non-lucid

In one of my dreams I was a woman of Polish origin but not myself, living in Russia. A man who was an authority figure of sorts offended Polish honor when speaking to me, and I had to defend it by proclaiming how honorable Polish patriots were. I had the sense that he did that on purpose though because he wanted to hear my defense. Then I broke in somewhere and he caught me, and I had the choice of going to jail or working for him and his people as a thief. As my first assignment I had to steal a loaf of bread and a box of blueberries. I was then paid six crumbs of bread and two blueberries. When I objected, he pointed out to me how hungry the other people in the room looked, and I stopped objecting.

A boy, not my son but close to my older son in age, was organizing a book sale in front of his house with his mom, and I was helping with the book sale. The boy had made a huge sign, saying "Dirty Books." When I saw it I laughed. He asked why I laughed, I explained that this word had another meaning from what he meant. When he asked what the meaning was though, I gave him some sort of nonresponse. Later at the book sale, a man came to look for our "dirty books", when he found out that the sign was a kid's mistake though, he took it with good humor, and even decided to buy a Nero Wolf mystery book (note: even Nero Wolf mysteries I would not expect at an elementary school aged kid's book sale, but in the dream that did not bother me). I said that today will perhaps mark an unexpected revival of popularity of Nero Wolf books.

In this dream my husband told me that our bank accounts were going to expire in half an hour, and that we could not make it there on time. He seemed optimistic though that all it would take would be some paperwork the next day. Meanwhile I worried that all our savings were gone. I arrived at the bank, but there were different doors with confusing labels that had nothing to do with money. So I left and called my husband and said that I had failed to go to the bank, and could he go revive our accounts. I do vaguely remember though that then we were at the bank meeting together. At first it looked like my fear was going to prove correct that we had lost all out money, but then I pointed out to the bank that our home's mortgage was with their bank, and if we don't have any money, we cannot make our mortgage payments, and then they seemed more interest in reviving our accounts.

It's been over a year, but I'm going to start making DJ entries on here again. I've been keeping them in my own journal but I ran out of space. I will be labeling weird stuff in red and lucid stuff in blue. Also, waking life in green. This dream was extremely vivid and different than anything I've experienced before. (Except while lucid.)

Last night - Friday October 19th

The first thing I remembered was being in a very large super market. For some reason, it was extremely crowded (much more crowded than I've ever seen before, even on black friday.) Most people were in the very back of the store waiting for a certain item to come out. I believe it was some kind of new technology that acts like an inhaler, but is basically equivalent to eating a full meal. I was immediately interested so I got one, along with the crowd.

After I bought it, people were trying it out in the store. Inhaling meals. The mist from these things quickly crowded the air, kind of like second hand smoke. I breathed in some of course. I went home with my new item. My house wasn't the same and most of my relatives were there, even a few of my friends. I told them about the inhaler and how great it was.

Later on, we turned on the news to find that there was a break out of some infectious disease that turned people into cat like humans. They grew in size and had large claws. These were more along the lines of big cats than house cats. The TV was showing live footage of the supermarket I had bought my inhaler from. It turns out that the inhaler meals were defective. The footage was brutal and showed people transforming and killing other humans inside and outside the store.

I realized I had inhaled some of it and I suddenly started convulsing and puking violently. The hair on my body began to stand up and started growing and changing color. I grew claws and felt like my brain was changing shape inside my head and my vision began to change. I had become a sort of werecat? I don't know what to call it, but it felt insanely weird.

My family and friends quickly tied me down, else I'd go on a killing rampage. I roared and kicked to get out because I wanted to kill and unite with my cat friends.

I woke up around here, about 4 hours in. I went back to bed and the dream felt eerily similar.

This time I was outside in a very hilly suburban area. It was cooler than where I live and definitely seemed like Colorado or another mountain state. There was another supermarket like the one from before, but on a hill with a different name. I went inside, and like before there were a lot of people. There was no inhaler this time though. I didn't buy anything, and walked home.

I got home and it was the same house as before, but my good friend and his family lived there. We'll call him C. I talked to C about what happened with the inhalers and stuff before, but he didn't know what I was talking about. His dad seemed to be listening to the conversation under his nose. Out of nowhere, the same thing happened as before. I felt the urge to puke and my legs got extremely unstable. I ran to the sink and puked up this white liquid, which quickly hardened and turned into a thick film in the sink. The feelings somewhat died down and C's dad told me I would be okay.

