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I decided to start reading Stephen Laberge's book, 'Exploring the world of lucid dreaming' because I think it might contain some interesting things about MILD and auto-suggestion. Also, as I just saw the 100th anniversary of WW1 outside my window on the old WW1 cemetery. Don't know why I wanted to say that but I think it's quiet weird to think so many people died back then at this place.

1. Fragment

I really don't remember anything of this dream other than the bits I wrote down this morning. It had something to do with drugs, me wearing blue clothing and being both awake and asleep

2. Largest cake in the world

I'm in my garage and I have to transport a cake to a certain location, I know it's for the royal family of Belgium because I start seeing the King in some flashbacks. I use my bike but there's one problem, the cake is 15 meters wide and so heavy it nearly crushes my bike as I somehow put it on the back. I have a lot of trouble keeping my balance as I'm driving down the street and after some time the cake falls of. When I put it back on the bike the cake has gotten smaller, it's now 2 meters wide and I can actually transport it now. When I get to the party I don't really know what happens but when the party ends 2 biker/gothic women take some people hostage (including me) and we have to dance on weird music while also wearing these weird clothes... Oh yeah, the house is suddenly filled with nails so walking away would be painfull.

3. Cats on the loose

I'm standing infront of my house and see 5 cats sitting on a row on the sidewalk. 2 of them are my pets and the others I don't know. I quickly grab the two and put them inside but then I notice how most of the lower part of the house is missing. I see it as renovation and think it's normal but then I notice holes in the door I entered through with the cats must've gone through. And a weird man comes to me and says something but I don't remember what.

EDIT: Looks like something weird happened during posting this entry, it doesn't register the comments which I would've liked cause I appreciate the interest of others but it tells me "Acces denied" when I try to like.

Dream one:
Trying to get into a large house that I'm sure is a location I've been to in previous dreams. There's no spare key, mum explains that it's a special key that would cost over a hundred pounds to duplicate.

My big brother is behind me also trying to get into the house. I manage to find a different door and get in, but I lock the door behind me and run around closing a variety of other doors and windows. I don't recall why I wanted to lock him out...

Dream two:
A seemingly endless cycle of trying to get to work on time (or at least no later than I already am!)

Fixing my bike, putting my shoes on only to find the shoelaces need replacing, waking up at midday, desperately needing the loo just as I'm about to leave, not being able to find my keys, getting lost as I run the whole way to work (it's about 25 miles) getting to work and finding it's locked. Really the whole repertoire of rubbish anxiety dream nonsense!

Fragment:
For some reason I'm in a somewhat erotic tryst with a girl who seems to be quite keen on trying to fit me in anywhere except the most obvious option. Not the most unpleasant dream I've ever had, but still a little frustrating

Shame I start only now, when most of it is forgotten. But the lucid was just a mini-moment again - since I RCed - I count it for the comp, but not for my LD-count.

LD #1: Getting lucid at the end of a dream, in a garden, doing a nose-pinch afterwards. Sorry for the unspectacularness of it all...

Going to do a longer WBTB tonight, and really think about how to DEILD.

Dream #1: Also with a garden, but that was not the same dream, it was behind a building I worked in and I went exploring it. I was in search for the cafeteria, and chanced upon it. With some of my beloved ruins to climb through...
The story was about a huge building-complex and me new there to work. But the garden was good!

Fragment #1: At a party with some people I didn't see in ages.

I always seemed to dream more about people from the past - even in that past - like not of my boyfriend, but of before ones, but going on - so not because of me wanting somebody old back or something. Same with friends.
Anyway - I had so much more upon waking - but was frustrated by again just a hunch of an LD - very...

I can't recall my first dream because I didn't write it down. But in my last dream I actually tried getting lucid.(Which I haven't been doing recently) In my dream I was with my dad and he poured a plate of rice I got back into the pot. He said it was cause I ate already. I was lucid at that time and hid behind my dream guide who I noticed in the living room.(Cause my dad started acting violent) I was too anxious though and appeared in SP. I tried to wake up but it failed and a portal opened in front of me. It showed a quick clip of something happening. When it stopped a invisible person tried going inside me. I thought it was my dream guide at first but didn't let it get in me cause whenever that thing goes in me I have a nightmare about a scary little girl. (Although the invisible person felt kind of taller and big cause it sat on me at first)After that I saw a really bright light and everything turned white and I fell into a dark abyss filled with black/gray clouds. I thought I was going to die but remembered reading that when you fall into a dark hole like that you can use it to recreate the dream scape. So I relaxed and thought about a anime setting somewhere in japan. A boy appeared in the abyss and I pointed at him as I was falling. After that I was in a college or store or campus where there was another guy. I followed him out and wanted to see if it was a real dreamer or not.(can't hurt to try) I told him this was a dream and to get lucid but the more I told him he ignored me. I looked around and saw lots of kids around and came up with the conclusion it was a school. I told him I didn't want to come here and as he was looking for something in his bag he said he wanted to go to Japan. I said "Why would you want to go there"? Than remembered I wanted to go to a anime setting that was like Japan. Than I woke up.

On another note, Today I met my nephews puppy and found a sync between I and him maybe.(Not on purpose) A few days ago I had a dream I was in my house with him and a puppy with the same appearance and collar like the one in real life. There was another dog there too but it was not a puppy. It was a small fat dog. XD

A lot of stuff happened, and I had more than one dream, but I think this is all from the same one.


PART 1: I was living in a home similar to my apartment. My 9yo brother and mom were there, as well as another adult and another kid. I can't remember the whole story, but there was some kind of conflict within the family. The final part involved me putting my brother to bed and saying something comforting. I heard my mom go, "STOP," from her room.


