non-lucid

Date of Dream: SUN 19 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 691 - Back To Croatia

I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my mum was mentioning something about her and my grandma going to Croatia. The dream made me think like they were going to be gone forever, however they were apparently only going for six months. In addition, my grandfather was also going to be going with them (who is deceased in real life). I had to make a decision on whether to stay home with my dad and my brother or go with my mum, grandma and grandpa.

I decided I would go but then I also realised that I would lose everything I knew. I had very little time to get my luggage packed and I also had to label every single object or the airport would lose it. I picked up a laminated Riku and stared at it, wondering how I could put a blue label on it to say that he was mine. Eventually, the laminate morphed to give an extra spare space tabbed above his head so I ended up using a hole-punch, tieing the string through the hole, and attaching the blue tab to the string.

I then also made another realisation; that we could still be in Croatia when it was my birthday, so nothing would be the same. I packed frantically. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 691
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SAT 18 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 690 - Warioware Dream Eater

I don’t remember much about this dream. From what I can remember, I was in an unknown house and was drawing on some sort of device which seemed like a cross between a phone and a table. I seemed to be drawing horribly rough sketches of some of the Warioware characters. First of all was 13-Amp and she was almost non-identifiable due to how messy she was. Next was 9-Volt and he only looked a little bit better. Last but not least was 18-Volt and next to him I also ended up drawing the Dream Eater sigil from Kingdom Hearts. And then the dream used this illusion to make me think that the sigil was placed on the back of his jacket. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 690
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No



18-Volt was still identified as a dream guide by me due to the Kingdom Hearts sigil, but because he didn't actually help me in anyway, the dream guide tab remains as 'none'.

Date of Dream: FRI 17 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 689 - Training At Disney Castle

The dream started with my at my house; the surroundings outside seeming like it was very early, like it was still night time but I could see. Back to what was going on in the house; my aunty had come over for a visit. Both my parents were at home but only my mum was seemingly around at the time. My aunty was talking to us about an opportunity she had for me as some sort of work experience, it had something to do with all these photos that were now all of sudden lying on the floor. I thought the project was a bit corny and so I didn’t like the idea of it. However, my mum got angry and in-fact, both my parents as a collective were angry (my aunty was just disappointed), so I realised I had to get out of there as fast as I could.

I only had a little bit of a head-start to scramble out of the house once I then realised that my parents were chasing me! I rushed out the back door and then scampered around the house to try and get to the front. Though I realised though that if I exited through the streets, my parents would detect me and be likely to get me. So instead, I flew what felt freakishly high, and went over the roof, escaping from the back blocks of my group of houses. As I then went back down towards the streets and started walking again, I called for Dreamy WB but she didn’t respond. I then tried for 18-Volt, no response from him either but there was this energy suggesting that he was still angry with me. I thought I had run out of options, so although I couldn’t get help, I had to keep moving or my parents would catch up with me.

However, as I started walking up the hill towards the milk-bar, I saw Riku casually walking on the other side of the road (in his KH3 appearance) that the milk-bar was on. I then remembered that Riku was my third option and so yelled out to him so he could hear me across the street. It took quite a lot of tries but he eventually noticed me, quickly turning his head sideways to see me and then he crossed the road to come to my side.

Riku looked at me like he could tell I was anxious from my parents, so he came and hugged me. However, when he put his arms around me, both he and I ascended into the air and I realised he wanted to take me somewhere. For a while, it just seemed like he was transporting me casually within my area, but then he paused while in mid-air and told me to make sure I was holding onto him tightly. I realised that he wanted to fly me to Kingdom Hearts. So then I made sure I was holding onto him for dear life; my arms around his neck, my body pressed into his chest, and my head perched over one of Riku’s shoulders.

