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So it has been a while since I updated this. Dreaming kind of took a back seat to life, but I am hoping to get back into the swing of things!

Dream:

I have just fallen asleep. My medication allows for quick falling asleep and vivid dreams. It is overly dark. I keep getting flashes of people, and colors, and images, like pictures. It is hard to make sense of it. Everytime I try to focus on something it flashes away. I can hear voices. I think I'm in a sort of void, where nothing exists but me. Its hard to make sense of anything. The voices continue, compounded on each other and getting louder.

I am suddenly in a room with Kathryn Janeway. Her overshirt is off, and she is in just her pants and grey long sleeve shirt. She is sitting on a bench, with a light focused on her. She looks up at me. "Embrace the Dream." That was an odd thing to say.

I look up, Hermione Granger is laughing with me. I must have said something funny. We are in the Great Hall. She leans in close to me, whsipering in my ear. "Embrace the Dream." Huh. Didn't Janeway just say that. She shoves me back and I am falling, through the void.

I can see light, but I am moving away from it. It feels like I am falling back into something. I land with a thud and the light comes rushing at me. "Easy, easy now." I can hear Janet Fraiser saying. I carefully open my eyes. A pen light flashes across them. I am in biodome medical bay. I try to sit up. "Careful." I see Wasau there too. She helps me sit up. "Welcome back." She says then leaves. "Back?" Janet looks at me, scans me with a tricorder. "Yeah, its been a while." I think. "I thought I was back before, a few months ago?" Jaet pulls me into a hug. I kiss her. "Yeah, about that. A lot has changed here since then."

I look up at her questioningly. "What? Why? Were we attacked?" I know the biodome is a place for all dreamers to meet. "We weren't attacked." "What then?" I ask. "I think its better if I show you." We step out of the med bay and into a deserted hall. Its grey sleak walls seem a dull comfort, and unnerving at the same time. "Janet, what happened here?" No one is around. "Well, when you, and the others stopped coming... more like stopped dreaming, it all just fell to shit." I looked around again. We had made it all the way to the end of a hall. Janet was starting to put on a space suit. "You should do the same." I look at her. "If this is a dream I don't need to." She smiled at me. "Very good, but I still need to." I help her put it on.

We have to wait for the room to depressurize before opening the other door. There is no power and I equip myself with a flashlight. I change my clothes. I am wearing miltary style pants, a thigh holster with a gun, and plain shirt. I check the weapon. "How much time?" "2 hours, what's that?" Janet asks. "This?" I hold up the gun and she nods. "Its a plasma gun. Got it from... well I forget. You still didn't tell me what happened."

We are walking toward the emergency beacon. "When you stopped dreaming, more off on your own quest for things, people stopped coming." "Yeah, but the biodome was for anyone." "True, but without you, and Raven, well things went down hill. Stuff started breaking. You're the heart of this place Commander." I look at her startled. Only one other time has the biodome called me that, and I have never heard Janet call me that. "If I'm the heart that makes Raven the soul. But what about Nomad, and MoSh?" She looks at me and sighs. "They just helped build the thing, just like anyone else can. Really it's been linked mostly to you.."

I take a good look around. This place looks bad. I guess it makes sense. I have't been feeling the greatest about things, and apparently subconciously translated into the dream state. "Did you ever find your answer?" Janet asked me. "Well I claimed her, in a dream, if it wasn't a DC (dream character), and nothing happened in the waking world. That I can tell. But it sure does look like something happened here," I draw my gun. I feel like we are being watched. I tell Janet this. She smiles at me. "It's your dream, you make it what you want." I tell myself that there is nothing there. No enemy. Its the biodome anyway!

Finally we come to a long set of stairs down. In the middle of a circle is a large machine going down into the Moon. I look at it. "Well, I guess we better start down." After the fifth story down Janet asks who built this. I tell her I did. She just looks at me. I suddenly understand her point. I close my eyes and will the machine to be smaller, and suddenly we are on the ground floor. I see the control pannel. I rip it off and start messing with the electric cords there. I am trying to get power back to the emergency beacon. "Shouldn't we have gotten the generators back up first?" Janet asks. "No, this is supposed to have an backup systen.Why its not working..." I shrug. I ask Janet for some tool and she get it for me. I stand up. "Thanks." She looks at me and shoves me. I fall down a long hole. "Embrace the Dream."

What the fuck? Is all I can think as I'm falling. I land with a thud, her words echoing in my mind. Embrace the Dream. Seems to be a pattern going on. I look up at the light, just a tiny pin prick. I hate wells, and why I think I'm in a well is beyond me. I will for a set of stairs to apppear. It does, on the side, but is more like a ladder. I climb out, and the hole vanishes. "What the hell? You have dream control?" I ask Janet. I'm not really mad at her. She is trying to teach me something. She smiles at me. "Only beacuse you let me. Lets finish up." I ask her how much time we have left for her oxygen. She says 1 hour. We finish working on the beacon, a bright white light shoots out of it and stays on. "Well, anyone that sees that should know we are in trouble. Now lets get the generators back on."

As we head up Janet says she doesn't have much time left. I tell her to go back to the waiting room. I can do this myself. She leaves and I head to the generators. Once there, its more like an engine room, I start my work. The main generator looks like the engine from Serenity, off of Firefly. I start messing around with it, trying to get it spinning again. I can hear Janet in my ear piece. Something went wrong, the room can't be pressurized back. And she can't get out of her suit. This makes me work faster. I can hear her laboured breathing. "How much time?" I ask. "Thirty mintues." Her suit beeps. "But only because you lowered the levels you're taking in?" Its less of a question as it is a statement. "Not the point." She replies. I see her slding the the wall before I am brought back to the engine room.