PART 2: I was in my grandma's backyard at night with some other guy. He pointed out a big and bright red star cluster thing and said it was Israel (which is a star cluster according to dream logic, I guess) and that it was normally not visible were we were (a city). I thought to myself, I wonder if I can see the Pleiades from here? Sure enough, there was a smaller blue cluster nearby.

Suddenly, and I shit you not, the "Pleiades" start shifting around until they formed a large rectangular pattern in the sky, which proceeded to zoom away. "Holy shit, holy fuck, HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!" I said. I'm not saying it was aliens, but it was aliens.

But wait, I thought, I might be dreaming. I pinched my nose and sure enough, I could breathe. I was disappointed, but my attention quickly shifted to the fact that I was now lucid, and I remembered that I needed to keep the dream stable. My vision became narrow. There were two black bars above and below where my vision was, and I could see my glasses in front of my face. I felt like I couldn't fully open my eyes. I figured I may as well summon a girl while I was "there". It took a few attempts, but I finally summoned one.

My vision returned and the dream felt stabilized. I ended up in a house where two people were going at it on the floor. The one on top (not sure if it was a guy) moved out of my way, giving me full access to the girl. However, I had quite a bit of trouble entering her. No matter how much I tried to manually "open" her, my dream logic porn dick would not go in. I did manage to get inside of her once, but it was uncomfortable.

After that, I woke up, but I took me several seconds to fully realize it.

TL;DR Domestic conflict, aliens, and I finally got lucid for more than fifteen fucking seconds.


I just got an idea. If I were to see a UFO or some other paranormal thing in waking life like I did here, I would do a reality check just to make sure I wasn't dreaming (again, like I did here). What happens to you in waking life can affect dream events. So, if I watch a lot of YouTube videos about UFOs and whatnot, I might dream about them more, thus increasing the likelihood of me doing a reality check and becoming lucid.

It seems like it might work. I'll try this tonight. What do you think?

School Dream 1:

I was at my old high school but it was a University. I was attending some kind of writing class with one of my buddies and we were about to take some kind of test/give a presentation I'm not sure which. I wasn't worried about it though. The teacher asked us, "Do any of you know how to RhymE?" nobody raised their hands but me, odd. "GOOd, do any of you know how to RAP?" These two guys in a corner raised their hands. "GOOD, we will now have a RAP BATTLE". How unconventional, I thought. I woke up.

School Dream 2:

Back at the same school, I was walking around the classroom when I saw these papers on the ground. They had my name on them so I picked them up. A teacher walked over to me and said, "Oh, those are mine". I handed them over. She said that she and a couple other teachers were going to evaluate how awesome I am, well, not in those words but basically that's what she said. I suddenly felt this strong urge to shit, like I was going to have violent diarrhea. I ran to find a bathroom and I saw the men's bathroom next to the women's bathroom. I thought to myself, "If only this was a dream I could go explore the women's bathroom >: D. I wonder if it's the same as in my dreams". I went into the men's bathroom and there were a dozen guys in there shitting violently, poop was everywhere, was disgusting. There were also no stalls, just toilets that were overflowing and covered in shit. I woke up, didn't really have to poo, just a weird and gross dream.

Military Dream 1:

I was at some kind of military convention in a large, domed building. They were preparing us for going to war. We were all given guns and tanks and special, secret technology. Near the end of the convention this lady was making people put on a new eye technology that was supposed to be like google glass but with contact lenses. It hurt when she put it in. She also had a cute Asian assistant that kept flirting with me. I talked with the cute assistant for a couple minutes after the eye technology was installed and I noticed that she had a guilty look on her face. The convention was over and everybody went outside, it was night time, the air was cold and crisp. Street lamps lit up the parking lot with an eerie orange glow. For some reason those lights make me feel uncomfortable. I looked around for a car and noticed that I had no car there. I decided it was time to walk home, wherever that was. These two other guys were walking the same way as me when they started talking about how hungry they were for Blood. It started to snow. One of the guys began devouring the other in the most brutal way, biting his face off and chewing on him while he licked the blood up. The screams were terrible. I started climbing over fences to put as much distance between myself and that bloody scene as I could. The dude that ate the other guy broke into a house and started playing with the owner's dog, he was really happy.


I kept walking until I got to an outdoor mall. There were beautiful, bright, multicolored lights everywhere and large neon signs. Outdoor food vendors, clothing vendors. It reminded me of Hong Kong for some reason, or maybe the shopping district in the beginning of Final Fantasy 7. I noticed that I was turning into a vampire too, it was the eye technology that the woman installed. I looked around and saw a group of other military people that had been damned as well. I joined them. We talked until I woke up.

Military Dream 2:

This dream started in the countryside. There were golden fields off in the distance with a few green trees dispersed randomly. We were waiting for a train to pick us up. I noticed that a lot of my old friends were with me. We were all dressed up in this uniform

They were all cheerful and jovial; joking, laughing, playing. The train arrived, except it was just a really long minecart. We jumped in and it took off. One of the guys lit up a cigarette, another lit up a joint. Some of the guys acted as though they didn't want to be around it so they moved to the other side of this long minecart. Then they all jumped out and started walking on water, I decided it must be ice. They lit their own cigarettes with the water then started running after the minecart. Only one of them made it back, he had been one of my best friends in childhood. We kicked back and relaxed. The minecart began to go under these tremendous caverns. Their interiors shimmered with turquoise and gold. I decided that I wanted to live in one of them. My friend said that he would live in a neighboring one. I felt like I was in a real world minecraft because of the impossible structures and how colossal and magnificent they were. I woke up soon after we passed the impossible caverns.

