non-lucid

So there's some sort of membership you need at this one pool to be able to swim in it, and it involves filling out a lot of papers before you're eligible to get in. My friend really wants me to be able to swim with her there, so she is really getting on me about filling out the papers. We're at the side of the pool, and the papers are I think around 2/3 the way done, when I see Gabriel from Supernatural lounging on a pool chair. I don't remember if I just go over to him or he calls me over, but he asks me if I really want the pool membership, then gives me a tiny golden box of golden matches, that sort of sparkle. I walk back over to the papers spread out by the pool. I'm pretty sure I know what he wants me to do, but if it doesn't work, then I'll have to start all over again with the papers. I decide to go ahead and do it. I light a match, intending to burn the papers, while my friend protests beside me. However, the match goes out before it gets to the papers, because I am so hesitant. To my dismay, all the other matches in the box have burned too! However, the match that I'm holding is still smoldering, and I press it to the paper, and it catches fire.

It takes a while, but I manage to spread that paper to all the other papers until they're all ashes. My friend is very upset, and I'm waiting anxiously to see if it really worked and I'll have a membership now. There is a screen over the pool, that goes fullscreen in my eyes and a bunch of options popped up, because apparently the membership for the pool isn't swimming in it at all, but using this thing. The options say things like, "earth", "sea", "constellations", and other things. Apparently the program is kind of like google earth, except that it applies to the sea and space, too - but only to places humans have already seen.

Later (I might have clicked "sea"?) I see a few mermaids in this cove, and it looks like a 2D sidescroller, and I can only see the walls of the cove like barriers, and everything behind them is like a blue sea backdrop. Gabriel is one of the mermaids, and he's trying to lead the others out of the cave, but he keeps getting pestered by this other mermaid that has a different type of tail than the rest, and it's dark and split in two, and has no scales like she's more related to a hagfish than a fish, except that she has long, wavy fins.

Later, I'm at a cabin in the woods, and somebody pulls up with their car. They get out, and I see peeking up from behind the car two komodo dragons. I say something like, "aw, you startled two komodo dragons!" And the guy says something like, "aren't those dangerous," and say yes, but that they shouldn't attack. They do. I tell him they can't climb trees and so I climb a tree and he follows, but apparently they /can/ climb trees. One bites me, but it doesn't break the skin, so I'm fine. We climb higher and higher and I think at some point I kick the komodo dragons off the tree. We keep climbing, though, and as we get higher, we encounter animals that are more and more dangerous. Each time I deftly push them off the tree - even a gorilla. We get to the highest part and their is a big cat, like a jaguar or a cougar, on a branch above our heads, and it'll strike at any moment. At some point I lose the guy I was with, and the cat comes for me. However, I convince it that we should eat candy instead of eat me.

A bear comes over at some point and we all sit on a bed in the middle of the forest, next to a claw game that has candy in it. We have a bunch of bags on the bed and the floor full of candy and some other human foods.

At some point before all this, I need to fight demons (or ghosts?)(I might have been The Batter from Off), so a guy is showing me where they are and how to fight them (I think it might have been Shadwell from Good Omens, or at least inspired by him). We do one thing that is supposed to attract demons but doesn't work, and I don't remember what it is. The next time, we are all on a carousel with the type of basket that has a cage all around it. Shadwell says we need to rock our basket as hard as we can. We do that, and no demons come, but as the carousel goes faster and faster, everything suddenly stops, and I'm told by Shadwell that at that point, our basket flies off from the carousel, apparently because of the extra weight added by the hulk that was apparently in the basket the whole time.

Even though I thought I might dream of COOP documentation because of training I took, and I did dream of it, I still did not become lucid. Bummer.

The previous night I dreamed of cheering because of baseball game we watched in real life, and again I had told myself to watch out for baseball game in dreams, but I did not become lucid despite predicted dream elements.

In this dream unlike in real life I had a cat, and so did my neighbor (not a real neighbor). He and I were talking across the hedge (don't have a hedge in real life), and he was telling me how when I am at work, my cat likes to hang out with him and his cat. It was not explained why he is not working and has time to hang out with cats all day, despite the fact that he was middle aged and quite healthy and well off looking.