I start to work faster. Flipping switches. The engine begins to turn the stop. I take a large wrench and start banging on it. Dirt and rust and grime fall off. I flip the switches again. Again it starts then stops. I can hear Janet beginning to breath really heavy, like she is suffocating. I start kicking the engine. "Work damn it! Spin! Do something!" I leave the switch flipped up, and keep kicking the machine. Soon a large boom, happens and I fly back 20 feet. I am covered in dirt and grime. The engine kicks to life, and with it, the biodome begins to live again. No people, but its a start.

I walk to where I left Janet. Wasau is there, and is helping her. Janet has her helmet off. "I see you did it." I nod, still covered in dirt. "What happened?" "Exhuast port was jammed. Got it cleaned out." She laughs, "Looks like it did it kind of on its own." I smile and nod.

We head to the gardens. They look sad, and withered. I call out for Raven knowing she can help bring them back. "I hope she gets the message." I smile at Janet. "You did good. Just remember," everything is starting to fade. "Embrace the Dream." Everything goes to black.

I become lucid as some text morphing strangely. I say 'Abracadabra' to a passing DC. They look at me strangely, and they take me to a '2002' meter mountain. WOW
I wake up as the dream destabilizes.

I now WILD into another lucid. I form an imaginary instrument in my hands. I feel the haptic response of each note, and see orbs of colour float away. I impress a now huge audience. I play from my soul. Crazy!

I was sitting in my room when a balloon floats down on the balcony with a note attached to it.
I don't remember what the note said. then the house changed shape and I was in my old house with my cousin in it. I was about to give him spelling exam when I suddenly became Lucid.
then I started exploring the house. there was a girl and there was a book that was locked. I opened the book and a furry monster came out of it.
I remember saying, "Funny how this all feels like a dream." they all nodded but then I looked at them seriously and said, "Well, this is a dream. this is MY dream. "
then the girl said, "oh my god, you're the Abash Lulu !" (I looked those words up and creepily enough, Abash means "Someone who breaks one's self-confidence" and Lulu is a slang for any remarkable outstanding being) then I asked the girl, "What do you represent ?"
she then whispered. "The Snake is watching."
I looked and saw a rather old Indian lady. For some reason I thought she was a person in real life and I asked her, "Do you know someone named _____? " The woman shaked her head.Then I asked, "Do you know someone named _____?" the woman then had a disgusted look on her face and nodded then disappeared. then a little girl came and asked for help. she looked similar to one of my friends in school, I smiled and asked, "So who are You?" she looked at me confused.
I then said. "you know me, don't you? So tell me, who are You?"
the girl whispered something in my ear but I couldn't remember. I really want to know who this 'snake' is or what it represents, what do you guys think?

This is a non-lucid one but am posting here because I thought it was hilarious!

In the scene are two coworkers, one female and one male. The male is a tall black man who is the host of a corporate training on sexual harassment, and is also partially me somehow. The female is his coworker, Caucasian and very attractive, sitting on a kind of counter top in front of the guy wearing smart office wear, a blouse and a skirt.

The moderator says, "in the workplace you should not do things like this to your female coworkers". He lifts up off the womans blouse over her head to expose her naked breasts.

She doesnt attempt to cover up, and just sits there.

"Well," the moderator continues, "she seems to be okay with that. But you REALLY shouldn't do this either." He spreads apart her legs and rips off her skirt and panties, fully exposing her.

Again, she sits there in an open legged position, not attempting to cover up.

"Well, she seems to be okay with that too," the moderator continues. "But you DEFINITELY shouldn't do this next thing". He then whips out his dick and proceeds to masturbate in front of her.

Then the dream ends.

Before bed went to MM and read some of Naiya's Lucid entries.

Scott hates me.

Was semi lucid in Naiya's room. She was standing by a window talking with Scott. As soon as Scott noticed me he somehow forced me from the dream.

I fell into a weird crack in the ground outside. I had never been teleported so violently anywhere. I was literally squished. If I had dream flesh and bones they were surely squished like a pancake. I made myself into some air bubble and elongated myself out of the crack. As I did i heard some guy commenting on it with astonishment. I was by some other DC or dreamer with blond hair. He asked how I did that. I said I dunno but it's a dream so that's how I did it. He didn't believe me for a second and then the dream faded.


Everything goes wrong at work

Add on: I now remember being driven to work by someone. Can't remember who.

I was in a weird underground complex that was apparently a McDonald's. Saw Manager R there and she asked me to help assemble orders. I remember seeing rows of all the Sandwich boxes stacked upright. People kept ordering McChicken and after a while and soon the stack that was at the height of the ceiling is now gone. R leaves and says she's going to get more boxes. I am by myself and people order nothing but McChicken, so I use other boxes and put stickers on them.

After a long period of time I realize R hasn't come back. I leave the room to look for the stockroom. I wind up In a dark basement. I come to an open room and see dark versions of various co workers there. K-A The Jamaican girl is crawling on all fours and it reminds me of the creepy girl from the grudge. There's a long leather strap coming from her? It whips at me and then I realize it's a weird long tongue she has. I look up and the other people have glowing cat like eyes. One looks like Manager P from another store. I turn to run back the way I came but the exit is now a solid wall. I look around and the rooms are in different places. I realize the place re arranges itself. I try to get away from the creepy group.

