lucid

This is a very long dream that part of was influenced by a dog I had found, eating out of a dumpster.

I'm in an apartment which was kinda dim. It was lit by a TV and a bathroom that was down a hallway. I'm with some kids and they also have dogs there. Two of them looks like Cuddles (my sister's Poodle dog) one was black and the other was the tiny dog I found near a dumpster, he even had the colorful scarf collar on. They were running about in the room and a kid grabbed one and was playing with him. I went to the bathroom in the back. It was small and well lit with the type of lights that have a soft yellow color to them. I was looking in the mirror and as I did that, the place slowly started expanding and getting bigger.I get semi lucid and in there was one of my toys I don't know if I had brought it was me or it was already there. It was sitting on the edge of the sink, looking down at me and its arms were outstretched towards me. I decided to play around with it, by seeing if it followed where I went since I was aware of this being a dream.

I looked at its feet and moved to the side of it, it didn't move but when I looked away and then back at it he was facing me. I went back over to where I came in at and again, it didn't move until I looked away and back at it. A strange smell came about that has nothing to do with the bathroom but it made me have a slight urge of needing to get out of there. I can now see the robot's tiny, yellow eyes looking at me and I realized who it was. The Mega Voyager. I left that place and ended up some place else.

Now I'm in a strange looking livingroom that has what looked like Christmas light around and on the walls. Amongst me were Characterized Dino's who were talking to each other and a white man who looked to be a teenager with tan colored hair. Things here were fuzzy and hard to see and remember so I'll move on to the next part.

The Dino's who I was with was still around but they were now giant's and they were looking down at me. They said so kind things to me and were my allies. The Dino's looked cool. One was pink with a purple/ dark under coat, she wore a princess crown and she was standing next to a Chubby green dino with a blue under coat, the other two Dinos I seen were unknown. They appeared to be in a different world then me because I can see the counter they were behind and was the reason why I couldn't see their whole body. They gave me a Necklace and once I got it I became more Lucid and began to think what zord should I summon. There was a door behind me and I went through it and ended up outside.

I seen some kids outside running around some buildings and behind them I think were friendly Dinos. I recognized one of the kids and gave the necklace to him, The I realized that maybe she wanted me to keep that and would not be very happy about me giving it to some kid I seen earlier in the dream. Speaking of that I think at some point and time I had told one of the dinos that this was a dream, which is why they gave the necklace to me in the first place. The boy smiled then ran off around a corner with it and lost him.

I went into another building and I'm now in a well lit room that had tons of Megazord toys on the table. I smile at this. I look at them and they began to move around. I continued to watch until a huge turquoise and yellow detailed one showed up, attempting not to be seen I ducked under the table and in that process snagged the table clothe and accidentally pulled it and knocked some of the robots on to the floor. Some kind of music played sounds like a game over in Super ghouls and ghosts. They all turned towards me and I lay down on something. They began to crawl up onto my face and lay down on top of it, pressing their hard bodies against me,another one covered the other part of my face then I seen another one come behind the one that was already on me. It looked like it was the Drive Max Megazord with eyes they looked like they were glowing from the light going through the back of his head, which was red, giving them a dim red glow. I felt something pressing against my very lower back almost my ass and it hurt. I heard myself scream out and I pushed myself down and moved what ever it was hurting me behind me. Once I had enough of them crushing me I pushed them off of me with ease and went back outside.

The teenager I seen earlier was there and he spotted me. I looked at me angrily and said something mean like You have these powers, yet you don't use them. He was taking advantage of me being young with power but unaware on how to use it. I shook my head at him and shows me something that I have given him when he was looking up to me and throws it. It hits some kind of jade colored, beady ornament that broke and some of the beads fell on to the floor, along with a necklace. The teen runs of and I see that the item was Auric's Key on the necklace! I grabbed it and immediately is ready to call upon Auric So that I can have a once per dream wish.

I run outside with it, held it up and starts to call upon Auric. At first nothing happens. I Yelled his name demandingly, holding the key higher up. Suddenly I see someone swoop down from the sky, thinking it was Auric I readied myself to receive his granting but once he landed I can clearly see that it was Ninjor! He was all blue with the red head color he has and his body was the correct shape. This is not what I wanted. I ran back towards the building I came out of earlier and as I did that, two Samari warriors one red and one blue ran over to Ninjor, blocking him off and questioning him about his presence here.

