non-lucid

Dream:

I went to the hospital for some stomach pains that I had been having. I found out that I had an incurable disease. It wasn't fatal, but I would have discomfort for the rest of my life, and I would have to be on medication. It made me depressed and angry. I had tried so hard to be healthy...but I was having to deal with this anyway.

In my dream I seen this pretty woman. I decided to make her my girlfriend, so I went up to her and asked her out. She was willing to be my girlfriend and seemed pleased that I asked her. It didn't take long before we were holding hands and I would put my arm around her. I realized I had fallen in love with her, it was great. She was much shorter than me, only coming up to my shoulder height and me being 6 foot 2 inch tall. Her hair color was a dirty blond, and shoulder length. The place we met was this large house, or probably a mansion. I don't know who owned it, but by the rooms we were in it looked expensive. We were with a group of people who were traveling by bus, this just happened to be a stop we made. We had to get ready to travel on the bus again, so we couldn't stay together. I tried to keep an eye out for her at as much as possible so I wouldn't loose sight of her. I think I kind of knew in the back of my mind that she could just dissapear out of my dream for no apparent reason, and I didn't want that to happen.

Even though she went into the next room with some of her friends for a bit, she did come back. I was so glad to see her again, and I could tell by her expression that she was pleased to see me too. It is a little hazy of all the dream events that were going on. I think there was a table of food and I was trying to eat something before we left. There wasn't much left, but I noticed some cheesy bread which looked like it had fallen off the table and somehow gotten under it. I picked it up and ate about half of it, it was just as good as it looked, even though I suspected it might be a little dirty from laying on the floor. I didn't care, I knew it wouldn't hurt me. I think I was eating while she was off with her friends. When she was back with me, we were able to pack more stuff up and be on our way.

The dream scene changed as I was now on the bus in one of the front seats on the left side of the bus. I was saving the spot to my right for my girlfriend. About five or more people got on and went past me down the isle before I seen her coming. I smiled at her approach and she beamed back at me. I picked up the item I had laying there to save her spot and she sat down next to me. I put my right arm around her and drew her close. We got to talking again, though I don't remember exactly what we both said. Then I remember showing her a map I think, probably where we were going next. She must have thought I was hungry still, because she made me a hamburger for me to eat while we were sitting there on the bus. She must have had all the items in her pack with her. I appreciated it very much. It seemed to me I was with her for a long time on the bus ride.

The dream scene changed again, now I think I'm all by myself in what looks like farm country. I am on higher ground around some farm equipment. I have a good view of the surrounding area for miles around, pehaps as far as five mile distant. As I look around I know I'm waiting for some people to show up, and I'm hoping my girlfriend is with them. I'm standing by this red grain bin when a long van pulls up on the other side and stops. Some kids get out first, I know they don't see me. When they come around the corner I manage to give 2 of them a scare. Before the other people get out of the van I wake up.

Now that I'm awake it really feels like I had been in love. I realized I had fallen in love with some random dream character and now the relationship is over. I know it isn't rational but the heartache still feels real, knowing that the relationship I had with her can never be reality.

Waiting

It's more of a fragment than anything else, but what I do remember is that it the overall setting had a golden ambient light (no doubt due to the afternoon sun shining through my blinds). I was traveling with a group of friends in a sparsely populated town, most being dream characters. I was standing out on a platform with them waiting for a tram of some sort when one of them remarked something along the lines of "We still have to wait for [some name I can't remember]". My memory jumps from this to meeting another person who asks me to assist them in helping them find someone. I agree and search a building where they were last seen, but before I find them I wake up.

Not sure how I was able to since I already took one earlier, but the only thing I remember was seeing JL, and some guy talking about getting his jersey signed by Joe Montana

Date: May 8, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours (bedtime 12:00am-5:00am) WBTB (5:00am-5:45am), then slept from about 6:00am-10:00am
Category: Dream (short) Non Lucid (again)


Dream:
Dreamed I was at some after school program with a bunch of kids. One kid started just talking to me and we began to wrestle (play wrestle). I had very long hair and he began to pull it out by the fist full…oh yeah, I looked down and I was wearing a bikini .


