non-lucid

I am looking into a special monitor that tracks people via a hidden camera as they enter and exit a room. As I look into the monitor I suddenly see a couple of Mexican girls enter a hospital room from a camera underneath a bed. As I continue to watch the girls, they begin to morph into my own children. Fade recall.

I am given a gift of a solid 24 ounce gold bar by a black man who resembles the Rev. Jesse Jackson. He tells me that in time I can use the gold bar to insert myself into a FPS video game as the hero-shooter, but, as he says, "You'll have to work up to it." With the bar in my hand, I walk out on a balcony to see my children using it (the gold bar teleported from my hand to theirs) for a carnival game. They fasten it to the "Hit the Bell with the Hammer" game, as the metal piece that slides up to bang the bell when they hit the pad with the hammer. Fade recall.

I am observing a lady sitting by a lake who wants to be alone with a book. A friend soon joins her, and they both walk out on the frozen lake and sit on the ice. I decide to join them. I've brought a ball with me. I kick it hard and it sails far away. The lady with the book gets up to retrieve the ball. Fade recall.

Dreamt 1/06/2017

I find myself in a kind of mall or establishment place. I'm seeing Tyler Durden on his usual face and quoted one of his lines on his movies "You are not your job." I thought a while ago that this mindset is very good since I was thinking of ways to rationalize the circumstance I have which is I can't currently get all the material things I want.

Aliens

It was a warm afternoon. I was wandering some mixed forest (mostly deciduous, with some coniferous additions). I followed a path until I reached my house and went towards father's carpenty workshop. I entered it and saw my younger sister. Then we heard a radio alert about aliens landing. I grabbed her arm and wanted to run to the house, but apparently she had broken leg for some reason and we couldn't do it as quickly. Somehow I knew that she was the key to this whole aliens problem, as we left the workshop several government agents left other buildings of my backyard and chased us. We managed to escape to our house, but nobody was there. Everyone either escaped or put resistance to aliens. I wanted to barricade inside the house and wanted my sister to stay with me, but she escaped to some swamp. After a while I decided to join the resistance, finding my sister first. As I approached the exit, my family was back, bringing sister with them.

Suddenly I woke up in my bed, in the middle of some meadow. There were two other beds, one was empty and my younger sister was on the other one. The meadow was surrounded by really scarce, young forest. There was some lake and ancient ruins nearby. Suddenly we saw a bright, shining orb floating on the sky. These were the aliens. With sister we searched for some weapons and started fighting with it. I caught the orb and punched it several times, but it still wasn't enough. Then I found a laser under one of pillows and started shooting the orb, but it still wasn't enoug to win.

Morning of January 20, 2017. Friday.



I am in kind of a groggy state within the dream state though I am clearly aware that I am in our bed, though my head is in the opposite direction as to how we sleep in reality. I am on my left side facing south. Near my head is what I perceive to be some sort of writings relating possibly to educational tasks and scholastic writing.

Near the center of our bed, where I see our mattress has no sheet over it, are a couple toy earth movers. It seems they may actually be down in the mattress a little bit (possibly due to a tear in the mattress material) but the toys do not move on their own at any point. I do not move much and I am aware that Zsuzsanna is standing near our bed.

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Astoundingly, this very basic dream sign inclusive of a dreaming metaphor (directly and redundantly symbolic of exploring the unconscious or sorting through memories while asleep) has never happened in this particular way to my knowledge. The journal and writing is probably more so related to my dream journal.

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Cant sleep. Slept from 10pm - 2:20 am. Tossed and turned after I checked out the forum for a bit. Then I figured I could WILD, but wasn't sleepy. Saw a beautiful meteorite though. Got up and here I am.

DR
I'm at the train station with others. Have something to do in official capacity. Not sure what, something about papers and waiting for a train.

I do an IQ test. Then I am told to do another!!

