non-lucid

non lucid
*I thought about how dalai lama never gives up teaching because meditation is the true from of happiness.
*Ask a girl to watch my bicycle. I said to her this can be your bike friend and she started laughing.
*Took a shit in a bathtub that seemed to go on forever.
*Took a shit in a kid toilet.

First dream was pretty long, sadly can't remember most of it.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was in some lab, kinda like scientist, and i was searching something specific. Lab looked kinda old-ish but had multiple floors, alot of tech and teleporters. Then there was something about experiments and then some agents came and were interrupting us, one of them had ability related to ice. Then there was problem with our leader so we were trying to figure it out.

Dream 2:

There was a story about a soldier returning from the war only to find out that government did changed and does bad things. There was some religious announcer shouting things on the street. Then soldier started talking to mayor about this and while talking noticed ice in one of houses, which he thought was left by an hiding enemy, he found a nice looking sword in the house.

I'm reading a book, but I don't know if I was the one who wrote it or not. It's about this guy in Alaska who's writing to his daughter in an email. Every now and then the letter breaks off to show what's happening with his daughter. I distinctly remember reading about her being in an alley about to be killed. At the end the guy gets really mad because he never heard from her again--he doesn't know that she was killed.

[Clearly, my brain ripped this one from Family Guy.]

Once i again, i was to lazy to actually record / write down the details before i stood up from bed. So i just remember fragments / summary of the dream.
I was thinking "i would be much better to reenter the dream and get lucid than to remember it right", so irritating.

Anyways, i was in my house, i don't know what has happened, but i was all changed around (maybe it was just dream distortion). We were waiting for a boat / submarine to take us somewhere.
The submarine arrived and i climbed on board, it was pretty small and had the ability to open half up for like sightseeing or entry. It was almost like a boat in this "mode", i remember talking to the captain and thinking about who i wanted to take along.
The only one who needed to come was the young daughter of a old man i was living with in my house. The daughter was late, so i had plenty of time figuring out who else to bring. I think i brought my cousin, and his stepbrother, my uncle and was planning to pick up another friend from another part of the "world". I remember talking with the other passengers about this last person, they where saying they hoped he wasn't in to much of a party mood. Because it would have been annoying.

Finally the girl arrived, and the father payed the captain for her ticket. The weird thing was, that when he gave the captain his coin, a kind of dragged a graph of the world in another way. I became instantly night, and he just smiled in a weird way.

I don't remember what setting the dream began in, but i remember the girl being very mad at me. I encountered her several times, and all the times she was really pissed off, but i kept my cool and tought "she probably thinks i am some kind of asshole or something, i am sure she will change her mind if i just show her its not true". So dispite not being interested in this girl at all, her negative attitude agains me made me show interest, and dedicate time to her.

I don't remember the rest of the dream in detail, but it was a very nice dream. Altough it was not the last dream before waking up, i get happy when i think about it.

Dream Fragment:
I'm racing and my car flips often. I go over a ramp and crash land. I'm with someone else that is racing.

Dream:
Megan M, is in trouble and so are her friends. Another group of girls want to beat them up. I call up Megan and she won't let me come over, as she's paranoid.

Some of Megan's friends are black.

It's night time and I'm walking near Ben F's house. I walk up to a window and knock. I see Megan peaking through the window and I keep repeating my name so she can let me in. She lets me inside. I look around and it's a very small apartment. I see a bed, couch and a TV. Megan is under the blankets with some of her friends on the couch. I see the bed and there's a person underneath the blankets but I can't see their face.

Four fragments... sigh.

First fragment:

My little cousin's birthday party.

Second fragment:

Sex dream.

Third fragment:

I couldn't drive cause I had a backpack on. I took it off and was able to drive normally.

Fourth fragment:

I was in another country, at a hotel. My window had the most gorgeous view ever.

Date: 10/22/2013
Technique: MILD & WBTB (failed WILD)
Total Sleep Time: 8 1/2 (ish) hours
MILD Mantra: "I lucid dream tonight" & "I recognize I'm dreaming"

Dream 1
I was with my ex-boss and we were shopping for vintage designer handbags. I saw what looked like a black hefty bag on the floor filled with vintage Gucci bags. I crawled on the floor and retrieved a beautiful blue vintage Gucci shoulder bag. I ran to show my ex-boss who turned around and told me that she was wearing that exact bag at this very moment except her handbag was 'authentic' and mine was a fake. Sure enough, she had the authentic Gucci handbag on her shoulder (she has always been jealous of me ).

Dream 2
I was fishing with my husband and the rest of our family and I was doing very well catching several fish. I remember how real it felt with the fish nibbling on the bait and me yanking the fishing pole to hook the fish and reel it in. Soon, we ran out of bait and started using anything available and the fish were still biting. We were still catching a lot of fish and I told my husband that the next time we go fishing I would like us to go by ourselves and spend the entire weekend with just us fishing (I have always loved to fish ).

