non-lucid

My husband kept waking me up with all of his snoring. He kept saying "stop" & "quit waking me up" until finally I went into my grandkids room & tried to sleep. Then he came in early this morning & started yelling at me. He wanted to know why I wasn't in our bed. He didn't remember me trying to get him to turn over. Nothing like a grumpy husband when you haven't had much sleep. Sigh. Anyway, no lucids & I lost the dream I was having due to being woke up abruptly.

I was in a new city. I knew that the Dankertons now lived in my Toronto house but this was not Toronto. We were in a town full of ex students of some school or camp that combined all groups of kids I know. Downtown there was a car wash that I had just realized I purchased from Jeff Turcotte when he created it as his final project at the school. I wanted to relocate it but I didn't remember if my purchase of it was fully legal so I basically picked it up and moved it. I dropped it in the bay nearby, and used it as a waterslide somehow. The view from the top of the waterslide was amazing and I was in a phone call with my dad when I saw it. I started talking to him about how beautiful the sunset was, and how the horizon bent down violently as if we were on a tiny planet. I chalked this up to how high I was but I REALLY should have considered that I was dreaming. After that the kids were hanging out with some girl that Chris knew from school. She showed up totally naked just to embarrass us and then kept coaching all of the guys on how to pick up chicks. I left half way through the conversation as I was concerned over whether or not I had really paid for that carwash. I went over in my head how the money had flowed and could not come up with an answer beyond taking a loan from my parents that I had no memory of. This was the SECOND time that I entered deep thought in the dream and yielded no reality checks. I must improve. I must get better, become more aware in my day to day life.

Dream Signs
BEATUTIFUL VIEWS
Impossible math
Impossible structures
Chris
NAKED GIRLS in public??

Me and someone else sneak out of a bad situation through the woods. We lie about where we were going and we zig-zag through the forest. There is a thin layer of old snow on the ground and everyone is barefoot. I wonder if it is cold but figure the sun is shining warm enough. We went through someone’s yard that was full of cacti and flowers. We ended up squatting in Donald Trump’s house. Me and my girlfriend lived there a few days. Then I started getting increasingly uneasy. We could hear Trump’s voice from a few floors down and I kept urging my friend to keep quiet, which upset her. She thought I was denying her friendship, I just wanted both of us to stay alive. That night she was telling me her life story and I was falling asleep when someone came and checked on the room. We hid between the bed and the wall. As I lay there I started falling asleep uncontrollably. After they left we heard housekeepers vacuuming and I knew it was only a matter of time before we got caught. I was terrified of getting caught. I understood in a way that this is a dream and if we get caught it will become a nightmare. What if I never wake up from it? I make the decision that we have to leave. I grabbed my stuff (some clothes, my phone, and laptop) and propelled out the window and down the building. The housekeeper yelled something sarcastic out at us as we left like “goodbye visitors”. We went to a little shack building right next door. I had to go back to the room for something and when I came back down an elk met me and spoke with me telepathically. He was basically like Oberon. We washed his slobber off of our hands in the snow then He guided me to cave where there were a couple more animals I could talk to and some kind of magic man. He kept changing to look like Jon Snow and he was scaring my friend. In the night I fled and was followed by two men who obviously knew how to fight. One of them was B. I went under a building and we were basically sparring on monkey bars. I told B, "I’m sorry but I’m going to have to kill you to protect myself." He laughed and then turned on the lights to show me that it was a training session and they had built this jungle gym in my favor. Eventually I drove back to see my friend. I asked A.W if she knew where the shack was moved to and she said it was the street after hers. I went and there were lots of similar looking shacks but the one I was looking for was first in line. It’s address had the number 30 or 03 in it. I went in and my friend was living with a man and working for Trump. I was disappointed.

Dream - Lucid

I was at the house I grew up in. My family was there with me, my mom, dad, and brother. It was, once again, the zombie apocalypse. I remember being in my old bedroom with a family member, and them opening the door to check if the coast was clear. They freaked out as they saw a bunch of zombies coming towards the door. If I am not mistaken, through the doorway, I saw that same ponytailed zombie from my last apocalypse dream first before the horde. I went to the door in a panic to shut the zombies out.

Then, we were all packing up to leave, to go somewhere safer. Similar to Fear the Walking Dead, we had a huge boat in the garage we were going to escape on. I was packing my things quickly, trying to only take what I needed, but I was throwing lots of extra things in there; I felt bad leaving anything behind, though I knew I couldn't take everything. I remember putting a lot of clothing in the suitcase.

I then overheard some guys that were doing some landscaping work on our house discussing our boat. I was afraid they were planning to steal it, so I started to frantically hurry my family along in packing up. They didn't seem to get my sense of urgency, but I kept urging anyway. My brother had no clean clothes to pack, so we got his dirty clothes hamper and we started to pack dirty clothes in his room. It didn't matter that they were dirty; we needed to get out of there ASAP.

