dream fragment

Standing in a rather plain room. Empty walls, beige carpet. I begin hearing the intro music for "Turn Down for What" and start acting like the character from the intro to the music video. Before any lyrics start, I realize I'm dreaming, and want to combine it with the TOTM. The first one I think of is to get naked. I think about how I'm going to do both, and wake up before doing either.

// I was thinking rather introspectively, to the exclusion of everything I was doing. Maybe that woke me up?

>> Next time: Try thinking while still interacting with the dream.

I don't remember the dream, not really, only one particular scene. I'm tempted to state that I was lucid for the one scene I remember, but I think that would be a lie. I think that I was, in the context of the dream, in an altered state of mind -- a trance-like state -- and was testing my capacity for carrying out super-human actions within the dreamscape of this trance-like state. So, like a meta dream? Regardless, I remember the idea of wanting to test my abilities, in a land where I could do whatever I wanted. So I practiced my capacity for high-jumping, and I was ascending up this giant tree-like structure, high jumping to each ramp area I could walk up.

It was fun.

Alot of fragments.

I was on a basketball court with alot of my friends and we were playing against another team. Game started and my friend treon got the ball. He threw it for a 3 pointer and missed just by a spec. It rebounded incredibly and the ball whizzed passed my face without having any time to react. My friend Dylan was standing next to me and I told him I needed to pay attention more.

I was on a road in my neighborhood, the main road, just walking. It was night time and I was walking on the street. A girl I knew from school drove past me and for some reason I tried chasing her car down. I couldnt catch up so i gave up and just looked to where she was driving and she turned onto another street and went to her house. So now I knew where she generally lived(No reason to though), and at this I started to walk back down to the beginning of my neighborhood. As I did so a car in front of me was speeding towards me and must've not seen me. It was a yellow car and a dude with glasses was driving it. As he neared me he eventually noticed me but too late, and he spun out trying to not hit me. After his car stopped after spinning out, I went over to him and apologized for being in his way and also thanked him for not killing me. He didnt reply but instead just straightened out his car and drove on. I went down the road even more and made my way into a local pizza place I knew well, Donnely's pizza. I walked in and some guys I knew from school were there. I talked to them to find out what was going on and they all said that they were applying to get a job. I decided I wanted one here too. I got an application and filled it out and walked into the office to submit it. At the same time another friend of mine walked in( I think Josh) and turned his in as well. The manager said he was going to interview who ever came in first but since we both came in at the same time really he told us to just go wait outside the office. We did so and quite some time later the manager called me back in and told me that I didnt get the job because all of their spots were full. I said "thats okay, my dad wouldnt have let me have a job anyways" and then i left. add on- while I was waiting outside the office I remember seeing a black girl who over did her application. She made an artistic box and put decorations all over it and then placed her application in the box. She was really excited.

I was in some sort of training facility taking part in a shooting exercise. Me and this guy, who was a brother of one of my friends named Sinclair, was shooting me, and in turn I was shooting him back. A few times he would get me and I could feel pain where he shot me. Eventually I got up out of sitting behind some car and shot him straight in the neck. He immediately started bleeding out and the guys in charge of the facility were applying pressure to where I shot him to stop the bleeding, it was no use though, he died. Utterly devastated by what I had just done I left the building and went walking around outside. After walking for a little bit my friend Sinclair came by and we talked for a bit and eventually he asked what was wrong. I told him I had killed somebody but I didnt tell him it was his brother. In my head I was thinking "If I told you, you would hate me forever" or something along those lines. We just continued walking.

July 12, 2014

I think its the makeshift bed I'm in that keeps me from sleeping well enough to recall good dreams, i can only remember short fragments before i wake then have to change positions.

I remember a dream after falling asleep again in the morning. Me, my brother kyle, and my dad were riding in his truck going to go on vacation to a few places and were driving down the road. We were following my Uncle bill in his Mustang. The road we were on was paved and out in the countryside with grass and low lying bushes near the road that led to tall bushes and trees a few feet out. We went over a bridge when we saw the mustang going back the other way and we turned around back over the bridge. I asked where we were going and one of the places was south Dakota. I asked dad if we could stay out at his place till at least august 2nd but he never answered. Then I woke.

11-07-14

Dream 1

Eminem stopped at my house as a place to stay whilst he was on tour, everyone was telling me to give him rats for his dinner

Dream 2

I was going to an Eminem concert and it was at the ice skating rink in my local town. I was walking up towards it and I seen Action Bronson on a black pushbike. He recognised me from when I seen him in concert before and rode up to me. He hugged me and then started speaking to me and said its about 2 hours till the concert starts. So me and my family decided to go round town for a bit, we decided t go to this cake stall called BBs. As we were buying the cake, one of the workers offered my brother a job, he accepted it. So after that we went to subway, we had to get the bus and it was an open top bus, I had marmalade and I dropped it off the top accidentally, so I had to get new marmalade. We went back to town with 2 of my friends, they were going to meet someone but didn't.

