non-lucid

Just a fragment and some short dreams but really trying to work on dream recall!

-in the mountains, beautiful mountains

-I was at a Taylor Swift concert, I got front row. TW was singing and, at one point, held onto my shoulder and sang to me. I was sooo happy and was thinking, "if only I could have gotten a picture with her, but oh well, just this memory is enough!" and then she went back on the stage and started singing a song by another artist.

-there was a group of kids and a male swimming instructor. All the kids were black girls and had matching hair and bathing suits. The swim instructor told them to do front flips into the water, and one by one they did, except for one kid who wanted to show off. She got a running start and jumped so far she ended up reaching the ledge on the other side of the pool and crashing into it.

I was in some underground facility with a lot of other people. The whole place resembled the ISS space station on the inside, but we weren't in space. My dream is a bit hazy due to me waking up and falling asleep back into the same dream, so the story is split into two parts.

Something happened to where the whole place was about to blow up, and everyone had to evacuate the area as soon as possible. I could hear explosions everywhere as we all ran, and people everywhere were scrambling to the exit. Something happened to where me and some other guy who looked to be in his 50s couldn't make it to the exit in time, and the air-tight giant doors were sealed shut. The guy told me to follow him so we could find another way out. We eventually found two washing machines in what seemed to be a laundry room and the middle-aged man opened the door to one of them. There was a piece of aluminum taped onto the back wall of the inside of the washing machine, and he ripped it off without hesitation. A small hole was revealed with a tunnel leading to somewhere and the 50-year old man jumped in feet first. I did the same, and we both crawled our way through the cylinder shaped ducts. I remember how cold it was in there, it was almost freezing (possibly due to how cold it was in the real world)! We eventually found a way out and barely made it just in time before the people who escaped earlier were about to close the second door. That was when we heard a giant explosion, but the place didn't come down yet. We then got word that two more people were down there. The man and I decided to go back and save them, but that's when I temporarily woke up.
After instantly going back to sleep into the same dream, I found myself back down in the area that was about to bow up. The middle-aged man and I found the two other men, and together we all ran towards the laundry room with the washing machines. We quickly told them what to do, and told them to follow our lead. For some reason, we all had on black coats this time around, and I assumed it was for the cold air ducts. As soon as I ripped off the aluminum foil and jumped in, I kind of got stuck due to my big coat. I eventually squeezed in, but when the second person jumped in behind me, it suddenly became very crowded and hot. Me being claustrophobic and all, quickly began unzipping my coat and used all my power to squirm out of it. Unfortunately, that's when my dream ended.
(Found out that I had too many covers on top of me.)

I do remember watching the movie, Armageddon for the first time a few nights before I had this dream.

-1-I spawned on a bike, saw an F5 tornado centered on the church building, and tried to bike to safety after walking with C to the southeast. Then, the tornado started chasing me. I continued to bike in a straight line on the same road until I had to stop for some reason. When I got going again, it was in the wrong direction, towards the tornado. I was like, “I’m such an idiot.” Somehow, I biked to an area with a Skyrim campfire, shack, and house. I biked to the house and entered it just as the tornado hit me. Now, the house was trash, and I was airborne. Next the tornado and a guy in a small shuttle thing spawned near the end of the same road. We were nearing the coast, and suddenly a giant plastic had pushed the shuttle thing towards the water with a good speed.
-2-C, some others, and I spawned in new york. We crossed a bridge to do something, then crossed back over. Later, both the Brooklyn Bridge and the concrete bridge we were on were closed.
-3-There were these buses that me and one other person were in. A giant alien was tearing the silver one to try to get to me. It was moving, and it had my scent, so I jumped off and ran back to the stationary, yellow one. Suddenly, young link spawned with Majora’s Mask. Later Young Link and I (who is now Samus) entered the first room of a space station filled with hostile aliens. I shot them all down easily. Link had only 5% health left somehow, so when I shot the container next to him, he died. I then loaded a state to before the aliens were killed, and I killed them all again, this time leaving Link with a lot more health than last time. At the far corner, there was a door that said “Warrior Room”. I decided to avoid that room.
[New (L) Scene]
I was in the kitchen, trying to change my leg structure unsuccessfully.
Lucid Time: 20-40 seconds

Morning of January 3, 2018. Wednesday.