Lucid Dream 1:

I was getting pretty frustrated at this point because I had been trying really hard to MILD all night long so I decided it was time to go for the sure thing, a WILD. The first thing that came into clear focus was actually the dreamviews homepage. I saw that and then jumped back from the computer and did a little fist pump. Now that I was in the dream I thought to myself, okay now it's time to find a famous dreamer. It was night time but all the lights were on so that was good. The first person that came to my head was Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. (he was a dreamer, right?). So I started walking around my house, asking random people where martin luther king was. I started to notice that some kind of party was happening since there were at least 30 people walking around. The first guy I saw told me, "He's not here right now". I went in the backyard and accidentally slammed the door on one guy's dog (I didn't hurt it, I just trapped it inside). I told him, "It's okay man, it's just a dream!". I made a can fly in the air just to be sure. But anyways, I asked a group of people that were sitting at a table outside and one of them said, "He was just here 10 minutes ago, he'll be back". Everything turned black, dream ended, DEILD'd. Still in the backyard, so I went to the front yard and Tom green was there smoking a joint with other comedians. I asked them where Mr. King was and they just laughed. I then mentally pled to my dream master, Mr. God, "Please help me on this one Mr. God". I turned around and there was a shadowy figure standing in a bush. Stephen King walked out. I said to him, "Mr. King! I love your books very much" and I gave him a big hug. He just nodded and smiled then acted like he had places to be so he hurried inside to the party. I was content with that, after all he writes his books based on ideas he gets in dreams and he describes his writing process as a wakeful dream state.

With a big grin on my face I casually walked down to the street, still looking for martin luther king. A bunch of famous black actors started showing up in limos and 50k$++ clothes. I asked them where martin luther king was and they just ignored me. I saw one guy that had his back turned and thought, this might be it! The guy turned around and he was Mike Tyson. I said to him, "You're not martin luther king >: (". A little frustrated, I decided to mess around with the DC's a little. I made time slow down for one lady that was dancing, looked pretty cool actually. Then I made her speed up really fast and left her like that. I saw another lady that had completely ignored me before and I made flames erupt out of my hands and I set her dress on fire. She didn't seem to mind, she just looked at me as though I was some kind of weirdo. A little tired of my search, I just saw down and relaxed while I watched all the beautiful people going into the party. Eventually woke up, half-heartedly tried to DEILD for a couple seconds then got up.

I had read on lucid dreaming years ago. In starting a dream journal I decided to try again, I gave up before from too many failures. The only thing I remembered reading was about using a trigger object as a dream sign. I told myself to dream clearly, remember it clearly, and to see a backwards 2 to trigger. I hadn't known about reality checks and didn't use any. This was last night..

I was talking to a tall man in front of a shop on the street. His skin was dark, almost as dark as his black leather jacket. He wore a dark blue shirt, jeans, and scuffed black leather boots. I can't remember the full conversation, but we began talking about two of something. The severity of the number dawned on me, so I looked at the window (a scenario I had imagined while awake) and sure enough I saw a large reflection of a 2.

"I'm dreaming! It actually worked!" I said. The man looked at me blankly as I had interrupted him. The whole scenery just went blank and the ground turned into fluffy clouds that were shaded pink and gold as the distance went on. I was aware that I was not in control of the terrain when a large stone wall shot up next to me, roughly 3 stories tall. I didn't want to waste time, I flew up/jumped uponto the wall. I made my clothes changed into an archer type style, a brown leather tunic with a green shirt underneath (it reminded me of Link from the game Zelda) I began to sing a lovely song, my dark brown hair fell golden from my roots to the ends of my hair, growing elbow length. I smiled and felt excited at how easy these changed were and how video-game-like.

Suddenly large vines scaled up the large wall, starting thin and then thickening as the vines arched off of the top of the wall and shot out into the distance, traveling though the end of that distance which was all cloud fluff. They became 2 feet or more thick, resembling what you see in Jack and The Beanstalk movies. I excitedly lept onto one of the vines and slid down the dip of it, running upward as it arose.. this was when my perspective changed to a 3rd person view and I saw myself run into the distance.

I lost my control and can't remember more from there. I dreamed on, but it was very nonsensical and not worth writing because the memory is so fragmented. I'll try again tonight and try to perfect some stability before running my imagination rampant.

I'm browsing DreamViews on my PC. I think that I am currently doing my WBTB.
There is something important I need to ask ~ Dreamer ~, but I cannot quite remember what it is.
I have the private message site open, trying to remember what it is I wanted to say.
Then, I spot some movement from the corner of my eye.
I could have sworn that ~ Dreamer ~'s Avatar just winked at me.


After some initial confusion, I think that she must have changed her Avatar to an animated gif, which does just that.
I think it is a pretty hilarious idea, because it is going to catch people off guard.
It might get people to RC if they notice...
I try to increase my awareness, given what just happened.
Hmm...
That avatar does look somewhat suspicious.
I poke it with my finger.
The avatar giggles and moves further into the screen a little.

"... Hello?"

The avatar then proceeds to climb outside of the screen and eventually ends up on my desk, still giggling.
It is so cute. But I resist the urge to poke it again.
The avatar points towards my left. I turn around.
~ Dreamer ~ is standing right next to me!
This comes as one hell of a shock. I immediately stand up.
I was in a semi-lucid state, but now, in the blink of an eye, I am fully lucid.

I run my fingers over the palm of my left hand to check my senses.
Everything is crystal clear. I can feel the individual patterns on my skin.
I haven't had a dream this clear in some time...
Oh... right... Dreamer!

"Hi..."

Really? That's all that I can come up with? "Hi"?
Well, I suppose I'm still a bit in shock from her sudden appearance.
She smiles.

"Hi Hyu."

I try to calm down a little. I point at my monitor.
Her voice is very soft, so I decide to reply softly as well.

"That was one hell of a trick."
"Which trick?"

I look at my monitors, and they are all blank now, with a purple haze around the corners.
This has happened many times before. I don't worry about it.
There is no sign of the Avatar.

"You made me realize that I am dreaming."
"Yes."