However, Riku seemed to hesitate his next move, as if he noticed some sort of risk. He gently pushed my head off his shoulder and put it ‘behind his’ in regards to the direction we were supposed to be facing for this action to work. Once he made sure I was secure and ‘out of harms way’, he flew extremely fast with his head slightly backwards, however swinging it forward at the last minute in order to have enough impact to bash the sky open, forming an inter-dimensional hole. At first, the hole seemed to be nothing but ‘darkness’, but as he flew back and put me back into a normal position, we could actually see into the other world. It was at that point that I realised he not only wanted to take me to Kingdom Hearts, but ultimately to Disney Castle which was a sub-dimension of Kingdom Hearts, so he had to take me through yet another ‘rift’.

Once Riku had taken me through all the necessary ‘holes’, I realised we were finally at the Disney world, but it didn’t look cartoony; rather it was quite a realistic setting. The grounds looked the setting in the Lord of The Rings / The Hobbit movies where they’d have the major battles; the grass was a very lush green, the field being wide and mountains being seen in the distance. As we were going across the field, I noticed Riku’s altitude getting lower and lower until eventually, he landed us right in front of Disney Castle (which did look like the actual Disney Castle but smaller) and released me.

I realised that there was an event going on at Disney Castle in which Riku wanted to utilise to help train me for how I could deal with my parents. It was something called ‘Ninja Battles’, even though it had absolutely nothing to do with Ninjas. It was some sort of physical game but I cannot describe the specific actions. First it was just me and Riku and although we were battling each other, I didn’t mind as it was only for training and no one was actually going to hurt the other.

I was stopped though with the realisation that my parents had found their way into this realm. I ran in a panic to see my mum walking down a now visible road in the distance while looking down at her phone (suspecting she was in contact with my dad). I ran back to Riku and was talking at him like at motormouth, asking him what on Earth I should do with the knowledge of my parents finding their way in. However, Riku’s calm response and unique perspective surprised me. He said that they may also have come here to improve themselves and to just leave them be.

We were than able to get back into the ‘Ninja Battles' and I told Riku that although I was going up against him, I found it fun as I knew we were only training. He gave a slight smile and then we got back into it. However this time, others also seemed to join us and it was now between 6 people rather than just the 2 of us. The other 4 were random, unidentified Disney characters. After continuing to playfully feud for awhile, the dream ended and I woke up to an early time at dawn.



Dream No. 689
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: THU 16 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 688 - Insult Competition

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I came into some sort of very large theatre, with groups of people I have interacted with throughout all stages of my life; the majority though, were those from my high school. I remember we were going to watch some sort of movie but I have forgotten what the movie was about. There was all this time before the movie and I noticed people were moving around the large room, with lots of floor space, and interacting with each other.

Lea/Axel from Kingdom Hearts approached me and he said that I was going to be facing him for Round 1 of this competition where we had to try and insult each other as brutally as we could. The winner was obviously who affected the other the most, and Lea said that the winner would then face the final boss, Riku. I had my wits about me and knew the dream was manipulating them, so even though I lost against Lea, I was glad that I wouldn’t have to go and face my otherwise influenced dream guide.

Later on in the dream, I was in another scene; on the ‘lakeside’ boardwalks again that seems to be a recurring area across my dreams. This time, I seemed to have a concern about my brother and so decided to call out for Dreamy WB to come and help me. She wasn’t coming at all though. Eventually, I saw Riku (KH3 appearance) and so called for him, but he actually didn’t stop. Rather he kept walking on and so I actually had to chase after him. In-fact, he left the scene and that’s when I realised that although it looked like Riku, it actually wasn’t in; the dream brought in a fake to trick me. After that, I woke up.



Dream No. 688
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: TUE 14 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 687 - The Dream's Unethical Employment

I can’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, it seemed a cold rainy night but then the sky was lit so I could still see from natural light. Along with my brother in the car, I had to drive my grandma to the seemingly local hospital for her to get some tests done. Compared to real life, the hospital grounds were a complex maze of roads and roundabouts and it was hard to find where the right building was.

