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It has been sometime since i added a new entry to my dream journal (partially has to do with a dry-spell) so here goes
Also i had this dream a few days ago so it is not exactly fresh in my mind.
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Fragment: I remember the dream taking place in some kind of forest area but i am not exactly sure. One thing i remember clearly was a large, square monument with vines on it in front of me. I don't know exactly when but i was lucid, and so the first thing i did was increase the vividness of the dream by shouting something along the lines of "increase lucidity" which immediately made the dream nearly as real as reality. I was surprised by this but suddenly I get the desire to try flying which i don't accomplish because of what happens next. As soon as i thought about flying some kind of crocodile-like creature jumped from the monument to a piece of ground in front of me, the creature wasn't actually scary but the dream slowly fell apart and I woke up.

Not quite a memorable LD but the realism sure was interesting.

I had three dreams last night, one failed WILD, then a successful WILD (extremely rare for me!) And thirdly, the best of the lot, a DILD (I have not had one in months) the third one was very important to me as I reached a dream goal I've had for nearly four years, and it's the most stable lucid dream I have ever had in my life.

This story begins at around 1 in the morning, after I had slept a few hours and woken up.

First off, I entered sleep paralysis while lying in my bed listening to creepypasta stories on YouTube through my earphones. Now, I know there's some confusion about sleep paralysis, people saying it's the incorrect term and that there's misinformation on these forums about it, but I still call it that. I experience loud static noises in my ears when I realise I'm in SP and either try to move or try to enter a dream.

I attempted the FILD technique at this point, but I was barely able to move my fingers, and I ended up wiggling my toes a little instead. Eventually i managed to sit up but I felt very disoriented, half my face felt paralysed. I still felt like I was in sleep paralysis partially, even though I was actually dreaming at this point. I woke up shortly after this- a false awakening. It doesn't count as a lucid, technically, because I thought I was awake even though I entered it directly, simply because I was still in my room in the dream.
After this, I was prepared.

Less than twenty minutes later, I was back in sleep paralysis. This time I simply focussed on the hypnagogic imagery and willed myself to enter a dream. The static in my ears came and went, very loudly. I stared forward into the hypnagogic imagery and then, I felt something I have never felt before- I was being lifted off my bed. I felt someone lifting my legs up, turning me over, slowly pulling me off the bed, and then I floated to the floor. I got up off the ground and did the nose RC- Dreaming. In my room. I grinned at my success, and attempted to turn the light on. It didn't work. I remembered that electronics tend not to work in dreams. I was not thinking properly enough to make a light of my own.

At this point, things took a bad turn. I started thinking about how there are often spiders in my room, and I looked about for them, then panicked. I flew straight through the roof of the house, which is comical now that I think about it, and left my destroyed home to begin flying about the night sky, for approximately five seconds. Then I started thinking that spiders might fall from the sky, and I freaked out and woke myself up. I then cursed myself for ruining a lucid dream by forgetting that I had control over it.

Third, I was in a recurring dream, that I didn't realise I had been having a few times recently until last night. I was with a few friends running through a city, pursued by gangsters who had weapons. At the end of the alley we ran down there was two turns, left and right. I knew that one was a dead end and the other was a path to safety, somewhere to hide. As always I followed the friends in front of me to the right, and the one in front swore and shouted that we had gone the wrong way. I turn around and sprint the opposite direction, and just before the gangsters turn the corner behind me, I run up a wall on the right, and vault onto the top of a garage, lying down on its roof while the gangsters run past below. At this point I realised that I was dreaming. This was only ten or so seconds into the dream. I stood up and decided that it was time to finally complete my dream goal that I've had since I first joined this site. To return to the non-lucid dream that I had back in 2012, a few days before I signed up to DreamViews.

In the original dream, I was in a palace of some sort, with unknown companions around me. There was gigantic doors in front of us, open, and all that was there, was water. We were deep under the ocean, and somehow the water could not enter the palace. I have since referred to this place as Poseidon's palace, after the ancient Greek pagan god of the ocean.

