lucid

I find myself aware that I'm in a dream as I'm standing in a dark hallway with rows of doors are lined up on either side. It is the dead of night, and I get the impression that I am in a house. My hands come out in front of me, and I know I need to stabilize as things feel a bit unstable. I keep getting the impression that I'm beginning to feel my physical body and then I'm going to wake. I find myself in a FA for a period of time in which I am trying to re-enter the last dream lucidly (I didn't realize it was a FA until several minutes upon waking for the day). My arm is around S as I begin on focusing and incubating a dream scene and entering lucidly. I close my eyes and notice hypnagogic imagery develop into the dream scene. I am looking consciously aware as I begin entering into a scene with a tall red Japanese shrine. The shrine is situated on a small island floating high in the sky with grass scattered across the ground on the bottom of the floating mini island. Behind the floating shrine sits a massive brown cliff with jagged edges. The cliff rises to the left, far above the shrine. My awareness begins merging with a dream body that I imagine, and I continue to recreate the feeling of the body moving through the entryway to the scene with waving motions of my limbs. I begin this transition into the sky and suddenly wake.

I find myself standing next to my bed facing the wall lucidly aware. My arms come in front of my face, and I say outloud "I'm lucid" with excitement. I am facing a wall at this point, and the room is very dark. My arms have an ethereal transparency to them.I gaze to the right a bit a notice a large doorwary with a thin white frame. The door leads into a square room beyond. The dream feels a bit unstable, and my awareness still needs to be increased. In an effort to stabilize, I decide to try entering a new dream scene. I kneel down, take my right arm and imagine myself carving a cirucular portal into the ground. I trace the circle with my arm and visualize a blue border. The dream becomes fuzzy and I wake shortly after.

I was in this big skyscraper out in the middle of nowhere. It looked like a big business with a whole lot of windows. I was working there doing I don't know what. I came upon this crazy man. He literally looked insane & was acting insane. He was pulling at some wires & I he said something to me but I can't remember his exact words. At this point I realize what is going on. He is trying to shut down the building by cutting off the electricity & in turn he cuts off the air which will also kill him but, he didn't seem to care. I became lucid at this point & actually wake up. I closed my eyes again & go back into the dream & now I'm lucidly back into the same dream. The dream is so vast that I didn't even think about doing a task. It had that apocalyptic feel to it. I realized that if the electricity went off & the air went off it would actually kill everyone on the planet because this was some main terminal for a lack of a better word. So I run down the halls & up the stairs because I don't want to be trapped in an elevator. I find the 2 people in charge & the man doesn't listen at all but the woman seemed to at least be interested in what I had to say. I ran back down w/ her to find the man again. We find him & he has a bloody ax in his hand. I wrestled it away from him & plunge it into his chest. I had a strange sensation because I try to avoid violence when I'm lucid or non-lucid both. It just didn't sit well with me but I liked the idea that I saved all of humanity in a lucid dream. I then just kind of hung out and looked out everywhere because it was just so vastly big! I lastly told the woman I was going to get a promotion & she threw out a ridiculous number & I said no. I told her she was doubling my pay & I was getting extra money on top of that. I started laughing at all of this & just woke myself up. I'd say this was definitely memorable.

Non-Lucid-Green
Lucid-Red

I am in a classroom with one of my teammates at the job I'm working at. He appears to be lifting some sort've equipment. The head of HR comes in to meet him and my manager gives each of us a white card in the classroom. I open my card but I didn't bother to read it and toss it out of my hands. I then walk out of the classroom and greeted the of head of HR. I notice her appearance in face look much different from how I remember it. I went outside which it is night and threw out some old boxes. I came back in the hotel and notice one of my captains silhouette through one of the doors window. I became lucid and realize I am unconsciously thinking about him. I open the door and appear to be at the hotel restaurant. It look a lot weirder but still decent. I grab some food and tried to dodge some of the servers. After that I went outside again and the environment had change. It was sunny with a clear blue sky. Short grass with a wide field, with only one 1 slightly tall skinny tree in the middle with hardly any leaves on it. I sat down near it and poke at the two cucumbers I had gotten. Thinking about what I am dreaming about and how long I'll be lucid.

