lucid

I had 45 minutes until it was time for me to get ready for work. I thought, "aw what the hell, let's get a lucid dream for the fun it." I lay in my bed and focus on the center of my head. The center being if you were to stab a skewer into one earhole and out the other; the midpoint of that skewer would be my point of focus. This is right around the area where the pineal gland is inside the brain. The transition happened and I was stuck standing next to my bed for 30 seconds without any motor abilities. My body would not move and my eyes would not open but half way.

My room was different. It felt very empty.

I walked up a mountain at a street. The street started to be very slippery. A some point I decided to turn back because of it. I slid down the street and flew in a village. I became lucid. Somehow I felt a bit confused and headed towards the forest. Then I woke up.

This was my first induced lucid in a long time. I tuck a break from lucid dreaming and now started again. Although I had some random lucids in between

Morning of September 13, 2012. Thursday.



I become lucid in a slow entry transition (the usual lucid and willfully manipulated hypnagogia after making love in real life) and our bedroom takes on different features.

Of course, there is still the residual energy of wanting more intimacy and sustained harmony. Zsuzsanna and I eat strawberries (on a small yellow plate) at one point.

After our romance and intimacy, I am somewhat in a non-lucid state now. I become puzzled, more over my decreasing level of awareness (but which vivifies in the last scene) than by the fact our bedroom is rendered with the wrong layout (not directly linked to the lounge room and kitchen as it is in real life). The paint on the horizontal wall boards is peeling (yet it was not before) which I vaguely recall means that my dream is beginning to ebb, yet my lucidity is no longer viable.

I feel an urge to see if the door is open and it is. I approach the doorway. There is nothing visible beyond. I feel puzzled by an anticipatory mood emerging from within me.

The Cat in the Hat’s hat appears in the doorway, though with no cat. It floats in the air, tips slightly forward and I feel amused, waking with cheerfulness and humor.

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This dream has the usual dynamics as have been in the same sequential components (through tens of thousands of dreams) since early childhood, though I have grown to appreciate, enjoy, and greatly respect how the nuances are always slightly different.

Firstly, it is doorway waking symbolism, where a doorway is rendered as the dream’s implied exit point as an emergent consciousness factor (sometimes triggered by real-life environmental noise but not always, as the reticular activating system often uses the memory of a door knock or door-opening sound to activate waking, though no door knock occurs in this case).

Secondly, the sense of puzzlement is what causes the stovepipe hat to be rendered. Although “The Skunk” is an early childhood dream from 1965, it has very similar dynamics, where the white part of the skunk formed a question mark when I entered the higher liminal space of unconsciousness while becoming closer to consciousness (and also ends with doorway waking symbolism). Stovepipe hats represent the emergent consciousness and the concept is related to “put on your thinking cap” as analogous to waking from the dream state (emergence of thinking skills which the non-lucid dream self does not possess). They have featured as such in a number of my dreams since childhood.

Finally, the essence of a cat is linked but not fully. Depending on the dream of course, cats often serve as a liminal space symbol. This is mainly because of my childhood association of a cat sitting on a fence, a fence being the division between unconsciousness and emerging consciousness.

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In dream, my appearance is different, presumably roleplaying some random guy. I have short black hair that is graying on the sides, and I am to meet this woman (my girlfriend/fiance/wife) for a dinner date at a fancy restaurant on top of a skyscraper. However she stands me up and because it is a couples restaurant I am going to get kicked out if my date does not show up soon.

I call her and she says she's mad at me but she won't tell me why. (As in that was literally her exacting dialogue.) "I'm mad at you but I won't tell you why." I think this is kind of bizarre. There's also some kind of rule in the restaurant that you have to finish all of the food at your table, and since the girl doesn't show up but her food has already been ordered I have to eat her meal as well as mine, get sick from eating too much and throw up.

I start thinking about how I should be at home working on college assignments and how going on dates is really out of character for me. I become semi-lucid, only for a moment and soft reset the dream. I manage to remove the plot line and revert my appearance to my typical dream-self but lose control after that and lost lucidity. The dream repeats in some manner.

