non-lucid

Morning of December 20, 2016. Tuesday.



I am at our present address on W Street near the west side of our house on the public footpath. It seems to be morning. There had been signs of a light rain. I notice that the Wicked Witch of the East must have been in a storm (though not in our area, at least with any perceived backstory) and blown our way in that the NBN cabinet near our house had fallen upon her (which is not logical, as the NBN cabinet is set upon concrete and shows no signs of having been removed or damaged). I know this is true because her ruby slippers have been sticking out from under the cabinet for probably a day or two. They stick out from the right side of the NBN cabinet.

It may be important to inform people of this. I look more closely and bravely feel the supposed ruby slippers, which are actually more like red fishing boots. They are of a floppy rubbery material. Perhaps the remains are not actually present.

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This dream presents failed flight waking symbolism, one of my most common forms of waking symbolism since early childhood, which is unrelated to waking life, and as such, does not imply any negative connotations. It establishes a form of “return flight” as related to the hypnopompic stage (which is rendered as such in over twenty percent of my dreams or 1 in 5 in tens of thousands), which sometimes induces a falling sensation (which is biological and unrelated to waking life). It is unreasonable to assume real life associations with such precursory symbolism relative to hypnopompia.

In this case, the position of the implied body (though the body itself is not seen or touched) is in a sleeping position, a real-time dream state indicator. Once again, the waking symbolism is oriented on the right.

The detail of the red fishing boots establishes three well-known dream state indicators simultaneously, red as a known presence of waking priority (especially in dreams which become completely red, which means I have been sleeping too long), boots that are not being worn (as one does not wear shoes when in bed), and residual water induction remnant (in being fishing boots or waders).

Additionally, there is the implication of the NBN cabinet representing technology, communication, and intelligence as symbolizing the conscious self over the fictional dream self or the remnants of the ephemeral dream self at the waking point.

Additionally, it is unreasonable in this case to assume the “witch” is related to waking life by specifics, for three main reasons. One, the “witch” herself does not even appear in this dream. Two, the “witch” is a fictional character from the “Wizard of Oz”, and my association validates this entire dream as primarily a real-time dream state indicator. Remember that “The Wizard of Oz” is about someone being knocked unconscious and having a dream. Three, it is fantasy, and fantasy symbolism is based on creativity, not life-relevant symbolism.

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This dream was extremely long and complicated. Like a feature film.

The gist of it however was that I went back to high school. It was a school for kids who would become elite professionals in sports or law or anything. There were some pretty girls but mostly the atmosphere was of little partying and lots of hard work. Eventually we ended up at a waterfall that was full of deadly reef plants. Everyone had to devise a way to swim through. I flew over.

Flush
I'm in my room. I've been to the toilet, but it hasn't flushed properly. I can still see some floating around. I try to flush again, but the water starts appearing from unexpected places. It starts to appear from the shower next to the toilet as well. Eventually I manage to make it stop appearing from the shower by turning the shower's lever.

Roomswap
I'm in my room, in my bed, together with Irt. It's still morning. I hear a knock on the door. I'm not sure anymore if she announced herself, but it is the girl that everyone hates. I tell Irt to be quiet. The curtains are closed, so we can just pretend not to be here. I don't wanna hang out with this girl. A bit later there is a guy standing in front of my door. It's someone who is ok. Irt goes over to open the curtain and have a talk. No! The girl went to the room just next to mine, so she'll definitely notice that we are here. Close the curtain! I decide to camp out behind a clothing rack [which in reality I don't have]. I don't feel like I'm doing a very good job at hiding, but ah well, better than nothing.

Suddenly a girl I don't know storms into my room, walks past me, takes a hanger with clothes from a nail in the wall and storms out again. What the hell? I assume these are her clothes so she has every right to take them, but manners?! This is my room and we don't even know each other. I go up to this girl, who is together with another girl, to teach her some. The message doesn't set in at all though. I explain how rude it is to just burst into my room like that if we don't know each other and then to completely ignore me. I try to reenact it to demonstrate how rude it is, but it still doesn't set in. Eventually I take the girls clothes back and tell her she can have them back if she demonstrates some proper manners (which is never).