I decided to try to find those Megazords that was on my face earlier and went back into the building. When I went back inside I needed to remember which room the toys were in and then realized that the scene was changing. NO! I turned around only to find myself in an office building. I opened a door that was there and inside were people playing on pinball machines when you hit the ball to score as many points as possible. Shit. The feeling here was different and there was also an office smell. lol

Semi lucid starts and I'm shouting "you're dreaming" in a city environment but I never gain complete control of the dream. Instead, it's some sort of cartoonish pink white and red animation of a dream.

Dream where there's a female version of pennywise that I see down the street but as I'm lying in bed she is on top of me.

Lucid where I notice I'm dreaming after looking at this huge snowy mountain expanse and decide to create my own rollercoasters that I ride for about 30 seconds before getting off. I'm in the station where you get on and look in the mirror. I can't make out any words or features in it. I tell the people around me that I'm dreaming and I yell at someone to tell me a joke but they laugh and shove me.

I'm on a yellow school bus heading down a road through dense woodlands. I stick my head out the window as we're coming to an intersection, and read the green street sign. It reads something similar to 'Frankilin'. I have the thought that it would look different if I was in a dream.My awareness begins to raise as I begin floating out through the window, and I finally realize I'm dreaming. The vividness of the scene comes full force as I take in the natural environment. The environment is very peaceful and I feel a sense of freedom. Dense woodland is spread out in all directions, with narrow roads continuing in three directions. The trees have sparse yellow, orange, and red leaves as though the end of fall is approaching. My access to memory is great and I quickly realize my couple day period without lucids is ending. i begin flying down the road taking in more scenery, appreciating the vividness, and enjoying the great flying control. I begin to think about the goal I set before bed and remember right away. I begin asking the awareness behind the dream "what is my gift" as I continue to fly down one of the roads. The road begins to bend back and forth down the woodland road as I fly and ask the dream, awaiting an answer. After flying down the road for a short while, and looking into the distant woods, I see a car approaching from far away with head lights turned on. I'm appreciating the length and continue rubbing my hands. I wonder what would happen to stability if I darted eyes around as I've tried in previous dreams. As soon as I try, the dream become very unstable, and I'm on the verge of waking. I consider doing a LDEILD as I heard from a podcast. I continue to tell myself I'm in a lucid dream as I stabilize my vision and allow myself to wake. I'm unable to return to a dream at the time.

I'm on the top level a stone structure with several levels. I'm trying to figure out a way down as I'm standing in the arched entryway at the top. I begin floating down, and it hits me: I'm inside of a dream The structure has many levels, progressing downward with out-cropped terraces. The entire thing is built out of sand colored stone, and many people are sitting on these ledges. I continue to descend in a spread eagle to the ground level of the structure, and continue looking around, taking in the environment. I reach to the very bottom, but stop my dream body before I hit the ground. I decide to levitate myself back up while getting everyone's attention by calling out. I'm interested in their reaction to my realization of the dream, and my ability to control it. I start letting myself fall again and fake a scream as though I'm actually falling uncontrolled, ready to catch myself. I notice immediately that this stimulated my physical body's vocal cords, and that it's waking me a bit. I hang in the air for a second or two before I wake up.

I'd led my friends into an abandoned house to hide from the group of rebels. They've found us now, five rebels armed to the teeth against six or seven unarmed civilians.

Well.

And me.

"What's this?" The leader sneers. "Snivelling collaborators, hiding with the trash?" He smiles, and it's an awful little thing. "Get up and fight us!"

"You still outnumber us, after all," says one of the rebel women, a smile in her voice.

That won't do.

The group of civilians are removed with a mental gesture, hustled through the aether. It takes me a moment to think of a place to set them down, where there won't already be a crowd. I settle on the dirt pile next to the Ixburg house.

I blink, coming back to the now-emptier abandoned house. The silence has been drawn like a bow string, the rebels staring at me.

"Seems fairer now," I explain.

The leader swears.

"You don't understand," he says, anger colouring his voice. "When our enemies came in and overthrew the last regime, they turned my country into HELL. They needed diamonds to fulfil the promises they made to their allies; they worked the citizenry like dogs. This is our chance to set things right."

"Of course," I say mildly. "By marching into people's homes and murdering families in cold blood. Setting things right. Definitely not starting on the same track your enemies did."

Face red, the man shouts a war cry and charges at me.