FA, before I can RC my brother distracts me. I start telling him about the crazy dream I just had. He doesn't believe me.

bedtime finally not atrocious: head hit the pillow at 00:40. Some intention setting and affirmations before bed.

Lots of dreams. Probably more that noted here, no recording until final waking, and epics tend to obliterate earlier dreams. 18 minutes of voice notes!

early:

Quick notes:

+ rental car, mustang, white doors closing, keys (could steal), dealer, "not too overpowered", (shakes his head), I think I could gun it later.

+ [semi-epic] at guy's house, dog holding ear, nanny & girl (?), in house alone, semis entering his garage, police come, "he was going to murder you in one hour"

+ police on streets on hill: look down, swanky party busted by cops; indoors, leading regent gives speech, appoints new chancellor of University: JH (boy scouts, frizzy hair): grizzled, old, red eyes, he can barely talk, he makes no sense, I feel sorry for him

+ DO: watching video of ME at (high school graduation?): who filmed me? View fully zoomed and centered on my face: tears are streaming down my eyes. I'm singing along with the other students: (national anthem?) no sound: my eyes are doing weird things, like rolling back in my head, I'm really embarrassed, I didn't know that I was being filmed.

+ football scrimmage, "C vs. C" overhead view: lots of laterals, tackling.

later:

+ [semi-epic] in my "kitchen": burger meal on plate, big crowd of guests appear, can't eat now, make tea for everyone, boil water, girl talks about helping her learn how to catch balls, back in kitchen burger is still on plate, but fries/side dishes are gone burger is alone, I sneak a quick, big bite of it stuffing it into my mouth, guy friend walks up just then, great I think, just as I bite, I look for tea in the cabinets, open cabinet and many colorful packages, take out two fancy tea packs: one on right has white flakes in it, lots of dried fruit?, pack on left is dark red/brown pieces of tea like roiboos.

+ [semi-epic] at the theater: I'm in balcony, leaning over railing to the right and talking to a girl and a guy on ground floor, discussion of school, I start to say "enjoy your final years of school" but realize I don't know how many years she has left or is graduating, girl says something like "(help me?) and I'll give her to you (girl sitting behind me?) the play begins I decline I lift my left arm and put it around my (date? wife?) on my left she leans in puts her head against mine, attention moves to the stage:

Guy from former work [N] has thinning hair is acting on stage, he's with another guy, there's a fight, one guy really slugs the other one on the back/shoulder and the hit guy's body tremors. One guy produces bills ($50 / $100 / $200) the $200 one (close up) I know is fake, it has some random guy's picture on it, it's pretty funny though. Then the guy and girl I was talking to earlier are on center stage and the guy produces some blue windex-looking stuff

+ On U lake in boat, wind, calm behind Rt island, I think I haven't been here a long time and want to next time take the boats to the island, study Rt island closely, it is not quite right, too many trees and there are other little rocks in the water

I become lucid as some text is changing oddly. I fly through a wall and find myself in a rose garden. I decide to taste the colour pink. It is sweet and creamy but occasionally it gets sour. I fly around and soon lose lucidity.

I WILD onto a suburban path and see what music is evoked by it. I hear a trumpet dominated tune!
I decide to see what a piece I'm learning by Dvorak looks like. It starts off as red lines on a black background, moving to the beat of the music. In the cantabile section, they curves into pebbles, with red lines caressing them. In the fast middle section, demons dance in hell in circles, fleeing from lava erupting from the ground. It then returns to the red line theme. With the final cantabile theme, they die away.

Island

A strange dream where I was on a small flat island covered in grass with a couple people. I have to make salads for them. I prep the ingredients and have to put them into boxes. One guy says he wants a double salad. I remember ripping open a bag of cous cous and pouring it onto the salad.

Work

Dream that I had to work in a different store for the day. K from my store was there and he didn't seem to happy i was working at the other place.

Lucid

I remember becoming lucid in some scenario that I can remember. I Did my time dilation, and almost felt the dream fall apart but it snapped back with a clarity I've never had before after I jumped. again I couldn't remember the exact place or scenario, apparently there was some fighting training going on as referenced in later conversation.

What I do remember is emerging from a grove of trees at night time into an area reminiscent of a small trailer park, but instead of trailers were a small number of lit up houses. Most of them were small but there was also a big one that had very bright Christmas lights.

"I wonder who lives in that one?" I asked a quiet man who I was walking with. He just sort of grunted. "I've always wanted to go in there!" I seemed to be excited and talking his ear off but he wasn't saying much.

We went into one of the small houses. Inside there was a small kitchen where A woman i also seemed to know was preparing for a meal. He said some words to her but I wasn't paying attention. She said, "It should be done by the time you guys finish practicing shape shifting."

I thought, "Oh boy! Shapeshifting." The man sat down in a living room and pointed to a TV and a PS2 console and handed me a disc as if indicating the lesson was on the disc. I opened the PS2 tray and placed the disc in, but I wasn't sure if the disc went down all the way, the tray went in by itself and I pushed the eject button right away. "Ah why'd you do that?" said the man sounding a bit angry. I told him I just wanted to make sure the disc was going in properly.

I sat down in a chair beside his couch where he was seated. I said, "I can't wait to learn more about shapeshifting! I'm really eager to learn."