The dream did a weird shift with time. I was still driving the car but now my grandma seemed to be in the hospital. I ended up for some reason slowly driving past the hospital and through the windows, I could see nothing but elevators everywhere and all there doors were open, all the elevators large and having a very ominous look about them. As I was driving past, I had the passing thought of ‘guess I need Riku again’ but the thought was nowhere near strong enough to warrant a scene change or an appearance from Riku himself; the dream continued its course but I wasn’t disappointed.

I was then seen to be leaving the hopsital grounds and I had to find a way to get back onto the correct side of the freeway to get back home, which in the dream was a completely different suburb to IRL. This was the part of the dream where my brother seemed to be very bossy in the car and so he was telling what to do but not helping me. Eventually, I didn’t manage to find my way onto the freeway and ended up in this unknown suburb.

I then seemed to be by myself and that’s when Riku appeared in his KH3 appearance. He didn’t come to help me with anything specifically; rather he came to share something with me as a friend, in-fact it’s like he was hoping I could help. He looked disgusted as he told me “the dream’s making me work for a strip club!”. Instead of trying to help Riku find a way out, I thought it’d be easier just to cooperate with the dream, so I reassured him that I would go and work at the strip club as well. Riku still wasn’t impressed with the idea of his forced employment but his energy was suggesting he felt better about it with having me for support.

However, after this, the dream quickly moved me on to another scene and it was said that to prove I have what it takes to work at the strip club, I needed to work at KFC first. I was indeed shown in a KFC uniform and I was approaching the oven full of chickens. As I picked up a pair of tongs, I was shown flipping all the individual pieces of chicken over, one by one. That scene then ended.

There was then a scene with my mum and we seemed to be on this odd looking flying ship and was flying through this really cool dark cave with occasional glowing crystals of blue light. As we got deeper in though, it became just an empty black void and in-fact, everything outside the ship felt empty, even myself inside the ship felt weightless. I was freaked out, but at the same time, because my mum was with me, I felt fascinated and like the experience was so surreal.

I was then on a beach and I was working at a seaside restaurant. My job was to serve the customers on the tables but in a weird way. I had to purchase the food and then give it to them. I asked a staff member how to do it but they weren’t helpful and were telling me things I already knew. As I paid for apple juice and then took a bottle out of the fridge, about to give it to a customer, I asked; “and how am I supposed to make money from this?”. I suddenly noticed Australian singer Taylor Henderson sitting at a table and he piped up and said to me, “the money they give you is what you make”. I can’t remember what else he said and I can’t remember anymore of the dream.



Dream No. 687
Dream Guide: Riku
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: MON 13 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 686 - Reality Is Believing

I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my family and I were just finishing up at our beach-side holiday destination. On the way back home, I seemed to end up by myself but at another accommodation complex, somewhere within the Dandenong Ranges. It was an entire group of people and I heard that it was supposed to split up between males and females. I was a special case though; the person told me that I was going to be in the mens’ cabin to be with Riku. As the announcement was being made, a short sub-scene was playing with Riku, supposedly in the cabin, in his KH2 appearance, wearing his Organisation XIII coat, but he looked happy and had this fatherly energy about him like he was ready to care for me. I was now so excited and couldn’t wait until we got to be in our cabins.

The next scene felt like we were finally getting access to the cabins, but the scene actually took place at my other grandparents’ house. Apparently there was still the females cabin and the males cabin, but then I also heard that there was a now a third group made called the Dream Eaters cabin (Dream Eaters IRL is the Kingdom Hearts interpretation of Dream Guide) and apparently I was going to be with the Dream Eaters. I then found out that it would consist of 2 men and 2 ladies.

I went in the back room behind my grandparents’ garage and there were 4 laminated pieces of paper in there, who were supposedly going to be my Dream Eaters. One of them was Riku, and another one of them was WBD… I can’t remember the other man and woman. I felt more excited than in the last scene and I realised that I had to awaken them. I went up to the couch which the 4 pieces of paper were laying on and I recited a repetitive prayer over them to awaken them.