I wanted to take at least one of our cats. The cats that were there were Pounce (deceased IWL), Ziggy (also deceased IWL), and my current IWL cat, Belle. I wanted it to be Pounce that we took. I saw her sitting under the kitchen table. I pictured myself putting her in my current cat's cage to take her along. For some reason though, we weren't going to take the cats with us.

We then were putting the packed suitcases into the back of the boat, which was now a huge van-like vehicle. In the garage, the landscapers drove by on this huge white cherry-picker-type machine. They said something to us, hi maybe, not sure. But it made me feel more urgent in packing. I stuck my suitcase in the back. All the suitcases fit nicely. I remember someone putting some 12-packs of Coke in the back as well.

I then was getting in the van to sit down. Inside, I saw Jarrod and another person getting things ready to go.

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I was at the house I grew up in. I was in my room, which was dark save for the closet light. I was lying on the opposite side of the bed from what I normally used to sleep on, and I was giving birth. I was alone. The baby was born, and I cut the cord myself. It was a girl. I then gave birth to many more babies, two who were still-born. The still-born babies didn't seem to bother me, I just knew I had to keep birthing babies. I labored and cut all the cords myself, setting the newborns wrapped up in white blankets on a bedside table. They were all so quiet and sleepy. I had I believe 6 in total, but I kept thinking there were only 5 there. Most were girls and only 2 were boys. The two girls born first I named Alana and Alyssa. I named one of the boys Michael, but I don't think I named the rest.

I then started breastfeeding each baby. I would take them in either the cradle hold or football hold and bring them to my right breast first (the one my daughter IWL preferred). I would them pull my lips over my teeth to simulate some sort of latch? I don't know why I did this, but it made sense in the dream that I had to do it so the baby would latch. The babies succeeded and didn't succeed. There were some attempts that were great, and the baby got some colostrum, and others the babies had trouble latching, but there was never any crying or screaming from them. I remember for one baby, I had to brush my nipple to their cheek so they would root that way to get to the milk. They were all so mild-mannered and sleepy. When I finished the feeds, I would put the babies back onto the bedside table.

I was then explaining to someone in the house that 2 babies were still-born. Again, it didn't seem to bother me, as if it was just a natural thing that happened (which it is, I guess).

I then remember something about a huge dental needle. My mom I think was going to give it to me in my cervix so I'd have more babies. I was done for the day though. I had so many babies to care for already.

I never felt tired or overwhelmed from all the babies either, just a sense of duty and a neutrality that kept me going.

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This dream was sort of a pick up from the last dream. All the babies were there. I was with my family and some others I believe. Alana was still just a newborn, but she looked like a toddler. She said she wanted to eat some apples and apple juice. She didn't want anything else. I wasn't sure she was old enough for that, but she insisted. I figured I'd get her a bag of pre-sliced apples. Alana looked like she was related to this girl I know IWL, Alicia; she looked like one of her IWL daughters. I believe Alicia was also there.

I then was at the store with my husband, one of my best friends IWL Cherie', and a girl named Meghan that I don't hardly talk to IWL. The store resembled a "super" Kroger that I don't frequent IWL because I don't know where everything is there, as it is so big. I was not shopping with them I don't think, but waiting for them to finish. When they came back to me, I was standing in this lobby-type area on the second floor of the building. Apparently, the grocery store was not the only thing this building had. It was kind of like a huge shopping center with different stores and activities on different levels. They came to me and they hadn't gotten apples or apple juice. They had gotten cheese though, which I thought Alana wanted. I forgot if she wanted cheese, apples, or apple sauce, but I KNEW she wanted apple juice. I got pissed that my husband had picked out all the wrong things. I headed down to go shopping. I had to go down this weird, metal, roller slide thing. If you ever went to Discovery Zone as a child, picture the rolly slide they had there, only silver metal instead of multicolored plastic. There were areas on it that were bigger, darker rollers and you had to do something to put more of your weight down on those, and they would lower you to where you needed to go. I remember sitting on it backwards and not being sure how to trigger the big rollers to let you down. I did it though.

