nightmare

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I felt nauseous this morning so they sent me home from work. It's a bit better now, but I still don't feel good. I went back to sleep when I got home, and slept for a long time. I didn't wake up a single time during the sleep. The last dream I had wasn't pleasant at all. Darn nightmares.

00.30: Bedtime

05.10: Wake up

4 hours WBTB

9.30: Bedtime

14.30: Boat
I'm going down a road. In a car perhaps, I'm not sure. It's a small road in the middle of the woods, next to a big lake. The cars are stuck as other cars are trying to get past the other way. The road is way too small. Me, my dad and my brother find a boat, and is soon racing through the water. I can see huge areas covered in ice, and my dad tells me I have to be careful not to go up on one of them. We go over one, and I look back to see if any damage has been done to the thing. It's all good. I open a hatch and find a bag of very light seeds. Those with transparant wings on. I spread some in the air.

14.30: Fragment
*I'm at my parents place. I enter the kitchen and ask my sister if we've got any sandwiches I can have. "Yeah sure they're over there" she tells me. I start talking to her. She tells me she's still doing drugs, but she promises she'll quit soon.

14.30: Nightmare
I'm standing outside of a house. It's been made into a huge home for a pig and its piggies. The mother pig is completely crazy. Running in and out, screaming. "It's very protective of its kids" a guy tells me. The pig has blod-shot eyes, and is red in the mouth. I enter the house, and can see atleast twenty small piglets in the hay. I walk up the stairs. Instead of a pig, it's a dog. The dog is standing on the stairs, guarding a couple of cans of mackerell. I slowly walk up them, not taking my eyes off the dog. "No! Bad dog, stay!" I say and point my finger at it. It growls but backs off as it can tell I'm the dominant one. It looks to its owner to the left for help, but gets none.

Dream skips. It's dark out, and I'm walking up to a small house. I can feel something's very wrong with the house, but I still enter. Inside I hear a narrator voice. "All the animals have gone crazy" I have no idea from what, but suddenly there are white chickens everywhere. They start attacking me, and it hurts! Their claws scratch me all over. I grab them one and one, and break their necks with my hands. I notice I've got my clumsy working gloves on, so I take them off. I continue to kill the evil, possessed birds.



Dream skips. I'm now fighting a vampire lord of some kind. He's super strong and everything. I somehow manage to get him down on the floor, just by a glass door. I open the door and squeeze it shut over his waist. He screams in pain. I slam the door over and over, withour any real damage done. I go totally crazy and slams the door for a full minute until his body splits in two. His legs are inside, with some intestines, and his body is outside. "I'll get you for this! I'll suck out your marrow" he yells at me as he crawls away and disappears.

I grab the legs and head for the caravan of cars we all got. We are perhaps five people. I throw the legs on a truck, and try to find his other leg which I took off before. It's gone. "Fuck! Where the hell did it go?" I ask. Suddenly a girl screams. I can see shadowy figures with shining eyes coming out of the woods. They start attacking people, and I run up to one of them. It's a girl, dressed in some kind of black and blue latex. She tries to grab something around my chest. I can tell she's not out to really harm me. I guess she wanted the blueberry pendant I had around my neck. She gets shot by one of my companions. I get up and run to the car to check on the legs. They're gone.


14.30: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 5 hours, then 5 more

Supplements before bed: None

That's it. Scary dreams. They were a bit fuzzy when I woke up, as I didn't have much energy to recall. I'm sure they were longer and more intricate than what I just described. Anyways.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

December 7, 2010

I was walking along and I saw this person, who appeared unconscious, lying on some ice. I rushed over to her and noticed that underneath the ice, there was someone in the water. I didn't think they would be alive, but when I looked closer at the victim, I saw their chest moving. How is she breathing under water?!! I figured breathing underwater is only possible in dreams. I phoned 911 (they answered this time!) and immediately started stomping on the water (I happened to be wearing what I call my "ice pick" boots... they have a long heel). I cracked the ice and managed to drag the person out. I conjured some blankets and started wrapping them around the person. (I keep saying "the person" because, even though they were naked, they were about as anatomically correct as a Barbie doll).

The paramedics came. I went with them to the hospital. One of the EMS needed to go back to the scene with me, so she could survey what happened. I demonstrated kicking in the ice with my ice pick heels.

(SIDE NOTE: I'VE OFFICIALLY BEEN INTO LUCID DREAMING FOR A YEAR NOW! )

Well, I've kind of been absent from this DJ for a while again, but hopefully this time I'll really for real be coming back. I keep on saying I'm coming back but then stuff comes up, I know

Anyway, last night I had a really vivid lucid dream, that, although not very epic, was rather interesting. For one thing, it's the first truly lucid dream I've had in a very long time...one where I actually stopped what I was doing and examined my environment, amazed at how realistic it was, but fully aware that it was all completely non-existent.

The dream began as a nightmare-ish experience. I was in my house, but everything was darker than is natural for just being night-time. I could hear screams and the sounds of what I knew would be hideous-looking beasts in the distance. Watching. Waiting. For me.