I have wanted to revisit this dream for just under four years and I did it in this dream. I willed myself to stand before those doors again, and I was there. I was ecstatic. Gazing into the ocean beyond I saw gigantic sea creatures, hundreds of them, bigger than whales, passing by. I turned around and began to finally explore more of this place. I flew through the hallway in front of me and to my surprise, found myself in a cove- rock, plants, waterfalls, a seemingly totally natural place, that had a sort of presence to it. It reminded me of a scene from Zelda: Twilight Princess. The large waterfall in front of me seemed to me to represent Poseidon himself. I spoke to him in my mind, and he congratulated me for returning at last. I felt that he was going to grant any wishes I asked of him, and answer any questions that I had, and that he also represented my subconscious. So I asked him to give me the ability to lucid dream at will- that when I want to have a lucid dream I will have one, without fail, every time. He told me that my wish is granted. I believe that I have somehow planted it into my subconscious by doing this in this dream, that I will now realise I am dreaming every night.

The dream started to collapse around me as I was told that I am allowed one wish or visit every time I come here. I did not want to wake up, and I began rubbing my hands to stabilise. I no longer felt like i was going to wake up, but the world was a blur of colours around me. I shouted "Stabilise NOW" as I had read to do on these forums, and then screamed "I'd like some f***ing clarity if you wouldn't mind", and then I was immediately in a ridiculously vivid dreamworld, in a village similar to Hobbiton in Lord of the Rings and the Hobbit, except inside a forest. There was one out of place large modern house, and someone was staring at me through the blinds. I ran up the wall and punched through the window, grabbing the man, pulling him out and then telling him that I don't tolerate rudeness from Dream Characters, before frisbeeing his body into a tree. I flew around a bit more and landed when I saw a talking badger, reminding me of the Wind in the Willows. He said he's missed me and I said that I missed him too, just to be polite. I have never seen him before.* I got distracted by a large red sign in his garden which had a YouTube link on it. I could read the link perfectly, it remained stable as if it was real.

I heard my phone's alarm going off and had to wake myself up, as it was time to get ready for work.. at half 4 in the morning, because I had a shop to open.

I have not Lucid Dreamt or been able to dream control in a while not because I couldn't but because I have not put in the effort or time. So last night I finally did, its funny because for me the more tired I am or the later I got to bed the better chance I have of experiencing this or the better quality it is and the lengthier as well. So I remember first watching a tour of an old victorian mansion a gentlemen was giving the tour to Ciel and Sebastian from Black Butler and the home was amazing. A lot of wood no windows just open walls and the outdoors were green pastures and a cool breeze was around. The fabric and linens of the furniture were white and everything felt warm and cheerier the glow of the sun was subtle but inviting and made everything feel a bit like we were in heaven. The home was vastly large and felt like it had been transformed into a hotel, because I remember seeing people in the background going up the stairs and going outside. Now outside it was even more beautiful but on this large expanse of land there was only the mansion and across, walking distance was another hotel the Hyatt Regency actually. People were walking back and forth and I could hear the gentlemen talking details, now I was not present at first and I remember the moment I 'materialized' I could hear my heels clicking and all the attention turned to me. Its as though they are felt my presence and arrival. The gentlemen turned to me and Ciel disappeared I was now the master. I kept glancing at Sebastian but I did not really look at him until now, I turned to him and really gave him all my attention...

***Now keep in mind I have not watched BB in a really long time and its not something I think about often, nor is it even my favorite anime I don't even secretly fantasize about him but for some reason he is always in my Lucid Dreams, for years now I can never understand why...

I looked at him and pushed him into a chair, because I am short I could not reach his face. I grabbed his face and took in every detail, fascinated that I my mind was able to create such perfection. He sat in silence while I towered over him and analyzed every detail and I said "I've missed you...where have you been all this time?" Not sure why but it seems that my dream self felt this terrible feeling of sadness and longing. I felt like I missed him for years and that now that he returned I was finally happy. This is the moment when I realized I was dreaming it all clicked and everything became crystal clear and more real than life. I looked down at myself and saw white heels and a white cocktail dress. Feeling 'his' presence at my side we then continued the tour walking all through the mansion.


