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I sat in a Dutch train while complaining about remakes of movies, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, for example, but the idea of Zoey 101 and Victorious remake or a shot-by-shot, movement by movement remake of Iron Man (which I haven't seen) with an Iron Woman instead.

The train kept randomly stopping and the announcer said that it might take three hours instead of the normal 30 minutes. I was getting claustrophobic feelings because you couldn't exit the train and every random moment the train stopped riding it felt like it was standing still for longer. To the point I started to get worried it will get hit by other trains on the same track. I started figuring out ways to leave the train.

There was a man doing announcements in the train who looked like a Somalian comedian from Instagram, we joked that it was his voice that brought bad luck.

Luckily I woke up!

3/21/23

At highschool walking around
I see a math teacher I had in middle school
We talk while walking down the rotunda
He's talking about one of his classes
I ask him specifically how he is doing
He is surprised and I can tell pleased by my interest in his well-being
I notice my reflection in the windows and see my hair is styled like it was when I was a freshman
It is the last day of school so everyone is very informal as the day ends
There are large groups of my peers gathered by the exit taking pictures of each other
We all burst out the doors at once into the parking lot
I notice my current car parked on the street right by the entrance
As I approach I notice my car has been broken into, one of the windows is forced down and one of the side doors is slightly ajar
I'm put off but not too worried because I keep no valuables in my car
I shout, Ah man! Wtf! Someone broke into my car!?
People notice and a small group go into a frenzy of "oh wow, nice! This is YOUR car???"
A few of them circle the car with me assessing the situation
A mutual friend climbs into the driver seat before me and pretends to start it up
I jokingly ask him "lol dusty you gonna drive my car huh?" He exits the vehicle
When I sit down I notice everything is torn up like the thieves we're looking for something
My passenger seat had been ripped up, glove box broken, center console opened and papers everywhere
I sigh at the violation and start the car to leave

I am with Sunny in a major south east Asian country
It feels like a metropolitan south Korean with tall city buildings and ancient temples/sites peppered between them
I am in complete awe with the amount of details around me
The traffic feels alive, we are walking with a group it seems but I can't stop looking around at the odd angles the highrises have balconies and extravagant walkways between them
I gather we are going to some special ritual put on by the people here
We have to travel to the place together and it seems like the crowd is growing the closer we get
We have to make our way up a very tight very old tower with rustic stairs and a somewhat medieval aesthetic
I notice how packed the stairs are as we get higher and high
It occurs to me I'm in a country with fewer building codes and collapses are somewhat frequent
The whole structure is swaying with the movement of the procession up the never ending staircase
I get worried about being caught inside this thing if it tumbles so I tell sonny I can't go this way and need to leave while running back down the stairway opposite the torrent of people coming up
We get back to the street level with no issue and continue the general direction towards the ritual but along the street this time
I am still amazed at the detail and just how foreign everything feels
There are planters with unique plants all along the buildings storefronts we pass
Everything is very well lit and feels fancy in this part of town
We pass an attraction which is kind is ride I gather
There is a little car shaped like a streamlined spaceship on the sidewalk, it is a very shiny bluish gray colour with a single point in the front, and two points at the back
I reach for my phone to take a picture and feel 3 different phones stacked in my pocket
I keep telling sonny how amazing this all is because I've never been to Asia before
We arrive at our destination which feels like a large hotel lobby with a massive bar/atrium area inside hundreds of people are elbows to elbows standing around
Everyone is wearing orange and white
We are in a line and a they are handing out what appear to be white kitchen towels with an orange corner folded into an armband, one for each person
We are told to put the band on our selection and that would signify which one was special
There are thousands of bottles of alcohol and deserts of all shapes and colours on every surface of the main gathering area
They are already going through other people's selection's, making an announcement everytime they pick one up declaring this is the item they will provide this year
It feels important as there are chimes and incense and chanting, the ambiance feels spiritual
I put the armband on and begin to survey the selections, there are too many options to consider
I stand to the side taking it all in as the dream fades

I was at a convention, about to make a sale, and was in a bit of a hurry. I was nonlucid.

