dream fragment

PREP
None. Today will be the first night I attempt lucidity. I will also be waking up to record my dreams as they come.

DREAMS
1. I attended boarding school, and Daniel Craig was a teacher and headmaster. I competed with the other students for his favor, attempting to impress him with my intellect and maturity.

THOUGHTS
It's sad how far I've fallen since being active on these forums in 2007. Back then, I got to where I could remember extensive details of multiple dreams, even without writing them down during the night. When I did write them down, I'd have several paragraphs for each dream. I intend to get back to that and better.

I remember being somewhere outdoors and there being an evil hot guy and a hot good guy. The good guy was my boyfriend and i remember i kept kissing him. You k now when someone is about to say something but you shut them up with a kiss? Well something like that. I remember i was doing that because he kept telling me i couldn't crown me and him as the queen and king of whatever party we were at so i kissed him to shut him up and then asked him " Were you saying something?". Then he shut up. Then i was taking a walk and the hot evil guy picked me up bridal style and was carrying me away. Then he challenged my boyfriend to a sword fight like in the old days and who ever wins gets me. Then i don't remember what happened

But also i remember having a dream later that night about me being in a hotel and i was resurrecting a doll into a real girl. Then after that i remember eating and there was a huge open bouffett and there was a lot of amazing food. I remember i was really creeped out. It had an over all creepy vibe to it. Also i remember there was a lot of pollution they were throwing in the water so i went up to the thing collecting pollution and i made sure it didn't go in the water. Then i don't really remember much.

Fragment
Not sure what the rest of the dream content was... moret memorable was looking in the reflect of a sliding door and deciding to summon a dream character. I flipped through 5 people in the reflection before I chose one to walk out of the reflection and be real.

Dream
An epic and exhausting dream about an end of world apocalypse where I was constantly on the run from near miss death experiences... Dodging falling debris as earthquake brought down city sky scrapers. There was a cloud of strictnine (what ever that is?) that was toxic and was eating up the east of the city. It was fast spreading to me. I was in a car with other survivors and we were fleeing the cloud.

Soon we came a cross a wide river and some of us gave up hope. I managed to cross the river with 5 others as the cloud killed everyone else on the other side of the river we crossed. We become cornered and 5 of the survivors take cyanide pills and suicide. I am left with a girl to meet our ends.

As we are about to die we teleport to a kitchen where the girls mother is cooking something. The girl and I have a conversation, but suddenly I share the girls thoughts. She groans in despair, realising she has teleported back 7 years in her life to a time when she was locked in the house considered insane. I now share her mothers thoughts and what she see. She sees her daughter raving into thin air when talking to me.

Fragment
Surfing massive waves and eagerly walking with a fishing rod to the end of the pier to fish... but I get frustrated because I never get there and really want to catch a fish.

Dune-based, a Fremen leader has just died and everyone's chanting the name of someone they're choosing for the new Naib, a well-respected middle-aged man known for being level-headed. But they're interrupted by Paul and Jessica, performing some Bene Gesserit trick with light that makes them appear god-like, a move to take power over the Fremen. It works. I find it extremely distasteful.

My IRL mother weighing a desire to give up physical possessions against the potential uses for the land she owns, and considering an apiary.

A wrong number from an angry woman looking for a Melissa. (Not the one from the myths specifically, but still presumably inspired by the apiary bit.)

I'm looking at a digital folder labeled 'Eric'; none of the files inside have anything to do with him.

An earlier, lower-budget movie version of Barbarella.

A variety of nautical references: ornaments shaped like ships, a trip to the beach and a mention of pirates.

A painting of pale, black-haired elves with ravens on their shoulders, in a park.

Two homeless men, one with a dog, the other a preacher standing on a wooden crate, arguing about Jesus and whether or not he spent a lifetime as a cat.

"So ever shall be considered the gardens of Biblios."

1. [Non-Lucid]
My Aunt appears to have moved house, I'm in the house with my Cousin and Mother, I open the front door and ask whats in there (theirs another door facing me), Mum replied "that's the bar" with a slight smile I replied "ah ok".

2. [Non-Lucid]
I'm at a party sat on 1 of 2 sofas with I think friends or family, we seem to be having quite a laugh.