Three of the Dream Eaters had awaken, but I was notably struggling with Riku. However, Master Yen Sid appeared, supposedly walking in from the garage and he caught my attention. I turned towards him and he spoke to me, saying something like “you might be struggling because you think he’s not real but in order to awaken him, you need to think he’s real”. As Master Yen Sid walked off again I felt this new, confident energy within me as I recited something very short and indeed Riku became human, once again in his KH2, Organisation XIII appearance but again without the blindfold.

I was excited to see the other Dream Eaters but I was most excited to see him and almost screamed in excitement when he got up off the couch. Riku didn’t hesitate and went outside into the backyard with me. Once we were outside, we were talking with each other and he was laughing as he then did cartwheels on the grass in an attempt to entertain me but I could tell he was having fun while doing them too. However, the fun couldn’t last forever and the dream scene changed again.

I was now by myself and was apparently getting ready to see Edward (Ed) B at a convention. There was a sub-scene of him talking to me. He said that he’d only allow two people in the room at a time because there was going to be no one around to protect him; from this, there was this grave feeling that I would miss out and that I had travelled to the con for nothing. My surrounding energy was projecting the thought of ‘he seems to care more about himself than any of his fans. Why can’t he take alternative measures to make sure everyone gets their turn?’. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 686
Dream Guide: Riku, WBD, (+1 man), (+1 woman)
Lucid?: No



I was unpleasantly shocked to see that WBD was portrayed as a dream guide in this dream, because IRL, she's one of my online community members that has mistreated me in the past. In contrast though, I was pleasantly surprised and honoured to see Master Yen Sid, and the fact that he seemed to already have an awareness of the connection between me and Riku. Also, my dreams seem to use the term 'Dream Eaters', but that's basically KH-DDD's interpretation of 'Dream Guides'.

Date of Dream: SUN 12 JUL - 2020



Dream No. 685 - Ice-Cream At The Cinemas

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, the whole family were shopping in the main area of Ferntree Gully at the large Woolworths store. I forgot specifically what we bought there but I can remember it was all things pleasant, seeing as though we were on a family outing. On the way back home, there was talk between me and my mum that we wanted to stop by this cinema, not to watch the movies but because apparently they sold the best homemade ice-cream there and we wanted to stock up enough to take home for the Coronavirus lockdown.

Once we got to the cinema complex, we thought it was shut completely and was disappointed that we couldn’t get our ice-cream. My mum and I still decided to go into the shop and we managed to convince the staff to give us a tub. I ended up choosing the strawberry ice-cream. The rest of the scene showed a scene of mum and I back at home trying to make another one of their flavours ourselves; a mix of chocolate fudge brownie and cookies and cream. I can’t remember anything else about this dream.



Dream No. 685
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

9th May

Dream:

I was in Texas or Arizona or such. A hot and arid place in America at any rate. I remember only a few details from the end. I could see through a panoramic view of an online maps thing; I was looking up Niagara falls. To my surprise there was a city there. It was grand, modern and overall beautiful. The water courses ran under and through the city. It was a sunny day in the view.

Then the next thing I remember, I was packing up or something, to walk there from where I was. There were others doing the same. One of them was a Turkish or Arabic man, not much older than me. We knew each other vaguely. As we said goodbye as we both got ready to leave, he said to me "may God be with you in your travels". I simply replied "goodbye", and quickly regretted it. I realised I could have said goodbye in my own language and not in English, as it would have had a more similar meaning to his own, longer, expression.

I walked through a flat and rocky, dusty area. There were rock cliff faces to either side, or perhaps ancient ruined buildings. I came to a Y shaped road junction in the middle of the desert; this bit had a few hills but was mostly flat otherwise. Cars went by. I remember noticing a car drive past and I noticed the driver somewhat clearly, a woman, medium length hair, tied at the back. The car was a faded cerulean blue and quite old and blocky-looking. I was getting ready to cross and I looked towards the horizon beyond the road. Big red canyons, piled up in an abnormal way. Dream ended shortly after.