As if I had ADD i thought I should try Time dilation again. I remember placing my hand on the ground and counting the spaces between my fingers. The spaces between my fingers began to look like other fingers... that was trippy. Then I saw something like cardboard lines around the shapes of my fingers. I kept counting a number of different spaces each time. i made it to 60. I lifted my head up and the room was spinning. then I woke.

Recall Begins:

I am a young girl, perhaps 13~15. I find a family that lives in hideaways and works in large steel barns, creating dubious devices. They are a form of Mafia, but take me in as one of their own. One day, I walked out to the barns to see the things they were creating there. This was a heinous act against the rules, as I was told many times to never look there. I walked straight into the final barn in the row of perhaps 6 barns and saw something that attested to the evil of the family. What it was I can not recall. When I saw it, I ran from those who were in the barn, but they've got backup from where I came from before I could push through that way. Instead, I turned my path toward the nearest person coming, jumped into the air as I traveled, and attempted to land a curled fist straight into their face. However, I have troubles aiming in dreams. Extreme problems. I may have become moderately lucid at this point, as I rewind the dream repeatedly until my fist connects, hard. More backup arrives and I take a similar approach with these men, utilizing attack moves that look more like break dancing than fighting, but it got the job done. I continue to run, and make it to the children's dwelling area.
I can see that some of my friends want to help me, but also fear greatly the punishment for disobedience. The dwelling itself is technically hidden within a secret chamber, but enough people knew about it that I knew at least someone would know where to find me. I am most certainly lucid by this point, as I vividly recall declaring within that this is a dream, and that if I expect to find another, new hidden passageway in the wall I was reaching for, that I would find one. Lo and behold,
the solid wall I was fast approaching gave way as a door, and I was able to slip into a new room.I am not sure what my state of lucidity is from this point on, but I know that the thoughts as they occur do not reflect either my waking state thoughts or that of the dream character I had become. Instead of remaining in secrecy, by some thought,
I decided to relinquish dream control, and the walls of the new room faded away. Some children found me, and reported me, bringing me before the council. The punishment for this crime, and I knew it before I had done the thing which I did,
was as thus: to receive a bite from a highly venomous snake which they nurtured in a fountain centered in the council circle. I felt a sense of deja vu at this point as if I had experienced this plot before somehow, perhaps having read it in a book at some point. Knowing what would happen next, I stepped, with some trepidation, into the fountain. I backed out a few times, but the third time I boldly stood as the snake latched onto my right index finger.The pain hurt greatly, but also not at all. I knew that it was a dream again, and knowing that my fate involved a painful and long duration of agony, filled with feverish fits, pain, loneliness, and thoughts that I would likely die, I choose to dissolve the mafia, their council, and evidence of their ever existing from the dream. Again, these thoughts do not reflect my own as I would reason but seemed to be of the dream character this time. With the Mafia's influence erased, the steel barns were re-written as the new setting for the rest of the dream to follow.I am no longer lucid after the jump,
and unsure of what character I am. There are two other individuals with me, one 20-year-old junkrat who's crazy blond afro gave her a reckless air when combined with her ratty tank top and torn jeans. She had a natural affinity for taking apart and building things with total junk, which may have included the Gatling gun slung on her hip like I had my handguns. The other appeared to be aged 28, darkly moody, and dangerous. Like me, he wielded dual handguns, which were concealed within his black coat. I presumed the coat's color was picked to match his hair color, but he corrected me in saying it was to match his pants. Aside from that, he was in charge of carrying around Junkrat's tools, such as a tremendously oversized bolt-cutter used on my highschool's pop machine. It was as we were taking parts out of said pop machine that we were rudely interrupted by about half the student body. For some reason, I think some of them had guns.
They surrounded our group, with the likely intent to either take us custody or kill us, neither which option seemed particularly appealing. I tried a desperado to fend them off, which failed and I had to reload. After the reload, I was on the other side of one of the groups surrounding ours, and from this spot, I noticed a little girl, perhaps 8 years old. She wore a distinctly colorful outfit, that gave off an anime character vibe. She then merged into the story as if she had been there the whole time, and was a part of our ragtag trio. She then proceeded to "help us out" by emitting a voice which had the effect of paralyzing all the other students. Somehow, the next thing I can recall is one by one shooting each student in the head,
possibly because the paralysis has a limited time effect, and this would be our only chance (but why not run?). After dispatching most of the students there, I walk up the ramp and head to Math class like nothing happened. Principal M is teaching the class, and I see my old buddy Del there. Principal M gets after him, probably for being a trouble maker,
before beginning the class. I take a test for a few minutes, before the entire east wall dissappears, and we are very high up. The class notices some power line workers standing in this weird contraption, where two guys have to hold up each side which they're standing in, while the other works in the middle. The are also very, very high off the ground, about 100 meters up and 100 meters away from us. Suddenly, one man loses his position and tumbles off. The contraption is no longer stable, and the other two fall off as well. The entire class watches in horror as these guys fall to their deaths far below. Somehow, it was much more shocking than shooting half the school. As we look at their corpses below, suddenly,
they stand up, perfectly fine. Principal M then explains that he had given each of them a wind rune, so that they wouldn't be hurt by falling.

Recall Ends.