Seems like I am in the same place. I see 2 people playing basketball at another house. I'm walking outside and ask a lady how to fly if it gets bad. My voice sounds raspy. So I whisper so she can understand. She gives hand motions. Then I wake up.

I'm somewhere I don't recognize. I'm looking at a modem or something by a computer. Someone is sitting in back of me and I feel uncomfortable. I realize this is a dream and try to do something. But being uncomfortable I can't do much. I should have remembered my goal which was to tell myself to calm down. A door shuts behind me. I think the person sitting behind me left and I wake up.

My boyfriend and I are renting a couple of trailers on a lot in the back of a rural "neighborhood" One trailer, the one we are living in, is really old and just looks ugly and worn. The other trailer is very nice, but we don't live in it because the bathtub is broken. (An interesting parallel to our real life, we own our home, but the bathtub has cracks in it from before we purchased it. We've fiber glassed it over, but that patch is on it's way out after just a few months) I am walking around the nicer trailer, thinking that the tub shouldn't keep us from living in it instead because it still has a really ritzy shower system in the other bathroom, and it's just so much nicer than the place we were living in. I find myself in the room with a shower, and it's HUGE. The shower isn't even like a shower, but rather looks like a giant kiddie pool that gets about a foot or two deep at the most. It's probably five feet wide and at least ten feet long, complete with 4 shower heads and a seat like ridge all around it so you can sit in the shower and soak your feet in the kiddie pool like basin. I notice a large pipe like tunnel that leads out of the shower at the seat level, and crawl through it. It leads out to the front yard, to a multiple level pebble step waterfall. I go back inside the front door and walk back to the bathroom, and notice there is a little tv and advertisement demo on the wall as if the trailer was a showcase model meant to be walked through and not lived it. It shows a video about how you can turn the shower into a small swimming pool by pushing a button to activate some sort of low gravity field. It looks really cool, and I call my boyfriend in to see it. Only when he gets there, I can't get it to show the right video, it just keeps showing youtube like commercials that you can "skip add" but never loading the right video. I get aggravated and just walk away, this time through a door that wasn't by the pipe tunnel before. the door leads into a sauna that the pipe helps provide steam for, then there's another door. I go through the other door and find that it's a sun room surrounded by windows with two white metal chairs and white metal shelves that I imagine would make a lovely sun room for growing plants in. I then walk out a door that leads to the front yard, and the pebble step water fall is much bigger, it is more like a porch now with stepping stones so you don't get your feet wet. I make another round inside through the front door, this time not stopping to really look at anything in particular, but just walk steadily through admiring the whole set up. When I make it outside this time, there is a water slide leading from the shower through the sauna and sun rooms, then out to a giant pool in the front yard. I stop and look incredulously at the water slide. I speak to myself out loud, "Ok, that waterslide was definitely NOT there before. I must be dreaming!" I turn around to look at the front yard in front of me again, and realize that now instead of being a few steps above the ground level, the pebble porch is a full 15 feet high. My son runs out of the sun room dressed in his swimsuit and jumps off the edge of the porch into the now huge pool below me screaming, "Cannon ball!" all the way down. I want to jump, but even knowing it's a dream I am kind of scared to, so instead I decide to fly instead. It's been so long since I have had a lucid that I struggle with control a bit, finding myself unable to create wings. I decide to flap my arms instead, and find that I can only get a few feet off the ground before I float back down to the ground. I decide to take a different approach, and pretend that I am riding an invisible horse instead. That lifts me off the ground, and the invisible horse jumps from the porch landing safely on the ground with no jolt or hint that it was a 15 foot drop. The horse is running towards the road, and I notice a Knight on horseback with shoulder length brown hair. I think that I am going to catch up with him and get some fighting training, but he spurs his horse on, apparently terrified of the witch on an invisible mount. I think that I am going to ride behind some houses that he is riding in front of so he won't see me closing in on him, but after about three houses I remember that I've been trying to obtain lucidity for a reason and that as much fun as all this is, I need to get back on track. I stop the still invisible horse, and make it cease to exist. On my own two feet again, I look around for someone nearby. I can see the trailer turned house turned water park now in the distance, and a gorgeous lady with dark coffee skin and a bright red and white spotted bathing suit is only about ten feet from me walking towards the water park. I rush over to her and ask her if she knows where I can find Kurasawa. She tells me she doesn't know anyone by that exact name, but there is someone two houses over that has a similar name. I thank her and tell her she looks cute in her bathing suit. I run two houses down and knock on the door. A man in his twenties with tan skin, a mole by his mouth, and a curly almost afro-like but smaller hairstyle answers the door. There's a toddler holding onto his legs. I tell him that I am looking for Kurasawa, and ask him if he knows him. In the dream though I am losing lucidity. I am able to give Kurasawa a last night, but I can't for the life of me remember what it was now. The man picks up the little boy and holds him in the air above his head as he replies to me that he "does know a Kurasawa (different last name than I mentioned, but I can't remember this one either) who is going to college (some where I can't remember)." Lucidity is slipping, and I realize it because the last names aren't the same, and I am trying to remember how to focus and hold onto that lucidity. I close my eyes, and see news paper text on my eye lids, but instead of trying to read them I freak out that I might wake up now that my eyes are closed and too much like my physical self lying in bed. I open my eyes, and I'm now standing in the dude's kitchen, but I feel dizzy, like the whole world ins spinning around me. I mutter something about no, the names aren't the same, that's going to wake me up, and then I open my eyes to my dark room.