Next I go pick up my old girlfriend Tiffany in I think a red curvy soft-top fast car, when I arrive I see her face...I think shes smiling (she also has dark brown long hair just how I remember her), she sits in the passenger seat next to me and I drive, now I'm driving down a road seems to have a lot of foil-age to my right then I cross a bridge, she asked me something don't remember what but when I replied but idk what I said {I felt anxious and guilty} (something about an animal).
We are now at the party, I think I'm sitting with her, Chris my cousin enters and sits down so I introduce her to him.

3. [Non-Lucid]
I'm in some sort of shooting game where I acquire a big gun that shoots a stream of plasma (much like the stream from a Ghostbusters ghost catcher) so I went and hid in a cabinet on the back wall of a building facing the entrance.
A guy walks in (He appears to be dressed in cowboy gear), I slowly open the cabinet door and I zapped him twice with this gun, shooting out fuzzy blue streams of plasma (really looked cool) he shook and wobbled then died.

4. [Non-Lucid]
I am at Emily's house (best friend/love interest), I called for her and decided to go into her room but she was in there naked (for the record I didn't actually see her naked as the "dream camera" was too busy watching my face, Possibly saw just her leg) and I saw and gasped then walked away all sweaty into the kitchen where someone talked to me about something, then I hear a "psst" so I turn around and shes peaking her head around the corner and gesturing with her hand to come to her, so I did and she asked "how much did you see?" in which I replied while blushing and smirking "Id be lien if i said I saw nothing...I saw everything".

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Fragments:
May have seen my best friend Emily possibly dressed in blue

My uber-strange dream from last night:

I was walking down to my gramma cellar un-lucid and everything was foggy like a windshield in the rain. I became lucid then and yelled "Clarity!" To my dream itself to clear up and most of the fog dissipated except for some in the corner of my vision so I spoke "clarity" a bit softer this time and walked upstairs to my gramma's porch. When I got there, there was (of all people who I'd do this with) Roger friggin Taylor. I was annoyed by his presence and asked him why he was here. He didn't answer and pulled me into a kiss.
I remember feeling I felt it was wrong like if you kissed a cousin or something. But, I didn't object. When he finished I asked him why he did that and he said because I wanted to and then the dream dissipated into a fumbling around fully awake me asking myself "what the hell just happened?!"

My Dream diagnosis: stop listening to queen 24/7 and stop obsessing over people I like

Morning of January 13, 2014. Monday.



I am watching, I think, a DVD from the local library. Often in real life they do not consistently work, but this one does in-dream. It is, however, fairly boring and I remember that it has a misleading title. It involves a teenage boy who I believe is in ninth grade and involved in boring escapades relating to collecting wins from sports-related gambling endeavors, as well as avoiding those he owes money to. This went on in my own school (even in middle school) but I was rarely ever involved in it myself.

At times, it seems I am actually in the movie, but more as a camera-man-type character. The boy, at one point, walks up a flight of steps that is supposedly only for those in grades eleven and twelve to use and he is yelled at by an eleventh grader - it is on an open high balcony where other students are gathered and either gossiping or relaxing on their own.

From here, he seems to be in an argument over who owes what, monetarily. There is talk and debate on the (American) football games and potential for the scores of future games. Somehow, pizza is involved in the forecasting. There is a recently-ordered pizza (Domino’s - I recognize the logo) sitting on the table in the cardboard container by the seated older boy (in a metal folding-chair). Supposedly, it is a new trend of “fortune telling” - by reading the random toppings on a pizza (received from any takeout place) and also relating to gambling. The pizza supposedly represents “everything” even though the other boy (the ninth-grader) denies it. It first looks like the older boy is going to toss a coin, but instead picks up a smaller slice of pizza and tosses that. The older boy drops the slice of pizza on the floor and it lands topside down, which also supposedly represents something symbolically in the upcoming football game. However, the pizza also supposedly represents the younger boy’s grades and schoolwork and life itself (as well as the dropped slice which seems to have been done on purpose) according to the older boy - as if he controls the other boy’s destiny with the simple act of dropping a slice of his own pizza. It seems a bit “off” and enigmatic and ambiguous all at once. “The pizza represents a pizza,” says the other boy, and walks away even though the other boy is still talking in a superior manner.

