memorable

EDIT (9/17/17):
I was walking down the street with a group of friends that don't actually exist when an alien spaceship crashed right in front of me and turned into a robot. My friends were running and screaming all over the place as the creature was shooting lasers everywhere. I then looked at my hand. Instantly I said out loud "this is a dream, isn't it?" due to the fact that my hand was twice as long as it usually was and appeared to have shorter fingers. I then gained lucidity and decided to roam this world that I would only be in for what felt like a few hours.

fragment #1 : i was at a school, trying to take revenge on a bully.
there was a hole in his pants. i snuck over there. "what are you doing?" he asked.
"nothing, i..uh..." i said. he then shoved my head to the ground. he stared at me angrily for a few
seconds, but then smiled as he said "nice attempt, kid" and let me free "but the next time you try that, you'll be
on the ground crying."

fragment #2 : i am a big fan of amy rose from sonic the hedgehog. remembering that in my dream, I
go to my next-door-neighbor's house. I think of a good reason why she would meet me, and then i concentrated on the door. i opened the door, and out came an old lady. she started to lick my arm.
"and now for the last of the glue..." she said. "done."


so... yeah. that one backfired on me.

EDIT(9/17/17):
Fragment #3: This one is basically a vivid scrap. I remember my friends and I were stuck in a maze of glowing light cubes, attempting to find a clear exit.

I’m on a date with my previous step dad. We’re eating dinner on a balcony across from a hospital. It’s night so I can see inside some of the rooms with lights on. My previous step dad has a double who is working at the hospital. I see him in the room opening up chlorhexidine wipes. The one I’m on a date with asks what I do for a living. I point to his nursing double at the hospital but he refuses to look. I don’t like him and I’m totally over the date. I’m eating a snack bag of potato chips. A girl and her mom come over to my table (both overweight) and ask to have the chips. I tell them absolutely not! They then offer to pay for them. Once they get up to the $20 range I let them have it, it’s half eaten anyway and I start to feel like I’m cheating them. In the process, some other guy gets involved and I ditch my date for him. “Are you sure? I don’t have that much money.” He asks. “You have more money than him.” I say while rolling my eyes. We end up getting married and buying a house together. It’s a pretty old house on a farm. I feel like I’m settling a little bit but this is good for now. I like the surrounding open spaces with horses. He is excited about the view on the roof from the hot tub. We end up having 6 kids. 3 of them are now teenagers and 3 are toddlers. My husband gets into the wrong crowd and starts dealing drugs. From third person I watch a car and motorcycle chase he’s involved in. I shake my head in disappointment as he drives by the house and he looks surprised to see me. At this point it’s as though I’m in a movie and I know what’s going to happen next. I call a hitman on my husband who sits outside my house in a yellow minivan. I don’t know when he’s going to shoot so I’m trying to hide. I expect to hear gunshots but he must have used a silencer. When I come out to look, he’s shot all of my children except my teenage daughter who got away with an unwashed keepsake jacket from her brother. Each of my toddlers are sitting in their highchairs with bullets in the heads, surrounded by blood. I’m devastated but because this was like a movie I’d seen before, I expected it. The van was still there and they were watching me. I was hiding behind an ottoman and eventually they lost me so they started raiding the house. I ran out the front door with an overweight female friend. She was shot on the way out and dropped. I didn’t have time to save her. I ran faster than I ever have. I almost ran into a tree so I jumped off of it, which set me back a couple of feet. At this point the man was following me and gaining on me, yet he was walking calmly. I’m not sure why he didn’t just shoot me. He catches up to me and I jump on his back to attack him. He gives me a marker to write a specific derogatory term on his chin. I rebel by writing different derogatory things elsewhere and trying to choke him. He gets some kind of sexual pleasure out of it. I wonder if he’s someone from my past that I wasn’t nice to. Perhaps I bullied him in school. He takes me to a motel who shelters abusive evil people. Through the windows I can see men who have skinned their own faces, raping women. I know I will find no refuge here. I leap into some bushes across the street and stay still. My captor is pissed off and asks a female from the hotel to help find me. I suddenly feel him start touching and grabbing my body but he’s not sure if it’s me. “I think this could be a hoodie.” He said as he touched the hood on my jacket. The lady made them tea from an apartment right next to me and turned on the pool lights. They started swimming and I figured they were distracted enough for me to run for it. But I had nowhere to go but in the pool with them. I tried to push them underwater and drown them. They stopped following me but I still didn’t feel safe without knowing if he was dead or not. I called 911 but they didn’t help. I went to my aunt’s old house and ate purple flowers. They tasted very perfume-y. My sister and some of her friends were there and they were sharing recipes. I was just drawing in a notebook with wooden pages. I was supposed to do my hair in a specific way in three low buns and I insisted I knew how because I wanted to be left alone, but I didn’t know how and people had to come back and help me. They told me my bobby pins suck. I went back home, exhausted of running for my life. I thought I had to do it more but I remembered that the rest of the running was on Breaking Bad and not part of my personal story. Although now I do have all those precious plastic beads I have to hide. Everyone knows that drug dealers (like my deceased husband) are great at making jewelry and their enemies want to steal the plastic beads. I went upstairs and grabbed some boxes of beads trying to decide where I could put them. There was a whole room full of them. I took them to a window overlooking a football field hosting a game and threw some out of the window. I was worried it would hurt the players. I didn’t want to be involved anymore so I went to the party room. It was nicer than I remembered. The floor was a nice hardwood but it was messy. I went in there and relaxed with the college kids who were playing drinking games during daylight.