When I try to go back to my room, the layout has changed. I walk into the right room, only to find it much different from what I expected. My stuff is nowhere to be found. I walk out and look at the sign above the door. Yep, this is my room number. What the hell? Apparently someone decided to switch rooms with me without asking. No! I don't want to switch rooms again, especially considering that I'm almost leaving. My friend Fif is being chilled about it and says something along the lines of "I think it's best if you go back to Europe". The hell? I feel unwanted now.

Somewhere along the dream I become violent towards the rude girl. Stomping on her head violent. There is absolutely no effect though.

I was Celie from the Color Purple, and I was on the porch with Albert. I was wearing an outfit that I think she actually wore at some point during the movie, a blue plaid dress with an apron. the porch was mostly white, with a few chairs on it. It was outline by those fenclike porch things, with an opening in the middle direcly in front of the door, leading to the stairs. I didn't see from Celie's point of view, though I was her. My point of view was as if I was standing in from the viewpoint of someone standing in front of the porch, so that the porch, the house, and some of the surroundings of the house were in my field of vision. The house, as far as I remember,was outlined in white at the top, though there might have been some grass at the bottom.

I was serving him in some inspecific way, I could have been getting him water or something. Then, for some reason, the situation changed. All of a sudden, I told him "You're my servant now" or something like that. We were going to switch positions. He looked shocked and kind of angry when I said that, but he respected whatever authority I based my decision upon. I can't remember what that authority was or why the situation changed like that, but it did.

His clothes changed from the lounge-wear he had on before to clothes more similar to what I was wearing. Then, I thought about changing my clothes to reflect our new relative positions. I thought about my red dress and went into the house to find it and put it on.

Now, my point of view is Ceile's point of view. I go into the house, and what's inside is an extreme version of the living area of the suite I live in at college. My point of view is the same as if I'm entering my suite from the only door there is to enter the suite, although the doorway view isn't obstructed by one of the walls that make up the bathroom like it is in real life, and it's dead in the center of the suite instead of being closer to the left side.
I don't see the couches, the tables, or the microwave, though I do see a tall tan lamp (which we don't actually have in real life). The floorspace is way bigger, with the same green, brown, and other color carpet. However, all the doors to each suite are elevated: stairs run up the left and right sides of the suite to lead to the doors that lead to the two rooms. However, the positions are switched. Me and my roommate, on the left in real life, are now on the right, while the other two are now on the left.

As I come in, Olivia comes down the stairs from our room, smiling like she was just laughing about something. I think I asked her where the dress was, and she shrugged her shoulders or said I should just check my room. In any case, I checked my room and I couldnt find it. I headed up the stairs to the other room and Olivia said something like "it might be in there" but I didn't want to go through anyone else's stuff to check. So, basically, I never found the dress.

Something was going on in the dorm tho. I think I had made the transition from being Ceilie to being myself. There was something going on over the intercom that led me and Olivia to try and find these four thin, metal, pointed things that were hollow and apparently functioned as pens. We found the four, and we headed to this new place.

The new place had the floor and ceiling pattern of a cafeteria. There were tables right next to some railing, as if there were some stairs next to us and another floor below us, though I never saw that part. I was trying to find a table, and I looked where Olivia sat and found that all those seats had been immediately occupied by her friends, and I felt kind of sad. Then, I looked and found that tables were quickly filling up, and I hurried to find a seat.

I ended up sitting with that white girl from school that was the daughter of the healthcare teacher and her friend. I was not happy to be there, but they were nice enough. I still had all four pens, and Olivia needed two, so when we made eye contact across the room, I hurried over. Her face was so small: I didn't realize how far away from her table I had traveled. I handed her the two pens, and when I got back to my table, I see the white chick drawing with my pens, as if she's checking to see if they work.