This is amazing! And the dream is so vivid and clear!

"Hyu, do you remember my dare?"

I wouldn't have remembered that on my own.
Lucid Dares

"I am to confront Faye."
"Yes. It is time to solve this once and for all."
"Yes... it is."

But you're right here in my dream.
I want to talk with you about all sorts of things.

"Go now. Faye awaits you."

She points towards the door leading out of my room. It becomes clear that Faye awaits me behind it.
I suppose ~ Dreamer ~ has a better grasp on priorities than I do. She is right.
The dream is so clear and stable, I need to use it to confront Faye.

"Thank you!"

~ Dreamer ~ winks at me, just like her avatar did, and then slowly fades away. Wow... what an amazing encounter.
I approach the door, but hesitate a moment before opening it.
I assert again that the dream is perfectly stable, and that my head is clear.
Yes, I am. Though I'm not entirely sure what to say yet. But that's okay, I'll figure it out on the fly.
I open the door with confidence, expecting to encounter Faye behind it.


To my surprise, this new room that I've just entered looks like some sort of an interrogation room.
One table, two chairs facing each other, and a big, probably one sided mirror.
Faye sits in one of the chairs waiting for me.
I'm not off to a good start. Not only does Faye look like Kate again, but I really dislike that this is an interrogation room.
I can understand why this happened though. It must have been caused by my determination to get answers from her.
I sit in the other chair and try to smile.

"Hello Faye."

She doesn't answer. She just stares down at her hands which are on the desk.
That's alright. I'll talk for now.
I recall positive memories we shared together. I retell those stories. (Unfortunately I don't remember this part of the conversation well)
But I can't seem to get any reaction out of her.
I gently grab her hands. She finally looks me in the eyes.

"I miss you Faye."
"We had so much fun together. I want to go on adventures with you again."
"..."
"The Faye that you remember is dead."
"..."
"I understand... What do you want?"
"No. You don't understand. And what I want..."

She smiles.

"I will destroy you. I will destroy us both."

She plays with a butterfly knife a little, then shows me the palm of her left hand, and then cuts right across it.
I can feel the cut in my left hand clearly. I look at it, and I have the same wound Faye has. We're both bleeding a little.

"You and I we are the same. We've always been."
"What has changed?"
"There is darkness within you. I am that darkness now."
"Nothing you do can stop me now."

This is not what I wanted to hear. But I suppose deep down, I already knew that things would never return to the way they were.
She also made it quite clear that I cannot remove her by force. What do I do now?
... first of all, I need a change of scenery. This interrogation room is inappropriate, it probably plays right into her hands.
Teraluna it is. I stand up and use the wing technique to teleport to Riven. Faye follows me. We are on a bridge close to Yuya's place.
She's no longer looking like Kate. She's looking the same way she did when we first met. She shows me her knife and says.

"I will never let you be with Yuya again."

I can see Yuya in the distance. She reads my thoughts. I make it clear that now is not a good moment to come over. She understands.
I look at the horizon. The gas giant that we are orbiting is experiencing a huge storm. It is quite beautiful.
This change of scenery was a good idea. I feel refreshed. And I know what I have to do...

"Oh Faye..."
"When I look at you, I remember all the good times we've had together."
"I will cherish those memories. I'll always remember you as the person you were, not as the person you have become."
"Whatever it is you are trying to do. It is not going to work."

I just smile. It is a genuine smile. I truly do cherish those memories.
And what I am about to say is going to hurt. But I know that it is the only way out.

"Faye... you are right. You always are. You and I, we are the same. And there is darkness within me... I do understand that."
"You do not... you have no idea. It will destroy you. I will destroy you."
"I know."
"No."
"You see, I've done a terrible thing."
"..."
"I didn't see what was wrong. I couldn't understand. So I have channelled all that darkness; all what was wrong, into a single dream character."
"You're making this up..."
"I needed for it to have a face. So that I could clearly identify..."
"These lies will not work on me!"
"Faye, I am sorry. I did not do this consciously. But it is all clear to me now."
"You are all that remains of that darkness. I will have to let you go..."
"No... I am your dream guide!"

Her voice has become faint. I can see fear and sadness in her now.
Is this truly the explanation I believe in?

"Faye is no longer here... My dream guide is dead."

I touch her face... one last time. I look deeply into her eyes. I can see nothing within them. You are no longer Faye.
Was it my fault that she ended up like this? Or was it beyond my control? I will never know.
But this is the only choice I have left. I take a step back... and then I let go...

"Goodbye Faye..."

She closes her eyes... and slowly fades into dust. The wind takes her away until nothing is left. Faye is gone.
Have I done the right thing? Was this really the only way?
Yuya approaches and hugs me. I hold her tightly.
I can feel her thoughts, her emotions, how helpless she felt, because this is not something she could help me with.
This was something I needed to solve on my own.

"Did I do the right thing?"

She gently answers:

"What do you think?"
"I think so... but I cannot shake the feeling that I may have taken the only path, rather than the right one."
"When there is only one path, is it not by definition always the right one?"
"Well..."
"Worry not. This was the choice you needed to make."

And suddenly I feel such relief. Like all the weight has been lifted off my shoulders. My dreams are mine again.
Yuya rarely gives me such a straight up answer. Instead she helps me to find my own.
But this time I needed to hear it from her.
I am so happy to be with her again.

We walk through her gardens, knowing that my dream will soon end. That is fine. I am exhausted.
I know that I can now visit Yuya again whenever I desire. That is what is most important.
But Faye is gone. Forever.