My dream begins in an undefined setting. I do not possess any conscious self threads other than a vague association with Nimbin and Tuntable Falls (which I had written about in a recent entry). I am outside, though there are ambiguous shifts where I am also inside at the same time at certain points.

An unfamiliar male of about thirty is present. Apparently, the police are following him, believing him to be carrying drugs. He has a large backpack and some sort of oversized balloon. Eventually, the balloon grows larger and proves to be that of a dinosaur, a tyrannosaurus (though there is no implied threat as it is just a balloon).

Until the last segment, I am not implied to be a direct part of the scenario. However, I am curiously linked to the dynamics of the balloon. When it expands and grows taller, it seems my dream self is also growing larger and taller, though not implied to be seen by the other dream characters.

Somehow, another balloon is present and expands. I believe it is meant to be a rabbit, though there is not that much focus on it.

A third balloon begins to fill with air and grow large and tall, but this time it is a reindeer, somewhat anthropomorphic. Again, I am linked to the balloon, feeling myself growing larger and even hitting my head on the ceiling (though it is not painful) as I watch the reindeer’s head bump the ceiling to my left, even though we are also implied to be outside.

From here, I am annoyed by the presence of RAS (the police) via the preconscious. What started out as the usual return flight waking symbolism (as a flying reindeer is a flight symbol, which truncated the rabbit symbolism of which symbolizes being deeper in sleep) to vestibular system symbolism, triggers an odd level of semi-lucidity to where I am ready to shoot everyone (which symbolizes real-time RAS mediation of the dream state). Bumping my head on the ceiling means a part of my mind is holding me in the dream state, though as I am only semi-lucid, I am unsure of my waking space status and physical orientation. Still, I shoot about six officers in the forehead. They are ducking behind some cover (some sort of flat vertical structure), but I get them one at a time in my semi-lucid waking space. (As I have written in past entries, the association with the man possibly carrying illicit drugs is a dream state potential reinduction factor, as they relate to altering the level of consciousness or unconsciousness.)

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Date of Dream: WED 3 JAN - 2018



Dream No. 256 - Grandpa Returns
Nightmare!

The dream started at my old house when I was planning to go on a bike ride by myself. I envisaged riding all the way to Cranbourne and I would stop part way there to pull out Dreamy WB on the phone and have a lengthy chat with her. I then went to my mum who was in the kitchen. I told her that before officially going on the bike ride; I would check my phone to make sure it was fully charged. I then set off on the bike to grandma's house which is also my current house. I saw my grandma but forgot what she was doing.

I then went into the backyard and saw my dad doing some paving work with a radio playing in the background. We spoke briefly and then he came up with me to the laundry. He kept nagging me to bring these snacks with me called “Fix-its”. I said to him “Dad, the more times you say something; the less likely I am to do it”. Then I walked off into the dining room when I peered my head into the front room and saw my first unusual sight of the dream.

I saw an old man with white hair standing near the heater, facing the wall. Slowly, he turns around and starts approaching me into the area where I was. As soon as he enters the dining room, he just stood there; a smile slowly bending into a creepy shape. When his smile had reached the widest point, he says in a muffled tone, “how are you?”. I was completely paralysed, thinking to myself; “how the **** are you still alive?”. This dream felt so real, I didn't even think of calling for help. Rather, I gave the loudest, most high pitched screams until I was forced to wake up.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- Five Nights At Grim Reaper's (wake up from a nightmare 5 times)
>> 1. Woken by the creepy SML puppet (145)
>> 2. Woken by a counterfeit Ms L. in the garden (166 B)
>> 3. Terrified by torture device about to be played on the radio (229 A)
>> 4. Woke up from painful overwhelming spider bites (232)
>> 5. Woke up from terrifying sight of deceased grandfather (256)

Date of Dream: TUE 2 JAN - 2018



Dream No. 255 - A Clash Of Company

I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was only my way to some cinema complex with a mixture of Killester and past Camelot, high school students. On the way there, just before the entrance, I came past WB who seemed annoyed at me like usual. This time, I tried going up to her and talking to her... I forgot what I specifically said though. Whatever I said worked as she sighed and kept me company for the remainder of the dream.

