non-lucid

Total sleep time: 7.5 hrs

Dream quality and recall: dreams were vivid, but I was too alert. The situation was made worse by neighbors and other sounds from nearby individuals. I was looking forward to some nice sleep but got interrupted many times, ruining chances of proper ld and fragmenting recall.

Pre bed: Q10, fish oil

WBTB: lecithin

Fragment1: once again, I recall that I was lucid, but it was in my first REMs, so I just remember many people, and perhaps looking at them made me lucid. This is so annoying.

Dream2: At grandma's place, in one of the drawers I find a small golden box with Chinese letters on it. I open it and there are some buddhist things that change to earrings and then an ancient necklace. The necklace reminds me of those worn by Amazon tribes. I myself am not dressed at least above the waist and my hair is like that of a member of that tribe, cut short and colored brown reddish, very thick. I put on that necklace and comment on how well it goes with my hairstyle and lack of clothes.

Fragment3: I am in the supermarket with dad. There are two sections where the veggies are, that we have bought from another place, so I wonder, how we are going to go pass the cashier and explain they belong to us and we don't need to pay for them. Our veggies look a bit strange, but I explain to myself that it is because they are Chinese? There are also some cute cactuses, I cannot eat those...

Fragment4: I am watching a black and white music video where two girls are flirting with each other. They are actually underwater, and I wonder how are they able to sing. As I wake up, I still hear the music from the video in my head.

WBTB: took lecithin, remembered to RC, which is good! I was a bit sleepy, only 4 mins out of bed, so when I returned I did some serious mantra repetition, which unfortunately woke me up too much. I tried cycling, but only did one cycle, because I was getting nervous. It took me about half an hour to fall asleep.

Fragment5: I am in my grandma's place again, I am supposed to be some kind of receptionist

Fragment6: FA, I wake up in our bed, and things start to get sexy with bf

Fragment7: FA, I want to induce a lucid, so I take another tablet of fish oil

Fragment8: bf's mom has made an amazing fruit cake, with whatever leftovers she found. I comment it must have taken her at least four hours to prepare it. It is delicious.

Dream9: I am observing some kind of glass wall that is supposed to protect the beach from huge waves. I am staring the ocean in front of me, and see large waves rising, up to the moment they get huge. I climb a hill to get away from the high water. I then enter something that looks like our old place and begin packing my things, putting everything in a suitcase, to protect it from the water.

Fragment10: In a room, there are lots of umbrellas and I am trying to identify which one is mine

Note to self: I really have to remember to RC when waking up, I seem to be getting more FAs recently.

2013-05-26 -- 12:00am-12:15am to 4:20am-4:25am and 5:00am-5:30am to 9:15am
I actually managed, when waking up after the third fragment abruptly came to an end, to not open my eyes or move at all, but my mind quickly betrayed me and started thinking of waking life things
and I ruined my first DEILD chance.

Fragment 1: (felt like a precursor to #2)
I was at a school, in a locker room. I was more highly regarded than not, and it was not that I was dealing drugs or anything like that.

Fragment 2:
There was some cat food that we had at my dad's house that would turn the cat invisible. I remember seeing a preview of a ghostly outline of our bigger cat. My sister and dad's old girlfriend were
there. My brother was playing a lot of one specific game downstairs. I was on game consoles and watching the Kill Bill series, which I've never seen IRL. The fifth one was supposed to be about gay
men, and I think the others had some suggestive scenes, but I watched the fifth more than once and it had nothing of the sort (not that I wanted it to). Two girls were racing and one didn't want to lose, so some giant thing grabbed her and teleported her right in front of the other one right at the end of the race and she won. The game my brother played also had a ripoff that he deemed worse than the original. At some
point, I was in my dad's bathroom with a laptop on the counter and other people behind me when he walked in. My dad was also bugging me to set up some technology thing throughout the dream (as if I
don't get enough of that IRL).

