non-lucid

D₁-Had a dream that something wouldn't let go of me, in fustration I blurted out,"I don't care if I never dream anymore, this HAS to stop!." Donnovan appeared, he looked really worried and anxious. Cupping my face he asked," You don't really mean that do you?" "No of course not I was just fustrated." I looked away feeling flustered. How come whenever I want to ask him questions I never lucid dream or see him or anything... but as soon as I say i'm done with dreaming or I'm tired of all the cat and mouse play he is suddenly worried... Interesting how the interactions are seemingly one-sided.

D₂-(This actually happened a few days later I've been distracted so the time line for my dream journal is fucked up) Was with my coworker, her son, and her mother. For some reason we were fleeing. At one point I had come back from fishing and was exhausted so I decided to take a nap. Whenever I woke up something rubbed me the wrong way, deciding to stand I was blind-sided and practically tackled to the ground. A guy was on top of me pinning me down telling me to play dead. Squirming to get free he pulled down the mask covering his face and I realized it was Donnovan. Furrowing my brow I heard a man call out,"Is she the one, the healer you've had us looking for?" Donnovan looked at him," Yes its her." Getting up I brushed my clothes off and looked around for my coworker, they had disappeared in the chaos. Glaring at Donnovan I was hoisted up onto a horse. In a language only we knew Donnovan told me to play deaf. For some reason their "leader of the guard" needed a doctor of some sort to look after the soldiers and in the dream I was a renounded healer.

D1: In my dream I was in my classroom with all my classmates (maybe I dreamt of school again because it starts today). We watched a movie or did something else - I don't remember this - and I took my chair and walked to the first row to talk to a friend, let's call him M. M abd I talked a bit and suddenly we stood in the sports hall. There were benches at on side of the hall and two in the middle with a little space between them. One of my friends, let's call him P, Made a stunning performance of a song I don't remember at the moment. But actually P is not a singer or something and I would never have thought of him performing. Now I can't stop thinking about it XD.

After the performance M came back and was eating, I asked him what he was eating again and he told me he doesn't know (weird is that he really is eating all the time even though he is an athlete). D came back and told me something I was pretty happy about but again don't remember. I wanted to hug him (which is his habit since he's got a girlfriend) and he misunderstood and kissed me on the cheek. I don't know why but after I told him that I didn't mean that he laughed and said "I know".


D2:
I dreamt of being in a store in the "rich-people-area" of my dream-city (I didn't create). I was in a little store wirh my little sister, my cousin, and two people from church. All I remember is that my sister from church bought me something and even though it was nothing special (as far as I remember) I as so extremly thankful and filled with joy. I went outside and saw the beautiful view. On the top of the mountain there were expensive and awesome looking buildings and the (at least in my dream) famous Würzburg-Tower. It looked like a incredible and majestic tower and at the same time it looked like a giant white cruise ship on a golden spiral-shaped tower. The sight was incredible. Now, being awake, I think it maybe wasn't a mountain but a giant floating island. This could be because the last thing I saw before i fell asleep was the "City of Builders" from the Minecraft Story Mode: Episode 5 (for those who don't know: it's a city with awesome builds mostly coloured white and gold with some grass and trees on a floating island)


Now if you look on the time this was written you may realize that I am awake way to early and somehow have to get back to sleep now (still having three and a half hours to sleep).

3/4/16:
Dream 1: There was some sort of competition between the country and city teams, I'm not sure what it was though.

Dream 2: I was reading a review of the new Be'lakor album, which was apparently a two part concept album. The review said that the first disk was fantastic, 4.5/5, however the second disk was really mellow and experimental but it didn't work super well so he only gave it 2/5.

Dream 3: I was trying to invest in this new super massive company. I was at a little booth trying to buy some shares but they wouldn't let me because too many people had already done so. I was a bit annoyed so I decided to instead invest in a rival company to try and topple the new one's dominance.

Dream 4: I was sort of replaying an old video game, or at least that was the impression the dream gave me. The details are gone now but it did go on for quite a while.

Dream 5: A university was embroiled in a massive cheating scandal. A whole class was getting super low marks across the board in the exams but in class they were all doing super well, so a press conference was called to address this issue.