Dream:

Again remember little of the dream's start. I remember being at the foot of a mountain, then teleporting or entering some dark place. Then there was fighting as I was going through this cramped and strange factory place. It did some laundry of mine as I went through it. Some pants and hoodies, they became a warmer colour as they were made ready for me. Some boys, two twins I think, got my attention and they lead me out from the place. I think I was getting stuck on some mechanism when they started talking to me. The place had many traps anyway, when I first got in, there were flying needle darts and other things.

The reality and history of this place were just somehow known to me to be different from normal. I didn't realise I was dreaming even so, but it was like a mix of Trigun and Path of Exile. I remember then being in a shack of some kind, made up of corrugated panels. There was an old man? Some gadgets scattered about. I remember we talked for a little while about this world of theirs. I made some surprised remark about how they had all this technology but seemed to live otherwise primitive lives. I don't remember his reply but he was amused I think.

Then I remember being in a basement of some other shack place. It was night time, but I think I had walked there. It was in the middle of a town of sorts. This woman owned it and we talked. As I stood next to her at surface level, there was some kind of dust storm outside and I could see people in sorts of brown power armour. There wasn't much light and so through the dust I mostly just got glimpses of things, even though I think I'd seen the surrounding area earlier in the dream.

The woman told me a story about how she got this bit of land, and then I could "see" a memory; not far at all from us, less than thirty yards away, the vision began with a medieval gate to a different area of this town, with a cliff to the right. It was day time, and this little girl, no older than eight, walked toward the gate with her dog. They looked cartoony. A massive castle tower fell from the high cliff, crashing on the gate. The impact made a small shockwave and the girl and dog were blown back a small distance, the dog landed in some deep water and yelped and drowned, the girl crying and trying to save him. This vision made me sad and the feeling carried through when I woke up later.

The woman told me that the girl was her friend when she was younger, and that she didn't know where she was anymore. She seemed sad for not knowing, but she also seemed to convey the feeling that maybe the other girl didn't want to be friends with her anymore. The woman's face seemed to imply regret and guilt (from inaction?). I remember we walked outside for a bit in the area in front of the gate, it was sunny and clear.

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Notes:
- Although the second dream did so very allegorically rather than in a literal sense, it reflected a lot of my thoughts at the time of these dreams. Firstly how we all live in a world of technology, but we are otherwise primitive without it because it is not a part of us. Also in the same way, technology did not necessarily makes these peoples' lives any better and this reflected my trend of thoughts about how many of us simply take what we have for granted.
- It was odd that I was aware of the dream-world to be a different one from the waking one, but I did not come close to any thresholds of pre-consciousness, as far as I can recall.
- It is not often that a feeling within a dream carries on into waking except when it was the last thing felt, which wasn't the case here.
- My regret about not saying goodbye to the Arabic man in the same manner comes from the value I put on words sometimes and also reflects how I struggle with not being able to say what I actually wanted to have said to someone.

8th May

Dream:

I was in the car with H. H was driving very fast and race-like, even though we weren't in a rush to get anywhere. Pretty close one between a double length bus and a car. I remember the tyres screeching a lot all the way and I asked H why. He said it was because they brand new Michelin tyres.

It was like my native country and town. Eventually we arrived at a place, ground floor of a building, in front of it was like a petrol station. The place we walked into was like a school, for kids between the ages of eight and ten. H and I had been here earlier in the dream to drop off a keyboard temporarily. Now, we were here to pick it up again. I think the kids were actually teens in the earlier part of the dream. One of the kids now, was asking why we had to take the keyboard away again and H explained it had only been meant as a temporary thing anyway. H asked if anyone had played the keyboard. Some kids said they hadn't, somehow clearly afraid of being reprimanded, even though it was unlikely, but they also said they had practised at home like H had taught and demonstrated.