When me and her entered the cinema, we unfortunately parted ways because she wanted to sit with her “legit” friends being BT, EL, etc. I panicked when I realised she was going far away from me and I reminded her to 'keep her word'. WB ended up sitting in a seat third from the aisle. Just as I was about to claim the second seat from the aisle, JSe randomly comes up an hogs that spot. At the start, I don't mind as I end up talking to both WB and JSe. As movie previews are playing, JSe is awkwardly cuddling up to me.

It's when the movie started that I tried to get them to be quiet but I couldn't. They were talking loudly whereas I was only whispering; but I observed that JSe was the primary distraction. One of the teachers, Ms Du., had noticed as she came to separate us. I started panicking again and I asserted to her “But I've been trying to tell them to be quiet this whole time!”. She answered, “And that's why you get to keep your seat; they have to move”.

I let the dream world know that I was 'upset'. I said to myself, “I've become upset and so I have to go to sleep”. I shut my eyes in the dream and envision Dreamy WB coming to try and make the situation right. No matter how hard I tried to visualise, it was still all black like I was only in a light sleep. I then entered this odd scene where I picked up a gun in a shape of a barrel and JSe was standing beside me... I did not look happy towards him. I told him, “I'm trying to get my dream guide!”. I then picked up this gun and weird hypnotic shapes of pink and green lasers were firing out of it. Nothing happened in respect to summoning my dream guide but something had fixed JSe.

He wasn't in the dream anymore and I went over to where WB was sitting and I sat next to her. We only lightly chatted now and no teacher came up to us. The dream scene then changed to my house in the dining room where WB was still there in the same outfit that she was wearing at the movies, which was the Killester Winter Uniform with the high bun hairstyle. She asked me if I knew any places in Croatia and I told her “I know a place called Bjelovar/Osijek as those are the places my parents were born; do you know any?”. She said she only knew one place but I forgotten the name she gave. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None

this dream I'm side scrolling then I get suck into a vortex where cosmic darkness engulf my whole body the dark then envelops into imploding star light the light and the darkness tug and pull out each other as I'm trying to become lucid as my lucidity start I get suspended in the air then I see a circle of green light the green light then becomes

neurons as atom particles that get minded away when I'm trying to jolt awake I'm in animation then I start jerking my physical body from my dream body trying to wake up cause the light fixtures were becoming to condescending so I'm trying to pull my my psychical body from my dream persona as I become lucid my dream become an developing white light and I can still feel my body with air pressure floating in the air as the light shimmers into a dark fade I awake where the light start spurting on its own and when I wake up my pants are wet from peeing on my self

Happy New Year!! I got a great start to mine - a nice solid lucid!
For the past week I have been working hard to try to lucid dream and remember my dreams. It's starting to pay off! though my dream recall still SUCKS.

early dreams:

I was in the mountains. It was so incredibly beautiful and I wanted to move there but things kept holding me back and I was so sad about it. I wanted to stay in those snow covered towering high mountains forever.

I was in caves. I was lucid and and excited. It seemed to last awhile and I let the dream take me wherever, part of which I remember crawling through caves. Eventually though, I lost the lucidity and the caves became scary.

My boyfriend woke me and said goodbye and went off to work. I knew I had to try to fall asleep so I could get a lucid in!