Dream about playing basketball again for coach Bryant and coach Atkinson. Rocky was on the team and dad came to watch. We were playing a shitty team but I only played first five mins then he took me about despite playing well. In some wierd court in like a ring below. My dad left at halftime because he couldn't stand the game and encouraged me to do the same. Then at half we started traveling to another game and had to apparently rode a train to get there. I had to pee and finally found a place where I peed for like 5 mins long. Then dream then transformed into something weirder. I was traveling around the whole dream setting in a mini train and the dream setting had different aisles of food which I sometimes grabbed. Hannes was also there.

Dream that I had to break up with Michi because she cheated on me with some random guy four times in an Ikea bed. Then we started talking about it at grandma G's house where a family party was taking place. We started inside but it was too loud so we moved outside near the lake when I started hearing aunt Stacy and my sister arguing over whose family makes more money. I took it really personally then yelled at them but they said they were only joking and looked really offended so I told them I'm just heated because of the breakup.

The dream takes place at the 15th Street house as some sort of reunion for all of the Mount Carmel classmates I had. John, Luke B, Jippy, and Lawrence are there and everyone is drinking and having a good time. We decide to all take an aerial picture of the class using a drone as a big group. Suddenly Jippy starts throwing punches at John C. John tackles him and lands some big punches essentially knocking him out. Then Luke. starts to attack Lawrence and even says he is on drugs. Lawrence beats him up pretty good and I then break up the fight. Luke tries to attack me but I tell him I don't want to fight and we shake hands. After the fight some girl comes up to me and says she is Luke's drug dealer and needs compensation for the fight. She also knows my sister and decides to call her to ask if she can get a blue something at a weird apartment with the same address as the 15th Street house. I call my sister to no avail and my mom picks me up from the party. We head to that apartment and on the way see Luke with his brother speaking fluent Spanish walking to the left of us. Several cop cars drive around us and we take a right. As we near the apartment, Luke comes at the car with a bat trying the break the windshield. My mom has her left window down so I tell her to roll it up and that she needs to run him over when he tries again. She does but almost rolls into the opposite lane with oncoming traffic. She gets ready to try again when I see Lawrence approaching Luke. Interestingly the road we are driving is closed off. I then wake up.

Last night bed around 8:30pm - 3:30am

DR:

I'm standing on a sidewalk where a bus top used to be, in front of the Bulgarian's house. I may be talking to someone in a truck. Another, white pickup drives by and as it slows down, it starts to aim and shoot some kind of a weapon. They stop in front of the car, one guy gets out and gets in a passenger seat of a truck they have been shooting at. They drive off with that driver still in a car, while I think passenger went to the attackers car. They are being kidnapped.

As soon as this started, I duck and sneak around the corner and I turn one more corner to get away and I hope they won't see me. I hope they were not after me. I watch them from behind the bushes.

Now I am at my friends house. They redid their living room into a restaurant. People are also sitting at the bar in other room at their house, which I thought they remodeled so they can live there.

The dream starts with an insanely present moment. I can't call it lucid because I didn't bother to check, it was so real. I'm hanging out with my parents in their bedroom, and some random super sexy girl who I'm somehow connected with through school is with us. She's lying on the bed and my parents are talking about how we need to get on a flight with some alumni and go visit a retreat, but I'm just resting my head on this girls boobs like a pillow and I'm at absolute 100% comfiness. I come into full presence and actively try to store the memory of how comfy I am without every wondering if it is supernatural. We get on the flight, and it ends up slowly crash landing in a town somewhere. In the town we all go and chill in a park while they fix the plane, and some methheads come attack us and we fend them off. I realize the plane will never leave in time, so I sprint across town to the only car2go left and snag it. As I get in, a girl gets in on the passenger side thinking it's hers. She's from my highschool and wearing a nuniform so I just pull seniority on her and take the car. I start ripping it full speed on the highway when I go off the road. When I swerve back on, I cut off a pickup truck that swerved and slammed into a family SUV killing everybody. I am totally freaked out by this so I floor it, but all the cars around me are waving at me to stay with the accident. Fuck that shit, I didn't touch anyone so I'm just booking it out of town. I never took the pedal off the floor after that until I got back to the city.