I didn't speak much at all, H talked to the kids a lot. Somehow reminded me of my geometry teacher, trying to actively get the kids to think and take interest in things. Eventually, a lady walked in, the teacher who runs the place. She was happy to see the kids entertained and it was as if we'd known her and vice versa for years. I remember noticing I had my black leather jacket and my regular boots on. I think in the dream we both became distracted from our objective of getting the keyboard. There was also a set of keys we'd left in the earlier visit, but we weren't being able to find them. The layout was different from the earlier visit.

Scraps:

Grandma from mom's side, dad and I, talking. I remember she was holding a golden cross that she wore around her neck. I made mental note of the size of the cross, almost too big to be held by one hand alone.

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Notes:
- I don't believe H has actually ever bought Michelin-branded tyres.

…In a large building. I go up some stairs to the second floor, which has a kind of mezzanine surrounding the first floor on one side and another section off to my right. There is a picture of C-- here, a girl I recently met…

…In a large building, going up and down stairs. The building reminds me of one of the administrative buildings on the campus of IUP. There is a girl going down one set of stairs, and I am going down another. I want to be the first to reach the bottom floor…

…Watching the new Dr. Who. I had speculated in waking life that I dream more about the classic Dr. Who than the new version, and in my dream I wonder if that is true. I don’t become lucid though…

7th May

Dream:

Don't remember the start but was in a game doing some crop-related things while I was appearing offline or something. All of a sudden, a female character shows up and starts punching me up with some flying fists. At first I assumed it was A but then I die and respawn and notice it's someone else that I don't know.

It's a Spanish player and we mostly speak in Spanish. I realise my accent is a bit broken but that doesn't stop me so much. I tell her I don't remember knowing her, I assume it's possible I've just forgotten who she is but she doesn't really answer the question or seem bothered by this, anyway. Then she starts telling me how she used to live on some place called something "Peak". In the dream I had some vague memory of it. I ask her if she had a place nearby on K and she insists not, but my dream memory tells me she did.

In any case, she then tells me how she'd lost everything. I realise I don't care about my place so much anymore and offer to give her some stuff and tell her we need to go to my place in the game. Most of this seems to take place on K. We then start going through some portals or something, and I start carrying her on my back for some reason. I remember some other players spotting us and staring for a minute.

Then eventually we're at my old (actual) home, it's night time and dark. I walk into the room that used to be L's and there's an extra bed like a sofa bed. There's a computer with an old CRT screen on the desk and I think about using it to give her some stuff? She asks me some questions and I answer, I think mostly about the room? I think she just looks like a person now and not a game character.

Then all of a sudden while we talk, my sibling T sits up. T had been sleeping on the extra bed all along and we somehow hadn't realised. Looked younger and not so scruffy? I apologise and say I didn't realise. I look at the screen for a moment and it has something like Diablo on it. We leave the room and go to my old room instead. But essentially, the exact same thing happens again there. I don't remember to question the dream-like nature of what just happened. Rest of dream recall is mostly gone. Scraps of being in the street and talking to this Spanish girl.

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Notes:
- The initial context within the dream of giving my stuff away is a common occurrence anyway when I'm playing games in which you are able to hoard or accumulate stuff. I often end up giving stuff away because I have not created any particular attachment to it or feel like I might not be putting it to good use any time soon. One further note on this regard is that sometimes I feel that my kindness is taken but not appreciated, it becomes "old history" so to speak of rather quickly, with some people, while others do remember it for a long time.
- Although I wrote this dream months ago, I have the feeling that the computer screen in L's room was a CRT, but this may be a false memory now. When I wrote that it has something like Diablo on it, I think I meant that it had Diablo II just running but with nothing happening.

4th May

Fragment:

A few dreams, the last one was in some kind of hotel room with two of my cousins, from dad's side. I don't remember much furniture at all We had some backpacks, mine was nothing like I've ever owned however. It was blue, bulky and square-ish; I have seen these in the past and have wondered what it would be like to have one, often thinking they are "cool".

