non-lucid

I had a REALLY strange dream last night where I was riding between my mom and sister in granddad's old Reliant. This was the first time I have had any dream about this in over 5 months. What made this dream so strange was that is was set in the present time, but there were parts of the dream that incorporated memories of when I was 15.

When the dream started, I was driving my Jaguar F Pace which is what I drive now. My girlfriend was in the front passenger seat and my mom and sister where riding in the back seat. We were definitely in the present day, because my face covering was handing from the rearview mirror and my girlfriend had hers on top of the glove box. I was driving all of us back to mom's house.

When we were getting close to home, mom asked me to run her by the Gulf Station because she needed to pick-up the Reliant. I changed course and a few minutes later, I was pulling into the parking lot of the old Gulf Service Station where my parents used to have their cars serviced. As I turned in, I saw the Tan Reliant was backed into a parking space in the gravel lot in back facing out towards to gas pumps. Both the Reliant and the Gulf Station both looked exactly like I remembered them looking when I was a teen. When I looked in front of the station, I saw a line of people wearing face covering standing on X's 6 feet apart waiting to go in and pay. The station still had to old pumps I remember that did not give you the option of paying at the pump.

As I pulled in, my girlfriend reminded me that she needed to run by the mall to pick-up some thing she had ordered and suggested I let her drive my SUV there and I ride home with my mom and sister. Since I really didn't want to deal with the mall, I agreed and got out and handed her my key fob. As she drove away, I walked towards the Reliant where my mom and sister were and discovered that I had left my face covering in my SUV.

As I walked towards the Reliant, mom was pulling keys from her purse an unlocking the front passenger side door. She suggested my sister and I go ahead and get in the car while she went in to pay since the station was trying to encourage social distancing. She then opened the front passenger side door and then passed me walking toward the gas station to wait in line to pay while my sister stood beside the open door. I told her she could sit up from that I would be fine riding in the back seat.

When I got to my sister, she rolled her eyes and pointed to the back seat telling me it was full of junk and we would all 3 have to squeeze in the front seat. I hesitated near the door waiting for my sister to get in and move over to the middle. While I was standing there waiting, my sister pointed to the tan vinyl bench seat and said "you're riding in the middle". I really did not want to have to ride in the middle, but didn't really feel like arguing with my sister and know we were only going a few miles and I would be riding between them for less than 10 minutes.

I reluctantly leaned into the car and threw a box of tissues and umbrella that were in the middle of the front seat to the back seat and than sat down on the seat, scooted over to the middle, and buckled the tan lap belt around my waist. My sister then sat down beside me in the passenger seat, closed her door, and buckled her seatbelt.

Not long after my sister closed her door, the car started to reek really bad. I looked through the windshield and saw that mom was still standing on and X out in the parking lot and knew there were still several people in front of her waiting to pay and that we would be waiting a while for mom.

While we were in the car waiting, my sister kept talking non-stop. First she was talking about our dad who had passed way about a year ago and was trying to get me to share my feelings which made me really uncomfortable. As she kept on talking, I noticed her breath really reeked like it did in the earlier dreams and it was all I could to to avoid it. As my sister kept pressing me to share my feelings about dad's passing, I was finally able to change the subject by getting my sister to talk about some concerns I had about mom's wellbeing and staying safe during COVID. Because the line to pay was so long, my sister and I talked through several things while we waited for mom to get in the car. Since the conversation we were having was an important one, I was having an easier time dealing with her breath than I did when she was trying to get me to share my feelings about my dad.

When I was talking to my sister about some of my concerns with mom, she poked my ribs with her elbow and told me mom was coming. I looked through the passenger side window and saw mom walking through the parking lot towards the Reliant. She got sidetracked for a little while when she saw a friend pulling up to a gas pump, but soon she was fumbling through her purse for the keys and then unlocking the driver side door, opening it up, and the sitting down in the empty driver seat on my left.