17-Dec-2016 - WILD + 2 OBEs - Explore town, become a giant

Wake up ~6AM, no ND recall, I attempt a WILD

WILD
Several short scenes. In the longest part I am reading a "magic" book sitting on a chair in my tower. Then I fall asleep

OBE #1 I am in my bed, on my wife's side, head resting at feet side. I am shaking uncontrollably, teeth chattering. I know I can exit my body
I need to put a lot of force to get up, but I manage to do it. Bedroom is dark; I move to the living room, everything is still quite dark but I can see a bit; Xmas tree is not there. I go to the curtains and phase through them. I am in a nice town, although not my usual one, it looks more historical, with low stone houses, a cobblestone road, small gardens with pink and violet flowers. I fly slow and low on this town, I cannot help looking in awe at this place, which looks extremely real (waking note: although empty). I pass by a low stone wall and a flower bush; I decide going back to take a second look, but when I do, the scene is a bit different; I think, no wonder, since I am dreaming. There is also a well, I approach it; dream recall fades here

OBE #2 I am in my bed, same side as before, again shaking and teeth chattering. I know I can exit my body again, good ! I exit, easily this time. Again, bedroom is dark. This time I exit phasing directly through bedroom curtain. I find a town, not exactly mine, but more similar to it than latest LD. I think about the DHL Month 5 clone task. My SC does some mix and match here: for some reason I want to become a giant tree. I reach an open area and focus on increasing my body size. It works well, and I can feel my arm enlarging, my legs too, then my torso.

I am inside a building now. I look for a mirror, expecting to look like a tree-man, but I see something totally different: I am still human, my face is different, my clothing is asymmetrical, wearing red/grey robe on one side and a brown coat on the other. This is strange. I attempt looking at myself again, strongly expecting to look like a tree-man, but the result is very similar as before. I stop caring about it.

I am outside again, trees look very small below me, I eradicate some with my hands just to feel the power, I can feel the trunk and branches under my hands. Then I kick one very far away. Nice. I feel ready to fight.
I see a corridor now, a door to my left. I open it. It reveals a bedroom, my wife is in the bed; from here the subject becomes very different, not going to post details. Then dream fades.

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18-Dec-2016 - 3 ND - Horror circus - In the city - Skyrim + WILD - DHL clone fight

ND #1 - Horror circus 3AM
This ND has a deep horror theme, when I wake up I am quite unsettled by it, so I write it down, but try not to recall too much detail. I am successful in this selective erasing...

A building shaped like a castle houses a sort of circus. I free someone / something from the corner towers. I kill / main some evil people. At the back of the building, I use a giant balloon to go up, do something, then down again. There are fires around. I try to hide and escape from evil guys. Helping people reach the place, although I cannot meet them. I am successful in saving myself.
<JUMP>
I am half-looking-at-TV / half-remembering the scene of a dog who gets pushed through a path of raised stones, by some yellow moving / elevating rocks. I explain this to my son

ND #2 - In the city ~5AM ?
I am in an American city with C, looks like Chicago-ish. I am leading the way, although he knows the place better than me (FM?)
On the way I notice how the big buildings' shadows keep the place dark. Only in a spot, sunlight is passing through the space between some buildings. I look for the sun, but cannot find it (!!)
We reach our destination, a small square close to a big arch. I tell him I was sure I was somehow able to get there.