Even though cats are a dream sign lately, I did not get lucid.

Morning of May 11, 2013. Saturday.



This was an odd but very vivid dream (semi-lucid, becoming fully lucid). It may have resulted from a new type of meditation with affirmations I have been trying for the first time (which always brings unexpected new dreams that are sometimes far from actual intent in meditation the first time around). It goes along the lines of mentally saying “One point one, I am dreaming…”, “this (situation, feeling, or imagery) is in my dream”, “Two point one, I am dreaming…”, and so on, up to “One hundred point one…I am dreaming…” assuming I get that far before entering my dream state. I use “point one” because if I decide to continue with “programs” in this same way, I will have to continue with “point two” and so on, so as not to confuse different desired dream elements and sequences at a later date.

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In my dream, I am in a typical combined building of two bigger places we lived several years ago; the house at Barolin Street in this town, and Stadcor Street in Brisbane. I get out of bed, thinking I am in my dream, and I am, but I soon decide it is too “real” to be a dream, even though it is a fictional composite building I am in. I sometimes wonder how other people can dream of real and undistorted locations, when Zsuzsanna and I often dream of composite locations (two or more) as even when we know the place, there are usually additional rooms or elements from other locations (past, present, and future). Over the past twenty years it often has also been two or more countries (or cities or states) in the same place. This seems normal to me, as dreams are often a “unification” event.

I soon become aware that our youngest son has somehow been duplicated as some sort of random half-formed tulpa, getting energies from an unknown source, perhaps my residual layered hypnagogic constructs set up earlier. He is apparently a vampire. (However, his teeth mostly come out more like that of a rattlesnake than a typical movie vampire). I hold onto him so he does not get away and cause trouble or fool other people, as he is wearing the same clothes as our real son and is becoming less transparent as I hold him. The rest of my family comes in (including our real youngest son) and my wife is amazed, though somewhat wary.

We have to get rid of him and it does not matter how, as he is only an imaginary form and is even annoying to the real version of our son. Eventually, though I am not sure how, he turns into ash (sunlight or fresh air coming in?) which blows away before any threatening drama unfolds. (However, there is no actual fear at any point in my dream. In fact, there is an overall essence of beauty and peace).

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In real life this same morning, Zsuzsanna had told me (after I mentioned my dream) that she was presently reading a book from the library, that I did not know about, in which a vampire has the name of our son as in my dream, which is Oliver, an unlikely name for a vampire (in my opinion).

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Dream recall from today's naps. A bit of improvement in the length of lucid, on the way back to proper length.

Nap #1(fragment):

I was talking about something in dreamviews chat and then SilentEternity came online on skype and i was surprised that he was online so early. Then i got up and took off headphones, i noticed that binaural beats were playing and also dad was in the room, i said 'Nope' and he disappeared, then i was tried summoning but my view got weird and dream shortly faded out.

Nap #2(fragments):

I was playing some Doom-like game, but the levels were based on some places from waking life, i had some problem with one level in forest park.

Saturday, Jan 19th:

One of the dreams involved Ponies. Fluttershy was left behind, So Rainbow Dash and Applejack (Who now had wings, Not unlike a fanfic I read) Went to get her despite Fluttershy being in a place where the land had flown off from where the rest of the Ponies were.

Friday, Jan 26:

I was in the garage and the truck's cab was longer, Like a van. A hefty woman was there and perhaps someone else was there. Morphine's "The Saddest Song" Started playing.

I arrived late at a banquet organized by my work place. the sorbet had already melted, and all that was left was cool aid. Then the bad guys (terrorists) started to demonstrate how they could control people through the spiked food they ate. they could cause remote controlled agonizing pain or embarrassing sexual pleasure in those who had eaten the food. Then the bad guys proceeded to take the credit for our team's accomplishments.

Oh, and somewhere in this dream I walked outside with a woman and noticed that she was a bad guy because she had a radioactive necklace that glowed in the dark. I was scared of that necklace and her.