Today I FINALLY had a lucid again. Maybe it's because I got a small job yesterday, something I've been needing and previously I watched some jobs to go to other people by sheer luck, or rather my misfortune. Whatever.

I was in some kind of city, passing something that might've been a restaurant The outside spot where people where sitting was 1,5m or so higher than the street, and there was a slopping angle, I stood on the slopping surface and jumped, but instead of falling relatively fast I managed to pass the street of the crossing I was at, jumping 20m or so. This was in fact pretty much enough to make me aware of my surroundings and a short moment later I was lucid, even without reality checking. I was on the left side of the street and went into a building, which unsurprisingly was very spacious on the inside and also had an odd architecture. Parts of it seemed... like a skate park I guess. There were also other people and they've been working on at least one room, ladders and buckets of paint were in that room. I remember that the ladder tumbled at one point and I got hit by a bit of paint, oddly I seemed not to wear a shirt for that moment, albeit I think I did before and after that incident. Throughout the dream I remembered Arxas and occasionally called out for her, albeit I wasn't quite sure what to do so nothing much came out of it. The first time my vision went blank and the dream tried to fade I desperately tried to hold on, and eventually jumped down some stairs (or a slopping surface, not sure). The breeze and impact I felt due to the movement actually pulled me back into the dream for a few minutes. The next time it faded I tried the same again, this time without success, although it felt like I almost had success.

I swerve up to the side of the client's apartment building. There's an eavestrough there that's just too high off the ground to reach without a boost.

There's a garbage truck behind me. I ignore it and back up, hitting the truck with a screech of metal. The car's just under the eavestrough now, and I open the driver's side door, turn to the client, and tell her: "Go."

She slides out of the car and scrambles onto the hood while I smile pleasantly at the driver of the truck. He's still looking somewhat shocked by the fact that I just backed into him. As my client grabs onto the eavestrough and starts climbing into the apartment, I shut the door of the car.

I pick up the car, crunch it into a ball, and throw it into the back of the garbage truck.

"Don't worry," I assure the driver, "It's registered under a false name."

He... smiles back, and I know that he isn't going to cause me any trouble.

12.12.2015

Alarm Prevents Me From Trying Out Some Toys (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I was actually going to attempt 12 hours of image streaming before thinking that 30, or so minutes of it was more than enough, and that I could always do it on my next day off. Fortunately, the image streaming session beforehand proved to be advantageous in remembering some dreams.

So I’m doing some grocery shopping, but not sure who for in particular; maybe just myself, but later on in the dream, it probably was for a relative, or even one of the co-workers I was trying to image stream in being with. Whatever the case, I remember that I’m finish with the shopping, and I have a huge paper bag with some vegetables on top; your stereotypical visual cue of produce being bought along with some random items underneath.

The size of the vegetables were a bit larger than they should be, but I had a one track mind towards something else-finding the near XXX store to buy a sex toy for myself. I eventually stored the paper bag filled with items inside of a car that was probably white, but fairly old (in the 2000s, or even 1998), and proceeded to casually zone around the area. It’s an evening setting, but it really feels like it’s 2AM, or something.

There’s streetlights around, but they’re emitting a faded white light, and this misty aura that’s shaped like a cone penetrating the ground. The ground itself-side walk and all, consists of a melange of blue and gray colors, and by looking at that, it has this chalky, semi-realistic vibe to it. I eventually reach a section of the area that looks like it could sell sex toys, but the layout looks weird.

You get the impression that whoever owns the store is about to move out, or that they’re sold out, and probably needed to stock for the next day. I go ahead and open the glass door anyway. Inside of the store, the walls are light brown, and the milky, yellow lights make it more caramel. The flooring is a generic white checkered pattern, and to the right of me is a Caucasian male. He’s wearing a gray hoodie with the hoodie resting on his back, some brown pants, and a generic cool colored shirt. He has light, caramel hair, but he could have dirty blonde as well, and based on certain features of his visage, he looks like he could have originated in the East.

I wanted to feel that his overall clothing scheme would be shady, but honestly, I’m not surprised based on what the shop was in general. I go up to him, and started to get down to business. I first had apprehensions on this people a XXX store, but he clarified things to me in vague ways, almost as if he’s trying to have external ears deter away from that probability, I think.

He turns to the right, and I promptly follow him, and wondered how we’re going to pass through this brown wall that will clearly make him face plant into it. Then, a concealed door opens, and I hear this futuristic Zwooomp sound for a few seconds, and became even more confused. It felt like this guy was over playing it in hiding the real intent of the shop.

I continue to follow him upstairs for a bit, and there’s this bright, white light above us. When we reached the apex, I noticed this grandiose area that’s covered in white. There’s some white tables stacked in rows along with some white metal fold-able chairs that are spaced out about two feet from each other. There’s all sorts of dream characters, but the ones that I can remember at the moment was this Asian female that looks like she’s in hear early thirties that’s wearing a white dress shirt that’s tucked in nicely into a faded black skirt that accentuates the contours of her thighs, and ends a few inches above her knee.

She looks like Lucy Liu, and she has a hairstyle akin to the one Jady Nguyen had in Hitman: Absolution.

She’s handing papers to everyone that seems to be in the building, including me. I look at the paper for a moment, and noticed that there’s nothing of sexual connotations whatsoever. It looks more like complicated math formulas, and some scientific context thrown in there for good measure. I’m confused once more, but I continue to follow the guy around, as this is probably his second layer of hiding the fact that he owns a XXX store. This still seems like he’s over-playing it, especially when there shouldn’t be anything to hide in this dream.