12-07-14

Dream 1

We were in my house, my brother, his friend and me. We had DMT brownies and one of them was a really large dose, way larger than normal. I said I wasn't ready try DMT just yet so passed my brother also said it too. I'm chilling in my room and my brother runs in saying he accidentally ate the brownie and forgot it was a DMT one, he realised it was a while before it would kick in so he tried to calm himself down. Him and his friend who also ate one were chilling on there phones in the room. They could start it feeling to kick in they said, one ran to the toilet upstairs, my brother ran downstairs to get to the other toilet, he was sick all over the kitchen twice. I made him lie down on the sofa to prepare for his trip, I said it will 'probably feel like you're leaving this dimension, so lie down.' He was lying down zoned out, then I started making a weird high pitched noise, he found it really funny and was laughing crazily, so I carried on doing it then it was making him act weird so I stopped. I put on the TV so I could do something then he started acting weird so I turned it off. I was just making sure he looked OK basically, I then put him in the recovery position in case he was sick again.

Dream 2

I looked in my backgarden and I had a giant pet emperor penguin, it was waddling round my garden. I was thinking how cool it was to have a penguin. The I looked at my rabbit and it started running through the fences till it was 5 doors away. I shouted foods ready and it ran back, through 3 and jumped over the last two. I went in my room and found another baby penguin, we assumed the adult penguin gave birth to this one, so I was handling it showing everyone, then gave it to its mother. Then I got my mum to have a look and the penguin was with its whole family of 5 all cuddled up, we were pretty amazed.

In the past two weeks, the dreams have been intense, but I did not write any of them down.

In one, Boden didn't recognize me and didn't want anything to do with me. Boden, if I haven't mentioned him yet, has been with me from the beginning of my lucid dreams. I tried to get his attention. It was heartbreaking. Like I didn't exist to him. Like I was now so unrecognizable he couldn't fathom my being "good enough" to know his name. I felt crushed.

In another, I don't know who they were, but one was a young woman (feisty), the other a man around my age. I had to leave in a hurry and ended up walking around the city in the dark, in the rain, in a minidress and a flannel shirt the man lent me because it was cold outside. Every hotel I came to turned me away.

Sometimes I dream of just walking away from it all. Leave behind the stress I'm always under. I have nowhere to go and in the dreams it always seems to catch up to me (ain't that something?). Well, life recently has caught up to me. It's a constant struggle. The dreams I have are the only outlet I have available.

Lucid dreams I can go anywhere and drop any worry. I have friends who actually want to talk to me or spend time with me or just support me. Real life is so different. If I could choose a world to live in, it would be the dreams.

-Pix

July 11, 2014

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We Forgot Her!

I was on a vacation with my family, but I can't remember where we went. I do know that my cousin was staying with my brothers and me in one house while the adults were in a different house. We'd rented two that were next to each other so we would have enough space for us all. I know I dreamed of things that were happening during the vacation but all I remember was being in a pedestrian mall, looking for a pizza place and the end;

We were getting ready to leave, and I went into the house to make sure we had everything and because I hadn't seen my cousin in the car yet. I looked around and didn't see her, so I assumed she was in the car now. I went out, we all got in the car, and headed back home; but about ten minutes into the drive, I realized my cousin actually wasn't there, and I panicked because we had lost her.



A Different Vacation

I was in the car with my brothers, on the way back from a different vacation. I think we may have been visiting up north. But it was weird, because we picked up Kevin, my big brother's oldest friend who lives down the road from us, and another of his friends, and I got the feeling we were in my neighbor's driveway. But we were coming back to our house. So it was weird.

We were on the road; I was sitting in the back of the car, in the seat behind the passenger's side front seat. We were driving, and as we passed some rolling hills with houses on them, and think pine forests, my little brother was pointing out the house our parents had just built. I asked if he was sure that was it, and he said "I'd know that plot anywhere!" I had the impression that it would be a long drive... But I must have fallen asleep, because the next thing I knew, we were already back in town; driving along the road we used to take to get to pre-school.

(oh my goodness, I just remember like three really old dreams)



Temporary Tattoo Makeup

I was getting ready for a class in the morning, but I didn't have a mirror, so putting on my makeup was really difficult. I had decided on the purple sparkly eyeshadow I have for the day. I ended up having to do the makeup on a piece of paper, and then sticking it to my eyes to transfer it, like a temporary tattoo. But I still needed a mirror to make sure I didn't screw it up; so I went into one of the school buildings to try and find a bathroom. But I'm pretty shy about putting makeup on in front of most people, and so I was trying to find either an empty bathroom or a stall with a mirror in it. The first bathroom I went in had a man in it, for some reason (lol, I just remembered another dream where all the toilets in this huge bathroom were massage chairs; they were all out in the open though). The second bathroom didn't have a mirror in it at all, and the third had lots of people in it. I left all the bathrooms and ended up doing my makeup at a table in the room I had classes in, before anyone got there. When someone got there, I asked it my makeup was alright, but I woke up before I got an answer.