It's about 9 in the morning, been up since about 5. On the bed, I'm drifting in and out of consciousness, wanting to sleep. I have some awareness of the process and start experiencing hh, notably palpitations, which I allow to be, as I know my heart isn't really beating like that. I keep my awareness relaxed and distant and notice the images floating around behind my eyelids. A table comes into view and then it becomes more and more solid. I'm touching the table and then I realise I'm there in a room. The house is similar to the one I'm really in but also different. I look at my hands and try to stabilise but I feel very floaty and wispy. I notice some furniture -- a mantelpiece with some ornaments on it. I decide I'll conjure up a girl (I really should work on my self control). I float around the house quite excitedly and expect a woman to be behind a door. I enter to find a bedroom. It's very messy. There's nobody inside but there's a bed with a mess of duvets on it so I think she'll be in the bed. However, I don't feel stable enough so I decide to open my real eyes and the dream ends.

Non-lucid, Lucid, [Commentary written while awake]

I'm in the office building complex north of Disneyland. I'm there to be cast in a show or parade there. [I don't specifically remember becoming lucid, but I do remember being lucid.] I'm floating around up by the ceiling, which is a high ceiling, when the casting director walks into the room below me. When I see her enter, I float down so I can talk to her. "Hi," I say while descending. She says I've been cast in [whatever show or parade it was], and to go and change into my costume for the show. I head out of the building to do so.

Outside the building, I stand on a stretch of grass that ends at the top of a concrete block wall, about twelve feet high, at the bottom of which is a sidewalk. I need to get down onto the sidewalk to get back to my car. I know I can do a controlled fall, so I do. I jump off the top of the wall, control my descent speed, and land easily on the sidewalk.

When I get back to my car, I realize I don't have any underclothes with me, and I can't be in the performance without any. I realize I'll have to go to a Walmart or Target and buy new ones, but I don't even know where there is one around here. I decide to set off and go looking for one.

I'm at a freeway onramp, on my bicycle, still on my way to find the nearest Target or Walmart. [Why am I on my bicycle and not in my car? I dunno.] The onramp runs next to a high, tan-colored wall. On this wall, about a quarter to a third of the way down the ramp, there is a traffic sign that reads "NO BICYCLES ON FREEWAY." I start bicycling down the ramp, but when I get to the sign, I read it, sigh, and say, "All right, fine. This is me, not riding my bicycle on the freeway." I get off my bike, turn around, walk it back up the onramp, and start looking for another route that doesn't involve taking the freeway.

I haven't had a dream set in this location before. Typically my dreams are in more familiar locations or completely fantastical.

It was a three story brick building, like an old New York Firehouse, with fire escapes on the outside. It was a school setting, and each student only had three classes per day. I remember sitting through one of the classes, and the desks were crammed very close to each other. I was doodling on a pad as I half listened to the professor and the other students. I knew that I wasn't a student there and didn't belong, but the others accepted me. Suddenly, I had a bad feeling. I left the room and ran up to the top story. There was a fire that began, but it wasn't a normal fire. It was sentient. As I walked through the smoke and flames, that's when I gained lucidity and realized it was a dream. I put up a forcefield to keep the sentient fire back, and began barking orders at students to get out of the building and back up, because it was going to explode (even though I realize it's a dream, I still like to play it out). Some students didn't listen and I had to go back up and get them down. A couple students had their face melted off by the fire, the faces literally melted like rubber or putty to the ground. About at the point, I woke up to my alarm.

+ hunt, chasing two animals, one a (rabbit?) with severed ears pumping blood; the member of the tribe who (harvested?) glass on the prairies, I see some glass crystals and point them out

+ [long!] follow car down hill, read its license plate, young tall blonde woman gets out near a gate, we must speak carefully because "they" are listening, I ask what's going on, she was driving to a conference and was captured and put to work. We're at a gate and there is some automated robotics that manipulate the controls to open the gate.

Inside down in a bunker a guy who's been there for a while is taking me to my workstation, he's bringing a big box and he's putting it under my desk next to my tower PC. I don't want it there because it will interfere with my feet when sitting under the desk. He's telling me how I need to physically turn off this box when I leave or else it will begin gathering information about me and feed it to "them".

I'm standing in a room with glass windows out to the outside, a rolling hillside. We're drinking beer? There is a distinct thin layer of fog at a particular elevation on the hill just outside the window and I point this out to the people there and watch it for a while.

In an outdoor garden with people, one guy we're with starts behaving really weird and foaming at the mouth and out of his hands. I say "what's going on with him?" Another guy says "he's (summoning? transforming into?) the (cucumber beast?)" The beast materializes on top of the fence running around this yard. This thing just needs to touch somebody, and that person immediately starts to disintegrate. I'm freaked out by that thing and I jump up in the air and levitate around watching the ground and calling out "is it gone yet?"

