non-lucid

I was talking to a man about a car. He said something about getting it from Arr cars instead of ORR cars, then he asked me about the paint and I said something like blue nd white or blue is white. He kept saying red is black or red is white (kept switching up the phrase) The last thing I remember is a phrase along the lines of blue nd white or blue is white.

P.S. A car in relation to my dreams means I have committed myself to some sort of endeaver in my life. White and blue means the ability to convey thoughts, dreams, ideas, new awareness, new beginnings.

+ tennis with the (tennis) stars: I want to play them too but I end up collecting the balls for them, good deal for them they get to play and I end up chasing the balls. At first just a few, then a torrent of balls from out of their pockets.

We go to the corner (of TV park? by the bike rack) and eat: I rise off a bowl of tortilla chips and pour out the water and put it down for everyone to eat

The tennis is happening also in a room of a small house/cabin. A guy comes pounding on the door and gets upset when I don't answer it right away.

+ (maybe follow up scene of above dream) my son is talking to people outside of his bedroom window, he opens it widely and leans out. I want to see who he's talking to, so I climb up and lean out, too. There is a HUGE crowd of English-speaking tourists walking by, most college student age. They're sort of mulling around outside the window on the sidewalk and the street, about 100 people at least. I'm thinking I should offer them tourist suggestions, but I can't think of anything to say. My son is saying that the sports here is not worth watching but I say no that's crap, they should definitely go to a (tennis?) sports event.

+ I find myself (waking up?) lying with my head right on the edge of an extremely tall structure of some kind. My gaze looks out over the edge and down to sparkling water very far below. That fall would definitely kill you. I check back a few times and every time I get a very strong feeling of vertigo, I notice that where I am is far above even the mountains that surround the large body of water. I think I need to get down. I start sliding down, it's like a massive inflated kids' jumping palace. On the second slide down the structure begin deflating. I'm getting closer to the ground, but the maintenance guys who are deflating the structure say "too late, you should have gotten off earlier, now you'll have to wait until 4:30am in order to get off." I think I won't have to wait since I'm so close to the ground (water?).

We're getting on a train ride with little cars filled with wool on the bottom (live sheep?), we're heading to the ghost town.

+ in the airport, in a hurry, choosing which goggles to use. Outdoors watch the launch of an air-ship (it looks like an old-time ocean schooner). sabotage/line, ships plummets out of the sky and hits the ground in a second, all the people on board bounce up from the shock in to the air and back down onto the ship, many are killed.

The guy (young blonde boy?) who did the sabotage is then opening some (small plane?) with two young people lying down lengthwise in the tube, a guy and a girl? The bad guy (shoots a poison dart?) and one of the young people dies, looks very dead.

I'm in a house, I walk by a hallway table where I see a bunch of packages/papers addressed to me. I clearly recognize my mother's handwriting (in pink). They're frantically searching for me. They've left their phone number as "130", which I "recognize" as the local emergency number. Why would they do that and not be here? I have a sense of dread that I need to get out of here as soon as possible, this is not my house, maybe it's the poisoning boy. My work laptop is here and I want to get it, I'm not even fully dressed but I sense that I must get out right now.

Then the little blonde boy comes in and I'm dodging tiny little poison darts (that look like dental GUM sticks). I run for the front door, I go through one door then reach the front door, it's locked. The front wall of the house is a glass wall [DREAM SIGN]. There is a large force outside, many cars, here to take down the evil boy. I'm running along the glass wall to the right, trying to think of some way to break out. I think the people outside can easily break through with one of their cars. I see some people outside and I'm trying to sign/gesture communicate to them to break the glass. I write out the letters to "Break the glass" with my finger on the glass using backwards lettering so they can "read" it.