Once she was seated, she put the black key in the ignition and the car made a buzzing sound until she closed her door. She then spent what seemed like forever getting all of the mirrors adjusted. As she was doing this right in front of me, I noticed that she was really starting to show some age. As she griped to me and my sister about how long the line was and how slow it moved, I got a whiff of her breath and noticed it smelled worse than my sisters did. I tried to speed things along telling my mom and sister we needed to get back to the house before my girlfriend got back from the mall since she didn't have a house key, but mom didn't get the hint and kept taking about the slow line.

When mom was finally done adjusting the mirrors and talking about the wait to pay, she turned the black key in the ignition to start the car. The engine turned over several times but then was replaced by the annoying buzzing sound and a dash full of red lights. Mom turned the key a few more times, but each time the reliant didn't start up and I heard the buzzing sound and saw the red lights. I tried to suggest that we get someone at the Gulf Station to take a look at the car, but mom snapped at me that she could get it stated and didn't want to waste their time. She then started trying to pump on the accelerator before each crank, but the car still failed to start-up and I would hear the buzzing sound and see the red lights on the dash before mom again would try to pump on the accelerator and then turn the key. I started worrying that my girlfriend would get back to mom's house before mom could get the car started and snapped out of the dream while I was focusing more on what would happen if my girlfriend got to the house before us and less on mom trying to start the dream.

This dream was really unusual because it was a combination of the present and the past. The dream took place in the current time with us living in the COVID world. However, the Reliant was just like it was when I was 15 and the Gulf Station looked just like I remember it looking as a teen. In real life, my parents got rid of the Reliant after I graduated high school and go a new car and the Gulf Station was torn down several years ago and replaced with a BP convenient store. I though it was really odd how this dream blended the present and the past together.

9th July 2020

Fragment:

Something about talking to A in some imagined version of her home. I remember it was day time and there was a coffee table? An old style computer with a CRT.

We talked about a few things, mostly random ones, but also about my art and I asked if she knew anyone who might be interested.

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10th July 2020

Fragment:

Dream about being on the computer and looking through one of the art sites I frequent. I remember looking at my own art and other peoples' art, but the rest of the recall is gone.

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11th July 2020

Fragment:

On the computer, looking at one of the art sites again, and at my account page. I think I'd received some comments and I was typing up replies to the comments. I vaguely remember new dream-generated artwork, both of my own authorship and of other artists.

Something about wanting to make a second account for only certain types of posts (?) but in the end I decided it would be too confusing if I had duplicate uploads between two different accounts.

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Notes:
- There is quite a mix within these three days, the dreams being pretty much about the same thing in one way or another; my art and how both I and others perceive it.
- At present this hasn't been manifesting in dreams quite as much but at the time of these dreams I was perhaps finding myself obsessively thinking about these things a bit through the days, more so than currently.
- The recalled part of the first dream relates directly to how I no longer have direct contacts/friendships with people who are interested in the same things, thus trying to see if a friend did know anyone and if we could basically be introduced; I've had this thought consciously a few times during certain days but since then have decided that I can't meaningfully seek this out in a natural/organic way and since then I've also had a conversation about this topic with a friend.

7th July 2020

Dream (somewhat fragmented):

Some mix of walking and racing around a city. There was a long track that lapped at a military train station of some kind and looped around through a somewhat futuristic city and some mountains and sea side cliffs. I think I lapped around a couple of times at least. The track was a mix of dirt and train tracks along the non-city parts, so the car would transform or something as it went on and off the rail tracks. The moments during which I was driving were all in third person view.

(recall gap)

At some point I was driving a tank past the check point where the race track supposedly lapped, somewhere in the city. A group of rebels appeared and melded out from the cheering crowds gathered around the city race track. The group of people had guns and they clung to me and demanded "the truth" (not of me, it was their chant?). I was not their ally but not their enemy either. I carried on moving forward and some point I'm me and not in the tank anymore, and I'm going through this cramped and small hall of a sci-fi, neon-lit mall. It's kind of dark but the neon signs made a stark contrast.

(at some point there's a transition, maybe not instant but gradual, though my recall of it has faded)

The rather large group of rebels was much smaller now. I was now in a giant cavern and this much smaller (less than ten people in total) group of rebels and their children had been following me for a while now after what I think had been quite some time walking; some of the kids kept holding on to me (in fear?) or clinging but I found this annoying at times since I was trying to move forward.

