non-lucid

DJ Log: May 12, 2013 – 6:45AM (USA Eastern)
• NON-DREAM • NOTES • DREAM • LUCID •

I am helping a friend work on a small single-engine one-seat plane. We are both sitting in the seat, tightly wedged between the sides of the plane. There is a panel full of buttons and controls and there is the typical control stick in the middle of the floor. We try to move our legs over each other's for a bit so that the stick is free to use.

We're tracing an electrical issue of some sort which is preventing the engine from starting. I pull off a large metal panel on the dash and find a fuse panel underneath which has some really primitive looking fuses. The fuse is a bar of phenolic with a small wire wrapped around it several times. The ends of the bar have holes so that they can be fastened to a bolt to allow the current flow. Each fuse is labeled 10 Amps and there are 6 of them stacked together, so I assume that means that this is supposed to be a 60 amp fuse. They look very corroded and rusty.

I reach in and wiggle the fuses around a bit and the engine suddenly starts. My friend reaches up and pulls the canopy down and says, “Fuck yeah!!! Let's go!” I pull the throttle control and the engine sputters a bit, then revs up quite well. The prop on the front starts spinning, but it looks too small to actually make the plane work. Just as I am about to pull the throttle control more, some guy walks right in front of the plane while talking on his cell phone. I look around for a horn button but cannot find one. I push up the canopy and yell, “Hey, dumb fuck! Hang up and walk before you get your head whacked off!”

I pull the canopy down and pull back the throttle control all of the way. The engine spins faster and starts to move the plane forward, then the engine sputters out and stalls. I wiggle the fuses again but nothing happens. Reaching under the seat, I find a box of spare fuses and parts. The box has at least 100 of those fuses in it and a spool of the fuse wire to wrap around them. I say, “Why didn't the dumb fucks put a breaker in there instead of a fuse? How bad would it suck if the fuse took a shit while in mid-air?”

Been trying for natural wbtb awakenings the past two nights. Sunday night was pretty good though Breif. Last night I woke after two hours drank water and went back to sleep with a half ass MILD attempt. Pretty much blacked out until the alarm. I did have a dream in my mind until I hit the snooze and fell back to sleep. I usually dream pretty vividly between snooze but I didn't this morning.

In the dream I was in an area that was somewhat similar to NA. The trailer that I lived in was across the road from Jasper's family's house, though the distance was longer (though certainly not long enough to be considered a true distance) than what it is in reality. There were several trees that dotted the place and the sky was overcast, as so many of my dreams are.

I had taken my dog, Romeo, outside for a walk and, upon seeing some of my school friends such as Jarold across the street, went over to that direction. Perseus and Kylar were also there, getting drunk--despite having no alcohol in the immediate vicinity and not actually having had consumed any. Neither Jarold nor Kylar looked as they do in waking life, with Jarold looking slightly more boyish and Kylar looking as if he was molded out of clay by a semi-talented Art I student (I remember that Kylar's pants were low on him and he was wearing no underwear. his private area was clayish as well).

While I was walking around the yard, I heard a hissing sound coming from under the porch. Knowing that it was a snake I quickly dodged out of the way and drug my dog behind me. Jarold took my place and took care of it, however, fairly quickly. My dog's leash and collar unhooked and Romeo ran off. I was able to get somewhat close to him a few times but (just as in real life) was never able to actually get him. Since Perseus was so close, I asked him to get Romeo for me. Despite him being "drunk," he consented.

I was walking along a street in the neighborhood when two guys between 25-30 years old stopped me. They were threatening and I could feel that they wanted to attack me. And what was worse, I knew they wanted to do it just to be "popular" among others and to have something to brag about. This made me frustrated and when the shorter of the guys, who was italian- or spanish looking with short dark hair and a red shirt, grabbed my arms I had this feeling of unreality and felt a numb kind of shock instead of being frightened. When I fully realized what he was doing, I tried to break free, but he was very strong. I tried to scream, but my voice remained low and hoarse no matter how much energy I put behind it. The other guy just stood there watching and was very calm about all of this.

I soon managed to break free, but found myself caught in the same kind of scene several times again, with the same guys at the same place, even though I had left it. The dream then jumps a lot between different places and although I cannot see anyone, I have a strong feeling of danger and of being pursued. I can feel that someone I know is close by and I try to call out to this person, but my voice still fails me and when I try to run, it is very hard. It is as if the air has grabbed me and prevents me from advancing. Eventually, after some more struggling, I wake up.