Lucid

I was walking with my dad down a sandy road with buildings either side. I suddenly become aware that I'm dreaming, I think through doing an awareness exercise in my thoughts. I go on all fours and run like that because it's faster, and my body seems perfectly adapted to run like that.
People started running away and screaming because evidently I'd turned into some kind of beast which could run on its legs and fists. There was a sexy asian lady running away directly in front of me and I caught up and pushed her over. And then I did something I'm proud of myself for. I told myself not to waste another lucid on sex and turned away.
Behind me was the corridor of my house in Poland, so I ran down it, a human again. At the living room I turned right and saw the front door. I knew it was summer outside because there were windows all around, so I concentrated on there being a desert behind our front door, rushed to it and opened it. What I saw instead was our snow-covered front garden, because for some reason my mind seems to have big trouble leaving my house and the surrounding area in my lucids.
I think, "nevermind" and go outside, remember that I need to stabilise lucids (haven't had some for a while) and I throw myself onto the ground and feel all over it, inspecting a grassy patch on the ground. After a few seconds I get back up and think it'd be cool to do something I haven't tried in lucids before, and I remember that super strength is one of the dream powers I read about on DV. I grab the big metal flag pole in the middle of our front garden and pull it out of the ground, then I proceed to toss it across the garden. Not satisfied, I then uproot the tree in the middle of the garden too and throw it about fifteen metres across the garden as well, feeling exceedingly badass.
Then one of my family members points to one of the neighbouring houses so I decide to try to jump on its roof, which is about three storeys up and about 20 metres away. I already suspect it's not going to work, since I have massive trouble with flying in my dreams. Of course, probably partly due to my expectation, when I jump up I only fly up about 3 metres and drop back down on the ground. I try again with the same effect.
Then I wake up in my hallway and lose lucidity to a false awakening.

6:27 AM: My mom is driving me to school in the city (I never went to a school in the city!). We are running a bit late (. . . skipping some NL details, getting to the good stuff ). Once she drops me off and heads to work, I realize I have forgotten my lunch (a caramel and chocolate protein bar) and my bite guard (in case I want to take a lucid nap!). I turn and run back to the drop-off area, scanning the busy thoroughfare for my mom. Students and people are moving all over the place. I finally see her; she is moving back in my direction carrying my book bag. I think of several things to say, and one seems most appropriate: "You brought my bag." (Please don't try to make sense of this!)

She replies, "At least you said that." She seems grateful. Now that I have my things, I am heading (finally) towards school, when all of these emergency personnel get in my way. Seems there has been some sort of accident. I have to thread around behind them. As I do so, it occurs to me that I have no idea what my school is like on the inside. I know it isn't the first day, and I marvel that I have been on autopilot so much at school! I am excited to see what this new school will be like! I then nose pinch, in order to be certain I am not dreaming.

Ah, I see. I look around and notice a friend from WL. In WL he is a very towering guy, and he looks the same in this dream. I ask him, "So even this isn't real." It's more of a statement than a question.

He looks at me and nods. He then proceeds to say something deep that I have now forgotten. I decide that this DC is legit and ask him some more questions.

"Does the dream world contain stability?" I ask. "Does it contain stable locations?"

He shakes his head. "You create and control dreams."

"What is the most important aspect of dream knowledge?" I ask.

He looks at me as though he is a bit surprised or nonplussed. He then points at me, as though the answer is obvious.

"You mean controlling myself?" I ask.

"I mean controlling your mind," he replies.

We are now somehow in a small, empty diner. I ask him if he can help me control my mind. He nods and extends his hand. I take it and he proceeds to hurl me into the air towards the ceiling. I turn in the air and fall to the ground. My shin bangs one of the diner tables. This actually feels just like I imagine it would in WL--painful. I tell him so. He makes a face (like I am being a whiner) and points to a more open area.

As I am moving, however, it dawns on me that even pain in the dream world isn't real, and as I think this, the feeling evaporates. I realize I can't be harmed. In a moment, I remember Mancon's guide for flying (in particular, let the clouds suck you into the sky). I try this briefly but don't have time to work it properly as my pal has already grabbed me again and tossed me into the air. I now fly into a whirling ceiling fan and smack against the blades. This does not hurt, however.

My friend continues to sling me by my arm into the air. A voice comes over the PA telling me to come to the dean's office, but I realize I do not have to go, as I am dreaming. The theme from Mortal Kombat begins to play.





I am mid air (and mid-fan) when I awake. My heart is pounding and I assume the adrenaline pushed me out of sleep.

Non-lucid, Lucid

.../The further memory I have, I'm in an abandoned farm where its owner is a little nasty guy who didn't take a shower for months, he looks dirty and covered in sweat. His partner gets in place and takes off a sort of leather necklace he's wearing. It's like he hasn't take that thing off for months. I don't like what I see. He goes out where all the vegetation has grown without control. I remember it used to be a beautiful place, I'm sort of disappointed. There are three big dogs out there, when I see a lion hunting down one of them. It takes the dog from the neck and takes it away. I follow the lion until my hand becomes its mouth and now I'm holding the dying dog. I let it on the floor, but it's too late. I put it where the cubs can start to eat it/...