But then I looked down, and saw that I was not myself, either. I was one such creature, with leathery, tar-black skin, and a voice that mutated and sounded creepy when I spoke. Instantly I realized it was all just a dream, and I decided I would get the heck out of there before something attacked and woke me up. Besides, I didn't like being an ugly monster anyway . I walked up to the nearest wall and tried to phase through it. Having been a while since my last lucid dream, I didn't immediately have enough sense of dream control to move through, but eventually I managed to force my way through the wall and out to the other side, where I suddenly was caught up into a vortex and sucked away from the house into pitch blackness.

I wasn't waking up, however, and I knew it. I was simply moving to another, better place in the dream world. I watched as the leathery black skin peeled away, revealing my 'real' self beneath. My voice returned to normal as well. Next thing I know, I'm falling into a large gray box of a building, and it was basically empty to begin with. I tried creating a few things in it, but I was frustrated to find that I could barely control anything. Whatever I changed would erase itself and just fade away to the way it was before.

"What's going on here?" I asked myself.

My answer was approaching fast...literally. My sister flew up overhead, creating things to fill in the space around her as she went.

"Oh great!" I called out. "How'd I end up in your dream?"

She just laughed and kept on flying.

"I don't know, but have fun!"

I shook my head and began to fly off, wishing I had a totem like the one in Inception that I could use in other people's dreams. All of a sudden, though, I fell to the ground.

"What was that?" I asked my sister, who was still flying around.

"I just made a rule." She said. "To fly in my dream, you have to be in a sitting position."

"That's stupid! Why'd you do that?"

"If you're going to be in my dream, I might as well have fun with you."

"Yeah. Real funny."

I flew off (in a sitting position) and basically just explored the area and talked to the DC's in my sister's dream. It was interesting to carry on a conversation with DC's that weren't from my own subconscious. They spoke very differently than I'm used to having DC's speak, and often didn't make any sense to me at all.

In spite of minor annoyances it was an enjoyable night, overall. Plus I think I've got something going with MILD now, so hopefully my lucids should return to being much more frequent.

Dream 1. I believe it was a dream within a dream? I dream pt that I was on the ground in a cave, the cave was collapsing in on me and I woke up right as a boulder was about to crush my skull. I woke up from that dream into the next one. I remember in the dream I woke up in thinking that the previous dream seemed to be warning me of something. I called my boyfriend and asked him if he'd like to go for a walk with me. We walked towards my high school, me telling him about how the first dream wouldn't let my mind relax. We got to the schools fencing and heard a loud noise and looked up in time to watch a smaller looking plane heading for the ground a couple of meters from us. As it hit the ground it burst into flames and pieces of the plane flew at me. I moved my arms up towards my face to shield it, wondering why the pieces of the plane were hitting my arm but not hurting it. My boyfriend grabbed me and yelled at me to run. I hesitated wondering why we would run now and not before the plane had hit the ground, he screamed at me to look at the sky and as I did, it was as if the entire sky turned to glass and began to shatter and fall towards us. He held my arm and pulled me into a sprint. In real life I am no where near as fast as he is. In the dream I could keep up with him until I realized that I couldn't be running next to him at this speed and I fell. He turned towards me and ran back begging me to get up but I looked at him and said "I'm not supposed to survive this baby, get to safety". He knelt beside me and said that he wouldn't leave me even if that led to him dying to. In the dream I felt a sharp pain in my chest at that thought, I got up and willed my legs to move at the same speed as him. We ran until we saw blue stable sky and right as we almost crossed the line from falling sky to normal sky, I felt hands grab my waist and pull me towards the ground. I screamed as my hand slid from my boyfriends and he crossed the line into safety. The hands held onto me and kept me pinned to the ground. I remember looking at my boyfriend and him clawing at something I couldn't see. He wasn't saying anything, just crying staring at me as he tried to claw his way back towards me. The hands that held me to the ground tightened as a voice whispered in my ear "Sorry, you're supposed to die". I woke up barely able to breathe.

Dream 2. I was heading to a building I'd never been in to babysit a baby that I knew in the dream but I still can't figure out who she was or her mother. I'm going to leave out most of the details, because honestly the dream was about me being raped and I don't want to recall it in the detail I did with the first dream. So another long dream cut short, the step father of this little girl rapped me and when I got the police involved in this dream they did nothing. At the very end before I woke up this man grabbed me by the throat and slammed me against the floor and whispered "Sorry, you're supposed to die, may as well be of some use before you do" I woke up on the floor.

It scared the absolute life out of me.

12/18/10 - Rocket Boost
Dream Non-Dream Lucid

I was at my house with a bunch of other people, and I could sense it was turning into a nightmare. Apparently, some creatures were trying to get into the house.
I decided to leave and change the dream altogether, so I went out to the screened back porch with Will. I told him to focus on being weightless and he started levitating. I grabbed his hand, crouched, and jumped high up. We broke through the porch roof, but I felt like we were going to fall, so I gave myself a boost and shot flames out of my feet to shoot us up higher. We went far out into Earth's atmosphere, and I contemplated going to the moon, but I figured I'd do it another time and dismissed the idea immediately. I focused on landing safely, so I turned off the "rocket boosters" as I referred to the flames from my feet, and we began hurtling towards Earth. It was really amazing to look down at, there were colors rushing everywhere and although I seriously doubt it would really be like that, in the dream it was very realistic. I slowed us down by willing gravity to let up a bit, and we ended up gently floating back down to the ground... specifically, my back porch. Epic fail...