Dream 6: Similar to the last dream but from a different sleep period, A university was caught trying to bump up their average marks to try and attract more and better students.

Dream
I was in my house with my dad, it was dark and I was trying to show him something on a game called Age of Mythology: The Titans Expansion. I was pointing out how to win the game, you'd need a titan and that titans, being the strongest unit, end up deciding whether or not you win the game. He kept pissing me off because his hand kept touching mine and it was in the way. I told him to f off, he wasn't doing it one purpose but I didn't want to touch him. Everytime I try to show him the titans in the game (we're watching some cinematic intro thing) he misses the titan that appears. I finally get him to look and he sees it, before he was comparing it to some movie that had titans in it. They're doing epic stuff, I remember one belonging to the Egyptians and it was a sphinx I think. There was another that made a huge tidal wave, belonging to Poseidon. I was trying to get across to my dad that Oranos had the strongest titan due to an upgrade you can get which allows him to regenerate really fast and have more health + damage than other titans (this is a real thing in the game, I made a rule with my friend that we couldn't play him because it's just too OP -.-).

Created Sunday 03 April 2016

Today, I managed to get into a WILD state. I also remembered one other dream besides that one, though not as much of it as I should.

Spoiler for Spoilered to save space:

Spoiler for WARNING: Potential Steven Universe Spoilers:

Dream 1 - Gem China Doll

The visuals were somewhat blurred. I wasn't sure where I was, only knowing I was watching TV on a large screen. My brother, Theodore, was also nearby.

Surfed around for a bit before settling on a cartoon. Only, this turned out to be Steven Universe, a show not to our preference anymore. I was about to change it, though seeing hints of the season's end made me delay that if briefly.

Well, Steven was captured once again, being hauled off by a battered and apprehensive Jasper. They arrived within an unknown plane, mostly dark save for a cool colored floor. A tall, bright figure stepped forth from the shadows: Yellow Diamond has returned.

A short dialogue begins, where Jasper presents Steven as a plea in restoring lost honor. Just then, she's impaled by several spears, and (save for her gem) "poofs" out of existence. A pan out reveals Steven's fellow Crystal Gems, Garnet, Amethyst, and Pearl, a distance behind, primed for battle.

Steven takes Jasper's gem, and, in an uncharacteristic move, shatters it on the ground, much to everyone's shock. But, as Steven reveals, he didn't kill her, but rather, changed her. Jasper reforms, much different this time, as she now appeared as a life sized, brunette china doll in a black and white dress. The doll's lifeless smile was very unsettling, not helped that it retained movement in its wide eyes.

Not too clear on what happened, save that Yellow Diamond suffered a similar fate. Not much else happened until the dream ended.

Dream 2 - Inedible Snacks and a Phone Call

Scene 1 - A Lesson in Dream Gastronomy
During my WILD attempt, someone walked in to awaken me, and then stepped out. Surely, this was to remind me of some arrangement later in the day. I was annoyed at first, but this got me a bit suspicious. Indeed, after waiting for a few minutes, I noticed a dizzying sensation in my head, a tell-tale sign that I was (near) dreaming. Such joy would've make me jump right into trying stupid things for fun, but I reigned that in quickly in favor of sorting through the TOTMs.

Being the gourmand that I am, I first thought of TOTM number one. And so, I bit into whatever was nearby, the pillows, in this case. This tasted of but scented fabric, much to my disappointment.

I was a bit concerned of my state. So, I got out of bed, opened the drapes, and looked outside. Instead of my backyard, I found an urban area before me, multistoried concrete buildings as far as the eye could see, all under a grey, cloudy dawn sky. That's all the reassurance I needed.

Anyway, directly below was the roof of one of such squared towers. I quickly jumped right out the window towards there, landing safely via a slowed descent. There wasn't much to see, just a mostly flat, concrete rooftop with an occasional steam vent. Painted a few feet within the perimeter was a yellow line, not unlike street lines. The visuals began deteriorating, but a quick hand rubbing fixed that up good.

Once again, I thought to try the taste task, so, I peeled off some of the paint and had a sample. This, I realized, wasn't anything good, just chalk. What a pity.