I went to the airport with C and his dad. I watched them get on the plane and fly off. Suddenly, the feeling came back and I fell to my knees and began puking all over the airport floor. Nobody noticed me. I decided it would be good to get home and get away from the people before I transformed again. As I was running and stumbling around the giant airport terminals, I noticed other people began convulsing, falling, and puking as well. I made it out before I could transform.

I thought it would be a good idea to hit the super market before going home, so I headed there. What I saw was horrifying. Cars were on fire and there were dead bodies all over the parking lot. I decided to check it out, so I went inside. Inside there were tons of people, screaming, transforming, killing other people. It was chaos. Different from before though, the people were transforming into bear-like humanoids. Not the cats from before.

I ran home and locked myself inside. Blocked off the doors and windows as best as I could and turned on the TV. All the news stations were talking about the developing infection. I overheard that the army was on their way to suppress the situation at the supermarket. Outside my window tons and tons of Humvees and other military vehicles sped past. I ran outside my front door and watched as they drove down to the supermarket. I followed them down the road as best I could eventually getting to the supermarket.

I watched as they unloaded troops and weapons. Helicopters were in the air. They got into position to enter the front door. I was standing on the opposite far side of the road in front of someones house. A little girl came out from the house and ran to me. For some reason, I realized what was going on and became lucid. Her mother came outside as well. I told her the army was here to help and that if the army failed or didn't come back she should run as fast as she can to her mommy. Her mom agreed with me. We watched the army breach and clear the supermarket. We heard lots of shooting, screaming, and explosions. After about fifteen minutes of waiting, the sound finally died down. It was awhile before the army got a response from the soldiers who went in.

It turns out the source of the transforming wasn't from the inhalers, but from an invisible pathogen in the atmosphere during this time. Anyone is susceptible to the pathogen, but after being subject to transforming once, you develop resistances to it. After a half hour of waiting for the army to come out, I made my way to the front door. The army warned me not go in due to the risks, but I showed the commander my scars from transforming before, and he let me pass.

The sliding glass doors were broken, opening and closing over and over on the body of a dead soldier. Upon entering, there was a pungent odor in the air. Death. It was completely quiet with nobody to be seen, not even any bear-people. Weird. I started walking down one of the aisles, stepping over corpses of civilians, soldiers, people that failed to completely transform, and creatures that looked just like grizzly bears. While walking down the aisle, the dream slowly started to fade out, and I woke up.

Thoughts

A very interesting dream nonetheless, but I have yet to figure out how to interpret it. I'll edit this later tonight after some thinking.

Four dreams (no lucid ones), so let's get this started!

First dream:

I was part of a group. We were all dressed in old, dirty clothes. We kept walking around, but the streets were abandoned. Finally, a guy, who was our leader, said that we should go to "the place". Many people were against that, but I agreed with him. In the end, we were the majority, and we started walking to "the place".

When we got there, it was an abandoned town and it was night, very dark. Our leader pointed to an old ship, made of wood, in the middle of the street. That's where we were supposed to go. Many of the men said again how against they were about this whole thing. The rest of us, still the majority, told them to suck it up and come with us already.

We entered the ship as quietly as possible. There were zombies walking slowly there. They didn't notice us at first, so we moved slowly and quietly, going to the place where they had kept their food before they became zombies. One of the guys tripped and fell, making the zombies notice us. We split into two groups. One that was getting the food, and one that was fighting off the zombies. I was in the second group, and we lost many people. We finally managed to get out of the ship with the food.

I looked up and saw many little boys watching us from old buildings. They were hiding there, and they seemed to be starving. Our leader told us we had to take them with us, as it was our obligation to make sure that our world, as fucked up as it was, still had a future.

I woke up.

Second dream:

I was walking with my ex. We were at this weird place, it looked a bit like a fair, except that we were also staying (as in, "living") there and we had classes to go. She was being a bitch (as usual), saying that she wanted to be with me, without telling others. I told her that high school was done a long time ago and that I'd not accept that kind of relationship again.

I left her and found this weird "class"/activity, where people had to pretend they were in a space ship in a very important mission. Our job was to play the part of the crew of the space ship, and our grades would be on our acting skills. The "teacher" didn't like me because I got there late, so he said I'd go first.. I sat down next to a guy (who I know, but only online) and we got ready for our mission. There was a screen in front of us and we watched as some of our fake colleagues were killed.

