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I have been trying to have a DILD again for almost 2 weeks now without luck, then a weird thing just happened!


I just woke up from a nap when I dreamed I was lucid and controlling the dream, but I actually wasn't. It feels so weird and confusing!
I have a current health issue in real life (nothing dangerous) that has been bothering me. In the dream it was worse with odd unrealistic things happening to me, and I was trying to find a solution through a lucid dream.
I went back in time (I'm actually not good at changing scenes yet, but I was more skilled in the dream), and I was like I'm going to change this part and it would change, and I saw some dream characters that I believed I knew as grown ups (remember I'm in the past), but of course I know now I don't that I'm awake. Then I reached the doctor dream character I was looking for, and I started to think that I will ask him about what I feel, and my subconscious will answer. I was aware that he was just a dream character, and I didn't care to act awkwardly asking him what I need believing that he will answer me. While asking him and my confidence building up that I can make him answer, the dream faded and I woke up, and I think for a brief moment before I woke up I realized I was dreaming, but it was too late. I'm still confused!

My memory of this dream is so fuzzy for the beginning. I remember being somewhere with my family and I think we were ordering pizza. Than the thought of becoming a pizza delivery person probably came up. But my family was making jokes about how my brother wouldn't be able to do the job or something like that. So confusing. Anyways after whatever happened occured I ended up in my house living room and my father and younger brother were behind me. Somehow, I realized it was a dream and decided to bring Eye into the dream.

He appeared before me and I said hi to him happily. Than I followed him to a room.It was an unfamiliar room with white walls and wooden flooring. There was a nice window where you could see it was the second floor too. Looking outside i could see a balcony cover that made me think about my neighbor's house above me and how when you look out the window it can look that way. There my father came in with pizza and i noticed even my cousin was now there.

I watched Eye for a bit but his attitude was somewhat different. He told me that he didn't have time for me and to leave him alone. Than went out the room so i followed him. He ended up going to my old room and shutting the door .I said "Fine" than went upstairs where i saw my dad.My dad had brought out a bowl of fresh tangerines in water,that were huge, like a egg plant size and peeled.

Than Eye appeared, probably because i thought about how i wanted him around again.He looked like he was in a casual whatever mood when i was happily staring at him. He noted how happy i was holding the bowl of tangerines and than he lay down i think. He than told me that just because i would sacrifice myself doesn't mean he would. I didn't like his tone of voice so i left the house where i found my uncle and a few people.There were these girls there and after looking up and seeing Eye through the window, I felt like annoying him. So i told the girls, since my uncle brought out more tangerines, that we should throw them at Eye through the window.We started throwing them like crazy than i ran.

I thought he would come out and chase us but he didn't. I just ended up running for nothing. Strangely enough there was a little mouse running with me as well. I stopped and walked back though than notice Eye walked out. But i decided to ignore him and eat the good looking tangerines as i curiously cut them with a knife.I know Eye said something to me but i dont remember what it was since i wasn't paying much attention to him.

I also recall a part where I was lucid, probably happened somewhere in the beginning. I was riding on my uncles back cause I ordered him to take me away from dcs that were armed with guns.We ended up getting away and I flew off as the scenery began to change to pitch black.Think Dawn was around and asked me what I was doing when I decided to ride my uncles back too. But im unsure.

And one more DEILD
Admittedly it was, once more, somewhat accidental but I learned from it anyways
I feel like "staying still" is was overrated for DEILD; maybe it's more about staying relaxed.
Very simplistic dream: only the things that were relevant to the dream were there; the rest was either sky or grass.