My cat, Patches, woke me up at like 7:30. So early!

Snow Dragons:

I was in a quaint wood cabin. It was nice and colourful. I walked up some steps, to the front door, and went outside.
It was snowing, although the ground was only covered by a couple of inches.

In front of me, two small dragons were playing in the snow. I never got to see them properly, and sometimes they weren't dragons.
"Want to come to a place with really deep snow?" I asked.
They said yes.
"Get on my back, I don't want you to be uncomfortable" I said, knowing they were only young, and a long journey wouldn't be good for them.
One hopped on my back.
I looked to the left - there was a huge cliff wall, sparkling blue. It's hard to describe, but all I can say is that it was beautiful. I motioned that we should go up there, so we all started flying.
Up and up we rose, me carrying one dragon on my back, and the other flying by my side. As we flew up, one of the dragons started conjouring blue torches by the hundreds, the odd thing is they looked like Minecraft torches - they flew away from him and dropped to the ground. Then I awoke.

Zombie Corridor:

This dream is from another night. I typed out the dream in my journal, but forgot to post it. But I still remember what happened and I'm posting it now.

I was in a corridor, similar to the one pictured below, except whiter and a little wider:


Somehow I knew there were zombies about, lurking in each room, ready to devour me.
I stepped into a room, nervously - it was a child's room. In the corner sat a young girl, next to a baby's cot.
"Where's your Mummy and Daddy?" I asked.
She told me she had no parents, and she was alone and scared.
"Don't worry. If we make it out of here... I'll be your Daddy. It's OK, I'll protect you," I reassured her. I didn't want any harm to come to her.
Nervously, we walked back into the corridor, and I feared for my life.
Suddenly, the girl ran back to her room.
I quickly caught up with her.
"What are you doing?" I said.
"I was scared..." she mumbled.
I grabbed a knife, knowing I would need to defend myself if we saw any zombies. I spotted a bigger kitchen knife, and took that instead. I saw my acoustic guitar, and thought it would make a good shield, so I held it in my left hand.
"Let's go" I whispered.
We shuffled back into the corridor. On my right, a door was slightly ajar. I noticed a zombie crouching inside the room, its horrible eyes glaring at me.
Terrified, we kept walking, only to have another zombie jump out at us. I tried to defend myself, but behind me, the zombie from before was swinging a cleaver at the little girl. She was helping me fight the zombie in front.
"BEHIND YOU!" I said.
I tried to move, tried to parry the attacks, tried to swing my knife, but my arms moved as if they were swinging through thick mud.
Too slow.
Too late.

I awoke.
Like I said, "Zombie Corridor" happened a few days ago. Shame I didn't manage to post it then.
I thought it was a pretty memorable and scary dream.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! I have been a real slacker this week. Especially yesterday, when I only RC'd like 10 times the entire day. I have no real goal to achieve in my lucids, which makes it hard to stay 100% focused. The goal I have at the moment is to keep the dream stable for as long as possible. It's not a very fun one, and I'm thinking of including some playing around with telekinesis. Which ofcourse means that I have no real set goal I am focused on. Anyways I will do it hardcore during the holidays. I will try WILD out a few times, also focus ALOT on MILD.

00.30: Bedtime

05.00: In the city
I'm flying high above a city. I can't really feel my body, but my point of view is from up above. I can see a few cars racing down below. Everything's in black and white, and the cars look very old. Like it's the 1950's. The lead car heads into an alley with the others just behind him. A bunch of cop cars appear at the end, and they have to turn back. It's like a movie, and the speed increases to around 8x. I think there was an oldschool comedy music in the background aswell. Suddenly I'm standing in a ring at work, talking to six other guys. "What do you want us to do about all this nickel?" A guy asks my boss. I remember that I want to know what kind of metal the buttons on my jacket are made out of.

05.00: WBTB 10 minutes

08.15: Taxi's
I'm standing outside of my appartment building at the intersection. Behind me are two couples, and a third, much younger one arrives. Two taxi's appear and park on the sidewalk next to me with extreme skill. My friend Eric, his girlfriend Carro and Monica is about to enter one of them. The younger couple starts yelling about how they want the taxi, and atleast have their own music played. The girl is latino and I figure it's no use arguing. They usually get what they want. I give everyone a goodbye hug.

08.15: Crystaline cavern
I'm with my three friends G, Felix and Eric. We're standing on a dock looking out over the water. It's dusk, and I spot an awesome rainbow in a long natural tunnel out in the water. "Hey look! Take a picture before it goes away!" I say and points at it. G's trying to take a picture with his cellphone, but he messes it up. "God damnit, the sun reflected onto the lens" he says, trying to take another one. I can see the rainbow slowly going down into the water as the sun sets. "Aaw..." we all say simultaneously.

"Hey look!" Felix exclaims. The tunnel walls and roof seems to be covered in crystals. We walk up to the entrance somehow. The entire place is indeed covered in purple crystals, and they look amazing. Felix walks to the side of the tunnel, and finds a path behind the wall. My point of view is suddenly changed from where I am, to a point further down the path Felix just started taking. The pathway is very narrow and dark. It's got an eerie feel to it and I don't like it at all.