In CH walking in between dining room and living room, I know I'm still in captivity. I'm talking with my (cousin?) I'm back in the dining room and someone mentions the captivity and that it will be long and I freak out and start hopping back and forth from foot to foot and practically scream out, "I'LL BE OUT..." (OF HERE IN A MONTH I want to say) but I"m interrupted by someone loudly shouting "SHHHHHH!!!!!!" so that I don't speak so that the captives hear my plans.

wake
BTS

+ casino: I'm in a casino trying to get set up to play blackjack. It's pretty dark. I have a vague friend with me. There's a counter we're standing at at the end of a long room where they're setting up tables. My friend wants to watch the game on TV and is complaining that there's no TV in this room. He's being stupid I think because we've managed great conditions: only us two will be playing at this table. I tell him, "This is IDEAL for us!" hoping he gets the point but he is still unhappy and I repeat "This is IDEAL for us!". I see them setting up a table in front of us, small and straight/rectangular, and a bit below our level, not the usual kidney shaped BJ table.

Now I have a close up of the table in front of me pratically with my face in it and the dealer is standing to my right and haded me a dual pack of cards and I'm shuffling them, they don't perfectly shuffle together and I need to push them together with my hands. Then I'm handling my money. I'm handed two wrapped stacks of bills. I plan to play $5-$20 so I try to pull out about $100 in $20 bills but the bills sort of spread over the table. I ask for $5 chips. I get chips and I look at them and they are marked oddly, some of them are "$35" chips, and some of them are hand-written with wording and $35 written on them. I'm suspicious of them and ask about them.

Outside the casino there is a sign from the head of the casino about which games can be played by (card counters?), and which games they'll be killed if they try to play, I can't make much sense out of the sign.

+ intersection: I'm driving in traffic approaching an traffic signal. There is a building on the left that in an "L" shape. The traffic is think and I hope to make the light. As I get to the intersection the light turns red again and I see police waiting by the building to the left so I stop and wait. When I can go again I drive forwards and now I'm on a scooter and bank to the left and up against the short edge of the "L" part of the building around the corner so the police can't see me, I think this is probably not a legal parking place but I fit in here so easily that it should not be a problem. I see my wife out in the road and she walks a loop and comes to me.

+ LD#187. ...I'm out on the deck of my childhood home [major DREAM SIGN], it's dark/twilight, I come back in to the dining room through the sliding glass door and get the feeling/idea that I could enter the dream state by force of will, which I don't completely believe. I get a smile on my face and turn and run back out to the deck for in order to take of flying, now lucid. I stop at the railing and things are unstable. I'm flailing a bit for solidity and decide to put my face up close to the top of the railing and stare at it. I do this and it instantly comes into very bright, vivid, stable focus. "Whhoaaaa" I say as I look at the grain of the wood, and the "specks" of colored (sand) that are sprinkled around it. I remember my LD goal of looking down from the deck into the back yard, and I look over the railing. The yard is there at proper distance below me, but the ground looks "pixelated" with a frequent repeated computer-looking pattern/texture. I walk to the left towards the corner with my head still looking down to the garden. I think about standing up straight but I decide to keep my eyes on the garden below as I continue to the left. I see the wide brick stairs come into view. On each side of the steps are ceramic pots with plants growing in them. I notice how the perspective changes properly as I walk. The yard is super vivid. Then I reach the corner and look to see the lemon tree, and there it is right in front of me, bright green leafs and yellow lemons all over it. It is too close to the railing, I could almost touch it I think. Then suddenly, without looking away, it's seemingly gone, but I realize it has returned to its closer to waking position.

Content that I've done this goal I start walking without a plan back to the sliding glass door, and the idea strikes me to summon my college GF. I'm at the corner facing the house and I reach my right hand around the corner and don't look to my left and try to feel for DB taking my hand. I pull my hand back to me and look, at first I don't see anything but keep imagining that I see her and a girl appears in front of me. She's cute but doesn't look anything like DB. I will her to look like DB and try to bring up DB's face in my memory to install on the DC, but it doesn't work. I give up and decide this is DB. I step up to her and give her a nice solid kiss on the lips. As I pull back I notice that my father is to my right on the deck, a 40yo-50yo version of him. He's sort of dancing around in a silly way and leaning back and looking at us and he says "Heeewww! Heeeeewww!", I ignore him and turn my attention back to DB.