Lucidity: 6/10
Control: 5.5/10
Vivacity: 7/10

I woke up from a dream about me driving through a perilous road--habitat for anacondas, gators and all kinds of stuff you don't want to get stuck with. My dog, I notice, has been sleeping onto my arm. Worried about it cutting off my blood stream, I pull my arm free... wouldn't want to wake up with a dead, half decayed hand now would I. Anyways, I roll over and I think about both DEILDing and MILDing but I dismiss them both: I'll wake up another time during the night, anyway. The thought of lucid dreaming triggered another, though.
As I lay there on my bed I question,If I were on a window's sill, high up in a building and there was a giant, floors high fence which stood in my view," I visualize the scene, "If in a dream I let myself fall straight down form that window and I used the momentum from my fall to redress into a flight, would I make it high enough to soar past the fence?
Before I know it, a dream has formed. I stand there on that window's sill, looking straight down at the weathered concrete ground. Further into my view is a slanted, grassy hill on which is planted an enormous white fence. With no hesitation I let myself fall head first towards the ground, holding my arms wide like they were wings... as the wind striking my face accelerate I pull my head up, riding the wind current like a roller coaster until after a few seconds, I finally reach the top of the fence. I barely make it, but I fly just above the fence. As I carefully observe the great sensations that come with flying, I reach a road. I drop some height to fly between the cars on this one road in the middle of some kind of never ending plain. As my attention focuses on the road itself the cars disappear. I play around at a few meter's height, driving around the now wavy road. Eventually I remember that I had goals... Yes right, the TotM, I think, Uh... race a plane, was it? (that 's actually just a suggestion for the TotM, which I'll vote for soon).
I need to find an airport. As I try to think of ways to find one I notice another road branching off the one I'm flying above. At its end, I notice, is a bunch of bulky buildings towering above the emptiness of the plain. An airport, surely. I take that turn and after a few seconds. I reach the airport. I land there and find a plane which is preparing for take off. As soon as I focus my attention to it the rest of the airport disappears; all that remains is the plane and the driveway meant for take off. The plane accelerates and I take off again. I see it gaining distance over me and speed up but once the plane reaches a certain height, it storms into the sky in also sonic boom, soon out of my view. I try to catch up but quickly I realize that it'll be in vain, might as well do something else. I land back into the drive way ... But my recall ends here, I wake up soon after, I think.

Got one hell of a insomniac episode and ended up waiting for sunrise browsing youtube with a very sleepy Eli. He conviced me to try sleeping around 5-6 am and I walked out of bed with a cotton mouth around 10.

I'm with my mom and my little sister in my new mom's car, in the center of my town. It's reasonably sunny and the streets are moderatly busy, but there's roadworks everywhere so we need to find another way to go home. We ended up finding a little, less used street around town, with dingy bush around it and a lot of dirt and dust. The only problem is that someone put an automated gate on it. I get out of the car and open the gate, but my mother take forever and a half to start the car back up, because she's chatting away with my sister. I have to put myself against the gate to it doesn't close again, and it keep hitting my hip trying to close. Luckily it's mostly a metallic mesh over a flimsy frame, so it's more annoying that anything. The car finally start moving, and because the road is very narrow, the wheel go by so close to my feet that I feel the road dipping under the weight of the car.
Later, we recieve the owner of the automated gate, a brown haired, scraggy woman who angrily tell us that we fucked up her gate and that will be very costly to repair. My sister promptly tell her that that is all my fault. because is it.
We're all back in the car, going to a unclosed parking space where a market is taking place. As we're getting inside, my mother turn around completly on her seat and start chattering with my sister again, and despite my more and more fratic call, she keep the car going and we drive right in a shelf full of small blue boxes. We all get out of the care and this is again all my fault. Because of course it is. We start picking things up with the help of a blonde haired woman, the blue boxes are now colorful vegetables, it's a mess. Somewhere during all this I'm lost one of my shoes, a bright red slipper. I see it in the garden catastrophe and take it, but it transform into a brown, dirty, dusty thing that propably was a shoe in a past life. My real slipper is in a basement close by, but the entryway is very narrow and I'm afraid I won't be able to get out of it. I beg my sister to retrieve it for me, and she take a sweet ass time accepting.

Strangely enough, I have a very good relationship with both my mom and my sister. Grated, they do call me all the time to tell me about all their problems... or, for my sister, when she's bored and want some company.

Mama was talking on the phone to one of her friends--or perhaps in person to someone else--about how she had always hated the thought of imaginary friends. They had always made her uncomfortable, and I knew for sure I could never tell her about Augustus, my tulpa (not that I had particularly wanted to, anyway). Augustus was standing beside me, but of course I was the only one to see him.

[There is a point in the dream, right here, where I feel like more stuff was going on but I cannot remember what it was.]