Suddenly out of nowhere, my grandpa walked by, as though just passing through. It didn’t fit with the scene and was a noticeable interruption from my current state of mind, but not because he was trying to be noticed. I got the feeling he wouldn’t have even looked at me, had I not initiated eye contact.

He smiled with genuine happiness, the way he used to smile at me. It was real, I thought. Something I hadn’t seen in a very long time, and never thought would happen again. I was instantly lucid.

There was something peaceful about him. He was ready to just walk by without interrupting the show, but I greeted him and we walked away from the convention into what appeared to be a Denny’s booth (with dark gray carpet on the floor, the wooden table and bench, and the red fake leather seatbacks).

“How are you doing?!” I asked, addressing him by his first name.

“Doing good! Its so nice to see you!” he said with a jovial lift in his voice like he used to have. I’ll never forget the joy he had.

“I’m glad to hear it.” I answered. “How is the real one doing?” I asked, referring to his physical self.

He frowned and seemed more dubious on the subject. “I just wish I could wake up…” he said with a sort of frustration and disappointment that was dwarfed by his happiness to be here. It seemed like he had been dealing with something lately.

That was about it for this one. I purposely woke up to write it down.

Anticlimax after the badass lucids I got midway through the comp, but oh well.

Me, and some friends of mine were in a weird looking house. A relative of mine was there too. Started with me and some guy working outdoors. But this guy was an irritating shithead and I walked out on him. Went to the PC to play a game. It was kinda like doom, and I streamed it in omnilucid vc. There was a water level, a lava level and a poison level. I chose the lava level cause it was fun. After I was done playing, I saw some nsfw stuff. I gave up halfway through and my relative sits down on the couch and proceeds to make fun of me for a bunch of old shit. I maturely responded and she pulled out a tv from a big box of stuff from my house. We watched the news and oh my god. Gorillaz collaborated with Nintendo to support Smash bros. GORILLAZ WERE COMING TO SMASH! I hyped it up to everyone who were equally excited. My brother in law was excited for another possible Gorillaz Movie and I agreed. After some more hype I woke up

2 dreams. Fun ones.

Dream 1: It all started with GTA 5. I was playing as a character that basically has cancer, but I need a chemical every few minutes to not die. I was doing a Heist with Mike and Franklin, getting these rich idiots’ cars and money from their homes. It was surprisingly complicated. Turns out though when we made it there, Lester was working there and I had to blow up lester as well. Crazy.

Dream 2: I was the same Cancer Man as last dream. Only this time I was at a friend's house. I found this app that worked double for VR. Had headphones to go with it too. The app was a fantasy simulator, that I oddly recall perfectly from before but don’t know where it is. It was average medieval fantasy stuff, but I had a slime girlfriend that I spent time with. In the house, we played piano and fought demons from the game. It was genuinely fun. Later on, I drove to a therapist and for some reason the slime girl was there with me, along with a relative. I had a really old iPad of mine from 2011, and nostalgia hit me. Then I woke up.

Pre WBTB - Winter Neighborhood

There is some muggy jungle scene but I can't recall much else.

I'm at a neighborhood street in the winter time. It reminds me of one I used to run as part of a route in college. Unlike how I remember, there are homeless people struggling to stay warm all across the street. The group I'm with don't have anything to give them so we feel bad.

Post WBTB - Zoomin' Through Space and Fun at the Sand Shrine

I take the Yuschak primary trigger supplement combo and get back to bed within about 10 minutes after reviewing WILD entry techniques. I lay down for sometime and wait for the vibrations. They eventually come and are fairly intense. I feel two waves of them, but no images ever form. I eventually slip off into normal sleep.