Spoiler for slightly sexy time:

I have DB up against the railing and I ask her "why didn't we have sex?" [when we were going out]? She responds something like "I made sure that we didn't." I say "well, why don't we have sex now, this is a dream!" and I unzip her top. I'm trying to get her legs open and bring out my (ahem) but she keeps crossing them

... and I wake up.

Dream one- I can't get my kids to sleep tonight, and I'm getting really frustrated and tired. the medicine I am on for my chest pain makes me feel like I'm going to fall asleep standing up, and they just won't sleep. My son asks for water, he's drank the first round I gave him already and just can't sleep without more water. I grudgingly get up and walk into the kitchen to refill his water bottle. My mom is standing in the kitchen with my former step brother, getting water from the fridge as I came in to do. I set the bottle down, really agitated that she's over so late and unannounced when I am already struggling to get the kids to bed as it is. "What the hell are you doing here?" I grumble. She replies, "I was in the neighborhood, and Dylan was thirsty, so I let myself in to get him a drink. I didn't think you'd mind!" I start to bring my hands up to my head in an expression of frustration and anger, then stop. My hands look weird, and she doesn't have a key to my house. I realize it's a dream, and try counting my fingers. I have five on the right hand, but seven on the left, and one of those seven is huge and misshapen. I shake my head, relieved, and tell her, "Never mind, this is just a dream. You can do what ever the fuck you want, I'm out of here." then I run through the kitchen and into the living room where I jump through the window. The window never seems to change, but I am able to pass right through it as if it doesn't exist. Part of me is still really unsure though. I know this is a dream, logically it can't be real, but my god it feels so real. usually my lucids still have a sort of muted dreamy quality to them. There may be one or two senses that I am focusing on, but all my others are normally quiet. Not this time, this time I smell the dirt and the grass, I see everything as real as life, I can feel the breeze and hear distant stormy noises, I can even feel my full weight of my feet on the ground below me. I think I'm going to try to force the unreal feeling by flying, but I can't get my feet to stay off the ground because I am struggling so much with how real it all feels. I notice the neighbors across the street have a trampoline in their front yard, and decide to try using that to launch myself into the air to fly. I run over and climb on, just to be completely blown away again by how much I can FEEL in the dream. I'm not just feeling the trampoline under my feet, I can feel the weave of the cloth moving below my feet, my hair moving around my face as I jump, and even the whole electric fear falling feeling in my arms and chest b/c I hate free falls. I try jumping higher and higher, noticing there's a trampoline in their back yard as well. I think maybe I can jump from one to the other and then take off in flight from the second trampoline since I can't get myself in the air on the first one. I jump to the second trampoline, and still can't get skyward. I decide to jump off the trampoline, the ground impact not hurting will surely break the whole "this is too real to be a dream" feeling, I land on the ground, feet first, with the impact throwing me slightly off balance so I end up on my hands and feet rather awkwardly and painfully. That totally didn't work as planned. I realize I have wasted a lot of dream time trying to force control of the dream, and I want to use my lucids to search for Kurasawa as much as possible, so I give up on control. I look for someone to ask about him, to find a direction to go. The neighbor has come out of her house, she's a middle aged black lady in the dream but I have never actually seen these neighbors in the whole year I have lived here. I walk towards her, and she stops as if a bit confused as to who I am and why I am in her yard jumping on her trampolines. I try to create a picture of Kurasawa to show her, but as hard as I try the square "picture" I am trying to draw into existence won't show up. I remind myself that I don't need to be able to see it, I just have to convince my brain that SHE can see it, and hold the air as if I am holding the picture. This works, and the lady stops, clearly in recognition, then takes an involuntary step backwards. "Hey, I'm sorry to bother you, but I am looking for someone. Have you seen this guy? and can you tell me what direction I can find him in?" She shakes her head, and takes a couple of steps back as I take a couple of steps towards her. She ducks under her clothes line, and starts retreating to her back porch. I follow her, imploring her, "I know you've seen him. I can tell you recognize the picture. Please tell me where I can find him!" She continues to shake her head, climbs the steps of her porch, then turns back to me. She takes a deep breath, then points behind her house, deeper into the neighborhood and up a hill (In the real neighborhood, the hill goes down not up like in the dream). I can't remember her exact words now, but they were something like, "He's up there, where she keeps all the ones she uses to control people. I can't help you." I start to ask her who "she" is, but the lady hurries inside her house as if she's afraid to be outside any longer. I walk up onto the porch as if to follow her, wondering on my way up the steps who "she" might be. Is "She" one of the goddesses I have dreamed about in the last year? Could she be the goddess Bridge that I have found myself calling my patron in dreams? Is she my own sub conscience? Why is she holding onto him? Is she trying to control me with him? On the porch I look out over the neighborhood and up the hill in the direction the lady had pointed. I can see lots of houses of the neighborhood, even some of the modular homes in the subdivision they built adjacent to ours. I notice the corner of a house tucked in behind those modular homes, and it just sticks out to me as important. It just FEELS like Kurasawa is there. I zoom my vision in on the corner, and it's as if I am not only looking through binoculars, but also pushing the houses between me and it aside to see the full house in better detail. At that moment, the overcast sky comes to life in a stormy rage. Thunder growls, lightning crackles, and the wind whips all around me as the sky gets darker and darker until all I see is black. Thunder claps, and instead of lightening lighting up the area, my vision flashes with clips of newspaper too fast for me to read. I realize that I am losing control, possibly even the whole dream it's self. I can actually remember in the dream that there were thunder storms called for, and I am sure this is the storm arriving in the waking reality and bleeding over into the dream reality. I try to cover my ears to block it out, too panicked to realize that dream hands can't block out waking life sounds. I fall, spinning, through the blackness and wake up.