Manei appears in the restaurant wearing a sequined red dress. Apparently she was so stunning that everyone started clapping and cheering for her. Except me was just looking down at the pile of puke that was still in my lap, thinking about how I might be about to add more to it. The dream had become wrought with that queasy I've-eaten-too-much overfull feeling, and I started looking for an a

I false awaken in my living room. Manei is there watching TV. I become lucid again.

"I love how a traditional date night is more terrifying to you than an actual nightmare." She said sarcastically.

I assumed she was the one creating the previous dream scene and responded. "Only when you contrive it like that. Besides, it seems like someone likes to Mary Sue."

...

At some point we were playing Lego Star wars togther on the playstation in the Living room.

...

At another point, I am practicing my Fire Jets. We have both shrunk to only a couple inches tall but are still in my living room. Apparently I figured out I could project them to Manei and give her the ability, but not keep it myself. She flies up onto the seat of the couch and spins around in the air.

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I managed to complete my lightsaber fight dream goal sometime after the competition. I don't know why exactly I wound up having a lucid dream pertaining to it, as it was sort of a joke goal and one that I had just made up in the spur of the moment. That wasn't to say I was completely unenthusiastic about the idea, just wouldn't have made it a priority is all.

I recall the setting being very vivid. It was a grassy plain surrounded on three sides by a dense thicket of tropical plants, and on the remaining side by to large rock mesas with a terraced platform in-between. Large bismuth crystals, some much taller than me, emerged from the ground in the plain. Farros was on the horizon, so we were clearly somewhere out on the proper dreamscape.

Manei appeared and we were both wearing jedi robes. She pulled out a green double bladed lightsaber and we started fighting. She showed me some move using the force where she could through a saber out and attack the person from a distance by controlling it precisely with force pushes and pulls and begged the question of why adequately powerful characters in star wars never thought of fighting like this. I said that it was a good point, and I would have to ask someone knowledgeable of SW canon why that was.

At some point she managed to cut me in half at the waist. I 'died' and began floating upwards as a spirit. I willed my body to reform and reappeared in the physical realm. I got distracted and started examining my previous body, noting the extreme realism of the face when I touched it.

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The Steven Universe episode started with Steven in his house with Connie. The two were building models of star wars spaceships. Steven built a model of this blue and white ship that had a long mast and two big engine pods. Somebody wrote the network because they thought the model ship he built looked too much like a penis when it was supposed to look like a guitar.

Rebecca sugar appeared on the show in animated form alongside Garnet and started talking in a manner akin to a PSA to the audience about being honest about your sexuality and the kind of music you like. She then adressed that someone called the network complaining about how the blue ship looked. Pearl was arguing with amethyst offscreen and Amethyst punched her. Pearl flew onto the screen and then turned to where Amethyst was and screamed

"I AM THE UGLIEST SPACE GIRAFFE!"

Amethyst started laughing. The scene changed to outdoors on the beach. Greg was cooking hamburgers on a grill and Sadie started talking about how she had become a vegan and how hamburgers were made from cows that weren't humanely raised or killed. This gem appeared that was (amber I think) and looked like a cowgirl. She was the antagonist and summoned a gun from her gem on her shoulder.

"Its not over until the fat lady sings. That's from the phantom of the opera! I'm the fat lady here and I say its over!" Shouts amethyst as she charges in to fight, but gets beat up.

...

The characters end up escaping on a world war 1 battleship and going out to sea. But the boat gets hit by a large wave and Steven and Pearl fall into the water and have to preform fusion to get out. They fuse and curiously become OG Rose Quartz. Asokah Tano from TCW cartoon appears and helps them get out of the water and onto a large rock in the middle of the ocean. When she does, the two unfuse.

Asokah stands up triumphantly and says "All my fan theories were right! Take that Ronaldo!"

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In another dream I became lucid. But it wound up being one of those empty lucid dreams. I was in my house and I walked outside to see nobody. I thought of how I considered when I find myself in an empty lucid dream, I should start running from my house until I get away from the part of my town that I have a mental map of, and this should trigger the dream to do something interesting and break the empty dream.

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I had another Star Wars themed dream. (I'm surprised how many of these there have been lately). General Grievous came out of my toilet and started attacking me. I ran out the back door of my house where he followed me and then proceeded to kill my grandmother with his claw foot. I became lucid and reached behind my back to get lightsabers to fight him.

