non-lucid

2-Dec-2016 - ND Go to the space colony + WILD/DILD - Supermarket, Rift

ND: I am on a spaceship, travelling to a space colony (!!!). There is someone with me, may be an advanced AI instead than a person (!!!). I know that the person that was already at the colony died there, and we have to do stuff there with this dead body around (!!!). I discuss with the AI on how to retrieve some 'bozo' (?), a drug, that would help in keeping this situation manageable

I wake up 5:30 AM, attempt WILD starting from above dream, it works
WILD: I reach the space colony, looks like some DooM environment. I do stuff in there, unfortunately poor recall, dream fades

ND:I am with my son, in a supermarket inside a bigger mall. My wife, past the cash desk, passes me some cooking oil, I question the choice. Me and my son walk on, I recognize a song by Metallica, we walk over a conveyor and reach another cash desk.
DILD: I say to myself: "But since this is a dream, why do I keep doing this stupid and boring stuff ?
I should be doing something exciting and dangerous."

I also mention that since this is a dream, I don't have to worry about leaving my son unattended or abandoning my wife.
I walk outside the mall, which is now empty.

I summon a rift; I am on a tiny ledge by a vertical rock wall, below me a very deep chasm. I walk the ledge for some time. Then I summon a decently large stone walkway in front of me, which gradually appears block by block
After I walk for some time on the walkway, I levitate down, reaching the bottom of the rift.
I notice it's brighter than I expected. Dream quickly fades

I wake up 6AM

Gojek gone wrong
I’m in a shop, together with the gojek driver that took me here. He’s asking me to pay for my ride. What? No, I’m using go-pay, so it’s handled automatically. He informs me that there’s an issue and shows me his phone. The ride was only supposed to be Rp. 4.000, but somehow the price changed to around Rp. 70.000 and I'm now significantly in the minus. I'm discussing the matter with the driver, though I'm not certain whether it's in English or in Indonesian. I use my phone as well to check up on my account. My battery is nearly empty though and I don't have a charger with me. Perhaps I could borrow one from this store without actually having to buy it? I'm in the Hema. I realise that I have a cable from this store myself.

Uber
I'm with Caro and I believe Cam. We enter a car. Caro is the one driving. We're driving on the left side of the road. Considering that she is not used to this, I think Caro is doing a pretty good job. She is working for Uber right now, performing the same function as Rei. She says she is filling in for.. Emily(?) today. She also has a laptop with her in the car. She is wearing something of a vest that has Uber written on it. She decides to take it off, because Uber might not be allowed here. She makes a u-turn to take us back to our starting point. After going straight for a while, she overshoots and needs to make another u-turn. I tell her she did a great job driving. Just make less u-turns. She doesn't look very pleased at me.

Mall chase
The feeling of this dream is very unpleasant. I'm in a mall in Kuala Lumpur. I'm buying something from a food vendor, but he rips me off. I don't get what I paid for. I try to get my money back, but that's not happening. I end up using physical force. I think I give the guy a shove. I quickly realise my mistake and make a run for it. A girl comes after me. She's not chasing me very fast, but she is following me everywhere I go. It's intimidating and I need to get away from her. At the end I consider that my only option is to get out of this mall. Take the LRT to Chinatown.

Nov/12/13

Winter day. I'm in a place similar to a park, people walk on the paths, hilly snowy terrain, no many trees. I was moving quickly, flying close the ground, and lucidity comes in this. Continue to enjoy flight, fly almost touching the snow, flew over the hills, felt that I overcome the law of gravity. I was approached by someone, who is not a man, it seems it was the thing who spoke - children's toy :) and ask me "how are you move like that?" I said "this is my dream, and I do what I want". Then it all becomes into some nonsense, I was lying on the snow with this toy and we are communicate someway... and in this I lost my awareness. I'm going down the hill to a small town, got into the house, in it I find a girl and started to have fun with her. I have small understanding that this is a dream. She resisted, but not much, not screaming, and she said that her boyfriend came, warned me in advance. I held her and we hide behind the wall, she is silent. I got from somewhere a syringe with tranquilizer! Guy went near, I injected him in the back, and he immediately falling to sleep, fell down, but not completely asleep, again injected him in the head, and he passed out. I said to girl that when he wake up, nothing will be remembered. Funny that she was glad all this and we continued fun with her.