I'm back at the same neighborhood but this time it is a warm summer scene with a thriving community. I'm living with some friends of S and I. Three couples. SP is sort of the mom of the group and we're following her. We are coming home from driving somewhere and get into the house. The inside reminds me of my Grandma M's house. Specifically the bar we sit down at is reminiscent. We start unloading bags and everybody gets something. I get a giant jelly candy brick. I get up to look around the house and use the bathroom. SP or one of the other girls nearly walks in on me while I'm using the toilet, but luckily I'm standing and facing away from the door. When I go back into the hallway, I do a nose reality check out of habit. I'm lucid now.

Since a house isn't the most exciting place in the world, I decide to go outside. I leave the front door and the green grass is super vivid. I decide I should stabilize, so I rub my barefeet on the grass and the dirt. I lick the dirt for good measure and rub my hands. I do a few more nose RCs just in case. Well, if that check failed I would have looked really stupid. Oh well. Good thing I can breathe through my nose. I decided I want to fly, so I took off superman style. I hit a set of tree branches above me like a total chump immediately but it didn't hurt too bad.


Flyin' high. Made with a combination of Bing and Nightcafe image generator AIs.

I rose up into the sky and enjoyed the view of the neighborhood. I wanted to go explore more, but the world started to zoom out. Oh shit. It feels like I'm moving super fast. The world zooms out so far that I'm now in space looking at Earth. I think about the Outer Wilds Travelers' Theme song and laugh while saying the first few notes of acoustic guitar out loud. Naturally, the song starts to play. Zooming through space with music.

Outer Wilds Travelers' Theme: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR_wIb_n4ZU


The vacuum of space. Made with Nightcafe AI.

Into the universe I say "So, where are we goin'?" like Pippen at the council of Elrond from Lord of the Rings.

As if in answer, a pale blue cloudy planet comes into view on the space horizon. I remark that this definitely isn't earth. It doesn't have any green on it. At this point I'm just super happy I have been lucid this long. As I'm sent closer to the planet I confirm it isn't Earth. This is a desert planet.

My feet lithely (not a hint of my waking knee pain) land at the top of a shrine in a desert. There is a book with golden pages atop a pedestal. I see an attractive purple haired woman across the way near the top of the stairs leading down to the sand. She's wearing skimpy clothes, black leather with her chest showing. Her legwear isn't covering much either. No complaints. I get the sense that she is an experienced traveler, or she can guide me in some way.

"Woah! This place is so vivid!" I say.

"Yeah, it's pretty much always like that," she replies over the desert wind.

I start to follow her down the stairs and then try to pull her closer to me. She doesn't seem into it so I back off. We continue walking down the shrine area. I look at her clothes again.

Spoiler for Spicy Content:

"Soooo are you into bondage or something?" I ask.

"Well...yeah" she replies while turning a bit red.

I pin her to one of the nearby walls and start to make out with her. I slowly slip my finger behind her and down her lower back...and further.

"FUCK! I forgot how amazing this feels!" she says.


The purple-haired guide. Made with Nightcafe AI.

The dream gets unstable after that and I go into a false awakening. My body feels heavy. I try to rollover but still feel something like sleep paralysis. I have a few more false awakenings, but I eventually decide I really want to write down dreams, so I wiggle my toes and rollover. I wake up for real this time.

Supplements: Yuschak Primary Trigger Combination (3rd Attempt)
Galantamine: 8mg
Choline Bitartrate: 250mg

Default = Commentary
Blue = Dream
Dark Orange = Lucid

I'm back at nightly from the looks of it. Sweet timing.