I could’ve said that this is only a dream, but I couldn’t be bothered with opening Pandora’s Box that comes with the reactivity levels of said dream characters. I had a feeling he was talking to me, but it was filtered out as background noise for a few seconds while I was processing the general layout, and more of the dream characters. I noticed a second dream character looks like one of my co-workers. She’s of dark complexion, has her black hair tied in a hair bun, and her visage really looks like it’s fleshed out with barely any noticeable nuances to it.

She’s looking at me, which feels awkward, and she has the demeanor that she’s out for some toys as well, but we just dart our eyes somewhere random in space. I think she’s participating in the pseudo class being set up, when she’s probably trying to get more information on toys in general. I follow the guy, and get a little impatient, and started to ask if he had any toys for sale. He magically pops out like three Flesh-lights-one green, one blue, and a black one. He makes me privy to the function of each one. The blue one seems to have vibrations set up along with some ring that fluctuates horizontally, which seems to imply that it sets certain amounts of pressure if you put your rod in it. The green one seemed to be alien related, I think, and the black one was just your generic Flesh-light. They looked like actual flashlights from the base, and smaller than the actual Flesh-lights.

I asked him how much each of them would cost, and he starts throwing out figures like $49.95, $59.95, and $XX-95, and he literally just hands me all three of them. I ask him more questions as to why he’s handing me them all at once, and he states that I can go ahead and try them out before I buy. Then I started to question if these things were used, and how the packaging for each entailed of Bubble Wrap. Then again, he took it out of a large box, but I was kind of concerned on whether or not there was a metal rod in each of them in the first place.

Started to reconcile that it’s just a dream subconsciously, and thanked the guy. Now, I had to dart out of this place, and then realized that it’s fairly late in the night. I look at my phone, and noticed that it’s 11:02PM at the moment. I realized I probably would have caused moments of consternation for whoever I was supposed to bring the paper bag of groceries to. So, I utilized my phone, and wanted to text them that I’ll be back soon in about 30 minutes or so. First, it started out with “BRT in XX minutes,” but when I rejected this for something else, the moment I was about to send it to them, the phone in waking life sets off the alarm.


UGHHHH!

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12.12.2015

Typing Tags To Recall Previous Dream (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

When the alarm rings for the dream before, I believe I woke up in waking life, or so it seems. I think another alarm rang for the actual time, and the dream itself was just a false awakening.

I can feel myself feeling tired and groggy, and trying to gain mental fortitude to attempt a WBTB seemed so difficult for me inspite of sleeping very early (around 8-9PM). I'm waving my hands over, and realized that my phone should be located on the floor.

I somehow have a notepad app that I took the liberty of typing down some quick tags for the previous dream I had with the shop in order to remember some of the content, and expound on it later on. Once I finished, I went back to sleep.

Dang it.

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12.12.2015

At Tennis Courts Without Tennis Attire (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside of a school facility, and it looks like it could be a High School. There was a class that I was in, but I can’t recall too much of the events other than seeing a Caucasian female about to sit next to me that’s wearing a gray shirt, and a white hoodie on top along with generic skinny, blue jeans.

Then the bell rings, and I felt a little apprehensive, and figured there had to be one more period to attend. It turns out, based on the professions of an Asian male that looks exactly like an Asian Jon I used to know in real life, there’s only 7 periods, and the rest is up to the person to revel in extracurricular activities.

I told him how awesome that is, and I wanted to attend tennis practice, even though I didn’t have a racket. I was so caught in the moment that I went to the tennis courts only to see that they’re occupied at the moment. Some are red courts, and others are green courts, and there’s a mixed race of people. I see an elderly man with a dark complexion wearing a white shirt, cap, and maroon colored sports shorts. He’s wearing sunglasses as well with a small silver necklace. I don’t know what he’s doing, but it seems like he could be warming up.

The other people are just people about my age, or in their early teens rallying with each other. I pass through one of the courts, saw that they were looking at me and waiting before they presumed their rallying, and I felt odd being here at the moment in my current attire. I had plans to buy a racket pretty soon, but didn’t really think about just fabricating one along with a sports attire.

I’m in pursuit of a racket, clothes, and shoes to go along with it for the rest of the dream.

In this dream,I woke up and saw that I was living inside a huge tree.I was wearing a unique attire and I didn't seem to realise that this is a dream,I thought it was real,so in a way,maybe this is a false awakening?Because I really believed I was a shaman in it and have a strange superpower,connecting the realm to another realms.

I went out of my 'tree',and did I mention that everything was black and white?It was like a classical movie and everything was so slow motion and it was killing me.A description of the place outside my 'tree' will be a river.A long river,with lanterns floating on it.The lanterns were not lighted.The river was like,a road,people walked on it just like we normally do on real surface.It was beautiful,really.And there was the biggest tree which I guessed to be the mayor's house,and I went there.(Oh,the roots of the trees were flooded because of the river,it's like the town of venice,but replace the houses with trees.)

What I saw inside the mayor's tree were four different people,two women,two men.(I was a man in this dream)The two women were both mage and healer,and the men were warriors.The mayor seemed to give us a mission,and the entire scene shifted to reveal the five of us outside,but this time,the peaceful and serenity of the village was changed to a chaotic environment.Evil dragons and witches attacked the village and we fought them.

The scene immediately changed again to a big tree.The 'door' was locked from the inside,but I found a way to get in.Apparently,at the top of the tree was a big hole,and I jumped into it.My comrades were waiting for me unlocking the door from the inside,but I met an enemy.