They do bring a car and break the glass but it's in an area that already had a few doors to the outside, I say "well I feel stupid" for not noticing them. Then I and my rescuers are in a little floral garden (with posters of watermelons?), they're critiquing the esthetics of the garden, saying it's typical of that boy.

later:

+ running to car in parking lot with laptop, convertible the top is down I'm evading some (bad guys?), throw the laptop in the back and think I'll raise the roof automatically. Can't get out of the parking lot because I must pay the attendant $41.50, trying to get change right with the attendant and the machine.

+ Some kind of intervention meeting. The subject is some wild hippy old guy who's approaching and singing some kind of nonsense song. girl with swirly pink birthmark skin all over. people slowly file out. I lie down next to the girl, my head next to hers, and I massage her scalp with my fingers, she says she likes that. There is a bed there and the girl is on it now, I check out to the hallway there is an older man there who heads down the stairs, leaving us along. I decide to have some fun with the girl who is still on the bed

Spoiler for kind of sexy-time:

She's wearing a skirt and sitting on the bed, I pick up her legs and spread them far apart, her skirt is out of the way and I have an awesome view of her panty-covered (ahem). I look away and back, she's still in that position, I look closer trying to see underneath the panties, see a little bit under the side, and think about going in for oral.

+ outside with a dark-skinned girl. She's swinging something around like a whip and I (help?) her. I'm walking with her and I'm feeling attracted to her. I'm standing close, should I move to kiss her? She tells me something and touches my arm with her hand while doing so. I should definitely kiss her! But she moves to return to where we came from and the moment is lost, and I follow her there.

At some sort of stadium. There is a fire burning in the distance and I watch it. Somehow then I'm with a group of young people and there is some sort of game going on, I can't remember much more than that.
Then I'm walking down the side of a football pitch inside the stadium and thinking what a long way the walk is, although actually it's not that far. i get to the other side, go through a door and then i'm in a garden. I'm setting up a tent, I don't like where it is so I pick it up and move it somewhere else then I'm happy with the position and think about starting to set up the inside of the tent so I can go to sleep.

I scribbled a few notes about another dream - something about having a meal in a pub but can't remember any more about it now.

First dream

It was on fields behind my house. We were playing football with random people. It was a PE lesson. I was unusually good and used some dirty tricks. People got suspicious, and started to use tricks themselves. With good enough teamwork, we managed to win the match 2:0 When it was over, we went to showers in a building close to the fields, and went to change our clothes to my barn.

Second dream

There was a strange conspiracy. I watched view from hidden camera in my toilet. There were politicians, discussing matters most important for the world. I switched the cameras a few times, to see what other people are doing. I can't recall what I seen, but in the end I went back to politicians. They agreed to form a union, but only if ask of them would wear sexy women underwear They did it and went away.

Third dream

I was in a shop. There was a pretty checkout assistant - a brunette woman. I bought some bread and mineral water, and she charged me for 220.25 I took money from my wallet and paid. Money had weird value, like 180, and there were strange crowns on them. The woman was a bit angry that I played with money, not using a credit card.

I had the most depressing dream ever last night and I just have to record it.

My sister committed suicide. I was torn up. I couldn't stop crying. I was SO devastated. My parents were devastated to but they didn't seem as upset as me. I was just.. I don't know how to describe it. The feeling was AWFUL. Crying, crying, and more crying. I woke up still feeling the sadness.

It felt SO real that when I woke up I still felt like something was wrong, so I got in touch with her(she seemed ok). This dream made me realize that I don't know what I'd do if she died, I'd just be torn to pieces.

Last night I had a dream that I was in a hotel visiting some freinds, after I made sure they were all settled in I headed to my own room. As I was in the hallway I saw him, next thing I know something is biting me. I then scurry to my room and pass out on the bed. Whenever I wakeup he's in the room, sitting on a chair. Understandably I begin to freak out and practically jump out of the bed. I'm extremely weak and covered in a cold sweat. He tries to calm me down but I pass out from fatigue. I wakeup again and I'm not in my room but some sort of master bedroom. He's in the room talking to what looks like a very old doctor. The doctor asks why he didn't speed up the process and he replies, "She begged me not to kill her, I couldn't bring myself to do it." The soctor shakes his head and leaves. He whispers in my ear," I'm sorry." An my body is engulfed in gut wrenching pain that feels as if every bone in my body is being broken at once. I see flashes of blue and purple. Then I wake up.

