non-lucid

I dreamt that I moved into this big mansion , multi leveled house, with questionable (satanist) exterior design...
And I shared this house with another family too, they were kind and friendly, but I had my own part of the house they had theirs and we shared a living room I think?
Since I felt like I should have some intimate spaces only I can access, I opened these little rifts into empty space on top of this big house, there was no roof, I just reached into empty space and made a room or two
later in one of my rooms I found some old drawings from around 2015 when I found out about this anime\manga I used to watch
and I remembered them ,and I found it cringy that I did draw these fanfic things in the dreams I had around that time , and the nostalgia was so real ,and so vivid
apparently I used to draw a lot in dreams since I was a natural in dreams
and these stuff remained, even the memory of it, I can only access them when I dream
Like old items, but they only exist in a dream
but somehow they remained...
in my head

It was kinda baffling to encounter something I did years ago in a dream....and remember it ...in a dream...

I was on my way back from college, and I walked down this path by McDonald's. First there was a guy's bag, stuck in the low hanging branches, then his computer, then his jacket. I considered just going past (I'd had a pretty bad day), but decided to check the back of his bag for a phone number. So I found (very conveniently) a maintenance contact sheet sticker on the bottom of his laptop. I didn't even have to touch it, because it was suspended by the branches. I started typing in the number, (which I think was a 507-4..-.... number, with one or more of those dots being an 8, and there was definitely a 1 in there.) But then Monz and Mom parked in the spot nearby, so I stopped what I was doing and walked up to their car to say hi. While I was waiting for them to get out of the car, another car came barrelling into the spot in between us (over the divider/sidewalk I had been on, but not the part with the trees), and hit into the side of Mom/Monz' car. They all got out of their cars, and the driver was a pregnant lady wearing a white dress. She was super nice, and Mom and Monz noticed that, so apparently they didn't want to acknowledge that she'd just run into them?? And said I must have pushed her car into theirs. I was thinking of just letting it go, but realized that'd be silly, so I explained how impossible that would be, and that I was 1½ car lengths away from her car when they hit.

Not completely sure how that was resolved, but it was fine somehow. I went ahead of Mom and Monz into McDonald's to find something to eat. It was crowded, hot, and all the food smelled superrr good. There was an eating area, where I saw the Adams and Jason hanging out, and Stephen, Arya, Selah, and someone else were sitting in a booth three tables from the door. When I turned to look at them, Betsie walked by towards Racquel's table further down (also she was super smiley). I turned to go towards the ordering area, when I saw Sentah and Naji arm in arm walking back from the second area, where there were gift shop and arcade prizes in shelves up to the ceilings.

After looking around the gift shop, I saw the outdoor seating area, which looked super nice. I walked outside, where everyone there was using ASL rather than talking. It was kind of chilly out, which was a nice break from how hot it was inside. I accidentally bumped into a (really cute) guy and said sorry, and he smiled and used ASL to explain the "please don't speak, use ASL at our gathering", and I could only remember how to say "thank you", and walked back inside. Then mom called me, and I woke up.

Dream Fragment:

I was at my old home or some version of it. I was at the entrance hall and it was a bit dark but still daytime, suggesting it was the time just before sunset. H was there, but H looked like this actress from a TV show instead. She was crouched up in the middle of the room, in front of the dark stained wardrobe and I crouched next to H and started to cuddle, giving her a kiss and feeling how different her body was compared to what I should remember.

There is a transition and I'm outside, it's daytime but probably more around noon now. I remember walking by a few places that were altered from how they should be, namely D's building and its entrance. There were quite a few people there and I remember making small talk for some reason, but no idea what about.

I kept wandering the streets of my home town and eventually after going through a few streets that don't exist and a wall turning into an open street, I started to become sort of pre-lucid and gained some dream-control, not consciously thinking about it. There was a square or plaza of some kind, surrounded by short two or three story buildings, as expected, and people were just going about their business. But I wanted to feel alone and solemn in this place for some reason, so I snapped my fingers and most of them disappeared. A woman and her young boy didn't.