A few meters in, a figure suddenly leaps out from the dark and grabs Felix. He gets thrown to the ground, and I realise we've disturbed something evil. Felix quickly gets on his feet and starts running. My point of view is changed back to my original self. I am now really fat. We jump in the water and go off in different directions in panic. I go down the tunnel on a log and when I reach the end, I am at some kind of house. The evil beings are still after me and I find two sawed off, oldschool shotguns which pick up.

Walking around the house, I start to see red and black bugs on the wall. I try to shoot one of them, but nothing happens. I've got two shots in each shotgun and the reload time is painfully slow. "They indicate when they are near" something tells me. I spot a ghostly looking woman. Her long darkbrown hair stands out as if she's being electrified, and her eyes are almost completely white. I try to shoot her but once again nothing happens.

I run away as fast as I can, trying to reload my weapons. I end up on a bed in a room, waiting for her to come in. A second later she glides in. I empty the shotguns in her face, and pick up a sniper which I also try to shoot her with. No effect at all, it's like I'm shooting blanks. I just give up. I know I will die here, and I close my eyes so I don't have to see anything. I start to feel uncomfortable but soon the dream fades.

08.15: In China
I'm standing on a square in China. It's a sunny day and I've got some kind of guide with me. He's trying to teach me how to make money. "Let's trick a parking meter" he tells me and walks up to one. It looks weird, and I listen while he explains how to do it. You had to push a button which says: "White man in danger" and then cancel. I'm confused and gets a bit anxious to get caught. I take the silver coins and walk away. Behind a fence I spot a brown pokémon. It's brown and looks like a stupid cartoonish dog. 120.000 € it says on a sign.

I walk along the harbor, and remember that the food is cheap in China. I look at the closest restaurant. The prices range from 2€ to 12€. "Hmm that's not too bad" I think and continue walking. Clothing shops appear to my left, and they're packed with clothes. The storeclerks look at me like hungry dogs looking at a piece of steak. I enter a shopping mall and there are famous and rich people all around with their kids. All kids are twins for some reason, and they're wearing identical clothes. I shake my head and spot my dad. I tell him I'm about to buy some vitamins.

"That's some crap, you don't need supplements" he tells me. I walk away and enter the gym department. There are all kinds of strange machines in there, but I know I can't try any of them out because of my wrists. I see a few guys working them. I leave the place, and bump into my dad again. He's building a toy racing track with two german chicks. "Hey! Help us out will you?" one of them asks. I help them as much as I can, but there's not much space to build on. We finish the track and it ends up being very narrow and no more than five meters long.

I race with a green car and I win right away. The next ten minutes I try to race again from the top to the bottom. A crowd of people have gathered around, but for some reason I can't seem to get the cars in place. Some decoration is in the way, the cars won't stick to the track and wires are in the way. Finally when I count down, after an accidental jumpstart. It won't work. Everyone gets disappointed.

08.15: Fragments
*I'm at my grandma and grandpa's old house. There are toilets all around me. I think I took a shower...

*I'm talking to Monica, and show her all my dreams I've had. Ten of them. She thinks it's impressive.

*I'm looking at a row of different kinds of Pokémons. I want to catch them all now that I've caught one super rare one. I see a yellow car among them. I guess it's like in "Age of Empires" where you can summon laser stuff. My mom is worried about me.

10.00: Garrys mod
I'm watching Monica walk around in our house in Garry's Mod. She removes a drawer which has been put there to cover up a hole, to prevent people from stealing our stuff. She can't get it back, and a guy appears. She tries to kill him with it, but can't. I tell her to move over, and try to kill him. Her mouse sucks so bad, and I can't really aim with any weapons. We start fighting outside and I try to kill him with a rocket launcher. The missiles don't seem to do much damage, and I'm soon gunned down. I respawn and I get to kill a guy using throwing stars. I am soon killed again.

I respawn at a yellowish graveyard high up in the sky. I check my bearings and jump down where I know our house is. I land on the ground and starts walking. "Oh damn... they will steal everything we've got" I think. "Even the safe. Why do we have a safe? It doesn't have any purpose in this game right?".

10.00: Fragments
*My boss tells me I have to be moved to another working site. I'm worried about my wrists. "Don't worry, all you need is gloves. You'll be directing traffic" he tells me.

*I'm reading Monica's book. It's about a young baker apprentice in the 17th century. The girl works hard to become the best, and is praised after her first shift. "Well, that was your first shift, now you'll be walking home, smelling worse than everyone else for a change" the head chef tells her.

*My dad has just bought a large box of computer stuff for 50$. I open it up and I spot a small Qpad. "Wow this is high quality stuff" I tell him. I pick up a new mouse. It's orange and black, with a really strange, slim, deformed shape. I try it out. It feels actually very comfortable.