I can't recall any dreams before or after that last night, my recall has been terrible since I haven't been actively journaling in years. all I can remember about the last names is that the one I mentioned had a K in the beginning and an R somewhere in the middle or end. I remember the one the dude with the toddler mentioned had a M in the beginning and an S in the middle. Just adding that in in case it is important later

Tonight was one of those nights where very little made sense at all. But I got some lucids, so meh.

I’m in this super creepy place, with dark hallways and catacombs everywhere. It looks a bit like a level from Dark Souls. Surprisingly, despite the terrifying atmosphere, the whole dream is kinda light-hearted. Which is good, because some weird stuff starts happening. At one point I pass by some guy that looks like Fat Albert, with the red sweater and everything. He walks down the hallway, followed by another Fat Albert. They both reach the end of the hallway before turning back, and I can see that both of their eyes are bleeding. I turn down the other path and end up in this restaurant, which has the same creepy atmosphere as everything else. At one of the booths in the back corner, there’s a corpse hanging from a noose. I’m finally a little creeped out by this, so I turn around, but I eventually come back, only to find that now the corpse is gone, and instead there’s a creepy looking guy in a cowboy hat sitting in a chair right under the noose. I start to approach him, but he stands up and looks at me - it’s actually my good friend Jake from college. He explains that they’re advertising an upcoming Halloween event at the school, so the Student Activities department have decorated the entire building for it. He begins to explain the event, but I suddenly get something in my eye, so I can’t look at him while he’s talking.

I’m now at the church I went to while at college, and it’s the Sunday after graduation. A ton of people are congratulating me on graduating. Our old music pastor is back, and the whole church is surprisingly packed, so I end up sitting in one of the only seats left, next to this elderly couple. There’s some intro video played on the screen, and all I remember was that it was produced by “Dragonball Z Media”, meaning it was probably a bit bizarre that it was played in church. The band gets up, and the music pastor announces that I’ll be playing with them one last time. I’m a little worried, since I didn’t practice with them at all. I get on stage, sit down at the piano, and take a look over the setlist, which consists of odd music choices from bands like “UTrue” and “Carly Rae Apocalypse”. I’m thankfully interrupted by my alarm, as (ironically) this dream is probably more confusing and worrisome than the last.