More happened after this but I can not remember however I know I felt like the time I spent dreaming and with him was months. Until I remember walking in a store I had forgot that it was only a dream and that it would soon end. I decided I wanted to know so I grabbed his face again and kissed him gently on each cheek I asked ''Why are you only here? Why do you not exist in my world the human world? Why are you only in my dream?" I thought he would never answer most DC don't...but he turned slow and looked at me for what felt like a long time then he responded "I can..." He pointed out the window of the store to a small run down house. I knew who was there a witch someone with dark powers able to easily release him from my dream. However tempted I turned to him and he disappeared from my arms and turned into an angel of death. Hovering over me with black eyes and black wings. It did not scare me I told him sadly, "You know I can not do that the consequences of this would be far worse than the rewards". Sebastian said "Whether you do this or not there will always be consequences".

**Feeling sadness in a dream is so very real, it hits you hard and in this particular one I felt it even more

I decided I was not going to waste this precious time with sadness but I was going to relish every moment and do anything. We ended in in the middle of a courtyard of some super crappy rundown apartments made of concrete. There were about 25 floors and people were standing around in each floor looking down in anticipation. As my eyes travelled downward I saw what they were all looking at.... even more people at the bottom. It was getting dark and faster and I realized that Sebastian and I were sitting in front of it all in our own concrete ''thrones''. I did not realize what was going on until I saw 3 young boys kneeling down with their hands tied behind their backs, at first I panicked thinking they were in trouble but they were laughing and egging everyone else on. I then saw from about the 5th floor people drop an iron and it hit him in the head. For sure I thought he was dead, no he got up and laughed and so did everyone else looking at Sebastian he was still, I felt uneasy but I could not move. The second heavy object was dropped and it hit the second boy this time he did not get up, I knew he was dead, people panicked and ran screaming. I started to feel sick, weak and unable to move or talk. I wanted to leave and have Sebastian take me away but he could not hear me I knew I was then losing control of the dream slowly I was awakening and I tried soon hard to gain it back but I could not. Some other gentlemen came and got me carrying me out of my chair. At this point I had no strength, but the last this I felt was the eyes of Sebastian on my back...


****Something I would like to know is does anyone else feel sick when coming out of a LD? The longer and stronger a dream is the more drained I feel coming out of it?

D1 - In a large house with sprawling corridors, like a hotel, all is dark. My daughter is a baby in her bed. I go to check on her and the scene suddenly changes to very tense. I find a giant rat, its head is bigger than mine, about twice the size and its is about to bite my throat. It is looking at me and I am willing it not to attack. I notice that in the doorway, there are horrible spidery grubbs that are clustered there, some dropping down. I pull a large blade out of nowhere and am hesitating whether to stab the rat which is poised to attack. We are eyeball to eyeball.

D2 - Helping someone to write a document on computer, I give them the correct filename it is 16 digits long, lol, a code. There are a series of many documents with a similar code that need to be entered?

D3 - I am in a horrible appartment, with a sofa in the kitchen area. There is a cover thrown over it as someone has been sleeping on it.
A large burly man with a bald head, is after me for something, not sure might be debts. I run out of kitchen and down a corridor. The corridor has a zillion identical looking doors. I take the one on the end and hide in there and find a large mallet with a long handle. I lay in wait for the man.

I was finishing up a day of work in a very tall skyscraper. It was getting late and there was a storm, I could see lightening flashing in the dark night sky out of the giant windows of the large room I was working in. The building was swaying. I was rushing to complete my work and get out of the building, but also interacting with old friends who were around. I think I got to the bottom of the building and stayed inside. It was sunny and daytime there, although we were inside there were still giant windows that you could see out of. Many friendly interactions that I have forgotten the details of with two old friends.

Bear chained to a tree and someone was chaining a dog (my dog?) next to it. I wondered why they would do that, it seemed very dangerous.