I managed to stun him and he fell over. I kept pulling more and more sabres from behind my back and stabbing them into his limbs. They had some bizarre behavior in that they would stick in the ground like regular metal swords of spears instead of sinking into the ground or turning off as they normally would. No matter how many times I impaled the villain he just coughed and struggled but didn't truly die.

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I was in a gymnasium. It looked like the gymnasium from my middle school but was rotated weirdly and had large windows near the ceiling. We were going to be running this race to raise money for people affected by a hurricane and some people (including my old high school crush) were there. I became semi lucid upon realizing she was there and didn't want to have an interaction with her; I didn't even want to look in her direction.

I turned to my friend S who was also there. He asked me why I didn't want to look at her. I responded by saying:

"My draw to her was one of lust, not of love. She needs to leave this place and be forgotten as all lost sparks do."

We went on to discuss how I felt it was unhealthy that I had a subconscious obsession with her, one that I could not smite despite my best efforts.

...

I had another empty lucid dream, the morning before posting this. I false awoke in my bedroom, only the layout of my bedroom and the entire house was mirrored. I got out of bed, already suspicious of my reality, and headed into the bathroom. When I saw myself in the mirror, I looked like a much younger version of myself with short hair and a fatter stomach. When I breathed in and out, I would make this high-pitched squeaking noise like a dog toy and there were red spots around my stomach and chest that would expand and contract with my breathing.

I RC'd via nose pinch and became lucid. I started heading outside when I lost the dream and woke up.

I unintentionally did a wbtb. As my eyes were close the darkness began to have color and I found it that my eyes had open on their own without my permission. I was staring at the window and for some reason it was dark outside. This isn't right I thought to myself, I'm very late for work now and I swear it feels like it has only been 10 mins since I lay down to sleep.

I started speculating that this is a dream so I look out the window and found it hard to focus on pretty much anything. Everything look blurry. My television at the back of my eyes look like it disappear but appeared suddenly when I expected to see it. This is when I did an RC of the nose to test if it is a dream or not. I could breathe through it so I realize I am dreaming. I then woke up.

2017, 10-13

The Dark Tower – The Third Drawing

I am on beach. It is just about dark. The ocean extends out west, and I can see where the sun has just sent. There are a couple people not too far for me. They are both near a door that looks like it leads nowhere. A man is standing next to the door, and a woman is sitting in wheelchair. I look around a bit more and I see there’s another man standing closer to me. I recognize the man standing close to me. That is MoSh. He looks at me and then looks over at the door. I am pretty sure I know who those people are. Eddie Dean, and either Detta or Odetta. MoSh and I walk over towards the door. Before we quite get there, I hear a voice coming through the door. The voice is telling Detta Walker to look through the door. The voice is also telling Odetta Homes to look through the door. And the next instant there are more people there.

I hadn’t noticed Roland’s body on the ground by the door, but now he is trying to get up. He does not seem well. And now there are also two women. Apparently Detta Walker and Odetta Holmes are now separate people. They’re fighting each other. They have to become one in order for the two of them to survive. But there are still more people there. I do not know who these others are. They are cloaked figures, and they are all in black. I’m not even sure if they have faces, because all I see under their hoods is blackness and glowing blue eyes. Mosh says no one invited them to the party. I say we should show them what happened party crashers then. One of them goes right over to Roland and told him to hand ‘it’ over. I am wondering what ‘it’ is. He doesn’t live very long, MoSh blows him away. That is the first time they noticed that we were even there. One of the cloaked figures is snarling at us, and says we should keep our abnormally large noses out of other people’s business. I tell him that ugly gits like him are our business. A gun fight ensues.

There are some rocks and other things in the area, and those are good places to take cover. But apparently MoSh and I also have Witchblades, and those form into a powerful armor. While the fight is going on between us and the strange figures, Detta and Odetta have switched from fighting to hugging. That is a good sign. That means they’re almost done. I see the one must be Odetta whisper something into Detta’s ear. I don’t hear her, but I remember what she said in the book. She said I love you. Two women seem to blur for a bit as the fuse into one. I see that one of the figures is standing over Roland now. Seems to be looking for something. I don’t want it to find what it’s looking for. I think that would be very bad. Detta and Odetta are in the way for getting a clear shot. So instead I send an Alex Mosher type tendril into the ground. It goes under Detta and Odetta, and then comes up right next to Roland and pierces the figure standing over him. The cloaked figures are clearly pissed off. But now they also have Susanna to deal with. Data and Odetta has become one now, and she’s got a gun. So does Eddie. He has also joined into the fight. The figures will not have another chance to get near Roland. They are angry, but they disappear in clouds of dark.