Fragment

The king of England sent me $200, A $25 gift card to amazon com, and a collection of postage stamps. I was opening the envelope while standing in the meadow outside of whiterun (skyrim)

Fragment

I found a pen with a laser pointer on the end of it. I wanted to use it to play with my cat.

The Cat Shelter

I was walking near the seamless tubing factory a couple blocks from my subdivision. This young girl approached me and asked me about helping her to start a cat shelter for a group of stray cats that were living next to the factory.
After she tells me that a number of cats emerge out of a segment on concrete pipe sitting on the ground. One of them cats has bright blue fir.
"HOLY CRAP A CAT WITH BRIGHT BLUE FIR! I thought that was only a myth!"
...
"Nope, no reason to reality check. Nothing strange here."
...
"Nah, I don't feel like starting a cat shelter with you."
I wake up.

Well I just typed this whole thing and it didn’t save right and now I am starting all over. Going to type on word on my computer then copy and paste. Sucky.

Bed: 1115
Supplements: 100mg 5htp, 250 mg Valerian Root
WBTB: 4 am
Supplements: 250 mg Valerian, 4 mg Galantamine, 500 mg Choline, .4mg Melatonin

I was a little restless getting back to sleep but after about 45 minutes was able to.
I woke up about 45 minutes after I fell asleep not thinking I had slept at all except I remember a fairly vivid dream. I recalled a bit and then went back to bed quickly.

Non-Lucid: I was eating with others and an ex-coworker was among them. I was being very quiet and then all of a sudden broke the silence and asked if they still worked there. I had a hard time conveying what I wanted to say during this dream. The words would come out slurred or very quiet and the DCs had a hard time hearing me. The scene turned into an office type area and we continued to chat about work a bit. I left to look for my room since now I was a hotel . I went up a couple of floors since my room was 501 or 50 something. I passed some stairs and saw a couple more people I knew and said something indiscernible to them as well. I was on floor 5 but it was a bunch of offices and this area I wasn’t supposed to be on. Not sure of this transition but I ended up outside by a bay. The weather was grey and wind. There was a large boat and a bunch of shopping carts lined up in the water, they were moving up and down with the waves. I went around the boat to a pier area. I needed to get across the bay but there was a huge line of people to take the transportation boats across. The line was behind and above me on a wooden dock area. I stood there wondering how I could get across, thought of swimming or taking a different boat but could figure nothing out. I woke from this and recalled for a bit then went back to sleep.

Laying in bed with my eyes closed there was a female with their arm over me, not sure who it was at this point. They had their hand on my boy parts and the dream got a little sexual at this point so to keep it PG13 I thought something was a little strange shortly after this and did a RC.