Hitman:Sniper
I have a first-person, top-down perspective of playing Hitman:Sniper in Zombie mode. I'm playing Expert, hoping to get more achievements. I find a trick that makes the zombies mill around instead of heading straight for Ben and use it to build up a huge crowd, then fire an explosive round at them. Unfortunately, my aim is terrible: I hit right at the edge of the crowd, so half the shot is wasted and only a few zombies go down. Now I'm protecting a second point and try the same trick, but again I only take down a small handful instead of the large crowd.

Now I'm standing at ground level preparing to defend a third spot. I get in an argument with an obstructionist sheriff, but I don't back down and eventually he gives in. A friend congratulates me on how well I handled him. I happen to look down at the ground and realize I'm just a few inches away from standing in a large ant hill and hurriedly move away, checking my leg to make sure that none of them got on me.

Now I'm back to a top-down perspective, looking down at the hallways in a school. Zombies are packed close together, trudging through the hallways, but my explosive shot hasn't recharged yet and I'm almost out of time. I decide to use an attractive shot to cause a traffic jam and prevent them from continuing forward, but it doesn't work right. Now they're spilling out from the hallway into a large garage and then outside. I finally manage to get the shot off, but only as the last few stragglers are exiting the garage. I can't believe what an opportunity I wasted. This should have been amazing, but instead it ended up being an incredible disappointment.

Now I'm walking around a house on some amazingly green grass. I know that my poor performance means I'm going to lose my wife and daughter; I curl up on steps leading up to a tree house and start to cry bitterly, waking myself up.


New game
I'm helping my wife order a puzzle game for the kids - something about "contraptions." Now I'm inside the game, walking along a corridor. I'm in some kind of tutorial area, and pictographs on the walls are trying to show me how to finish setup and run the initial benchmarks. I "click" the first one and get shown more detailed information, but I can't figure out how close it, since my mouse only has a single giant button. I realize the "button" is actually a cover and remove it, revealing the standard buttons. Now I'm talking with someone about how they're using early access and what the system requirements are. Now I'm watching a woman talking with a man. He captures her, but she manages to escape.


Fragments:
I'm watching a video describing the top disgusting animal encounters actors have had to put up with when making movies.

I'm getting changed to go swimming. Now I'm in the pool. The water is lower at one end than at the other; it's flat at both ends and slopes in the middle connecting the levels.

My wife is trying to get an electric company coupon for a friend for his birthday which should save him around $100. I'm amazed - how can someone use so much power that he needs to shave $100 off of his bill?

I don't know who that girl was but I haven't felt so comfortable and motivated during sex before.

Funny, she exists somewhere in my memory, wonder who she is.

I am flying in an airplane, way up above South Florida, and I can see the coastline of the Atlantic Ocean below me. The terrain lines keep changing every time I look out the window. Almost as if the land beneath me is alive and morphing and moving like some kind of wide, flat monster. I decide to land the plane and investigate. When I get out of the plane, I am joined by a minister of a Pentecostal church. As we both look down at the dream representation of the Florida coastline, the minister proceeds in "straightening out" and manipulating the terrain, as though the shape of the coastline were liquid or made of hair. He uses a knife to cut off and trim unneeded portions of the coastline. The unneeded portions are then swept away, like hair clippings on the floor of a barbershop. At this point, my recall fades but I do remember Cake's rendition of Gloria Gaynor's "I Will Survive" playing in my subconscious (and I awaken with this tune playing in my dream ears).

Now, I am with my wife and our two nieces. We are wading in the water inside a little roped-off section of a canal near the pier. It seems we are waiting for someone, and as we wait, we swim. My nieces in the dream are young -- toddler size. IRL they are both in their mid-twenties, but this is how they looked back when they were babies. One of them -- the youngest -- has a floatie and she is kicking around in the water like a duck. My subconscious measures the depth of the water to be 10 ft. My other niece suddenly transforms back to her mature body and goes underwater. My vision underwater is clear and exact. Observing her, I sense she is in danger, and I come to her rescue. I bring her to the side of the pier. As she turns her back to me and lifts herself out of the water, I marvel at her body and think of how she's become sexually active and has already had children. I ruminate this as I think of her younger sister in a floatie beside her, who is still the symbol of innocence. It is a bittersweet, sentimental feeling.