Vividness: Around 6-7/15 (10 being lucid) (From the night of Wednesday, 5/8/13)
Awareness: 6/10
Sleep times 11:05PM, 6:56 AM, 7:20AM
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I am at a pool (one I am not familiar with) and there seem to be many people (indistinct blurs, I don't exactly focus on the detail here) running around the edges. Somehow I gather that there is an 'evil spirit' that transfers through contact (my subconscious can't make up it's mind: sometimes there are many and I'm made to believe that they're devouring people, sometimes just one) and chases you around endlessly. I remember running up the stairs of a mini tiki hut by the side of the pool, and getting jostled as people crowd up in the small doorless frame. I get tagged a few times, but feel no effect and immediately get someone else as the running in circles cycle continues.

At some point I'm at a pool I used to go to as a child, and the water level is a few inches about the floor (so the entire surface of the pool, concrete and all are covered with at least 6 inches of water, the pool parts going down to 14 feet). I am splashing along the edges of the pool and seem to glimpse sharks near the bottom of one of them. I notice that the water is very sparkly and pale, and the concrete has a bleached look about it. This was the middle dream, then the pool location switches back to the first.

More running around, then (about 453632626 hours later my mind realizes if I'm getting chased I can actually LEAVE the premises) the focus switches to there being bombs in either the pool or one of the cars in the parking lot (a flat gravelly area with dense foliage on all sides, not a place I recognize). I'm trying to think about where to go, and glance over at the suddenly enlarged entrance to the pool to see a mass of people trying to leave and drive away. I notice my dad and mom, and as I do so there is a movement out of the corner of my eye and all the cars drive away, leaving one empty white SUV conspicuously parked near me (at least the passenger side was). I usher my parents out of the building, and I recognize slight fear and confusion on my dad's face as I single him out in the crowd.

I'm at the pool parking lot still, but deathly afraid and run along the gravelly path that makes way for a cheap asphalt road. Here I am very aware of some of my limbs, and glance over my shoulder every few seconds, moving my neck quickly. I can see a great amount of detail, with flickering lights shining through the leaves behind me and giving off beautiful shadows on the ground (I almost never notice shadows in dreams). There appears to be some pulsating 2-D shape moving along the ground and emitting a strange 'eeeeeeeeee', but my mind deems it nonthreatening and I stumble onwards. I make turns aimlessly and don't really recall the scenery, just the fact that I need to run away and I'm lost. I finally am running down a extremely narrow, lineless road that heads towards a coffee shop I sometimes go to on the weekends. As I run, I meet up with a misleadingly innocuous girl, slightly shorter than me with an average, unattractive face with brown hair and eyes. I somehow learn that she is a vampire (my disoriented brain is trying to tie in with the spirit-monsters from earler) and mistakes me for one as well. We talk briefly, but as we reach the entrance of the coffee shop, she realizes I am a human as a bulky, lumbering male companion of hers steps out onto the road to meet us. She says how they bite thousands of humans every day, and I feel an immense relief, not having realized how scared I was that if I were to get bitten, it would hurt badly (thinking I probably had been bitten before, and either I didn't remember it or it was not painful). I start to run back down the road, and she lopes gracefully after me. We swing our arms at each other, and I block a quick secession of blows with the sides of my forearms, somehow hitting a combo to disable an attack buff (...? even I don't remember or know what I'm talking about here). We exchange some deadly hand to hand blows, and then I have NO IDEA what happens next. Talk about crazy sickness-induced dreams, eh?