MoSh and I go over to where the others are. The door has closed, and our falls over in the sand and seems to become nothing more than a large piece of driftwood. I see Susanna, who is the merger of Detta and Odetta, hug Eddie. And then she hugs Roland. She says it’s thanks to them that she can be whole again. And that hasn’t been the case since she got hit on the head by a brick as a little girl. But that seems to be about the last bit of energy that Roland has, and he passes into unconsciousness. I focus some healing energy through him, but I guess the more important things are the pills that Roland brought back with him. Those will take care of the poison. Eddie gives him his first pill, though he was barely conscious enough to swallow it. March is asking who those weird figures are the keep showing up. I tell him I don’t have a clue yet. But they are really annoying. They aren’t supposed to be here. I want to ask Roland what he has that they might want, but that’s clearly going to have to wait until he recovers. It is here that I seem to wake up.

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This part of the dream was strange. It didn’t seem connected to the rest, and still it did. In this segment of dream, I felt like I was inside of Detta or Odetta, I’m not sure which. I hear gunshots around me, as if gun fight was currently going on. I hear someone call to me. The voice calls to me to look through the door. I looked over through the door, and I find that I’m staring at another version of me somehow. I am hearing a song in my head. “I face myself, to cross out what I’ve become. Erase myself, and let go of what I’ve done.” This is a song by Linkin Park. I know it well. I am reaching out to embrace myself when I wake up for real this time.

I came across this website just about a week ago, and for the past few days have been practicing ADA, sitting watching TV, driving around, cooking - I guess it worked, because last night I entered myself into a dream, if only briefly. I've practiced LD many, many years ago, if not an entire decade - and was successful a few times - but don't remember any LD's since that time. Coming across this website I decided to give it a go again, and reading about ADA and RC's - it's something I can do without anybody even noticing. My little secret

I remember being on the deck of a boat, and leaned an extension ladder up over the side and climbed on it and made it to the top, when I looked down I must have been 500 feet up in the air. I said to myself, "I am dreaming." and decided to jump off the ladder. I saw a small block building, sort of like those buildings that are under cell phone towers about a quarter mile away from the boat I was on built on the water, sort of like a oil-platform is built on the water. I said, I'm going to fly over there, but I kept falling faster and faster straight down and before I hit the water, or boat (I was focused on that building) I woke up.

I feel this was a success, because since I was aware I was dreaming and took control. If only for 5 seconds.

I was in my father's house thinking that someone was looking at me through the window. But I decided to ignore it cause I wanted to go to bed. As I was walking to my bed the house began to change form and shake. Hearing my brother playing his console game, I looked through a rectangular window And told my brother "I think were having an earthquake". Looking out the window closer I could see Chinese architecture/ tall traditional buildings."If it happens again should I try to jump out and onto those buildings? No, Id probably just end up killing myself quicker". When I began to pace left and right the house shook again" Its a earthquake! We have to get out of here!"We were on the second floor so I doubted we would get out but I still tried.

Quickly the house collapsed though. I managed to hold onto the other building as I fell but than that collapsed and I felt my form shift from the floor to the sky. "Damn, I'm dead. Oh well, time to explore". I flew away to look at the amount of ruin till I found myself at a factory and became aware that I was in a dream."It feels like someone is watching me again. Maybe the old man". I decided to say something in a different language to see if I could catch the attention of who was there. But than a chubby guy flew towards me and tried to lead me somewhere. The dream shifted though and I was on the bed now. After the guy who I saw popped up again and pulled me a bit, he disappeared and a wolf, black with purple eyes began ripping my clothes as if it was trying to devour me."Is this some sort of dream test"I thought than grabbed the wolf mouth with both my hands.I wasn't fully lucid though so what came next is pretty extreme. I held the top and bottom part of the wolf mouth and ripped it into two."Did i pass the test?" I asked than got up to hear a bell. Thats when the guy who was with me before came again with my mom. I was told to follow them but i couldnt cause I was missing my bra. I was told i didnt need it cause we were in a dream but i still wanted it. Than i woke up