Not a lucid dream in the slightest:



There's a room with a large table. About eight people are sitting around that table, two seats are empty. One is mine.

Everyone is discussing the lucidity of this dream. They're talking about how they are all successfully lucid.

They also have LD apps on their phones and everyone ticks 'I am dreaming' to confirm.

I'm looking for the last person and I find him in the kitchen. He's standing in front of the fridge with his back to me, pigging out on a large bucket of ice cream.

"Dude, come on. Everyone's waiting for you only." I say. He looks at me with astonishing lack of interest, shrugs his shoulders and says "Whatever."

I'm trying to explain that without everyone present at the table the dream can't go full lucid.

He says "Yep, too bad," turns back to the fridge and continues munching on the ice cream.

I start cursing and go back to the previous room. Everyone looks at me as I enter. "Sorry guys, he's not coming." I say.

They are visibly disappointed. After a few seconds of silence someone says "Well f**k this. We might as well wake up then."

And yep, I wake up.

D1 - I awake in a room where the light is just coming in through the window, dawn. I am being held by a small smiling child but his father and other mini hims (lol) are in the bed. And so I tell him to cuddle his father instead.
I go to find a toilet but when I get there I find it is all glass and there are some people sleeping just outside from the night before. They awake and are hostile as they are poor and think i am rich person living in this big house. They turn on all the water systems for a load of swimming pools. There is loud crashing roaring sound as water pours through pipes. People are starting to gather in the pools as I head back. I feel trapped by the sound. (I have learnt it is my fear of my emotions crashing out of control and escaping).
I am lost and don't know which way is back in the white corridors which have doors and lead through kitchens and things. I try to change the dream. But when I change it its no good as I don't believe the dream any more,
I know its a dream and it just all stops. The dc just looks at me, as if to say ok dream over.

D2 - I am looking through the eyes of a half human half doll with crazy hair, I am looking at the audience who are watching the show. I am expected to do the next show, but i am a fake even with the hair and costume. I feel a fraud and I cant carry it off.

D3 - At work I am in a study room with college students, I make jokes and then realise I am a teacher and shouldn't be there. I leave but am wearing the wrong clothes and have no idea where i should be teaching. I am embarrassed and scared.
next I am in some woods with a stream running through it. It is freezing and dark. A student is spending time doing a research project studying the fish.
I walk past and out onto a path lined with trees, overlooking a scrubby cut wheat field. There are children there and I feel embarrassed but cannot contain myself any long and start to sob uncontrollably.

Strangely on waking I feel a little better for having cried in my dream.

I was in a police station & apparently worked there. I had just came in for my shift & some bossy bitch was trying to tell me what to do. I told her that she wasn't my boss & that she could go fuck herself. I can't deal w/ ppl who think they can just do what they want & treat ppl like shit. The room was trashed & it wasn't even my job to clean it. That woman just made me crazy mad, lol. Just a weird little dream but at least it was something because my new meds didn't even allow me to remember any kind of dreams at all yesterday. I pulled back my dosage which was already less most ppl can tolerate. My tummy doesn't do well w/ meds & I have to take nausea meds w/ any pain meds.

1-Dec-2016 - ND + WILD - dv TotY Chimera + DILD - Black Hole

ND: I am doing something related to construction (Minecraft-style again), in large scale, perhaps together with more people. Not much recall/detail[/b]

WILD - Eat and love. Transform a goat into a Chimera, store it into an egg, let it kill a robber, Trump and Hitler
5:30 AM, ~30 min
I need some time and several scenario changed in visualization before I can finally enter LD
First thing I notice is I feel a strong desire, which didn't happen so much recently. I satisfy it and move on.
<JUMP>
I am in a room with some people and much food. I try some different samples from a plate, no taste...
<JUMP>
I think about tasks - I would go for the Fairies, but since LD looks decently stable, I decide attempting the harder Chimera
I am in a grassy area with some trees. I wander around for some time, looking for a goat. I see rocky mountains in the background, then finally I find the goat. It's got dirty white / gray long wool, looks quite sturdy, has short straight horns.
It does not look very stable at first, like my mind it's definining its final structure, I glimpse its head and the back in a square-ish shape before it becomes a goat-looking goat. I suspect it's due again from playing Minecraft. Hmmm...
It has a bell below its neck, I remove it.