We were then shopping again, and this time, we STILL didn't get apple juice. We walked down the aisles looking and my husband picked out these canned mandarin oranges in a sugary juice. We checked out and I was, once again, so pissed that we still didn't get apple juice. We were on the second floor lobby again, and I asked my husband if he was stupid and went back down to the store with Meghan and Cherie to actually finally get apple juice. We wandered around the store, and I went to the aisles that I thought for sure the apple juice would be on, but nothing. We finally asked an employee, and she pointed down an aisle and told us it was there, and at the end of the aisle. Well, we went down the aisle and it was just these big containers of I think cereal, no juice of any kind. I was getting frustrated and worried about Alana, as she was back home and needed to eat. I came to the end of the aisle, and we were at the back of the store where they keep a lot of cold items in coolers and freezers. I didn't want frozen apple juice, but I didn't know that we had another choice. I opened a cooler and there was unfrozen, refrigerated apple juice in a HUGE container. The container had written on it on the left-hand side: "0% orange juice, 100% apple juice, 0% (some other fruit) juice". I thought about how much juice Alana really needed, and pictured her actual size. She was as tiny as a fairy and was floating around, but still looking and acting like a toddler. She definitely didn't need a lot of juice, but this was the only container I could find, so I put it in the cart and we started heading back to the check out. We ran into a girl I knew when I was going to school named Kris. She and Meghan exchanged a greeting, as they had been best friends apparently at some point. They called each other their apparent old high school nicknames, one had something to do with the name Jasmine. We passed them and went on to this weird, almost blacklight looking area in the store.

We then were at checkout. We were going to this line where you had to get this weird machine with a long cord so people would check you out. There was a big, younger black man there with the machine wrapped around him, which he had apparently broken. The cashiers or someone was getting onto him a little for it.

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Now THIS is the recall I'm talking about! Hell yeah. I woke from my first dream and immeditely took notes in my phone. The second two I didn't take notes for. Getting that recall back up to par! Yay! Also, the hormones during pregnancy really drive up the vividness factor in my dreams so that is a HUGE plus to being pregnant, you know, besides the obvious growing a new life thing.

D1 - Annoying boss is trying to fool me into doing some work, complaining that my work is not up to standard. She is sitting side saddle on a desk, talking total crap (no change there) to a trainee. I ignore her comments and walk off.

I try wake back to bed, focusing on last nights dream, about being in a large house
D2 - I see the white kitchen door in my dream. The paint on the door starts to flake as if time is speeded up or under the heat of a flame gun. The bumps and undulations of the flakes turn into folds of fabric, transforming the door into a light emerald green almost see through fabric. It is now a door but also a green blouse being worn by a lady, with long black hair. There is a brightness, from within maybe causing the see through state of the blouse. The door is now a double door and swings open as I am filled with joy, as it is the persons chest and heart opening to me.

I awake with the vision still in my head, feeling very emotional. I try to get back to sleep but am now wide awake, it is about 4am.

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I pulled these tarot cards today, which are relevant to yesterday's dream and possibly this one.



The embrace card has a plant growing from deep underground!
and the manifest card as a snake like white energy

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>Dreamed the fridge door was open and my dog (who died in 2014) was eating cheese from one of the two 7 oz. blocks I still have in there, and I had to cut off the parts she bit.

>I recall hearing the "Hopes and Dreams" music.

I was in an airplane. For some reason I was climbing from the tail to wings, trying to get back inside it. The plane was burning heavily, I finally managed to get inside and then it exploded.

I woke up in my bed, took some clothes and turn on the radio. They told about an airplane that exploded and only survivor - me. I took a bottle of beer and wanted to sit on an armchair, wondering how I survived, but then my mother appeared and told me to go outside, as the weather just marvelous. I went outside, it was a summer evening, the sky was clear and it was warm.

Then I was in forest with my two friends. I was accused of the plane tragedy and had to escape from special forces. There was a crashed plane nearby, presumably the same I was in. I went closer and found a black box, using some wires I managed to get information out of it. It transmitted through a communicator I had stripped to my belt. A pilot said that he couldn't save all the people, and that he was responsible for the tragedy. I unplugged black box and went to my friends, telling them about it. We sat down in silence, then I started singing "It's new age, everything changes and won't be the same!"

20/5/16
Fragment: Something about finding a guy called Dworgyn.

I remembered a dream when I woke up but I thrashed about and thought of the day ahead so I promptly forgot it :/

I was in some type of warehouse/office setting that looked old like in an old part of New York. I was fighting a bald white man with my fists. I instinctively knew that he was me and I was fighting a clone of myself. Although, it wasn't me. For whatever reason, I wasn't myself in this dream. After I had defeated the clone I looked out of the balcony. The ocean level was right up against the top of the thick concrete railing. The ocean idly moved up and down barley managing to not spill into the room.