P.S. Dreaming of being bitten means there are secrets in my life. Pain means I could have physically been experiencing it in my sleep. Blue and purple mean healing and spiritual growth.

Ice cream + screen time @ 2200
Bed @ 2230 /w half melatonin
Fell asleep around 2300

jobn, leaves, mail, twitter, keyboard, annoyance with team over not understanding about configuration file
museum
trouble driving around airport

Being understood
I'm on a conference call with my team. As usual, I'm working while listening with one ear. I'm trying to configure a piece of software, but it's a bit of a trial-and-error process, and it takes a while to restart the software between each trial. I realize that the configuration file I'm looking at actually includes another file, and it's this second file that defines most of the unchanging configuration options. I can make a duplicate copy of the first file and run a second instance of the software with it, yet have both instances be configured mostly the same. No one has spoken for a while, so I start to tell the team about what I've found, but my scrum master starts talking just after I do. I stop, wondering if I'm on mute, but I'm not. Once she's done, I start trying to say it again, but again she starts to talk over me. This time I just keep going and she eventually relents. My team lead asks me a couple of questions about it, but it's clear he has no idea what I'm talking about. I'm annoyed with all of them - this is important, and they just don't get it!

Now I'm chatting with John. First, we commiserate about people not understanding us, then I describe the time saving configuration options I found.

Now I'm at his house, waist deep in leaves, typing as though the leaves in front of me are my keyboard. John is watching me, and I know he's good enough that he can figure out what I'm typing without any problem. He's one of a tiny handful that can; not only am I a fast typist, but since I used the Dvorak layout, even other fast typists wouldn't be able to make heads or tails of what I'm typing. I realize my hands dipped under the leaves for a moment, so I say the word he missed out loud, confident that he'll understand me.

Now it's time for him to go deliver the mail, so we're walking up the walkway to his house. He suggests that we communicate over Twitter while he's gone. I don't like the idea, but he says that last time we used <software> and he lost the chat log, and Twitter is a permanent record of the conversation. I relent, saying we'll give it a try.


Finding Pappaw
I'm downstairs with the kids. They ask where Pappaw is, and I say that I think he was going to take a shower. I shush them and listen closely, and I can hear water running. I point out the sound to them. Now I'm upstairs walking along the hallway. I'm struck by how clean it is - there's not a single thing on the floor. I intend to walk to the master bedroom at the end of the hallway, but as I pass my room I notice that the door is half-closed. I look inside to see two very large women packing my stuff. I know it'll be time to head home soon, but why are they helping? One of them, standing in my closet, says something to me.


Airport road
I'm with someone else, driving on the access roads at an airport. We're currently on a road that goes around a rather steep hill. My driver makes a left, going downhill to the next ring. Now we're out of the car, which has fallen between road rings. We weren't hurt, but we're getting away from it. Who knows how long it'll b e until it slips down and crashes into something.


Odd museum
I'm with my family at a museum of odd stuff. We're in the middle of a long drive, and we saw the museum in a traveler's guide and thought it would be a nice place to break the monotony. The guide described it as being small, but what it left out was that the first couple of rooms were free, and then you had to pay to see the rest. We don't want to stay for long, and we don't want to pay, so we just wander the free area looking at the oddball stuff. Now we're walking through the parking lot.

19/2/16:
Dream 1: I was at my house with some friends and we were playing around with a mini basketball. We had a little hoop set up on the wall and we were playing around lightheartedly 2v2. I got the ball and managed to jump up and dunk, brushing the roof as I did so. They all seemed pretty impressed with that. The game stopped as someone went off to get pizza so I went on a computer. A few ads for Samsung and stuff popped up and it looked suspiciously like a virus, so I went to my mum and asked her if she had downloaded anything recently. She seemed to be in denial but I thought she had.