But for some reason, we all got naked; there was some kind of pretext about us being smelly at the end of the day or something; then the two of them went to shower. I remember peeking through the somewhat open bathroom door and seeing two walk-in shower/wetroom areas, but only one shower head/hose. C was washing herself, and then her sister in turns. I think they were giggling for some reason.

Dream:

Not sure where or how this one started but I was in a city; sunny and stray white clouds. I remember lots of cut limestone blocks in the buildingwork, so it was like areas from my old home. This place was very busy, it was like one of the town/city areas with lots of public space. R from university was there. At first I walked right past him, it took me a while to recognise him.

His hair was slightly curled rather than flat. He was sitting or leaning against a wide limestone edge and was sweet talking with his girlfriend who was practically in his face and vice versa. I retraced some steps back as I realised it was him and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned and greeted me, apparently happy to see him. I remember conversation, but not its content.

A transition? I'm somewhere entirely different, I can't recall the environment very well but I can only describe it as dirty and gritty. Dominant hues in red, orange and moss green.

There was a small apartment building here, not far from a road, fourty to sixty yards. The building had a kind of trough dug around it, but not very deep, no more than a foot deep. More like a small dip really, and outside the trough circling the building, was a effectively a circular pile of guns. There were so many piled up I can't even guess at the number. Some had bright colours. Reminds me of Borderlands somehow. I remember going inside and walking through some poorly lit halls until I came to a flat that was quite small, the door was wide open. It looked a mess. There were some closed curtains and the room was poorly lit too. Outside still seemed dark-ish.

I think I was here with someone, maybe H? But I don't remember what else happened in the room. I think there was a third person, a woman possibly. Then I remember being outside the building, I'm walking over the pile of guns carefully as I assume them all to be loaded. I look to my right and there's this shack made of corrugated panels or the like and there's a gang hanging out there.

Some woman, possibly the one from before, stands next to me and tells me I should go talk to them. They've been causing havoc for some time in the region/area. I agree at first but then I look down and see some blue and red grenade launchers. I pick them up, not as heavy as I might expect. I turn to the left and aim at a tree or something which is at a similar distance to me as the gang was. I fire a few practice shots. I then quickly turn back towards the gang and start firing a hail of grenades over their shack. They grab some guns and start running towards me shouting and shooting with poor aim. I remember noticing a health display of sorts over some of them that were injured. They got quite close, but I still kept using the grenades to fight them.

Recall fades a bit but then there was a transition and I remember being in some hallways, dark and moonlit. My recall stops about here.

This time I'm on a vast field, seems like a farm, a girl is riding a pony, attached to some wooden wagon. She's going around an aplpe tree, my view zooms into the girls face, and I notice she's a friend from my childhood. I feel transported to the wagon, I hang right behind it, but my friend haven't noticed. I grip and hold on tighter as she picks up the speed, now my feet are flapping in the air, just like a flag! The pressure in my hands are building so much that I feel an uncomftable pain, in the center of the palm, I let go one of my hands, just to see what's causing the pain. (To my surprise Im still holding an amethyst pendulum, that I wrapped around my fingers, before drifting to deep sleep!) I look at my hand, and it looks purple/blue! I'm dreaming! I immediately let go my other hand and get left behind with the wind.

I have landed in a small western village, to the distance I see I sign, apparently they're giving away some used items. I feel transported towards the sign and it has chaged to some other kind of advertaisment, I decide to take another glance at my hands and a quick rubbing. I go in the shop, and I don't see anybody at first, I look to my right, and two cowboys are aproaching towards me. They're holding two black frames, in both of them I see two naked cowboys, just wearing a brown hat, a big belt with shiny buckles and decorations, around their waste, and the typical cowboy boots. One of them says with an accent: "doh ya' wunt hem?" I say: "sure!" (thinking I could use them to frame my own artworks).
The other man asks: "are ya' from tha city?". I say: "no, but I live near the woods". He asks again: " do ya' know how to milk a cow?" (The instant click for the TOTM!!). I say: "no, but I bet I can milk one of ya'll hats!, this time I spin around to stabilize the dream, and when I slow down I ask one of the man: " may I have your hat?" he says: " well let's see what ya' can do!", then he hands me the brown hat.
I grabbed the hat by each end and start twisting it slowly, as it gets tighter and tighter, the hat starts to shrink. (I think I'm screwed, because that's not how someone would usually milk a cow!), so I turned the hat vertically and I started doing a pulling down motion, slowly, from the bottom end.