I snapped again, wanting rid of her from the scene. She wouldn't go. She walked up to me and started becoming antagonistic and asking why I wanted her to go. I didn't explain myself (perhaps I didn't know why either) and I eventually conceded and said "fine, if you won't leave, then I will", so I walked away across the plaza and into a small tunnel lit with fluorescent lights and as I did, she paced up quickly behind me, pushing me against a corner, hurting me, and twisting my right arm and gripping my bottom.

She said something that I can't remember word for word, which basically summed up to be about how I often am careless with caressing and cuddling H (making me cause pain by complete accident), and despite the pain she was inflicting on purpose, I laughed at its irony. In that moment, I felt a dire need to go to the bathroom, and I falsely woke up, then getting up from bed and going to the bathroom, and just as I sat on the toilet, I was in bed again, as if that was only imagined, but the urge to use the bathroom was suddenly gone.

Then I woke up truly and double checked how I felt, realising it was all just very realistic dream sensation.

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Some notes:

• This dream wasn't particularly vivid in terms of visual clarity but the physical sensations were quite strong overall.
• The woman who wouldn't go was some sort of anima manifestation. Often it isn't so antagonistic but her look was distinct from previous appearances, mostly marked by her shoulder-long hair being black this time. Her face was more chiselled, too. It was simply a more raw and aggressive look in general; ironically enough, what I would expect from my home region.
• Though I had some dream control, it was completely non-lucid. I could feel myself having some sort of pre-lucid thoughts but they didn't rise up enough for me to start gaining lucidity.
• The woman's young boy reminded me of myself when I was younger, but his role in the dream seemed to be minimal. He seemed to be there pretty much just to characterise the woman as a mother, as he pretty much just went off playing in the street without a care for what was happening.

+ flying from CH to seaside, find a cave to hide in, low/claustrophobic but should be able to lie down and waves won't reach head

+ (f) outside, cabin, countryside, some people (man and a girl?), I have a special key

+ outside, special computers, made from sausage-in-a-blankets, I'm a bit confused on how the circuitry works, slow teletype printers but these are supposed to be state-of-the-art, with people at a fence opening and closing sharp jaws on top I realize I have to be careful of my fingers or I may squish another fingertip like when I was a kid [true], I show my scared fingertip to the guy next to me, he sees something in my other fingernail, it looks like a hive of little black flies, I try to shake/dig them out but they keep coming out from the fingernail. A train is coming and I'm gathering my clothes and my laptop, I keep finding more clothes that I need to pack

+ wake with wife, light switch in hallway turns on A/C I think it should be on all the time, head out to yard on street across street to another bed there, notice a car full of young people who have stayed up all night, I get into that bed, pull the covers over me, get up, want to walk back to the house, holding a pillow between my "privates" and the car of young people, I notice they've all gotten out of the car and the girls are squatting on the ground, I think they're peeing, I keep walking but try to catch a glimpse of the "good stuff" over there.

+ cleaning machine #1, there are chunks of (food) outside it, I have a hose to clean it with, since the machine (and the hose) are electronic I have to be careful not to let the water drip back down into the mechanism, I start to clean it carefully.

+ cleaning machine #2: I have a pressure hose and there is a large piece of commercial cooking equipment (like an industrial cooktop/smoker?) with lots of left over chunks of food in it. I see brightly colored breakfast sausage links (green, blue, red). My hose has very high pressure and I'm a bit cautious that the line of (tourists)? standing/walking past on the right don't get sprayed.

+ choose the dessert at the celebration: there 's a line at the dessert counter, there are choices of small, medium, and very large. A young woman says something about the orange flavor. I'm looking for the flavor of what I've chosen, I think it's probably chocolate since it's brown, and it turns out I chose a very large size, I'm carrying it with me.

+ reaching for the food at the buffet (noodles or salmon). There's a woman to my right who is reaching for the plate of noodles on the buffet table that is very far away towards the back she has to lean way over, she's also blocking me so I'm waiting my turn (I also want the noodles). Someone says "you should have the salmon instead", I see the plate of salmon and reach for it and say (because I imagine that person will say "told you so!") that "I already intended to eat some salmon along with the noodles!