Not sated, I looked around for something else, and eventually found a small, concrete stone. I bit into this, only to find it was just as it was, looking, feeling (and as difficult to bite into), and, in this case, tasting like an ordinary rock. Had mixed feelings here, both wonder and disappointment on such realism. Surely, it wouldn't have killed me to have it flavored like, say, a rolled hazelnut cream wafer, or a Chick-O-Stick, or something?

Oh, well. Without delay, I moved onto another task: laying on a bed of clouds. I looked up at the storm clouds above, and thought, "I am there", all while purposefully trembling in place (the latter being my personal method of warping). But, instead of that, the visuals, if not the environment, simply fogged up. Before long, I was transitioned without input.

Scene 2 - Fumbled the Call
The visuals were dark. I was back in bed, the poor lighting indicating the dead of night. I was still aware of my dream state.

Immediately, I got up and out the room. I overheard voices from one of the rooms nearby, probably mom and one of my brothers, but I ignored that. Anyway, I went downstairs towards the front door, glancing at the fancy cupboard on my way there. From out the window, I saw a clear night sky, less then ideal conditions for the previous attempted task.

All of a sudden, the environment began collapsing before me, leaving me standing in the void. At this, I prioritized on my personal task: finding my dream guide, by ear, primarily, considering my hindered sight. I instinctively tapped on my temple, which, in turn brought forth a discorporated interface, a hologram of monochrome green text on a black background. A series of about a dozen numbers cycled in view, all to the noise of low buzzing. An IP address, I thought. In any case, after a click, the screen changes, now displaying two very blurred portraits. Was this it? After a pause, I break the silence.

"Hello?"

"Yes?", responded the entity, the voice feminine and sounding beleaguered.

"Are you a dream guide?"

"Yes", she says more impatiently.

I almost freeze from excitement, but recompose myself through heavy breaths. I noticed the portraits were behaving erratically, becoming blurred stains in one moment, and, for a brief flicker, completely clear the next. From this, I could note a dark haired, round faced woman on the other line. What's more, both these images were drawn in, depicting us in some comic-book like style. Anyway, once I'm ready, I continue.

"So... does this mean you'll be my dream guide?" An ominous quiet follows, one that felt like minutes. Before long, she answers, this time, with a more mischievous tone.

"You'll have to find me first."

The screen vanishes afterwards. In desperation, I go in a frantic search, fumbling around in the dark space for... no given reason. Hindsight sure makes this seem ridiculous. Well, I did at least think to brighten the place up, trying to do so through willpower alone. I didn't quite get that, instead finding faint light reflecting off a familiar environment, the entrance to my home, specifically.

But, before I could act, the dream collapses immediately, and I find myself in bed.

Created Friday 01 April 2016

Haven't been having the best of days recently, which, in turn, adversely affected my focus and recall-ability. A few good dreams occurred in between, so it's not all bad.

On the first of this month, I remembered about three or four dreams dreams, though I only remember scraps for most of these.

Spoiler for spoilered to save space:

Scrap Group 1
Was within the world of some graphical roguelike. I fought a generated boss, which appeared as a sphere of fire or somesuch.. It was given properties that made it functionally invincible, so I was forced to avoid it.

I was in an unknown room in an unknown building, installing games in an old CRT computer. These games ran pretty smoothly despite this, though this required booting a very, very light Linux operating system. All this was apparently done for my niece, Emilia. Cut to me exploring the game world itself, going down the steps of temple ruins overrun by forest growth. On reaching the bottom, I encountered a monster, which I retreated from. I then returned to defeat it.

This one may have been before or in between the dream below. I was inside a very large room, probably an apartment room or oversized efficiency, the floor wood in a few sections, and carpeted in mauve in a few others. The bathroom and bedroom weren't at all separated. I was going to shower, when my parents interrupt. Of course, I leave out of embarrassment. There was another shower in the middle of the room, right within the carpeted area.

Dream 1 - A Mishmash of Magical Events

Scene 1 - Rogue Scholar
The visuals were slightly blurred. I was wandering the outdoor hallways of a school, a highschool, I assumed.

Much of the beginning's a bit hazy at the moment. I know I encounter some punk that annoys me, which prompts me to use telekinesis and other magical powers to deal with him.

