was in a jet instead of a helicopter, evaluation, and showed that I was good to go home that day because nothing was wrong with me. I felt bad because I didn't want to waste anyone's time, and I felt like I had.

I then was behind the counter, and I was trying to call my best friend Mk. I got her voicemail. Her voice sounded like she was on the verge of tears. She said the usual, that she wasn't available, and then she started to apologize for something about some chemical company she was apparently working for. Then she went on to say leave a message. I then noticed a customer, a woman, and I quickly hung up the phone and said
"I'm so sorry! I was trying to call my friend!"
She gave me a smile and a stare, as if to say she knew and I shouldn't have been doing that.
"What can I get for you?" I asked with a smile.
She then started to walk to the other side of the case to point out what she wanted, and then I woke up.

~

I was leaving the apartment to go to work or something. Dallas was there, and it was daytime. I opened the door to leave when my cat, Belle, ran out. Ugh, I really didn't want to chase her down. I waited, trying to see where she would go. She paused, and then started to go down the stairs. She got to the bottom, and instead of a parking lot, it was a small grassy field. I finally got to her and grabbed her. I remember grabbing her tail and another part of her and pulling her to me. I picked her up to take her back inside.

Then, it was like she was a child, and asked if she could go out to this different part of the field when I got home. I told her no. I think I told her no because the spot she wanted to play in was muddy.

~

Something about work, about me clocking in late a few times for some reason, like from coming back from lunch and being late getting to work. I was worried about getting fired. The rooms I was in for a lot of this dream were dark. Something about someone calling my current manager by her real name, Sherry.

~

I was working at the bakery, and had been there for only a week. I was sitting in this very large back room at a long table. Across from me sat my old manager, Sherry. She was my manager again now. Also, my friend Courtney S. from my old job was working there now too.

I then was in another part of the back room. As I entered it, I saw racks full of perfectly iced coffee cakes and such. Courtney S. and Patti, a lady I work with currently, were both back there. I knew Courtney had done the racks of perfectly iced coffee cakes, even though she had only been there for a few days. I asked her what I needed to do. She told me that I needed to scrub the doors. I think they were doors to the ovens. I then started to do it. I also had to get on a step ladder to clean on this blue, cylindrical fan-type thing. It was caked with bread dough. It was used to cool it down, or something weird, I'm not sure. At any rate, I had to use this special tool to scrape the dough out. I didn't use it at first, but then I switched to it. It worked much better. I kept thinking about how pissed I was that I had to work under Sherry again, when she was part of the reason I quit my old job in the first place. I "remembered" speaking with the old store manager, a bigger woman resembling one of the customer service managers I work with IWL, at the same place I first saw Sherry working there, in the back at the long table a few days prior.

When I finished that chore, I asked Courtney what I needed to do next. She was telling me how to do the floor. I had to flood it. I asked if I needed to squeegie it, and Patti said yes. I remembered doing that before at a different job (IWL the only job I have done that at is the one I'm at now in the bakery). I started to do it. I saw lots of bread crumbs and such.

Then, I was sitting on my bed in my childhood room. The bed was even in the place it was when we first moved in there. Dallas was sitting on it with me, but...he was a baby. Like, he looked like he does now, the same size and everything, but he was a baby. I had to try to keep him from falling off the bed. I then had to pick him up and carry him, though I wasn't quite sure how to do it correctly. I picked him up with one hand under his butt. He was so heavy, and it felt awkward to carry him. I had to adjust my grip so I wouldn't drop him. I even commented on it, saying I wasn't sure how to do this right. I then remember seeing his hair styled in this weird, curled fashion, with it being curled in on both sides. He liked that hairstyle, but I thought it looked silly. But it was ok since he was a baby.

Alright we've finally catched up with the DJ and I can now keep it up-to-date again for the rest of the week.
Remember next week I will take a week of of journalling or anything LD-related entirely just so you know I'm not dead.

1. HEIL!

I'm in a large clasroom or canteen and Hitler is holding a speech for a large audience of adults, I'm at the front row and slightly nervous considering Hitler himself is standing several meters infront of me. It seems he wants to learn the audience how to pronounce "Heil Hitler." correctly. The audience shouts it several times but Hitler seems to get frustrated and start shouting "HEIL!" probably 50 times through his microphone. The audience also start doing the Hitler salute which makes me very uncomfortable as I'm actually forced to do it too if I don't want to be spotted/killed.

2. Get out of the way!

I'm driving a car trying to navigate out of the garage but my family seems to be sitting right on the road having a tea-party or something. I can barely control the vehicle and it seems the brakes are mostly broken too. They get very angry and start shouting at me for almost hitting them.

3. What was that?

It's early morning and I'm downstairs, my sister is studying at the table and I open the bookcase to see what's inside. I find a small TV and start it, a reality show starts and I see something funny and ask my sister to rewind it. I call my mother to see it too but we have difficulties rewinding it and my mother gets impatient. Then I find one of these old binocular things that you can look in and see a series of pictures. At that point my mother starts getting very annoyed and actually telling me I'm stupid or something.

So basically, there were rumers circulating the school that there were werewolves in the building. Mind you I haven't been inside a school in over 10 yrs. Anyway, some idiot was standing on a desk shouting for the animals to attack him. He then goes to the door and shouts some more, that is, until a lion tore down the door and made lunch out of him. Some of us ran out of the building and into the woods. I found a little gnome house in a clearing. The gnome then lead me deeper into the woods, where I started getting attacked by insects. I thin it was a wasp and a locust. That's about all I remember.

I didn't really have any DR, actually I did have some DR but the dreams were so boring I didn't bother writing them down.

I can't really say anything about this night cause I'm typing this 3 days after it actually happened but I still remember most of the dreams vividly so I'll say that dream #2 was the first dream in which I was confident enough to introduce a girlfriend to my mother...

1. Silence

I'm alone walking through a very open large modern house, I'm not sure if it's a house or an interior magazin but anyway weird stuff happens here. Apparently a monster hides between the furniture stalking you and it kills you if you make too much noise. Why do I know that? Well I seem to have had a flashback before the dream actually started which showed my father walking here too and now in the dream itself I see a puddle of blood next to a couch. I slowly walking around the house, it's dark outside but the house itself is very bright and open. I sit down and suddenly listen to schlager music or something which makes me jump around for some reason and then there's suddenly a group of people looking at me and I feel embarrassed.

2. Introduction

I'm laying on the beach next to a girl I know from school and we're talking with each other, I actually like her and enjoy the sun. When I look to the left I notice my family about 15 meters away from me, they don't know I'm talking to this girl and that we actually like each other. Then I see my mother walking towards me, she hasn't spotted me yet and I have a choice wether to walk away and act like I was just walking towards the sea or introducing my mother to her. I choose the latter and felt very confident knowing I made the right choice.

3. Myst

I'm playing a game called 'Myst' (Awesome game btw) and I've finished the game by completing both the blue and red book at the same time. I see the two brothers appearing in the room and they start discussing who's the one that deserves to be free the most. Then I take the books and I'm suddenly in an airport running away from the security. I'm very fast and agile Climbing over obstacles and such.

4. The ship

I'm with some students in a weird gym, it has several rooms that are used for playing football or other sports. After some time a teacher walks in and takes us to another room where we play some volleyball but we quickly stop and exit that room too. Walking through some corridors and up some stairs we enter a lobby of some sort where there are probably a hundred students waiting for something. It is at this point where I start thinking we're on a giant ship and on a vacation. I feel very tired and groups of students are moving around in lines, I think it was time for us to sleep and the other group to start their day. This way we share beds and the ship can hold double the amount of students.