Dirty Watch

I was with my teaching cohort, and we were talking about some adorable little girl who lived on such-n-such street (there was a street name, but I don't remember it). We were all at my house for some reason. One of my classmates, M, was explaining something about the little girl and how she knew it. I remember looking down at my watch, but it had a stain on it and water inside the screen, so it wasn't working... Which puzzles me. It's usually my cue that something is off, making me do reality checks. What would it mean if my dream watch stopped working, I wonder...?

I was walking by the red-brick church that I often pass in waking when I decide to do a reality check. I count my fingers and I have the correct number. (From now on I think I'm going to stick with the nose pinch reality check, have had more success with it.)

1. I was in some sort of video game and the time was a prequel to halo. In the dream I was flying a huge ship and multiple ships were trying to destroy me, but multiple ships were also friendly, so it seemed an equal fight. I had the biggest ship and it resembled am oval shape and was roughly the size of 20 foot ball fields(estimated guess). It was indeed a big ship. When i got into the firefight all of the other friendly ships were being shot down. Just then 3/4ths of my ship was destroyed and I was left flying it just trying to survive. A hostile enemy ship was continuously firing at me, so i went full speed to try to get out of its range. Some time later I lost all the hostile dudes and was contacted by NASA/ USMC space department and they told me since I made it out first with my ship and I was alive that I needed to come to space, into their territory and there were going to give me a gift. A big gift. Me and my crew all had suspicions that the gift would be some type of ship. Immediately I knew that this ship was the Pillar of Autumn.

2. In a school. I was sitting down next to one of my good friends(Ronald I think) when I decided to get up and go get something. When I returned to my seat some dude was in it. He had blonde hair and was a little bigger than I was. I told him, "Hey you're in my seat. Get out of my seat." and he got really angry and told me about how this was his seat and that I wasnt in it, all that stuff. Soon I decided it wasnt worth it and told him to, "chill, it doesnt matter anymore." But he didnt stop and he got even more furious. He got up out of the seat ready to fight me. Ready to beat this guy's ass in I got up and grabbed a desk ready to beat his head in. The students in the class tried to block the fight by putting other desks in our path so we couldnt reach each other. I tried to get to him but with a desk in my hand I found that jumping over stuff was a bit harder. Soon the teacher came in the class(From who knows where) and separated us. I wasnt going to hurt anyone else who wasnt involved so I cooled off while Jerry( The guy who snapped) was in the other corner. As I walked away (to get out of the class I presume) I heard the students saying about how they thought I was just a normal boy, and then my friend Julia said, "No they've always been real men", in a serious tone referring to me and Jerry. I became a little uplifted with that.

3. I was some sort of huge warehouse looking building when I was with a group of people that were assigned to me. We were playing all these types of games and doing stuff together. In my group I remember having 3 people I knew in real life, Tyler, Riley, and Hailey. At one point we had just finished playing pool and an announcer got on the com and told us to return the pool sticks to where they where stored. Me and my group walked over to the pool storage place and realized that we were simply just playing pool with long, gray pencils. And to put them in storage we had to put those pencils back in their tubes. The storage room had a tunnel space where you would put the pencils, and it led to the outside of the building where a manager was watching us put away our pencils. At the end of that tunnel was some dude that had been hitting on Riley since the beginning of the dream. She didnt have the same feelings so she ignored him. While I walked to the tunnel my friend Tyler started some conflict with me saying he could beat me up and what not. I said, "Ok Tyler since you think you're so tough lets fight, right here, right now". And he said I didnt stand a chance and I laughed. We never fought however, but as I returned to walk to the tunnel I noticed that Tyler had a gray mustache and beard, but his facial hair wasnt full and it looked as though somebody had just drawn it on. I thought nothing of it. As I started putting the pencils away I heard the announcer say we only had 8 seconds left to put our supplies away. I started going faster but I couldnt find any more tubes to put the pencils in so I just gave up and went back to my group. They were all sitting down at a table, so I sat down as well. I talked to Hailey about some girl and stuff. Dont remember much more.

I fall asleep, and immediately see a face directly in front of mine, maybe our noses are a full nose distance apart at most. A man is staring directly at me, sporting a big, regular mustache, and smiling happily. Looking right into my eyes as his wide face remains motionless. I scream in terror, completely surprised by this man, because just a moment ago I was laying in my bed, waiting for sleep.

