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I was in Thailand, and I spent the entire dream trying to convince my friends and a group a girls to go swimming with me to this tiny island in the middle of the bay, which I knew from a previous trip had an underground tunnel in it that lead to a full system of underwater tunnels and caves full of treasure, with trees growing and animals living in there.

Everyone kept putting it off and I didn't want to go alone. At one point Arshia came and did not believe me, so I said I would guide him to the place to look at it. As we walked around the bay everything had changed, the beaches were replaced by a marina, and the trees had grown to be massive 400 foot behemoths, so beautiful in their shape.

And yet I did not become lucid.

Dream Signs
Beautiful Girls
Beautiful Scenery
Arshia

This was my best, most clear, and longest lucid dream yet.

I was in my old house, and suddenly realized I could be dreaming. I looked down at my hands, and realized something a little different, but still wasn't sure. Then my sister told me that sometimes I have to look really hard. I looked again, and paid a lot of attention to my fingers. Two of them were much shorter Thant the rest, so I knew I was dreaming. I felt the dream instantly start to fade a way, and become less clear. I didn't want it to end, so I quickly rubbed my hands together, then touched some of my surroundings. At this point I had maid it to my old bedroom, and was touching the hard wood floor. After that I got up to go outside , but before I went out, I thought how amazing it was that right now my real body was actually in a bed, and where I was, and who I was, wasn't real. It was something that really amazed me, as well as really grounded me in my dream. I went outside, and saw my brother and dad over by a stone wall, in a grassy yard. I went over and saw my brother was trying to run a really fast sprint. I had nothing planned to do in my dream, so I tried to run super fast. I wasn't able to do this, and accidentally ended the dream.
Everything went black, and I probably could have done a DEILD, but it didn't cross my mind.

I was at some aunt's house and thought it was christmas for some reason.
Anyway something was repeating over and over again. I was trying to do something, gymnastics? yoga?
then I was transformed into a form of energy, I could see third person view my outline in this strange yoga position
but inside I was an orange flowing energy, quite runny like orange honey or lava but not hot. It was cool feeling and nice.

Then it dawned on me that I was in a dream and I said "I'm dreaming!" a little too excitedly. I was perplexed at not being human in my dream but being this wonderful but unusual energy.
My mind started to race, "Quick what should I do while i'm lucid","Fly!" I thought. So I flew but I moved within the outline only, so it was more like everything else moved and I stayed still, "Zoom" then I thought um, what now? and was happy and wondrous of the energy.
then BOINK! I was waking up.

[Comment]
Last lucid was caused also by slow dawning due to physical sensations of a repeated event (key turning).
Thanks Elainey! for giving me the intention, again

Settings: Near the school, unknown place, a building.
Lucid Dream: No
Characters: My crush, Mark, a driver and someone I forgot

The dream started in a van near my school. I all of them. The driver is very fast, but can stop easily. The van gone out of control so he parked it. Then we, crush, Mark, and the one, went inside a building. We planned to separate, I and my crush on the one car and the rest is on the other one. BUT we should communicate every 30 mins. 2 of the phones are half charge and the rest are no battery at all. We separated. My crush will drive, while I hold the phone. Then my crush know a shortcut, which leads to highway I know, but very dangerous! We finished crossing the shortcut. And found ourselves in a familiar highway. It has many car. But safely exited the highway. The other group called on the phone. When I tried to push ANSWER, the dream ended.

GAMBA SEA

through visualising and a wild transition, I enter a dream scene fully conscious, lying on my back gently. It is a shopping centre type of a place with many dream characters and people walking about. It is indoors. For the the first time in a lucid dream I think of attempting to do some magic. I see some crumpled paper near the far wall. I use my hands and intention to lift them up. The papers start floating above ground. Viola !