+ driving in the town near the mountain (landslide) (I'm making wide turns, I realize I have to be careful and more hold to the driving rules since I'm in the US) I see a demonstration of the mining operation. There is a stone door leading in to the hillside, there is a curtain (made of fabric stone?) that starts flapping open as the guy(s) inside start the demonstration. I see a stone watercourse inside with (hot spring) water flowing out towards the exit (towards me). the flap opens and hot water shoots out there's a guy inside and out pops a small thing I look at it it gets close to my food I'm looking at it under a microscope and I see a little living thing looks sort of like a maggot, then a new work suddenly grows/pops out from the first one, then another, each new worm popping out from the other ones, I say hey look at that, the demonstrator guy is also surprised, there is a crowd gathering and taking a look at this.

I wrote in my dream journal a lot this week, but did so in poor lighting, with poor posture, and while half asleep so I can't read most of it now.

So this is what I can gather, from this week. I had quite a few vivid dreams for some reason.

- Some sort of Star Wars like dream. There was a "ghost wall" or invisible shield, and a desert on an alien planet. I was an intergalactic warrior of some sort, I think. Or traveler.
- I had a dream about lucid dreaming, which was pretty cool. In that lucid dream, I flew over the ocean. However, I had somewhat of a false awakening after that; I think into a previous dream?
- A dream about Brandon Sanderson (who I am currently taking a class from!), which involved horror, a false awakening (possibly the same one as before?) and a boardwalk!
- The boardwalk had a very cool looking thrill ride, with two huge spinning cars. A friend of mine was there, and my brother.
- I dreamt that the local amusement park had moved closer to me, so I could walk to it! I could also fly.
- something about the Little Mermaid? lol
- something about a creepy mirror
- season pass to something (maybe the boardwalk or amusement park?)
- Dreamt that I was falsely accused at work for making obscene jokes. This is funny because we do this all the time at work and no one cares.
- Two other guys I knew from the past, "Dylan" and "Maz", as I'll call them, were...working? I can't read my handwriting.

I swear I normally have nice handwriting. Just not when I wake up at 3 AM to write a dream down. D:

I'm still gonna count that false awakening one as lucid, though!

I had a new dream last night involving riding between my mom and my sister. In this dream, it was June 1998, the summer after my freshman year in college when I was 19 years old. In this dream, my mom borrowed my uncles 1980’s white Mazda pickup truck so we could go to Home Depot to get a new grill for our dad for Father’s Day. The dream was very vivid.

When the dream starts, we are getting ready to leave the house to go to Home Depot. When mom sees that I am ready to go, she suggests that I go on out and get in the truck. She reminds me that I will be riding in the middle since it is an even day and my sister has chosen to sit by the window. I try to argue with mom about this since my sister is younger and shorter than me and could get by in the middle better. I tell mom that I will just follow them in my Jeep, but she says that she really wants the 3 of us ride together in the truck. I look outside and see the truck is also parked behind my Jeep and know I am stuck riding in the middle of the truck since it is blocking my Jeep in.

When mom again asks me to go on out to the truck, I reluctantly walk outside and towards to small white Mazda pick-up that is parked behind my Jeep in the driveway.

When I get to the passenger side door, I open it and take a seat on the light brown vinyl bench seat. I close the door and then slowly slide over to the middle seat where I will have the sit. It is a summer day and the vinyl seat is kind of hot of my legs. The middle seat is really uncomfortable since I have to put my feet on a hump and straddle the stick shift while my knees bump against the a/c controls. Since I am by myself in the truck, I decide to move back to the passenger seat since there is no point sitting in the middle when I am in the truck by myself. I go ahead and buckle the shoulder belt hoping my sister will just climb over me and get in the middle if I am already in the passenger seat. After a minute of two in the truck, in noticed that the cab stinks and is starting to get hot so I turn the brown cranks to roll down the windows. Soon fresh air is coming in cooling off the cab and making things smell better.