I wake up with a jolt, then question why he was so terrifying for me? I think it was the surprise factor of going from being by myself, to having a face all up in my face.

July 11, 2014

I can only remember fragments. Woke at 4AM half asleep dreaming about classic cars but not sure what went on, later had fragments of riding in a car trying to go somewhere i didn't know. All the details are hazy so i really cant remember much today. Just feel tired.

Awake Non-Lucid Lucid

3:00

I woke up to my alarm playing "Helter Skelter". I went to the bathroom and stayed up for another minute or two for a total of around 5 or 6 minutes. I then stayed in my bed for an hour and thirty minutes until I fell asleep.

~4:28

I woke up in my bed,hearing the usual sounds when I'm lucid (rushin, et cetera). This time I wasn't scared. I attempted to someone to walk into my bedroom, but nothing happened. I tried to get up, and all I did was lay there. I was paralyzed. I close my dream eyes, thinking that I'm in sleep paralysis or something, and that I just need to wait a few more minutes. I ended up awake at 4:29.

I then layed in bed for another whole bunch of time, waiting to go to sleep, accepting that I failed to have an LD this night.

~5:00

I remember babies, and my hometown. There were good and evil babies, and devil babies. I especially remember a certain demon baby. I also remember the playground in my hometown.

Dream 1
Recorded at 5:20

I'm at my home town and in the Main Street where paint shop is. There's a motocross track in front of me and I can see people riding there dirt bikes on it. Most of the kids are being cautious and taking it slowly. I see Logan Dy on the track and he's bike is acting up on him, it seems to be going slow. Not too long later he gets it going and he goes over the jump like a pro.

Im standing with Rob Shan and notice that Jamie Smith's Dad comes over to us. I think he's got Logan's bike and shows us the problem it was having. He points at the back piece where the chain hooks into the spikes. He says that it's bent and will cost $2500 to fix. He says that mines a similar issue and will cost $1500.

I'm in a car with both Rob and Jamie's Dad, on my way to getting dropped off at home. I see that there's a Total Tools shop which I've never seen before. J's Dad mentions about my illness and says that it isn't bad enough to the point of where I cannot work. I ask him does he think I'm a bludger and he pretty much says yes but sugar coats it a little.

I see a pub where Tash Steven's lives and I mention Arpie would love it.

I'm now at Blaxland house and I'm pretty upset at the moment. I talk to both of my parents and tell them about the discussion I had with J's Dad. My voice almost trembles from anger while speaking about it.

Dream 2
Recorded at 9:00am

A man is sentenced to life in prison for doing cruel things to animals. I see the heart break and anger of the family. If looks as if they're on a roof top at night time. The family look of Asian descent which are crying historically and the other man looks African and is angry.

Dream Fragment

Rex drinks all of his water and Dad refills it up and says something about fluoride.

July 10, 2014

7:00 AM-first wake

Cant remember first half of this dream. Lost it when i started moving around.

Me, my friend jacob, and some girl were modern day assassins that had a job to carry out. We were supposed to kill a group of people but we did not know where they were hiding until one day we heard one of the targets accidentally give up their location on a live news broscast. He said where they were and the camera stream changed to ine in a helicooter circling the building. We could see that it was night out. They were on a big sky scraper tower roof top to start but started moving as soon as they knew we were coming but we were faster. So we went to the tower and was in a room just for the elevator. All the walls were concrete all the way around in the tall room. But a big security force surrounded this elevator. I walked up to the police and talked to them for a while and randomly they decided to leave, and let us take our targets. The elevator came from the bottom up slowly and it was a steel cage that you could see in no problem, like a miners elevator. First guy comes up, gets shot, second guy comes up with a metal mask and gets shot, third target was an old lady, i leaned over the elevator shaft looking down on the elevator, raised my colt 1911 and shot her right in the head and bam, red ring around the wall where her head was. Then the elevator disappeared and the lights went out, but light from flares were still on. and the last guy came up a rope/steel ladder but we did not shoot this guy. We helped him up when the girl with us questioned why he still looked the same after 50 years of being chased by us. I also found it very weird that when he let go of the rope that was not tied to anything, it did not fall.

Back to sleep

9:50 AM

I had a few fragments but i cant remember all of them

Fragment: I am at some swimming pool. There is a large bay out in front of me with a gorgeous skyline across the way. I jump off the side of the pool, do a flip, then jump off of the opposing side into the water.

Fragment: I am partially lucid attempting the advanced TOTM, to go to another planet. I go outside into a meadow surrounded by trees. I attempt to manifest a spaceship but only manage create a small rocket motor about the size of my hand. I start the engine and it flies out of my hand, circles around in the sky above me about one and a half times, then explodes.