Dream 2
I was looking at my bird's cage but this time it was black and I saw a small new born parakeet in the form of a spirit trying to get down the cage. "Am I hallucinating or is that baby real? Could my parakeets have had a baby without me knowing?" As I saw it struggle and about to fall, I put my hand to catch it than noted that it had tiny blue feathers that reminded me of my old parakeet. "Aw, don't worry. Ill take care of you the best way I can"I said to it but woke up after that.

Longish lucid?


Started I was reading a graphic novel. Apparently I made up the story but someone else had redone the artwork. I was impressed with the artwork.

I was some how teleported inside the story... I was floating over some town and saw some lakes nearby but I wasn't supposed to go there.

Can't remember what happened in between but became lucid in someone's house. I was grabbing some DC girl and she somehow got away. I began wandering a warehouse or something not wanting to lose the dream. I found an open garage door in the warehouse and began walking out with some people nearby. I wanted to try Time control. I asked loudly if anyone had a watch. After asking a few times a random DC handed me a watch. I looked at it and it was digital. "No," I said. I took the watch away from my gaze a few times until the watch had a face with hands. I kept thinking," Slow down," To the second hand. Eventually it's ticking began to slow and almost stop. I tried to meditate on time slowing further but began to see distortions. I had to jump high to escape them.

I landed and the dream snapped back into vision with better clarity. I had no idea how long the effect would work. I wanted to try teleporting to a different dream. In the past I hated changing dreams because everything goes black and I enter the next dream non lucid or with little recall. So I tried to create a door. I had chalk or something so I outlined a door on the wall. I got the idea from the Beetlejuice movie. I thought of the person I wanted to visit and began writing their name. I ran out of chalk. I asked DC's for chalk and they handed me a smaller piece. I began to make use of it when I blacked out.

Started entering another lucid. I was staring at a room with young girls in their 20's but my recall slipped after.

Flying

Dream from this morning. I became lucid when I discovered I could fly. More like dog paddle through the air. Forget what happened after.

Vague dream

I was int the mountains but it was work related somehow? I was in a clearing by a river with some people, but forget what we were doing. Maybe some of my family was there.

After some time the shift ended and I was exiting a mcdonald's... Don't know how that transition happened. Something to do with M from work? I dunno

I had a lucid dream. I only remember fragments of it. I was in some communal house and for some reason I realized I was dreaming. I walked out the door or through the wall. There was a grassy field and a light granite path. I tried to stabilize myself, I think I looked at my hands and prayed to stay in the dream to explore. I walked on the path and looked around. Then I slipped into some other regular dream. I'm sure there was more to the dream, it just slipped from me.

2017, 10-12

Game of Dreams – Eddard’s Escape

Eddard - I am seated in the back of a wagon. I can’t see where I am, but I feel it is important that I stay hidden. There are people that want my head on a pike. There is a bit of tension as the wagon goes out the main gate of the city. But the man in charge seems to know one of the guards, and they let us through. After we have gone a little ways, I think it must be safe to at least look out. I pull the tarp back at a corner so that I can peek out. There are quite a few people here with us. In another wagon I see that there are three men chained up. Those ones must be criminals from the worst part dungeons. Of course they consider me a criminal too. They think I committed treason, and I even confessed to it in order to avoid execution. That’s not really what I wanted to do, but Eddard went ahead and did it anyways. At that point, Joffrey said he wanted my head. Or he would’ve said that if it hadn’t been for the fact he had some kind of fit. He dropped his pants and started making the sounds of barnyard animals. It was amusing. Then the queen came over and said I had confessed as agreed so I would now be allowed to take the black. So here I am, on my way north to the wall. I guess I should just be glad I wasn’t beheaded.