So I had a really strange dream I married myself but I was a boy. I had a white dress and everything but the guy I was marrying was me but as a boy. And that dream was so strange I really want to know what my mind is trying to tell me. I mean I am a girl and I feel good in my own body as a girl so it can't be something like that I feel in the wrong body. Or maybe it is just me wanting to be loved. In the dream that I had I really loved the guy me and that is kinda strange cause I often judge myself and I never felt like I am normal or better then everyone else. And with not normal I mean the feeling that there is something different about me that isn't about everyone else. And I never knew what is different about me that's why I never tried to change cause I didn't knew what was so different and just accepted it. But I still judge every flaw that I have. And something important that I almost forgot about the dream was that is also kind of funny there was another me guy who after I got married he said congrats hugged me and was jealous and looked at my groom with a death stare.
Then my mother complained why I didn't want to invite her best friend to my wedding and I think the only normal thing in that dream was how my mom was talking and explaining stuff just how she would do in real life the same reactions. But what didn't make sense was that she said we should have had the wedding on an island that was near us cause it is near from the country where a friend of mine is. The weird thing is the country where my friend lives and my country are next to each other but there is no island between or water. Could this dream mean something about me craving for love cause I never had a boyfriend but I did fall in love often like crushes but I never had like a relationship and mutual love or some nice guy that would have a crush on me I was always the girl in the friendzone. And I always thought well it s better that way I can focus on school and stuff but I also really want to experience mutual love. Or maybe this dream is like if someone knows the old Cartoon Teen Titans there was a episode with Raven's mind where there where different Raven's with different personalities but all this different personalities are Raven and together those personalities make her who she is. And yea I am 16 still loving the old Cartoon Network cartoons maybe because of my age people pressure me into being in a relationship or making me feel different cause I never been in a relationship teenagers react like what is wrong with you. But even doe I want to experience love I don't want to rush things the one I love should wait for me and have a romantic just holding hands and kiss relationship and romantic dates like eating ice cream together at a ice cream parlor. And I am sorry that I wrote so much and my own explanations are way too long but maybe if you know me a little bit better through this you also can explain better why I would have such a dream and what it means. Thank you for reading and helping me out may Karma help you back <3

2017, 04-07

Enter Lothlorien

I am in a place I don’t recognize. I look around, trying to figure out where I am. I see I am very close to the foot of some tall mountains, I am in a rocky area at the foothills of the mountains. Not sure where to go, I follow the sound of a flowing river or stream. I go a little way before I find the source of the sound. The river is little more than a creek here, bubbling out of the rocks and flowing and cascading away down the foothills. I start following the stream to see where it leads. I make note of how nice a day it is for taking a walk outside. I kick myself for not bringing my phone alone, I could be getting distance on my Pokemon Go app even if there aren’t any pokemon in such a remote area.

I have not gone far before there is a flash of white light in front of me. I stop and do a double take because there are now two men standing where there was no one just seconds before. I recognize both of them right away. One of them is MoSh, and the other one is Q from Star Trek. I am surprised to see either of them here, since MoSh lives in a different country than I do and Q doesn’t exist in our world at all. When I think about that I realize this area doesn’t look like any place around my home, which is in the middle of a desert. Q smiles and even chuckles a bit. He says it’s amazing how slow the mind tends to conclude that it is dreaming. He tells me to do a reality check. I hesitate, my mind really is working rather slowly though I’m not sure why that might be. Finally I pinch my nose to do a reality check and I find I can breathe just fine even with my nose pinched. So I become lucid and then I announce to Q that I am dreaming. Q says he knows that, he’s the one who told me to do a reality check. He says the rest of the fellowship should arrive momentarily, and he was going to disappear. He then tells both MoSh and me to make sure and remember that we’re dreaming. MoSh gets down on the ground and is looking at his hand strangely. I ask what he’s doing and he says time dilation. I’m really not sure what he is talking about. I am thinking about asking Q about time dilation but when I look back I see Q has vanished.

I look over at MoSh and see he is still focused on his hand. I wait for a bit and soon a group of people come along. I recognize them from the Lord of the Rings books / movies. Aragorn, Legolas, Gimli, Boromir, Merry, Pippin, Sam, Frodo. It appears Aragorn is leading them. He does a double take when he sees me and says he thought I’d disappeared again. He says we have to hurry on our way because there will be orcs swarming from that mountain after us once it gets dark. He asks who my friend is, pointing at MoSh. I give him a name that must satisfy him, but I can’t remember what name I gave. Aragorn hurries past and tells us we had better keep up. MoSh gets up and watches Aragorn and the others pass by. I notice Frodo is hanging back a bit. I ask if he is ok. He looks like he is in pain. He says he is ok, just got the wind knocked out of him by an orc spear back there. I tell him I can help, and I focus some healing energy through him. He seems to feel better and continues at a quicker pace.

We have continued quite a while when we come to a river. Legolas is saying the river is the Nimrodel and can wash away weariness when one bathes their feet in the water. He says we will have to wade across it because there are no bridges, but it is shallow. So everyone wades across the river. It is starting to get dark out, even now dusk is settling into night. Legolas is singing a song about the Nimrodel now, but I don’t pay much attention to the words, the melody is nice. Legolas says we’d best sleep in the trees and jumps for a branch. Someone is in the tree, however, and gives him a command in a different language. I somehow understand the language, the tree dweller commanded Legolas to drop back to the ground and wait there… Legolas tells everyone else to stay still and not move. I wait for a bit and finally some elves drop from the trees. They do not seem hostile, however, just cautious.