The place where we are swimming is divided into sections designated by color. We are in the "blue" section. This "blue" water area somehow corresponds with the airplane trip and terrain manipulation I dreamt about earlier. The surrounding climate is sub-tropical. I look down and see a mapped coastline similar to the one the Pentecostal minister had manipulated earlier with a knife. Only this one was color-coded. I see different "blue" and "red" designated areas, and I find our "blue" swimming area on it.

I teleport to another section of Florida, this time back to my old childhood home (a dream sign). A pregnant girl is there with me, and we are waiting for someone. With us are three other guys. They are sitting at a table between my old bedroom and the laundry room. I am restless, walking back and forth, to the laundry room, back to my bedroom, back to the laundry room and around the table, over and over again. I tell everyone that while we wait, I'll start drinking. In the dream, I drink beer. Two of the guys at the table are hugging each other, and the other one is now standing behind them. They are friends with the pregnant girl, and although the girl is familiar to me, I do not know who the guys are. Dreamt 1/06/2017

I slept wonderfully last night. I remembered to take some pain meds beforehand. But I don't recall many dreams.

In one, I was at a mall restaurant looking for something to eat. A kid was in front of me at what looked like a deli counter. But it was like a Hibachi bar. Only he was "pretending" to be gross by acting like he was licking the edges of her sandwich, sneezing and coughing on it. The kid squealed in delight but I kept thinking that was still gross because he was bound to be getting spittle all over it.

In another dream, I dreamed I had slept til nearly 5PM and hubby was irritated with me. I then woke up 25 minutes before my alarm for 10:30

Fitbit: Bedtime 2:52AM-9:56AM 12 times restless for 1hr 46 minutes Total proper sleep 7hrs 4 minutes.
Much better than usual.

...

Had some weird and gross dreams.

But one was awesome.

I'm walking by a seashore, on some kind of a wooden path. A part of a path that's on the water gets lose and floats away few feet. Somebody jumps in and starts to pull the planks out. I look at the water. It's at night, so I only see the small portion illuminated by some strong lamp from the shore. Water is calm, clear, with some foam in some parts. I think about sharks for a second, then jump in. I dive to the bottom which is only maybe 5-6 feet away. I swim by the bottom, looking for submerged pieces of the walkway. There are some other things, but I pick up 2 planks and take them to the shore. The dive feels awesome.

Thank you!

Wheat transport

It was night, I got a mesage that there's a load of wheat grain to transport to a silo. I went to a tractor and hooked up a trailer and took the load to place of it's destination. The road was empty, there were no roadsigns, lights or any other vechicles. Until I reached the silo, everything faded to black.

Fragment

A blurry fragment, I was in home, can't recall anything more.

19-Jan-2017 - ND Office "Self-Management", ND fragm, + WILD Office magic, Elephant war,... + LD Flying car

2AM Wake-up, no recall, "technical" WBTB ;P

ND: Office, I am in a meeting room together with many colleagues. We are commenting about an earlier happening involving D in cubicle next to mine, to which I took part by talking from over the wall (FM). Discussion is quite long and uninteresting, recall is good, but I provide no details. Wake up 4AM

ND: Fragment about me eating lard with other colleagues at canteen (est.~5AM)

Wake up 5:20 AM, attempt WILD, success
WILD: (~30-40 min)
Some visualization, stabilization at my tower interior/exterior.
Proper LD starts at company canteen, I just exited, together with the colleagues I had lunch with yesterday.
At the gate, instead of going through I jump over, walk on the rain cover, jump down. Colleagues reach me.
I decide I will play some more dream magic for them. I take scarf off my neck (strange I have one), launch it in the air, wish it to become a bird, the scarf properly transforms and the bird flies away. I see dream is perfectly stable, environment looks crystal clear, so now it's time for something more impressive.