As I am looking out of the wagon I see that a couple of the boys are picking on a smaller boy. I am thinking that is not fair. They shouldn’t be allowed to do that. They’re calling him lumpy head and saying they want him to hand over a sword he has. But I know that I’m not supposed to be seen, so I just keep watching for a bit longer. Two the boys mock the smaller boy. One of them says the small boy stole his sword so there would be nothing wrong with them stealing it from him because it’s not really his. They start saying they are going to steal his sword. I am thinking that I now can no longer refrain from taking action, however, when one of the boys rides his donkey up beside the smaller boy the small boy pulls out a wooden sword and smacks the donkey’s behind. The donkey bucks the jerk off. The smaller boy jumps off of his donkey and proceeds to kick the other boy’s ass. They won’t underestimate him for being small again.

So since I don’t actually have to do anything, I watch for a bit longer until the man in charge, a soldier of the black named Yarin, comes and breaks up the fight. It wasn’t really much of a fight. The smaller boy was beating the bigger one completely into submission. That was rather amusing. Because even when the bigger boy tried to play dirty and strike from behind, another boy that they have been calling The Bull warned small boy of the attack before it got off. He got his butt kicked some more. This is when Yarin breaks up the fight and then takes a small boy off to the side, probably for disciplinary action. Either that or to praise his sort play. The other boy is clearly in pain, but alive. I sit back down in the wagon, and I just relax there until I wake up.

2017, 10-12

Game of Dreams – Execution Cancelled

Arya - I am on the streets of a city that looks like something out of an RPG. I look around, and I see lots of people. No one really seems to notice me. I smell something yummy. I follow my nose to see what it is. On the main street I see a man with a cart, and he is selling looks like mini pies. Those look delicious. My stomach is growling. I am wondering if I could possibly get one. It feels like I haven’t eaten since forever. I go over towards the cart and I walk up and start looking at the pies. The man who is pushing the cart looks like he is not pleased to see me. Probably because I look like a street rat with no money. I say I would like to buy a pie. He says that will be three coppers. Doesn’t sound like much. I reach into my pocket to see if I can find any money. I find none. I mutter a rhyme like they used in the Pierce Anthony books. “This isn’t funny, give me some money.” Then find the coins that I need. I hand the coins to the man, who looks quite surprised. He then lets me choose a pie. I choose an apple cinnamon one. He continues on down the road to sell more pies.

I have nothing to my pie with, so I start eating with my hands. That’s kind of gross because they’re kind of dirty. But the pie is way past delicious. So before long I completely forget about my dirty hands as I wolf down that pie. I am thinking I need to get out of the city. I am wondering if there’s any way to do that. I am thinking the main gate will be guarded, they are looking for me. I wander for a while, not sure where to go. Then I see there are people moving through the streets to the sound of a bell. I wonder what is happening. I go with everyone to see what is going on. Everyone is gathering around a large building that appears to be some kind of church. There are people up at the entrance to the church where there is a large patio area. One is the queen. I hate her. One is the king. I have hated him since he was a prince. I also see my sister. And soon a couple of guards come out with my father. My father doesn’t look too good, but he is able to walk on his own. I see that the cast on his leg is gone now. His leg had been broken, but now I remember healing it for him.

Prince, no King, Joffrey starts talking. He says that my father has been found guilty of treason. I guess they have something on him, because my father confessed primes I know he never committed. And then Joffrey says that his mother and his future queen want him to be merciful and let my father take the black. He then says that it’s just because we they have the soft hearts of women. I know what comes next. I focus all of my intent on Joffrey now. I focus on my telepathic abilities, which have proven to work here before. The message I sent to Joffrey is that he should bray like a donkey. I don’t have time to come up with anything better right now. Joffrey motions to the executioner, Sir Ilyn Payne, who comes over closer to him. Joffrey looks him right in the face and brace like a donkey. Everyone turns to stare at Joffrey now. Payne has the weirdest look on his face. Joffrey tries to compose himself again. I send another strong message. Drop your pants. Joffrey says that what he had been trying to say was… then he pulls down his pants. The entire gathering area is filled with people now, and many of them are laughing, some of them are making concerned sounds. No one knows what’s going on. Joffrey has turned beet red. He looks over at the queen, as if looking for help. He looks like he might cry. He reaches down and pull his pants up, looking very confused, looking around as if someone is going to come out and attack him. He has just got his pants pulled back up when I tell him to drop his pants again and snort like a pig. I have already gotten access to his mind now, and he quickly complies.