10.00: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 10 hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3, 1 x Lucid Dreamer at WBTB

That's it! Sucky I didn't get lucid, but I will definitely get atleast two a week now during my two week break from work. Is gonna ROCK! Lucidity here I come. Also kinda annoying I had so many fragments last night, I don't like fragments. I want full blown dreams like the crystal cave one. Awesome.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I had a dream last night where I was at some camp (frequent dream setting) and Colm was there, but he didn't want to talk to me until he saw where this other relationship was going. Then a very good-looking blond guy was there at the top of a hill I was walking up, and he was talking on a payphone. (Does anyone even do that anymore?) He was talking about fixing a car. I pretended to trip near him, and when I came up, I "accidentally" bit his neck. (In dreaming or waking life, boldest move I've ever made sober. The bumpy ride in Cancun in the crowded back seat next to Colm doesn't count. Free pina coladas all day at that resort.) He looked up and smiled. I smiled and said, "Oh! Sorry!" He smiled back and quickly finished his call and I was about to walk away and leave it at that. He started to walk beside me and said, "Kind of weird weather, isn't it?" Now, even I know that in this situation, that's code for, "Let's talk and get to know each other and maybe (adult content) later." So I started to engage him in conversation about the weather.

Eventually, he says, like most men, "Look, I have to go, but I'll call you later, okay?" Without getting my number. All you can really effectively do at that point is smile and say okay - I've learned through many hard experiences that the more you protest, the worse it gets. But this dude continued, "You have to figure some things out. We've met before. You'll recognize me when you see me again at Mummy Love." Mummy Love was the name of a daycare centre, apparently. I tried to place him, but couldn't, as he continued, "Munich is past." Munich = Germany = Colm. In this dream, Colm was a native German.

Then I was back in my room with my duffel bag, changing. I was trying to decide whether to wear the dark skinny jeans tonight, at the dance, or wear them the next day for the road trip (when I'd see Colm for sure because we'd say goodbye) and stay away and read a C. S. Lewis book out of the school library instead. I got a feeling I'd be a lot happier hanging back and reading the book. I didn't want to hear that Colm and his girlfriend were growing closer instead of what I expected, which was (and, quite frankly, is) that Colm will continue to feel trapped to the point that it drives him to a breaking point, his girlfriend will pick up on it and it will bother her to the point that she behaves in such a way that pushes him away even faster (yess!! Someone else can be that girl for a change!) and through all this, I will seem like the mysterious and diaphanous memory and the one that he can't have.

At that point, Incubus meows and shows up from behind a corner. I realize that this is a dream, because I remember that Incubus has died. But I also remember that I'd prayed so hard to be able to hold him again, even in a dream. So I pick him up - but he's covered with litterbox misfire and sweat, the way he was on the second-last day. I handle him carefully - he's almost dead. I don't feel the bliss I usually feel when I'm holding him. (I feel it now that I'm thinking of holding him - it's an all-over glowing in my chest.) Why am I feeling no bliss when I'm getting my prayer answered - being able to hold his dear little physical body again?

I still can't change the dream. I wake up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! And all that. I'm exhausted... going for a nap soon, and I will try to WILD. Last night, I had two dreams, both of which were nightmares. Pretty cool still, but I'd rather be happy in my dreams. Stress is the villain!

23.00: Bedtime

04.50: Björn is dead
I'm outside at some kind of pool, with my brother Morgan, my co-worker Björn and his two daughters. The smallest one has no clothes on, and can barely stand up. She pee's all over the place, and the older one who is around four, steps in it. She's wearing a pink princess dress, and sits down to read a book. Morgan and I float around in the pool on a piece of styrofoam. I move to the deeper parts and go under water for a second. Morgan gets water in his mouth, and splutters. We go under water again, and once again he swallows some water.

The dream skips. I am at work the day after. A co-worker tells me that Björn died yesterday. I think he's kidding, but he tells me he's serious. "He died of a blood clot" he tells me. I get really upset, and remember him telling me about his high cholesterol level. I keep on working. No one seems to be upset, but I am reminded all the time about how horrible it all is. I feel dizzy, and I can swear my cholesterol levels are way too high aswell. I think about his two little girls and his girlfriend. I cry some more.

04.50: The asshole
I'm talking to a young, skinny guy with dark hair. We're discussing different kinds of playing cards. Magic the Gathering, Yu-Gi-Oh!, etc. I tell him I wish I had bought alot of cards back in the days, they would be worth alot today. He tells me he's got a card worth around 80€. I bring out my MTG deck, and show him the most expensive card I have got, it's a green creature card. He grabs it and inspect it for a while. A second later, I'm handed back the card, but it's not even the same card. "Hey! Give me back my card, this isn't mine!" I say. He gives me another card, and once again it's not my card. I grab him by the neck with my hand.

He takes my deck and throws it on the floor, scattering cards everywhere. I know he's trying to distract me so he can run. "Hey G! Can you pick my cards up?" I ask my friend G. He starts collecting cards, and I smile at the asshole. I try to hit him, but suddenly he becomes a girl, and she hits me instead. "I am in pain everyday little girl, you can't hurt me" I say as the blows hit my chest. .Suddenly I'm standing in a hallway, thirty meters down from where we just were. The girl is Monica, and I push her up against the wall. I get a strong urge to have sex and my hand quickly finds its way down south. She enjoys it.