I then perform a reality check to confirm that I am dreaming.
I go into a cafe and meet a young woman who looks Korean, and is serving there. She's wearing a red and white chequered dress uniform. I smooch her on the lips. She looks mesmerised and I can taste her bubble gum lips. Beautiful.
I walk on and meet a man, a black man who's walking with his family. I ask a young boy where we are.
He mumbles incoherently. His Dad, the black man, closely shaved head , green t shirt, about 30, lean, says.
'gamba sea.'
Where's that I ask. Earth?
Yes. He says. Because of the waters it's hard to get access to.
GAMBA SEA.
I make a mental note to research this when am back.
He then gives me a bunch of leaves, branches. A kind gesture. I can smell an almost eucalyptus smell.
I thank him and walk away.
I see a hoard of people coming upstairs. I catch the t shirt of one of the men. A red cartoon face.
I walk down the stairs and I can hear the men singing in the background
"Wise men say, only fools .... the ub40 song
I enter a small gathering where a woman is sitting with others and gets up to greet me, a beautiful smile. Black and white striped dress. She's smiling , black hair dark lipstick, fair.

Preface:
Bed at midnight, no sleep until at least 3am because of body soreness. Took echinacea drops in water again before bed.
Body is hurting again. Workout is challenging me and making me extremely exhausted these days.


DR 1
I could feel my body slip into a deep calm. My body went numb and I did not move. All of a sudden, I could hear lots of things going on around me. My niece was talking to someone- a man. I didn't open my eyes for a long time, because I felt lazy and I didn't want to move. I felt a light vibration and I wanted to stay there, because it was soothing. I realized it was prompting me into lucidity, but I didn't want to do it. (?) I felt too relaxed and preferred to stay right where I was.

I kept hearing my niece's voice- asking the man, "are you sure that's supposed to go there?" I didn't hear the man's reply, just murmuring. When I finally opened my eyes, I was in a bed in a different place. The walls of the room seemed grey (or was it just dark?). I looked around, but I didn't move my head. There was some talk about a party, and then nothing.

Side Notes:
Excessive exercise is really bad for dream recall.
The color grey, again.

I continue making my way into the tunnel below the street after exiting the snowstorm. I'm walking with a DC, and we eventually hit an end room. I make a comment that there's not a portal, and wonder what we're going to do. It suddenly hits me: I'm dreaming. I say "I'm lucid" as my awareness comes through. I tell myself that none of this even matters, and refuse to continue with the dream plot. I begin walking toward the exit. I notice I need to go to the bathroom, but continue to ignore it, and it goes away. I continue walking down the narrow tunnel with white walls, and a DC follows behind me. I try to conjure another DC by imagining one visually, but the image does not actually manifest in the dream. I continue walking and decide to try conjuring some food. I decide to create a buffalo wing for some reason, and notice it only tastes slightly like the real thing. The visual isn't very defined. My dream goals don't kick in fully, so I wonder what I want to do as I head farther down. The dream begins to fade, and I wake.

19.07.2016

I Don't Know How To Play Guitar! (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID


I'm at a gig, having just performed, though what exactly I did escapes me. I watch a man in his 60s come on stage briefly with his guitar before going off again, presumably to fix a broken string. The crowd are cheering excitedly so I gather that he's well-known.

He comes back on, but instead of playing he goes straight into a forward flip stage dive. Watching from the stage, I wince as it looks like he slams his feet down into someone's head, though no one seems to mind. We--me and a few others onstage--watch it replayed in front of us (though not on a screen), and it definitely looks painful.

Lots of people are already crowd surfing so I decide to join in, and notice how quickly I'm passed over the crowd; it's like floating on a river. As I start to near the back of the crowd I realise I'm performing again soon and need to head back, and merely pointing towards the stage makes the crowd pull me there instantly.


I get off the stage and walk past security into the backstage area. I navigate a load of corridors and notice how incredibly ornate everything is. It's like a palace, or a temple.

I'm looking for some kind of dressing room but have no idea exactly what. I know I'm on soon, and get the feeling I'm meant to be playing guitar, but that's it. I've never played guitar in my life.

Finally I find a guy who asks me what I need and I tell him: I'm performing soon need to find a dressing room. He points to the closed door beside him. I tell him I'm supposed to be playing guitar so need to learn how. Halfway through saying this it hits me: I don't know how to play guitar--it's a dream.

I tell him, '...but it's a dream so...', and, not knowing quite what to do with this realisation, front flip magically through the closed door. I land on my back and wake up.