Note to self: Bikini wrestling could have been your dream sign. You know you would never bikini wrestle...or would you ???

Dream 1:

There was something about forest and then some kind of weird cartoon scene. Then i was playing some game that i was thinking was Dino Crisis, but it was completely different, for one it was an FPS, though dinosaurs were here and i had to battle through some levels, mostly indoors of some kind of a bunker and some purple outside area. One of my abilities was apparently ability to place projection forcefield like champion's from AI War. Then i have found some friendly people and we were traveling around the ocean using an medium-sized ship.
Eventually we have found an facility of some kind, right in the middle of the ocean, it was strange and looked abandoned. I got in and had to do a few puzzles as well as to deal with a few dinosaurs, while the rest were guarding the ship. Soon i got to some kind of reactor area, there were some important documents which i picked up and also i have found another friendly squad, which was stuck there for a while. After a bit of talk reactor started overheating and we had to get out of there, and at the same time, some weird creatures that looked like combination of dinosaur with some kind of an insect, started coming out from everywhere. They were really quick and overpowered and i was thinking that "AI is really better there than Nintendo 64 version".
The squad i found was killed but i managed to get outside. The creatures that attacked us were swarming all over the facility and ship was way too away, but i have managed to find the flight powerup that looked like a yellow-ish metallic sphere. I was flying around really quick, but the powerup was hard to control on changing direction, i got to the ship but suddenly T-Rex appeared that could walk on water, right near the ship. The squad started the fight with it while i was flying around fighting something else, there also were alot of flight and water walking powerups scattered a round the ocean that helped me in fight. After defeating it i flied towards the ship and noticed that T-Rex was stuck in some telescope thing. I thought that even if AI is better, things like this can happen. And just waited around till the time we needed to survive ended. Then dream faded out.

Dream 2:

I was recording some game, can't recall what exactly but i feel like it was some kind of FPS. Then i took a bathroom break and then went to play a game that looked like Far Cry, i was playing not an actual level though, was just flying around in the editor. Then i loaded some map and it was somewhat unfinished. I made level start in some unfinished place for testing purposes and there were alot of crates full of weapons and i could carry more than usual four, icons were alot different too. One of weapons was Sniper version of Heavy Machine Gun, that had even more zoom in than sniper rifle, but still low accuracy. I was testing it in more finished part of the level and it was not really effective. Then i woke up.

This is the second dream that i am constantly haunted by and have no control over my actions,
Please note i am fully aware during these dreams but am only able to see and remember these dreams cleary but i have no control over the path or environment at all...with that in mind here we go,

The Drowning:

I 'wake up', its damp and cold...im disorientated and have no idea of my area, it seems to be somewhat of a beach but the tide is high and i am simply on a plateau of semi wet sand a small island basically...
i feel eyes watching me but there is nobody in sight...
im afraid cold and hungry(i can actually feel hunger quite acutely)...
I try walking and end up collapsin due to weakness...i black out again,
When i come to it is not due to dampness it is because i hear voices...
"Another one poor fool"-The nameless voice whispers in a hushed tone...almost saying it as if he really was pitying "me"...
I pretend to be asleep but that just makes what they do next easier...
I feel myself being lifted roughly...
I then try escape but am to late as my hands and feet are tied...
and what do you know its my good old friends the soldiers....with those same damn shortswords...
the scary thing is as i see this i look down at my stomach almost in memory of previous dream...i dont know how thats possible as i have no control so it is my bodies own doing...
so there i am tied up and looking at my stomach where in the previous dream i was stabbed....
I suddenly feel hands wrap around my neck...
I cant breathe now im being strangled...
My vision goes distorted as i struggle for oxygen...
at this point the soldier strangling me makes his face seen....and to my almost constant repetitive shock it is the very soldier that stabbed me in my previous dream...
He looks at me and yet again smiles and says with a twisted smile now on his face almost a forced look..
"dont worry this time...everything will be alright...for good"
and with that i find myself being held under the water of this massive ocean...
I struggle with all my might but eventually succumb to lack of oxygen and black out with the feeling of water rushing into my body and lungs......at which point i wake up...
//notes//
Upon awakening from this dream i wake up spluttering as if i have been drowned as well as coughing my nose is yet again bleeding and i cannot breathe properly until coughing ceases
//End
any comments help or advice on gaining control of these as well as at least not waking up to a bed with my blood all over it would be a lovely change of scenery.
Thank you for reading and commenting.
The Bear