Night before last:

I was at my tech school. It was time to get on the bus and go back to my hometown school. But there was something going on with my computer that made me want to stay longer. I was trying to save some document before I left.
My friend (A) came over and started pestering me that it was time to leave. (Note, he goes to the tech school with me in RL) I was frantically working on the computer. Normally (in RL) the bus leaves at 10:05. I can remember checking the clock in the computer screen and it was 10:07, so the bus had left and we were stuck there.
After I looked at the time, I began thinking... this is normally the type of situation that I dream about. I'm dreaming! But just as I could fully grasp lucidity, A morphed into that evil dream character and shot me in the head with a handgun. I woke up.

This morning.

I was outside of some school-related building. It wasn't my regular high school or my tech school, but there were a bunch of students from my class there, standing in a big crowd. Periodically, school buses would pull up and take a portion of the steadily shrinking group away.
I ran into the bully from my high school class and a couple of his cronies. (Yes, at my high school, there is a well known bully with a couple of "friends" that follow him and do his dirty work.)
As the people left, the bully and his friends stayed with me. They started harassing me with some generic insults, but after awhile they came off with this strange tone that they were actually friendly and I should talk to them. They started apologizing for all the things they do to kids around school, and started talking in a sincere, but relaxed way.
Even though they were clearly trying to be genuinely nice, I just had too many pent up feelings, and knew that as soon as everyone was gone except us, I was going to start a fight with them.
I was getting an odd mix of vibes. These were the bullies that I've grown up alongside in high school, and I've seen them hurt me and my friends quite a bit, but they were sincerely being nice right now. But no, I was too angry with them and I still had the intention of... oh wait, everyone's gone. Time to beat the crap out of these four. Whup, nope I woke up.

I really think that this dream says alot about me. The fact that (if there were no consequence) I would hurt someone who could be considered innocent. But dreams have a way of playing with emotions and personal limitations in that regard. No doubt, everyone has this dark side. Would I do this if I were in this situation... who knows.

There's this strange, vaguely canine creature with a head almost completely covered in bony ridges, giving the impression that it has a skull for a head. It changes shape, sometimes looking insect-like, a vast serpent thing with many legs, and very rarely, it takes the form of a woman. It serves a certain human man who found it on a cliff, and the first time it changes into a woman it freaks him out immensely - he's wondered if maybe the creature is actually a person under a curse, but he's not at all sure which is the true form. At the moment, he's thinking "(creature's name) is the answer" - the moment he thinks that, something else bursts into the room and the creature leaps up to fight it.

(Woke up. Back to sleep.)

A narrator of a play saying "Young Romeo spies the young witch Barathia in the woods, but..."

A person I know IRL is annoyed at me over a misunderstanding, and posting passive aggressive messages about it online. I wonder whether I should correct the misunderstanding or just leave it alone.

I'm standing on a street corner with someone, waiting for the light to change, when I see two people walking towards us, including that IRL person from the previous scene. The light changes just then, and I know I should probably wait for her to catch up, but I hurry across the street instead. I follow the guy I'm walking with down onto the railway tracks, and there's something I really enjoy about walking along the tracks at night. A train goes past.

Still walking with that same guy, we've reached the trailer where his mother lives. When he knocks on the door, this guy he dislikes answers, some bigot his mother's dated in the past, but last he knew it was over between them, he wasn't expecting him to be here. They say something to each other I can't hear, I can just tell the guy in the door looks angry, and then the guy I'd been walking with turns around and leaves. He's really upset. I tell him to come back with me, we can go spend the holiday at my mother's place, she'll like having us over. At one point he decides to go back and kick that guy out of his mother's house and I physically hold him back.

Dream 1:
Was at G.ma House again.... I seem to have a lot of dreams there... I had to go to school, but there was 3 thugs outside the house standing by their car waiting for me to come out. I missed the bus for school, because I couldn't leave the house and felt angry and confronted them. They just leave and I wonder how I'm going to get to school, so I barrow someone's car and begin to drive there.

Dream 2:
I'm in Japan and trying to get in contact with a person who i either know or is suppose to be helping me or something. I find her house and knock at the house, but some guy answers and says to come back at 2300. That's 11 O'clock he says. I recall thinking this guys an idiot and leave. I deceide to find some food while i wait, and go to a small strip mall with some restarants. One is an outdoor grill with tables set on a nice outdoor patio.

Dream 1:
Im on a pier with a group of sailors/dock workers beside a large 1700 style wooden ship. Me and another guy are tying rope that's looped over a pully and connected to a large square counter weight that is going to be dropped to secure the ship to the pier. While working the rope my hand almost gets smashed. We are working in waist deep water as well.

Dream 2:
A co-worker and I are eating some Fried Food, like Spring Rolls or something. We eat a bunch and I feel Ill. My mouth as a taste like Cooking Oil in it that is very unpleasant. I wake up thinking i feel sick, but realize I'm fine...

10.23.13

Last night bed around midnight - 9am

Long and detailed DR remembered upon awakening

I'm walking into a pet shop. Not sure why I'm there, because I don't want to buy a new pet. Soon after I walk in, I realize it's not a real shop. It's just a household that sells pets. There are some guiney piggies running around on the filthy, worn out, burgundy colored carpet. One, black and white piggy is very friendly. I bend down to pet him. I tell the woman owner, that he reminds me of my gp.