.../Now I'm in a car, with a friend of mine who recently I got to know he loved a Japanese TV series form the early 80's named Sankuokai. He's obsessed with the series and pretends this car is a space ship, although he's driving it backwards. I get concerned we can have an accident because of he's driving too fast. Finally I got to turn the car by changing the position I'm sitting on it. It's better to see things the right way. We get to the end of the road. We get out the car and see some hills in front of us. I remember this city was build upon what was going to be a huge burial ground in ancient times. I tell him, this place is a huge burial ground. Then I turn and see a known cemetery from WL which uses to be in my dreams. I point it and tell him that some disgusting things use to happen in that place when I'm dreaming it. It hits my head all of the sudden, what about if it's actually one of those dreams!? I look at my hand and I confirm it. I tell him laughing, actually it's a god damn dream. He doesn't seem to care. Another pal gets in, and they both start talking. I leave them and go to the cemetery, thinking about my sex drive that uses to screw things up. I walk next to the main gate, when it turns into a window and I see a couple sitting on a table. They don't look interesting, although I think perhaps I should force them to have sex in front of me, I'm sick of my sex drive. I ask them to do it, they don't seem to react. I take their clothes off and put the woman on the man. They start doing something although it's not enough. I'm starting to find the scene more disgusting than exiting. Another woman gets into the room. She looks like she has some sort of skin infection. It's getting worse, but I don't care. I want them to play dirty things in front of me. I lift her skirt, and the spectacle is too disgusting, because she seems to have a serious STI. I give up, I cannot see more of it. I go to the next room. There's a couple of friends from school times, they look better, at least they were the classic lovely picture. I'm not excited at all, I just one to fulfill what I wanted to do at the beginning, so I command them again to have sex in front of me. I help them to take their clothes off, it gets better although I don't feel excited, it's just fun to see that I can control it. I leave them in their game when an ex girlfriend, who appeared somewhere in a previous dream, gets into the scene. She start doing her hotter stuff, but what she says is disturbing me. I try to stop her but she's in ecstasy covered with slobber on a table next to a window. I'm surprised I didn't wake up with all the sex stuff happening around. I'm pleased I didn't wake up trying to control the dream, although I'm disturbed with all the disgusting stuff/...

* Woke up before the alarm clock went off. And couldn't go back to sleep.

3/4 August
Illegal Weapons Dream
Me and a bunch of my friends were down at the beach/harbor. two of my friends were trying to chat up some girls that were there. I was showing my friends my arsenal of weapons I had purchased illegally online. we walked up some stairs right beside the beach and walked for a bit. we arrived at a skyscraper apartment building. My friend grabbed a lock-pick blowtorch combination thing and started trying to get in the locked front door. Everyone was cheering him on apart from me and another of my friends. I did not want to get arrested for possession of the weapons, so my friend offered to get them taken to his uncle who would have them destroyed for me. we started walking down a hill, away from the rest of our friends. I was concerned because his other uncle is a supreme court judge in Glasgow, so i thought he was going to get me in trouble, but he promised he wasn't. There is a blank here and i cannot remember what happened. Then we were both in small cars driving down the road. We reached the bottom of the hill and my friend started driving up another uphill road. I was following just behind but before i started going uphill some idiot crashed into me side on which broke my car. I had to run up the hill. Then i woke up.

School Trip Dream
We were on a school trip to some wilderness trail course. we were about to walk across a bridge. Mr.Coward (teacher at my school) was talking to someone with the same name as me who had an English accent. They were standing just to the side of the bridge start. As I walked past he said to me "how is your hay fever, Cameron without the English accent?" But I thought he was talking to someone else so i kept walking. A little onto the bridge my friend informed me I had completely ignored him and we both laughed. To the left of the bridge the school football (soccer) team was playing. I looked to the right of the bridge and when I looked back my friend Declan who was previously there was not and in his place was some kid a year below me called Jack. he was holding a bib, the ones you wear in PE to tell who is on your team. I don't know which colour it was. Walking along the bridge was Mr.Hughes (another teacher at my school) handing out these bibs to everyone . Before he could get to me i suddenly found myself on the ground below the bridge, while everyone else was doing a "treetop trail". They all had earphones in, which were plugged into the rail that their harnesses were clipped into. When they noticed I was on the ground they threw a rope down so i could pull myself up. Before I climbed up, I took out a plug/socket which was battery powered and plugged some earphones into them somehow. I put the earphones in even though they were not playing any music or making any sounds. When I got to the top somebody asked how I was supposed to plug my earphones. I showed her the socket and we kept on going on the trail. Then I woke up.

I also have a dream fragment of a stone archway.

10:00 PM - 2 grams, smoked, Calea zacatechichi
10:40 PM - 8 mg, oral, Galantamine
10:40 PM - 100 mg, oral, Vitamin B5
10:40 PM - 200 mg, oral, Choline
11:00 PM - 4 seeds, oral, Datura inoxia
11:20 PM - 100 mg, oral, Vitamin B6

This night, I decided to start off my new phase of supplement experimentation with a bang. It may have been a little over eager using three different natural supplements at once, but I really just wanted to see what they would all do together. When I first woke up, I honestly thought that they didn't seem to have done much for me at all, which was weird because I knew they've worked separately for me before. However, when I just lied in bed trying to remember a little more, I started to realize that the situation was actually quite different.

At first I felt like I had barely dreamed, but then I realized that I had actually felt like I was dreaming seemingly non-stop all night, and there were just so many random things going on with so much detail that it was difficult for me to recall it all now without having trained my memory much for this lately. The more I thought about it, the more it was clear that they did have an effect in me. The amount of time I can remember being in a dream is much greater even if much of that is hard to bring back now; the scenery I was seeing was significantly more detailed and involved a lot of natural areas like forests and jungles as opposed to my usual modernized settings; and there were often enormous crowds of people, which for me is a surefire sign of very high amounts of dream detail compared to how I normally get mostly just the key players of people who I don't even really see moving around in the background.

If I had been working on my recall lately I bet I would've been able to bring back something truly ridiculous from all of this, but there will still be plenty of time for nights like that in the future. For now, I'll just give what I can about how this night went. It's going to be described like a series of fragments, as that's the only way I can really remember it, but there was definitely a grand scheme going on that connected all of these events, even if it might've been nonsense.

I find myself walking through a jungle area, down a path which leads somewhere that I cannot see, not unlike an out-of-body experience I have had in the past. Similarly to that time as well, I can tell that something is different about my awareness; I knew that I should be feeling "something", which I can tell now was understanding that their should be some kind of dream enhancement going on from all the supplements, but I wasn't awake enough to put words to it at the time. Perhaps this is when I was first falling asleep? It felt as though the boundary between dream and waking sensations and understandings was a bit less defined during the course of the night whenever I was sleeping a little more lightly.