Wow so um okay. This dream is embarrassing, kind of. >.>

I was at school. One of my dream signs. I was in the classroom where I take biology. My teacher, let's just call her Mrs. Teacher, was teaching. I went out of the back door of the classroom for some reason. I think I got the impulse to take off my shirt... I went into this hallway that doesn't exist in real life. I think I was viewing myself in third person at this point. I took off my shirt, which was sky blue... all I was wearing was a bra and my pants... what the actual fuck? Now 3 boys were following me. I knew one, his name is Evan. The others were not real IWL but wore glasses and were blonde. Anyway I turned a corner and tried to run and put my shirt back on, but they told Mrs. Teacher on me! Oh no! I went back to the biology room and she was like,
"Why did you have your shirt off? You get a detention," she said.
and all of that good stuff.
*Memory gap*
Uhmmm so now my shirt was on except Evan was there and um he was feeling up on me, I guess. His hands were on my chest and all of that good stuff >.>
"Oh yeah these are pretty nice, but I've seen better", he said.
and... there was probably maybe another part but you know, I guess I'll keep it to myself.
And then this blonde boy with glasses also starts feeling up on me... yeah. But somewhere in the end I get away from them and the dream ends.
...Yeeeaaahhhh...
Very odd dream.

Date: May 10, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 8 hours (bedtime 1:00am-5:00am) WBTB (7:00am-8:00am), then slept from about 8:00am-11:00am
Category: Dream, Dream Fragment, & Non Lucid (again )

Dream Fragment: I was in a store looking for clear duct tape and had a hard time finding it. I found duct tape with solid colors, duct tape with patterns, duct tape with several colors, duct tape with pictures, but no duct tape that was clear. I believe I needed the duct tape to ship a package (I am currently in need of clear duct tape to ship a package in real life, so I guessed that is why I was dreaming about it).

Dream #1: Dreamed I was at some sort of football practice or physical fitness event. Football players were doing some sort of routine and they needed the football player’s wives to participate (I think I was a football players’ wife). Anyway, some of the wives were teamed up with football players that were not their husbands and some wives were replaced with professional football cheerleaders to do the routine with the football players. The wives were very upset and jealous over this because the (dance?) routine required the football players to really hold, grab, grope, and touch their partners .

Dream #2: I had a dream last week of seeing my niece and her child (I haven’t seen them in a couple of years). In the dream from last week, I was able to see the child in great detail, I haven’t see the child since she was born, but in that dream, the child was at least 2 y/o and had her hair in two huge ponytails and was wearing a little dress with flowers as the pattern on her dress. In my dream from last night, I was with my niece and her child and at that very moment, I remember saying to her, “Hey, I dreamed this scene last week! I saw this exact scene in my dream from last week! The baby IS wearing her hair in two huge ponytails AND the baby IS 2 years old! I was right!” In my dream, my niece just looked at me like I was crazy and said, “Oh.” At that moment, I should have become aware/lucid that I was dreaming, but sadly, I didn’t and I woke up…I thought I was really talking to my niece about the dream I had .

Note to self: Focus on your awareness…how clear does a dream sign have to be for you to become lucid ?????[/COLOR]

I was playing some helicopter game(I think it was Army Men Air Attack, a game from my looooooooong past before i even had a PC), and my helicopter was apparently armed with Dyson Gatlings from AI War somehow, it was pretty powerful. Later part of the game turned out to be more of an FPS or TPS.
After that game i was in dreamviews chat and then i went to play some AI War.

Friday 5/10/13

Last night bed 1:40am - 10:15am Watching The Galaxy Quest

DR1 - I'm with a friend of mine in a beach hotel. it's already second day, and I realize I have not gone to the beach yet. I look out the door and ocean on the left is in distance. The sandy beach between us is very wide. Some people are sunbathing nearby.

Something happened to my shorts, so I'm looking for new pair in a drower. There is a green pair and salmon colored one.

DR2 - I'm in a long, one story building. Feels like a hospital or clinic. I'm getting away. I make it past the main door and outside in a park I'm hiding from a nurse that's following me. She runs towards me and I can't run fast.

There are some gorillas at the front door. They are friendly and I pet one of them as I walk by.

Back inside some building. There is a guy in upstairs room and some guys friends of mine. I ask him if he is running from police. I wanna help him.

Police and FBI are taking positions outside. All you can see from bushes are shiny barrels of sniper rifles. And big, shiny badges and medals. I unwrap an old piece of cloth on the table next to this guy to take a weapon to help him defend himself. To my disappointment, there is about 5 samurai swords, only 2 shotguns. I take one of them and I'm checking out how it works.

Police chief walkes in to negotiate. I think the guy is doing to surrender.