In the huge cave there was this giant reptilian alien creature and it was fighting or attacking something. I remember running past its large open mouth and throwing a small nuclear bomb inside. Somehow I made it keep its mouth closed as I moved towards its tail.

The bomb went off at this point and the light shone right through the scaly skin; there was a certain iridescence to the effect and there were plenty of vivid colour. Because I was at the back at this point, I remember making note that it was a female (based on the genitals) and the creature began to feel weak and was sort of hanging on its knees.

Then I remember being the same size as it; I sort of rolled it over on its back and then it was a (friendly) dog. I was trying to be careful because some of those people were still nearby and now they were tiny. I gave the dog some kind of pill like a tranquillising medicine, without too much resistance; the giant dog began to look a bit out of it and happy. Then there was some kind of interface to choose how to reset or reprogram the creature's behaviour. There were two columns with a few options each.

The dream ended shortly after this.

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Notes:
- Even only after waking up I thought that the general setting of this dream was very interesting. The sci-fi type city and the scenic landscapes are generally appealing and come to think of it, are both subjects I'd like to be better at portraying artistically.
-- I remember some picturesque sunset views at some point, around the seaside cliff areas.
- This was one of those dreams that felt quite long, where I feel there are many parts of the dream that I did experience but simply could not recall solidly once awake.
- The whole thing with the rebels and the city makes me think of the Hunger Games for some reason, though I don't think I'd rewatched it recently at the time of this dream.
-- I don't remember clearly anymore what was the general emotional state of the rebels and their children when we were in the cave, but my mind says "fear" at the moment; but the way the children were hanging on to me was more playful, in the same way that as when I was a child I might have done when being playful with my parents.
- The nuclear bomb and the shiny effect were probably in part brought on by playing Borderlands 3 and using a character skill that enables miniaturised nuclear warheads to be fired, and in part probably by Fallout and its Fatman too.
- Rolling over the creature (dog at that point) was very akin to my experience of having to give my dog medication, though in this case there was actually more willingness to receive the medication.

Dragon dream
I transform into a dragon at some point, it seems like an ability I have in the dream. I was getting mad at somebody. It was sort of in this like special bar like area, that seems to be becoming a recurring location. There are some of my friends there, I think.

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Sadly I don't remember having any sensation of my form in the dream, which would've helped in shapeshifting in a lucid dream.

Also, I have been totally forgetting to use my mantra so that I'd get lucid; it works nearly every time, but my memory is horrible.

School has also been destroying my recall. I know I remembered more of the dream in the morning, but firstly, I don't want my parents to see what dreams I have, idk why but it's embarrassing, and on school days I can't get myself out of bed so I wouldn't even have time to write down the dream.

Awake|Dreaming|Lucid

Today is my first school day in a while and I dreamt about starting school.

I'm going to school but forgot my phone at home so I didn't know where to go. The school is not like my real one. I end up in the school canteen and say hello to my friends. I remember Johannes and Max most, also Gabriel. We eat and I spill a lot of food. I drop a lot of rice on the floor and an old lady working there gives me a tool to clean it up. I say I'm sorry and will clean it up. I do so.

I go into a store and notice that there are only women there. I try to act like I'm a girl. I see nail polish that is in my favorite colour. It's very light blue. I take it with me. I see an old acquainted school person. She is the one who helped me search for another school. I thought she was pretty IRL and she was still pretty. I am about to walk out of the store but meet a man with a guitar. He tries to hit me with the guitar but misses and hits the floor instead. The guitar breaks and I tell him that he should be careful with the guitars. I knock him down and realize it's a dream. The cute girl comes again and I feel on her face. In normal cases my face feels a little bit like sand paper in my dreams. I feel on my own face and realize it's not feeling like sand paper either. It feels like a long time since I had a lucid dream and I just want to stay in the dream for awhile. I walk out and recognize myself by the big slope next to Mcdonalds by my home. The dream slowly fades and I try to keep it up a while longer.