After I have been waiting in the truck about 5 minutes, I see my sister walking out of the house and towards the truck. She is wearing a white graphic t-shit, light blue bell bottom jeans, and tan wedge sandals. When she gets to the passenger side door and opens it up and tells me to scoot over because I am riding in the middle. I reluctantly undo my seat belt and move again to the uncomfortable middle seat. She suggests I go ahead and buckle-up. I tell her I will buckle when mom get in. She reminds me that I need to go ahead and buckle before she gets in since she will be sitting over my buckle. I reluctantly put the brown lap belt around my waist and then my sister gets into the passenger seat beside me. I have to lean towards the driver’s seat so that my sister can get her seatbelt in the buckle.

While we wait for mom, we are wedged-up against each other. My feet are both on the brown hump in the middle with my knees bumping up against the a/c controls and my legs straddling the stick shift. Not long after she gets in, she also notices the cab smells bad. I am now noticing the strong smell of her vanilla body spray and her breath which stinks. My nose is now being tortured between the smell of the cab, my sisters body spray, and her breath.

I am not enjoying waiting for mom. My sister keeps invading my space, putting her head on my shoulder, smiling at me, and breathing in my face. I cannot get away from her and just want mom to come on out so we can get to Home Depot and back home.

Mom finally is locking-up the house about 15-20 minutes after my sister got in the truck. She opens the driver’s side door and sits down in the empty driver’s seat. As soon as she is in her seat and has closed her door her body is wedge-up against my left side like my sister is wedged up against my right. I am officially squished between them with no personal space. As mom is putting the key in the ignition, she also comments that something smells bad. I tell her the truck smelled when I got in. While she is talking, I notice her breath is worse than my sisters.

It takes mom a few minutes of turning the key and pumping on the accelerator before she gets the truck started. One it starts, she reaches for the shifter between my legs and shifts it to reverse.

The drive to Home Depot lasts about 15 minutes and is not very pleasant. I am wedged between my mom and sister with no personal space. I can smell their breath whenever they talk and sometimes my sister is putting her head on my shoulder because she knows it annoys me. I just hope that no-one I know will see my riding between my mom and sister in my uncles’ crappy old truck.

When we are parked at Home Depot, my sister opens the passenger side door and she and then I get out of the truck. It feels great to finally have some personal space again. As we are walking through the parking lot, mom tells me I should check my shoe because it looks like I stepped in something. I look get to a traffic island and see that I have stepped in a big pile of dog poop and that is what I was smelling in the truck. I spend a few minutes trying to clean my shoe on the gravel in the traffic island and then head into Home Depot and meet-up with my mom and sister in front of the grills.

By the time I get to them, they have already picked-out the grill they want to get for him. There is another gill I think dad would like better, but they have already made their mind up and overrule me. We wait a while for an employee to come and get the large box for the grill we want down form an upper shelf and then put it on a flat shopping cart. I want to go look around, but mom wants me to stay with them so we will be ready to leave once we get the grill.

Once the grill is on the shopping cart, we wait for a while in the check-out line since the store is crowded. Again, I want to look around, but mom wants me to stay with them. We finally get checked out and then leave the store and head back towards the truck.

Once we get back to the truck, it takes both me and my sister to get the grill from the flat orange shopping cart to the bed of the truck. When we have it loaded, I see that mom has already unlocked and opened the passenger side door. I offer to take the cart back to the store, but mom says she will handle since I need to get in the truck first since I am in the middle. My sister is ready to get in and so I have to go ahead and get in the truck and slide over to the middle seat. As soon as I am buckled, she gets into the passenger seat and closed the door. I am thankful that the truck doesn’t smell as bad as it did earlier, and I did not track any dog poop into it.

My sister and I have to wait for a few minutes because mom sees some she knows and is talking to them. I am thankful it is not someone I recognize. While we wait for mom, my sister is invading my space again and breathing in my face.

Mom eventually gets in and gets the truck started after just a few cranks. The drive back is as unpleasant as the ride over was with both of them invading my space and breathing in my face. On the way home, mom stops at a gas station because she wants to return the truck to my uncle with a full tank. I offer to get out and pump the gas but end up being stuck waiting in the truck with my sister because she doesn’t want to get out. We have to wait for around 10 minutes while mom pumps the gas and then goes in to pay and my sister keeps putting her head on my shoulder again and breathing in my face. When mom gets back in, the truck starts right up, and we drive back home.