The enemy was my 'friend'.I never saw him before,but I got the feeling we'd met.He tried to kill me,and I yelled at him for being a betrayer.I quickly ran to the door,because it was impossible to fight him,and went out of the tree,then everything became pitch black.

I tried to see through the darkness but to no avail,so all I did was appreciate it,and find comfort in it.After some time,I woke up for real,and thus,the dream ended.

10.12.2015

Applying Eyelash Makeup In Restroom (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m inside a grocery retail store, and I’m on my way to the restroom. The flooring before heading there is very clean, light brown cement color with some kind of marble coating to it. The lighting overall is a yellow hue mixed in with orange, and this probably due to the upper roof windows emitting the light from above.

It’s a fairly active within the store itself, and it’s very spacious as well. I seem to be carrying something that looks like a Poo-pourri spray.

I go inside the restrooms, and noticed that the sinks are to the left vs. the right as it usually is in the other retail store I shop at. There’s the same laminate coating, dark brown colors mixed in with some grays, blacks, and subtle appearances of white along with the fancy, stainless steel sinks. I look at the mirror, and I’m preparing to move the eyeliner makeup stick around for a little bit.

I try to apply some to my eyelashes, and I’m getting various outcomes each time I invest more time into this. One moment, it seems like my eyelashes are going to become thinner, and less noticeable. The next moment, it’s as if in spite of their state of being, they still are emphasized more for some reason, and it feel awkward looking at myself looking feminine. There were a few men that came every now and then to be surprised as to why I’m applying eyeliner, eyelash, whatever it’s called, and even though I had a knee-jerk reaction to be shocked that they came in, I still went about my merry way.

I was only aware of what was going on, and didn’t really bother to fixate on bodily movements, I guess. I started to play around with the substance within the makeup bottle, and I could see it’s a very thick, white substance with some black blemishes that are shiny and glossy as well. I pay attention to the realism of the texture forming around the small brush stick, and the sounds associated with knocking against the bottle from the inside with the brush stick.

After I stop reveling in this, I proceed to go out of the restroom, and as I’m going near a check stand, some random kid asks me for a machine’s game currency, and I quickly responded, “No.” And I mean no as in, “no-you-demon-child,you” type of no. The child is about 2-3 three feet in height, dark complexion, and is wearing a white shirt and probably some generic, dulled out shorts that were light blue. He had a haircut close to the 1.5 setting, i.e., having hair, but close to being bald.

He looks up at me weirdly, and doesn’t seem to be capable of processing my immediate response, and starts looking around for a bit, and then moves on to go to his parents.

The funny part is that later on in the day, a co-worker was asking if I was using perfume before she corrected herself, and saying cologne.

09.12.2015

Car Accident & Looking For a Mechanic (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I’m driving a really nice vehicle; a BMW I believe. I’m trying to either park in, or get out of the parking lot, and came to the realization that I probably needed to get something at the convenience store. I had a yearning to get some kind of breakfast burrito, or at least some beef fajitas for some reason. The setting of the dream environment entailed that it was early morning, or close to evening time; but based on the context of what occurred soon after, it was probably the former.

So there’s a quick skip where I received the food, and just as I’m trying to get out, I visualize myself outside of the car, and it’s parked halfway, and there’s a truck to the left of it parked parallel as well. Then, the perspective changes to where I’m driving again, and I see a car ram into me abruptly. I knew who it was for a split second, but I didn’t really feel any kind of rage. I only cared about tending to the vehicle, and finding a mechanic that can get the job done at a reasonable price.

For the rest of the dream, we had our backs turned. They tried to ask me a few questions, but they were afraid to make a face-to-face interaction with me. I wasn’t afraid, but felt that trying to argue would be a waste of time, and I spent some time looking at a screen related to Google Maps of nearby mechanics. The problem is, they’re way too far; one’s 67 miles, the others are about 200-300+ miles.

I hear the relative talk to someone on the cellphone, and I presumed that they found a mechanic. For a little bit, I started to recall the sensations of being in the car crash again, and there was a sense of relief, for some odd reason. I spend the rest of my time casually scrolling through the computer/laptop while ignoring further interactions with the relative; it seems were both at an impasse as to what to say.

I checked up what car crashes may entail with a grain of salt, but most of them made sense in context of conflict, and even reaching a big achievement. I didn’t elaborate more on the dream since I didn’t want to get too personal, but yeah.

It was the dawn of time. I was an observer to what scholars call "The World's First Marriage." Adam and Eve were upon their fourth year on earth and humanity had existed along with them. Their marriage, however, was less than ideal. Most know the story of what happened at The Garden of Eden. What people today don't know is that the marriage never really recovered from that moment. Eve was deeply hurt by Adams thoughtless finger pointing when he was faced by his creator. She still remembered his words when God asked if he had disobeyed and I imagined that even after four years the words still stung: You gave me this woman and she gave me the fruit so I ate it! When push came to shove Adam threw his wife under the bus and, while I can not be sure, I don't think he ever apologized for what he had done. So here they were now a marriage strained by an act of unbelievable cowardice. It was obvious to me and everyone else that Eve was not happy. Many have even stated that Adam may not have been the best thing to happen to Eve which I found odd since Adam had (supposedly) come first.

It was night time and although man had only existed for four years he had already made leaps and bounds in progress. I was in the middle east and I saw that mankind had already begun erecting modern civilizations. I later found myself walking along a path towards a town. I am not sure as to weather or not I was part of a pedestrian convoy but I do remember that it was pitch black out and the path was thoroughly shaded by trees. There were guards standing along both sides of the path. They wore turbans and they were armed with AK-47s (to reiterate this is just four years after mankind was first created) I didn't like them. I think I may have had to sidestep some land mines that were planted along the path (four years).