Dream Two- I am on some sort of beach trip with many of the coworkers I interact with the most. The whole dream is very confusing because it jumps back and forth in time. One of the girls I work with has a new white car that is super fancy and all kinds of expensive. She is very proud and protective of it. We've got a really rickety house that we've all rented with many rooms. Every family has their own room. My boyfriend and kids are playing video games, but I want to explore the area. I go outside and find a forest oddly nearby. The forest looks almost dead and abandoned, but as I walk through it I hear my boss telling us about it as we unpack in the shack (like a memory I guess) and then I watch as he talks about the legend of faeries and elves bringing the forest to life, the forest in fact does come to life. I can even see the little fairies flitting around making it glow and grow. I twirl and dance through the forest like a cheesy movie scene just enjoying the magic of it. Then I am walking into a little beach shop with my kids, boyfriend, and boss. I need to pee, so I find the bathroom. As I am pulling up my drawers a lady and her handicapped daughter literally break the lock on the door to get in. Realizing the girl's disability though, I try to be as understanding as possible and just jerk my pants apologizing that I must be taking too long. The lady grunts to me that they just couldn't wait anymore because her daughter is special, then starts to use the restroom right in front of me. I stumble around looking for a sink to wash my hands, and when I can't find one the woman calls me an idiot for not realizing there just isn't one and getting out of her way. The daughter is grimmacing at her mom's rude behavior though, and keeps giving me apologetic looks. I bow to the daughter slightly and tell her I am sorry to have caused her any trouble, and that I think she is far more special in a far better way than her mother could ever understand. She seems to get that I am telling her that she is a way sweeter, better mannered person than her mother, and nods. I am grateful that she gets I am bad with words, but think highly of her for putting up with such a mother. I scramble out of the bathroom and my exhusband is in the shop. He starts fussing and yelling at me for who even knows what, I can't remember. My boss comes over and tries to get in the middle to defend me and my character, and I feel awful about it. I run outside and hop in my coworker's brand new fancy smancy car. My exhusband follows me, climbs in the car, and starts berating me again, this time getting so angry he's flinging his arms and fists animatedly around the car hitting the windows and dash and seats (he's not a violent person, so in the dream it didn't seem dangerous even though it sounds like it was lol) I show him out of the car as hard as I can, and tell him to get lost. He storms off after slamming the door, and I realize the car is in shambles around me. He's busted the seats open and dented both interior and exterior. I start crying again as my coworker comes out freaking out over her car. She cries too. At some point we start laughing about how funny it is to see the car looking so bad if you aren't attached to the situation. Then, I wake up.

1. I'm in the road behind an apartment complex entering into the parking area. I spot my car, but something feels strange. I have the thought that my car is a dream sign, and I continue to consider my surroundings a bit strange. As I approach, I naturally do a nose plug, breath and I'm lucid. I transition right to my car and am driving down the road in the parking area behind the building. I head around the side and look up toward a massive tree to my right, and well as the corner of the outisde of a building to the left. I decide to fly through the windshield and get an aerial view of the entire area. I easily ascend through, and up above the large tree to my right. I look down at the roof of the large apartment building as I consider what to do next with my dream. Dream goals don't come to me at this point, but I decide to anchor myself through senses, and focus on expanding/concentrating on my vision. I continue to fly over and above the roof.