Even as Legolas and the other elves are discussing whether or not our group can pass into Lothlorien there is a lot of noise around us and we are under attack. Aragorn expresses surprise that the orcs could have caught up so quickly, and draws his sword to fight. Legolas fires arrows and drops a few orcs before they even reach us. It suddenly occurs to me that I was going to make sure MoSh has a Witchblade. I don’t see one on his wrist so I reach into an inner pocket of my Assassin’s robes and I find a Witchblade there. I take it out and toss it to MoSh after getting his attention. He catches it and puts it on. It forms into armor and a sword as the attacking orcs get closer. The orcs are now close enough to engage in melee combat. I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and then I engage the orcs in battle. My Alex Mercer blade carves through attacking orcs as fast as they can come on and attack. I’m being attacked from all directions so I use a spin attack like Link from Legend of Zelda, slicing several orcs open across the middle. I look around just in time to see MoSh remove the head of an attacking orc. Before long all of the attacking orcs have been destroyed.

After the battle is over I see some of the elves set about disposing of the orc bodies. One of the elves is over talking to Legolas, from what I can tell they are discussing whether we will be allowed to enter into Lothlorien. They finally decide that we can enter, but will have to be blindfolded. I look over and I see MoSh looking up at the trees and wandering around a bit. He says this place is beautiful and then takes off flying, much to the amazement of the fellowship and the elves. One of the elves asks me where MoSh is going. I tell the elf not to worry about where MoSh is going, he won’t cause any harm. The elf says that’s not for me to decide. I tell him that if fighting by their side to defeat the orcs isn’t proof of friendship, what is? He looks like he will say something else but then he doesn’t. I realize I still have my blade arm active and I shift it back to my normal arm. The elf says we’d best get into the trees to rest for the night, they have platforms prepared for just such use. The people in the fellowship start climbing up rope ladders that are hanging down from the trees. The elf asks if MoSh will be returning. I tell him I don’t know for sure, but I rather doubt it. And I don’t think I’ll be around for much longer, either. He asks where I would go when there are surely more orcs out there on the hunt. I tell him I can only be there in a dream, so I might be waking up at any time. He says no, that while Lothlorien may look like a place only to be found in dreams, it is most definitely real. Before I can clarify what I mean, however, everything fades to black and I wake up.

2017, 04-06

Escape From Moria

I am in a dark place. A very dark place. It is so dark that I literally can’t see my hand in front of my face. The night vision feature of my Penticon computer chip implant activates and now I can see around me, though everything has a strange greenish tint from the night vision. I am in a long underground passage that looks like it was built rather than a natural cave. It looks like a mine shaft. I follow it for a while and soon find it opens into a huge hall that is supported by many huge pillars. I am able to see the main hall with my night vision, but I see there is a dim light coming through a passage off to my left. I head down that passage to see if I can find out where I am and why I’m there. The source of the light is from a door on the right.

I go through the door and stop short when I see an elf pointing an arrow at me. It’s Legolas, and he lowers his bow when he sees me. He says I have a bad habit of sneaking up on people. I tell him I wasn’t trying to sneak. Boromir looks puzzled and says he thought I got trapped outside Moria after the lake monster destroyed the doors. Sam looks upset and says he thought I was going to see Bill safely to Rivendell. Gandalf has been focusing his attention on an old book, but he looks up and sees me. He is standing beside a large slab of stone that looks like it might be a tomb, the book is lying open. He closes up the book and gives it to a dwarf, Gimli. He also wants to know how I got past the destroyed western gate. He then says I can tell them later, for now he has a feeling we had better all get moving out of there. He says to go back to the main hall and then exit through the eastern passage.

But before anyone can move towards the western exit there is the sound of drums from all around. Legolas, who has gone back to watching the passage, calls to the others that they are coming. I reflexively ask who. Gimili says we cannot get out. Aragorn says to close and bar both doors. Boromir is beside the western door and he says it’s no good, the door is broken and wouldn’t budge if we had our own troll to push. Gandalf fires an energy blast down the hall outside and illuminates many orcs in the light as the orc in front gets a hole blasted through it. Gandalf tells everyone to run through the other door, there’s too many to fight. I don’t figure I have to listen to Gandalf, so I go out into the halls to stall the orcs and give the fellowship a better chance to get away. I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade, charged with light energy so it is giving off a light that I can see the enemies by. The orcs fire arrows at me, but I knock them aside with my Alex Mercer blade. That doesn’t deter them, however, they are advancing down the hallway. The group of orcs parts and makes way for a troll coming through their ranks. The troll is practically filling up the entire passageway all by itself. I’m not sure how easy it will be to take on a troll in such a closed area, but remember talking to MoSh about the Ranma ½ anime series. I think of a technique used by Ryoga Hibiki called Bakusai Tenketsu, which shatters inanimate objects such as stones… so I use it on the supports of the passage to each side, causing the aging structure to collapse around and on top of the orcs and troll.