Didn’t take nearly as long of a WBTB this time as I did last time - only about 30 minutes. I’m in a really run-down McDonald’s, and after waiting in line behind this girl that I know, I go to the counter and order a Gatorade and a bag of M&M’s. The guy hands me my Gatorade, and I sit down at an empty table. Some super fat guy sits right next to me and starts telling me about his day. He’s talking to me like I know him, though I have absolutely no clue who he is, and I don’t want to be rude and tell him to leave. Luckily, I remember that I didn’t get my M&M’s, so I walk up to the counter and show them my receipt. The employee (who looks like some nerdy guy, probably 17 or 18) asks if I can buy him a bag too. At first I laugh, because I think he’s joking, but he stares at me like he’s serious. “Um, we’ll see…” He reaches under the counter, pulls out 4 packages of M&M’s and places them on the counter, then returns to staring at me. “I just ordered one, thanks,” I say as I take the top bag and walk away.

I’m on the set of a Parks and Recreation/The Office crossover movie. Filming has wrapped up for the day, and the actors that play Jim Halpert and Ann Perkins come with me to record voice-overs for some cartoon version of the movie. We enter the recording studio, a fairly large room with those 80’s wood/laminate walls on all sides. There’s a door to the bathroom, which strangely locks from the outside. I turn the lock to go inside, but I manage to break the lock, as well as the section of wall next to the door. I enter anyway, but now I can tell there’s a gaping hole from the outside, meaning everyone can see me do my business. I realize I don’t have to go that bad, so I go back out the door, which breaks the wall even more. Now almost the entire wall separating the bathroom is down to just studs. And now there’s quite a draft. A surprisingly powerful draft. So powerful, in fact, that it starts blowing me away. I grab onto the doorframe to secure myself, but I realize that this seems familiar and become lucid. I let go of the frame and let the wind carry me high up in the sky, where I continue to fly on my own. I’m incredibly high, and I admire the city skyline in the distance. The wind is still blowing, however, and I get rolled upside down a few times, but unlike previous flying lucids, it doesn’t cause me to wake up. In fact, I have a surprising amount of control of my flight, other than the rolling.

I start flying over a large drag racing strip just in time to witness one of the cars slam into a wall and flip over a few times. I should probably check to see if they’re okay. I make a fairly slow descent, as I watch the paramedics arrive on the scene. Fortunately, as soon as I land, the guy gets out of the car unscathed. He shouts like he’s excited to be alive. So excited, in fact, that he exclaims he wants to, uh… do things with these three women standing by the track. I decide to leave him to it, and turn around to walk off, only to walk right into a bush. It actually kinda hurts a bit, but I think to myself that it’s a good way to stabilize the dream. Of course, as soon as I say that, I immediately wake up. I journal this new dream and go back to sleep.

Once again, it’s the Sunday after graduation, and apparently there’s a second commencement service following the first one on Saturday. It’s not required, and it’s much less formal - lots of people were wearing t-shirts and jeans. A couple guys were even dressed up like Willie Robertson from Duck Dynasty, with the American flag bandana on their heads and glued-on beards. I’m in the main auditorium when I get a text from my parents that they’re outside. I head out, and for some reason end up helping the custodians carry out a huge trash bag on my way out. It unfortunately splits open when I get outside, spilling a ton of water all over the place, but at least it’s outside. I go back inside with my parents, and I see a ton of people in their graduation regalia filing into the auditorium super fast. I jump in line and ask what’s going on - the commencement doesn’t start for another hour or so. They explain to me that somehow everyone in the auditorium got put under some spell, and we have to break them from their trance.

The graduates line up in a huge circle around the outside edge of the auditorium. They start singing this incredibly fast choir song, but I have no idea how it goes, so I just lip sync for a while. I lean to the person next to me and whisper, “I don’t know this song at all.”
“Doesn’t matter, just have fun with it.”
I look over and realize who I’m talking to - it’s Vi. Holy crap, I’m dreaming? Of course, I’m dreaming! I become lucid, though I’m still not 100% thinking clearly, as I still want to break everyone free from the spell. I walk towards center stage and start improvising a solo, which is pretty much just “O Come O Come Emmanuel” in fake Italian. In the interest of putting on a show, I start flying upwards while still singing. The song starts to get more intense, eventually turning into a hard rock/gospel song, and I start flying around the whole auditorium as close to the seats as possible. The whole thing has a weird Elite Beat Agents feel to it. I finish with a sick impromptu guitar solo, and the crowd applauds before I wake up.