I was with a dream character who was apparent to me at the time, but I have no idea who it might have been now. What I do know is that we came across a house or building of some kind in the middle of all the jungle or forest area, and for some reason we knew we had to go inside of it. The inside of the building actually appeared to be much larger than the outside had made it look, showing halls that seemed like they could lead down to some kind of school or mall area. I have what feels like a brief flash of seeing where it leads, but I don't recall if I actually traversed any of that area or not. It's quite possible that I did because I know this part lasted a little while, but I just couldn't say. What I do know is that when this mysterious dream character and I finally left, we had armed ourselves with machine guns as soon as we got back outside just in case we needed to defend ourselves, as we had accidentally spooked someone inside the building.

Somehow out of the jungle we had emerged into what appeared to me an enormous stadium similar to a gladiators' colosseum. There were crowds of people sitting all throughout the structure who were cheering on whatever was going on in the middle of all of this chaos. I'm not sure if I ever actually took a good look at what that might be exactly.... I know I was a little more concerned with scanning over all of the people in the crowd, but I'm not sure why exactly. I still had a sense of needing to get something done or avoid someone, possibly carrying on from the machine gun thing before? I started moving through the seats and somehow found the exit to the stadium, though I don't recall quite what it looked like. I know that it took me out to a more foresty area again though with a hill that I walked up, which led me to what seemed sort of like a trailer yard. I was still with some mysterious dream character at this time.

I wandered around this area some more until it opened up more to reveal what appeared to be something like a small town. There were a lot of people walking around, and as I glanced at them something became very obvious to me. I had seen all of these people before, in my own town (a possibly fictitious one). I continued to observe them and noticed that despite this they all seemed to be living lives unlike the ones I had seem them living before, and then I started to connect this to (again, very probably false) memories I had of traveling through other random small towns around here, and then a big picture started coming together that just seemed to make everything fall into place. I turned to my companion, who I then realized was also someone I had met before but who didn't seem to recognize me. I began explaining to him very matter-of-factly that the reason for this must be because all of these towns exist in some kind of magical homeostasis which keeps them running by being inhabited by exact copies of all of the same people over and over, but each of those copies live completely different and independent lives from one another, possibly never even becoming aware of one another's existence. This was also the reason, I continued, that I could recognize my companion but he couldn't recognize me.

If there was any more of the dream after that point, I have failed to remember it. I woke up at that point with some dry mouth and really needing to run to the bathroom, both of which I blame particularly on the datura seeds. It was during this time that I first started to recall the things that I had dreamed after thinking at first that I had basically slept like a log all night. After this short WBTB, I went back to lie down and noticed something peculiar. My imagination was drastically enhanced, to the point that letting visualizations play out actually felt almost like a complete dream, even though I was still aware of myself in the bed. This relates to what I mentioned before about the barrier between awake and asleep being loosened, but somewhere during all of this I fully passed out again.

I am what appears to be just about the same location as where my dream left off before, the trailer park outside of the town. This area actually contained many large trucks as well, and I know that there was some plot that led up to this that I can no longer bring back, but one of the trucks actually started driving off down a nearby road. The first thing I can recall is knowing that I need to destroy that truck before it can follow this large tunnel all the way down to the nature preserve which contained much of the forest that I was walking around in before. I pulled out my still handy machine gun and started unloading into it as much as possible, which actually was slowing it down to a degree, but it was still pulling pretty far ahead of me. There was a sense of urgency, combined with the feeling that someone was trying to distract me from completing this goal. I ran down the tunnel to keep up with the truck and managed to do a considerable (for what I was using) amount of damage to it before it could cross the threshold into the preserve, but unfortunately I could not destroy it in time, and simply stopped driving after it drove through the checkpoint.

The dream suddenly shifted, and I was now at home. The only reason I even particularly remember this part is because after I woke up and saw my cats just staring at me in the hallway it came rushing back. We are unable to take our cats outside at the moment, but in the dream I opened the front door for some reason and the male cat managed to run outside for the first time. I started panicking to catch him and bring him back in since he wasn't even used to being in the outside world, but he understandably kept running away from me so that he could explore. I don't remember how this turned out, but I don't think it was ever resolved, simply transitioning into this next part.

I was back in a place of high awareness of both the waking and dream worlds, but I wasn't fully in either anymore. I could feel myself lying in bed and knew somewhere in the back of my mind that what was happening wasn't real, but it never really occurred to me to think of it as a dream as I also wasn't even participating in that. I had taken on a third-person perspective of the scenario playing out, which was still at my house. It was a short animated clip, and I'm fairly certain that Stan from American Dad! was the main character in what I was seeing. He was talking about something for most of the time (though I felt the emotion of it as if I was experiencing it myself), but what I really just remember is that there was a baby swaddled up in a yellow blanket just lying on the living room couch. It was crying constantly, until he finally picked it up and it stopped immediately, just lying there peacefully. He felt relieved that it had gotten quite, and just held it for a moment to think.

I'm pretty sure that I woke up after that point, which that dream perception just fading and allowing my body awareness to push through to the surface. This was definitely an interesting combination of supplements.... Probably not something I'd try again until I've gotten my vividness and recall back up to where they have been in the past, but it did certainly provide some unique results. I'd say it was a good start to this next run of my lucid dreaming experiments.

Dream - Lucid

I was in a building, working on re-stringing a guitar. The strings were all in place except for one or two. I looked at them very closely, and they didn't really look like guitar strings at all, but different types of silver necklaces. The one I was working on looked like it was made of small ball bearings.



I started to tighten it into place. When I felt it was just tight enough, I started to pluck it. Hmm. It still seemed a bit loose; it gave a bit instead of making a sound.