1. I was playing a computer game about a white mouse that fighted another animals and monsters with swords, bows etc.
2. I was in a big facility, maybe mall or sth. I was with a Spanish guy called Fernando but he missed and I started looking for him. I found that some hallways led to football pitches and there were changing rooms beside. I asked footballers about Spanish guy. They didn't see him. I turned back but forget about guy cause met my university classmate. Then we met a girl, talked a little. After that I turned up in the same facility. I was walking to some room when a man wearing a suit poped up. I knew that he was a secret agent. He had a handgun and he wanted to kill me. I managed to cover and somehow knocked him out by the door. Then a woman came she was a politician and agent's superior. She became very upset when she saw him lying on the floor. Then I woke up.
3.I was walking by the street with my friends. Then a women came and asked us about some mechs. Don't know what she wanted to know but we did't want to tell her. Then somehow I turned up in a place looked like a court. And I was tortured by electric shock. I didn't like it at all. After that I managed to get out. While I was crawling through the window a women came in the room. We began to talk. She felt remorse for the bad things she commited. I didn't blame her but she started to cry. When I was trying to comfort her another women appeared at the corner of the building. So I said Good bye and ran away.
4. I was a prisoner. We were doing some roadworks and we were up to sth. We hid our shovels under the ground. While we was walking to our block we heard that new inmate arrived and he was a prison officer before. Convicts thought that he wasn't gonna stay alive for a long time there.
5. Saw my friends racing on the Biathlon World Championships.

I was solving a mysterious and unusual case. It was really dark, whole the town was seemingly overnight. I knocked to door of some house and after a while an asian woman in early twenties opened and let me in. We were sitting in a dark room, the only light that came inside was from a street lamp. We talked for a while about that strange case. I told her that every clue led me to her house. After I gathered all information I could, I left her alone and went to the streets.

Then I found myself in some old storage and industrial buildings. I felt that I was in grave danger, being chased by someone or something. I escaped, running through dark corridoors, rooms, alleys and then through sewers I got to subway station and escaped. Later I found myself in that buildings again, but this time I knew exactly where to escape.

Next night after solving the whole case I went to a chinese noodle stand and talked with chinese man. I told him that I'm leaving the city in search of a crystal katana sword. The man was surprised that I knew ultimate secret and asked who told me about it. After a while of consideration I said "MoonMan". Then he gave me a beautiful white flower that had blue glow inside it. I quietly said the name of that asian girl I met when solving the case, said that I might stay for some time and went to her. I gave her the flower and said "I know that this flower can't surpass your beauty, but take it." Then I said that I'm staying in the city and asked if she'd go on a date with me. She was silent, after a while she said that she has troubles speaking. I said that she should call me and say whether she want's to meet with me or not, then I went away.

I found myself in some old barracks, it was really dark. There was a really huge, open cistern down to the bottom of earth, full of muck. There was a platform with crystal sword, glowing with blue light. I decided to not risk it and leave the room. I opened door and saw that chinese noodle seller. He was really scared. I couldn't move - something was holding my arm. I turned back and saw a huge, white skinned humanoid with circular maw full of teeth in the middle of it's head, with two small eyes above it. The monster lacked left hand. I tried to free myself and scare it with roaring, but when it didn't worked I just punched it in the maw.

Everything became dark. I saw a text saying "The monster disappeared. No one knows how it was able to get through 890 345 600* metres of solid rock."

*The number can be inaccurate, but it's close I think.

Morning of July 20, 2016. Wednesday.



I am with my wife Zsuzsanna on a large bed (the most obvious dream sign of all) though this bed is about twice as big as it would be in reality. She is on my right doing some sort of work on a calculator. The setting, though not rendered fully, actually seems to be near an intersection which is on our left (our bed running longways to the street with us facing the street at most points) with a bus stop farther away to our right (a potential dream exit sign; that is, the waking precursor in this case even though I do not perceive myself as needing or wanting to catch a bus either “out” of my dream or to an offset dream), and although I am aware of at least four or five other people nearby, there is no sense of imposition. The location itself is unknown. The implication could be either America or Australia or elsewhere.

Over time, I understand that she had been carefully typing in a program related to calculating percentages. There are at least three virtual panels related to lines of instruction. She seems very involved and serious about what she is doing. Somehow though, I later have the calculator (possibly when she goes somewhere for a short time, but she is back later) and I had put lines of my own programming in, although they may only be REM statements. Still, I realize that perhaps it would have been best not to add to the program as I do not want to alter the outcome of her session even though I thought it might make her results more accurate.