I soon enter a void and resolve to hold my awarness until the next dream, and not lose focus. I hold for a while and...

2.I begin to notice two brick pillars on either side of me begin to form. They have a very slight red coloring to them, and I'm standing on a cream colored concrete walkway. The scene is becoming slightly more vivid, and as I look down the walkway, I notice a co-worker make her way around the walkway with a few of her students. I decide to follow and begin a conversation out of interest. I turn the corner but don't see them. I consider flying at this point, but decide I'll stay on the ground and focus on stability while I explore. I look down the concrete walkway, and see that it enters a fairly large building by passing into it, almost like a small tunnel.I walk down while constantly moving my vision around, trying a technique from a podcast I heard the previous day. This help stabilize a bit, and things become more vivid. I walk into the building and look left and right. The corridor extends pretty far in each direction, and rooms connect to either side; it looks almost like a huge storage area mixed with an office. I think about how long the LD is lasting, and am pretty happy with it. I then realize 'wow, anything can come around those corners right now' and am fascinated by this. Begin feeling as though I have sensations from my physical body and wake up.

bedtime: about 1am
long time to sleep at bed time

+ (impression) Something Lord of the Rings related, no concrete memories

+(mostly non-visual) in a gas station fueling a car, there is a guy there saying how this car can take either unleaded or leaded. Leaded, as long as (some other condition). I get him to repeat this because I'm pretty amazed at this flexibility

+ we leave a (church?) and the woman church official leaves the door ajar. My wife and I go back in. I try to place the door and the latch at the least suspicious angle. I'm trying to walk without being seen, so I'm keeping some perceived followers on the other side of obstacles as I move through the interiors. Then in the large open area, there are lots and lots of people sitting at desks/tables. People are there to get church approval for their plans. At one table nearby, a guy is introducing himself and telling the officials "this is a great book, you really should look into it." My wife is at a table, trying to get approval for our plans.

I'm in a room with a rope hanging from the ceiling. My task (to get final approval?) is to hang from the rope with my hands with my feet not touching the floor for 30 seconds. There is an analog clock on the wall and I try to do this and watch the second hand on the clock but I feel my feet are touching the floor and figure this will disqualify me. There is an athletic guy on my left with his rope and he successfully keeps his feet off of the floor the the full 30 seconds.

Then I realize: I do not have to use the strength of my arms, I could fashion a seat by tying knots in the rope and just sit in the loop for the 30 seconds. The rest of the time is me trying to tie knots in the rope but the rope has become huge cable and chains that are long and hopelessly tangled.

Outside with a (vehicle?) and some women workers, they are hooking up my (car?) to the supply lines. The supply lines seem to be electronic ribbon tables wound up into really huge spools, I see the computer-connector-looking ends as the women unroll them and attach them to my vehicle.

Wake, fairly long BTS
around 8am.
slow BTS, WILD attempt
final waking around 10:30?

+ LD#186 park maintenance room.
... I'm at the middle level of TV park (CH neighborhood), it is nighttime and I imagine that I could lash a small flying shield to my feet and fly around on it. I zoom down to the lowest level (BB courts) and I think that I can imagine things like laser guns and shoot things with them, which I do, up against the tennis practice wall, as I continue flying. There are obstacles outlined in bright red laser light on the edges, and I swoop around them avoiding them, having a great time flying. I think I could shoot some baskets like this but basketball doesn't really appeal to me. I fly up to around a tall streetlight up at the top of the back fence by the steep exit road down to the street below from the back corner, I think there are some people coming to this level and I want to avoid them [DREAM SIGN] (?). I look down at the gate and notice that it is made from two large solid metal doors. People wouldn't want to go down there because they could be ambushed.

I go down past the doors on the steep short curving road to the street below and notice a depression in the ground to the right, sort of a place you could climb down inside and be not seen, I think this could be a place also to be attacked without warning. I climb down inside this area and I notice that there is a very dark "cave" extending a bit to the back. There is a house immediately next to me with a murky window and I think I detect some movement inside which at first I'm concerned about then I ignore it. I look back again at the "cave" which intrigues me and use my smart phone as a weak flashlight and it reveals that there is a door to a small utility room there. I think this is the utility area for the park. I decide to go in and see that it goes back farther than I'd realized. About 20 feet from me in the low light I see a box sitting on something and it grabs my attention when I think I detect it moving a little.