When we get back home, my sister and I have to get the grill out of the back of the truck and then carry it to my dads’ workshop in the back yard while mom gets a sheet to cover it with. The grill is heavy, and we have to stop and take a few breaks between the truck and the tool shed.

The dream ends when I get back to the house and lay down on the couch in the family room to watch TV. I am very happy to finally have my own space and not be stuck between them.

I've been having a somewhat better dream recall average than I normally would, but haven't been taking note of dreams enough and my last DJ here was ages ago now. This is a particularly memorable dream fragment from this week.

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Dream Fragment:

First half is missing.

Was in my home city, or some altered version of it. It was day time and I was heading home on foot; there was a fluid transition to my arrival home but I've forgotten the detail of it, and when I got there it was dark at that point. My dad was in his car and approached me and told me to get in the car so we could go somewhere (for a meal or something?) - I was a bit reluctant, I was feeling in pain and really tired; mom was sat at the back with one of my brothers (T) and one of my cousins (R) was sat at the front, so I sat next to mom.

Dad started driving and very shortly after, we were going through some surreal highway that I've seen in some other dream fairly recently; surrounded by cliffs and 10-story buildings on top of the cliffs. It then turned into a rock and dirt road and there were dark abysses either side of the road, with more cliffs in the distance. I was a bit apprehensive too, but mom was starting to get quite worried and told dad, in the same way as I ever expect.

He reassured her with a smile, saying: "It's fine, I've driven on these roads loads of times!". Very shortly after he said that, we went over a bump in the road, but there was nothing on the other side. The car fell straight into one of those abysses, none of us seemingly very concerned by this, plunging into water at the bottom.

At first we didn't try to get out; I remember thinking "Well it doesn't really matter" but eventually we all got out and swam up. When we got to the surface of the water, some sort of root-like things descended toward us and took us to a sort of rocky area under a much bigger floating mass of rock.

At the centre of this area there was some sort of little shop. I remember going in and seeing all these small 4:3 CRT TV screens, each one no bigger than my head, sat on shelves, almost perfectly spaced apart. Each one of the screens had a landscape view in it, like a live feed, but not much was going on in any of them. It was a colourful shelf to look at.

As I walked along this narrow path between these big metal shelves with the TVs, something caught my attention on top of one shelf. A moonstone, but not as bright and vivid or even opalescent like one I actually have in reality. The gem was pale and sort of a sepia or cream colour but it was still slightly translucent as expected. What was odd about it was that it was encrusted with some sort of gold filigree and small golden spheres.

Start to remember less detail at this point. I remember dad went off his own way and so did my sibling and cousin. Mom stayed with me and we went outside, where it was still dark, although the direct area around wherever we went was always seemingly lit. More like the darkness was a fog made of black.

I remember seeing some bones or dead plants and noticing the floor was particularly arid. Eventually we found some building thing, which was very square. It had a brand new kitchen I think, but apart from that it was mostly just dark corridors. I don't remember anything after that point.

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A note:

I remember that in the dream the surreal landscapes felt familiar but out of place. Although I did not get anywhere near being lucid, I've had more of these moments lately where I'll have pre-lucid thoughts or recognition of a feature from a past dream.

Been a little stressed and depressed but I still remember some.

Jamie 1

Just remember going out to some house or cabin in the woods, Inside was really big with lots of floors. Just remember Jamie was there. Not talking to me much but still hanging around.

Later there was something with my brother and my dad but I forget what it was about.

Jamie 2,

Just remember me and jamie were in a room with Jesus (where has this guy been anyway?). Jesus was making youtube video icons and directing them to a slot, indicating I should make more videos. I'm having trouble finding the time and motivation for that.

Glad Jamie still shows up even if she isn't always in a good mood.

Last night I had a new dream that involved my grandads old 1983 Plymouth Reliant. This is the same car where all the dreams took place where I was riding in the middle of the front seat between my mom and my sister and my mom couldn't get the car to start.

I think this also took place in spring of 1994 when I was 15 and had my learners permit and the car was parked in our driveway.

In this dream, I decided I would go out and start the Reliant and drive it up and down my parents long driveway some to give the battery a charge.