One of Joffrey’s guards, the one no one as The Hound, goes over to him. He helps Joffrey pulled his pants up yet again, and then hurries him into the church. The laughter is deafening. I almost can’t hear what the queen says when she comes over to speak. But finally she is able to make herself heard. She says that what His Grace was trying to say is that Lord Edward Stark has agreed to confess his crimes and take the black. She says hopefully he shows more loyalty to his brothers on the wall then he has to his king. She doesn’t seem to have anything to say about Joffrey‘s behavior. A lot of people are trying to ask. What’s wrong with Jeffrey? I am still watching when someone reaches from behind me and grabs me. I think I might struggle, but his hold is pretty tight. He is whispering something in my ear, and calling me a boy. I’m not a boy. For a brief instant I think he wants to kill me. But then he just starts giving me a bad haircut. He says that we are headed out for the wall tonight. And I better be ready, boy.

2017, 10-11

The Dark Tower – The Great Race

I am on a beach. I look around see if I can figure out how I got here. I see that there is a man nearby. There is also a woman in a wheelchair. They seem to be having an argument. I go closer to see if that might be why I’m here. I recognize the people. The man is Eddie, from the Dark Tower series. The woman must be Detta or Odetta. As I get closer I can tell she’s the nice one. She is not using long strings of shouted expletives. She and Eddie are arguing about whether or not he should leave a gun with her. She says that Roland will be angry. Eddie says he’s not leaving her without a way to defend herself. When I get a little closer Eddie turns and sees me. He asks if I can talk some sense into this woman? He seems to know me. I tell him that I can do better than that. I can go do whatever it is he needs to do, and he can stay with Odetta. He says he has to take the wheelchair back to get Roland. He points at a door that is standing on its own. I she words on the door, the pusher. I tell Eddie and Odetta that I will take the wheelchair back and get Roland. Eddie asks if I’m sure I can do that? He says that Roland and will be hard to push in the wheelchair. He is thinking I will be weak because I’m a girl! I give him a dirty look. I told him that I could carry Roland over my shoulder the whole way. But that wouldn’t be very comfortable for him. Eddie agrees finally and says for me to go ahead.

For the next part of the dream I am running down the beach pushing a wheelchair. I really like the fact that I don’t seem to be getting tired. It’s completely unlike how things are when I’m in the waking world. I have to go around some rocks and other obstacles on the beach, so that slows me down some. But it doesn’t slow me down much, and before I think it is possible I find Roland. Roland appears to be either unconscious or sleeping. I go over closer to him and he seems to wake up a bit. He looks up at me, he looks quite confused. He says my name, Raven, but seems unsure as to if I am real. I tell him that Eddie stayed with Odetta while I came to get him. He says that he will need to be pushed in the wheelchair, he’s not strong enough to walk. I am wondering why my healing attempt haven’t really work on him. I’m thinking maybe it is because of poison rather than just a physical injury. That can make a difference. Roland gets to his feet with much effort, and he sits down in the wheelchair. I focus some healing energy into him just to be sure he doesn’t die on the way. He seems to perk up a bit, but not enough to let him walk. He asks if I’m sure I can handle this? I tell him this will not be a problem. I get behind the wheel chair and try to push. I am actually surprised by how much harder it is to do, but that is just because I wasn’t prepared. I start pushing forward at a good rate.

I pick up speed as I am pushing Roland in his wheelchair down the beach. It is going faster and faster. A couple of times I have to make sudden adjustments to keep from running into one of the obstacles on the beach. There are rocks, Driftwood, and the hardest ones to see our places where soft sand has collected. But I managed to keep going at a quicker rate without getting in any wrecks. Once again the trip seems to go by very quickly. And once again I am liking the fact that I don’t seem to get tired. I wish I could just live all the time in the dream state. Soon we reached door. I see the door there, but I see no sign of either any or Odessa. I wonder where they could’ve gone. Roland is not in good shape, and I know he needs to go through the door to get medicine. I tell him that I will look for Eddie and Odetta. Roland says that he had intended to take Addy with him this time. I am wondering how that would work. Three people in one body? But that doesn’t really matter. Roland says Eddie still has one of his guns. He says hopefully he will not need to use it. Then he hands me the other gun. He says that when he goes through the door his body will be lifeless on the ground here. He says at that point, if the other has come back, she will be able to take the weapon with ease. I don’t need to ask the other is, I know he is talking about Debra walker. So Roland goes over to the door and manage just open it. I can see through the door, it is looking onto a busy sidewalk. I’m not sure what is going on there. Roland goes through the door, then his body collapses outside.