I was in my old house with my parents, sister, and grandpa. It was painted all white and empty except furniture. Everyone was sad and stressed for some reason. My sister was eating something like trail mix, she started choking and I said, "are you ok??" and she says, "no" but I realize she is fake choking. My dad says something like, "she just wanted you to practice your emotions." WTF. I was angry. I stormed off to my old room and there I find my mom, smoking a cigarrette, and my grandpa on the floor with his eyes closed, he looked dead but wasn't. I say, "hey, I need a cigarette!(neither of us smoke IRL) and take it from her and take a huff. Then my sis comes in and joins.

I am in my bed, which is kind of like a bunk bed, and start going to sleep. This is a dream itself though, and my mom is walking around. I try to block her out, close my eyes. I get warped into a new dream, I am standing in the living room. It's night time and I'm staring at the giant window that's decorated in xmas decorations and a bunch of lights. I focus on one to stabilize the dream, and it works. I don't know what to do, but I don't want to stay inside so I go out into the night. I notice a few things, like the tree in the front yard by the driveway, a giant blow up snow globe santa thing, and on the street two cars are parked. Standing by the cars are two girls, around my age. I walk up and see they are digging through stuff in their cars. I stand in front of one of the girls. She has blond straight hair, with smokey makeup and long earrings. We start dancing and a song blares in the background, it sounds to be a young but seasoned singer and I try to remember the lyrics. "Desire is a compassion burned fire" We dance and it's amazing and then we KISS and it's fire. I decide to wake up after this because I thought my mom had been waiting for me to wake up, even though that part was just a dream. I wake up in my real bed.

I had money issues (as I do in real life, been unemployed for too long) and I'd agreed to take part in a bank robbery with a few professional bank robbers. I'd never committed a crime before, so I was very nervous. In the car on our way to the bank, I got cold feet. And the rest of the crew, not exactly nice people, noticed. They said that if I got nervous, the deal would be off. So I said I was good. We all had carbines, but they assured me we'd rob the bank at night and almost no one would be around. They lied. They used a lot of force and violence and I think people got hurt. I complained that this wasn't what we agreed. I was worried enough about being charged for robbery, and I didn't want accomplice to murder being added to that list. And I'm generally speaking not a murderer. These other guys... were nothing like me.

I was in a city in Turkey, and suddenly some kind of earthquake shook the ground. People assumed it was a nuclear explosion for a while, but then we realized it wasn't. Don't know what it was. Just a quake, I guess? People were standing on this rickety bridge above a pool of water (in the city center). I wanted to get off as I realized it might collapse.

We were traveling to Barcelona in a big bus, like I did a decade ago with school (twice). We got out to take a break, on an empty road somewhere halfway to our destination. There was a massive raging fire on the horizon. One of our teachers (math teacher Van Achteren) came up behind me and talked about a kind of app for merging pictures on her phone? For photographing the fire, I guess. My notes say our history teacher Peeters was there too, but I don't remember him. Notes also say "chocolate egg NL". Yeah, no clue what that means. In a later scene, I was in a hotel room, presumably in Barcelona. We had to share rooms with other students, just like how it was in real life. I realized I'd forgotten a lot of stuff back home, and I had almost nothing on me (just my wallet). I walked on a balcony outside of the hotel, wrapped in a blanket. The wind was blowing so hard, I could barely stand, let alone walk. I couldn't keep up with the others, who had already left. I was terrified of being left behind.

Something about Doom savegames?

I had somehow ended up back in time, probably the early 50's (or before). I was showing off an AR15 carbine to a few guys, who were messing around with a Thompson SMG (where is why I assume it was no later than Vietnam, where the M4 replaced the Thompson). Someone, possibly my former friends Barra and Fenn (yes, these guys again) judged me for being such a braggard. For my crimes of being a "bad time traveler" I was punished somehow. I recall my Fenn walking past me as if he didn't know who I was or hadn't seen me. Barra, someone who hates me even more than Fenn does, did stop to speak to me. I was quite emotional and felt a lot of regret. Not for anything in particular, just generally. I don't remember what he said. Nothing too damning. He came uncomfortably close while speaking to me, but didn't care because of how emotional I was. Anyway... I found another job as security guard for some rich guy, to guard his villa. Using the AR15 carbine.