I first went and grabbed the keys out of the drawer in the chest by our back door where my parents kept all of our keys. I then went outside and unlocked the drivers side door to the tan reliant and then sat down on the tan vinyl bench seat. When I put the key in the ignition, it made the same buzzing sound that I always hear in the recurring dream I keep having. I go ahead and close the drivers side door to make sure I do not have anything unnecessary draining batter power incase the batter has gotten weak. I then turn the key and the car starts right up without any trouble. I see all of the red lights on the dash illuminated and hear the buzzing sound. The lights quickly go out and the buzzing stops when I put on my seatbelt.

I then turn the radio to my favorite station, and then put the car in reverse and back it up until I am almost to the street at the end of our driveway. When I get to the end, I put it back in drive and drive it to the other end of the driveway near our house. For the next 15-20 minutes, I am driving the Reliant from one end of the driveway to the other while listening to the radio. I feel a certain sense of freedom know that in a few months I will have my drivers license and can drive myself where I want when I want.

I eventually park the car back by our house, turn it off, lock the door, and then go back into the house.

In this dream, I do not see anyone else unlike the other dream I keep having where my mom and sister are both in it.

This weekend, I was leading a retreat for the rest of the leadership team for an large event that I will be running this summer. We were staying in a hotel that was in an old art deco building downtown in a city a few hours away. I was staying in the penthouse suite where we held our meeting and planning sessions.

I had a dream last night where the rest of the team and I were opening the windows and walking on the ledges outside which were 17 stories over the street. We walked all the way around the outside of the building and then we scaled the building and climbed up to the roof before repelling back down to the 17th floor where my suite was. I vividly recall a strong wind, hearing the traffic on the street below, and seeing the other buildings downtown light-up as the sun set and we went from late afternoon to night. I do not have any recollection of why we decided to climb out to the ledge and then scale the building to the roof, but all of the details were very vidid and when I woke-up, I actually go of out bed and checked all of the windows to see if we really did go out of the roof. All windows were latched, so i guess it was all a very vivid dream.

Date of Dream: WED 8 JAN - 2020



Dream No. 638 - You're The Culprit

I can’t remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, I was in the foyer of this unknown tertiary education building. I called for Edward (Ed) B to come and take me for elevator practise. Though GD had approached me rather and was about to say something. Just by the look he was giving me, I felt that was he who had interfered with my past attempts to get a successful practise; though when I interrogated him, he said he wasn’t responsible for anything and then walked away. That’s all I can remember about this dream.



Dream No. 638
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: FRI 3 JAN - 2020



Dream No. 637 - The Driveway Stand Off

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, I was at my house and my family was preparing for all these people to come over as my high school were going to hold some sort of memorial mass service at my house. As other people were setting up, including Mr. O’N, I had a quick look at all the pamphlets and saw who was supposed to be doing what at the mass and all the people that were going to be speaking at different parts. There were lots of people that had good roles but I felt upset because I felt like the only one wasn’t given any part to participate in.

People then started to arrive from the house and it was a complete mixture from all stages of my high school and current life. Someone I specifically remember was JSc who came in the high school winter uniform, but in the new one, where as in real life, she was in school when they still had the old shirts and ties. I myself was also wearing the new winter uniform like they had in my last two years. There were also some teachers present. Even though Ms. L is deceased in real life, she seemed to make an occasional appearance but was somewhat transparent and she was wearing a white top.

That wasn’t all though; there were also these people coming to my house that I know via the internet from the United States. They seemed to be mostly voice actors but some other industry professionals came as well. MA Jr. was in the crowd but I felt a somewhat broken and empty connection with him and like it wasn’t worth talking to him because he wasn’t going to talk to me even if I tried. Later on I saw Edward (Ed) B in the same crowd knew I had potential for interaction with him, but I realised I had to resist as I felt the professionals didn’t really pay attention to the people that ‘didn’t matter’. Everyone in this ‘professional league’ were wearing the exact same outfit, like they had a uniform. It was a black shirt and pants with a bright red blazer on top.