5th July 2020

Dream:

I remember being at home with H. We were trying to sleep but couldn't manage for some reason; I remember having slept for an unusually low amount of time in the dream, one or two hours only. On re-writing this entry here, I have a vague memory of seeing the red clock display something very early, maybe around 6AM or so.

We got up and put some shoes on, etc. We went outside, it looked early but not dark, though it wasn't bright either. We had been invited to go to some neighbour's house for a dinner time meal or something. The area outside looks different from how it should. A mix of my home town and the place where me and H live now. There are some leftover and unfinished construction works.

We went down the road and around the corner over on the left side of the street. There was an open bit, like a plaza/square and it had some small concrete storage units of some kind. They had metal doors and H used a key to open one and he put in a gem, looked like a Tiger's Eye.

But the top of the unit was smashed and rubble was visible inside from the top. This apparently didn't bother H at all but I asked him about it. I think H wasn't understanding my point and I eventually dropped the subject as we walked away. Before we went to the next place(?), H needed to have a wee or something; so he was going to walk over to the commercial estate across the way from our street/home, but it looked like a different commercial estate that I know of in the area. ^{(Note to self, refer to original entry)}

I think I wondered why not just go home since it was closer anyway. But I think H was going to do something else while there. So then I decided to wait outside this neighbour's house that I thought we were going to. I thought of knocking, but felt afraid of getting it wrong, so I didn't. I remember having passing thoughts about my boots, about how I should probably take them off as soon as we got in, so I wouldn't catch any of their stuff or furniture with my feet.

I walked back to the end of our street. For some reason at that point, I took codeine. I don't remember where I got it from, my pockets? I remember then looking towards the shops area. There were people about but not many. I didn't want to stare at them for some reason so instead I just looked up at the sky just above. Cloudy, excessively blue-ish, dim. But all of a sudden I could see clouds moving very fast in our general direction. I thought this to be strange and looked away for a while and then when I looked back it had stopped.

In the dream I attributed that as some hallucinatory effect of the dream-codeine I took. Eventually I could see H in the distance, coming back. H now had a short and bright red impermeable coat with a hood. Not unlike red riding hood but more modern, and less feminine/more unisex in appearance.

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Notes:
- Like in another dream I recently caught up on, again, if I had this dream now and had taken codeine in a dream, this could now be a big alert that something was off, since at the moment I know that I must absolutely not take any codeine since it could be dangerous for me to do at present.
- Re-writing this dream entry here only a bit over a month since the dream, I still have quite decent memory of the visuals.
- In the dream, it was foolish of me to simply disregard the odd sky/cloud events as being a hallucination; that in itself should have been enough of cue for a RC.
-- Likewise, looking away and back and having seen such a massive change should have been a good cue ordinarily.

Tall shape on high building fragment
A white, tall shape on a skyscraper. It might be day. I look down. Maybe the shape is organic and alive.

Jamie

She showed up once. Found myself on a couch with her and she wasn't looking at me or talking to me. She eventually got and left without saying a word. Yeah, our dream friendship has gone pretty downhill over the last few months . I have pretty much given up hope I'll ever hear from her again. Sounds like whatever hope was left in her is pretty much gone also. I feel it.

Nightmare

Walked into my living room and saw my dogs head on the ground with his face twitching. I was shocked at that site and ran into my bedroom and my dog's severed head was there also. This time as well as twitching there was blood all over the floor. I went into the next room and asked my aunt what happened to my dog. She had a crazy laugh and said, "Well, He just looked so depressed I just decided to cut off his head! HAHAHA."

Car Crash.

Was walking around with riya from work outside ina field. We somehow ooka ride from someone. At a strange turnpike He lost control and the van slid into a super deep ditch. We hung on the edge for a second, and i said, "That's far down we're going to die." The driver said, "No we won't."

We fell in and no one was hurt. I got out of the van and riya followed me. I realized i left my gloves in the vand and went back for them. Back at the van a board in the van was pushing upward. I lifted the board up and a small dog got out. I found gloves that weren't mine and ruffled through things until I found the right kind. Riya was behind me talking. We left the scene and wound up back in the same field.