My co-worker Valdis comes running down the hall. "He's coming!" he tells me in a frightened voice. I look down the hall and I can see a man going into a classroom really fast. I remember that we're on the run. "Oh shit, he can hear our cellphones!" I say. The man just entered the locker room with our cellphones in lockers. He must have heard the ringtones. "Leave them!" Valdis yells at me and starts to run towards the exit. I am about to follow him, but I spot something on the floor before the glass door separating the corridor. A white and a black cellphone.

I run and grab them, and put a chair under the door handles on the door. I exit the same door as Valdis, and put another chair there. I'm pretty certain they won't hold against the scary janitor or whatever he is. We're outside of the building, but not out of danger. I follow Valdis and Monica up on a small roof. It's like we're walking on little cabins. I crawl on the sheet metal, trying not to attract attention. The roof is covered in small, thorny bushes with tiny orange grains of rice instead of leaves. I see several yellow ones. "I guess they've got a different colour because of the chimneys" I think for myself.

04.50: Wake up

Amount of sleep: 5 hours

Supplements before bed: 150 ml applejuice, 2 x Omega-3

That's it! I'm taking a nap now, sweet.

Keep on dreaming, HARE BRA!

I had this dream on Dec. 14

I was at an outside event. There were quite a lot of people seated on chairs in a grassy area and they were watching a man on a stage. There was a boy, my age, that was supposed to be performing, but he didn't want to and he was walking away as I was passing by. I started to talk to him.

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I was in an outside mall area. I was going into a restaurant with an ex. For some reason, I was meeting him for lunch. As we were sitting at the table, he became very rude to our waiter and I remembered why I had separated from him. I got up, told him I was leaving, and then walked outside. I realized since I'd ridden here with him, I didn't have a car. I thought of calling my fiance, but knew it would be difficult to explain why I was here. I wasn't entirely sure myself. I thought of calling my parents to come get me, but I didn't want to have to beg. I then thought maybe I could ride the bus. As I was walking around the mall area to the parking area, I saw rental cars parked and taxis. I intended to go rent a car, just for the 10 minute drive home. As I was looking at the selection, I noticed my ex was walking toward me. He didn't look happy. There were other men with him. As they walked up, he started to harass me. I tried to get away, but he grabbed me and started to beat me. I remember throwing punches back in defense, even trying to snap his neck. His friends pulled me off, started to beat me too. People that were watching, saw me getting beaten to death, came in, tried to help. I remember crawling away, tears streaming down my face with blood, my face puffy, trying to call my fiance. He answered and I asked if he could pick me up. He asked what was wrong and I told him just to get me- I blacked out then.

I came to and I was laying on the asphalt in the parking lot, my fiance having just arrived. There was a mirror or something reflective in front of me and both of my eyes were almost swollen shut, were black, my lip busted and my face distorted and bloody. I started crying and I just held my fiance. I then saw my ex and his friends. They were carrying AK-47's. I panicked as they were walking toward me. They opened fire on the crowd and my fiance took off to go fight. I crawled under a car, barely breathing, watching the men walk past me. Other people started trying to hide beside me and drew attention to us. The men with guns started shooting in our direction. My fiance leapt under the car just as a grenade was thrown our way. He threw it back out just before it blew up, taking a man's face with it. I was shuddering and as I turned to look at my fiance, I saw what looked like a laser appear on his chest. I saw blood pouring out and I began to shriek in horror. I was screaming "Please don't leave me, please don't go" as he held my hand, his eyes glassy. He collapsed beside me and I started to sob. I looked at a man next to me with a gun and somehow, he was my fiance, only he wasn't. The man that had just died wasn't my fiance, the man beside me was. It was very confusing. I clung to the other man, telling him it would be okay and he was giving me weird glances.

I tried FILDing but I fell asleep.

I was in my primary school staff room (for the 100th time) and I looked at my hands and did a fingercount. Everything was normal.

Something made me look at my hand again, it was still normal, but I said "This is a dream". I went outside the room to a balcony and remembered the snowball Task of the Month, so I tried to pick up some snow from nowhere, but when I threw it, nothing came out of my hand.

I went down the stairs to a grass quadrangle, and I made snow appear on the grass, I picked it up and made it into a ball and threw it at someone. Ive never felt real snow before so it felt like the ice in a freezer.

I remember flying up suddenly really high into space, and passing the moon which may have had shared dreamers on it.

My cousin and his dad were there doing something strange.
MEMORY GAP
I only remember when they start wearing werid masks and making a really weird, freaky, almost satanic laughing noise/chant. There were suddenly a whole bunch of people doing the same thing. I started to get scared at it was night suddenly, so I yelled "Disappear!" along with an appropriate arm movement (that's how I control) and they vanished.

I yelled "Daytime!" and moved my arms like I was sending the moon down past the horizon and pulling the sun up. It was still dim so I yelled "Brighter. Brighter! BRIGHTER!!" until it was normal daytime.

I remembered that I had to get to Whoville for the other task. The quadrangle had four walls around the outside, so when I spun to another place, the walls were still there so I made them disappear one by one.

As I was doing this a teacher from my high school was there and said "You look like a crazy person when you do that." I said "Well, I'm dreaming so it doesn't matter. This is a dream.

Then I started losing lucidity as I was waking up, because random half-naked manga girls were walking around the grassy hills I was standing in, and unicorns from Charlie the Unicorn were appearing. Nearby my dad said "What are you watching?"