In this dream I start off in a store ad I'm looking at things. I seen some gang looking group of black men standing up on a display counter. They were talking to each other and I think some kind of fight broke out and I got off from over there. Now I'm leaving the store and I go across the parking lot to Mc Donalds but before I get there I become Lucid and thought about Robo Cop. He appears in a group of people and seems to be already looking for me. I ended up getting to close to him and he turns his head and spots me. I run, pushing through some people I didn't know was there and Robo Cop started after me, making his way through the crowd and or towards me, I run and he as almost running as well, despite his size he was moving pretty fast and almost got me. I realized that he is the same one for the previous dream and avoided him.

I'm in some kind of strange school and I'm walking around in hallways. I'm semi-lucid and I think about robocop appearing. I start to look around for him going to room to and and as I did so, a device on my arm goes off on its own and it ends up being a missile. It shoots at some doors as I'm talking with some people and causes an explosion, blowing the doors apart and panicked the people. I pretend to be historical, saying that I didn't know that it was on me, let along a missile being loaded inside. The devices was small like a watch and had a small box with a gun barrel sticking out of it. I said sorry about that and got out of there,because I knew Robo Cop would be there soon. As I left out of that situation I pass up an open, dark room and there was a counter there, on top was Robo Cop's helmet but he was nowhere in sight. Now I know to look for his face since he decides not to have his helmet on for some reason I enter a public study room which was located in the basement of the place I was in. As I come down the steps I get the sense of being safe here for some reason. There re people who are here and they are doing 3d animation. I see three or four people,sitting next to each other and I look at some of the screens. The first one had a model of Megazord on there and he/she was animating him holding the sword on it's shoulders. The other screen hand the same model but his was farther into his projects and I can see the world background and everything. Suddenly something happens and everything went dark and I start to fall to the ground be was caught by someone before I hit. I realized that it was Robo Cop and he is holding me up in his arms. He said something to me in his robotic/human voice and I said something a long the lines of " Because I'm am dreaming." And I heard him say. "I was tracking you." He knew where I was the whole time and was actually behind me, I just never thought about looking there and always went from room to room. Had I looked behind me I would have spotted him coming up but I ended up distracted by things and he got to me right at the time the dream becomes unstable. His aware of what is happening and tells me that he was there with me the whole time.

I'm walking toward a sectioned off shower as I transition from narration in a previous dream. Someone is talking about how great it is to remember their dreams, and I think to myself, "I travel to other dimensions". I have a quick memory of a higher level lucid. I reach the shower and see S. I knock on the edge of the glass as I enter so I don't startle her. I ask if I can come in, and she says yes. I take a step in and turn towards her I take a look at her face, and my awareness begins to raise to a critical level. Looking at her face with a big satisfied smile, I say: "I'm dreaming". She begins to grin at me as she tucks in her her chin a bit, as if to communicate: 'yeah you figured it out'.I wrap my arms around her to savor and enjoy the moment, and begin tracing my memory for dream goals. I quickly decide to just forget about the goals for the time being and enjoy the moment in the dream. The shower is surrounded by walls of small white tiles with a glass door to our left. As we hug, the dream gets a bit blurry, and I gaze into the corner of the shower to see three racks with various items on them. I revisit the idea of dream goals and decide to multi-task by imagining a dream item popping up from a goal in order to try tasting it. I grab a blurry box, yet it has no taste The dream begins to go into the void. Once in the void, I am distinctly aware of the very realistic sounds of water running. I resolve to hold my awarenesss through to the next dream scene. The sound of the water is very soothing, and for a short period I begin to think it is coming from waking life. I begin to focus on this as I begin to rub my hands as well. This goes on for about a minute, then I wake.