I start looking around now. I start calling out Eddie. I also call out Odetta. I call out Eddie and say that if the other has returned, don’t forget the song. You can bring her back. You can bring Odetta back. I continue looking for a while, and I am about to give up. I have no idea where they could’ve gone. Especially when Odetta doesn’t have her wheelchair. Hi come around a quarter in the rocks, and I stop when I hear a nasty sounding voice. It is a woman’s voice, and she tells me to stop right there. Stop right there, you home bitch. It is definitely not Odetta. I turned around to see her. She has a gun pointed at me. I am not worried about the gun. I am worried about Eddie. I ask her where it is? She says he’s around. She tells me to drop the gun Roland gave me. I told her I’m not going to do that. She says then she’ll blow my brains out. I tell her she won’t be doing it with that gun. I tell her there’s nothing she can do to hurt me, so I am certainly not worried. I ask her again where Eddie is. She says he’s just enjoying the beach. That doesn’t sound good. So I look around for Eddie some more, and I find that he is on the beach. Below the high tide marker. And somehow he’s gotten all tied up. I wonder how that’s even possible considering that he had the gun and data has no legs. I am figuring he must’ve fallen asleep, just like in the books.

Detta seems to move surprisingly fast with no legs. I hear her calling to me that I had better leave him be or she will shoot me. I’m still not worried about that. So I go down to where Eddie is tied up, and I start working on removing the ropes. Data is pretty close behind me, and I can see that Eddie is trying to warn me that fact. Detta points her gun at me. She pulls the trigger. She gets a resounding click. I get Eddie the rest of the way untied, and Detta tries to shoot me again. She gets another click for her efforts. I have Eddie completely untied now. I tell him to stay behind me while we go back and take care of Detta. I tell him that her gun can’t hurt me, but it can still hurt him. I walked right up to Detta. She tries to shoot me again, this time the gun fires. There is a loud bang that actually startles me. But the bullet seems to bounce off of my body. It might have something to do with the Mercer virus. Detta is staring in stunned silence now. So is Eddie. I take the gun away from the stunned Detta. I tell Eddie he can go back to using the song now. He needs to use the song to bring back Odetta. He doesn’t need my help for that. He goes over in front of Detta and uses the song, My Last Breath by Evanescence, and I can see when Detta changes back into Odetta. So at least for now things are safe. That is a good thing, because it is also now that I wake up.

I am showering in a bathroom I don't recognize when I hear someone enter the room. I peek around the curtain and see a friend of my dad's that I've known my whole life. He notifies me that he is getting into the shower. I tell him he needs to leave. He is getting undressed and steps into the shower. I jump out and try to get away. I turn around to look at him and his eyes have turned black. He opens his mouth and a large, snake-like tongue reaches toward me. Suddenly I realize this is a dream and want to end it. I find myself laying in bed. I rub my eyes and in my left eye I see a diamond pattern with shapes within each diamond. I focus on the pattern and it seems expand all around me. Suddenly I feel myself flung downward through my bed and I am flying. I fly to a bar in another country. It is an artsy place with teal walls and ornate decor. It has a small and intimate feel to it. People are speaking a language I don't recognize. I am drawn to a particular woman with short black hair and bangs. I try to remember the sound of the words she is saying, but as I wake up they fade away.

Dream scenes begin to form of me on a bus like a few nights ago, and I get off to find people to have sex with which lasts a while, and I explore much until I remember my dream goal. I get back on the bus to a different town, and I am taken to a house party.

Enrique is there, and I ask him, "Enrique, tell me something about myself I don't already know," and he says nonchalantly: "You're dreaming." This confuses me because I already know I'm dreaming. He tells other people this too: "Hey did you know that you're just a character in this guy's dream" I wake up.

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