I woke up to an alarm in another room

I don't even read manga/watch erotic anime FWIW

So what i remember starting off in was some type of jungle. To get through this jungle, i had to climb walls of vines. And throughout this jungle, were "save points", these save points looked like trees made out of white twizzlers. Ok so i go around this jungle, going to save spots so i can "save".Well next thing i know i ended up getting my classes as if it were the first day of school. I had 6 classes. I went to my first class which was in room "A6?" but i went into the wrong room, the right one was next door. Well i don't remember what happened after. But next fragment was when i was in the car with my mom driving a girl home. (i used to like this girl.) When we dropped her off, my mom called her "daniel" but her name was Samantha. My first 3 classes were at my highschool, and my other 3 classes were at some other highschool in my city. (which i've only been to once, never attended there.) In one of my classes, i sat near the middle, alittle bit more towards the back. I remember that Samantha wanted to sit next to her bf, who was sitting infront of me, but she couldn't because someone took that seat. So the girl in that seat got tired of them talking to eachother from across the room, and switched seats with her. After my first 3 classes i walk to the other highschool with 2 of my friends. I don't really remember what we talked about, But there was one friend i ran into, He just said something like, "hey what's up? haven't seen you for a while. well nice seeing you". after that i had to go somewhere into the school, idk for what though, But sitting at a bench was an old friend. I didn't feel like talking to him, so i went the opposite way so i can just get picked up from school. There was a line of cars picking up people leaving from school. My moms car wasn't there but my friends was, he said if i wanted a ride. Then my mom comes up with an old looking mercedes and my other friend says, Hey lets just go in your moms car, she was her old car back. [I don't really remember between that part and going to my house, i'm pretty sure i skipped a big chunk.] Well when i get to my house, there is this REALLY small dog, probably the size of a cat. Looked kinda strange to me. Well a while passed by, and i don't remember what happened during that time also. But next thing i remember is the house being all messy with tentacles coming out of the ceiling. In the middle of the room was this Weird looking baby. To describe it, It looked like a Really small newborn inside some type of Pod. (kinda like green beans) And it was all gooey, and had red eyes pooping out. And the tentacles above the ceiling were moving around. My mom went up to it, and said "what is that? i'm going to try and kill it" So she gets a broom and starts to beat it. A tentacles from the ceiling moves towards her eye and Goes inside it. The tentacle goes into her eyesocket for a good 5 seconds. The tentacle Comes out of her left eye, and my mom runs outside into the backyard while covering her eye. I move back outside to the front yard, not knowing what to do. My sisters boyfriend shows up and says that we have to shoot it. So he pulls out his gun and an extra gun for me. (he's a police officer) We both aim, but don't take a shot, thinking that if we shoot it, it might get dangerous. My mom comes back, but her eyeball wasn't missing, nor was there a hole. It was just skin, as if it healed, Just a layer of skin over her eye. Well after that my sister boyfriend vanished and my dad showed up. He said what happened to my moms eye, and i explained to him. He wanted to kill it, so he said what if we run it over under the truck? I didn't like that idea. Then the alien baby flipped itself, and on the other side of the pod, was a small dog. I guess the dog was a disguise for what it really is. Under the dogs belly were two arms hanging. And that is all i remember from my dream.

I was in the car driving with my little sister in the back, and I hear this song I can't take called "I Whip My Hair" by Willow Smith. I change it, and there it is again. I can't get away from the song. I look back and my sister has her mp3 player in and I can hear the song out of the headphones and then I look back again and my sister IS Willow whipping her hair back and forth. She slaps me and sends me flying out of Earth, which turns into Willow Smith whipping her hair.


D:

Real life Dream Lucid Nightmare Dream sign
For me to remember, dreams are #067300, and lucid dreams are the color below blue, #4169e1. Nightmares are dark red, #8b0000, and dream signs are the light purple, which is up one and left one from blue, #483d8b.

I learned a lot from these two lucids. One thing is it really is easy to lose lucidity in a dream. The other is don't get startled in a dream...

Center party
We had a party for our Center. (It's like a specialized part of a school, ours is high school) I was already inside, and I was waiting for others to come in. I was in a dark room and it was night time. People started entering.

Suddenly I became lucid. The girl I like came over to me and asked me to help her get someone else at the Center away from her. He kept trying to hug and kiss her and she was annoyed.

I tried to Falcon Punch him but it failed. Nothing happened. I suddenly had a funny thought. I created a glowing thing that looked like a fairy from the Legend of Zelda and made the fairy fountain music come from it.He followed it, mesmerized, (because he was an avid gamer) and I told her it would probably keep going for a few miles, so we had nothing to worry about.

At some point in this dream I lost lucidity. We had about 30 people coming to the party. I looked around and saw a party room in the distance. We walked over there. On our way there we saw a large group of women doing stretches.

Then we finally got to the party area. There was a pool and then two concession stands with gorillas as staff. We played in the pool for a while, probably about 20 or 25 minutes.

Then the gorillas quit. They were getting too much business and were getting frustrated over how they only got $1.99 an hour. I said "Wait!". They looked and I said they could have the extra food too. They smiled and we all partied!