The teacher looked at me and told me to react. I looked back at the screen, raised my arm and shouted "NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" The simulation ended and the screen started giving me grades on my performance. Everything was pretty average (there were about five items), but the final grade was "VERY GOOD!", so I turned to the teacher and smirked.

He said the machine was probably a bit broken, but fine, I had passed. Then he told the guy next to me that it was his turn. The huge screen started showing a new scene, where our space ship was broken. The teacher told the guy to react, so he got up and tried to shut the door of the fake space ship... and he broke it, including the machine that graded us and gave us the simulations. We all sat there in silence, not knowing what to do.

I woke up again.

Third dream:

I was living in a weird, tiny city. Everything was made of concrete and we had to share rooms, there were no houses. I shared my room with a girl I went to high school with, and, in my dream, I had a crush on her (she was one of the very few people I didn't hate in high school, but I never saw her that way).

I left and went to work, except that I never did go to work. I found the girl in the middle of the street and she confessed her feelings for me. We got together and it was pretty nice. Then, I told her that I had to go to work, but, again, I never really went to work. I just walked around aimlessly.

I went back to our room and she was there. We went to bed and cuddled. We talked a bit about random stuff, then I told her I had to get something from the bathroom. I left the room again, with no goal at all. I went back and she was crying. I hugged her and asked her what was wrong. She said that she didn't know, she had been having mood swings for a while now.

I somehow knew she was pregnant, and told her that. For some reason, we both knew it was my baby, even though we had started dating five minutes earlier. We were happy, though, so yay?

I woke up. I tried to WBTB and... had a FA (fourth dream):

I was in my bedroom, laying down on my bed. I got tired of trying to WBTB (), so I got up and decided to watch something on my computer. I started watching this weird film about a guy who worked at this swimming pool-ish kinda place.

Then, I was the guy. I kept having to clean the place and telling people to be careful, cause the floor was always wet. After a while, someone came in and told me that there were people planning on exploding a bomb in there. We ran out of there just as I saw fire coming from a corridor.

I was sad that my work had been destroyed and woke up.

And that's it...

lol wow, I had so many dreams last night I don't even remember much at all about the first dream except the little notes I wrote down in my physical dream journal. I got a smaller dream journal to get me to write only notes about the dreams instead of the whole dream, but still its hard to not write down so many details.

Dream 1: Most of what I can say is just what I have written down in the dream journal, can only remember the last part. Apparently it was some video game where I was fighting on expensive boats and there were jet skis, except I have no recollection of this part whatsoever. I do remember there was this one part of the dream I had to get an elevator and it was some scrapyard on the roof of a skyscraper, and I had this one girl helping me get across. And on the other end of the building was this temple and Eggman was inside the temple somwhere. We were about to go inside the temple and fight these creatures but the dream ended there.

Dream 2: All I wrote down was something about fighting dbz style, I would really like to remember more of this dream but all I remember is I was controlling a character that was hovering over the ground really fast and moving to the right around a big rock. Did not feel like I was flying personally at all though.

Dream 3: This dream I remember more clearly. In real life I am starting Spanish 102 on monday, but I had a dream where I was in the first class of Spanish 102. I sat in a seat right in front of this scrawny kid I used to work with and he said sit your mangy ass down. I said shut the fuck up you scrawny little piece of shit and I sat down and I stared at him cause I knew he was gonna try to hit me. The entire class was like "ooooh!" then he tried to hit me, but me being bigger than him I picked him up and threw him halfway across the room. I think after that I woke up. I don't act that ghetto in real life lol.

Dream 4: This dream was the longest and I remember it the clearest. I was at my friend Mike's house and we were all playing xbox or something and I was just chilling there with some other people. Everyone else besides me and mike went to go do something and me and mike talked for a bit, i forgot most of it but we just talked about jobs or something. Then I saw his xbox homescreen was some lady with her breasts showing for like breastfeeding or some reason other than porn and then the other people came in. There were two girls and they were commenting negatively on it, then I realized they had their shirts off and I was asking them why they hate it so much when they are showing their own breasts (lmao). I realized I had to go to school or something so I grabbed my controller and headset, but they wanted to use the headset so I let them and just took the controller, for some reason I was in my boxers so I grabbed my pants and was telling Mike how I needed bigger pants cause they're all a bit too small for me now (not gaining weight irl), he says yea i hear ya then I grab my backpack and leave. Next thing I know I'm in some school, no idea what grade or age group the people are.