DR3 - I'm at the wheel of an riksha type of a vehicle. 3 wheels, one place at the front. But in the back is a bed with comforters. I think a child is there with me, maybe my younger brother. We are in town K, where my gramma lives.

We are about to take off, when this old, skinny lady lifts up a tarp that serves as sides of the vehicle and gets in. She wants me to take her to the cemetary. I don't have a heart to tell her I'm not a taxi, which I think she has me confused with. But I also have a feeling, she exactly knew who I was. I feel like she as another agenda.

I tell her to sit down or lay down. She lays down and I cover her with a comforter. She gets up and fidgets. I'm worried she falls out through the tarp side. I see she is cold, I tell her to lay down again and I'll give her another comforter.

I tell her in hungarian, that I don't really know how to get to the cemetary. She says she will navigate. I tell her in my broken hungarian, that she needs to tell me couple streets before we need to make a turn, what street we need to make that turn at and if to the left or right.

I'm also asking my brother to navigate. He sais he never been there. I tell him sure you were. Then I'm trying to remember when, and I tell him we were there for our godfather. I'm thinking hard who else, then I remember my godmother.

This girl and I had been talking for a month, but we never found the time to actually hang out and see each other in person, so we kept it digital. A few weeks ago she dropped off and stopped responding to me completely, which has made me pretty upset... and now she shows up in my dreams.

Three nights ago I kept waking up every 30 minutes, causing me to have really short dreams. My last dream started with me walking in a parking lot to a small white shed. I walk into the door to a very small room that has a desk that seperates the room from a kitchen. In the kitchen looking through the opening was Beth, the girl I had been talking to. Immediately, I'm swept with these crazy feelings of anything I consider to be for lack of a better explanation love. It's that feeling that causes me to lose my breath and get a very heavy sensation in my stomach, causing me to be nervous. So I walk up to the window and ask her for some ice cream and I can see she has a unicorn tattoo on her cheek maybe because IRL she's connected to being one. In the kitchen is a bunch of silver kitchen instruments and Beth's IRL producer working on some ice cream. Beth asks me what kind of flavor I want and then she decides that I want cookies and cream so she starts stirring something in her hands and screams "YOU'RE GETTING MY SPECIAL COOKIES AND CREAM ICE CREAM" and the dream ends.

Two nights ago I was having this dream about this gigantic water park and I was in a huge lazy river with a bunch of random people. The river was coming to the end so I was preparing to exit as a bunch of lifeguards were on the sides yelling. The lazy river was probably 30 feet wide and there was no ceiling. I remember the walls being pink and purple drapes and curtains along with jagged green crystals sticking out. Anyways, I step out of the lazy river and then I'm suddenly at my friend Mason's house in the back. That's when Beth and her friend Jessica step out from the back door and walk closer to me. She sees me and smiles and I smile back. She walks up to me and I sit down onto my car that's behind me as she sits on my lap. We start to kiss and I feel all of the emotion pour out of me as this overwhelming feeling comes back to me and I'm struggling to breathe as we continue to kiss for what seems like forever, but in reality lasted probably 10 seconds. We pull back and smile at each other before the dream fades...

Fragment #1

i was outside a building, which, when looking back, i think was some sort of mental asylum. someone who i guessed to be a patient there was outside being interviewed by a news presenter, and thats all i remember.

Fragment #2

this time i was by the entrance of the same building, just on the other side of some huge brick walls. the patients were beginning to step outside, but a crowd of people outside the gate forced them back in. i remember arguing with a woman through a gap in the gate

the date of these dreams was 9th may 2013/ early morning of 10th may

im unsure if these are 2 fragments, because i dont remember anything between these 2, or about my transition from the outside of the walls to the inside, or if its all 1 dream because the setting was the exact same

I was at some concert(Muse, I think) and we were setting up. I had to be on stage pretending to be a fangirl. Don't know why.
I had to make a questions and answer video for them to play at the concert and my assistant was some little girl. Since she was so little, she sucked at making videos, so I pretty much did it myself. I woke up before I could finish.