non-lucid

I was looking in the mirror at myself. I saw the reflection of a young black woman looking back (about 19 or 20 years old). I noticed that I was a little overweight and felt a little upset about that. But as I looked closer I saw that my body actually wasn't that fat, but it was my face and neck. I had very round cheeks and my chin fat went down my whole neck. I remember trying to move around and stretch out my neck or get into any position where the neck fat wasn't so obvious.

>Be at night
>With beautiful girl
>We're in some weird place near the ocean
>With some other chick aswell who says she's from the U.k
>Be walking around, decide to go to this underground place we know about, so we start looking for it
>After walking under an underpass (A tunnel that goes under a track/road) we somehow find the ocean directly in front of us, we're still looking for the tunnel at this point
>Hear someone getting their cows in for milking
>"shit" we don't want to be seen by anyone, must be running away from someone at this point
>We gap it, try hide under the underpass (since the cows are going over the underpass and not through it)
>The light turns on (wut) keep running, try find somewhere else to hide
>Find this old mine looking thing with signs like 'do not enter' around it
>high-tech shit in there
>>Its the underground place!!
>Hiding from the people walking around in there as we make our way further into the underground place
>End up at an underground river
>Open a cupboard next to me, has an inflatable boat in there that starts inflating itself
>Girls are still with me
>For some reason im trying to paddle the boat backwards
>Girls be like "wow, your good at this"
>Im like "thanks, i was in the .. (cant remember what i said)
>Tunnel get smaller, untill eventually it's the perfect size for the boat to fit through
>The way ahead is blocked, another inflatable boat that is stuck
>I try to push it through the hole
>some dude pops his head up from that boat
>"Bear!!"
>wut the fuck.
>He pushes my boat back towards the way i just came from
>My boat is somehow gathering speed as we go back to the underground place with the high-tech shit
>lose my paddles during this (dammit)
>Make it back, i look back to the boat, the hot girl is still there but the english girl is gone.
>Take the hot girl with me, we get out of the tunnel
>Go back to the underpass and chill by the ocean watching it with the girl untill dawn
>Wake up

Dream recall from today's nap.

I was playing some games on my PC, i recall there was location in one of the games on the beach and some other location was some metallic place. Then i was playing AI War, but the structures were huge. There was massive enemy shipyard size of half of the sector and it was producing some massive ships, and it also had turrets on it. I was waiting for reinforcements to take it out, but my champion ship was powerful enough to take out some of the ships that shipyard produced in meanwhile. Then the shipyard unexpectedly started to move.
Later on i was trying to recall dream from my today's nap(Uh?...), but i was confused and then dream faded out...

>Be in a race
>On a motorbike
>Have Fat chick on the back of the bike
>Going down stairs and hills and stuff
>Somehow, the bike goes too fast and we end up going off the track into some kind of weird ocean
>Try to get back on shore, no sign of the fat chick and the bike is too heavy to get out of the water
>Swim around, Find a spot where i can roll the bike out of the water and someone helps me get it out
>End up pushing the bike the rest of the way - the bike must have been waterlogged
>See people from my old high school on the way to the end.
>wut.jpg
>wake up

>Angry For some reason
>Dad's angry at me too
>Be playing with my lego set
>Have chewbacca in there
>Can't find his helmet, looking around for it (does chewbacca even wear a helmet?)
>My brother Henry comes up to me and says i owe him $20, I tell him to bugger off, Im angry
>Wake up all confused

DJ Log: May 12, 2013 – 6:45AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am helping a friend work on a small single-engine one-seat plane. We are both sitting in the seat, tightly wedged between the sides of the plane. There is a panel full of buttons and controls and there is the typical control stick in the middle of the floor. We try to move our legs over each other's for a bit so that the stick is free to use.

We're tracing an electrical issue of some sort which is preventing the engine from starting. I pull off a large metal panel on the dash and find a fuse panel underneath which has some really primitive looking fuses. The fuse is a bar of phenolic with a small wire wrapped around it several times. The ends of the bar have holes so that they can be fastened to a bolt to allow the current flow. Each fuse is labeled 10 Amps and there are 6 of them stacked together, so I assume that means that this is supposed to be a 60 amp fuse. They look very corroded and rusty.

I reach in and wiggle the fuses around a bit and the engine suddenly starts. My friend reaches up and pulls the canopy down and says, “Fuck yeah!!! Let's go!” I pull the throttle control and the engine sputters a bit, then revs up quite well. The prop on the front starts spinning, but it looks too small to actually make the plane work. Just as I am about to pull the throttle control more, some guy walks right in front of the plane while talking on his cell phone. I look around for a horn button but cannot find one. I push up the canopy and yell, “Hey, dumb fuck! Hang up and walk before you get your head whacked off!”