I realize I lost my backpack so I go down this hallway looking for it. The hallway has white tiles and roofing and red lockers going down on the halls. On my way down some girl I know named Shannon is talking about how she doesn't take Spanish and is saying "psh, thats German politics", or something like that. While im walking by (I liked shannon in high school) im secretly wishing i took german instead of spanish lol. I walk up to this group of people and they are standing by a bunch of backpacks, they look to me as I walk up to them and I just say I'm looking for my backpack. I remember they are standing right near the entrance to a bathroom. I see a backpack that looks similar to the one I am looking for, not lucid so my dream self knows and im just kind of watching. I say I think thats my backpack and then say no that just looks a lot like it. Then one of the girls there says I think this is it, and hands me my backpack. I say thats the one and take it and walk out the door.

Once I got outside the school I noticed one guy starting to run. He said he missed his bus and I think I missed it too. He said he went to some elementary school I went to and some college like James Madison or something. He said this all as he was sprinting down the street. I was sprinting right after him and we went down the street and through some neighborhoods. Looked like the area around the middle school I went to except it was very similar to this one small town I remember from another dream. I kept following him and told him its like chasing someone in GTA 5, and he laughed and kept sprinting, we were going somewhere in a big hurry but I had no idea where. He got into this open car and opened the door for me. Then as I was about to get in he drove forward a bit to prank me or something and he accidentally fell off the side of this 20-30 foot cliff. I was thinking "oh shit" and he started slamming on all sides of the car then when I looked over the car was spinning in the air like crazy then rolled about 7 or 8 times once it hit the ground.

He was on the ground near the car and I asked if he was ok and if he needed an ambulance and he said he was fine. I kept asking him if he was sure and then I saw this girl with torn clothes get out, all she had left was her short shorts on. She was looking the other way and I was like oh crap she was in the car too. Then shes just standing near the car looking the other way. I was with the guy I was chasing and the girl was looking towards her father who was on a nearby street. Then her father came up to us and apparently he was in the car too? (dream doesn't make sense at this point) He walks up to us and his lip is sliced so that the bottom part near the left part is sliced off and the little triangle of his mouth is pointing away from his face. We kept telling him that it was bad and he needs to go to the hospital and he kept asking us wow are you sure, how bad is it? and we were explaining it to him lol. He kept touching it and we kept telling him not to. That was the end of the dream.

20.10.2013

Graffiti on the Great Chinese Wall (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

I woke up in the morning and lost a long dream, so I told myself I needed to come up with something and started to focus on another task of the year.

I was in some sort of school and I believe I was younger that I was. Suddenly, a guy and a gal who wore old clothes came and tried to abduct me. They claimed they were going to ask for $1,500 in order to release me. I found that it was a pretty much retarded amount for all the trouble they were going through and I tried to play it smart. I told them I would tour them around the school and show them the areas were rich boys were and were they could ask for more money. I had a plan to save my butt and get to call the cops.

The school was very long and it had two restaurants, which one of them was very fancy. I showed them it was a good place. The school now looked like very old school and it had like different stories. We went to the arts class and the music class. We went through different places until one rich looking kid appeared out of nowhere. The guy grabbed him and started to run, leaving me alone with her female partner, who was not over 5 feet tall, very slim (and hot,) blonde with very clear eyes and very clean skin.

We entered in some sort of Auditorium with Opera and told her that the school had gifted children with a lot of money. We existed the school and went for a walk. As we were outside, I started to question the realize and realized I was in a lucid dream. I did not do any reality checks, but I knew I was dreaming. I asked her if she wanted to have sex. She agreed and we started to make out. I focused in trying to not wake up, but she was so hot and good looking I did not care really if I woke up. I did not, but I lost reality. We could have sex because another car pulled next to us, and an exact replica of her, just a bit older stepped down to the car. There was a guy in the car that looked that the abductor from before and they had the children he grabbed. I knew there was some sort of jump in it time and she told me that we needed to get going.

We just went down the road and we stopped in a street that only had houses around, so we wondered were to have sex. i tried in the car without success. I realized it was snowig and the grounds were snow covered. I told her it was amazing that it was snowing in San Diego, California.