LUCID: I did some stabilization with my hand for a bit then started touching stuff around the room. I rubbed a blanket on the bed which was very fuzzy and really focused everything. I touched the window which was nice and cool. I was in a cabin type room with wood paneling and tall narrow rectangular windows. Instantly I thought of TOTM invisibility and the infamous girl’s locker room. Fortunately there was a school across the street, unfortunately it was an elementary school and that wouldn’t work. I hit the window with my elbow, broke the glass and went through. The school was till across the street, I was in a parking lot/street area with roads/highways above. I noticed many people around and thought about the new years resolution TOTMI yelled focus a couple of times and it seemed to focus a bit more. I saw a police officer about 100 yards away and was going to ask him. I looked down at my clothes and I was wearing a white shirt. I wanted to be in a suit or something nice. I tried a few times to will new clothes but had no success. I got pulled from the dream but was able to DEILD right back to a scene with a smaller boat. I was headed toward the boat to get in but was pulled back out of the dream. DEILD again and very wary of getting pulled out again I didn’t open my eyes and didn’t move. I was in a boat moving along a canal (feeling). There was a lady in the boat talking about mailing a package and she was concerned with the size and the price of the box. The boat stopped and I was out of the boat. I reached out for something to grab and felt something with my left hand, a rough wall, stucco. I opened my eyes and was solid in the dream. We were at a strip mall type place that was outside with grey stucco. I climbed some stairs in front of me and entered some glass doors into the first shop I found. As I entered the shop there was a rack of coats by the door, I touched them to anchor myself further and yelled “focus” again as I turned a corner. I saw 2 guys and a customer (girl from the boat) at the counter. They were all looking at me since I just shouted a moment earlier. I thought of the new years TOTM again and walked up to the guy at the counter behind the register. I asked him “what is your new years resolution” he was very perplexed with this question. After a few seconds of him thinking he said got out …. “To think” and I said sarcastically “you want to think?”, the then said “ well I have an inspection coming up”…. “To pass inspection”. I was good with this answer and then backed up. I had a plan for the opposite TOTM. I stood on my hand (this was not graceful like I imagined, more like a neck handish stand then a full on hand stand). I said “gravity is reversed today”. This was less dramatic than I anticipated as well but they did float up in thie air like they were in space. I flipped back around content with this and as I left I told them “opposite day is later this month”. Outside I looked for somewhere to do invisible task and saw a lady and two kids go into an apartment area. I flew/floated across the street to an area with houses/apartments. I went into a door. The room was bare and dark, marbled grey and black and kinda futuristic looking. There were many doors but all of them were locked but one. I went in the unlocked one and it was a tv room with a couch and a big dark window above the couch. 2 DCs were in there, one was Eddie Murphy and the other was some Arabic guy. I looked down and had a bunch of clothes on. I took a big snow outfit type of clothing off with some difficulty. I grabbed a football with some writing on it off of the entertainment center and began to toss it back and forth and hold it like I was going to throw it. Eddie wasn’t happy with this and he asked me about my broken window. I said that it didn’t matter anymore. I decided I was going to fly up and out the window. I took off and landed on the windowsill. I think I might have had an FA here but not sure. Behind me I knew it was a counseling session for people who thought they were in dreams but weren’t. To be sure I wasn’t crazy I did a RC again… phew still dreaming. I was perched on the window sill and in front of me was a huge pine tree; I thought of crashing through it but decided to focus on TOTM. Across the street were a dirt parking lot and a restaurant there. I flew over and landed in the lot. There were a few RVs in the lot and the restaurant was a seafood restaurant and it was up some stairs and off of a wooden deck. I decided to make myself invisible then. I closed my eyes and thought about brining my hand in front of my face and not being able to see it. I felt I was invisible and my eyes were still closed, right before I opened them again I thought about people who said that they can’t close their eyes when they are in a lucid or they wake up. I thought about me doing it just finds and at that moment woke up.

This was around 7am and I got up and wrote good notes since some of the details from earlier started to fade. I went back to lay down and hadn’t been asleep for but a couple minutes when my daughter got up. Not sure if the supplements did everything or it was a placebo effect. I am going to keep experimenting every few days.

1. debajo de un puente, churubusco pero en un pueblo, veia de lejos un acto político, la entrega de tractores a campesino. me acercaba y había canastas de mimbre y gente sentada bajo el puente. mi hermanita manejaba un auto por una avenida con camellon, se equivocaba de vuelta y le decía que volviéramos.

2. fiesta de una amiga, luces neón, gente borracha. saludaba a mi amiga por su cumpleaños. un salón de fiestas. afuera había una kermés. todo muy colorido. tenía la sensación de que era muy tarde.

3. un gimnasio. usaba unas caminadoras. un grupo de chicas. dormía con tres de ellas en el mismo colchón.

Okay, I may have had my REAL first lucid.

This was part of a larger dream, but I forget most of the details. The important section was this:

I was with two other people. I think a teenage girl and an older guy (who kinda looked like George Carlin, IIRC). We were going to do some sort of thing to help me get a lucid (how convinient). After I "went to sleep" (it really seemed more like a scene jump), I "started" dreaming and the two of them were standing in front of me. Not-George Carlin starts trying to walk me through everything, but I get a feeling of suspiscion and look around the room, ignoring him. I interrupted him and said, "I think this is a dream." I pinch my nose and breathed successfully a few times. I looked at my hand and it was screwy. The two people looked at each other and Not-George said to me, "Well done." They disappeared and I looked around some more, but the far ends and hallways were being engulfed by darkness, so I started spinning, but to no avail. I think it ended so quickly because I expected it to, which I'll avoid later.