Thoughts:
I suppose the part about the storm at the top symbolizes anxiety around getting work done, or finding more work. Making my way to to 'bottom' seems almost like regression. These were 'old' friends, and I went down instead of up. Maybe my past feels safer to me, and I miss that safety? The bear chained to a fence seems really symbolic. The bear was no threat being chained to a fence, it was 'under control' but not completely gone. Putting something vulnerable that I care about like a dog near it is dangerous. Am I doing something that is putting myself or loved ones at risk unnecessarily?

I'm heading toward the exit of school building, and making my way through the second floor stairwell. I'm thinking about dreams, and becoming lucid in them. As I approach an outdoor balcony connected to this area, it hits me that i am actually now inside of a dream. I Begin to fly over the railing to travel out of the area of the building and toward the forest beyond. The dream feels a bit unstable, and I'm a bit cautious of flying at the time. I want to head farther into the distance to explore the dream scene, and feel walking would be better for a couple minutes until I can build some stability. I head a bit farther, then begin flying, and the dream begins to fade.

quick notes for now:

earlier:

+ flying/riding outside on snow-sprinkled rocky boulders mountains, deep dark tall elevator shaft, "4 guys agreeing to make the movie", hallway of elevator doors and rooms with girl, young folks sitting watching TV one guy with dreadlocks eating cereal

+ walking through dimly lit [DS] house, confused, always choosing wrong room, "oops, wrong room" (walk in on two people, don't see)


+ Django, walking up steep street telling pack of young men the benefits of it, how it has a HTML preview layer so you don't have to debug using only the DB [FALSE]. I question this statement later and suspect it's wrong and they might find out

later:

+(f) the open refrigerator, I remember cleaning it [FALSE]

+ indoor garden, tree with pears impaled on branches, I remember [FALSE] that I put them there to ripen, I take on off and take a bit. I go open the curtains to the outside, look down and see potted plants/succulents with water in them some plants have decayed but some live

+ son S2 is getting a haircut, I see the locks of hair being snipped off he says he doesn't want to short, I'm admiring the work and saying that the overall shape is still the same while being reduced. Then I notice a HUGE spiderweb in his hair and then it's sitting on edge on top of his head with a big freaky black&white striped spider in the middle, I lean to the guy next to me and point this out, then the spider is walking down to my sons's head and then we have a battle of blowing this spider back and forth between us each trying to get it away from ourselves. The spider just won't let go of its strand and fall to the floor. I feel partially paralyzed. The spider wraps itself in a bladder and becomes like a dark jiggly water balloon.

+ toy car track set: wooden train tracks, symmetrically built by two brothers. Very extensive. I see cars zipping around the track. I'm closely examining one of the raised "X" interchanges, moving a car across it, but it keeps getting stuck, I'm trying to see how the track can let the car by. I ask if this is a starting point? The boy points out another part that is the starting point with a little "catch" on one of the rails to hold the car. Then I accidentally hit a portion of the track and it starts collapsing. I try to scramble and halt the chain reaction but for a second it gets away from me. I'm eventually able to to reach ahead of the wave of falling and stop it, but the boy is very upset. I'm looking at a portion to see how to rebuild it, it was a raised section made from tiny toy birthday cakes with little teeny splinter sized colored "candles" on top. The little splinters have spilled all over. It's going to take a very demanding effort with tweezes to put this back together.

+ pack of toy cars given to "grandparents" the grandmother takes only a few: high detail cars, silver VW bug, "Formula 1" racer, I think my son shouldn't give them all away so he can give them to his own son in the future.

I entered a building looking for a toilet. Almost went into the ladies toilet, looked next door but that was also a ladies. Started walking down a corridor, said hello to a black cat, walked down a corridor and there were lots of children's paintings on the walls and I relaised it was a primary school and thought that my children's school was much nicer.

I got to a door with a guard on it, he said I looked like I needed to go past an opened it up for me, I saw a children's gynmastics class to my right as a passed and realised that was why there was a guard on the door. A man with a child in a pushchair walked past me and I remembered my children when they were that young.

I went through another door. There was a rehearsal going on in the end of the room. I walked quietly to the other end and met someone from university and we talked, she was complaining about someone who was being dificult in the rehearsal and told me the play was called 'Bread', it was a musical. I tried to carry on walking but I had reached a dead end.