We went inside to where I believe it was their house and I could hear the cries from the abducted child. I needed to wait outside and i start to feel worried if they did not try to abduct me, since I was inside their house and they had low lights. A door opened and I saw her dressed in a very sexy pajama, and that is all she wore, She smiled at me and called me, pushing me inside the restroom and looking the door behind her. We had some amazing sex.

As we were done, I exited the restroom and the house. I was in a different place now and some guy asked me, "How was she?" I told him, "She is a amazing, easy to handle as a doll." I started to realize that I was again dreaming and while I was thinking about it, this guy was telling me that the tree above him had amazingly beautiful animals... I looked up and all I saw where huge bees. I indeed knew I was dreaming and looked at my hands and even though I had five fingers, one of them started to grow and stretch and then, it started to become wider, but only on the tip.

I decided to take off and fly away, while the guy kept talking about the bees. I was on the top of the roof of a store and told myself I needed to get down another Task of the Year. I took off and flew high, the dream could you a bit more clarity, so did the same technique about pulling my glasses out of nowhere. It worked again. I kept flying until I saw the whole Earth, so that way I could travel easier to the target country. I flew down and I entered in Italy. I told my self, "No, no, no... I do have nothing to do here." I recalled the Great Chinese Wall thing. So I started to look for a Chinese restaurant and use it for a portal. It was easy to find, as I entered it a Chinese guy greeted me and told me if I wanted to dine with an accent. I told him, "Yeah, sure, sure." I kept looking for a door without any success. I saw that the restaurant at the end had a garden. so I pretended that the garden would be China, but all I found was a small garden and a tiny replica of the Wall. I doubt that would work so I started to fly and glide above this garden. I could hear a voice telling that I had to ay to be there, but I ignored her. I saw another door and flew through it. As I did, I was stepping on the real Great Chinese Wall.







I was happy but i knew I was not done. I tried to start to tear down the wall, but as I tried to pull out a rock, it wouldn't move. I tried to brake it with energy balls but neither worked, so I decided to pull a Red Spray and do some graffiti. That is vandalizing after all. I wrote, "I rock" and as soon as I ended, I heard voices. I saw Chinese guys coming towards me with assault rifles and riding horses. I got in fighting stance and as they came I started to knock them out of the wall, until I finished a ton of them. I told my self I was done with the task so I was going to do something else, but i lost focus and so lucidity.

Now there was water around the wall and some female Chinese people like making photos. I started to grab them and fling them to the water, but there were a few steps of concrete before the water. I grabbed a light one and flung her. He fell on the ground hitting her head and I started to feel bad, I did not want to injure anyone.

My wife came out of the blue and made a photo. She told me that it was the girl that Fabian like and told me she was going to post on Facebook what I did. I woke up.

Dream recall from today's WBTB/naps.

Dream 1:

I am at home in my room, i spontaneously realize that i am dreaming but the dream is highly unstable, i try to stabilize it by focusing on senses and it works, then i go to balcony door and open it. I take off using my wings but dream quickly fades.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was playing various creeper world 3 maps.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was playing some RTS and there was hero unit that had ability to turn into a dragon.

Dream 3(fragments):

I was in subway on platform and trains were stuck apparently, there were some other people one of which started exploring subway rails and another was saying that we need to find a driver? Then out of nowhere another train came and 'very softly' crashed into one of trains that were stuck.

Dream 1(fragment):

There was something about dragons.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was watching someone play a game that looked like resident evil 4, but it had different story, places and weapons. Player was going through some grey facility place with lots of rooms with lockers and i was trying to point player into direction where secret weapon was hidden.

Dream 3(fragments):

There was a story about characters traveling through some mysterious lands and they were visiting a house made of plants, there were some pumpkin people and a railway outside.

Dream Fragment 1:
I see a message from Josh D. It says that he has a plan. (This is why he said Na, to picking me up)

Dream Fragment 2:
I am standing in the kitchen with my Dad and RP. We're watching UFC related stuff on TV. Dad is comparing all the fighters to people he thinks looks like them. It goes to the panel. I'm tempted to put the main card fight on, but figure maybe they want to watch the lead up. Dad says to RP that he's going to play some Star Trek MOD, and won't be too long before he comes back. I now know Dad was bored of the lead up and was going change it over to the fights.