In the field I passed a blond woman with poofy hair. But she had really weird colours to her...

Date of Dream: TUE 28 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 699 - Separated Sections

Dream 699 A - In Order To Sit The Exam
I don’t remember much about this dream. To me, it only felt like a very short scene and that was it. In my voice, the dream was saying to me that in order to be able to sit the exam, Riku needed to sign some sort of form. A sub-scene then showed Riku (KH3 appearance) standing in the dining room of my old house while he was signing something, but the dream didn’t show what he was signing.

Dream 699 B - Kneading Pizza Dough
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I can remember, I was in my garage and I was trying to kneed this pizza dough, that was sitting in a plastic box, into a specific shape. However, the pizza dough became extremely hard and so I had an extremely hard time kneading it. I heard that I should have started kneading it earlier when it was just freshly combined; apparently exposure to the surrounding air was making it hard.

I looked up and my grandma as well as some of her friends and other members of my family were sitting at the edges of the garage. They were encouraging me but it seemed ‘torturous’ in a way, like they were making cute faces at me as if I was a kid and I grimaced at this. I then still wondered why the pizza dough was so hard to knead. As I squashed it together, all these Kingdom Hearts figurines suddenly came flying out of it and landed in pieces on the window sill.

I went over to examine the figurines and make sure they weren’t broken in any way. The figurine at the front was Riku and he looked fine. I then saw other characters like Terra, Aqua and Kairi in the back ground. I then went over to Roxas, this set of figurines having ‘stick’ legs. Roxas’ current pose was a sitting one, but I could not get him to sit properly on the window sill. So I ended up detaching Roxas’ current legs and changed them over so that he could stand. He ended up successfully standing.

I then went back to the dough in the box and suddenly it was easier to knead, either that or I seemed to apply more force this time around. The box also seemed to fill up with a tomato-based pasta sauce. Somehow, the dough broke into small pieces and went amongst the sauce, and then I got in and ended up bathing in the mixture. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 699 C - The Disney Stairs
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was at a shopping centre that felt like a cross between Dandenong Plaza and The Glen, but was identified to be Dandenong Plaza. On Level 3, I came across AD and she just seemed to plainly ignore me as we passed each other. Further up the corridor, I discovered that there was this huge attraction in Target called ‘The Disney Stairs’, which I had to go and check out.

So I took the escalators down to level 1 where Target would supposedly be, but apparently I wasn’t there yet. I wondered where ‘The Disney Stairs’ was and soon, I saw a sign saying ‘To Disney Stairs’ with an arrow on it. I grew worry as I thought it was an elevator going down, but eventually, I see all these people going down a narrow, weirdly formed escalator. I wondered why it was formed the way it was and someone said to me that it was good practise for the actual ‘Disney Stairs’. The escalator was moving terribly fast and the steps were very narrow, so I had step on at the right time or I’d fall. I thought Target would be 1 basement level below, whereas we actually went down many ‘mysterious levels’ to eventually end up in Target.

We approached the ‘Disney Stairs’ scene which was actually a Christmas set-up which looked more miraculous than any one I had ever seen in real life; it was a corridor full of ‘Christmas’ leading to an unknown journey path. Mickey was at the front of it and seemed to be the curator for this event. There were twelve of us and so he told us that we’d be in three teams of four; blue, red and white.

Mickey then told people to start coming up but they all hesitated so I decided to go up first. As I approached Mickey, I realised Santa standing just inside the corridor, which was actually Riku dressed in a Santa suit! Mickey said to me, “And I see you have a special relationship with Santa”, which proved further that this was actually Riku. Whereas the rest of my teammates were going to get a plain white robe, I got this elegant cream coloured robe with dark teal patches on it and fine beading; as if it cost $500 to make or buy. Just as I was about to go over to Santa to start the adventure and potentially be greeted with a hug, I woke up.



Dream 699 A
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 699 B
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Dream 699 C
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No



The exam is the IRL response I will be writing to Kingdom Hearts (imaginatively) once all 7 dream tasks are completed.

