non-lucid

Created Wednesday 07 December 2016

Numerous dreams identified, including three DILDs, though I can't recall much of the non-LDs.

Scrap Group 1
Walking around my neighborhood. I start thinking of dream signs. This includes being back in highschool and doing poorly in a science class.

Dream 1 - TOTM Advanced Task I - Take 1

False awakening in the master bedroom. After lingering thoughts on previous dreams, I realized the dream state. Made a breath test to confirm as much, which was inconclusive. So, I fell off, and slowly floated down to the floor. That'll do it.

Then, I began "powering up", yelling as I did. There was no clear sign this was working. In fact, I felt I was getting weaker the longer I tried, so I stopped.

Remembered the spinning TOTM. I hovered, and tried spinning in place, but this was likewise exhausting. Within seconds, I was out of breath, and lost grasp of the dream.

Scrap Group 2
More false awakenings in the same location.

Dream 2 - TOTM Advanced Task I - Take 2

False awakening in my bedroom. I stand near the mirror, and try taking my sleeping mask off, only to have it magically slide back on. Clearly, I was dreaming. Still couldn't remove the mask though, so I ignored it.

Before continuing, I rubbed my hands for 10 seconds. Then, I tried that TOTM again. As before, I strained myself trying to spin in place. Thus, I ignored physical movement in favor of willing myself to do as much, yielding much better results.

Cut. I'm flying in a night sky. Dire storm clouds were immediately below me, spinning steadily into a fledgeling tornado. This all felt sorta damp and stuffy. I fall intentionally. Just then, the clouds formed into a creepy robot face. Kinda startling, but I dove in anyway.

Another warp. Projected holographically ahead of me was an unlit plane, the floors formed of dim gridlines. Suddenly, demonic shadows appear. Only their glowing yellow eyes were clearly visible. I had control of a small robot, and commanded it to off to a corner. Tried brightening the place up for a better look, but didn't manage that. Tried brightening the place up for a better look, but didn't manage that.

By then, I noticed my left eye was fast shut. In my attempts to wrench it open, I feel myself in bed, and awaken soon afterwards.

Scrap Group 3

False awakening. Walk down to the living room, where dad and Carl lingered around. Then, they announce finding a bat and hawk in the backyard. That sounded exceedingly unlikely. I realized the dream state, but wake up soon afterwards.

False awakening in bed. An unknown person slid their hand over my face, hampering my breathing. I realized the state, and tried imagining who would be responsible. The dream simply collapses soon afterwards.

I'm starting to finally feel the effects of the work I've put in towards lucid dreaming; I'm starting to remember my dreams more often, and I can say with certainty that I'm well on my way to a lucid. Anyway, on to the dream.
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I don't know what the entry point of the dream was, or if it just started out with this. I was looking for a shiny minior, my favorite Pokemon, and I was running from fights, when a minior appeared. I was about to run from it, when I noticed the shiny animation. I got rather excited, and took a good, long look at it. It was just like a normal minior, but its spikes were brown, which was unusual. Upon looking at them, they turned back to the normal white. The minior's shell had unusual cracks too, barely revealing the Pokemon inside. I switch to the pokeballs. I amuse myself with the thought of using the masterball on it, but decided against it. I forget what ball I used, but I caught it. The dream switches to me, as I open my phone to brag at my kik group chat. I wake up to my alarm, and have a failed WBTB.
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Strangely enough, for the first time that I can remember in a dream, I acted exactly how I would if this had happened whilst I was awake.

Non-lucid – Notes – lucid – Interpretation

“Imprinting a tiger”

In the dusk I find myself walking into a garden. Et is elongated and narrow and towards the end there is a house. I look to my right into the hedge. At the grass I see a female duck and below her chest a small duckling that soon meets my eye. As we lock our eyes together the duckling starts a trip out into the uncut grass towards where I am now sat down. Behind it follows it’s mother, trying to establish contact with little luck as it seems the duckling has already imprinted me as its mother.