I'm watching Vitor Belfort and Alan Belcher fight in the UFC. Alan is getting the better of Vitor by rushing him and not letting him breath. Vitor weathers the storm and starts to turn the tide. Vitor looks like he is in the mount or the guard of Alan, and looks to knock Alan out cold. Vitor stops punching him out of respect but the ref tells him the fights not over and to continue.

I'm watching a car in 3rd person as if I'm playing a game. I'm racing through traffic. I make the car go on two wheels. I hear commentary of someone saying no fancy stuff for own safety. I keep 4 wheels on the ground, but the traffic starts to get busier and more challenging. The gaps are very tight, but I still seem to still get around them. I'm going around a corner that seems to go for 10 seconds, and decide to get on 2 wheels to make it easier for me to turn sharper.

I'm in my garage and I can see my Brother and my Dad on a scaffold. Brother asks me to make him some mixture out of water and flower. I see a scene of 3 balls of dough.

I'm in my house searching for items and I have a hard time getting things sorted. I look down and realize my pants are down to my ankles. I walk passed my Dad with my pants down, and it feels somewhat normal for me to be doing this.

I'm in my TV room and I'm mixing up ingredients in a big bowl. I look over to the rumpus room and see Dad and brother working. I look into the bowl and notice I'm mixing peanut butter with water, which is making me a bit confused. I hear a knock on the back door, so I go and see who it is. It's my neighbor, so I let him inside. He walks over to the couch and starts fixing up all the cushions. I tell him that it must get annoying seeing the couch like that on a regular basis. I notice Dad hasn't acknowledged the neighbor at all. Neighbor finishes making the couch and now lifts up his leg and farts. We hardly know the guy and he seems to be very comfortable around us.

I'm at my house in my dads lounge room. I see Christmas tree's with decoration on them, that fill the room. Eddy I is with me, and I tell him this is year round, as I look towards the tree.

I'm at my primary school. I see a big tracker or grater. It's going up and down quite aggressively, pushing dirt. It's quite close to me and I hear my Dad say that he better be careful. I see the grater full down a ditch, on it's side. It's leaning on what I think is my house, but it's a class room. I walk over to the grater to have a closer look.

I'm now near the brick wall where we used to play cricket, where I see the grater. Myself and Dad see the man come out of his grater. He looks young, tall and fat. Dad starts to raise his voice towards the man, and I step in and try and settle him down. Dad asks the driver about the cartons. The driver says that pictures can be submitted to the milk companies, and they put the photo on the milk carton. The driver explains something about a killer being on the carton. I ask him can you put any pictures on there? like a dick? He says no. but you can put a girl with her fingers in her vagina. The driver is now making a sandwich. I see all types of ingredient and see him spread some onion cream on them. He has made them for us before we leave.

I'm now with my Dad, in a shopping center. We are walking with our sandwiches in hand. I take a bite, and it tastes good.

Dream Frag 1:
I'm in a city and running from a guy who has a rapid firing laser gun.

Dream 2:
In a empty/vacant military outpost in an icy tundra. Some co-workworkers are there and we're talking about where I should transfer to. Then me and a person i know are running outside the building and we start racing across the ice.

Dream 3:
I was on leave and at my grandmothers house, I was trying to remember what day my leave ended, and was freaking out because I was going to miss school and fail calculus.

I took a nap after lunch (siesta!) and had two crazy dreams.

I was home, in the living room. My mum said that my dad would be home soon, so I sat down and waited. Sure enough, he arrived, but he was weird. He looked like my dad and he acted like my dad, but I somehow knew it wasn't him. I got to him and said "tell me your name!", because I just knew that people can look like others, but they can't lie about their names. My fake-dad stuttered and tried to change the subject, so I let him walk a bit. I got behind him and broke his neck.

My mum was particularly cold about it, so I told her to tell me her name too. She told me I was being stupid. I was going to attack her, but then my real parents showed up (I knew it was them) and they told me I had to be careful, because those fake-people had super powers. My fake-mum disappeared. I cursed and told them we had to go after them. They told me to sit down, because they had something to tell me.

As I sat down, many fake-parents showed up and we were fighting them. The living room was absolutely destroyed, and then I woke up.

Second dream, I was in this very dark, old building. I was going to have dinner with a kid, I wasn't me. I was a fifteen-year-old girl, but the kid was like ten. Still, "I" was treating him like this was a date (so damn disturbing). Then, many people entered the room, it was like a restaurant.