Eventually, I stumble into a wide, darkened space, a round stage in the middle. Various men and women stood in the center, a few well dressed, and others concealed by cloaks. They whispered and muttered amongst themselves, speaking of some ominous scheme. I don't remember what it was, but I knew it wasn't something I approved of at all. I had to intervene.

Well, as they say, "when in doubt, blow it up". While doing my best to keep behind a wall, I raised both hands, and focused skywards. Before long, burning meteorites crashed through the ceiling, each bursting on the platform with a low roar, though all failed to hit the intended targets. The "Inner Circle" scattered around, all searching for the culprit. I quickly responded by fading from view with but a thought. Then, I repeated the attack several more times, only at a wider angle. The room had, by that point, caught fire, the structure slowly collapsing into itself, and choking smoke obstructing both visibility and breathing. That was enough for the time being, though I've had the feeling I've only delayed their plans.

I ran off, caring not where I went, so long as it was far away. In time, I end up in a familiar looking suburban area, numerous deciduous trees lined on grassy verges by the sidewalk. A bus stop was nearby, and with it a blue painted bench and public trash can. The place was littered with autumn leaves.

There were various people there, all busy raking up litter. One notable figure was a pale skinned, brown haired woman of average build, in her mid-to-late twenties, and dressed warm in dark blue and black clothing as well as a beanie. She seemed very familiar somehow, de-ja-vu sparking as I looked into her wide eyes.

Anyway, I decided to help out, using my telekinesis to pick up and dump heaps of leaves into the trash, though a bit sloppy, as I let quite a bit slip to the floor. Nonetheless, the others looked on in wonder. The woman stopped me to talk. She revealed that the meteors have spread debris all throughout the town, which, in this case, caused the leaves to shed earlier than usual. As for the school, it was now in near ruins. I was implored to help out there, where I was needed most. I agreed to as much, thought I kept a tight lip on what truly happened.

Things haze up again. I end up back in the school, still in service despite the destruction. At one point, some tanned skinned, spiky haired punk bumps into me in spite. Anger almost had me wipe him off the face of the earth, though I settled to stabbing his arm via telekinetic force. He hurried off, embittered but knowing better than to try anything else.

Not too sure what else happened. I know I stop fire from mouldering more of the building. Don't know how, but the scene transitioned.

Scene 2 - Hero in a Hurricane
The visuals were brighter but slightly blurred. I was in a beach at about sunset. Felt as if certain family members were there with me, though I never saw or distinguished anyone.

Not too clear on what happened at first, just me lounging around or something. Suddenly, hurricane force winds bursts throughout the area, scattering umbrellas, blankets, and other belongings all over the place. Everyone in the area hurried to shelters nearby, these being just the various bathrooms and dressing rooms around. Less than ideal, but better than nothing.

Eventually, the winds calm down, though we all knew this was just the eye of the storm. Someone volunteers to collect belongings left outside. This was but a boy, a blonde, scrawny 12 year old kid in blue swimming shorts. He hurries to the task, going back and forth to collect this and that for the others.

I'm inspired to help him out, using various powers I suddenly "remembered". This included flight and super speed, all accompanied by a golden aura and even hair whenever I used these abilities. Seeing as much got me to hum the Super Sonic theme from Sonic 2. Anyway, I primarily focused on getting the larger things, stuff like wide blankets and umbrellas. As I continued, I noticed the kid seemed a bit glum, as if he felt inadequate. Didn't intend that, and I thought to console him, but there was too much to do.

After some time, someone warned that the winds would be back at any moment. I went double-time, but, in the end, I could only get about halfway before I was sure I had to stop. I went back to the huts. The winds picked up again, probably even stronger than before. I was worried for my unseen family's safety, and thought it best to get them out somehow. And so, I purposefully warped all of us away, transitioning the scene.

Scene 3 - Dangerous and Silly Ride
The visuals were now dim and similarly blurred. I was a passenger in an unknown vehicle, travelling throughout corridor-like tunnels. Driving the auto was mom, while Padma and her were daughter fellow passengers. There might have been a few others, but I'm not sure. Either way, we were all greatly relieved to have escaped the previous disaster.