I eventually came upon a town. The town appeared to be a middle eastern slum that was dimly lit by blue florescent lights and I really wanted to get inside (I think that the guards were eyeing me something fierce). I don't remember the details but I was able to find a nice woman who was more than willing to let me stay. The home's exterior had the appearance of a mortar concrete home but the interior was very modern with wooden flooring, concrete walls and ceiling and all the amenities of a typical first world home. The family was very nice but didn't get along terribly well. I remember that there was a fight among the family and then the city guards came in and told the family that they were being evicted.

They had no other choice but to leave immediately so they packed up and were ready to go. I was gone from the house and some time had passed, then I came across a tower in the middle of a meadow. I don't remember what had happened but I do remember that the guards there did not want me at that tower.

I went to bed around 00:30 I believe. I woke up around.. 7? I stayed awake for at least an hour, did some reading in bed and eventually went back to sleep.

Fragment
» I'm somewhere in an urban area during daytime. I see my bicycle which was stolen 2 weeks ago. The wheels have been altered significantly, as well as the fenders, but I can still clearly tell it's my bike. Both the front and rear wheel have a chain lock on them. Near the back I can still see my green chain lock. This pisses me off. There are two people about. I wait for the thief so I can confront him.

The bicycle that got stolen in reality and the bicycle I saw in this dream are entirely different. I saw the bicycle that is still safely in my possession.

Scaly knee
This dream was quite dimly lighted. I'm walking around in an indoor swimming pool. I'm walking from one area to another. There's a girl standing at the edge of the pool, facing the pool and with her back to me. I tap her for a moment because I know her. It's Ewa. She turns around. Then I continue walking. My friend Sander is walking in the opposite direction and he tells me that he just took a break from a game that was being played in the other room and that I should take his place. It was a 3 vs. 3 game, rugby perhaps. I open the glass door to another area and enter it. I hold on to the side of the door for a long time, nearly getting my fingers stuck in between the door and the frame. There are just a few people in this area, though I don't remember who they were. One of them might have been a high school classmate. There are some big inflatables in the water. I walk along the edge of the water and stop for some reason and look at my right knee. I had a series of pimples or wounds there that are healing. I have a series of scabs that covers my whole knee. The strangest thing about them is that they look like they are made out of hard plastic. A boy asks me about them, but I don't think I pay any attention to him.

I feel like I'm at the bottom of the pool. My knee has made me realise that I'm dreaming. I consider again whether I should summon my friend Alexandra. I decide against it. It's better to first stabilise this dream. I slowly push the fingers of my left hand through the palm of my right hand. I truly believe it's possible and they go through easily. The sensation is unbelievable and indescribable. The idea that something moving through my hand should hurt me makes it feel slightly uncomfortable, but at the same time it's exhilarating. I feel this strange sensation not only in my hands, but also in my arms. I realise that there is practically no dream scene, as I'm supposedly at the bottom of a body of water, where little light reaches, though I didn't have any other indication that I was under water. I shout out 'stabilise!' (in English), but the sound is muffled and it sounds more like I whispered. I feel like it worked for just a second and would've worked better if the water hadn't messed up my command. At some point I realise that my eyes are closed. I'm afraid to open them, as I'm afraid that I will open my real eyes. I open them anyway and I remain in the dream. Next I notice that I've raised my arms. It feels very heavy to move them, as if I'm trying to raise them after an intense workout. I'm slightly concerned that I might be moving around in my bed and that I may have shouted in reality. In the end I may have softly heard an alarm beginning to go off, though I'm not certain about that.

The description of the lucid part is very long, but the lucid itself was less than a minute I'd say. Still, I am quite content with the fact that I had the sense of mind to attempt to stabilise the dream before doing anything else

My mind is taking me back to school 10/12/15

Dream 1: Something about being at a country school during the day and there being a fire alarm going off.

Fragment: Something about being at a university at night time.

Dream 2: I dreamed about my school graduation. Everyone was all dressed up fancily, yet for some reason the only way into the graduation was through a giant toboggan/water slide. It was 2 to a cart, so me and someone else jumped in and off we went, hemmed in on either side by other people. Eventually however everyone had stopped as the slide was blocked up. Our coordinators voice came through speakers and told us that there was a blockage due to flooding at the bottom of the slide. He said they would try to fix it but most likely wouldn't be able to so the guys should take off their suit jackets in case they got ruined. While this was happening inexplicably a black and white cat appeared and started jumping in between the carts, nestling up against people and seeking attention. After a while everything started moving again and we eventually got to the bottom of the slide. It was indeed flooded and we had to tippytoe out and dry ourselves off a bit.
Once inside I saw it a long rectangular room which looked a bit like a library as there were bookshelves on the walls. A teacher gave me a pamphlet thingy and then I found a seat next to some people from my media class. The librarian at the school started giving a speech, casually insulting some of the students, and then the dux was being announced. There was a twist however. There wasn't one dux, or two, but six! The names listed off were.. me (lol), Luke, Emily, David and Reza (only 5 I know but I'm sure these were the only names. All in all it was quite strange, particularly how my brother didn't get anything, probably representing my subconscious yearnings haha.