The kid got angry cause he had to help (he worked there, I guess, even though he was a child?) so I told him it was okay, I could wait. I ended up helping too, and it wasn't that bad. I sat down for a while to wait for him, then this weird couple entered and sat down. The woman was looking around, suspicious. Another woman entered the room and I became her.

As this other woman, I knew that the couple were dangerous, especially the woman. The woman was a witch and she was going to kill me. I quickly used my powers, as I was also a witch now, and destroyed one of the walls. It was night and windy outside. The couple got up, ready to get me. I looked down and knew I could fly... not because I knew it was a dream, but because I knew I was a witch. I jumped and flew away.

I was back to being the fifteen-year-old girl. The kid showed up and asked me what had happened. I told him "witch stuff" and asked him to finish his work soon. He agreed and left. I woke up.

So frequently I have these dreams that are located at shopping centers.

In the dream I hear conversations of people happening around me. The dream started out where I was walking towards a store with some kids that were supposedly my own. One of the kids that was with me was just a toddler girl, she kept running away from me towards people and other stores so I kept having to catch her and hold her for a bit before putting her down again. Anyways, I heard a conversation that was I'm guessing my own conversation about being goal orientated or wanting some goal orientation because it seemed to me that nothing was happening of interest in this dream.

FYI: I have a separate dream family apparently. The are made up purely from imagination and I can't fully see them in dreams, its almost like they are just shadows, but I can see them and talk to them but it just doesn't seem real enough to me and it is quite frustrating that the keep showing up. Rarely do I ever dream about real family members. It is very strange to me.

I am then losing track of who I'm with because it is not clear to me who these people really are to me and they won't really communicate with me either mostly because it just seemed like I had a baby with me and that was it, but I felt other presences within the dream, it was odd.

I walk around the store I was going into in the beginning of the dream and start looking for clothes for a baby. I do this a lot in dreams and I have no clue why because I don't want kids, although I love kids and am definitely not expecting. Apparently my subconscious picks up on the side suggestion that maybe I do want kids but it will never be a set fulfillment in my life so it leaks out into the dream world.

So this whole entire dream I'm just walking about it store outlets, and I have no clue what I am really doing there. END

The next dream I was playing a video game that reminded me of a shooter like Grand theft auto. I was playing with these people and was telling them to take down this mob boss in the game. The mob boss had two stacks of health and when I shot him his health only went down a little, but he was just standing there staring at me. Then I said something like "wait, who is the person I'm shooting? Am I supposed to kill him?" There were these two other people with me who told me that there was some other objective to accomplish before we killed the mob, but I was still confused about why he was there in the first place if we had to do something else before killing him. END

The last dream kind of remotes back the shopping center except it was kind the shopping outlets were separated into fairground booths but still had the layout of an outlet store. You could walk into these booths, just like you would a store and the whole room consisted of the booth. The had weird prizes for kids, very ugly giant stuffed animals. Someone then told me these booths were like daycare, you leave your kid at a giant outlet store fair game booth with unreliable people. I told the people at one of the booth/stores that these were a bad idea and no kid would want to stay at these. Apparently as it was apparent to me in the dream I was very disappointed at the idea and left or rather awoke. END

YES, LUCID! LucasPotter, thanks for passing some of that goodness my way just like I asked . Now this is more like it, dreams more bizarre / wild / wacky than last night. Got to bed 2 hours late, woke up for the final time 9 hours after bed. I went on a long fast jog/walk today to make sure I'm ready for lots of sleep tonight.

legend: comments, normal dream, lucid dream

00:00 Saturday 2013-10-19 (country)
02:05 bedtime at last, way off schedule of 00:00, couldn't be helped, had to heat the place. With the long day including intense exercise Friday morning (swam 1km in 30 minutes), I'm falling unconscious on my feet.

07:22
1) Whale friend, I'm holding on to him in the turbulent water, I don't want to get lost in the water. I'm scraping barnacles off of the whale with a knife, sometimes I mistake a tiny piece of the whale for a barnacle. The water is beautiful blue. The whale communicates to me a feeling of safety, he won't let me get lost in the ocean. I feel a great love for this whale. I'm looking all over the body for barnacles. I'm holding on to the whale's ear (!!).

F1) I waited a long time for someone to arrive.

F2) Playing guitar.