I feel both excited and ashamed. I feel guilty for robbing the duck of the chance to bond with its off spring, but also excited and joyful of my own bonding with the creature. I look down at its little beak and let it push its body against my knees and one of my hands. Then I look up at its mother and try and stroke its chest. It lets me, but with an air of calculative anticipation and scepticism, which makes me apprehensive, if persistent.

I then look down again at the duckling. I don’t recognise the absurdity that the creature has now transformed into a miniature Tiger of maybe 10-12 cm in length and is crawling about on my right thigh. When I look up at the mother duck again to explain that I am deeply sorry that I have stolen her chance to bond with her infant.

When I look up mother duck is now wearing glasses and a pearl necklace, and quite frankly it would be impossible to describe if she looks more like a duck than a human. She explains “That is OK I had a clutch 3 months ago.” and frankly she sounds relieved.

“Travelling in trains with Liv”

Fragment:

I am standing on a lengthy and wide platform on a train station. It is morning and the lighting foretells of a sunny day, which has yet to breach the foggy clouds above and around. It seems like late spring or summer. I am standing with Liv and we are going somewhere. The conversation we are having is about finding the right train.

There is more to the dream, though I recall nothing but this fragment.

“Getting to the shore, 4 metal objects in the water”

Fragment:

I am on the water. The sun is bright and the ocean water which I am on is very bright and lightly blue. Up ahead I see a beach, a wide and almost white sandy beach. I think my Dad is there with me and he asks:

“Do you remember us being here?”

I look up towards the right and in the distance gaze upon a little island around 50-100 metres from the shore. As the foliage behind the beach the island is covered in lustrous trees and other greenery. I remember this place, I have indeed been here before.

(In writing this I recall a dream of way back, perhaps detailed somewhere within this journal. I am in Holstebro, where we throw our family reunions, and as I walk down the forest pathway that in waking life take you to the river in the dream it takes me to a cove. From this cove I rush across the open water to an Island, which is the one I see in this dream.)

I jump out in to the water and submerge myself. Light penetrates the surface and everything looks very bright, if blurry beneath. I loose four metal objects I have in my pocket and for a moment worry if I still have my phone in my pocket. I check that it is empty and then sweep the sand below and pull up the objects, where one of them is a key. Then I head for the beach.

End of dream/recall

I am literally running from the law for kissing someone.
BREAK
I am now IN a game where you are an animal. You have to reproduce and look after your children until they reach adulthood. I choose to lay eggs instead of have birth, but they are eaten by Olivids.
Olivids are small invasive egg eating birds. I then kill and eat them, and they taste like salmon.

My brother is staying in a house, with white walls, low ceiling and a large collection of vinyl records stacked to one side. My brother and sisters are telling me I may inherit my parents house. And i am filled with relief at the possibility of having a home. there is a music concert going on.

At a conference, I am organising there are loads of groups gathered. At one table their are people with an old style mini-computer which I try to connect with a usb connected to a big silicon chip. A red gauge keeps showing to say out of juice. At another area kids are riding on pretend animals, I help put the animal covers back on. Next there is a table with kids from my school one is eating dorrttose and cream (spooky as today I was offered something like this Oo),

Non-Lucid Dream, Wednesday, December 7, 2016:

I am with an older man on the streets of an early-industrial city (pre electricity, few motor vehicles). His name is John Whitstone. The atmosphere is generally dark and dirty; the city is packed tight. We end up down a wider alleyway, where we see some kind of mob meeting. Obviously criminal in nature. Then the authorities come and break it up, arresting John. They begin holding a mass trial in the alley, with a long line of prisoners. I've become a witness. "Be careful what you say..." whispers one of the other witnesses. First up is a young lady. I don't recall her crime, something to do with magic, but she testifies for her own innocence beautifully. I actually get a bit emotional over it all. But the guard knocks her down a pit, presumably to her death. "Real justice this is," I think to myself. Then John's "trial" begins. The judge refers to him by my (in dream) name, which I do not recall. Immediately, I object: "There must be a mistake, as I am (name here). This man is John Whitstone!" The judge seems barely interested, but stops to question me. "You are (name here)? And he is 'John Whitstone'?" He seems indignant that I would question the court. "YES, he is John Whitstone," I reply, "John Whitstone!"