I headed downstairs and when I had entered into my driveway, I noticed my deceased grandfather approaching me from the street. Just like Ms. L, he was human but also slightly transparent, but he was wearing dark clothes. Also, he his face was all scrunched up with his mouth partially open and he was giving these really low bass tone growls as he got closer and closer to me. Before he could even get close enough to me, I felt my heart racing and in a sense, I almost felt sick. I kept pacing around, trying to keep away from him as I cried out for Ed.

I thought Ed was going to ignore me but I was surprised to see that he had walked up from behind and was going to confront my deceased grandfather. The dream camera now seemed to give a far angled third person shot where Ed was standing tall and staring my deceased grandfather in the eye, pointing towards the street, his mouth moving as if he as telling my deceased grandfather to leave; the dream did not have Ed talking.

My deceased grandfather seemed to still be growling but as Ed would take a step closer to him, he would slowly back away; they continued their stand-off down the driveway. Eventually, my deceased grandfather walked back up the court from where he came and Ed just stood at the edge of the driveway, watching and making sure he went far away and would not come back. Once my deceased grandfather was gone, I was filled with this sense of peace and accomplishment as I just stared up at Ed’s back. The dream ended there.



Dream No. 637
Dream Guide: EBo
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: WED 1 JAN - 2020



Dream No. 636 - Private Apartment Complex

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I do remember, my university friend RV was over at my house and we were currently in my bedroom. I made a suggestion to her about going to the Glen Shopping Centre and that’s when the scene changed. However, I was at the shopping centre by myself. Some parts of it looked it does in real life and other parts of it looked different. I had in mind that I wanted to get McDonalds; at times the dream made me think I was getting it for breakfast and at other times, for an early dinner instead.

I strayed aside from the main shopping corridor and I seemed to enter some sort of luxe looking foyer of an apartment complex. The room was round and in the centre was a set of spiral stairs, on the edge of the room a block of elevators, leading to a set of what seemed like exclusive, private apartments. The dream camera then shifted, for a few seconds, to the entry door on the upper floor. It was a frosted door and it had a sign on it saying “MFF 2019” which a small picture of a clipart dog on it. The dream camera then showed some of the people lingering inside the room, I knew it was the large group of ‘American furries’ that Edward (Ed) B was also involved in.

This is the first out of two instances in the dream that I was in the little green (more light spearmint-green) round foyer. It kind of felt like I was just inspecting the space and seeing what was in there. A bit later on, I was back in the main part of the shopping centre, still by myself again though, and now I decided to have a look at some of the fashion stores that were around. Items in the stores seemed to be way fancier and of much better quality that what they sell in real life.

Later on in the dream, I seemed to be going back towards the apartment foyer area. The dream camera showed a sub-scene of one of my high school teachers, Ms. K, locking up the place. There was this energy coming from her, that she was like the custodian of the complex. But then it wasn’t just a lock up for the night. It seemed to be a lock-up because people were no longer allowed to visit the apartments for some sort of privacy reasons. There was even a sign on the elevators, above chains crossed over the doors, saying that the MFF 2019 members would have access to a different set of elevators that were somewhere in the depths of the lobby corridors. The entry to the stairs was also chained.

Then the dream scene went back to me, entering into the foyer again. I seemed to be confused; I didn’t know what was going on but then when I was in the foyer, I saw and noticed that they were no longer allowing anyone else except residents. I was now very slow, anxious and fidgety, walking around the foyer, hoping that I wouldn’t be caught out by Ms. K; for the whole scene, I felt as if I had done something wrong.

At one point, I walk nearly to the end of the circle and I look sideways, seeing a door to a common room on the same floor. I see Ms. K in the doorway but her back is turned and my heart starts pounding, yet I couldn’t move, I stood still, frozen and shaking. I then also noticed that Ed was sitting towards the doorway, so he was a bit closer to me than Ms. K, Ed was wearing a dark grey t-shirt with a light grey cap. I was also scared that if Ed turned around, he would get angry at me and something bad would happen.