So some of my actual goals are summon fire in my hand and to teleport.
i tried both now several times and have more or less difficulties with it. i thought about how to approach this goal or problem and how i could solve it. i longer thought about to ask a dc to help me but i never know who might be a good candidate because either i dont know them or they are not practiced in lucid dreaming so it would be "harder" to convince myself that in-dream this is THE right person to show me something.

i had some days ago a low level lucid/semilucid where someone showed me how he uses fire with his hands with channeling his energy thru a ring. i liked the idea. but again thought about where to get a ring with a history (not just summon out of pocket and expect it to be special but have a story for it) i thought about an antiquarian where i would "find" one but it was too much incubation and too locationdependend... so i forgot about this for some time again.
yesterday i talked to Fryingman and how he tried to summon Sensei...
later in the night i had a micro-wbtb and thought about some goals i want to do in my next lucid. suddenly i had THE idea i could summon Sensei. i had a lot of contact with him so i kind of know him and he is very experienced in lucid dreaming, he can teleport so i dont need a special place for him and so on. he seem like the perfect in-dream-mentor! i was pretty exited so i needed to focus on my mantra and not get too awake from this thought...

Here comes the dream:
i am in a university library and have 3 books in my hand i want to borrow. i also have my phone in my hand and read a message. one of my (not so liked) Professors stands at a computer and wants to search for a book? he has some problems. i see it and out of reflex snort with laughter. he turns around and i look fast down on my phone. he starts choleric to complain: "i am sick of it that people are laughing about me, that is it, its enough blabla" i justify myself telling him that i dont laugh about him but i got a message and laughed about that. he dont belief me and keeps complaining. after some time i finally can convince him that it has nothing to do with him and he should stop... i turn around and want to go. i say "have a good success finding what you are looking for!" he answers " yea i need more luck that success..." i look down and suddenly have only two books in my hand. i see the third on a shelf right next to me... wait a minute that makes no sense. i pick it up again and it looks different. i do a nosepinch and i am lucid. my first thought is: "Ah this lucid is not worth it... it is over soon anyway..." but then i am like "wait you dont know you can atleast try."
i go out of the room put my hand behind my back and say:
"hey sensei take my hand"
i nearly immediately feel a small rather soft hand. i turn around and a big guy is standing infront of me. he is atleast 2m big. he has short blond hair and looks rather calm and reserved. he looks younger than me and smiles softly.
i start right up
"Hey senei... wait you are sensei right?"
He just nods and smile calmly .
"okay so you helped me alot and i know that you have persistent items and among others a ring right? and you now are very experienced and have over 1000 lucids so would you give me your ring please and show me how to make fire with my hands?"
He nods again and give me a 2€ coin.

i look at it and i am a little confused because its not a ring but i dont hang up on this thought and look at him. he starts telling me something and says i should put it on. i try to but i cant get the coin on my finger. i tell him:
"Sensei this is a coin, i cant put it on my finger?!"
He just answers
"This is all in your mind"
i get it and tap some times with my finger against the coin until it feels a little liquid and sticky. i then just push my index finger thru it and the coin/ring sits on my finger. i am exited and tell him:
"Hey i got it i just need to tap some times on it and it gets permeable"
He says something like:
"Yea the frequency and combination of tapping is relevant"
Suddenly a woman i saw some times IWL turns to me and says:
"Yea i use tapping too sometimes."
I turn again to Sensei and say to him:
"Now show me how you make a fireball in your hand."
He starts bending is hand and concentrating but i just dont wait and do it on my own and without any effort a little fireball instantly appear in my hand. I freak out of excitement and am super happy and i hear him say something. i dont get the words but i feel like he regret a little he gave me the ring and want it back when i am done with it.
because i am sooo excited i wake up prematurely like it didnt happen for month^^

This was sooooo awesome because everything fitted exactly and perfectly together i didnt have to convince myself about anything or belief in the result because it was consistent. sensei can teleport, i know he has persistent items and he is very experienced so he can show me new dreamcontrol and should have no problem with sharing his item with me. it worked like a charm!
i think i will summon him from now on way more often to show me stuff. he is already my mentor so why not use him as a mentor in my dreams too?
i also thought now that he handed me a ring and i kind of know it is a "persistant ring" i should summon it out of my pocket and just know that it is THE ring and not just some ring. the only thing is that it is a coin maybe i will use it nevertheless and find someone who can craft it into a ring for me
but now i have a really good starting point in creating my first "persistant items" and how i can channel my power when i might have some problems with any dreamcontrol i can take my ring and see if i can fix my doubts then and straighten my expactations

later that night i had another lucid:
i need to bring two things to someone i go up the street and to a busstop here i need to deposit the things. i did it already once (dejavue) but i cant remember to whom exactly. there is more than one person. another girl seems to need to do the same thing and she asks around. a girl with a cart seems to be the person of interest. i give her my dreamjournal. and say "ah with all this dreamjournals you know a lot secrets about the persons right?" "Nah they are boring" "i dont read my dreamjournal too often" i say. "why not what sense does it have then?" "i just dont have the time but it still helps me LD." i go away with her into some basement. i want to get my botany book back i forgot last year... some book is missing and she thinks someone stole it. they first think it was the girl who asked around whom to give the DJ. she is there and says "i feel uncomfortable hearing you talking about me..." "no we know it was not you we think it was this guy" and they point at me. "he seems poor so probably he stole it"... i tell them "I dont care about fukkin botany at all i did only two semesters my basic lectures i needed to do and i just dont care about your field of science AT ALL!" she is pissed a little because of my attitude but she seems to belief me. i go to a bookshelf and find the book i was looking for. i try to recognize if it is really mine. i look into the pages and on one stands the name of a friend of mine. i show it to her and say "this is my book i taking it. here you can see the name of a friend of mine so cya" she is not amused but dont stop me. i go outside to "my" car with a backpack where i put the book in. i want to open the trunk. i suddenly think wait is this my car? (IWL i dont have a car xD) i turn around and expect the car to be blue instead of wine-red. i turn around but it is still the same car. nevertheless i do a nosepinch and can breath clearly. i already opend the driver door and put in the key. a girl comes and is like "hey this is my car right?" I tell her "yea whatever drive away with it" and go away. i want to summon sensei again but i am not in a relaxed mood. i put my hand behind my back and say "hey sensei take my hand" but i am unsure about the result and fair enough noone takes my hand... i keep going and enter a bar. i go to the counter and see an old friend from school. i ask him if he knows where sensei is and describe him as a big guy with blond hair. he nods and starts walking with me and point on a random big guy at at table. "no its not him" okay we keep going and he points on a lot of guy that are random but tall. we go in the direction of the exit und suddenly a lot of people are coming and all are atleast two heads taller than me. even the girls are huge. i start feeling overwhelmed and pressed. i want to get out of the throng and shout out "Sensei" i hear somewhere a "Wuhu" and i go in the direction but the dream gets unstable and i wake up.