Date: 7 May

During day: Re-energized by consuming lots of fruits

Pre bed: 3mg melatonin

WBTB duration: 16 mins, woke myself too much, hard time falling back asleep

WBTB: 2x peppermint oil tablets (200mg each)

Recall method: Woke pen-noted an almost illegible description during WBTB for Dream2, briefly reviewed in mind when back to bed

Fragment1: A large spider and then other insects, one was like a bee, I am trying to kill them, smashed them successfully

Dream2 DILD: My father has given me the task of preparing some kind of report for him. I am browsing in a chemistry textbook with different substances and after each substance there is a lengthy regression. My father wants a list of the substances only, which I don't think is right. He is annoyed that I am so slow and still not ready. I move on and jump over some furniture and see my grandma. I begin to explain that the regressions are the most important part in this report.

I continue on my way, and now am in something similar to a trailer with a friend of mine. Obviously she is keeping some items of mine there, one carton box with my stuff, that I want to take on my way. We talk about something. I notice that there is a wounded cheetah on the table. Actually there is no sign of wound but I know it is tired. I play with its tail, and caress it. It purrs and gently rubs its soft head and body on my hand. It is very enjoyable for both of us. I discuss the cheetah with someone, pointing out that it is the fastest creature on earth.



I then move on, I find myself in another place and someone tells me that my friends, and lists a number of people I supposedly know, are dead in another part of the city. Obviously machines have taken over the city and are destroying it. I look outside the window and see construction machines falling into an abyss. I have a bit of a paranoia from the machines because I know that they will soon come to destroy this part of town. I become desperate and say something like " I am so tired of such situations when I think that I am dreaming, but I am not, later it is a dream, then it is not!". I decide it is time to leave the place, and walk out a door. I notice a coca cola label sticker, but there is a poem on it. Perhaps I should leave something behind, I wonder, but there really is no point.

I am going to fly scout the area, to see if the machines are still in that part of town. I stretch my hands horizontally, like a cross, and then lift off in this position. I have good control of my movement this time, but still flying too high is a bit of challenge, it has to do with the vision of the ground below me.

It is hard to look down and perceive the flight distance and control the flight at the same time, but I fly in the direction that I desire. I am also lucid at this point. At above skyscraper height, I fly now forward, over an area with some water, HK in my mind, and look for a place to land. I have completely forgotten about the machines. Then the word "tasks" emerges in my mind and I remember I have work to do. For a second the thought crosses my mind that I may not have the time to do any tasks, but then answer myself that DV people won't mind that because I still had a good time flying.

As I land, I feel some kind of a string release me, I am then on the ground. I look at the DC in front of me. He is rather unpleasant but I accept this, his faces changes and he is now more beautiful and smiling. There is a DC woman to my left, but I pay little attention to her. I think at that point I may have had the gut feeling that this dream is coming to an end, and decide to stabilize before starting on any tasks. I remember to shout something and it feels a bit more stable. Then I throw myself on the ground, feel it as much as possible with my hands, little stones, etc. and as if that isn't enough, I decide to lick the ground. I also lick some kind of trash a blue thread, it tastes like rubber. I find this last part disgusting and decide to spit out. Saliva comes out of my mouth and at that moment I feel my physical lips moving. Before I have any time to react I find myself in my bed, still with my eyes closed, but very aware of my physical body. I feel there is no point to DEILD so I head for the journal.