Dream 2: The dream started with a film like showing of a ship travelling around to a small island evading destruction by an enemy ship. When they landed however the crew was only around a dozen and the inhabitants of the island killed them. It then zoomed forward to the present where my brother and I were going to be part of the replacement crew. We were waiting at the dockyards with a hundred or so other guys when the ship pulled up and all of these escorts came tumbling out. One of them wound her way over to my brother and I and started talking with us. She seemed to have a great sense of humour and connected with my brother well. They planned to go off together but I had an inkling, given what happened before, that the escorts would end up killing us all. I told this to my brother but he shrugged it off and explained he was willing to take the risk. They went off and I'm not sure what happened to them.

Fragment: I made some joke online and people from Beijing, which pissed off one of my friends who was from there until she realized it was a joke.

I'm skipping a chunk of the dream to the part that stood out to me the most. I was at a school made for unique people with special abilities. My cousin was present and had mentioned to me in the halls how she was somehow going to persuade a teacher to like her. I decided to leave her alone and walked around until I stumbled upon a lucid dreamer guy who was talking about how his lucid dreaming was way beyond others and how his schedule or something like that helped him.

I walked away from him because he was getting a bit over his head. Suddenly someone who I believed to have a past with walked up to me. I was telling them that they didn't have to cross paths with me again if that wasn't what they wanted. Than I was starting to doubt what I said. I realized it was wrong so I shook my head and told them to go on without me.

Afterwards creatures were released into the school. It became an emergency situation but one where our true abilities would show. Two small shadows were flying around and so I decided to change them. I put my hands in the air and called out "love burst!". Suddenly flowers/frilly stuff flew into the air.

It was working at first but than somehow my powers backfired and we were trapped in colorful taffy. The good creatures told me not to worry about it though.

2.18.16

5am-1pm shift yesterday. Nap most of the afternoon and night. Dream recalled just before 4am.

(This one was few days ago: I'm on some tour in North Korea. We walk around and have some meals. The tour guide is suspucious of me because apparently that is my second consecutive tour and they think I'm a spy)

Today:
DR 1:
I am living on a top floor of a scryscraper. Some residents are talking in a hallway about safety. Somehow we find out that they cut corners while building the structure and someone said they inspected the part that is still under construction and there are parts of walls and support structures missing. The building can crumble at any moment. I feel the urgency and me and my mom start packing.

We make it to the ground. I look up at the cloudy night sky and I can see the unfinished part of the building starts to shake and buckle. I yell "look it's coming down" and parts of it are starting to rain down. I see people holding on to it while falling. Now I am one of the falling ones. We ar really high up and I'm liking it. My stomach starts to feel like on a roller coaster and I'm enjoying the fall. I wonder if I will finally hit the ground, as I never do in any of my lucid falls (this was non-lucid).

There was lot more details in the building and on the ground before and after this, but they are all so vague.

I'm talking to someone, I think it's AURON. Looking at some readouts from my dream stats. There is one line of text in blue, looking like a URL link. I say "oh ok, it's blue, looks like I was lucid then, when I "went" to fall with others, because I love falling."

DR 2:

There is a body of water with some monster keeping hostages on some floating structure. The traffic is closed off nearby so police can take care of this.

I'm sitting in a huge orange/yellow construction truck and I aim it straight down an almost vertical slope heading for the water. Some of my friends does some magic and makes the slope slippery with snow and ice. I gun it and drive the truck in the water. I poke a tiny needle hole into the monster and he slowly deflates.

DR 3:

I'm at the airport carrying people in my cab. With another cabbie we decide to take some passenger and his luggage.