so here again i was to much in a rush... i sometimes have this dreams where i want something to deperate and it just dont work i get hectic and the dreams get an unpleasent touch. next time i will try to ground myself first and then do it "Zen-Style"

I recently had a dream where I was going blind, and everything went very watery. I asked for help but was being ignored. I later went with my family to go to a hotel. I ran into someone who supposedly was my friend, but he seemed very mad at me. I for some reason kept complimenting him and trying to make him feel good, but he kept finding reasons to get mad at me. as we we're walking, we ran into a police officer who had a quick conversation with us, but as we we're walking away, he stopped and told my "friend" very fearfully "what the f**k is in your hand?" I became very nervous and backed away, expecting him to open his hand holding a knife, but it was just a red pen cap, though the police officer looked shocked and seemed like it was a lot worse than a knife. right at that point I became blind again, but lost control. I looked up, and saw an extremely bright white light break through the ceiling, that had a bunch of random shapes and colors in it. As I was looking into the light, I lost touch with everything, almost as it was like I shouldn't have been looking into the light, but I was. I somehow knew that this light was "god". as I was looking into it, I felt like the light was looking at me in the eyes. everything started shaking, and the more I embraced it, the more everything shaked violently. I woke up left with a horrible feeling, which made me feel very bad for the rest of the day.

I've decided to commit to dividing my dreams into sleep cycles since I can now remember my nREM dreams. I didn't really understand how people could recall so many dreams before, but now it makes sense. I think there was ~6 dreams last night that I could remember, I know there was another but I couldn't recall it since I didn't write anything down about it.

Sleep cycle 1
Dream 1 - Flat (03:34)
I woke up to my 2am alarm but I just let it ring for ages and fell asleep again without turning it off. After writing this into my DJ I decided to kick it for the rest of the night. I let myself rest a bit since I've been feeling sleepy during the day because of my night time drea journaling.
I'm in a block of university flats standing on the driveway, it's quite nice here. My friend Giles is renting one of the apartments and I end up moving next door. It seems to be night time when I do and I seem to get pretty ecstatic about moving here. I'm happy and I end up running back and forth moving things into my room. I think I might be prepping for a gaming binge. I look up and see through the window my mate Giles, he's looking at me with this funny look that makes me laugh a bit. I end up shutting the curtains and hunkering down for the game/TV spree.

Dream experience: 2 (pretty happy but not too vivid)
Dream awareness: 0 (No real awareness)

Sleep cycle (?)
Dream 1 - (?)
This dream was pretty damn sexually explicit soo I won't write any details. Pretty much just me and a girl having some fun, I remember a lot of it but I won't write it up ^_^.

Dream experience: 5 (for obvious reasons, and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (I had a moment where I realized that things seemed a little off, but I was too caught up in it to care)

Dream 2 - Dragons
This dream was so vivid.. Everything had a certain crispness to the detail. I was in a large glacial-eroded valley which looked very barren and was filled with craggy rocks on the flood plain. I think there was a river flowing through the middle of it though the area I was in was quite huge and I was a ways off from this stream. On either side of the valley were towering mountains, and behind me (kind of like the entrance to the valley) there was a large structure where everyone was hiding. We were hiding because... There was a powerful dragon around. This dragon was really ferocious looking, it had these craggy looking demonic spikes all over its body and a long neck which made me think it resembled a chinese dragon from the neck onwards. Previously we had managed to all run inside and escape, I believed that the dragon had gone now. I was standing outside, the weather was overcast but it looked so cool. *RROOOARRR* Oh shit... It's back? I look up left towards the mountain peak in the distance, but a different dragon swoops into view. Oh, wow... This really is not good. This dragon is a different colour and slightly different in size and shape, but it still has that insane, crisp, sharp detail to it. Its wings have a certain blue hue to the underside which seem to resonate a sort of magical power. The beast turns its gaze onto the valley, I start running hoping to make it back inside. There's a bunch of other creatures in the valley so I hope that the dragon won't spot me, it's already leapt into the air and started flying down lower. I get the feeling that it will spot me as it gets closer.. I'm too far from the safety zone, the dragon has spotted me and it's swooping up behind me gliding really fast. I stop and get as close to the ground as possible.

Darkness.

I open my eyes, I must have been knocked unconscious, what happened to me? I'm on a narrow path with two steep cliffs on either side of me, they're somewhat flattened. In front of me is a human shaped figure, but I know who it is. It's the dragon in human form. I have to follow him, he walks down the narrow path in majestic looking robes while I follow behind him.