I think this was a true lucid because my actions and feelings felt like I was consciously doing them, though the events before and after still give me doubt.

This whole situation with D. is wrecking me up. Hardly sleep at all anymore.
Around 6 am tried a WBTB with following meditation. Couldn't relax then the guy next door gets a delivery (on Sunday morning!!). Had a short dream about my cat dying. He died ten years ago. But last night he died again in my dreams. Maybe I should take a break from everything. It's just too much right now

Dream fragment: I'm laying in my bed, I'm messing with my teeth with my tongue. I feel one of my back teeth wiggle and it makes a click noise. I panic and run to the bathroom and look in the mirror. I put my hand in my mouth and tug at the tooth very gently, but it falls out, I take it out and look at it, it's completely translucent, but i see tan things in there. I panic and think that my retainers won't work anymore and my teeth will begin to migrate, but then when i tongue the spot it fell out from I feel a brand new tooth like a polished little mountain poking out and I feel relieved and that this is even better because the other one was see through and this one is bright white.

I was in a marsh kind of area. There was a girl who was making surf boards out of stretch insects and sea creatures. I took one of her surf boards and she became angry. I spent some time fiddling with the board, basically it looked like a large spikes caterpillar that you had pry open. The girls anger towards me seem to increase but I was confused as to why she didn't like me so I finally chased her down and talked it out with her( I don't remember any of the dialogue).

Then I was in California watching from a distance people surfing. There was some discussion about which is the best kind of surfboard and mine was not one of them. The tourists jumped over the barrier and kind of got in the way of the surfers. Then some of them headed down the cliff which was past the ocean they were at. Then in an instructional film style( like ones you see at a resort) it explained why the surfers were up in that water. It started where the surfers were then panned out to show that they were on a body of water on a huge cliff. Then it panned out to show the coral reefs by the cliff and where a huge long drop to bottom of the ocean began. Then it went back to the tourist making there way down the cliff. They jumped from one platform to another. They made it to the bottom and were at the waters edge. One of the tour guides was bragging and then she slipped of the cliff and fell in the water. She jumped back up but was embarrassed. The tourist were angry they couldn't physically see the drop. Then I piped in and explained that it was because of the perspective. Giant waves started to form and the tourist were scared they would get hurt. They asked the male your guide and he said "I sure hope not"this made them pretty mad.

Morning of January 11, 2014. Saturday.



Throughout my life since earliest childhood, it has been typical for me to have an average of at least one fairly vivid fire dream per week (but usually environmental or on the outside of my body, not internal) - not quite as often as water dreams (but both of which seem to greatly enhance vividness, even lucidity). Recently, they have increased dramatically (the last one being of walking up a burning staircase similar to the scene from “The Changeling”). There are a few different types of fire dreams, including some of very realistic fire and some of a more bluish “cool” fire-like form mixed in with the normal orange flames that has a more positive presence.

In this last otherwise uneventful dream, I am living in Cubitis yet again (with my wife and family). The neighbor’s house to the south has recently been vacated. The very fact that the house is now without occupants causes a fire to start mysteriously (without needing a person to be involved in any way), yet “automatically” as if there is some sort of rule or likelihood that a house must spontaneously catch on fire as soon as there are no people living in it for a few days or so (not sure of the time required). (During a time in La Crosse years ago, vacant boathouses were being burned deliberately, both apparently officially as well as illegally.)

I am looking out the window and watch mostly their carport and part of the front of the house burning for several minutes (after only sensing it will start up with no signs of fire to that particular point), making no attempt to call the fire department for some reason, almost as if it is meant to be, like some sort of natural, expected, and common event. There is only a vague sense of concern that our house might also catch on fire (as the flames become quite large and almost a bit horizontal at some points - the houses are fairly close together as well), but it does not dominate my dream at any point. There is still a vague idea that they have not completely moved out yet and may return to attempt to pick up one or two more things, as I think I see a cooler and a bit of fishing gear on the northern side of their carport, but it looks like it will just all burn up, at least on the inside (being a concrete block home with knotty pine and plain wood panels in only some of the rooms).