A few turns into our drive lands us at a dead end, the exit blocked by wooden boards. But Ma kept driving anyway, despite the obvious barricade, and our protests. We crashed through, only to find ourselves barrelling towards an unfinished road, which, strangely enough, was at a higher level in a very, very tall skyscraper, lit cityscape visible under a night sky. We couldn't react before we fell off.

I was quite astonished for a brief moment, until I remembered having powers. And so, I quickly reacted by halting our fall with telekinesis, slowly decelerating our descent before the vehicle comes to a stop at about 10 feet off the ground. From there, I loosened my "grip", if a bit too abruptly, as we had a bit of a bumpy landing. We otherwise arrive on the street unharmed.

Things get unclear for a moment. Eventually, I find myself in a grocery store, shopping around with Padma. The place was attended by a balding, 50 something year old, tanned skin moustachioed man, who stood behind a long glass counter that would better fit a diner.

Padma acted really silly for some reason, namely, by pushing herself around in a tiny, warm colored shopping cart. The store owner got annoyed, warning to call the cops if my sister stayed in the cart or broke anything. I urged my sister not to get in trouble, lest she lose custody of her kid (kinda jumping the gun with that statement), but she brushed this off, claiming I was being too dramatic.

I don't remember much else until dream ended.

I'm on a beach under a grey sky. The sea is green and churning, with a lot of thick foam. The sand is grey and rough, packed hard and cold under my feets. There's a heavy wind, the smell of the sea rushing around. There's a woman and a man here, in a hushed argument. Both are brown haired, the woman with a sloppy ponytail and the man with a shaggy cut. The woman is hugging something to her chest and the man is begging, his sweet, open face full of sadness and longing. She steps away from him and drop what she was hugging into the water, kicking it away in the waves. It's a pelt, a grey, shiny seal pelt, and it's melting in the sea, turning into seamfoam under the waves. The man, the selkie, is devastated, torn by the lost. He hugs himself, head low and shoulders hunched. I go to him, touching his arms lightly, try to confort him. He looks up to me, and his soft, milky skin is tanning at an accelerated pace, covering itself with layers unpon layers of heavy freckles, his cheeks reddening like the begining of a sunburn. I touch his jaw, his skin is hot and feverish. He takes my hands in his and his fingers are cold and wet.

Morning of April 3, 2016. Sunday.



I am present in a three-dimensional animated setting yet I do not perceive it as representing a cartoon or featuring cartoon characters. Scrooge McDuck has a large new airplane. Huey, Dewey, and Louie are present and look on at him in puzzlement regarding his “car repair” activities. We are apparently in the basement of one of his mansions.

It seems that Scrooge McDuck does not know that he has an airplane and instead thinks that he has a large fancy car. As a result, he thinks that the “car” could use a lot of work. This includes taking the propeller off the front as well as sawing off the wings.

In the end, it seems that he still might find it a bit difficult to drive the “car” up the stairs.

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The basement setting is autosymbolic of having been in deeper sleep prior to RAS mediation commencing.

The staircase is precursory autosymbolism that represents the liminal anticipation of the waking process, in this case, going up the staircase to achieve consciousness.

Scrooge McDuck as my preconscious avatar, rendered to correlate with the waking process dynamics, is in the usual preconscious scenario of resolving the vestibular system correlation inherent to the dream state, which is based on resolving the illusory physicality of the dream self. Both an airplane and a car typically represent the physical body in sleep as a factor of vestibular system correlation, but as an airplane flies, the transformation is autosymbolic of resolving that the real physical body is in bed, with the anticipation of the falling sensation typically experienced as a biological factor of the waking process no longer present.

With this dream type, my preconscious avatar has the essence of the emergent consciousness factor, which is shared by the potential of the car going up the stairs.

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2/4/16:
(Dreams from this morning so recall wont have too flash detail this late)
Dream 1: The people on camp and I were swinging from ropes.

Dream 2: I was in a cooking class about how to make bread. We made these square loaves which we put in a tin and in the oven to bake. I was talking with the instructor and asking them if it was normal for there to be flour left on the outside, and he said something like it depended on whether the crust was hard or soft. I think the bread turned out to be soft and spongey and quite nice, a little like Turkish bread.