I pull the canopy down and pull back the throttle control all of the way. The engine spins faster and starts to move the plane forward, then the engine sputters out and stalls. I wiggle the fuses again but nothing happens. Reaching under the seat, I find a box of spare fuses and parts. The box has at least 100 of those fuses in it and a spool of the fuse wire to wrap around them. I say, “Why didn't the dumb fucks put a breaker in there instead of a fuse? How bad would it suck if the fuse took a shit while in mid-air?”

Been trying for natural wbtb awakenings the past two nights. Sunday night was pretty good though Breif. Last night I woke after two hours drank water and went back to sleep with a half ass MILD attempt. Pretty much blacked out until the alarm. I did have a dream in my mind until I hit the snooze and fell back to sleep. I usually dream pretty vividly between snooze but I didn't this morning.

In the dream I was in an area that was somewhat similar to NA. The trailer that I lived in was across the road from Jasper's family's house, though the distance was longer (though certainly not long enough to be considered a true distance) than what it is in reality. There were several trees that dotted the place and the sky was overcast, as so many of my dreams are.

I had taken my dog, Romeo, outside for a walk and, upon seeing some of my school friends such as Jarold across the street, went over to that direction. Perseus and Kylar were also there, getting drunk--despite having no alcohol in the immediate vicinity and not actually having had consumed any. Neither Jarold nor Kylar looked as they do in waking life, with Jarold looking slightly more boyish and Kylar looking as if he was molded out of clay by a semi-talented Art I student (I remember that Kylar's pants were low on him and he was wearing no underwear. his private area was clayish as well).

While I was walking around the yard, I heard a hissing sound coming from under the porch. Knowing that it was a snake I quickly dodged out of the way and drug my dog behind me. Jarold took my place and took care of it, however, fairly quickly. My dog's leash and collar unhooked and Romeo ran off. I was able to get somewhat close to him a few times but (just as in real life) was never able to actually get him. Since Perseus was so close, I asked him to get Romeo for me. Despite him being "drunk," he consented.

I was walking along a street in the neighborhood when two guys between 25-30 years old stopped me. They were threatening and I could feel that they wanted to attack me. And what was worse, I knew they wanted to do it just to be "popular" among others and to have something to brag about. This made me frustrated and when the shorter of the guys, who was italian- or spanish looking with short dark hair and a red shirt, grabbed my arms I had this feeling of unreality and felt a numb kind of shock instead of being frightened. When I fully realized what he was doing, I tried to break free, but he was very strong. I tried to scream, but my voice remained low and hoarse no matter how much energy I put behind it. The other guy just stood there watching and was very calm about all of this.

I soon managed to break free, but found myself caught in the same kind of scene several times again, with the same guys at the same place, even though I had left it. The dream then jumps a lot between different places and although I cannot see anyone, I have a strong feeling of danger and of being pursued. I can feel that someone I know is close by and I try to call out to this person, but my voice still fails me and when I try to run, it is very hard. It is as if the air has grabbed me and prevents me from advancing. Eventually, after some more struggling, I wake up.

I recall there was something going on with different dimensions and i had to deal with some stuff. Then i was back in the forest park place from waking world and there was some music that was annoying me, i was tired and i was going home. On the way there was some talk about dog food.
Then i was back in some different dimension and there was weird city with badly drawn objects and homestuck trolls, then the dimension starts collapsing on itself but i manage to jump into some portal.
Then i was in the Doom-like game, the level was huge and was located in some kind of pyramid-like structure. I was lacking ammo and i had to deal with "White Knight" enemies(from one of my IWL mods for doom, look like white colored hell knights) and Mancubuses near one of the doorways, but it was not much of a problem. Soon in the next area i found a plasma gun, which was apparently 3D model. I was surprised and was looking at it from various angles. Then i was using a map to find way through the level, i have reached some tek-textured passage and there were a bunch of cacodemons and pain elementals. I noticed that lost souls summoned by pain elementals had some weird 'puff' effects and cacodemons had completely different fireball projectile sprite.
I got to the next level and i looked at the objective list, which was saying something about two ways to kill the boss and that to get a secret i should not fall into the lava. Can't recall much through the level, but at the end i was greeted by some crazy homeless dude, he was shouting and running around.

I remembered a dream fragment that was clearly due to an argument on DV.

Another long absence. Too long, I think. I shall be catching up, writing previous dreams I haven't been able to until now...

I'm in Grandma's house looking for something to eat. I'm really hungry. I can't find anything in the fridge, so I go look in the fridge outside. There is so much food but I cant decide what I want.

A bit out of time this week, an actually not so brief update:

13 May

- Me and a group of 5 kids decide to create a business. We go to register it, and the start up costs are only 100. We talk to some lawyer who says its is excellent because we are all from different countries.