Dream - Lucid

I was definitely lucid last night for a little bit, but the only things I remember about it are:

-It felt like I was loosely hanging onto the dream, as in I would feel the head buzz and see the dream form, and then it would go dark and happen again, and
-I was naked and imagining someone having sex with me though they never materialized in the dream, and I had a SUPER intense orgasm when I started to touch myself. I am pretty sure I was not woken from the dream afterwards either, something I have been getting better at over the years. I was focusing, in the dream, on not being woken up.

~

I was looking at my UHRS report online. I saw some weird numbers that looked like I had missed a ton of questions, but on closer inspection they looked ok. I had notes in red underneath some, one I remember saying something along the lines of "don't just do a few and get tired of them." There were no capital letters used.

I had other dreams too, NLDs, but this had been a weird morning for me as my daughter is hanging out with her Nana for the weekend and I got to sleep in (!!!!!) which never happens. I'm trying to recall but it's proving difficult. Also, I've had a lot on my mind as we are moving a week from today and there is so much that still needs to be done and I am stressed beyond belief. Definitely hampers my recall.

5.19.16

Bed at 11pm. Alarm at 6:15 to go to a 8am gig at my second job, but woke up from a DILD at 5am.

I'm in a room and everything has green tint to it. I wonder out loud "why is everything green"? And I answer to myself with big grin "Because it's a dream".

Scene changes and now I'm walking down a busy street. I quickly decide I finally want to talk to a DC and I turn to a guy walking next to me with a question "Whats your name?". He gets confused and he clearly has no idea, all he manages is "uhmmm and errrr". I think to myself I should find a DC who is not just in my mind but who can think for himself.

I'm in a small room following the void state fromt the previous lucid. My awareness breaks through without RCing, and I find myself lucid in an area closely resembling a section of a high-scale hotel. There is dark marble throughout the counter tops, and mirror against some portion of the wall. A high quality sink is in this area along with some toiletrees. I think back to the goal I've been working on and try to imagine a cacao bar in one of the small boxes. The same situation from the previous lucid repeas, and there's a tasteless piece of papery material inside when I imagine it to be there. I begin turning to see where the room leads to an enter the first door. It is a very small room with a lounge chair of some sort. I quickly turn away, and open a door on the adjacent wall. Another small rooms lays beyond. I turn once again, and the same sitautuoin repeats. I finally open the door on the 4th wall and find another small room with a bath inside of it. However, it's another dead-end. I step inside, and look at the intricate pattern on the dark red tile above the bath. I decide I'm going to phase into another dream through this wall. I begin sliding into the wall, and my vision starts heading to a blackout. I begin imagining a snow scene. Nothing forms, so I begin trying to imagine a mountain peak with a shrine. The visuals don't catch on, so I think back to a podcast, and imagine myself driving a high-end sports car up a mountain path. I begin to get some tactile sense, but the dream fades and I wake up.

I'm with S in an area resembling a kitchen following the previous lucid. I am standing in front of a tall counter top with a dark marble surface, and she is standing in front of me to the left of the counter. I'm aware of how 'strange' things feel, and do a noseplug. I breathe and become lucid. I turn away from her slightly, and repeat"I'm lucid! I'm lucid!". Past where S is standing lays a doorway entering into a hall beyond. I get the impression that this leads to the hotel-like setting of the previous dream. At this point I decide to get started on some dream goals. I think back to one goal and my previous lucid and want to try eating a massive cacao bar and feeling the effects. I look around the counter top and determine it would be a good idea to just imagine it's inside of one of the containers on the counter. I peer inside the box, pretend it's what I'm looking for and take a bite. It's fairly tasteless, and tastes pretty much like paper. My mind isn't convinced. I decide to continue on down the hallway and enter to the next section of the dreamscape. At this point, the dream goes void, and I hold my awareness through a minute long segment, awaiting the next to form. I lose lucidity for brief time as the new dream forms.