Dream 3: I was either entering a train or a library, I'm not sure, and I was looking for a seat. I found one and went to sit in it and found myself sitting next to a girl I had asked out. We both met gazes and smiled awkwardly. We were silent for a bit, but then we started talking and it was clear she was still friendly towards me. I made her listen to one of my favourite songs and she seemed to like it. I think some other stuff happened after this but I've forgotten.

Dream 4: The people on the camp and I were involved in a business training session of some kind. We were in pairs and trying to persuade the other about all sorts of various topics.

I wrote this up earlier and forgot to post so I'm just going to write up a very brief version...

Dream 1 - Gingerbread man
Evil doctor gets put in a sarcophagus by these teenagers who wanted to act as the hand of justice. I'm an investigator and try to find him, I enter the crypt where he's supposed to be and find one of his evil experiments (a zombie). I'm in a room and the zombie is now a small gingerbread man with a missing leg. A delivery man enters and sits down, I tell him not to because the gingerbread man is under the table, it bites him and he gets infected. I try find it but it's missing, which means it's learned to crawl. Me and the man turn to look at one another and share the same thought of "Oh shit... It's... LEARNING?!?".

Dream 2 - Waterfall
I'm on a field trip with a bunch of people, it's a nice sunny day. We're on the side of a road taking a lunch break, there's a waterfall which everyone is keen to jump off but it's too high. A guy told me that my friend Daniel jumped off with goggles, I knew he was lying. I go find my friend Daniel and he tells me he didn't jump, he's also surrounded by girls. Everyone is now heading to jump off the waterfall (it's not too big anymore but it still is.. So it doesn't make sense). I catch up to the people at the back, one of them is a different Daniel I know. We're about to cross the railway, a train is coming so we have to wait while the rest of the class goes ahead. Now there's an obstacle course thing we're navigating, I lose Daniel and this other guy I was following and they hop onto a minecart. I just manage to spot them before they disappear into a wooden tunnel ride. I follow on foot and duck my head to crawl through the entrance. Eventually I catch up and I get pissy, "Where is the waterfall?!?! It was right in front of us so what the fuck is going on?!".
I didn't really understand it was a dream I guess.

I went to sleep again today around 11am, I just felt so comfy and tired and my cat cuddled up to me for a while. I had a similar dream again.. The same idea of trying to get something but not being able to do. It should be right in front of me but just keeps getting further away. Weird, I've only really just noticed that my dreams have a sort of underlying story theme. I'll try pay more attention to this I guess.

1) I was in a class and was asked to read. I looked at the page and couldn't understand the writing, looked back and it had changed. I knew immediately that I was dreaming, but looked at a hand to check and it looked very odd. For some reason I remember then thinking "I'm dreaming" but it shouldn't be like this, and lost lucidity immediately. I was then in a playground and I can't remember anything else from that dream.

2) Looking back over a skyline and seeing a tennis court with 2 high chairs at each end. Then I was playing football with a boy with a tennis ball.

3) Looking at a clockface, it was raised and golden. The clock was really old and in a wooden case. I was fiddling with the mechanism and adjusting how fast the clock was going. Then I was with someone else and it was like being in school we had to collect our drawings from the week, I collected a few they were some that I remember my children drawing when they were younger. Then I was in a university canteen chosing lunch. I looked at all the food and remember it in detail. There was a vegetarian moussaka, a girl sitting to the side had her elbow in the salad of the one I wanted and I was abit annoyed that she was touching it but decided to have it anyway. The serving lady said I had to eat the salad first then she would heat up the moussake. I ate the salad then she took it away to put it in a microwave. I looked at the time and notice dthat I had an appointment and couldn't be late so rushed off and didn't have time to eat. Other things happened that I can't remember. Then I was outside an old people's home and someone had been put into an ambulance thatset off on blue lights, it didn't go very fast and I was discussing with someone about why they bothered using blue lights.

4) I was stood by the front door of my childhood home. There were two black panthers outside, and I was struggling to lock the door so they couldn't come in. Then my family arrived home in the car, I could see my wife looking at the panthers. A young man was then fighting with one of them, he was losing and he was bleeding heavily from his neck. My family came over to the door with the young man, they were talking at the front door rather than getting in and I started kicking one of the panthers. I think I woke up then.