Fragment 3: (felt linked to #2 as if this happened after)
I was kidnapped and ended up in a camp with many others and a pretty fair leader. We were all given computers to type up something with and the leader tossed a big ball mouse to someone who needed
it, despite the fact we had laptops. For some reason, I wrote that I was disabled from the waist down and made sure not to put my name or anything on it. I also posted a StackOverflow question (I
swear these are the first two dreams involving it, though I do hang out there a lot) with a very badly drawn long biological worm-like thing with points in it that was unrelated to the question, in
there for others' interest. The leader sent these (not the question) to the school or government. I was starting to freak out. I was then in my mom's house, eating at the table, when inspectors
arrived. There was a little girl and, presumably, her mother. Thankfully, there were two wheelchairs nearby. My brother unfolded and pulled one over beside my chair. Next thing I know, I was
sitting or standing by the front door with the inspectors on the other side of the screen with no wheelchair near me. I was about to walk back to the table, but realized and my brother helped me
over. It was very unconvincing, but they seemed fairly convinced I was disabled and I got the monetary statements, which I didn't want. It felt like I was crying over what it all turned into, but I
wasn't. Next, I started worrying that they would do more research and I would end up like the person I saw recently IRL who had a video that clearly showed him not needing a wheelchair and just
reaping benefits. I was transitioned to court with no wheelchair beside me (I wanted to go up to the judge and looked). Then, I awoke very suddenly and actually got the first step of DEILD right.

My alarm was for ~1.5 hours later, but I was up, so I wrote the dreams down in my DJ and by that time, it was close to half an hour later, though it took me a while to get back to sleep.

Fragment 4:
I was in a school that I did not recognize. There were no classrooms and I didn't like it outside of my room and had to follow my roommate to find it. The supervisors didn't seem too nice. One day,
I lost my roommate and the supervisors got me. I was then in a basement area and I think I escaped outside. The school's location was that of a plaza near my house. I was running around and found
that I could slide great distances (like really good ice). After a while, I returned and a supervisor said I wasn't allowed off school property. After that, I was sitting outside of a classroom in
my normal school, playing around with a program that my IRL friend made in my dream. Rockets would fly up and whichever hit the top of the screen would explode and make some cool noise. Eventually,
some other people came, and I showed them, but the rockets came out of the screen and some hit the roof and exploded and made the noise. It was pretty cool, and there was some other part before the
dream ended.

Fragment 5:
All I remember is standing outside my church with a pole with two flags drooping down on it. We were trying to figure out if there was a case where shaking it so that one flag was rigid would ever
not make the flag droopy after exactly five seconds, and there was not. All I could think about were tuples for some reason.

Ok, this was one if those dreams that happen about college years after one is out of college.

In this dream I was three courses short of finishing my Masters degrees, so I signed up for three courses that would allow me to finish. The administration sent my father a letter that one of the courses was full, and suggestion that I take a course in Choreography with the same professor as one of my other courses instead. In my dream my father agreed to this without consulting me.

Meanwhile I was aware of having a leasurely schedule, so I went to have breakfast with a couple of professors I was friends with in this dream (unknown in real life), the breakfast was more like a huge dinner actually. I also needed to drop of my kids for the day, in my dream they needed to be taking medicines, but they had large rashes on their faces, which was due to allergy to these medicines, but in my dream that was ok for some reason.

So after I had the large meal and dropped off the kids for the day, I was ready to get to my first class, and I realized that I was so late that I would arrive just as the class was ending! And so I did. The professor was not happy with me for having missed her first class - it was some sort of dance class. She told me something like, I will see you in my Choreography class then, and that's how I first realized that I had the change of schedule. I asked, "But will that course be appropriate for me to finish my degree?" She said "I don't know. You need to check with the administration with whoever you have been working with on establishing that you get all you need to get the degree." I realized that I had not been working with any ody in administration, and this was a problem which might prevent me from graduating. I just knew that this Choreography course would not do to meet my requirement, so my feeling of contentment at being able to graduate this semester had turned into full out dread by the end of this dream.

23/05/2013

I was in my house and I randomly looked outside to see a girl that I've known for about 6-7 years maybe more, she doesn't live round here anymore so it was a surprised to see her sitting down near the road near my house. I went outside to talk to her, I remember having a long conversation with her, I can't remember what she said, probably because the dream was from about 3 days ago.

26/05/2013

I can only remember fragments to this dream. At first I remember being inside a room sitting down with 3 other people, one of them was a girl from my school who I kinda knew, and the other 2 i'm not quite sure. So there was this man in front of us telling us about something, he looked sort of mad. It was like he was telling us off, i'm not too sure of the plot of this dream either. I remember getting up and then he pushed me down, this made me think about Qi and maybe I could harness Qi to help us escape. Next thing I remember is that this man is not there anymore, and its just us 3. The girl I knew said she was going somewhere, and to look after her daughter. Her daughter sort of looked like my niece, I think she was actually lol. She was taking a while so I thought i'd take her daughter somewhere safe as I didn't like the look of things in this room, so went to another room which looked like my living room and she came in there and sat down. Then I think my niece turns into a cat and runs up to her and jumps and sits on the sofa. I sat down too.