I go back through the door into the room with the tomb and I see no one is left there. The far door has also collapsed even though I didn’t do my Bakusai Tenketsu anywhere near it. I assume I must have accidently caused the collapse, however. There were apparently some orcs on the near side of the collapse in the outer passage because now they come into the room and attack me without seeming to realize there is nowhere to go in here. I use my Alex Mercer blade arm to fight back. Only a few orcs got through so it doesn’t take long to cut them down. My next thought is that I have no idea how I’m supposed to get myself out of here with the outside passage blocked and the other door also blocked. Maybe I could find a way through the collapse? I start looking around the collapsed door to see if I can find a way. There aren’t any openings large enough for anything bigger than an ant to go through. As I pointlessly try to fit into a small opening, however, I find I am getting smaller and smaller… until I fit through! I hurry along the dark passage and stairs beyond by using night vision once again, and I seem to be my normal size again. Somehow I seem to have changed size without being consciously aware of how I did it. I wonder if I will be able to do it again if I choose to…

I finally enter a huge hall at the end of a passage. The hall is lit by a red light coming from a giant crack halfway through the room. Fire is coming from that crack. In the other direction I see a long and narrow bridge. On top of the bridge I see something ugly like a demon of some kind and Gandalf. I can hear Gandalf speaking loud and clear, "I am a servant of the Secret Fire, wielder of the flame of Anor. You cannot pass. The dark fire will not avail you, flame of Udûn. Go back to the Shadow! You cannot pass." I see Aragorn and Boromir coming up behind Gandalf as he strikes the bridge, causing a wall of white flame to erupt and the bridge to break under the demon’s feet. I know what is about to happen and I take off at a sprint to reach the bridge in time. The bridge collapses underneath the demon, and it plunges into the depths. I am reaching the edge of the bridge as the demon sends its whip up to snare Gandalf, he is hanging on the edge as I jump the gap and dive to grab his arm… I barely get hold of his hand. He gives me a strangely calm look and says to me to just let go, this is not the end. I can’t hold on with only having his hand and the weight of the demon pulling down, and he slips away, yelling louder to everyone to, “Fly, you fools!”

I’m about to jump right off the bridge and go after Gandalf and the demon, but the next thing I know strong arms are pulling me away from the edge, a man says not to be foolish, Gandalf is beyond our aid now. I look and Aragorn is pulling me away from the edge. The bridge is crumbling, if I hold Aragorn up he might fall, too… not acceptable. So I follow him the rest of the way over the bridge and we get off just in time. Aragorn calls to the others that he will lead them now, and we must start by following Gandalf’s final command, we must get out of here! So there really isn’t any option now but to follow the others down a passage and then into the final chamber. I see the door to the outside on the far side of the room, the light shining brightly through. There are more orcs barring our way to get there. Aragorn and Boromir charge right in and kill several orcs, Legolas hits a few more with well aimed arrows. I reform my Alex Mercer blade (it had changed back to a normal arm) and use it to cut down a couple more orcs. The rest run away in fear. We all pass through the door and onto a rocky landscape under the bright sun.

We move quickly away from the entrance, making sure to get beyond the range of bows and arrows before taking a pause. I look around, everyone is sad, some are openly crying. I just kept thinking I should have saved Gandalf, I should have saved him. Apparently I said that aloud, because Aragorn says I did everything I could, we all did. He said this was what he feared from the start, alas but he spoke true. Gimili blames one of the mountains, shaking his fist at it, saying only if Caradhras had been less cruel. I look around again and I see Sam has a cut on his head. I don’t know where he got that, but I can heal it… I go over to Sam and focus healing energy on the injury and it closes up quickly. I’m not sure if he even notices, he is currently lost in his grief. I look around, but no one else looks injured. Aragorn says if I’m willing to stay around, they could use the extra help now. I tell him I can’t stay constantly, but I’ll be back if I’m needed. Everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

School and FA

Vague memory of Asuka bringing me into a school again. We are going in and out of rooms looking for Something... Not sure what.

FA, I'm in a bed in the school on a landing by some stairs? My cousin hops on to the bed in PJs and he is complaining about his feet. He pulls out a pitcher of water and pours water all over his feet, and the bed. I morph in a Jamaican woman and say in a bitchy voice, "Did you just pour water on your feet?" My memory fades here.

Lost Puppy

I'm walking down a street in a suburban area and notice a seemingly empty shopping bag moving around. Ok, just the wind... but then it crawls. I reach down and open it and see there's a small black puppy who looks lost and hungry. I pick up the bag and it pops it's head out a hole in the bag. I turn around and head back towards my house. After a few minutes of walking I reach my house. Some people approach me and ask me what I'm doing with an empty bag? I said found a sick puppy in there. Someone inspects it and it is empty and they look at me like I'm crazy. I turn around to look for the puppy again. I find some very large cats circling the scared puppy. I shoo them off and pick him up and head back home.

Same room

I am in a strange house with some stoner type guys. A blond woman is also there. for some reason I go to use their washroom and find a room with a couch and then a toilet beside it. I go back to the group and they say we are going to some other guys room to smoke up. We go in a different door and enter the same room with a couch and a toilet... okay. I get confused and leave the room and go back to the bathroom. I find the same room with a couch and a toilet but no one is in there. I go in the hall way and open another door and find the same room with a couch and a toilet. Everyone walks out of their room and back into the main living room. "Why do you guys have 3 identical rooms?" The guys shrug and the blonde woman laughs and says, "I know right this house is so confusing!"

2017, 04-03

Entrance to Khazad-Dûm

I am in a strange place I do not recognize. I look around to try to get some idea of where I am. There are tall mountains off to my left and I am in what appear to be the foothills. The foothills are rocky and there is a somewhat broken path winding through the rocks and hills. I follow that path for a short while, not making any attempt to stay quiet since I don’t notice anyone in the area. I do a double take when I reach the top of a ridge and find myself face to face with a man aiming a bow and arrow at me… or rather an elf. I stop where I am and look, recognizing the elf as Legolas from the Lord of the Rings. I wonder if the rest of the fellowship is somewhere in the area, and think they’re probably sleeping and it was Legolas’ turn to be on watch. He doesn’t fire his arrow, he says I don’t look like a servant of the enemy, although some of the most foul creatures can make themselves appear fair if need be. I spread my hands out to indicate I’m not armed and I don’t want to fight. I say my name is Raven Knight, and I was just wandering out here. I would only seek to help him and his companions if I can. He seems unconvinced, and asks how he is to know I’m telling the truth. I’m not really sure what proof I can offer, so I figure I will depart and just watch from afar in case they need help.