Someone on the discord server suggested I turned The Ink Cult (A modding community I built for a game) into an open source Unity Project. From this project we rebuilt the entire game from scratch. However, Everyone was strangely egotistical and self centered along the way, Not helping the team which was exactly what led to the failure of the original devs. Finally we were done. Some guy was porting detailed textures to the levels. That’s when someone else joined. Who was it? Death. From Puss in Boots. He walked over to the texturing guy (who was personified in the unity project) and sucked his soul out like a dementor. Dude collapsed. He looked at everyone else and they ran for it. Only me and a couple other people stayed. Death said that the Cult had a curse that would kill us all one by one. While everyone else panicked (another was killed in the process) I decided to stay calm and wise. I went down and all the bathroom doors were locked and it was dark out. Spending a bit of time, I went back to Unity and summoned Death. Had a calm talk with him about the afterlife and honestly he was chill and respectful. He was talking while killing one of the devs. My goal was to convince him not to kill me, but I was left ambiguous to whether it worked. With everything happening I couldn’t help but RC. What did I find? Completely normal hands. But, I was still convinced. I went and tried fusing into the wall to teleport, but that didn’t work. So I tried my classic PR method: “Jolt Energy Bars”. I asked a parent if they had any and they said yes. I was happy to hear that but they stalled giving it to me for conversation. In that time, I woke up.

I was with a group of friends. We were having fun and it was great. Played this word game that was like Wordle mixed with some letter game. Well, this game gave me inspiration to look at DALLE 2. I wanted that lake SCP. SCP-1630 I’m pretty sure (That SCP in reality is a group of bean people) It had a great result though. Then I just wrote “SCP” in the AI art prompt and without pressing anything, It started generating a bunch of disturbing images of people getting killed and screaming, with distorted music playing.

My friend passed it off as normal and this got me insta-lucid. I originally was gonna gtfo cause of how messed up that art was but I remembered my PR and tried teleporting to it. I failed, and instead made it to this big mansion. Instead of using doors, I traveled by fusing into walls. Went out of bounds, like a game. I found two twins. Both of them looked mentally disabled but they were really built up. I tried asking one of the twins for directions, but then I woke up.

Pretty mid recall compared to last night. 2 Dreams.

Dream 1: It was my birthday. Cracker Island on CD and Vinyl arrived. I for some reason started packing up all my things and went to a bus. I waited as the bus driver played Gorillaz. I waited for like 10 minutes before we stopped back at my house and I woke up.

Dream 2: I was basically playing Boneworks 2. It had the map layouts of some Mario game. I got to a room where I had to time pressing 2 buttons on both sides of the room before the door closed in. I failed, but I didn’t reset. I was stuck in this locked room. I saved and woke up.

1 Dream Recall again cause I'm goofy.

I was watching Avatar 3 (shortly after my "Puss in Boots 3" dream) and all the Navi were chilling in this wooden mansion house. There was a human there, my friend in real life who for some reason every single hour got a year younger. After a while he became a baby. Me and the Catgirl avatar were building a big superweapon for some reason. Before I woke up, we went to this big room where a sculpture of Jesus was on the floor, fallen from it's container. Next to a sculpture of Satan who was in his container. It was spooky and I woke up

Missed out on 1st day cause I'm goofy but I recalled 2 dreams tonight

Dream 1: It was the exact same scene as a few nights ago in the movie theater. Instead of watching a horror movie though, We watched puss in boots 3. "The last wishes". However it was.. Weird. There were no characters. Stuff just happened in the background with no context. Then I woke up. But this wasn’t the end for Puss in Boots 3.

Dream 2: I was alone in the theater. Going to watch Puss in Boots 3. I asked the man for a large extra buttered popcorn and sat down to watch the movie.

Started out with the cast from PIB 2 to be in the Bar from Shrek 2. They have different drinks so Puss offers Kitty (who’s in the form of a snake) a sip and she drinks it all at once. Puss gets angry at her and walks away. In the theater, some kid joins. He’s an asshole that commented through the whole movie. Thankfully though he gets pulled into the screen and they threw his ass in an ocean halfway through the movie. Kitty had a dramatic death scene. There was action, it was great. The ending was badass with the cast of characters in an all out war to bring back Kitty using another magic object and I finished the movie fully satisfied. Then the theater asked me to do a quiz on the movie which I did (Which helped with this recall) and woke up.

I'm on a vacation with my family. We are at a beach, but the sky is gray. There is a pool nearby the beach and it has multiple "floors" under the water. My sister tries to show me a deep dive area, but I can't hold my breath and I have to go up for air.