Date of Dream: MON 27 JUL - 2020

Warning! Depending on the reader's judgement; Dream 698 A may make mentions of mature content such as sex and/rape. Please avoid reading if this ought to make you feel comfortable or you are Under 18. The dream character expressing the concerning content is 'Nathan'.



Dream No. 698 - Separated Sections

Dream 698 A - A Boy With Big Problems
I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, I was in the hills, in one the supermarket, when I ran into a couple of girls currently attending my old high school, wearing their PE uniforms. However, it like the girls recognised me and were really happy to see me. One of the girls told me that it was ‘Wellness Wednesday for them’ and this is why there were at the shops. It was eventually that I saw some girls in the academic summer uniforms; but then what I saw next shocked me; a couple of boys in summer uniform. Since when was this a co-ed school?

There was one boy that really caught my attention though, and this was for the wrong reasons. Just by looking at him, I could tell that he had violent tendencies and therefore huge mental problems. I found out that his name was Nathan. It wasn’t very long though before he started acting up towards me and that he actually wanted me for his own ‘desires’ as it were. I tried to get away from him, but he was really forceful and would actually be really violent to me if I tried to leave; so I was basically trapped.

The dream no longer played in the supermarket, but Nathan seemed to be a consistent theme in all the scenes. However, to my relief though, my dream guides seemed to know what was going as Dreamy WB walked into the scene to try and get Nathan off me. She managed to provide a distraction and told me to led me to wait in the ‘staff room’ of the complex. For a while, I was just dawdling in there until someone came into the room and told me to get out. I did, thinking that Nathan was finally dealt with.

Though as soon as Dreamy WB had gone, Nathan came back and was threatening himself on me again. I needed to act fast and decided to call for a male dream guide to see if they would yield a better result. I decided to call for Riku and somehow managed to summon him without Nathan detecting me. What was even more satisfying is that Riku had walked into the scene (KH3 appearance) and Nathan didn’t even suspect that Riku was there for me.

Riku came and sat on the ground, prompting me to sit down in-front of him. However, I thought that in the current position, Nathan would be able to whisk me away and use me. So I asked Riku to bend his knees out slightly so I could go back in towards him a bit more. I ended up lying down with my head on Riku’s lap as he then looked up and started to speak to Nathan. Despite the severity of Nathan’s actions towards me and his obvious mental illness; Riku didn’t raise his voice to Nathan at all or even insinuate that he had a problem. It’s like Riku knew not to flare Nathan up or that’s when Nathan would become uncontrollable and bad things would happen.

Riku actually simply smiled at Nathan, connecting with him like a friend, and said to him, something like, “I think you should go and see Mickey. It’d be good for you”. And to my surprise, Nathan left the scene on his own and did not come back this time. I also knew what Riku was really doing. It was Mickey that was going to give Nathan a good roasting; Riku basically insinuated, in a disguised manner, to Nathan, that he had problems and needed counselling. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.

Dream 698 B - Dirty Bathers
I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, family friend couple EW and JW were at the beach and apparently they were recalling a phone call that they had gotten from my mum, asking them to wash my sandy bathers while they were at the beach. The wife JW had taken my cobalt coloured bikinis and held them over the water, waiting for the waves to wash over them ten times. Meanwhile, EW and their baby were standing on the sand, listening as JW counted the number of times the waves had washed over the bathers.

As soon as JW said ten, she stepped back from the ocean and went back to EW and XW. EW had pulled his phone in order to film proof for my mum that the bathers had been washed. However, as EW was filming and JW was now holding XW and my bathers, XW took a swipe at the bathers and they immediately fell on the sand, taking the family back to square 1. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream 698 A
Dream Guide: Dreamy WB & Riku
Lucid?: No

Dream 698 B
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

1st July 2020

Fragment:

Long dream but recall up to this point was poor. About halfway in, I was going through a busy-ish city centre with some other dream character walking along with me.

Then a very obvious dream sign appeared, a tall woman in labcoat, walking away in a different direction, possibly wearing nothing else. She had flat and very black hair, reminding me of one of my cousin's hair or come to think of it, a sort of Cleopatra hairstyle?