We move to the main gate, I check my company, everyone is still there. There is also a new, very tall guy wearing a sort of space uniform with a red kinda-NASA-logo and a name "Him", so he's a LC team-mate.
The reception building is ~6m wide low-roof structure. The two reception girls are inside it, normally at their desk. I wish for the entire building to lift up, which happens leaving a nice hole in the ground. The two girls inside it look down from the glass, kinda scared from this.
We pass below the building suspended in the air, then I release it to its normal place.

Next trick, change appearance of the main building (5 stories, ~50m wide, U-shaped). I observe the building, noticing how some details are very life-like. Then I look at the first corner and it gets covered in gray stone bricks, with two short cone-roofed corner towers. It's goo,d so moving my gaze over the main facade, I change appearance of the entire building in a similar fashion. The second corner comes out similar to the first one. Now our modern-looking building looks like a medieval castle. I like it alot.

Then, I wish for the building to disappear. At first attempt it doesn't work: it just slightly fades, then returns fully solid. It takes me a lot of focus, three attempts and imagining the background behind it, to make it fade in front of my eyes - most likely because the building it's such an long-time landmark for me.
After that, I walk with colleagues in the place where the building was standing before. It's paved in gray, and some external staircases remain standing on the ground, hanging from nowhere. Very cool.
Then, we move back to the courtyard between the reception and the building, and I make the building appear again. It returns with its normal appearance.
After this, I feel it's time for something different.

I want to go in space. In a space close to office, I see the same rocket I used last time, but it looks dull to me this time. Nevertheless, I board it, it takes off, reaches space, but dream reverts soon after.
I find myself at home, with entry door half open, my door on handle. It's looking really vivid. I play opening and closing the door couple of times, and feel "strange" about being here.

I teleport back to the beginning of previous dream. This time another team-mate is with me, same space suit, he's not as tall as Him. It's tblanco. Oh well, I say him this was my previous part of the dream, wondering if this is worth any point (good question actually)
Together with tblanco, I fly upwards, over the road, trees, car retailers; the environment looks very life-like, I notice how cohere it is in terms of placement.

After some flying, we reach a dense tree area. Good for TotY, I think.
I look for an elephant nearby, I find it, it's gray/violet, very long curved tusks, really fat, its body almost a ball.
I climb on its back and ride it in the forest.
I find a dirt clearing with low thick bushes on both sides, and people hiding behind them, shooting each other. The list of projectile they use it's quite extensive: arrows, stones, guns and lances. I learn their names (LOL don't ask me where did I take those from, I am clueless), the italian equivalent of "Liquid Assault", wearing blue uniform and "Screaming Magaglis" (not-existing word), with red uniform. I decide I am going to help in battle the guys in blue.

On the elephant I circle the bush and charge the red guys from their backs.
The elephant skews some people with its long trunks, I see one getting stomped by its leg.
I see one arrow coming out of its big arse. I tell the elephant I am sorry about that, I should have protected it.
I remove the arrow, then I summon a metal plate armor covering most of its body, it's dark brown / bronze. I am now sitting on a cloth saddle. We charge again, hitting some more people, no red guy is left standing now.
I get off my mount and move on.

A short walk and I reach a grassy area. I want to go to space again. I find a small space fighter, I enter it and reach space again. I find an area with many small planets close together, having different colors, I pass above them with my fighter spaceship.
One planet is brown, small (10m perhaps?), it looks like a krapfen (a fried sweet). I stop by, get off the ship and eat some of it; it's pleasant.