Out of nowhere I pick up a book with brown leather cover. I browse some pages, it contains symbols I don't know, looking like a mix between runes and Japanese. After some pages I find the drawing of a Pentacle, I somehow recognize it's the spell I've used to summon the Demon few days ago, than find a drawing of a circle of mushrooms, I take note to look at the book again when I'll attempt the Fairies task. After some more pages, I find another pentacle with another different drawing and more runes, I know it's the right one.

When I look at the goat, there is a pentacle on the ground close to it. I push it to move inside the pentacle, the book still open. I wish it to morph.
A lion head appears to the right of the goat head. A snake body and head appears from the lower back. Dragon wings appear at the middle of its back. A lion tail appears (additional to goat's?)
Well, it's definitely looking meaningless =D
I think it will do. I put the book in an inner pocket of my jacket.

I do not see how I can find a DC here around. Also, I do not wish it to attack innocent people.
From the jacket internal pocket, I extract a plastic (?) egg (Minecraft again most likely), I open it like a box, and the Chimera jumps inside. Good.
Then I open a "zip" portal mid-air, to a city, and walk through it.

I am in a city looking very much like Chicago, light train above us. I walk around, looking for a dark alley, hoping to find some robber, which of course happens. There is a guy on the ground and a dark guy with a wallet in his hand.
I take the egg and open it. The Chimera jumps out, and I mount it.
I look around me, it's kinda freightening; the snake head is just behind my back, the lion head below me on the right side.

I face the robber. The lion head emits a frosty breath, he becomes an ice statue. It assaults the guy with fore paws and bite, breaking the statue into small ice shards.
I think that this is fun and I don't want to stop. I just need to find more bad guys.
For some reason I think about D.Trum-p - actually I don't dislike him that much IWL, but at this time I don't really care
He appears in front of me and the Chimera, in a timeless and spaceless environment.
The Chimera extends its lion tail and stings him, releasing a cloud of thick green vapor around him; not yet happy, with a paw it removes all his hair, then set him aflame. He drops to the ground, contorting, then we throw the body in some nearby water.
I want the Chimera to hit some really bad guy, and for some reason Hitler comes to my mind.
He's in front of us, with an elegant gray suit.
The Chimera is in bloodlust mode. It immediately assaults him with paws and bite, then sets him aflame, then keeps hitting him. I feel like very light and satisfied in doing this.

After that, I dismount the Chimera, and let it into the egg again. I use open another "zip" portal to my tower.
I remember I think that I love this way of moving around. I enter the tower, leave book and egg there.
I am thinking about making an inventory of the items there.

A yawn comes to my sleeping body, I experience it from a "spectator" perspective, quite interesting !
When the second yawn comes, I quickly check time, it's 6AM, roll to my side and return to sleep.

DILD - Drive X-Wing into a Black Hole
~6AM, ~20min
ND:I am playing LEGO with my son. I am looking for an L-shaped black part, I know it's there, I cannot find and start disassembling some Pirates' Island buildings. I find some similar parts, but not the one I am looking for.

DILD:Realizing this is a dream, I just summon the part. However, I lost any interest in playing with LEGO.
I turn around, there is a window, look outside, there is a nice garden with trees and flowers. I go out of the window.
The Fairies TotY beckons, but I want to do something different, and think about the "Black hole / Wormhole" task I assigned in LD4All LC56

I need an airship. I find myself inside a big hangar, with lots of machinery, but no suitable vehicle.
I turn into some corridors, and find another hangar, however it is used as garage. Lots of cars and few vans.
I know the next hangar will be the good one. I take a door, there is another hangar, this time a sort of X-Wing fighter is parked there. Nice.