I'm cleaning my childhood house with my brother A. I'm annoyed because he keeps assigning me chores to do. At one point I had moved my bed mattress into the garage, but then had to carry it back because I misunderstood what he was asking for. We're outside now, on the east side of the house. I'm playing some game with my brother. Maybe we are doing more chores. The grass is super green, like the way it looks in old pictures. A fighter jet flies very close over us. It does a cool flip trick and I give it a salute. The fighter jet drops two bombs down near us. They sit there a second before exploding. It doesn't hurt, but I feel the heat rapidly go up. I say "I love you, S" and then die.

I wrote this during the night, so I mostly just recorded the lucid part in detail. I might elaborate more on the non-lucid later. The child-man-ape things were rather creepy, and might be worth sharing.
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Up kind of late. It’s about 1:00 now. I took about 2mg of melatonin a bit ago.

2:30-2:48

WBTB, read some scripture, went to the bathroom, tried a bit of meditation.

4:30am

Dream Guide (Lucid)

Apes, and those four child-man-ape things. They want to attack me, bite me with their teeth. A monument that I think is not well constructed. Trying to sleep in the monument, then worrying about the cops waking me up. Guitar dog. Machine, which is my friend. It takes off down the road, and wrecks. I worry about someone or something being hurt. I go to see, and find that a couple of little animals seem to have been wounded. I feel it’s my responsibility to shoot them.
...I decide to hold off on shooting the animals until I look up whether or not they feel pain. Heading back out of the barn, I decide that I should do a RC for some reason. I do a nose pinch, and can still breathe. I’m dreaming! I think about how this is worth 10 points (possibly forgetting that the competition hasn’t started yet), and then think I should work on a task. What task? At first I think I try to find a place – I don’t remember what exactly. Having a bit of trouble finding it, and then I decide to try to find my dream guide. I start asking for the guide, or possibly saying something like “the guide is around the next corner”. Now I’m no longer in the barn, but in a larger building. I see someone up ahead. There is a short, but wide, flight of stairs leading to a corridor that runs perpendicular, and this is where the man is. I start chasing after him (there is something for a moment or two where there is someone else with him but I don’t know what becomes of the other guy) and catch up to him. He is a somewhat heavyset man, with a somewhat thin, sandy-colored beard. He is wearing some kind of shirt or jacket, I think, with words on the back. He has a kind of archaeologist feel to him, a bit of a cross between a couple of archaeologists I know in waking life and “Nigel” from the Jumanji movie.

“Are you my dream guide?” I ask.

“Yes, I guess so,” he replies.

My memory is a bit fuzzy here, and I might lose lucidity for a bit. I have a couple of business cards that I try to fish out of my pocket and give to him. He is looking for a site to do some archaeological work, and seems interested in a place where I worked once. I seem to regain some lucidity, I think I want the guide to teach me something. He responds by pushing me down a set of stairs. I get the feeling that there is something he wants me to learn on my own, and at this point he isn’t going to help me (at least in a micro-managing sort of way). I remember thinking that he got me out of somewhere (a backrooms type situation, or something).

Now I’m in a basement area. I seem to lose lucidity again. Someone is messing with an explosive – there is some chemical that makes people do weird things. I try to hide (with someone else?) while he sets off the explosive. Then there is something about going back in time, or trying again, to stop him. The solution is not to do something with the match as the man tries to light it. This makes him try to light it with a match that isn’t working as well (otherwise he would just start rubbing the now wood with his hand until it caught fire). Then I am able to stop him, although I think his hand and arm now look like a glowing, charred piece of wood. There is a large freezer nearby, and we go in. There is some conversation about whether or not I remember smells and such (maybe – the memory is kind of fuzzy). He seems to be hallucinating. He is also a reflection in a large mirror now, and is naked. I take the mirror out of the freezer, and out to where the burning stuff was. I think maybe the transition from the cold to the heat might cause the glass to crack, which it does. I think I drop the mirror. It falls backwards to the ground, and shatters. I worry that this might have been the only way to access my dream guide, but someone nearby says something about that not being the case.