However, I find myself grounded on Earth again. This time I do not bother looking for a spaceship, put my arm out and fly Superman-style, very quick out of Earth. I turn back for a second to see the ground going away at great speed. I reach space again. Flying in space with the freedom of having no ship around me is nice.
I find some more planets. For few of them I see the white orbit.
I see a gray planet/asteroid, smallish, too; I land on it on my feet. It reminds me of the "Little Prince"
I summon a sort of large wooden stick, and push it on the ground below me, in front of my feet; the surface cracks; the stick remains in the ground.
A sort of menu bar with different objects drawn in it appears before me, I select a pruning knife and find it in my hand.
I thrust in in the ground in another point of the planet, cracking the surface.
This time the crack extends, connects with the previous one, and half of the planet detachs and floats in space. I wonder how my half is staying up ?

Now I am kinda tired, return to my body, move to my side and keep sleeping

DILD: (est.6:10 AM ~10min)
I am in my car, alone, aware this is a dream. I'm driving on a large road, with walls on the sides.
I look at the cockpit and it looks ok, only slight difference I detect is in the speedometer: different numbers and lower max speed shown.
I break to limit the speed, but the car reaches a high speed again. I do it again, the car reaches high speed again.
I think I should not worry about speed limits or danger in a dream, push the accelerator.
The car reaches very high speed (~120 km/h), then flies up.
I look at the scenery below me, trees, low houses and roads.

I rotate the car in the air, however fly direction is maintained, so I fly laterally, then backward.
My viewpoint shifts to the back seat for short time, I see the front seatbelt and the car interior, then I return to driving seat.
I fly low, over a road with more vehicles, I look down and see a motorcycle, I let it pass then I descend and land my wheels on the road behind it.

Fuzzy recall after that. I think I get out of the car...

Anyway, I turn focus to my body, wondering if I can attempt an OBE exit.

I only feel a light sizzling in my feet, judge it too weak to attempt exiting, I fall asleep lightly, work alarm rings after few minutes.

House hunting
I'm house-hunting with my family. We're walking around a nice single-story house, and I like it a lot. I'm looking around the property trying to figure out how our dog would do here. The back yard is completely fenced in, but the front yard isn't. I think that it may be possible to link the fencing with the house to create a fenced-in back yard; I really like the idea, since I can't trust him without a fence or a leash, and I'd love to be able to throw things for him to fetch (it's a large back yard). Now I notice that the front yard is actually fenced in all the way except for the driveway, and I think that maybe adding a gate to complete it wouldn't be a bad idea. Looking around more, I notice that every house in the neighborhood seems to be completely fenced in except for the driveways; unusual, but whatever. Now he walks up to me carrying something in his mouth; looking more closely, I see that it's a dirty bowl with some bits of sewing in it; I recognize it as my wife's stuff, so I call to her.

Group camping
It's night, and I'm walking around our group camp site. I see our group's leader by the fire circle working on getting a fire started. As soon as he gets it started, he stands up and declares that it's time for bed. I'm surprised - why build the fire if it's bed time? I walk up to him to ask him. Now I notice the restrooms are just behind him and I excuse myself. Now I'm in the bathroom and find a wet towel - weird. Now I'm back outside talking to him again. We talk some more about other things, including music. We look at something on our phones. Now I ask him about breakfast, saying that I really need it by 7AM. He laughs, saying that he's not even going to be awake by then, let alone have breakfast ready.

The warehouse
I'm in an empty warehouse - all I can see is bare concrete floor and walls. Looking up, I see that it's actually got a few stories above me, and I can see firemen spread out doing something (there's no fire that I can see). Their leader is near me, and he looks like Ghostbuster's Peter Venkman. Looking around more, I see items that weren't there before, and any time I focus on one I get a kind of floating pictorial bubble giving me more information about it. I discuss population with someone (I jotted that down in my overnight notes, but I have no idea what it means.)