I climb in the pilot seat, buckle up and start clicking random buttons in the cockpit.
In front of me, the hangar door opens to a town street.
The fighter gets inclined until its nose is pointing upwards, then I take off. Unfortunately no particular sensation.

I am in the outer space. I look at my left side, there is the blue Earth below me.
I move around, until I find a black circle "suspended" in space
I see particles going towards it and disappear.
I fly in front of it, keeping distance. Then I turn towards it, and point inside.

As soon as I am inside, I see the cockpit and the structure of the airship become transparent and disappear, then my hands and arms disappear, too.
I am bodyless, still conscious.
I appear somewhere else

Dream recall quickly fades, 6:30AM work alarm goes off.

I woke up in my room. It was completely dark all around. I left it and thought that this may be a dream. I made a nose plug RC and it succeeded. I was lucid. I thought "Lights on" and light turned on in most of rooms, however some of them remained dark. I recalled a ToTM basic task about igniting a house. I went to my kitchen and flied into a window, phasing outisde through the glass. It was early morning, still dark. I flied towards neighbor's house, trying to set it on fire mid-air with a gesture, but it didn't worked. I landed on the road and started rubbing my hands while focusing on some potted flowers. They instantly set ablaze. With more rubbing and focusing I set some trees around the house on fire and watched as it spread on the house. Then I moved along the road, trying to fly again but for some reason I couldn't do it. I recalled an advanced task with car lifting. There was another house with a garage. I phased through fence and it's walls and found an old Fiat 126p car. I lifted it up and phased back to the road. Then I placed it one the road and entered it, turned the engine on and drove. I drove along a completely ruined road with huge holes in it. I lost lucidity. I drove to my school, entered a classroom and sat by a table. Again I thought that this might be a dream and made the RC. I became lucid again. Teacher - a redhead woman in late forties asked me "What makes you think this might be unreal?" I didn't responded, instead I tried to phase out through the wall. I doubted that I might be able to do that and failed, then lost lucidity again. I found myself back in my home village. There was some big ceremony coming. I was wearing a black suit. I left my old school and moved to a bus stop. There was a huge bus, my friend went out of it and I greeted him.

Hi everyone!

I had a creepy dream last night..

My mum was driving me home from work, and this person stalked us. They first caught sight of us when we stopped at the traffic lights. Then I could feel it was following after us. When we finally got home I remember feeling fright run through me. The figure was there, just beyond the window of our porch. He started to watch us in the house. He wasn't actually alive, he was a ghost who kept getting in the house just by slipping through the walls.

I kept getting him out by chasing him back outside..!

He was creepy..!

I was playing Fallen London, they had a big update that added a lot of premium content to all the areas of the game, and a major story that can be started in Mahogany Hall. I wanted to unlock all the content but it cost a king's ransom.

Somehow I was able to do Mahogany Hall anyways, and I was on the track of some haunting mystery.

I don't recall much, but at some point I was exploring a decrepit manor in side-scroller format. I ran into a man who claimed he owned this property, and he told me to leave under threat of violence.

Tonight I was dreaming about flying a plane and dropping "missiles" on the ground. I observed the land and it was hazy as small explosions took up. I remember wondering in a dream what would happen if i dropped a massive Tsar bomb (nuclear weapon I watched a documentary on about a month ago) I then woke up and did a WBTB went to the restroom.

Second dream was a little bit more clear as I went to the balcony of my old apartment in which i lived long time ago in Rostov, Russia. I remember stepping out outside with my wife to the balcony and noticing the stars (DREAM SIGN) I also remember that the balcony stretching out indefinitely which was another dream sign. I also remember looking to my right and noticing that about 20 feet away from me was a black person with dreadlocks but i could not really see him really well and he was smocking a cigarette. I remember my wife swinging on the balcony back and worth as I tried to look at the stars and the forrest near us. The dream then ended.