Dogs are running around in the room. There is dog poop all over the place. Barely enough space for a foot to walk around it. Piles of neatly layed poop logs, and squirts.

I'm not comfortable there. I sense some kind of a danger. The owners are not what they seem to be. As I thank her for showing me around and I'm trying to leave, her mood is changing. She is angry I wasted her time and not buying anything. So she invites me to look at her birds.

We walk to the shop window. I realize, that is the same window I saw from the outside, walking by so many times. There are parrots and other small birds sitting on perches by the glass, nicely spaced out and more of them in the whole area. I remember I used to have a bird, but I don't wan't one now. But I know I have to play along, so she doesn't get mad.

I'm leaving now. They are walking me out the door and I know I'm in danger. I had a bike that I left leaning against the wall, and locked. It had a small oval sitcker with two green froggies on the pedal assembly. It was locked. But my bike is not there. I know they stole it, so I don't leave. But I don't dare asking about it.

I start yelling for others to call the cops. There is a group of people now. Together we walk in through the side door. It says 6B and I believe that's the pet shop place. We walk into the short hallway. Someone is taking a shower in the door immediately to the left. We hang right and I hear some other people in the house. Byt the wall paper and house decor, I can tell we are in the wrong house. We turn around and quietly get out of there.

I open the door to the right. It's a hallway. I recognize it as the place I walked through getting out of the pet shop. We keep walking. I enter another room of the house. Looks like another shop. It's suffed from floor to ceiling with shelves full of merchandise. It is very disorganized. Shop owners husband is there. He is checking out some phones or walkie talkies.

I start yelling at people to call the cops again as I start fighting with this guy. He is a big guy. I pick up a white user manual almost as thick as a phone book and start hitting him on the head. I finally knock him down.

Then I'm outside, across the street. Talking to a female cop. Telling her how I knew they stole my bike, because when I motioned towards where my bike was suppose to be, the owner acted suspiciously.

I saw fragments of a futurama episode where everyone dresses up and becomes like the professor and goes somewhat mad.

I walk into the middle of a field where there are many rabbits and someone comments on how female rabbits are annoying. The field is near a stream and has patches of grass as well as pathways of dirt. I end up lying down in a patch of dirt, only to be surrounded by rabbits, small rabbits and large ones. One of the large one licks my left hand. Then, as Leela approaches me, they all form an Eiffel tower like shape around me. She comes over, and the rabbits turn to mice, and they all scatter, leaving an impression in the ground that there were buildings. We all go back to the ship, to find that everyone has gone crazy. I/Fry comment on saying that no one will believe the story about the mice, and we cant trust anyone because they are all going crazy.

I am in a large, convention like setting. There are many rooms with no roof. I had just finished working out, and made my way back to the room, shirtless. there are a few members from my school there. I have a black backpack full of clothes. I find a new tshirt that was one of my favorites, as well as a new pair of jeans to wear.

I am in a college. My mom enrolled me in classes. I come to find out that they just so happen to be the same courses as many of my high school friends. I can't believe the coincidence, and I think that it is really weird, but don't question it enough to do a RC. They are all 300 and 400 level classes, which is weird because I dropped out of college to join the air force. One of the classes there is a cute asian teacher with black hair and thick glasses.

October 22, 2013

Third-person

Desert strategy
I'm playing some kind of strategy game. The map is of a desert area with a few ruined structures. Dots (evenly spaced) are placed in a semicircle starting at the top going counterclockwise to the bottom. Each dot represents a place I can take control of - some or all of them are missions that need to be done. I'm playing against an opponent (female, but I don't know if she is human or AI) who's also trying to take them.

This is my first time playing the game, and I have no idea what I'm doing, so I'm feeling my way around. At one point, I'm doing one of the missions, and I can see a huge, dirty, black tower that I know is part of an oil refinery. Later, on the overview map, I've made it most of the way around the semicircle. It didn't take much effort, so this must be a tutorial map.

I select one of the dots and see I have some weapon resources; I try to send them to dots further on, but I realize too late that I actually fired them at my own holdings. That's going to cause enough damage that I decide to restart.


Flooding structure
I'm in a smallish room with another couple of men. The room is all concrete and metal, with pipes running along the ceiling. We're trying to do something with a pipe lower down, which is leaking. Despite our best efforts, the leak is getting worse and worse. With horror, I realize that something has destroyed the seals in this pipe, and that it's probably destroyed the seals in other pipes as well.

Now the room is filling with water, and we're all trying to get to safety. We manage to get get through the door to the stairwell. Other people from below are evacuating (we're underground). Near the door, on the wall, is a phone: against the advice of my companions, I pick it up and try to dial 911. I don't expect it to work, but the call connects. I don't hear a voice on the other end, just some electronic noises, and I don't have time to wait. I know that they'll send someone to check out a hangup call, so I just hang up and start climbing the stairs.

Now I'm walking around in a building aboveground, through a hallway that runs around an open courtyard. The courtyard is mostly just dusty dry dirt. On the far side of the courtyard, the building rises up a second story. Now I'm climbing the steps to the second story and see that the bathrooms are up here.