Looking at the calculator again as she is holding it in her left hand, I notice that the programmer’s name appears at least three times on the screen below each group of at least three lines each of a specific subroutine (the screen of which is longer than it should be, almost taking up the entire space of what would actually be the keypad). It sounds like an East Indian name to me, and I assume it is a male’s, likely a college professor’s. “His” name seems to be Padmé Amidala (which is actually the name of the young female in some of the “Star Wars” movies, and I had not at all thought of “Star Wars” at any point recently).

07.19.2016
10:30 AM

New Teleportation Approach (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

Some fairly boring dream stuff happens that's not worth mentioning. I am with my roommate and we are leaving a building. A large bearded guy looks familiar. We shake hands and I remember I met him earlier that day and he is friends with one of my friends. Unlikely I would run into him again so I do a nose plug RC and become lucid. I know I want to teleport to my dream guides house but this time my strategy for teleporting is different. If I teleport to the inside of the staircase I should be able to remember what it felt like because I touched the wall while I walked up it originally. I close my eyes and feel a step under my foot. I open my eyes and I am still where I was. I close my eyes again and feel the wall with my hand. I open my eyes and I am in a staircase but with the wrong kind of brick! I walk up the red brick staircase and end up on the roof of a building. I run and jump off the edge because I know the urgency will make my TP work. I imagine the feeling of the step and feel myself colide with it and the wall. I open my eyes and I am in the right staircase except there are far more windows than I remember. Little details like that shouldn't matter I think. I start to walk up the stairs but get so excited that I wake up.

I decided to sleep in because I didnt work until later. It took me a long time to fall asleep but eventually I guess I did.

07.19.2016
12:30 AM

Who is Androx? (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am sitting on a floor watching an old western drama on a CRT tv. It changes to a weird cartoon about a bank robber using a large spherical bomb to blow up the wall of a bank. I find myself inside the cartoon and the robber turns to threaten me. I run and he gets in his tiny cartoony vehicle to chase me. The vehicle is carying the bomb with him. Suddenly a cat jumps at the robber and knocks him out of the vehicle. The bomb falls off and rolls after me. I get run over by it and end up on top of it. I roll with it and the cat catches up and jumps on my shoulders. The cat can talk and tells me to stay calm. It is a ginger colored adult cat with a female voice. The bomb rolls into a river and we float on top of it along the path. It becomes more like a man made track with bumpers to keep it in. The track goes above ground and through some weird video game like dimension. I pump us up on a stream of water to a higher track.

Eventually I find myself at the edge of a pond in a forest. I see a orange salamander about a foot long in the water it swims up to me and I get scared. The orange cat is there and is joined by a black one. One of them says "Don't be scared, its not fully grown and won't try and eat you." I feel relived until suddenly a massive 6 foot long orange salamander jumps and eats the smaller one. The cats guide me out of the forest and into a suburban neighborhood. We hop fences and run through back yards. The sprinklers go off in one and I see the timer for the sprinklers and I am going to turn it off but the cats urge me to continue following them and it's just around the corner. We go into another back yard. I notice there are a bunch of alligator ranging from small to massive. We even walked past biting range of some of them before I noticed. I ask what the heck and the orange one says it's for protection and that we should be safe. The black one says, "He is just a beginner though." They both run up to the largest one for some reason while I am more focused on the closer ones. I see there are a bunch on the steps leading to the back door of the house. The alligators start to approach me and I use telekinesis to float them into the pool which is surrounded by a fence. It is difficult but I remove all of the alligators. There are also two mastiffs guarding the door. I hope they don't attack me and walk past them to the door.

Once inside I see a southern style home similar to one I drew for a storyboarding class but with a kitchen attached to the living room. There are two white cats sleeping in the floor. One is an adult and looks like my own cat actually. The other is a kitten and looks like Androx! I become lucid and the kitten lazily looks up at me. It's large ear unfolds from behind it's paw. It sits up and stairs at me.