I was trying to eat me a snack before Dakota and Jon got home from their trip to their mom's/cousin's/whoever's, and I know that the snack I was trying to eat was a sandwich. I think it had two balogna slices on there and a lot of mayo--or at least that's all I can remember. I ate it in the kitchen by the microwave and watched as dozens of roaches scurried every which way. I heard their car doors close outside but didn't try to hide the sandwich, and then they came in.

Mama was sitting on the couch in the living room and listening to "our" adventures at the place they had went to. Apparently Dakota and Jon had taken "me" with them (though I didn't remember that at all--was it a clone, perhaps, or had I just sort of "switched" into a new dream character?). They said that Dakota's mom and her boyfriend had started off cool and said that they were going to make Halloween "all about me," [as in me, and not her--I'm not sure why Halloween would be all about me haha] but after that they just sort of left and did their own thing. Apparently everyone there was pretty crappy, too, and Mama said that she could tell everyone there just sucked.

Later on, the two of them were in my bedroom, and I think they were about to smoke pot. They opened my door and set a chair at the entrance, and then proceeded to try to barricade us in by placing numerous blankets on there (including the small red one that they had used in real life for a while, and my black one with white and gray). In hindsight it didn't make sense; why do that when you could just close the door?

Dakota and Jon were talking about a television show that they had seen over at the place they had been. It was apparently based off a bunch of kids at a law school and lasted an hour long. The acting sucked--or at least that's what I thought they were getting at. They said "the gays sucked, the lesbies sucked, the trannies sucked, everybody sucked." Despite that, Dakota had apparently attempted to watch all of the episodes, but he was only able to catch one.

Romeo sort of crawled under the blankets and chairs that blocked off my doorway from the hallway, and when Dakota seen that and looked at him he said, "I like it when Romeo walks around like he cares about himself," or something like that.

i am in the livingroom of my old house. a girl i once have a thing with is there and i come near to her and our faces come closer. she rubs her cheek on mine i kiss her but now the looks very unhappy. i think i got bad mood after this because i stood right next to my mum and my brother. she made fried eggs and made me 4 without asking. i demonstrade and eat the one egg thats on my plate. i want to eat the other ones that are on the plate of my brother but when i get the plate its already empty and i get angry again...
transition
i am in a dark kitchen and take some food on my plate. i leave the kitchen and find myself in a backyard with some construction trailers where people life in etc. i sit there at a table and eat my food. i nearly eat everything up except of a steak but i am full alrdy and have a bad feeling that i put it on my plate so i need to eat it. i get lucid dont know why because of the food or the location? i stand up but still take the steak and eat it up. there is not that much of meat but more bone. i enter the kitchen again and my mum is cooking. i hug her and thank her and leave the room on the other side. i am outside and its raining. i dont want it to rain so i close my eyes and say now its sunny. i open my eyes again but its still night but no rain atleast. i want to make the clouds go away and point on them and just expect them to go and they do. i want the sun to go up and on the horizon its getting lighter but i dont manage to see the sun. then the moon rises and i think close enough. i can control the speed and the location where it rises. there are some clouds again and i want to see the moon without clouds so i push away the clouds around the moon because i now want to fly there and once had a dream where i fly in clouds and everything got grey and i woke up so this time no clouds. i start flying and this time the moon is getting bigger and bigger and comes closer. suddenly everything gets white around me and i see a circle that seems to be the moon. everything looks like drawn. the gravity flipps and i find myself on the moon. it still looks like a bad drawing with a pencil. i look up and can see shortly the earth but its not like the typical image like everyone knows "the earth seen from the moon" but more a little planet with something around maby like a logo or something. i dont look closer and start to look around what is there. there is drawn a line with something i walk by the line and find a backpack. i think about to take it with me but then decide i dont need one because i am in a dream and everything i need is just behind me. i look behind and see, that oh what wonder, i am wearing a backpack already so nevermind i think. i put it back on the ground and walk a little bit further the line and found something different i dont remember. i look up and see some people that look like guys from startrek with their uniforms. i think about if they are friend or foe but i have the feelings they dont like me. 2 of them approach me slowly and start shooting with their laserweapons. i find a supersmall little lasergun and start shooting. after every shot i need to reload her with the typical shootgun mechanism. they are now near me and are 3 guys. we shoot on each other but i often miss and the laserbeams that hit seems to have no effect. i expect that left of me is a bigger rifle, look there but instead there is a lasershootgun. close enough i think take it and start shooting on the nearest guy. i hit him now and then and after some time i think he normaly should bleed or something and with the next shot his face turn red and he starts bleeding. somehow the situation changes and we dont fight anymore. i put the shotgun on my left site and expect it to hold to the backpack and it does. one of them tells me how i should take a savepoint maby for the weapons or something? i need something therefor they tell me. i pick up another small gun and take it with me but wake up then.