Dream recall from today's nap. I am surprised i managed to fall asleep especially with people randomly entering my room and jumping by the room's door, and no i was not dreaming about people jumping by the door(did RC), it's just my family is like that... sometimes...

Anyways, i was trying to fall asleep and suddenly somebody enters the room again(HI starts), at first i am like 'Oh come on, not again' but then i get familiar feeling of being in dream, i hear voice and shortly somebody starts trying really hard to wake me up by shaking. I open the eyes and ofcourse nobody's here. Dream seems to be a bit unstable so i rub hands, as i rub them i notice an increasing number of fingers, i think there were 7 or 8 fingers when i stopped rubbing. Dream became more stable, i take off headphones and get up. The room looks a bit different but mostly same except for a few furniture locations. I go towards balcony, door is open. On my way i start barely feeling what seems to be another body, i try to ignore that, but as i reach the doorway i get stuck paralyzed and my feeling of the body gets 'desynced' with how i actually see my dream body. I try rubbing hands, i can still move a bit but lack of sync of what i feel with what i see confuses me, haha. Also i notice that the balcony is completely on ground level and there are people walking and the cityscape does not looks familiar. Shortly dream destabilizes.
I wake up in the other room, chandelier is missing lamps, i find it confusing and then i wake up properly.

I was sitting in Biology class stressing over this test we're having. I'm sorry that's all I remember, tonight will be better! I honestly woke up with two full dreams though.

5/24/2013
12:30 fragment 1: I dreamed about how if one cannot remember a whole dream, one can sort the dream fragments by length. .

5:00 fragment 2: I caught up with my older son at a busstop to give him one of his homeworks which he had forgotten to take. (In reality he does not even take the bus to school.) He was with another boy. He said it was good that I had arrived because someone was about to kiss (it was not explained who), and it would be awkward.

5:15 failed WBTB attempt: about 15 minutes up, recorded fragment, went to bathroom, mantra repeat, tried to WILD, result: no recall at 6:45

5/25/2013
to bed at midnight due to coffee late in afternoon

6am A blue color worker was telling his family that he got job in better paying job further away as representative worker who could answer company questions about workers. They were so impressed that he was willing to relocate and had the drive to advance to a white collar job.

Date: 25 May

Total sleep time: 8 hrs

Fragment1: I am putting on make up, an eye liner that looks really good

Fragment2: someplace with my relatives

Fragment3: with friends, and there is dust on my sunglasses

Fragment4: on the beach, a friend that I don't like, and two other girls posing for photos

Fragment5: I see another friend that I don't like, I try to avoid her but my other friend goes and talks to her, so she sees me as well.

Dream 1(fragments):

I was at the park entrance and there were alot of trains.

Dream 2(fragments):

I was in some kind of FPS game. There was some weird blue outdoors area, that was pretty confusing to navigate. Some parts of the area were navigated using minecarts and there were many elevation changes and obstacles. Also i was playing coop with somebody else and he knew the area better. We were fighting some huge enemies one of which was some kind of giant blue gorilla thing.

Dream 3:

There was some story about kingdoms, i was in one kingdom and there was some other kingdom. We were trying to get spirits onto our side. One was on our side already and he looked like half humanoid, half some kind of animal, and he was a sword master. We were going through palace and searching for the others. I was talking to some people of the kingdom a few times, and at one point another spirit joined us, though can't recall how he looked other than being half humanoid, half something else as well. Then there was an elevator and up in the tower part of palace we have found another spirit he was silent and looked like half-humanoid, half-eagle. Then there was some kind of quarrel between him and sword master and they were getting into trouble while i and some kingdom people were trying to stop them being so angry at each other.
Later on, i was talking to the leader about one bunny-like spirit which was in the same room as well, also we were talking about our objective, which was to dethrone the king of the other kingdom and save spirits. That bunny-like was playing around in meanwhile.
Shortly the cutscene started and i was seeing the other kingdom, then the king room. The king was ruthless type of king and he was angry about spirits, he kept them caged and stuff and he was planning the attack on the other kingdom. He also made some dude to infect the more 'evolved' version of bunny-like spirit with some kind of virus. The spirits apparently could contact with each other through some kind of room/place, to which they could teleport at any time. I was back at the palace and there was discussion about whether we should allow them to contact each other, i didn't saw why not but someone else said that it's better not to, bunny-like spirit disappeared.
Another cutscene started, showing that spirit room and two bunny-like spirits from earlier on playing with each other around the tree in center. Then back to normal, there was talk about virus and i was trying to find way to make that spirit return. Then i was talking to somebody else and we got the whole team ready to go to battle. I went out of the palace, leading them.