I was in school. It was a lesson with our new teacher - a short, slim blonde in late thirties. She had a bit ugly face. She told to me about some kind of poster with my picture that was popular. I didn't knew what she was talking about.

Later that day I was in home, and saw that teacher in my sister's room. She was browsing the web. I asked her about that poster, and she said that everyone asked who I am and that I looked great on it. I asked if someone posted it on the web, but she said that no.

I went to talk with my younger sister. She was writing something. We take until our mother appeared. I realized that everyone in this room was naked, so I went to take some clothes. I went to toilet, and after a while all the family joined me there for some reason.

1) It feels like Victorian times. I'm stitching up a corpse ready for burial doing a complicated suture up the chest. I'm in an old stone building. At one point a woman is watching me, she's been watching me for a while so I follow her and eventually see her face, I'm satisfied that she is nothing to worry about as she disappears through a door. I'm back to sewing up the corpse - I certified him dead, but then I see his face move and realise I got it wrong and he is actually still alive.
From here the dream becomes a nightmare. The corpse vanishes and I feel an evil presence behind me as if he has come back from the dead and start to feel very afraid. I tell myself it's a nightmare and that I have to face it (I'm not lucid but some sort of memory about facing your fears in a dream) and it's not real. Then I wake up. AT LAST A HINT OF LUCIDITY?!?!

2) I knock a pint of beer onto myself whilst seated at a table. My immediate thought is 'who did that?' then I realise it was myself. Then I have walked to a different location and I find myself talking to a woman about the spilt drink as if her child had spilt it over me and saying it's ok. Looking behind her I see a glass screen and realise that we are at a holiday camp and I tell her that we aren't here this year but have booked to come for a whole week next year.

3) Another dream - I woke up after and remembered it well but didn't write any reminders down! All forgotten now.

4) I'm in a queue with 2 female characters (?family) and we are waiting to have XRays taken. A woman is stood at a desk checking us in, collecting valuables and shoes. Eventually it's my turn. I ask her if I need to hand in my watch and she decides that I should so I give her my watch and shoes. She calls a doctor, we go together to a really bright airy carpeted room. I have a pot plant with me and explain that it's not well and I thought I should get it looked at. I give him the pot plant it's covered in a plastic bag with insects all over it. He puts the pot plant on the floor and gets ready to Xray it.

5) In my old consulting room chatting to a patient. He is telling me about a good new garden centre. I find myself explaining in detail why I won't be going there because I don't work here any more. I remember looking around the room seeing a lot of detail and having a very detailed discussion.

Highway
I'm driving a car in the Netherlands, somewhere at the edge of Amsterdam, going up to a highway. It's starting to rain quite heavily. I swerve a little bit because I wanted to move right towards the run up a bit too early, crossing a line. I move back to my own lane but a few seconds later I already have to move right again to go onto the highway. At first everything is fine, but then there is oncoming traffic. I appear to be headed in the opposite direction, though it doesn't cross my mind that it's my wrong doing. I stay on the left side, as the approaching vehicles are using the right lanes.

Fragment
> I'm with a group of people. We seem to all be sitting on a bunkbed. Someone is standing in front of it and is asking us a question as if this was a lecture. It's about the warning system for extreme weather. No one seems to know the answer. I know I know the answer, but I can't think of the correct word in English for the name of the system, though I know its workings. Matter of fact, I can't even think of the correct name in Dutch.

> There's something with a sort of library where I stayed for a few hours. I walk out of there, laptop in hand, but I gotta pay a type of parking fee. That fee seems to be in the range of 80 - 90 something (not sure which currency). It's a really high amount.