08:59
2) Mother says "What's that red thing on your neck?" I look in mirror (face fuzzy), don't see anything at first, look again, then see a large red blue black swollen area under my right jaw. Some blue veins running through it. I'm looking in the mirror confused by this (DS). I look on my body and I see dozens of brown marks, and then snails, snails everywhere. I open my shirt and see more snails. They're arranged in lines on my body. I pluck each on of them off of me with a "pop" feeling and throw them to the ground. (WL, went to dermatologist).

3) Video game in sister's old room in parent's house (DS) in liquid. JM (former work colleague) has constructed a video game system in my sister's room. The system contains liquid. It is not finished. He wants me to help him finish the system, to provide something. I don't want to do it, because I don't want him playing loud video games in my house. The system starts working and produces a deafening sound, everyone has to shout just to be heard. Some visitors arrive and are taking a tour of our house. They don't approve of the loud sounds. I take them into my old room where it's quiet to show them around. They like this much better. "That's much more like it" they say. There are two men and a women. One of the men is freakishly tall, like over 7 1/2 feet, his head is scraping the ceiling.

F3) Toby (PR guy from West Wing) arriving to meeting another guy at a restaurant. I'm sitting in a table opposite. He says to the other guy "are we here to chat or to chit-chat?" He doesn't want smalltalk, it's an important meeting.

F4) Say goodbye to STch (family friend), she doesn't even look at me or respond and just walks by with a disapproving look on her face. She doesn't approve that I think she's hot.

F5) Playing a water-filled video game system (different than the above one) with a woman. She says how it's her favorite game and has great graphics. We're looking at it and seems like plain/cartoon graphics. I see them, it's like slowly animating cartoons. She says they're good, "they're enhanced."

F6) Body parts in a mixer/blender.

09:07 temperature 10C

10:36
4) Consulting company (I work with them sometimes) is holding a seminar in how to make money as a freelancer (WL discussion). They recommend that one great way to make money is to sign up with the "Mr. Hensen" project. This is a man who is trying to map out every major league baseball (DS) stadium in the US so he can visit each one. They say we should use Google (calendar?) but unfortunately that doesn't integrate with Google maps so we have to do some work to provide the same functionality. Mr Hensen is standing in a baseball stadium, it's night and the lights are on. He's trying to visit each stadium in the country. Somehow he needs to pay a consulting company to make them out for him. I walk by him and he pats me on the shoulder and offers some sort of reassurance.

F7) There's a woman whom I like but she doesn't like me so I'm going to be alone tonight.

F8) I'm with people sitting in an open area. The people are out of focus to my right in my peripheral vision. I think "they're making a fire".

11:09 DILD #3!!
5) A group of people are dancing. One is a young lady, very attractive, short brown hair (DS) and brown eyes. All the people are doll (large) sized. Then I reach for the doll-lady, and I'm holding the lady/doll in between my hands, one hand on each side of her body on her ribs. (Her name is Allison?) I say "I understand that you're going to be dancing with this guy over here, but when you're done dancing with him, come find me ... " while I'm saying this she grows to be fully life-size, I continue, ".. and then we'll dance ...", I begin to pull her close to me, and say, "... or ... something! ..." and we start making out. As I'm kissing her my awareness slowly grows. and I become lucid. I know I'm dreaming. Continue kissing ...a few seconds later: "I'm dreaming," I think to myself. I'm calm, no running around for me this time. I have things to do, goals to achieve. But this is so nice... (continue making out)... I'm calm, I feel aware of my waking life, I know I should stop this to achieve some goals. I feel quite pleased with myself, I have achieved lucidity *and* I'm making out with a beautiful doll-lady. I have a feeling like I'm grinning/smirking (like the "Kirk Smirk" from Star Trek when Captain Kirk is especially pleased with himself at the end of an episode). Still making out, I think to myself "Do a reality check" and I become increasingly aware of my body in bed..., and my awareness slowly transitions from the dream into WL. I'm in bed with my eyes closed. I want to go back in to achieve some goals (yeah, that's the ticket, to achieve more goals...smirk...). I try to DEILD, I haven't moved and my eyes are still closed. My shoulder hurts from my position and my other hand has needles from numbness from the position. I try for about 2 minutes but I'm quite awake, I'm already in the 9th hour after bed, and I'm very uncomfortable so I figure I'm not going to make it and reach for my phone and journal the experience. I was making out the entire time of the LD up through waking up with lips still moving . Total elapsed time lucid, about 20 seconds.

11:46 temp 9C