I awake.

Spoiler for Notes:

I am not really sure what prompted this dream, if anything. But somehow it struck me more than a dream usually does.

Volcano
I'm at what is supposed to be the volcano Kawah Ijen with my friend Caro. We're doing the descent down into the crater right now. Along the way I spot what looks like a smartphone (HTC?) with a cracked screen. I wonder if it is still working. It is attached to a tall rock. Caro has a look. Yup, still functioning. From one moment to the next, the screen is suddenly a lot bigger. It's pretty much my size. I intent to take it with me once we go back off the volcano. I see/hear some other people approaching. Hopefully no one else tries to take it. Then I notice that there's a brand sign above it (Sony?). Ah, it's an ad. Ok, I'll leave it here then. We continue walking. I see more ads and related things. I'm appalled by how commercialised the volcano has become. It used to be so beautiful and natural.

We come to a room. Caro tells me that she is excited to see the blue fire. I tell her that you can only see the blue fire at night, so we won't see it. I look at my phone. It's just past midnight. Ah, guess we'll get to see it after all. There's a hole which is covered by a moving wooden floor, which is partially see through. I tell Caro that it didn't use to be here and that you could see the hole directly. I tell her to look at the red eye - which reminds me of a dragon's eye - below the floor. The blue fire will come from there. Every once in a while the moving floor moves away from the hole. There's a wooden bench close to it, on which Caro sits down. I tell her I wouldn't do it. At some point a dog approaches her - from the hole? - and starts licking her face. Gross.

We're moving around this room a bit. Eventually I think we end up watching a movie? There's some other people and I become sort of close with a girl. There's some mention of points that we can earn somehow and having to hide points.

Pick up
I'm at what's supposed to be my place. Irti has sent me a message, asking me to pick her up from somewhere north of the city. I tell her I would if I could, but I don't have a motorcycle right now, so it's kinda impossible. I consider asking the guard to borrow his. Nahh. I also consider using the bicycle to get up there. No that's rather pointless - and would take forever.

Eventually further along the dream it is my mom who was up there and needed help. She made it down though. She tells me it was just a few hundred metres. That doesn't sound right to me. A few hundred metres and then what?

Bed at 9pm last night - 3:40am

I watched the end of Hunger games again last night. Day ago I had a dream with element from that movie and I was hopong for another one. And I did!

I'm in a class, doing some tests. Lot's of papers in front of me. But someone interrupts and he takes us for some other more important activity.

I'm standing by a wall with some others and a teacher or a coach. I reach up and I can reach quite high. Surprised by this, I reach even higher and I can reach and higher again. (I was surprised and kinda wondering, how come). Almost touching the ceiling now. The coach was impressed so I tell him "I stretch". And he want's me to practice and then participate in some sporting event, because now I'm telling him I am good at archery and running too. I think it's gonna be a decathlon 0_0

He hands me a bow and arrow set. It's all black. (I remember admiring the arrows in Hunger games yesterday. All black with a narow silver band by the feathers).

I am in Fussen, Germany. Duplicates of Neuschwanstein Castle surround me. Why is my dreaming self so stupid and not realise how ridiculous it was. I then take plane trips all around the world. Eventually, I am loaded onto a rocket and lauched to a crowded space station. I feel I have special piority for room, but no body pays attention.

A vague dream about being bullied...
Oh, I have stopped the bizarre 'rituals'.
A 'voice' in my head says I have do certain things in waking life to have a lucid, and the results are a blank head when waking up. I did not listen to it, and my dreams are back.

I had one dream that was interrupted by my phone but I did get this other one.

I was w/ Mike & I was supposed to be going to my Grandma's house & showing Mike around because he had never been there but he'd heard stories about it. So we showed up & a man came out & told me that she didn't live there anymore which is true IRL. I just couldn't leave. I kept walking around it & trying to look inside & outside. I was desperately still looking for things to still be the same but it just wasn't of course. I spent a lot of time in this dream but in the end it just eventually dissolved.