Dream experience: 7 (really vivid, cool plot and generally just a cool theme)
Dream awareness: 2 (felt naturally aware, but not of the dream itself)

Dream 3 - DC talk
I think I woke up and fell back asleep, and this dream was a sort of 'continuation' with some massive differences. But the idea that I woke up in a strange place kind of remained and my mind told me that the dragon delivered me to this place.
I seemed to be in a huge casino building, and the higher the floor you were on the higher your supposed level of power. I think I see a small little cat, poor thing probably hasn't been fed enough, its ears are huge too. I walk forward and I know that I'm on a really high level but I shouldn't be here. I look at a card I'm holding and it says level 0 part 6. Geeze that's weak >_<. I decide it's best that I don't act suspicious, better play it cool for now. I walk around in the level I'm in,

There's beautiful women everywhere.. Hmm I should go talk to one, but they all seem so busy :/. I start getting the inkling of the fact that I'm dreaming, and as I'm walking I turn and see a man standing behind a bench, maybe he's a barman or something. He's a bit old and dressed rather impeccably. I realize I'm dreaming, I mean... Of course I'm dreaming? I just seems so obvious all of a sudden. I don't even need to RC since I feel like the dream is really stable too.
"Hey can you show me something" I say to the man, I seem to convey to him that I'm not from this level and I got here by accident. The realization of me dreaming kind of happened simultaneously to the thought of saying this, and I had another thought that I actually wanted to ask another question instead. Damn. Too late :/ I wanted to ask him to let me meet someone. I had the intention that I would talk to a different DC but in proper length and ask them lots of questions for my dream goal.
The man says a few things and I interact with him a bit, then I get ushered to the elevator by another man and they send me down level 0 part 6. Guh, I shouldn't have done that. I walk out into the new floor, looking around me I see that the women are pretty average. I really shouldn't have left that floor >_<. There's a bunch of people playing casinos, gambling is such a waste :/. I decide that there must be at least some pretty women to talk to. (For some reason I get the feeling the a pretty woman is the DC that will be able to answer my questions ). I wake up really abruptly, like I kind of just realized I was in my bed.

Dream experience: 4 (semi-vivid and lucid, glad I got to talk to a DC but overall pretty meh)
Dream awareness: 3-6 (at the same time I felt like I was highly lucid, I also felt like there wasn't a lot I could do about being lucid. I should have done a RC)

Sleep cycle 5 - (>07:00)
Dream 1 - Red car
I remember walking with my dad, we're talking about stuff but I can't remember what. We walk through a car park and it's a sunny day. We make it to his car, but it doesn't look like his car. It's a red hyundai rather than white, hmm that's strange.

Dream experience: 1 (we were just talking and walking to his car. meh)
Dream awareness: 2 (might have become lucid had I RC when I realized he had a different car)

Dream 2 - Car park
I seem to be in the car park of the casino building I was in earlier in the night. I'm with my dad and we're heading to get the car (like a prequel story to the last dream or something). On the way we're near the exit of the car park area (our car was in a different car park) and we see a couple of girls that are advertising the casino place. There's a crowd around them and there's an overseer who's making sure they're doing their job. That's screwed up, they're in such skimpy outfits, they must be freezing. They huddle together and shiver as if to emphasize this thought. Me and my dad step up and try to help them out, we're like protesters or something.

Dream experience: 4 (seemed pretty emotional and vivid)
Dream awareness: 1 (not very high awareness)

it has been stormy all weekend, when I woke up. I went on the motor route with my girl friend delivering papers. We do a split she goes in the car a bit and I go on foot. I tested a theroy and based on past events I've encountered.
I attempted to clear the sky I waved my hands in the air as I walked puting as much energy as I could into the sky. That and positive thoughts and emotions. It appeared to be working after some time of doing this. I worked up a sweat.lol iI even pictured bright colors coming from my hands and I was whistlin.
Then when I was more in tuned with it i was able to take a more calm aproch using less motion using some visual tactics. I sang my own song about the stars and after that the sky opened up for a clear big circle of clear sky to view the stars as it turned night fall.


The dream.
I was supposed to box for a championship. The dude was much taller. We were in our cars racing down the free way. Singing we will rock you. Or somthing it was me and my crew in no top jeep and the other dudes crew in his car driving down the free way. I had my hood on.
At this point the parts of the dream might be mixed up I don't know. I clear the sky before or after I got out of the car. But I clear the sky with my hands and thinking happy thought. It soon reveled the moon it was a half yellow moon at first then it turned into the sun.
Then we drove again But this time there was a cloud entity taking on the aperence of many faces and moving very swiftly I tried to point it out to some one. but every time they would look it would move somewhere else it was staring at me and wanted to make sure only I seen it. It did not look or feel good. Then instead of boxing a man. This was my opponent I was to clear him from the sky after it turned into a small tornado. There was a big shadow of a man controlling it.
The people that was driving me were talking. One said let's get out of here or get him out of here or something. The other said he's not afraid we can take him. They were right I was not afraid I cast my fear aside. Then it aproched the hood of the car. It wasn't even a full tornado more like a big dust devil with a shadow of a man by its side it was as tall as a two story house but only as wide as a car.
It came strait into the car. I got out and yelled at it. And thought wait I have to aproch it differently and convert it. Then I said its OK you don't have to be angree any more and I said something else I don't remember. But I think it dissipated and the alarm woke me up I was lucid in this dream not high level but an upper mid level.