I reach up my right hand and will the box to fly to me using TK. I feel a bit silly doing this because it won't work, but then I get an impression that the box flies towards me.
At this point I'm lucid and I walk further into the utility area. As I do so I see that the area opens up to a very large open light area like a gymnastics floor. I do a quick nose pinch with a quick short inhale and am not surprised that I can breathe. There are some girls sitting around there and this gets my attention. I'm wondering what to do but caveman takes over.

Spoiler for brief sexy time:

I'm feeling pretty horny so I take out my (ahem) from my pants and look down briefly at it. I look up again and see the girls are still sitting around. I pick the one closest to me and go up and position myself for some "attention"

and then I wake up.

I find myself in a dark room of what feels to be the 2nd story of a building. I walk toward a door, but something feels very strange. This feeling stays with me for a few seconds, and I begin to recognize 'the dream feel'. I put my right hand out in front of me, and it hits me: I'm dreaming. I walk into the next room and turn right to see a second story railing overlooking the first, in what appears to be my childhood home. The area is very dark, and the vividness is a bit weak at this point. I ramp up my awareness at this point, and the clarity/stability becomes a bit stronger. I look down and notice the front door as well as the large window above. Instead of heading down through the wall as I've done in other dreams, I decide to go down into the first floor, walk around, and stabilize for a bit.I make my way forward, yet the visuals quickly collapse into black. I tell myself to hold focus and to wait for images to start up. I hold in this area for a bit, then clasp my hands and begin imagining energy moving between them while making a waving motion in order to replicate friction and stay anchored. I hold for a while as images begin to appear into my awareness, as though the next dream is ready to load. I see a snowy town with lined up houses and a few cars parked outside. It reminds me of my uncle's neighborhood in the winter time. Shortly after, I wake up rapidly.

I take my hand off of the silver car as the engine starts up, and turn away from the car as well as my brother. I begin to fly upward in the direction of a large pine tree. As I ascend and head toward the brancehs, my awareness begins to raise. I finally land high up on the branches, and turn back down to look at where I had flown from. Something feels a bit strange...surreal. I do a quick glance at my hand, but it's not very necessary; it hits me: I'm dreaming! I repeat to myself with the realization: "I'm in a lucid". I look at the pine branches and notice how vivid and blue they are. I glance up at the sky as well and take in the blue hue. I look downward and get a glimpse of the house I had flown from. The visuals quickly collapse, yet I hold awareness, and become determine to hold my awareness all the way through. I tell myself "Eric stay in this" then tell the dream "last an hour...last an hour". I continue to hold awareness in this void state, and remind myself mentally that it's just a 'loading area for another dream'. I rub my hands constantly to anchor. After some time I begin to imagine myself paddling a surfboard, and a wave finally reaching me and catching me. The feeling is interesting, but visuals don't kick in. I then decide to pretend I'm riding a skateboard. Again, no visuals. I suddenly realize I'm in a white tunnel/massive empty area and see a dark figure of a person begin to appear a distance away. I lose lucidity as the dream forms, and see myself walking toward my point of awareness with athletic clothing, and a slight limp as if I had hurt my left side. A tunnel area is fully formed at this point. The dream quickly jumps to an interesting fragment in which I'm explaining the lucid dream I just had to a middle aged man. He's wondering if it's a shared dream I experienced, and I explain how real it felt.

Not a lot of physical details to this dream. I went into it with the idea of all those subliminal messages and affirmations one can listen to when they sleep. I'm having a nap and I put my headphones on with a playlist from youtube of swlf affirmations on. This stuff usually bleeds through inyo my sleeping mind so I was preparec when it dis and grasped onto the affirmation with a lucid effort to take it a step farther. It was like an inward journey with me taking the affirmation and directing it intentionally into my sub conscience. Of course I don't know how to do that but that's the magic of dreams. You don't have to know how it's going to work as long as you believe it will. I focused as hard as I could on the affirmations, not the dream. It was like sleeping but being completely awake and meditating on a particular thought. I imagined feeling a bit dizzy from the effort of trying to reprogram my head.
I've just read that buhdist monks and eastern Hinduism used licid dreaming as a tool for spiritual cominion and growth. Now Im wven morr interested in what I can do with these dreams.
No time for edits so hope this is legible