ND #3 - Skyrim ~6AM
I am half-inside / half-playing TES V - Skyrim. I am in a secret / Easter Egg dungeon. I know that the next room is an Oblivion (TES IV) citation. I find it, looks like a kitchen open on woods. A music starts, I remember it's from Oblivion (false - I think it comes from Dragon Trainer cartoon instead). I show it to my son. I reach the room, it's quite empty, made of bright wood. I observe the minute details of the furniture and remember how much time I spent there in Oblivion (I don't think that room exist in the game at all)

WILD - Skyrim, Become a dragon, Fight DHL Sensei clone 6:45 AM
I start from previous dreams. I become a dragon in Skyrim, gradually morphing, feel the spine changing shape and vertebres lenghtening. First I become a version with wings and no forearms and flap my arms/wings, then I become a winged four-legged version, cannot "feel" wings but fly well.
After some wandering around and dream stabilization, I recall the DHL clone fight task.

I reach a small city, covered in snow. To my left a small wooden granary. A newborn baby is there, it's cute, wearing just a camisole. While I am looking at it, it morphs into a black wolf and assaults me ! I don't want to kill it, remembering it's a baby. I use a "calm" spell, having a green aura around my hand, keep my hand on top of its head while not getting bitten. After some time, it stops attacking, then it returns to its child appearance.
A mad scientist talks from some speaker around that he's doing some tests, and that one worked well. I get angry at him.
I tell him I killed the Mad Scientist last time (actually false, I just stopped it), he answers the world is full of Mad Scientists. Hmmm, I suppose he's got a point there... He also tells me he's got some challenges for me.

I go to the right, the town continues that side. There as a snow-covered clearing. When I reach it, I fall down a narrow pit. I look up, I see the square of light getting small, look down and see the ground getting close. I hit the ground violently, but no pain arises.
When I get up I am in a small room, the walls lined with coffins / cages. A bear comes out one of those, I kill it with my sword. Then some walking dead (draugr in Skyrim), which I kill with sword and fire. Then other creatures attack me, I dispatch them easily.
<JUMP>
I want to fight the clone in a more "modern" environment, so I try summoning a modern city. I am partially successful, I am there, but it's kinda blocky / empty, but soon I find myself in the small snowy town.
Then the Mad Scientist unlashses its strongest weapon against me. He tells me he's chosen to clone DHL Sensei hero to kill me, his sword is indestructable and he can power himself at will. On top of that, he has made some improvements to it !

A guy in a suit runs with ultra-speed towards me, hits me like a truck, I drop on the ground. His suit is white and dark blue. When I get up, it uses his sword against me, I parry with my sword. He uses super-strength to push through my block and throws me on the ground again. I roll on the side, then use my sword to chop the lower part of his legs off. The leg and feet regrow at insane speed. Now I understand what the scientist meant by improvements. This is going to be tough !

I draw my black bow, but he's too fast and before I can shoot, he's on my with super-speed again.
I punch him hard and he staggers. I use some fire spells on him, charring his suit and face. He recovers from that very quickly, and is up in no time.
Need to change tactics: I open a door to the Oblivion realm, looks like a violet circle on the ground, and summon a Frost Atronach (an elemental). He sets his sword on fire and hits the Frost Atronach, melting its hands, the sword flames go off, the Atronach is destroyed.
I summon a black wolf, use my prokinesis to set it on fire and unleash it on the enemy.
The firey wolf fights hard with claws and teeth, but gets beaten hard by the enemy, I lose track of it.

The clone comes to me. Running at super-speed in a circle around me, he creates a dust tornado.
I aim my bow randomly at the dust in front of me, reasoning that since he's so fast I may hit him by chance, which happens but to small effect.

Then I summon a small wyvern close to me; it spreads a green venom cloud in the air, which mixes with the dust cloud.
Evidently this has an effect on the enemy, which slows down his speed, then stops.
I draw my bow, and start firing arrows at him. One, two, three, ten. I pin him to the ground, close to a rock wall.
For every arrow that he removes from his body, two more hit him.
I take few seconds to summon another Frost Atronach; the ice giant further slows him.
More volleys of arrows finally drain his energy; he's laying on the floor exhausted.

I hear the Mad Scientist mocking me; I will not be able to kill him because of his immense regeneration skills.
Again, he's got a point, but I get an idea.