Note: This wake was a few minutes before the WBTB alarm. I decide to use this wake as WBTB, take notes, visit restroom, wonder whether I should try the menthol tablets, have two tablets. The whole thing takes about 16 mins but I am too awake as I go back to bed. I wonder what to do from here...I decide I might cycle a bit to help me sleep but as I start with sight my mind shuts down and I begin drifting off, while still having awareness of my body. I cannot do even one cycle. It may sound like a good state to do WILD, but it isn't that good. I spent one hour in a semi-conscious borderline state where I occasionally saw and withdrew from dreamlets, yet wasn't dreaming, but rather laying there half-aware of my body and fully aware that I can't fall asleep. The tablets or the earlier wake gave me mild heartburn as well. I finally managed to fall asleep but then it was time to get up...

Dream3 mini-lucid: Together with some guys, this time we are on a flying machine, initially like a retro airplane, I am trying to control its movements, but it is hard. We are going to a conference related to technology, and approaching a block where this is taking place. I see a parking place for flying machines and land this now spacesuit? there. I hope nobody steals it while we are away. I look for number ten part of the building, we must be really close. There is also a McD in the building, which explains why there are so many people around. To my left is Justin Bieber, I am moderately happy. I am lucid for a very short while thinking about the peppermint oil tablets I took and whether they affect my experience. The alarm wakes me up.

Note: Happy about the first lucid, despite the fact that couldn't do any tasks. I feel this was at the end of the early more memorable REM cycles. The second lucid was very short so I am not including it in my count.

Date: 8 May

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Recall method: key words only

Pre bed: Q10, probiotics, valerian

WBTB: set for later than yesterday but I was feeling very sleepy so decided to skip

Fragment1: I am doing biceps curls, it feels great. I look at myself from a distance and see well-shaped arms. I keep on doing the curls, I wake up.

Fragment2: Grandma tells me my aunt is now unemployed

Fragment3: A former classmate

Fragment4: I am making matcha tea

Dream5: My tooth has fallen out and I am talking to the dentist's assistant. I am holding pieces of my tooth in the hand and they form a whole tooth. I have the desire to put it back in my mouth. I want to book an appointment but she tells me it is not necessary. I just should not take B-complex for my tooth, and instead use some kind of liquid to gargle. (That could have made a good Tooth of month bonus task, but if it was up to me I wouldn't do it again!)

I'm on a bus, and I'm trying to get to back of it, but there are people who don't want me back there for some reason. Slowly I work my way back as other people get off. I have a daughter in this dream who isn't my daughter in WL. She looks like she's mixed with German, and her name is Nichole. Nichole sits by me and says she's going to grab her toys, and leaves for a moment. I move back a few more spots, and some guy smiles and says "I see you're getting better". Nichole comes back with a small toy set that looks like it could be a farm, or ranch, or something that has a lot of small pieces. I started setting up the toys on the box that folded out, and asked her how were we going to pretend. Something told me that depending on her imagination, this was going to go on forever.

I was in Japan, staying at a house full of these girls who I presume were idols. it was morning, and they had to go to the beach for some sort of concert or photoshoot or something. There was a bowl of green soup on the table in the kitchen. I picked it up and drank from it, for seemingly no reason (I didn't even know whose it was). Then I went upstairs, and heard a girl cry out "who drank my soup?"

I went down into the basement and found two kids (not japanese) playing a wii game like Taiko no Tatsujin. They handed me a controller and I played with them. Then, the dream skips to nighttime, and people were getting ready for bed. The basement had a few couches people were laying on, as well as blankets on the floor. We were going to go to sleep when some guy was obsessing over something (I can't remember what it was). Everyone told him to knock it off. (this part of the dream is really blurry, I can't remember it well). I think this bad guy showed up, and afterwards people were losing touch with reality and pretty much losing their minds. A doorway opened in the wall, which we walked through, and there was a huge endless pit in the middle of the floor. Someone fell in.