"Androx?" I ask. I look around to stabilize a bit and notice the other cat has walked away. After a long pause the kitten says, "Hello Matthew." with its androgynous voice. "It is Androx, right? Not Andrea? I had a hard time journaling that part." I say. "It's Androx.", says the kitten. I ask,"Are you male or female?" "Male", Androx says and looks fairly annoyed that he had to answer that. He walks over to a bowl of pet food and a water dish next to the kitchen counter. After inspecting the water he starts drinking. I kneel down to him and tell him that I need to ask him some more questions starting with what are witches and what are their relation to talking cats. Androx says,"Talking cats are witches that have transformed themselves." This confirms the theory that I had. He goes on to say, "We suspect that you and your girlfriend are ones too." I wonder if he thinks my dream guide is my girlfriend or if he is my actual girlfriend. "Do you mean (my girlfriends name)?" I ask. Before he replies Androx walks around the armchair and forces me to move around to follow him. I set in the other sofa and he jumps up onto the armrest next to me. I ask Androx,"How did you become a talking cat?" He says,"I wasn't always a witch. I used to have a family." He starts to get emotional. I find myself looking at eye level and wonder why I am not looking down at the cat. "It is hard to understand when you are little and your parents get foreclosed on." he says and starts to cry. Suddenly I see him not as a cat but a child about 11 or 12 with a red brown bowl cut. To be honest even though I know he is a boy he looks a bit like a girl somehow. The feels hit me pretty bad as I realize Androx is probably an orphan. I wake up before I can hear the rest of his story.

I think that is some pretty good progress on the witch hunting front. Now I should probably start focusing on Dream Hero League Missions so I don't get to far behind.

07.17.2016
11:00 AM

What Would Be A Good TOTM? (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am still visualizing my dream guides house but have lost lucidity. Several voices in my hear talk about how it isn't accurate to real medieval english architecture. The house is replaced with other brick buildings. The voices say this is better. The buidlings become a town square. I find myself standing in the square. There are many DCs walking around. I start to walk around and wonder where I am. I remember that I am dreaming and want to go to my DGs house. Because I so often wake up while teleporting I want to try something else first so I get at least something done. I remember the basic i TOTM to ask a DC what would be a good TOTM. I grab the hand of a woman and ask her what she thinks would be a good TOTM. She replies, "Make fireworks appear!" She raises her hands as she says this and fireworks go off in the distance. I thank her and try teleporting. It doesn't work though and I wake up.

I havn't had time to upload any dream journals over the last week but I did have 3 or 4 dreams worth sharing so I will just have to post them now. My goal has been to talk to my dream guide or Androx the space cat and learn more about them and witches in general. My strategy was to go to my dream guide's house and talk to her practice teleporting in the process.

07.11.2016
10:30 AM

Witch Hunting (SSILD)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I am in my room and lucid. I get excited and jump out the window to try and find my dream guide's house. I destabilize and realize I should have just teleported. While I am in the void between dream and waking I picture my dream guide's house. It old and brick with a tower on one side of it. It is on its own on a hill with a small garden next to it.

I find myself, instead, in an old fashioned town square. I look around for people and find a theater where a play is happening. I ask some people where I can find a witch but they seems to speak italian and don't understand me. I point to my hair and say "Her hair is this color." and point at the red brick in the ground. I make a triangle shape above my head as if it was a witch's hat and one gentlemen seems to understand. He pulls out a paper scroll but won't give it to me. I grab it a punch him in the gut. He lets go of the scroll and I fly away with it. He grabs onto my leg though and gets pulled along with me. I try and knock him off but start to wake up in the process.

When I restabilize he is gone. I am flying over an island next to a larger land mass. I look at the scroll and it has military information and a map with strategic locations on it. Two of the markers say witch on the key. One is white, one is purple. I am now over a massive fortress on main land. I locate this on the map and use that to fly towards the purple marker on the map. As I fly I start to loose lucidity and my memory of my goal gets a bit more fuzzy.

I land in a village. There are peasants as well as soldiers marching in metal armor. I meet a boy who's family will let me stay with them. I learn that this land is ruled by a tyrant king. The family is part of a growing rebellion who wants to over throw the king. I agree to join them if they will help me find the witch. There is a girl who also lives with the family and is part of the rebellion. I just have a feeling she is a witch but no one else seems to notice. She looks very much like someone I knew in high school who in turn looks very much like Lust from Full Metal Alchemist. Based on facebook photos she has died her hair black, gotten piercings and a tattoo of a rams head and pentagram on her collar bone. She very well may be a witch in real life! She tries very hard to seduce me and it is very distracting and I get a bad feeling about it. She pushes me down an ally and up against the door of a random house. I point out that since we were adopted by the same family this is sort of weird. She says she wouldn't mind even if we were siblings which makes me even more weirded out. I hear the voice of a girl down the ally that says, "Leave him alone." The voice belongs to a girl with short blond hair and a dress with a voluminous skirt. She reminds me of Cersei Lanister because of her hair about 22 years old. The succubus scoffs at the girl and leaves.