I recognised the dream sign and checked the fingers on my right hand, but for some reason I didn't realise I was dreaming and I didn't make further checks. Something about my fingers seemed distorted but the number was correct. I didn't remember to do any physics checks oddly and I think I was also distracted by whatever my previous dream objective was.

Later I either had a micro awakening or another pre-lucid moment during which I automatically reflected on what had happened and how I'd been unable to realise I was dreaming, but again not realising this irony.

(Missing recall)

Different part of the dream. I was somewhere kind of dark. Some dream character was showing me something? Then some of this characters pet spiders appeared on the ground out of nowhere, individually one after another, there were only a few though. But for some reason in the dream I let my phobia sort of return and take a small hold of me, mostly because of the first spider. It was a black and yellow/gold patterned orb weaver, about the size of a large hand. Even in my temporarily panicked state I realised that it seemed more afraid of me, but I couldn't shake the feeling of unease.

(Missing transition)

Another part of the dream sequence where I was at some modern-ish looking house. I was not myself, but a character for the dream plot. I was some kind of elemental creature but I don't recall any details of my form or appearance. There were four other humanoid creatures of similar elemental nature. There was an absent character that had created us and one of the other creatures had been created right in front of me. She appeared in a cloud of white smoke within a glass room, which I was standing outside of. The glass enclosing this "room" made it more like a container or cell of sorts really.

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Notes:

- This dream was a particularly good pre-cursor to the lucidity I had later on (4th August).
-- At this point I had been becoming more diligent with my reality checks but not quite so much just yet. Currently at the time of writing (13th August) I am far more diligent with my RCing though there are still situations under which I should be checking but still am not quite so often.

- My primary issue with my RC was really the fact that I gave up on the first try but this was made much worse by the fact that the dream itself caused distraction from my RC procedure, something that I'm a bit more careful.

- The bit with the spiders was somewhat unusual in that I haven't been letting this affect me at all in waking life but it may have been around the time when I've seen bigger ones around the house more recently.
- This was the first dream with spiders for quite some time now, I think.

27th June 2020

Fragment:

Long dream but details faded. Remember being in the mountains, by myself. It was a sort of twilight hour. I remember looking under what was a false boulder and there was money under there, a few thousand euros and pounds. There was a message saying I was to take as much as I wanted.

I stuffed it all in my shorts pockets.

Then I remember thinking about going back home or something, I felt like I was lost in an unknown country. I arrived at a hotel place of some sorts and H was there in the role of a generic servant or something.

(Transition/recall gap.)

In some kind of big store. There's only a few people around, it's day time and not much artificial lighting is needed in here as it seems to be adequately lit naturally. Then this group of guys comes in and they are a bit stocky, not fat though. They are going to rob a vault at the store. They do so and there isn't much fuss about it, apart from the odd scream from a woman. I hear them talking or something and they managed to steal 6.2 billion.

I think about how much money that is, and how it looks so small physically, as they only carried a few sacks of notes between them. I remember maybe being in the car with them and talking about their robbed loot.

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Notes:

- Although I remember having this dream since it wasn't that long ago, none of the visual recall seems to be coming back really, so in that sense I can't consider it very memorable at this time.
- I remember there was a fair bit of dialogue in this dream, but this is typically amongst my most easily lost details.

Some more DJ catch up.

24th June 2020

Fragment:

Dream about going into a doctor's office, either alone or with H. Doctor said they needed to do a biopsy and that it was going to be in one of my shoulder blades?

Shape fragment
I see a shape, possibly a line or deformed line of some color, maybe white.

Mixed fragment
I am some girl, probably in the teens, and I might somewhat have the role of Buffy from Buffy the vampire slayer, but in the dream I hadn't discovered that yet. There was something with a father who might have done something bad with someone he keeps calling. At some point I am together in some forest or jungle with another girl, having discovered my role. At some point my view flew into the sky, as if it was in a game and it was showing that something is happening.

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I really need to get aware again, right as I got a bit less aware I stopped having lucid dreams so it's time to do that again. It's just a bit hard for me to remember where I was 15 minutes ago when I reality check, so I get stressed since I need to do it often as well.