I'm sure this was because my uncle just died & my aunt posted a memorial page for him w/ a bunch of pics. Hence, memory lane was a bi-product. Kind of bittersweet. Not to mention that I just talked to my grandmother for the first time in a million yrs because my uncle died. I didn't want to for personal reasons but I was raised better than that & her son just died & I knew it was the right thing to do. As a result it turned out to be better than I thought. Not ideal but I feel it was a weight lifted off my chest that I didn't even realize was there.

Had a dream of my Cat eating Mango and than sitting in a pot in the sink and washing it. I wanted to take a picture but when she saw the flash she got out of the pot.

I am traveling with my mother, my sister and her child, and possibly someone else to see Jon Anderson and Todmobile in concert. We arrive at this place that does not seem at all like any sort of proper concert hall. It seems more like a small entry way with windows behind us. We are right in front and are able to interact with the performers. Todmobile is playing some sort of impossible instrument. It’s rather difficult to describe. It has a spongy, fluid texture, and it moves downward like a spiral staircase. I think I remember playing it like you would a vibraphone, but it was huge and in constant motion. Colors changed on its surface, and I remember enjoying the sound it produced. Our cousins are also at this performance, as is my uncle. I know there was so much more to this dream, but that is all I can remember.

For the last two nights, I had been attempting to recreate the circumstances which enabled my initial “one that I’ve been waiting for” dream. So this involves taking NyQuil and Ibuprofen, and I also downed apple juice in hopes of greater vividness. It has not produced similar results. I know I’ve been dreaming, but they have in no way been nearly as profound or memorable as that first one. It seems to me a typical case of trying to reproduce something amazing that occurred without any effort or preconceptions. I’ve even been listening to the same album I did that first night. But I admit, this has been a rather foolish endeavor. The feelings and symbols I experienced in that first dream I cannot hope to experience again by means of forcing it to happen. It happened somewhat naturally, it seems. I can only wait for the next time.

I was in a classroom with lots of teenagers they were walking about and had music on. I had my eyes everywhere checking they were not up to anything. Some were at desks. One had money that I was collecting. I was too worried , out of proportion to what was going on. I was stressed for no reason.

Dream seems to be telling me to calm down

This is a fragment of a dream last night which felt like it lasted only a few minutes but it's worth noting down I think.

I was with a friend (I'll refer to him as Jace) and we had a job assigned to us. For that reason, we were standing at a body of water and went in and swam down to the bottom (wasn't that deep, maybe 4-5 meters or so). At the bottom, Jace had to hold what I think were torches and I had to light them by using matches. While doing this, it occurred to me that fire is a weird thing underwater. I then remarked this to Jace, exclaiming it's really weird to have fire when submerged in water. Jace answered this along the lines of "Yeah, I guess that's kinda unusual, huh?". I still thought it was incredibly weird but I went on anyway, not really questioning what was going on and woke up soon after.

Damn dream characters never seem to lend a hand every now and then to get lucid. Oh well.

Dinner
I'm having dinner with four friends: Jim, Janet, Fi and Rei. We're sitting at a proper restaurant table. Rei decides to leave. We're somewhere up in the northern part of the city. There's a banner on one of the walls, saying we'll get a student discount if we're using student health insurance from a certain healthcare insurance company, which I happen to have. Somehow the waitress messes it up a bit and gives us a bill without the discount. We have her correct it. I think it's Fi who says something about the waitress being stupid, but not to her face.

New job
I've just landed a new job and this is my second day. I'm late by about 1,5 hour. The female boss is not too pleased with me. I think I was late because I had to pick up my passport and they made me wait, though I'm not certain of this. I have no clue what to do on this job. No one has given me anything to do, so I'm just trying to fill time. At one point I'm watching a movie. There's a spiderlike man creature that my colleagues were trying to defeat earlier. I decide to look up info on natural enemies, so it can help us to defeat the creature. My phone is not cooperating very much. At first I Google in English, with no results. I then try to search in Dutch.

Job
I'm with my friend Tim. He mentions that he's spotted a job vacancy for me. I ask him about it, also asking if he thinks I'm qualified enough for it. I don't remember his answer to that. One of the things he does mention is that he can't apply because he will be in India. Heh, India?