I was sitting at a table with four other people. Two of them were my friends, one old man (70+) and a younger guy my age. The others was the current Führer of the Third Reich, which was a middle-aged woman (I guess this was some kind of alternate 2017 in which Germany won the war), and her daughter who was my age. The daughter was pure evil. I think me and my friends were taken prisoner. The daughter was interrogating us. She was really, really evil. And crazy. Like one of those stereotypical comic book villainesses. She was hiding a gun under her clothes, and because I didn't answer one of her questions, she shot the older man in the head. Obviously killing him instantly. She aimed her gun at me, and I could pretty much look into the barrel. It took a lot of nerve to keep my composure, knowing one wrong word and she'd shoot me. She suggested I had inferior blood. I conviced her my grandmother was born in Germany and served in the Hitlerjügend (she did). I think she was satisfied I'd given her what she wanted. She became really seductive at some point, and appeared to be coming onto me (but all in a really 'acted' and insane way). Suddenly, she kissed me. I didn't resist, as quite frankly she was really attractive (and my life depended on it). She 'asked' me to marry her. It wasn't a question. I think she just wanted me as her pet. I said yes, knowing I'd stay alive at least, and I'd be really close to someone who would one day inherit control of the Reich. In a later scene, I could see myself sitting in a leather couch in the family mansion. I was wearing my black shirt with white stripes.

Notes of this dream say "kind of massage", but not entirely sure what it means. I think it happened in a really strange place. A large open space covered in perfectly still water (no waves), and with floating "platforms" in it. I was doing "gravity jumps" between them, using the reduced gravity of the dream to do backflips and sideflips and stuff. Trying to impress my former classmates who were sitting on other platforms nearby. At some point we jokingly jumped into each other for laughs.

On a stretch of land, partly rocky but flat, a path of sorts. Having a picnic stuff is strewn over the mishapen rocky ground. Some else is there when suddenly the lake to the right spews out (errupts) a jet of bright purple liquid with a foamy spray. It continues and threatens to engulf the area we are picnicking on (strangely the rest of the lake is mustard yellow). Then strange animals start to appear fleeing the area it appears as they do not attack us. A big wolf like a great moving shadow, totally black followed by others and then a giant beard man, again in black.

Next i'm at school using a fancy computer, it comes with a little electronic gizmo with a little raised metal button on it. Charleen is very impressed that I have one of my own. I am able to send things to a kind of printer, I send an awesome apple pie and custard and go to get it. I find a restaurant where it should have arrived but its not there. One of the people there says they don't like pie. I leave wondering where it could have gone too or if someone ate it. I have a look around and find double doors and a section of the building that is off limits. I head off down a corridor and use my powers to break through. I come out in a high ceilinged sports hall where there are loads of people in a line below a giant high net, playing some form of tennis/squash. I make a racket which is incredibly long with a tiny end, as there are so many plays this is the shape that may be able to get past them. I easily intercept the ball.

I'm in a large warehouse-like space, but dressed up for people to live in. I knew this was where Ilia S. lived (an Israeli scientist active in the life extension community). I remembered being there before, but it was a complete mess that time. It still was, but less so. There were large bookcases, and books laying around everywhere. There was a secret laboratory underneath the warehouse. Underneath THAT secret lab was an even more secret lab, where a woman worked. Another Spanish (male) scientist was present in the warehouse. At some point I open a fridge, and see a can of what I assumed was whipped cream. Fancying some whipped cream, I took the can and sprayed half the can into my mouth and ate it. A scientist points out to me it wasn't whipped cream at all, but an experimental serum. Table cleaner?