I recall there was something going on with different dimensions and i had to deal with some stuff. Then i was back in the forest park place from waking world and there was some music that was annoying me, i was tired and i was going home. On the way there was some talk about dog food.
Then i was back in some different dimension and there was weird city with badly drawn objects and homestuck trolls, then the dimension starts collapsing on itself but i manage to jump into some portal.
Then i was in the Doom-like game, the level was huge and was located in some kind of pyramid-like structure. I was lacking ammo and i had to deal with "White Knight" enemies(from one of my IWL mods for doom, look like white colored hell knights) and Mancubuses near one of the doorways, but it was not much of a problem. Soon in the next area i found a plasma gun, which was apparently 3D model. I was surprised and was looking at it from various angles. Then i was using a map to find way through the level, i have reached some tek-textured passage and there were a bunch of cacodemons and pain elementals. I noticed that lost souls summoned by pain elementals had some weird 'puff' effects and cacodemons had completely different fireball projectile sprite.
I got to the next level and i looked at the objective list, which was saying something about two ways to kill the boss and that to get a secret i should not fall into the lava. Can't recall much through the level, but at the end i was greeted by some crazy homeless dude, he was shouting and running around.

I remembered a dream fragment that was clearly due to an argument on DV.

Another long absence. Too long, I think. I shall be catching up, writing previous dreams I haven't been able to until now...

I'm in Grandma's house looking for something to eat. I'm really hungry. I can't find anything in the fridge, so I go look in the fridge outside. There is so much food but I cant decide what I want.

A bit out of time this week, an actually not so brief update:

13 May

- Me and a group of 5 kids decide to create a business. We go to register it, and the start up costs are only 100. We talk to some lawyer who says its is excellent because we are all from different countries.

- I become upset and leave the house of a friend wearing slippers. It is very hard to walk with these but I don't find this unusual.

- In our old neighborhood, there are lots of new stores. I go in a supermarket where they are making fresh carrot juice, it is green in color, I wonder a bit about that, but conclude that green carrot juice is ok.

14 May

- In our old place, my mom keeps talking, while I want to go to sleep. I tell her that her talking activates my brain and I cannot fall asleep. It is early morning, still dark outside and snowing.

- I see Dr dre on the street, he is smoking and I want to join him. Before I do, he has finished with the stuff. A skater boy pushes him hard and I think how rude kids are nowadays. I follow Dre to a building, but the cops are all over the place. I have a micro second of lucidity, remembering I read a part of Xanos's dream from yesterday and know it this the cause for this one. I lose my lucidity a second later and try to leave the building.

- I am in jail which looks like a normal house, my belongings are also there. A woman calls me and I think they are finally letting me go. She informs me that she allows me to go out, so that I can find a woman called Connie Flowers or something similar. A friend from school is also accompanying me. We look for the place where Connie lives, but cannot find her. I have another second brief moment of clarity and high awareness, when I am climbing a fence, while looking for her. I continue following the dream but get the brilliant idea to ask some old ladies to show me the way to Connie's house. They all point in one direction and that excites me a lot. I am absorbed back by the dream and we go to the place the women were pointing at.

- A false awakening where I jot down key words from the previous dream. I write Connie Flowers on a piece of paper. Had it not been this FA, I probably would have forgotten the name. It was so realistic that I actually looked down and expected to see it written in my notebook, but nothing was there irl.

- On a street, thinking about last night's dreams. I look at the sky, and decide to star gaze. I have my blanket with me. I get interrupted by a machine washing the streets. My slippers get washed away...

Note: micro-lucids, not counting
Pretty busy this week, I wish my sleep could condense, so that I still get some nice REM moments.

Say that one more time, I dare you.... [Non-Lucid]

There was a lot that had already happened in this dream that I don't remember clearly now, but it involved me being in the backyard of my house and seeing lots of "villains", like with a supervillain kind of atmosphere to it. I was building a history with these people, though like I said, I don't know what occurred now. Where my memory comes in is a little strange, I was just in my house with my parents and my aunt and uncle and we were having the villains over for some reason. Based on the context, I think it might have been that we were giving them a chance to redeem themselves and prove that they could be regular people.

This one guy brought his wife and son over, and I really didn't like him. We were all trying to act civilized but I didn't trust him at all, and I got the feeling that he only brought along his family to try to prove that he was a good person which just made me see him as even more of a scumbag. The main thing I remember knowing about this guy was that he normally attacks women in the bathroom and he's pretty sick, so I immediately stood in the hallway opening by the front door. He was introduced to everyone and told that my aunt was in the bathroom, and he started walking in my direction and said that he could go say hi. I just spread myself out across the opening so he couldn't get by me and told him he could wait. He tried to push past me but I got mad and told him that this was my house so it's my rules he has to follow.