I notice the sun is setting and it is now dusk. The wind starts blowing, blowing and howling. Then I realize the howling isn’t the wind. Legolas goes over to a sheltered spot and wakes someone, telling that person that the wolves are on the hunt again. Aragorn gets up and does a double take at seeing me. He asks who I am. Legolas tells him I have claimed to be a wanderer, but there’s no time to check, the enemy is nearly upon us. I figure that’s why I was brought here. Aragorn wakes the others and everyone gets together in a circle facing outward for easier defense. Someone in the middle is trying to strike a fire. The wolves, or rather wargs, arrive… and they have orcs on their backs! The orcs and wargs surround the group on the hill, though they’re clearly ready to put up quite a fight. Now is the time I can prove I am here to help, by fighting off some orcs. So I form my right arm into an Alex Mercer blade and start picking orcs and wargs off from the outside of the circle. My blade slices right through their orc hide. The fight doesn’t last for long, soon the orcs want to retreat, but the company doesn’t want to allow that if it is possible to prevent it because they may alert other enemies as to where they are. I take down one fleeing orc with an Alex Mercer tendril, Legolas fires an arrow and takes out another fleeing orc… and that is all of them.

Since I have been fighting on their side, Gandalf indicates I should follow them to a safer place. He says there will be more enemies very soon, unless by chance that was all that they sent. I follow them down a dark path, following the light of the moon, and soon we reach a pool near the mountain. We go around it and Gandalf says the entrance to Moria has to be around here somewhere. After a brief pause, he does something to the stone wall and glowing writing appears in the light of the moon. He says that while he’s figuring out how to open the door everyone should leave behind what baggage they don’t need and each take a portion of the pony’s baggage and turn the pony loose. Sam is very upset about that, saying that is no different than killing the pony, who he calls Bill. Gandalf says he’s sorry, but there’s no choice. He says there are places in Moria that Bill won’t be able to pass, and that’s assuming Sam could even drag the pony into the dark underground place. Sam is crying. I go over to Sam as the others are removing the pony’s burden, and suggest my solution. I tell him I will escort the pony back to Rivendell, make sure Bill makes it safely. And there Bill will await Sam’s return. Sam looks at me and asks how I intend to make it back with the wargs and orcs on the hunt. I tell him that is my problem, but I don’t think it will be a problem. However Bill will be waiting for him, so Sam will have to be sure to make it back, too.

Gandalf laughs and says this riddle was too easy, he was making it harder than it should’ve been. The writing on the wall tells what the password is, it’s just “friend” in the Elvish language. He speaks the word and then the doors swing open. And at that moment tentacles reach from the dark pool and grab at Frodo. Bill gets scared and runs away, heading around the pool and for open ground. Sam seems undecided on what to do, I tell him I will make sure Bill is safe. Sam cuts the tentacle holding Frodo’s leg with his knife, which is a good size sword for him. Gandalf calls to everyone to get inside, and they all crowd through the door before the tentacled monster slams the doors shut and then starts ripping the place down. The others are safe for now, so I follow after Bill. The lake monster doesn’t seem to have any interest in either Bill or me, it seems it was after only Frodo. I walk a ways with Bill, but I realize it will take far too long to return him to Rivendell the normal way. So the Metallica song “Through the Never” comes to mind, and I use it to open a portal. I lead a hesitant Bill through the portal and on the other side I see Elrond’s house in the distance, lights glimmering in the moonlit night. Bill will be fine now. Everything around me fades to black and I wake up.

Elevator Trouble

I was moving some very large boxes onto an elevator with some people. The one box was so big that the doors wouldn't close but it went up anyway. We dropped a box off at one floor and then another on another floor. I read the instructions and it said we had to unload all the boxes on the third floor. When I announced this my coworkers just laughed about it.

Room and Concert

FA, in a room like mine but different with my youtube playing what it usually plays but i couldn't see the screen exactly on my laptop. It felt too real but i did a nose pinch RC and a little air came out, but not enough to convince me I was dreaming. I checked all my sense and thy seemed relatively normal. My brother burst into the room. Even though my brother lives in a different city i didn't question it.

my vision zooms out and we all get into a minecart like on Donkey Kong Country. I see it go a ways and now we are in some mall. We walk way to the end and i see it's night out. I get mad at my brother because i know i have to be home in time for work. He enters a door into some ballroom and I walk down the mall. I find myself in a bathroom looking into a mirror and I notice that my hair is really long and down to my shoulders, I'm surprised because I'm really balding and shouldn't have so much hair. Up ahead is a 3 way intersection in the walk way and behind some door is flashing lights and rock music. There's a concert in the middle of the mall. This all seems to odd so I nose pinch RC several times without it working. I then think back. I remember waking up and then traveling to this place. It all added up so it must have been real. I kept walking past the concert part and there were electronic keyboards on display. One guy was playing along with the music and paused to watch me walk by. I tried more RCs I can't remember and didn't become lucid. I was really disapointed when I woke up.