Then, I was talking to someone about chewing tobacco. I was being told that someone else really likes it to be as fresh as possible. I then had some chewing tobacco, and I put some in my mouth and literally started to chew on it. I then remembered that that isn't how you actually use it. I put it in my lip instead. I wondered why the hell I was doing it, because I hate chewing tobacco, not to mention it's terrible for you.

At some point, I did go back to trying to put the string on correctly.

~

I was going on a trip with my family. I mainly remember my mom being there. We were going somewhere in Georgia, Marietta I believe, and it was tax-free weekend, so the roads were bad, and the town was crowded. I saw many streets with people and cars on them. I remember seeing cars driving up some concrete stairs outside somewhere.

I then saw my old boss, Sherry. She was standing in a doorway, and had a bunch of things behind her, though I have no idea what they were. She was telling me that the roses I was bringing with me should be killed when I was done with them. It had something to do with the chance that the roses could spread something. She then walked away. I couldn't bear to kill roses! I imagined myself purposely killing roses by pulling them apart. I just couldn't bear to. I would not do it. I told my mom I couldn't kill the roses.

~

I was observing some dinosaurs. It was daytime in a desert oasis type region. I saw a green parasaurolphus laying down by a lake. I thought about how hot she must be, and how she probably would have to stick her head in the water to cool down since she was cold-blooded.



I then was inside the scene, swimming in a nearby cave full of water. It was a shallow cave, and I was right by the opening. A green velociraptor started to swim towards me from outside. I knew I needed to avoid him so he wouldn't see me. I started to quietly swim to the side. I went underneath part of the rock structure and out of the line of the raptor's vision. He swam past me. I was still cautious so as not to attract his attention.

~

I was working where I am now, but it was ran from the water. Like...being in the a pool and swimming was part of the job.

I was then in a back stockroom. It was absolutely huge, way bigger than IWL. The floors were filthy, covered in grains and stuff to make bread. I thought about how this must attract pests. I also had never remembered seeing it so filthy before.

I was then sitting down in a hallway. I don't remember what I was doing, but I was sitting with my back against the wall. I then saw a small, grey creature about the size of an iguana zooming around the wall and onto the ceiling. I thought that it was a huge spider, but then I thought that there was no way there was a spider that big. It must be a lizard of some sort. It scurried into an opening on the ceiling. I then caught a glimpse of its six legs. Whaaat?! I was thinking about whether or not there was a species of lizard that has 4 legs and 2 small arms, but nothing came to mind. Weird.

I was then telling my boss, Shannon, about what happened. She interrupted my story when I was telling her about it, saying
"A gecko?" as if she knew exactly what it was.
"No," I said, "It had 8 legs! It was a spider!"
I said it had 8 even though it had six. I thought about this in the dream, and how it was inaccurate. I did not correct myself, however.
This seemed to be satisfying enough for Shannon. She did not argue about what it was anymore.

We were then in a pool, and Brandi, a lady I used to work with at my old job, was there as well. Shannon was there also. I was some sort of lead baker. Brandi had been as well, but she couldn't handle it and had to step down. I "remembered" her getting really stressed out. She did the right thing though by stepping down. Now it was just me. I wondered if I could handle it.

There was then a meeting in the pool. I got on a swim noodle and headed over to the group. I did something to try to be funny, but no one laughed or anything. I felt stupid. I then went underwater with the noodle, and it was taking me a way longer time than I thought it would to get back up to the surface. I wondered when my head would break the surface, because I could only hold my breath for so long. I kept thinking it should have already come, and that I would feel it any second.

I do not remember if I ever made it back up or not, because my husband's alarm woke me up.

~

Second time in the past week or so that I've dreamed about having to re-string an instrument. I do not play any string instruments IWL, and have no experience re-stringing anything.

Also, dinosaurs. Fuck yeah!

Morning of August 4, 2014. Monday.



I am on Loomis Street in La Crosse and it seems to be very late at night at first. Eventually there is the knowledge of an explosion to the east. Once again there is, for some reason, a focus on going east on Gillette Street (recently recurring only - though it did recur somewhat in dreams of around ages five to six as well).

There is apparently a nuclear bomb dropped to the east, but it is only a “practice” one that is meant to implement data on some sort of social study. There is no actual danger. However, a very thick but white “cloud” or fog exists in the area east of where I am, stopping precisely at Loomis and Gillette, and it is supposedly very difficult to walk through, which seems relevant to the beginning “test” or “experiment”. Drivers of cars cannot see where they are going, either, other than fairly close to the car, and require bright headlights to see anywhere at all. There is the idea after I try to walk near the area, that it is probably unsafe to even attempt to go very far in the fog. I have an idea that cars may not successfully travel the street and beyond, either. So, the first time I plan on walking through, I change my mind, but I am ready to go through a short time later.

Still, regardless of the problematic nature of maneuverability and lack of visual orientation, a number of people must get to work by walking. Many of them are Japanese and work in the same area at a fictional local business. Most do not seem that concerned about being able to get to where they are going. I eventually walk through the fog again, noticing a few other pedestrians in random locations, a couple of them even walking down the middle of the street. I experience an interesting perception as I enter and am able to find my way through without going off the side of the road. I am aware of an area that goes over a smaller bridge. I end up at an area that seems like some sort of resort and things can be seen a bit more clearly.

In a way, I am surprised that I do not become lucid, especially as I had recently mentioned to my wife that, even though it is somewhat of a movie and television show cliché, certain types of dreams (especially in childhood) have had a mist rise from the ground or floor (but usually only several inches high). I am not sure if this is a “borrowed” cliché that is sometimes utilized by a particular dream state, or if it is just a natural feature of dream states in a metaphorical sense of some kind. As such, it has still never worked as a trigger for lucidity and always seemed a “normal” part of my dream environment in both inside and outside settings.