Would-be nightmare
I was in a dark room, looking at a creepy person, on some slate bed. I became lucid seconds after the dream started. I was startled at how quickly I had become lucid. The creepy guy suddenly died and fell off the bed and I looked around. There were doors and three people.

The middle one, a girl, said some spell to immobilize me. I don't remember what she said, but I do remember it felt like cotton was pressing around all my limbs and I couldn't fight past it. I tried to break free using dream powers but failed. Maybe I lost my powers because I startled myself? I thought, Crap. I woke myself up.

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Good morning! Had the intentions of getting lucid last night, but it only resulted in me talking about lucid dreaming with another DV member. I did have a cool nightmare about the end of the world. Other than that, I didn't dream much...

12.00: Bedtime

09.00: DV member at a party
I'm in a car, driving through a very nice looking neighbourhood. The lawns are green, trimmed and everything looks new. I spot a barbeque with alot of people at one house. Alot of cars are parked at the sidewalk. We go for a minute or so more, and arrive at a house. Inside there's some kind of neighbour gathering of some kind. Two guys are making a welcome drink in a large bowl. One of them is my uncle. "We do it like this, 60/60. It's going to be perfect!" he tells the other guy while pouring in a whole bottle of whiskey.

I'm in the kitchen, holding a drink myself. A guy in his mid 20's is talking to a woman about lucid dreaming. "My grandma was one of the first who registered, she's 70 years old" he says. The woman doesn't seem to care. "I have been a member for 7 years now" She walks away and I realise that the guy is actually Robot_Butler "Hey, I recognise you" I say and we start talking about lucid dreaming. He tells me about a thread he's made, and I know exactly what he's talking about. "Yeah I read that just the other day" I say.

09.00: End of the world


A massive nuclear blast appears on the horizon. I'm with Monica and two other people in the middle of the desert. "You're never going to make it" one of them says. "Goodbye" I tell them and jump up on my motorcycle. Monica gets on and we take off. I accidentaly do a wheelie but I quickly regain control. Going as fast as I can, I can hear the rumble of the explosion behind us, and I know the heatwave of it will strike within seconds. I spot a rocky area up ahead and I know it will give us cover from the intense heat. We make it in time, going down a small hollow behind some rocks just as the heatwave hits. I know that's not all, there's a shockwave coming next.

Leaving the bike, we run along the rocky area. The ground starts to vibrate, and soon it's trembling. "Do you know why it's doing that?" I ask Monica. "No..." "Well, it's because one layer of ground pushes on the next, which pushes on the next and so on" I say as we start to climb a small hill of rocks next to a white seven stories building. The ground is shaking violently now and we jump down from the hill into a courtyard. There are a few buildings just like the white one around us. "We should be safe here" I say and the shockwave hits us. The ground behaves just like water would when a wave goes through it. I ride the wave. "Wohoo".

The buildings all around us starts exploding, and glass shatters everywhere. When everything clears up, I can see that none of the houses has fallen. A large hole where the entrance should be, no windows left and most of them are crooked. We walk along the road away from the buildings. We're soon walking through a dark forest. Monica stops infront of a large pine tree with a rope ladder coming down from it. We climb up the tree, and I get this panicky feeling of being last in a dark room. Something's definitely going to grab my foot any second.

Once up, everything's very dark. We're once again back in our little tree house, trying to survive in this world filled with zombies. The tree house is a small rectangular room, only 4 x 2 meters, with a small room to the right for sleeping. A table is right infront of me with all kinds of junk on it, and there's a kitchen counter behind that. I bumb into something and Monica makes a shush. We stand completely still, listening for any sound below. She hands me a pair of black large silverware. I put them away and grab my shovel instead. It's very light.

"Get away from the hatch, if they come up, they'll see you" Monica tells me. I slowly back away, keeping my eyes on the hatch. After half a minute or so, we relax once again. I wish I was back at the house we were in before, where you could sleep without feeling anxious or afraid. I know those times are over. I hate this fucking tree house. "Hand me the gun" I tell Monica. She opens a drawer, pulling out an old revolver and carefully hands it to me. "Be careful! It's loaded" she tells me. I open it up, and is relieved to see all six bullets are still there. I am careful not to let it go off.

I realise we have to get more weapons. Only six bullets and a shovel isn't going to get us anywhere. I look out the small window. The forest isn't very thick, and ends at a lake just fifty meters away. I can see two red houses by the shore. There's a town over the water, next to a harbor. I remember there being a mall there, with glass windows. A plan quickly comes in mind. I would drive by and break a window by shooting at it. Monica would sneak in while I would honk and attract all the undead. Monica asks me if she could open a can of Sprite. "Yeah go ahead" I say. She carefully opens it with a low hiss. "Does this taste old?" she asks me. I taste it. "No it doesn't"

11.00: Fragment
*A zebra lies down at a tree, and starts giving birth. I can see a huge pink thing come out from behind. It's covered in crushed up tomatoes.

Amount of sleep: 10½ hours

Supplements before bed: 2 x Omega-3

That's it! Very cool and scary dream. Had trouble falling back asleep after that one, and the last dream I had was so weird I couldn't even recall it. Well well.

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