- I become upset and leave the house of a friend wearing slippers. It is very hard to walk with these but I don't find this unusual.

- In our old neighborhood, there are lots of new stores. I go in a supermarket where they are making fresh carrot juice, it is green in color, I wonder a bit about that, but conclude that green carrot juice is ok.

14 May

- In our old place, my mom keeps talking, while I want to go to sleep. I tell her that her talking activates my brain and I cannot fall asleep. It is early morning, still dark outside and snowing.

- I see Dr dre on the street, he is smoking and I want to join him. Before I do, he has finished with the stuff. A skater boy pushes him hard and I think how rude kids are nowadays. I follow Dre to a building, but the cops are all over the place. I have a micro second of lucidity, remembering I read a part of Xanos's dream from yesterday and know it this the cause for this one. I lose my lucidity a second later and try to leave the building.

- I am in jail which looks like a normal house, my belongings are also there. A woman calls me and I think they are finally letting me go. She informs me that she allows me to go out, so that I can find a woman called Connie Flowers or something similar. A friend from school is also accompanying me. We look for the place where Connie lives, but cannot find her. I have another second brief moment of clarity and high awareness, when I am climbing a fence, while looking for her. I continue following the dream but get the brilliant idea to ask some old ladies to show me the way to Connie's house. They all point in one direction and that excites me a lot. I am absorbed back by the dream and we go to the place the women were pointing at.

- A false awakening where I jot down key words from the previous dream. I write Connie Flowers on a piece of paper. Had it not been this FA, I probably would have forgotten the name. It was so realistic that I actually looked down and expected to see it written in my notebook, but nothing was there irl.

- On a street, thinking about last night's dreams. I look at the sky, and decide to star gaze. I have my blanket with me. I get interrupted by a machine washing the streets. My slippers get washed away...

Note: micro-lucids, not counting
Pretty busy this week, I wish my sleep could condense, so that I still get some nice REM moments.

Say that one more time, I dare you.... [Non-Lucid]

There was a lot that had already happened in this dream that I don't remember clearly now, but it involved me being in the backyard of my house and seeing lots of "villains", like with a supervillain kind of atmosphere to it. I was building a history with these people, though like I said, I don't know what occurred now. Where my memory comes in is a little strange, I was just in my house with my parents and my aunt and uncle and we were having the villains over for some reason. Based on the context, I think it might have been that we were giving them a chance to redeem themselves and prove that they could be regular people.

This one guy brought his wife and son over, and I really didn't like him. We were all trying to act civilized but I didn't trust him at all, and I got the feeling that he only brought along his family to try to prove that he was a good person which just made me see him as even more of a scumbag. The main thing I remember knowing about this guy was that he normally attacks women in the bathroom and he's pretty sick, so I immediately stood in the hallway opening by the front door. He was introduced to everyone and told that my aunt was in the bathroom, and he started walking in my direction and said that he could go say hi. I just spread myself out across the opening so he couldn't get by me and told him he could wait. He tried to push past me but I got mad and told him that this was my house so it's my rules he has to follow.

He backed off and I started flipping through this book of pamphlets I randomly had in my hand. Eventually my aunt came out and I walked down the hallway a bit myself and stood right at where it turns, next to both my room and the bathroom. The guy followed me down there so it was just the two of us, and he was suddenly much less civil. He made some crass remark about how he's really in charge and there's nothing I can do about it, or something like that. It was basically this rant about how we're all subservient to him, and I was just getting more and more pissed. I was so angry when he stopped talking that I started responding but couldn't find my words, so I tripped over them at first. He took on this mad face and said "Did I say you could stutter, bitch?" and reached out to smack me, but I grabbed him arm in mid-air and unleashed the fury. I beat the shit out of him, the main parts of which I remember involve twisting his arm and flipping into the wall, grabbing him by the back and repeatedly smashing his skill directly into the edge of the wall, and pummeling him into the ground before picking up his beaten and bloody body and hurling it down the hall into the living room and watching him just kind of twitch and flail around.

Immediately after this I turned and walked into the bathroom. I started trying to think about how I was going to handle the little boy seeing his dad beaten to a pulp, but at that moment I really didn't care. He had it coming to him.

Last night I had a dream in which I woke up feeling so angry. I had just purchased a 1080p Webcam because my current HD one had broken a few days previously, And when I was out of the house(At school, I think I can recall) My brother (His name's Liam) came in and snapped it in two. I was so full of anger that I broke some of his stuff in his room too and was afraid he'd know what I did and then break more of my belongings when I went to school.

End of fragment.

I can recall a small fraction of a non-lucid dream last night too, something about custom bike seats and me and a couple friends were going to go somewhere for a bike ride and I was making mine without using water, which was perceived as quite strange in the dream by my friends.

End of recall.