I recall that I was tidying my room. It was a dark and cold day, and I've tidied the room only slightly as it wasn't that messy. My sisters were hurrying somewhere so that's why I was tidying the room. I found a teddy lion and placed it on top of a shelf, where already two such lions were placed and put it behind them. Then I thought "Always behind, in the shadows."

Flirt
I'm in a train or bus with two friends, one guy and one girl, both white. There are more people there, but none that we are acquainted with. The guy and girl are having a seemingly friendly conversation, but I know that he is interested in her. I think they are talking in Dutch. Either the guy or I has a laptop on his lap. I think it's the guy at first. The girl exits at what is to me an unexpected place (Almere). I figured she would be going to Groningen. That just cut the conversation short by an hour. The guy goes after her, towards the exit, to ask for her number. In the mean time I find a different place to sit. Suddenly the bus/train is full of wannabe actors. One girl to my left seems to be memorising a script. Another girl all the way to the left is reading it out loud. That's quite obnoxious. I'm trying to concentrate on my thesis, so it's quite annoying.

I'm outside on a big street with the guy. I ask him how it went. He tells me it went horrible. He got her email so that he can ask for her number. I tell him I've been there and it's shit. At that moment a blonde girl enters the street from a building. It's the girl I was referring to when I said that. Right? Some guy meanwhile mentions that he got a number that connected to an online disposable service, where he could talk to the girl. The first guy gets out his laptop and before long he's chatting with the girl through email.

Newbie
I'm talking to a girl I've just met. We're in my city in Indonesia, close to the university. I'm explaining some basic things to her about how to get things done around here. There's a guy with us and at some moments, one of the staff members from the international desk is there as well.

Adult Twix

Spoiler for No really, adult stuff:

I had a strange dream about a Twix commercial. It was definitely not a child friendly ad. It was already late at night, so I figured that was why, but I was still surprised. There was a woman who wasn't wearing pants. She was upside down, a bit similar to doing a handstand. She somehow was balancing a single twix on her privates. I didn't get a look at that and was later also wondering how she managed to do that. I figured she had probably inserted it. The voice over also talked in an adult manner. He was making this sound like a game. There's the twix and a group of guys and everyone takes turns to take a bit off the twix. If you're the one who has reached the end... well then you have to finish the job.

I blame this on the guy at the bar yesterday who went around asking everyone how to say 'nice pussy' in their own language

Invasion
I'm in my room in Indonesia. I have a swiffer type of broom and am cleaning my room. Holy shit, there's a whole line of ants just invading my room. Also, there's a dead wasp or something similarly big on the ground. But.. I didn't kill that thing. I didn't even see it inside. What happened here? I start sweeping the place up.

Had another nap and remembered another dream. Didn't remember much other than being outside somewhere but glad I remembered while napping at least.

I didn't get much sleep. Had to get up & go move my mother n law into an Assisted Living Home cuz her dementia is so bad. So I had a vague non-lucid but l had to get around quickly & didn't have time to write it down.

On a brighter strange note. Yesterday I forgot to mention something due to time. I woke up to go pee in the middle of the night & was standing in the doorway of my bathroom & I felt vibrations & heard the whirl & saw my arms. My astral arms & my regular arms. I was just stopped in the doorway kind of taken a back by it. This has never happened before while just walking through my house & i was just kind of in awe of it. I knew I needed sleep cuz of so much going on so I just went back to bed when the experience ended after about 2 minutes.....

Strangely enough it may have to do w/ a weird visual thing I've been doing lately. See, I've been building this dream house in my head for years just to fall asleep until a couple of weeks ago when I started doing it again but now I find myself subconsciously doing it at other times. I'll be reading & comprehending my book but my mind is building my house & I go a couple of paragraphs & think, man this is weird. Then I realized I was doing it while just walking through my house just out of the blue. Kind of like daydreaming or something but I'm still doing whatever task. It's like I've trained my brain to multitask this one thing because I'm always tweaking details to my house.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red
Side Notes-Purple
Astral Projection/AP-Brown