Elaboration on the Child-Man-Apes

There were some people, possibly scientists. Actually, Charles Darwin might have been there. I get the idea that they may have been discussing evolution. They were going to do some test with an ape, involving it putting boards/shingles up against the wall of a cabin. I seem to be involved in some way. I think the ape attacks me. It is as though I've done something wrong, and as a consequence I'm now under attack not only by the ape, but by four creatures. These creatures look like a cross between large children, or sickly adults, and chimpanzees. They come after me, trying to bite at me. I seem to recall the thought of their teeth biting me was specifically repulsive. I think I go hide somewhere, also trying to sleep, possibly. But there is still that creepy thought that the creatures will find me. This might be where I come across the guitar dog - which is a sort of cross between a guitar and a dog. I really like this dog, and lay there petting it. It has some weird gelatinous thing lining the outside of its stomach. This eventually becomes a machine, I think, about the size of an automobile and with a couple doll-like pieces. I treat this like it is living. When I turn around and go back to where I had been laying, it moves away on its own and starts off down the street. I chase after, worrying that it might hurt someone. It does, in fact, wreck. When I show up to the scene, it appears that it has injured some small deer or rabbit-like things. I feel responsible for putting them out of their misery, and have a shotgun with me. I don't want to, but I feel like I should put them down. I try to catch, them, and go into a barn looking for them. This leads into the dream above...

I slept in an uncomfortable position with my head between my pillows and bad a collection of short, strange dreams.

• I was working different audiovisual related jobs, such as operation a radio tower
• I was in a pop up bank in Utrecht Central Station, where a robbery started to happen and had people with rifles and RPGs shoot the place. I try to distract the robbers and make a run for it towards the exit, but suddenly wake up. I might've been shot and woke up or forced myself to wake up until realising that I was dreaming.
• Half asleep, half awake after waking up from that terrifying bank dream, I stare into the dark as my tired brain generates psychedelic visuals of a vibrantly coloured desert where I blow away the sand, and come across strange, colourful creatures
• I had my theatre school graduation, my family as well as the women that did my hair were there, one of my family members was playing GTA on their laptop and I've been told my classmates and school walked by during an inappropriate scene from the game

There were more, but I forgot what happened. A lot of capitalism-themed dreams, and I know exactly why :U Can't disclose yet but I'm happy about it

I had just typed this entry, but lost what I wrote. I don't have a lot of time, but I feel like this dream is worth recording so here I go again. This is just a part of the dream, I think, and I have approximated the dialogue as best as I can remember:

The subaquatic people take their seats in their vessel. They are seated around the outside perimeter of a circle, facing inward toward each other. Someone, a main character of the dream, is offered the chance to join them. In the end, he refuses, because it would mean becoming one of them and living underwater for the rest of his life. One of the people, a lady I think, looks at me and says:

"This one might join us."

I think about this. The scene has the bittersweet feeling to it that happens sometimes at the end of a story where people have come to love one another but now for some reason have to part. But I think to myself that maybe I actually could go with them.

"What about my family?" I ask. "Would I ever be able to see them again?"

It is explained that although I will become subaquatic like them, I could still visit the surface world wearing a type of 'diving' apparatus. So, I decide to join them.

The vessel starts to descend into the water. There is a somewhat maniacal seeming captain, who, I think, expects me to drown. The rest of the people are cheering me on, seemingly happy at my 'rebellion'. I have been promised an oxygen tank, but in the meantime I have to hold my breath. It might be a long time of not breathing, and I count the seconds as I hold my nose closed. I get up to somewhere around 30 seconds, I think. Then I either wake up, or dream that I wake up, wondering if I have been holding my breath all this time.

Side note: I had a dream in October of last year with a similar theme. A subaquatic woman wanted me to join her, possibly making me subaquatic as well. In that dream it seemed like it was supposed to be frightening, but I wasn't frightened. I felt an attraction to the woman, and thought that it might be worth the transformation.