The hat is now looking more like a piping pastry bag, two silky drops coming down towards the floor! it works!, the man are just staring at it. I kneeled down, and I smell some honey with a hint of onion. (shit it must be the sweat of his forehad, I think) I dip my finger in it, and then tasted it, and as I tought, sweet and salty...I spitted out, and goes right on the man's boot, he reacts by saying: "dem boya' got lot'all boooaaalls!. I feel a punch coming, and I douge it. I try to run as fast as I can but I get tangled in one of the frames, one of the man grabs my shirt and shreds it off.. I drop to the floor and crawl under a counter, covered by some fabric, then I 'm looking at an uneven board, I see is a compartment on the floor, I opened quickly and go in some secret staircase. Now is pitch black, and I can feel my WL body, so I remain ralaxed. Then my body starts shaking..! (it's my youngest son Gabriel, rocking me back and fort, because he needs my company by his bed..so I go with him.

Spoiler for amethyst pendulum :

I dreamt about going through a desert trying to catch up with a friend, fighting weird monsters on the way...
...then I was on a bus full of weird people and alcoholics...I met a friend there ,but I was distracted by this naked man who had random patches of wet white fur on his body, I didnt see his private parts, but he may not have had them at all...

Morning of July 18, 2020. Saturday.

Dream #: 19,570-02. Reading time (optimized): 2 min.



My waking-life identity is absent throughout this dreaming experience. My dream’s backstory emerges as an atypical narrative where I am pretending to be a high-ranking military officer. I have an unfamiliar younger male partner who is working with me. Even so, the outcome is to result in delivering something to a genuine naval ship or a high-ranking officer.

The narrative otherwise firstly links as a precursory factor to the usual instinctual summoning of imaginary kinaesthesia to vivify the dream state. In this case, the vehicle resembles a WWI US Standard B Liberty Army Truck, though with the driver’s side on the right. My partner and I are trying to convince an unknown civilian male to give us items from a research laboratory that relate to recent discoveries in molecular biology. He is uncertain if we are legitimate but decides to cooperate with us. He wants to ride with us as well, reflecting that he hoped he had put his trust in the right people.

My partner drives the truck as my dream vivifies, and night becomes day. The streets and high embankments are all white sand as we travel. At one point, the vehicle goes onto a small wooden raft, and it simultaneously takes us across a river as if the momentum of the truck put it in motion. We travel around for a few minutes on a battleship that has areas that make it appear more like a cargo ship.

The three of us stand outside a military base. A general walks out to greet us, and I salute him. He seems to recognize my partner and me but greets me as a “French pig.” I do not take it as an insult, but I am puzzled because I am supposed to be an American officer. The man we brought here does not seem to notice this contradiction. A private appears and will lead us to where we are to give what the other man took from the small town laboratory to the general.

My dream vivifies as imaginary kinaesthesia and physicality exponentially increase when I focus on my walking I try to maintain as a formal swagger.

We sit on what seems to be part of a dock. The general sits down farthest from the water’s edge. An unknown woman is nearby, and I consider I should show my identification. I intend to hold up my badge, but instead, hold my left hand up in a C shape as if holding an invisible one, as my summoning did not work. She does not say anything but appears slightly puzzled.

We give the general the item. It is a resealable sandwich bag containing chocolate chip cookies. After he eats one, he takes notice of one that is bigger and of a lighter color than the others. Baked within it is microfilm. He holds it up to the light and studies one section of exposed microfilm in a thinner area of the cookie. “This is what I expected,” he says, and thanks us.

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