Dream recall from today's naps. I dunno what's up with dream length recently, maybe just bad REM timing or something.

Dream 1(fragment):

I was doing something at home then i went to bed. After a while i suddenly start having weird sensation, i open the eyes but before i can do anything else i wake up.

Dream 2(fragment):

I wake up and i am thinking about something then i take off headphones, still hearing binaural beats, thus realizing that i am dreaming, but dream fades out.

Dream 3(fragment):

I wake up and take off headphones, binaural beats still playing so i am dreaming, i get up and rub hands but suddenly the view goes weird and i can't move, dream fades out.

Dream 4:

I was in my bed trying to fall asleep, but suddenly dad came into the room and started making alot of noise walking around and annoying me. I pretended to be asleep but he started trying to wake me up saying something about windows. He then left and i opened eyes, there were alot of windows in the room, all open. Then dream ended.

Dream 1: I remember only the end part, but at least I remembered most of it.

I was in our pool, playnig tag with my cousins, but our people was different. There was these platforms at sides of our pool, it was of a black metal. It stretched about 1 metre from the side over the pool, still at ground level. It had railings, same metal as the platform, It had vertical bars of metal and a metal cylinder fused at the top for grip. The cylinder had these black switches, it looked like black light switches found in your house. All of them where marked numerically "R1, R2, R3, R5 etc". Each switch teleports you somewhere in the pool or on the platform. While in the dream I thought if they were safe, like you wouldn't teleport onto something, then I thought, obviously it is, if it isn't he would never have them. I used these switched to teleport away from my cousin who was IT. At the last moment my cousin stripped her of her clothes and ran around on the platfrom as if we where still playing. Then I woke up.

I could've DEILD easily, but it never came to mind. When I awoke I was pefectly still with my eyes closed. I thought about what the hell I just dreamed about. Soon I fell asleep again.

Dream 2: I was on a large space ship, I was infront a heavy door. This was a video game, I could feel they Playstation controller in my hands, but I looked at no screen, I was watching in third person normally like in the game. I played as the four penguinsd from madagascar, I could switch control of of the current penguin to the next. Before opening the door I switched control among them and tried out their attacks separately. I decided to stay Kowalski (or however you spell it) and I opened the door. On the other side was a mini hall with another heavy door closed at the other end. The hall was packed with enemies. THey looked like a mechanical goo type thing, the lesser enemies had a green glowing disc for an eye, the middle was black like it's skin, it had these green circuit lines glowing across their bodies. Thei had no arms and had penguin-like feet. The larger enemies looks about the same but looked more shark-like. It stood on two legs and aslo had such a disc eye. It appeared to aslo have a fin on it's back. It bulked like a cartoon shark standing on legs. They also had teeth, though I can't remember how it looked. I used normal attacks like X and Square on the controller, they blocked it easily, then I pressed Triangle to see what happens. It was a much more faster attack, Kowalski used nunchucks in this attack. I easily swatted them it, ocassionally kowalski punched their nerves and flipped them upside down orogami style. While some lay vunerable like this I stabbed Triangle in quick succesion. On the bottom of my 'screen' I could see the Triangle siggn appearing like an combo, then it showed to go forward-down and press Triangle. I did this huge nerve punching and orogami folding-flipping move on one of them. Then I just whacked them all with rthe nunchucks untill their dead. I approached the door on the other side, with the other penguins following me. For some reason the penguins ahd horrible model quality put the enemies had these amazing quality. One of the shark creatures was stuck in the door, it had closed while he tried entering. He said,"Mind helping me?" I opened the door. "Thanks! you can go further on..I'll just follow closely behind." He sounded a bit shy but not at all evil. I moved left to another corridor. One of the lesser enemies scampered past me forwards. It had a yellow glowing halo above his head, though i could see a extension of something taped to it's back holding it up. I was curious to know what these things were. So I open the menu, It looked like Mass Effect's menu. I opened the codex and started searching from the bottom. I came across something else that looked interesting, though I thoughtt that those things would be in there. It said somethnig about Galaxy, I can't remember. I saw 3 things, first one I opened (can't remember all their names.) It showed a small explosion in space(it only showed a video, now narrative or description), but it soon became larger and eventually our galaxy's tendrils spread out from it and shaped our galaxy. For some reason this was overwhelming and I quickly switched to the next. I can't remember what the other two was, but I remember, after watching the other two videos I scrolled up to find the creature's file. I didn't have the chance to find it because my dad woke me up. Back on the road we go...