Before bed I drank a herbal nighttime tea took relax all supplement with 600 mg of alpha GPC in a few days I will take 600 MG alpha GPC, 8 mg Galantamine and Valerian extract as it helped me get lucid and not stay awake.

Since I'm stuck with this cold I decided to just sleep in today and get rid of it faster. This brought on a series of like 20 dreams, all very fast and all divided up when my nose would get runny and I'd wake up.

The only one worth mentioning was my first lucid experience in a while. I'd say this was my most present one, as there were no visuals to distract me, just extremely loud audio and subtle physical. Once I realized I was in a dream, I reverted to laying in my bed just as I really was, but some childrens radio station was playing loudly from the other room, and my legs and torso kept lfoating off the bed. I couldn't figure out how to get the visuals to start, so I just chilled out. I woke up quickly after that thanks to my nose itching, but when I woke up I realized... did I just have to "open my eyes" to get it to start? Is it that simple?

I'm inside a building (my own room?). I'm near the coast. I can see the coastline, though the beach doesn't exactly look appealing. There's a fence and some industrial activity. This is supposedly somewhere in east Indonesia. I'm talking to a guy (a friend of mine perhaps) who is sitting atop a building somewhere which is under construction. It's a building not too far away, but far enough away that realistically speaking, I shouldn't be able to hear him. He's sitting on the edge of what is currently the roof. He's giving me some advice about ways to continue my travel. One of his suggestions is to fly back to Jakarta and to then fly to some far away island in the east. It would seem not to be the most logical route, however it is apparently the cheapest way to get there.

A bit later my friend Mark is at my door. He's presenting me with two gifts. At first I'm reluctant to accept them, but he insists. One of them is some MYR - not sure why's he giving that to me. Another is a stun gun or similar stunning device. I put them in my room. Not much later we see a man who is dressed similar to an anti-terror unit - all black. We assume there to be a whole team out there. At first I want to use the stun gun, but I fear going out there with a gun shaped object is not the brightest idea. Mark wants to have the gun, but I believe I tell him no. I then proceed to lock myself in the bathroom. Perhaps they won't look in here? Small chance. I really don't want to get shot by a stun dart though. It's gonna hurt. I consider coming out with my hands in the air. Would that work?

Running in the rain

I left my old school, all classmates thanking me for some unknown reason. I left the building and got into the rain. I ran towards my house. I was running really quickly, so quick that shoes started falling off my feet.

Searching for toilet

I went to my current school and at the entrance met a short, dark brown haired girl. I was about to give her some cd, but I couldn't find the right one and said that I'll give it to her later. She told me that the girl that I was at pair with for prom beginning dance is at hospital and that she'll replace her. I agreed and entered the school, urgently searching for a toilet. I tried at second floor, but there was no toilet paper. I passed by a teacher with other classmates. I entered another toilet. Inside all the cabins there were showers. Finally in one of cabins I found an exclusive apartment. But then suddenly some dude appeared and started mumbling something incomprehensible. He started waving some ruler. He attacked me and I pushed him on a sofa. Then he turned into a blonde woman, completely naked.

My alarm was set for 1:15.

I had a false awakening where I went from under my covers and changed the alarm to 1:30.

At some point I awaken into the moment where my body is going back to bed but my mind stays awake. I get that amazing high feeling of this in-between. I enjoy it for a second and then decide I'm going to ride this transition into a lucid. I think "okay you are going to try to float up from your body" and then try to do this, but it does not happen. I think that maybe I'm going to float up and imagine a girl that I can be with in my room.

I'm at Firefly music festival. It's the Wednesday night for the early camping and I'm with a group of my friends. I ask if there's a show, knowing there's a show. A friend tells me "yes" being surprised, and then says that it's a rock band and most of Firefly will be rock music. We walk down a path as I can see a stage with a rock band performing in the distance. My friend Allyson B. tells me that rock is better because she's done acid and seen a lot of rock, to which I reply that I've done a lot of molly for electric music and it's been great. We walk up to 3 huge guys and the one in the middle smiles at me. He lifts my hat up to check what's under it, and then I wake up.