Spoiler for Violence:

I push my hand through his chest and grab his heart. Then I feed it, still beating, to the black wolf, which devours it.

I win.

My next target is the (second) Mad Scientist himself. With the technology he's got, I am seriously worried for the people of the dream world.
I track his lab, but when I am inside this modern, hospital-looking building, the dream fades...

<JUMP>

WILD #2 - Short. I see three faces. I focus one, a white man with short black beard and a hint of Asian features. I deeply observe his face features, amazed by the stability.

After being non lucid for a considerable amount of time I became lucid while spotting a family guy bag hanging from a pole outside a shop. We were actually there to christmas shop but I decided to change things and see if I could find a gift for Dawn as a dream task.It sounds easy but with the way settings and objects change it can actually be kind of challenging for me.As I was looking I saw a yellow bag that caught my eye but continued following the dc who was supposed to be my brother. Except he was wearing a black hood so I couldn't see his face anymore. The dc walked me into a mall where I took a look around.

As I was looking I saw a bunch of women picking out candy from a rack."Chocolate?"I thought picking up one with a huge elongated pole dispenser on it."Nope, too weird". I than put it back and kept looking until a women who felt familiar came to me and asked why I was going to spend money on a gift when I could just buy whatever snacks I wanted with it.

What she said made me rethink what I was doing but when I looked to the girls picking chocolates off the rack I thought it was valentines day and that I was supposed to give my guide chocolates like in Japanese anime. "No. I need to find the heart shape chocolate"I told her, convinced that it was something I must do. The women sighed than grabbed my hand."Alright,follow me" than walked me out of the mall and showed me the way into another store.We ended up in a small supermarket where an old man who owned the place was organizing food stuff.

The women went looking near the man while I checked the shelfs and decided to get peanuts for a snack. I than walked around for a bit till the women came up to me and said that they didn't have what I wanted. "No! We have to find it! Take me to a pharmacy instead!" I told her. She took my hands and showed me the way outside. As she did I thought about how long I had been in the dream and how great it was that i had been lucid for a while.But after I entered another shop with her I woke up.


(Pic is from an anime)

I try and take a box of a raving psychopathic man. This box, when opened, will destroy the world. I fail and run. I find my self in a dark room and a woman comes to me. She tries to help me, but I start spasming as the radiation from the box being opened IN THE FUTURE travels through time and touches me. She gives up, and leaves. Suddenly the light is turned on and thugs enter the room, and start eating at a table. I must hide. I hide in the toliet. It stinks terribly. The woman comes back and feeds me some salmon. Suddenly, ghe room starts shaking and all is destroyed.
I am thrown into a different world. It feels cold and not a 'rich' as the previous. It feels grey. I am being shown the contruction of a library. I feel depressed.

Last night bed 9:30pm - 3:30am

Remembered 3 dreams from last night

DR 1:
This one was a bit abstract. But I was above some water with deep sandy sides, like a quarry filled with water. I was bout to get into my spaceship, but first I had to do something. I threw some small shining ball made of energy down, it was suppose to do something spectacular. Someone with me said it's doing it, but I didn't really see it.

DR2:
Somebody, maybe aliens are releasing these tiny tiny bugs. They are suppose to come ot of the vents soon.

DR3:
I'm in a store and the sales person brought some shirts for me to try. I tell my mom, that they are all male and looks like she just grabbed the first ones she saw on the rack. I went and picked some that looked better.

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INT. CHURCH - DAY

A breakfast of pastries, cheesecakes, and cobblers on two right-angled tables with white tablecloths invites a crowd of diners. They mill about indecisively while women stand ready to dish out the food with plastic spatulas.

A white inclined plane appears in space. I rest on it. Suddenly it turns on a hinge. My astral body falls with that familiar jolt. Still conscious enough to self observe, i smile in my half sleep, recognizing what just happened: "Ah yes, that might have been an OBE!"