There's a large fantasy-style battle. I think there were dwarves? Anyway, after the battle ended in a 'tie' or a truce, I go look for REDACTED. I wanted to comfort him and promise I'd never give up trying to save his daughter. I thought I'd found him, but instead I found a small 'burrowing alien creature' mourning for the loss of its partner (during the battle?). Yeah... A bit later, I'm standing by a kind of large basin filled with water. Like a huge swimming pool (like 300 feet long at least) made of concrete. I notice the water appears to move as I focus on it. I focus harder, and 'will' the water to start bubbling. Eventually, the whole pool bubbles violently, and I realize I must be some kind of 'hydromancer'. Then, I thought about another trick. I focused all my power, and forced to split the water like how Moses split the dead sea. It was amazing. It required me to focus so hard, I was screaming from the sheer willpower it took to maintain the effect.

After waking, I recalled all the dreams I've had in which I caused accidental tsunami waves just by being near an ocean. And I mean HUGE tidal waves, the size of a skyscraper. Subconscious can be so much more powerful than consciousness, and these monster waves show just how powerful hydromancy can be (effortlessly too, compared to how much focus I needed to split the water consciously)!

Date of Dream: MON 1 JAN - 2018



Dream No. 254 - Demanding Doctor

I don't remember how the dream started. From where I do remember, I was suffering from a minor ailment and so was walking into a doctors' clinic... I think it was something to do with my eyes. I was in the waiting room when I saw RH there, giving me some sort of very strange look... His appearance was also slightly distorted. I thought to myself in the dream that I usually give people a nasty look when they look at me strangely but I just kept quiet and ignored RH to show him that I had what it takes to be a professional accountant.

As I was looking towards the treatment rooms, I saw a doctor coming down the stairs, she said it was my turn. I was going up the stairs with her and telling her what my ailment was. Inside the room was very long, almost like a small corridor and there were all these bookshelves around the place. The doctor invited me to sit down but that's when she turned nasty; she told me I had to pay right that minute or she was going to literally kill me!

I panicked immediately when I realised the fact that I had absolutely no money on me. The doctor must have noticed I was stuttering as she grew a look of sheer violence on her face. I was trembling so bad but still had the capacity to call out for Dreamy WB. The response time was immediate in this dream. The scene moved to the reception desk where it showed a side shot of Dreamy WB taking a $20 note out of her large dark red, brown, black and white African print handbag and putting it on the bench even though no one was there in attendance. Her appearance was clean and accurate in this dream.

The scene then moved back to me in the treatment room. The doctor said that “someone” had paid and so now the treatment could commence. That's all I can remember about this dream.



Dream Trophies Achieved:
- None



Dreamy WB's appearance wasn't messed up in this dream at all. Most importantly, she had the correct skin tone and hair colour. In the dream, she decided to wear a black cardi over a white singlet with black leggings, and an extra accessory which was a pair of reading glasses.

Very pleasant dream. I was laying in a bed. In the same room, my older brother was sitting at a desk, working/playing on a computer. I think the doorbell rang, or someone knocked on the door, and two women entered the room. One woman had black, medium-long hair and looked young, in her late teens. The other was blonde, and appeared early middle-aged. I assumed it was her mom. When looking at them again, I noticed the blonde looked younger now, in her twenties probably. The black-haired girl also looked to be in her mid-20's now. She looked at me, and we made eye contact. She smiled. A gorgeous, seductive smile. I immediately knew she liked me. Feeling brave, I winked at her. Then pretended to continue sleeping, even though I was definitely not sleeping. I don't know how the scene evolved from there, but both my brother and the blonde had disappeared. The girl got in bed with me, and stuff happened from there. I'll save you the details. But it was good. A lot of passion for a complete stranger. At some point she asked what I did for a living. I answered truthfully (unemployed but looking), but to be honest I wasn't very interested in small talk and just wanted to keep going.

At some point, I started losing the dream. The image froze and I felt I was awake (but eyes still closed). I focused to continue the scene, and it worked. I was trying various positions, and while doing this the dream froze again. Her face looked like a badly textured CG character before rendering. This time, I knew the game was up and I could no longer stabilize the dream. I was quite annoyed I couldn't climax in the dream before waking up.

This dream was memorable because in reality I feel fundamentally unlovable, and this DC made me feel... attractive? Also, when the dream started getting unstable, I knew how to stabilize it, implying partial lucidity.