He backed off and I started flipping through this book of pamphlets I randomly had in my hand. Eventually my aunt came out and I walked down the hallway a bit myself and stood right at where it turns, next to both my room and the bathroom. The guy followed me down there so it was just the two of us, and he was suddenly much less civil. He made some crass remark about how he's really in charge and there's nothing I can do about it, or something like that. It was basically this rant about how we're all subservient to him, and I was just getting more and more pissed. I was so angry when he stopped talking that I started responding but couldn't find my words, so I tripped over them at first. He took on this mad face and said "Did I say you could stutter, bitch?" and reached out to smack me, but I grabbed him arm in mid-air and unleashed the fury. I beat the shit out of him, the main parts of which I remember involve twisting his arm and flipping into the wall, grabbing him by the back and repeatedly smashing his skill directly into the edge of the wall, and pummeling him into the ground before picking up his beaten and bloody body and hurling it down the hall into the living room and watching him just kind of twitch and flail around.

Immediately after this I turned and walked into the bathroom. I started trying to think about how I was going to handle the little boy seeing his dad beaten to a pulp, but at that moment I really didn't care. He had it coming to him.

Last night I had a dream in which I woke up feeling so angry. I had just purchased a 1080p Webcam because my current HD one had broken a few days previously, And when I was out of the house(At school, I think I can recall) My brother (His name's Liam) came in and snapped it in two. I was so full of anger that I broke some of his stuff in his room too and was afraid he'd know what I did and then break more of my belongings when I went to school.

End of fragment.

I can recall a small fraction of a non-lucid dream last night too, something about custom bike seats and me and a couple friends were going to go somewhere for a bike ride and I was making mine without using water, which was perceived as quite strange in the dream by my friends.

End of recall.

I am in my apartment. Its morning and i am preparing for university but then my zit bursts ( which i don't have) and yellow substance is oozing out of my chin i go to bathroom to clean but my mother is washing her hands there, i waited but my pain increased so i pushed her and said go to the other one. i am looking myself in the mirror and the reflection is perfectly normal ( i thought mirror don't work in dreams? ). i am washing the yellow substance with my hand then my little sister brings me liquid face wash.

I am at my nani's place again, where i used to cycle. i am with my friend whom i don't recognize, I am very angry at him because he has just invested all of his money in some kind of project and now his investment is about to sunk, I am yelling at him that why you have to be so greedy, we had accomplished so much but it's not enough for you, my friend is wearing a Three piece armani type suit and he is taller than me. He is worried and keeps walking pointlessly in depression.

Its 11 september, we are celebrating world coins day. i am watching and also at the sametime participating in an animated documentary in which different kinds of coins are participating. I see the Rs 12 coin dancing and singing, then i see the Rs 1 coin which is supposed to be a some kind of symbolic representation of sword, the dream scene is a mixture of theatre stage and old WW2 movies, there are mountains and open land and the background of a sunset.

Me and my Dad were in his car and he was driving(I've had more of these dreams in the past where me and my Dad are driving together and we're in danger/trouble), and we went into some area we weren't supposed to be in and he told me that we are going to have to look out for the "Twilight Council", which were like these mounted red-cloaked beings who attacked you if you were in their area. About 3 seconds after he said that, I saw two down the street we were driving up(I didn't know at the time what they looked like), and I asked my Dad "Oh shit is that them?" and he was like"Oh shit yeah", he did a quick u-turn and floored it and we sped off down the road and I remember feeling so happy we got away.

And then another dream fragment from that same night(two days ago), this one's much stranger haha. I was like in the woods with this girl Amber from my school(She's SO hot) but kinda of a slut haha, easiest girl to pull eveer. But anyway, I was like walking through the woods with her and we started making out, and I was really eager to ask her for a blowjob, and then all of a sudden I was like trying to suck my own dick.. :LL Just FYI, I'd never do that in real life haha. But yupp, pretty much it then later in the dream fragment/different fragment we were on this rope bridge and I got caught on barbwire.

Dream recall from today's naps.

I was in the bed, but in different location(I didn't noticed it until later), i keep having an HH(Or at least HH is the closest to how i can describe it, it was bizarre), that i was getting up but it lasted only a few seconds and i was back to normal, it repeated like 7 or 8 times and then i noticed that i was in different location in the bed, somebody entered the room but before i could look i woke up properly.