Time passes and I go down the stairs of the family house to find a meeting of people. It is to organize the rebellion. The blond girl is there as well and I can't help but feel she is a witch as well and that I have met her before. The other witch comes down the stairs and apologizes for being late. She and the blond girl make mean faces at each other. The father of the family asks if I know the blond girl and she says that we do know each other well and pulls me into a hug. I whisper in here ear "I know you're a witch." to which she replies "Of course I am dumb ass." I feel like I am suppose to know who she is. In retrospect I think she is the blond witch that I have had fragments about being friends with in the past but she looks different with shorter hair. I ask her, "Can you take me to where the red haired witch who is my dream guide?" "Yes, but let's get out of this meeting first.", she whispers. She doesn't stop hugging me and I feel people staring and say, "Uh, okay, you can let me go now." I start to destabilize again.

I am in a alleyway in an old city at dusk. I am more lucid some how. There are a group of boys scouts in front of me. They aim muskets at me and the leader says to fire at me. I run at them and deflect their shots with telekinesis. Once in range, I grab the end of one of their muskets and start waking them with the stock. They scatter and I chase one of them and hit him so hard he flys into a dumpster. I fly to where I feel the blond girl sent me to learn more about my dream guide. It is the back of an apartment complex. I fly to the third floor of the metal escape ladder. The boy scouts have regrouped below and are preparing to fire. I shout, "Leave me alone!" Suddenly, a woman apparates in front of me hanging off the railing of the escape ladder. She looks a lot like Rogue from X-men Evolution in features and in style of clothing but she has a buzz cut. I notice she has white irises that look very cool. She says, "What are you up too?" The only thing I can reply are "Cool eyes." I wonder what I am up to anyways. Does this witch know my dream guide? Is she an evil witch? And I wake up.



Later that morning I have another dream about witches.

07.11.2016
1:30 PM

CORP (SEMI-LUCID)

NON-LUCID LUCID OTHER

I walking down the street with some friends. One of them is the blond witch from the previous dream. The other one that stands out is a girl with a over sized witch hat, purple hair, and a large black heart tattooed under her right eye. I wonder how painful that was to get. She looks like someone from work as well as the actress Debby Ryan. About 18 years old. She is writing a web comic about shared dreaming as well as a secret society of aliens who act like humans to control major corporations. Earlier parts of the dream are me reading the comic. The thing is, she actually believes it and may actually be right. The other friends think she is crazy and walk away except for the blond witch. They walk off. The blond witch and walk away in a different direction because we don't want people to learn about magic powers. The heart tattoo witch says "[INSERT BLOND WITCH'S NAME], Matthew, where are you going. I thought at least you would understand." I can't remember the blond witch's name. DANG IT The blond witch keeps walking but I turn back. I explain that even though I have dream magic too I don't believe in shared dreaming. She says," but you're a dreamer." I reply,"Yes but this is my dream and... you are a dream character." She looks hurt for a moment but then laughs and says, "Oh your just kidding!" I say, "Look, this may be your dreamworld but I came here to find answers about my dreamworld, not to help you fight this corporation. That is when I get a phone call in waking life and w


I had another frag where I think Androx sends me on a mission to go to high school with the heart tattoo girl and asses the strength of her powers. Something like that although that could be way off. The memory was very fuzzy.

I was at a hospital and they wanted to draw blood from me but when I saw that needle I was very scared on how big it was. I decided I didn't want to do it so I left the hospital. I ran into Julie at some kind of a house party. one of my old friends walked up to her and spit something into her face as a joke. He then grabbed her and tried to get her to go with him. he seemed as if he really liked her and was attached.someone else came in tried to grab Jewel and get her attention as well. I thought wow she is very popular. I went back to the hospital and I noticed all the lights were down. so I thought I will just come back another day.