Milk & honey /w cereal @ 2220
Bed @2250 /w half melatonin
Overnight: Ninja's subliminal recall

Woke @ 0315 /w crying baby. Recall lost.
Woke @ 0600 /w alarm

Expensive Chinese
I'm in the Chinese restaurant near work. The waitress comes by, gives me my check, and asks me to take care of it, then moves away. I go to the cash register, but no one is behind the counter. I wonder if by 'take care of it' she means I'm supposed to use the register myself to charge myself before leaving. I look at the receipt and am astounded to see that it's costing nearly $25 dollars for my lunch - I normally end up paying about $10 when I come to this place! I look over the receipt to see why it's so expensive and see that the meal itself cost $14 - surprisingly high - and my request to change the kind of noodle I got raised the price by another $10! That's crazy. I look around for a menu to see the prices, but I don't see one anywhere. I check the counter near the cash register to see if there are any take-out menus, and there are. I grab one and look over it, but I don't see anything about a cost for requesting changes.


Too many lefts
I'm in a parking lot in a commercial area, and I'm standing by my car. I'm thinking about how to get to my next stop and am unhappy that the best way to do it is to make a left out from here, a left at the corner, a left at the next corner, and a left into the next parking lot. I hate left turns, especially in crowded areas like this (downtown somewhere). I realize that there are no roads crossing between where I am now and where I'm going, and it's not that far, so I decide just to walk.


Saving Roland
I'm playing a game. Somehow it feels like a first-person shooter, though my perspective is actually from over head. I get a transmission from Roland asking for my urgent assistance. Sure enough, by the time I get to him, he's already dead. I don't know if that's a scripted event or because I took too long, so I restart the section. This time, I hurry to him and arrive in time to save him, but a sniper ends up killing me. I try again, this time arriving in time to save him and managing not to get shot. I take him with me as we circle a large warehouse-like building, eventually returning to near where I started.


Borrowing tools
I'm doing yard work at my house, and I've walked over to ask my neighbors for a 'chop chop.' Their whole family - both parents and their daughter - is out front, and I end up talking to them for a few minutes. They moved in fairly recently and I haven't spoken to them much, though in the past they did offer that I could borrow tools from them any time I needed to. They have a vaguely foreign look to them, though I can't peg where they're from.


Costco renewal
I'm at Costco getting ready to check out, and I know that my membership will need to be renewed soon. I notice that one of the membership people has put a yellow folder onto the checkout counter and know that it's my account info. Sure enough, the cashier adds the new membership to my bill, which boosts an already-high bill even higher. After paying with my Amex, he immediately tosses the credit card into a burn bin since I'll be getting a replacement card soon. I'm not happy: that's the card I use day-to-day, and 'soon' isn't 'now.' It's one of those trash cans that's only got a slit on top, so there's no way to get the card back out.

Now I'm filling out the paperwork for the renewed membership. There are lots of name fields, and I start off by putting down my name, my wife's name, and my online handle. I realize that last one isn't appropriate for this kind of thing, so I erase it. I wonder if I'm supposed to put all my kids' names on the form, but that doesn't make sense for a shopping card when they're so young. I look at the back of the form and see a different grid. I wonder if I'm only supposed to fill out one of the two sections. The instructions are very unclear.


Fragments
I'm watching a couple sitting at a large event in Brazil. Some fireworks are being set off, and I see a rocket whiz past their heads.

I'm leading my family and the T's kids through a maze of hallways with moving sidewalks. Later we're outside.

18/2/16:
Dream 1: For some reason I decided in the night to try to apply for theatre school. I went on their website and opened up the application form, but there were a whole heap of questions about Shakespeare like which play was this certain helmet used in or whatever so I gave up and went out to the kitchen and got a drink.

Dream 2: I was eating dinner and then I unpacked the dishwasher, for some reason there was a yellowed newspaper rolled up in their. I asked my mum why that was in there and she said she was using the dishwasher to get the plastic off of old newspapers. I didn't understand but didn't care lol.

Dream 3: I was walking near a train station when the boom gates went down, except no train had come after about 20 seconds. Some cars started driving around them, but I was yelling at them not to as a train was coming. There was something about a wild monkey appearing.

Fragment about a fight.