Fragment

It was evening. I went to toilet and back to my room. I thought about making a prank to my pal, and took a costume of a horrifying ghost - a woman with dark hair, wearing a white dress.

Second dream

I was at a wedding. With family we drove to a small restaurant, where a black woman in a purple dress was telling random stories and jokes about marriage and stuff. I didn't listened to her, going outside and entering sewers instead. It was dirty all around, but it wasn't stinking. I saw one of my classmates playing with spiders, and met a man working in sewers. He told the classmate how to tame spiders, and then he went away saying "I have to meet up with Irene! Goodbye!". I went back to surface and met my father, then I entered the toilet. I wanted to pee, but there were people disturbing me. First a girl entered my cabin, then my father just tore the door to it and thrown it away. I thought "Screw it, I'll just do this!" and started peeing blood.

I was dreaming that my first husband's family & I were all at some shopping mall & bowling alley but it was all abstract & jumpy like scenes. I don't know another word to describe it. It's like the scene changes all the time. Like we would be talking in a shower, at a table, in a restaurant that has those half wall looking things that have those glass cubes. We all were just talking about what to do about something but I can't remember what it was. It wasn't the normal banter w/ these ppl but it didn't feel real off either. Dreams about these ppl come & go because my first husband was the bio dad to my oldest son & my twin daughters. My current husband is their dad however & I am the mom to our youngest son (his bio mom is not in the picture). I would have remembered more but my Meesha (cat) was all over me during the night. I found out she has worms so I guess she wasn't very comfortable but I bought her some meds today & hope she calms down.

The first dream is from yesterday, I was too tired to put it here.

Space opera:
I'm in a gigantic spaceship, watching two men argue violently. One of them is obsviously military, trying to keep the other in rank. The other is some kind of scientist with psionics abilities, and he abrutly end the discution with what amoung to a force-shock, effectivly killing the military man. I run away before he sees me, along a curved corridor with lights embedded in the wall and shining white panels. I reach a vertical shaft cutting the corridor and flight myself upward using some kind of telekinesis, until I find a sas that open into a lab with a lot of people in lab coats, busy working. Some of them have a light halo around their heads, and are in charge of the other. I tug at the sleeves of the worker closer to me and gently levitate them into the sas. One of the man with a halo tells me "I'm not allowed to carry butterflies with me." I understand that butterfly is a slang to designate non-psionics peoples. I grab the railing and keep picking up the butterflies to get them away.


Relativity in time and space.
I'm in a big house, almost a manor, with another woman around my age. We're trying to protect a child from someone, and we have the help of a two men: a young, good-looking one with the face of a cursed poet and slighty curly brown hair, and a taller, more brutish one with a gentle streak. Both of them know of a place in which time is folded on itself, and the door keeps changing place. The poet seems to like me a lot and each time we find the door and get inside he welcomes me with a hug. The child, the woman and me keep changing outfits, matching the place and the time we get in each time the safe haven moves, leaving us behnd.

Preface
Sleep at midnight..
In the past many times, I've had dreams where I am a 3rd party watching a story. The people in the dreams are unknown to me in real life, but they seem strangely familiar. I attach myself to a character in the story and I feel emotions.

DR1
I am watching a rockband, that has a female singer. She's thin and tall with long dark brown hair. She has a boyfriend in her band, but it's not clear what instrument he plays. Immediately, I attach myself to her, and it feels as if I am hovering over her or standing behind her, wherever she goes.
The band is talking to their manager, about a gig they are going to play soon. The girl isn't too happy because things aren't ready. I feel the emotion of frustration.
Her boyfriend tries to calm her, and it works. She and I feel secure when he touches her hand.
The band is outside, in the evening time, walking towards a stage. However, they have to walk through an area of people, fans. The girl has a beautiful body, so she likes to wear clothes that show her stomach. But she doesn't really like people staring at her (I think this is odd but I roll with it)and so she is constantly covering her bare mid drift with her hands. When she does so, we both feel naked in front of the crowd. She stops and starts to feel violated and panicked. Her boyfriend comes up behind her and puts his arm across the lower half of her back. Instantly, we feel better, and we keep walking. All is well.