Ed’s head slowly started turning and just like I was with Ms. K, I was scared for my life. He then actually got up off the ground but as that was happening, there seemed to be a complete surge of different energy coming from Ed. Although I should not have been in the foyer, he seemed to understand and know that my intention was not on purpose. So rather than being told to leave like I initially expected, Ed gently put an arm around me and slowly walked me out, his disposition and energy telling me to be at peace and carry on with my time at the shops rather than getting upset. The last scene of the dream showed me and RV walking around the shops and finally getting our McDonalds with a small packet of fries in my hands. The dream then ended.



Dream No. 636
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: SUN 22 DEC - 2019



Dream No. 635 - A Helping Hand

I don’t remember how this dream started. From where I do remember, my family and I were in this house. Although it looked nothing like, it was supposed to be the destination that we were at a family holiday for in real life. I was talking with my mum but I forgot what it was that we said. I was then outside, it was cold and the sky was grey. I was looking up into the sky and I felt empty inside, like something was missing. I realised I was missing my dream guides.

I was walking down the road, aimlessly, I saw a young man coming the opposite way. I stopped him and asked him if he could help me find my dream guides. In this dream, I could feel who I was looking for; it was Dreamy WB and 18-Volt. The man was stuttering and looked uncertain. I could feel that maybe if he went too far back, he’d get lost and sidetracked from what he was originally doing. I said to him, “If we can find them, they will take you back”, as I envisioned 18-Volt giving him an aerial lap ride.

We got close to the end of the road and there still wasn’t any sign of Dreamy WB or 18-Volt. There was a t-section though and I decided I wanted to turn left. Energy was increasing and I could feel that both of them were getting closer. However, before I could reach them, the dream forcefully changed scenes on me.

It seemed to be within the same dream environment though. I was now on my own and back at the house. I was then walking down the road with my mum and apparently we were going to meet my dad and brother at the restaurant nearby. The atmosphere in the front car-park felt eerie and like something was off yet my mum and I continued into the restaurant.

The inside of the restaurant was large and felt cosy, resembling a Mediterranean restaurant with terracotta tiles. As my mum and I were walking in, we saw a huge range of desserts through a glass display, each looking impressive. My mum and took a while choosing what we wanted to have for dessert. The dream then ended.



Dream No. 635
Dream Guide: None
Lucid?: No

Date of Dream: MON 9 DEC - 2019



Dream No. 634 - Choosing A Wedding Outfit

I don’t remember much about this dream. From where I can remember, I was in a completely unknown area. I couldn’t make sense of what was going on specifically at the start. It’s when I saw a few people around in fancy clothes that I realised there was some wedding that was about to take place in the grand foyer of what looked to be like an exhibit building. There were familiar faces I can remember as well, including Elsie Lovelock (a singer from Hazbin Hotel) who was wearing some sort of white-gold dress, as well as my high school friend CF who was wearing a dark pink dress; half way between hot pink and plum.

Elsie looked like she was generally showing off, whereas CF seemed to have this energy towards me, without saying anything, that she wasn’t my friend in this dream, like she didn’t care about me or even want to associate with me. The fact is that I was not wearing clothes that were suitable for the wedding and so looking at Elsie and CF was a huge discouragement for me. I then also came across EBo and he wasn’t wearing suitable clothing either (he was just in his daggy casual wear) but he had a stone cold look on his face, like he knew I was going to approach him for help but he didn’t want to hear one bit of it.

Just then, my dad came up to me and said that ‘Dreamy EBo’ was willing to take me to find a suitable wedding outfit. He added that Dreamy EBo would take me via room 68, 69, 71 or 72. As my dad was saying this, the dream camera showed a foyer with four elevators in it; two on each side. So I realised that 68, 69, 71 and 72 must have been the elevators, whereas room 70, which was not mentioned, must have been the small sub-foyer. The result of this dream would be multi-functional with Dreamy EBo taking me for a wedding outfit but also elevator practise at the same time.

As my dad finished describing what would happen, I felt a large hand on my back and it was the exact same energy as EBo, only I could see EBo still standing in the distance and looking cold and unwelcoming, so through the process of elimination, this was believed to be Dreamy EBo himself. As my dad now got left behind and Dreamy EBo escorted me towards the elevators, I woke up.



Dream No. 634
Dream Guide: Dreamy EBo
Lucid?: No