The next wave spilled about 2 liters of sea water into the balcony. Upon hitting the ground the water instantly turned into another clone of me. In the back of my head, I felt like I would be going up against a potentially infinite amount of clones. And at that moment, I traveled at the speed of sound out of the balcony in a straight line. About half a mile away from the room I passed by 5-6 navy warships. They were all kinds of different types of warship. There was a cruiser, destroyer, battleship, a couple other ships, and I think an aircraft carrier. They were headed straight toward the room where the clone of me was. I got the sense that they were head there to fight the big battle to end the conflict. But the thing that really stood out about these ships was that they were made out of blue words. The first couple ships were made out of multiple words that I couldn't read, but a few of the ships in the middle of the formation were made out of the name of their ship type, ex:

BATTLESHIP

I was in this beautiful place with rivers, colorful plants, bridges, houses & people. I was just starting to become lucid when my damn iPhone started screaming. I tried to get back in the dream but my phone went off again. My doctors office billing department called & then left a msg about how they are sorry that a lab keeps trying to charge us for stuff that was supposed to go to them. So now I'm awake but still sick & my dreams details were lost. I've been over extending myself so much while I'm sick so it's carrying over into my every day life. I need some real genuine rest but now it's Friday & I have to be awake & give some of my time to my husband because he works a ridiculous amount of hours to take care of me. I'm just so tired & I can't breathe. Still blowing my nose & my throat hurts. Maybe I'll get to bed before midnight & get a good lucid anyway.

Dream - Lucid

I was definitely lucid last night for a little bit, but the only things I remember about it are:

-It felt like I was loosely hanging onto the dream, as in I would feel the head buzz and see the dream form, and then it would go dark and happen again, and
-I was naked and imagining someone having sex with me though they never materialized in the dream, and I had a SUPER intense orgasm when I started to touch myself. I am pretty sure I was not woken from the dream afterwards either, something I have been getting better at over the years. I was focusing, in the dream, on not being woken up.

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I was looking at my UHRS report online. I saw some weird numbers that looked like I had missed a ton of questions, but on closer inspection they looked ok. I had notes in red underneath some, one I remember saying something along the lines of "don't just do a few and get tired of them." There were no capital letters used.

I had other dreams too, NLDs, but this had been a weird morning for me as my daughter is hanging out with her Nana for the weekend and I got to sleep in (!!!!!) which never happens. I'm trying to recall but it's proving difficult. Also, I've had a lot on my mind as we are moving a week from today and there is so much that still needs to be done and I am stressed beyond belief. Definitely hampers my recall.

D1 - I had a recurring dream (long term) of being in a large house. The house was incredibly familar though it was not one i've ever been in the waking state. It was a sunny day and the house had a load of rooms all on the ground floor. I was trying to stop someone from getting in, with a great feeling of vunerability. The house had a main front door which was easy enough to lock but the back door which was way back in the kitchen (seemed to remind me of a house from my childhood, my Aunties) had a wooden fairly plain white door. I knew the lock very well and kept trying the small silver key in the lock but it was just turning and not locking it.

D1 Part 2 - In the same house in the front room standing with a girl next to a padded red sofa. We are talking about new beginnings and that if you are serious you need to sow your seeds deep. Only then will things be deep rooted and survive the tests of time.
So we start a journey down into the depths of some subteranean place, deeper and deeper, it is all very red and purple down there and dark. We eventually get deep enough in that other world and plant our seeds. On return I find that plants? of some kind are growing out of my dna and sprouting from my arms, this is good apparently. Things have taken root at a deep level.

D1 Part 3 - In the same room in the house, the girl is gone and a boy is their, I am now on a white sofa talking to him. he has blonde hair compared with her black hair. We are talking about synchronicity.
At this point the phone rings, it is a white corded landline. I change my talking voice the sound of the phone making a strange melody
then the doorbell rings, it is the girl. And I continue my melody adding the new electronic sound, like a strange magpie to my existing melody. The sound would be very hard to describe lol. but is very clear in my dream, a trill whir of lots of high pitched sounds melded.
I see the pattern as a three dimensional shape of many sides, snake like, its sides have shades of white flowing through it.

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I have a great fear of opening up to people but obviously would like people to come into my home and have visitors, if they are safe.
It is a lonely existence hiding.
I am hoping to make a fresh start and build relationships with people in my life.
I see synchronicities everywhere.

19/5/6
Dream 1: I was watching an ad on tv for a primary school fete. They were interviewing a few of the kids, and four of them in a row all had beards or five o'clock shadows, more significant than what I can grow haha. I mentioned this to my dad, who rewinded to have a look, then suggested that maybe they were European (lol).

Fragment: Something about different religions.

Dream 2: I was building a large scale remote control car style thing. I had finished it and it was in a long tunnel. I hopped in and set off, starting off slowly but gaining speed, extremely nervous about whether it would work.

I recall a fragment. It was dark, the sky was just black. First I was in home, finishing renovating it, then I found myself in a club with brother and his pals. I met one of my classmates and we went to a parking lot and drove a car.

Non-lucid. Totally lost my dream this morning because Meesha Cat was all over my head, literally! Between that & my phone going off & me being so late today that I just went through my grocery day & doctor's appointment all naturelle. Had a no make-up day & had to just throw some clothes on, put my hair in a ponytail & off I went! lol