Most of what I wrote below is what I wrote at the time.

"Dec. 12th - Dec. 13th

I've been playing "The Saboteur" A lot lately. But anyway, The part I distinctly remember is when a Nazi standing in a checkout lane at Walmart told me to stop doing something in my awake life. I was lucid dreaming at the time too and I actually told him that I knew I was dreaming. I asked him to keep talking and he did. I don't feel like sharing all of the details. "

(Now I do feel like sharing; This was speaking of mas--------on, Fill in the blank.)

Next entry:

"Dec. 21st-22nd (I'm guessing...)

I remember a wedding at one part that went weird. The best man put the ring (Which was like a hoop earring) On his nose, I think the bridge took it off his nose and then saw it wasn't a wedding ring and ran off."

I also wrote this little note later:

"(Bridge? Did I mean Bride?)"

Note - "His nose" = The best man's nose.

Third dream:

"Dec. 22nd-23rd (If you count falling asleep after midnight the 22nd)

At one part I was Frodo Baggins in the Prancing Pony. It was weird, It went similar to the lines of the movie - Pippin said "Sure I know a Baggins, He's over there" And I may have went over to him. I'm not sure exactly how it all went, Some parts may have repeated but when I got the ring on I couldn't get it off and the eye was rather far away.

What the heck is it with golden rings in my dreams lately? "

This is what I wrote shortly after I had this dream:

"Great, I missed a few days and forgot some dreams.

Dec. 11th - Dec. 12th (Presumably)

I can't remember the order of how these things happened. I remember being at a curved wide path that was near the sea, Then at one part in my mom's bedroom she was taking one of my favorite music CDs, "Challengers" by The New Pornographers out of a CD player and she broke it after it was out of the player. The label wasn't correct on the CD, It had the album cover artwork on it. Then, the fragments of the CD were on the path and I found them near a rock. Later, There was a Bioshock 2 part and a whole room got flooded. I was presumably a Big Daddy without a helmet because I was looking for air. I looked and found some air but not much. Then, I think a little sister came up to me while I was still underwater and I adopted her, But I had a second op[tion - To set her attitude. I think I chose Y, Whatever that did. She said "If you want a specific attitude, You've got it" And disappeared. Then, I looked in a white fridge and there isn't much I can remember here except a dead dead bug or two that was trying to get to the ice cream compartment (That was on the fridge door) And there were also some little sister paintings or stickers below the dead bugs and a voice talked about the ice cream sandwiches. I opened the ice cream compartment, I'm not sure if I took any ice cream or not though. Then the last part I definitely remember was finding a 5 gallon water jug. I think I stuck my head in it and then took my head out and started filling it up with air, I may have been lucid dreaming at this point but I think I may have woken up right after this too."

Notes:

The ice cream compartment was on the fridge door.

I think at the time, It was fairly recent when we'd started to get Mountain Valley Water so that's partially where the glass jugs come into play.

Note added July 21, 2013: I had more than one dream involving Bioshock. Sometimes I'd be riding a cart from one section of Rapture to another and sometimes the darn track was broken underwater including the glass air tunnel, Leaving me to see a trip from one part of the track to the other off a rail!