Reindeer-men
I'm walking around in what I know to be a game. I'm in a residential neighborhood. All of the houses have large yellow and black signs outside. Each sign has the same list of possible content that can be found in a house, and lines which are applicable to a house are checked. The houses differ significantly in what they list, but they all seem to have "Reindeer" checked. Now I'm inside one of the houses. The light is very dim, and it's creepy. I walk around looking for reindeer. I don't see any, but I hear an occasional clip-clop from elsewhere in the house. As I'm walking through something like a living room, a reindeer-man comes around the corner. He's tall, wide, and very muscular, and he seems enraged. His eyes are wide and red, and he snarls as he walks towards me. I take a moment to gape at it, then turn to flee, only to find another one right behind me. I'm trapped! I punch the one blocking my escape, even as I know it's completely futile. He punches me and I go down.

Now I'm back outside walking through the neighborhood with my parents. My father asks if I can scroll the console back to the top - he says there was a message that looked interesting but it disappeared before he could properly read it. I try the traditional shift+page up, and it works. I can see the console text hovering in front of us, though part of it is hidden by the branches of a tree. He somehow zooms in on the text he's interested in, pulling it towards us and making it much easier to read. It says something about using "svn group" to preserve local changes. He has no idea what that means, so I explain that - if my guess is correct - the game automatically checks out the latest versions of files, so any local modifications will normally be overwritten, so if you want to modify anything and have it "stick" you have to block the auto-checkout with this command.

Post-apocalyptic corruption
I'm watching a group wandering through a post-apocalyptic city. Most of the buildings are burnt out, and there's large rubble everywhere. The leader of the group is telling the others how his own wife was corrupted: growing larger, skin turning gray, losing control of herself. It turns out that he's been infected as well and has been suppressing it, but he finally loses the battle and begins transforming, groaning that he can't hold it back any more. He gains size and muscle, but he gains an almost golden color. Now he's wearing loose white robes, and his muscular arms and 6-pack are clearly visible. He tells the group that they must declare allegiance: either to him, to his wife, or to "the twins." Now I see that there are four groups, and he's displeased, saying that there can only be three and that the groups must battle until one of them is destroyed. The smallest group turns to flee.

Strange shower
I'm taking a shower in a small bathroom. There's no shower stall - the water just pools on the floor. I start to splash around, enjoying myself, then stop because I don't want to disturb my wife. I also realize that there's only a very small lip under the door and I don't want to flood the hallway.

Running with John
I'm with John O and my second daughter in the lobby of a movie theater. Everything is very blue, and there are tables scattered around - it seems it doubles as a diner. My daughter hasn't seen a movie in a theater before and asks how it works. I explain that we have to wait around while the current movie plays, then go in and wait for the next one to start. Now we're sitting at one of the tables, eating while we wait.

Now John and I are crossing the parking lot. We're talking about "that weird taxi guy" who always hangs around the Atlanta airport. He does a great job and is worth seeking out, but sometimes you have to walk a long way to find where he's parked. Now we're walking along a sidewalk, and I realize that my daughter is missing. I turn to run back towards the theater, but John runs much faster than I. I yell after him to pace himself. He slows down, gets behind me, and starts pushing me. I end up running much more slowly than before since my balance is being thrown off. I ask him to stop pushing, so he passes me again. I'm able to regain my balance and speed back up. We're running downhill now, and I end up going really fast (though still slower than John).

Eating garlic
I'm driving home with my son. I realize I'm hungry and look around to see if there's anything to eat in the car. I see that the dashboard's cell phone holder has a garlic bulb sitting in it. As much as I'm not in the mood for raw garlic, I am really hungry, so I manage to peel off a few cloves and start trying to peel them one-handed (I'm still driving, after all). I hope I have a while before my wife gets home since I'm sure my breath will stink for a long time.

Now I'm pulling into the driveway and am surprised to see that stuff is scattered everywhere inside the garage and on the driveway. I park near the top and we head inside. She's not here, so I start hunting down some real food.

Fragment: A brilliantly white monument is standing in a grassy patch in the middle of the road.