9.19.15

This was last night:

1. I'm on a set of a TV show. It seems like I won it as a prize. The show is not being taped anymore, but actors got together to give me that experience.

Lots of thing are happening. One thing is - we are all sitting on something like a log ride and we are going down the stairs. The actors are singing the theme song "I'll be there for you" and when we reach certain point, D Messing shows up as a surprise.

2. I'm listening to radio and singing to the songs, but when country song comes on, Ophelia changes it, saying nope.

I'm showing some guy how to kiss by kissing him. I keep opening my mouth and Ophelia laughs saying that's not how you do it. Then I say ok, you could also add tongue and again I show it to the guy eactly how.

3. I'm running away from doing my duties at work. I hide in an abandoned building, sit down, read a book and pet 2 cats. I look out through hole in the wall and the guy from work is peeking his head out, spying on me.


This today:

1. I'm suppose to be working somewhere outside. I'll ask someone where did the others went and he tells me. I start walking there but I forgot my shoes and other things. So this guys gives me a ride in his beatup old red sportscar. It stars to snow and at the crossroad, we crash by going straight, not turning.

I turn around and see a huge explosion. I tell everybody to look. Now there are airplains in the air, helicopters. I see that it was a missile that detonated. I see bombs being dropped at that town in distance. Another missile starts to fall down, but then it's engins engage and it flies over us to the distance. Troop helicopters are dropping troops.

We go to higher ground and see that enemy troops took up positions everywhere. We try to hide and get away, but they are stationed everywhere now, with field tents, trucks, armor...

Placeholder, more detail to come later

wake at about 4.5 hours.
1 hour trying to BTS.
Up for WBTB
About another 2 hours BTS. Try SSILD, following the breath. Finally fall asleep and dream.

+ LD #142 (my young kids, going to school, coins in pockets). in the grocery store, contemplating the somewhat strange eggs, see naked girls riding in the grocery carts ("that's strange, normally they cover up when they do that"), get the urge to fly, don't get off the ground but I try again, I see people jump into the air in front of me and freeze, get lucid, the world turns greyscale, then the void, I try to open my dream eyes but waking eyes open, back to sleep

+ LD #143 running through the frat house, having sex with a woman who's bothering me/stalking me, basement door, stairs, scene fades to me saying "then I teleport them to a different location and have sex with them" and I find myself in bed with a naked beautiful blonde spread out before me, get lucid, sexy time ensues, it's stable and awesome, I say "we're stuck here forever! We'll never get out of here!" (experiment with pretend expectation to prolong LDs, like people who are afraid and can't wake up and seem to have really long LDs that way by getting "stuck" in FA loops). It's starting to look like my best LD sex *ever* AND THEN THE ALARM GOES OFF! It probably is the best so far in fact. Wow.

Arrived at new surgery. One doctor commented that he hadn't spoken to me yet and wandered off through double glass doors so I couldn't talk to him. Walked down corridor to my new office a nurse was clearing up a mess in the corridor and I didn't need to help.

Long consultation with female patient I thought I was being very understanding. Realised I was lying in bed talking to her and commented on how unusual it was. Looked at a rash on her chest and tried to scratch it off.

Went to get lunch and returned home. The lane had become a massive roadworks site, I was walking down it. A very small car got under my feet and drove off and in the distance became a normal size again. Couldn't find my house the road had changed completely so went to another house. Looked at a map and realised that the road had completely been erased.

A tiger was in the field so the police were called and they were talkign about shooting the tiger.