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[U]Non-Lucid:[/U]
My friend Cooper was complaining about how much he dislikes trials. Which is weird, because I am the one(ironaut, see what I did there?) that thinks American trail laws are dumb. There was some kind of hill behind him too. A small one.[/FONT]

So in my dream it was suppose to be Neil Armstrong but since I didn't know what he looked like I used lance Armstrong haha
anyway he was in a weird space craft pod thing that was going into space, it was designed to withstand being in space for very very long periods of time and this was the first launch. Armstrong had a kitty with him the cat was wearing like a kitty space suit? it was adorable but they landed on the moon and they were going to live there to see what space life would be like.
I wake up.

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[U][B]First Non-Lucid:[/B] [/U]
There are many scenes where I am making fun of people for not reaching/achieving something. [COLOR=#008000]:May have been school related:[/COLOR]

[U][B]Second Non-Lucid:[/B][/U]
One of my friends, Graham, is slicing people at school with a knife. It was school people, at least. He taught me to do so as well, and I did, but I don't remember any details. The knife I use is one I have at home, it's the one I use to cut bacon in half before pan-frying (however, I can't seem to remember seeing the handle, so I don't remember its color, red, like it is, or any other).

Well, I lied. I do remember the details of one specific 'knifing'. I was at a place a concrete hallway, very long. On my side-on the right from where I was standing-there was just concrete wall. But to my left, about eight feet away, there was a gap in the wall. It was about five feet tall, a lookout. [COLOR=#008080][It stretched the entirety of the hallway][/COLOR]. It opened to blue sky, and a background of perhaps palm trees. We were standing about in the middle of the beginning of the hallway, and the end. We are about three feet from the plain right side. Also Nobody is reacting to the knife/killings in any way, shape, or form.

This time, I try to 'get' my friend Jordan, but when the knife is at her throat, I cannot do it. [COLOR=#008080][Note that it is my guilt that is causing the stop][/COLOR] [COLOR=#008000]:I try again a few times, but still it does not work:[/COLOR] Eventually, I sort of break out crying. I make her aware that no matter what, she will have to die right then and there. I give her the knife, and it is again at her throat, but I don't remember if anything happened. [COLOR=#008080][I don't think she died. I don't know how or when, but eventually I will tell her what I saw. The reason I didn't do it in dream was b/c She is the most innocent, kind girl I have ever seen and she deserves to know. But I hope it won't put her in a state of 'people hate me, they want to kill me in their dreams', because she is prone to such thoughts][/COLOR].

So we are in a fictional version of my science teacher's (Mr. Southwick's) class. The 'me' character's mindset is different. 'I won't do it anymore', sort of like that. But I am afraid that the science teacher will get me in trouble for what I did. He asks me to speak to some counselor/psychiatrist.[/FONT]

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[U]Non-Lucid:[/U]
There is brightness, Everything appears to be the most showy color of its kind; DC's wearing bright clothes. [COLOR=#008080][perhaps the movements work][/COLOR] A DC, facing profile, with his [COLOR=#008080] [yes, it was a he] [/COLOR] head to the right. Inside of some kind of building/tent with background decorations of deep red and gold. [COLOR=#008000]:The area was about two/three feet taller than his head:[/COLOR] (the old Turkish kind of tent), he was wearing a pair of yellow corduroy pants that-even though they weren't the lightest shade of yellow-seemed to gleam. He was speaking to another person, [COLOR=#008000]:who was (or may have been, at least at some point) out of view. The out-of-view DC was sitting on a mat of sorts, maybe a crumpled up towel:[/COLOR][/FONT]

Saturday, 5/25/13

last night, bed 11;30 - 7;40am

I think I had this dream twice last night. All I remember is that I had a master and he was ordering me around and I was calling him Master.
Thanks, Linkzelda!

2013-05-25 (apparently I had these dreams two months from now before)
In what I believe is chronological order, none lucid:

Fragment 1:
Another person and I were walking, possibly down the street. That's all I remember.

Fragment 2:
I was in some sort of jungle. I think I was racing 2 on 2 by swinging around on vines or something and I believe I/we won and ended up in my dad's backyard.

Fragment 3:
My sister had friends over and there was a lot that happened that I don't remember. At one point, I was in the front closet of my mom's house and they came, opened it and we all wanted a specific shirt. I walked over to the sink in the kitchen and saw a StackOverflow question inside, saying something like my mom should get it, which quickly got two upvotes. <Then, I woke up, opened my eyes, turned onto my side and immediately realized I suck at DEILD.>