non-lucid

D1 - Large dark tarot cards are laying side by side,vertically. They transform into animated scenes, CGI . Then they become youtube channels.
There are some very unseemly guys on a youtube channel, doing very unseemly things, totally fake.

D2 - A dark boat boat is in very dark waters, the wood old and chared. In the boat is the body of a dead man, dressed in victorian clothes. The mans widdow, dressed in a dark grey cloak, is standing on a narrow wooden jetty, looking down over the man. She holds a large grail in her hand filled with dark cold water.
She is protective of her dead husband, and says I am unworthy even though I am alive and he is dead. She is a woman of ill repute.

D3 - I am making a large amount of outfits from stencils , pining them on manikins and laying out large rolls of red and white fabric, with writing on it.
I am working out how much I can make and how much it will cost. I do not want to give these away as it will cost many thousands but feel it is my duty, begrudgingly I continue.

D4 - My daughter is a toddler and it is her birthday in the dream. I am putting together some kind of animation from a game she likes, it becomes I am not sure what. I feel she will be disappointed but try to get things read. I display it on a large projector screen, infront of a table filled with party food.
there is some time before her guest's arrive. I go out. I am on a track riding a small bike. I have no idea when the party will begin and after passing a small boy on a green tracktor that blocked my path, I turn back.
I am physically unable to go back, no matter how I grag the bike. I then find I am also lost and desperation and dread fill me.
Trying to get back I walk dragging the bike, past a sea front amusement, it is empty apart from some teenagers standing together on the rain strewn concrete floor. I try to sneak past them feeling very ashamed. They see me and jeer at me. I struggle on.

I had a dream w/ my husband in it yesterday & my memory just went blank after a few minutes after I woke up, which was unfortunate since my husband was in it. I had taken a nap due to lack of sleep still hoping for a LD but when I woke up I was running really late to go check on my mother in law. Family first. I was glad to find she was having a better day & her Alzheimer's/ Dementia wasn't so bad during our visit. That made me feel good to have her there in the here & present for a while.....

Today I had a non-lucid dream about trying to get my job back at a Long John Silvers (LJS). I had this job in real life another lifetime ago after I left my first husband & my boss was pretty descent to me cuz I was a single mom. Anyway he said sure & I started working right then in my dream but soon the scene changed & it was another LJS. Again the scene changed all together into another dream. This one was very abstract. It started out w/ me looking for someone in some strange trailer park & I came across a man I'd never met but he was very handsome. He took me into some big factory w/ all of these big cogs & strange ppl. We were all going to watch a movie or something there. It was like among these cogs there were cars & ppl were pairing off to watch some movie. Then for some odd reason my first POS husband was there & wanted to sit by me & the handsome man came over & rescued me from that crazy scenario. Then I woke up.

I'm in a room, near an open window that's quite near to the floor and about a square meter big. An animal is tied on a leash at one of the legs of a sofa. The animal has the same "blond" colour as our two Labradors, but it's not like them, it's more like a giant blond fox. Then a big black bear sticks its head into the room through the open window. I see its head in a lot of detail. Its snout is quite long. The eyes have an opaque appearance like those of our old dog, who doesn't see very well any more. The "blond fox" pulls the leash to try to approach the bear. I push the head of the bear back out of the window a bit, because I'm afraid they might get aggressive when they get too close to one another. I say to the bear: "I'm sure you'd like a piece of cheese, don't you?" and I turn around to cut a piece on the table/counter nearby.

I had a look at photo's of black bears on the internet and I'm quite amazed at the accuracy of what I saw in my dream. Apparently I know quite well what they look like

Preface:
I went to bed around 11ish or so. I am more mentally tired today than physically tired.
I go so sleep thinking about dream yoga.

Side Note: I could not get Loretta Lynn out of my head yesterday. I don't like country music but Coal Miner's Daughter got stuck in my head without me physically hearing it.

DR 1
In a gym...I'm doing gymnastics on a balance beam. I'm watching myself do back-flips on the beam and I'm actually pretty good. Watching myself, but I am feeling all of the movement. My movements are controlled, but it still doesn't wake me up.

DR 2
I go to visit my mom. She is happy, living in a little house or apartment, I can't tell. She is going to show me something in her bedroom, so I follow her into a nice sized room. There is a king sized bed in the room, and there is natural light coming from a window at the back. There is this little white dog (looks like a terrier) jumping around following her around. The dog is excited to see both of us, and I am thinking, "oh he is so cute! Where did she get him?"

DR 3
I have to pick up a package, so I go to a building across town. It has a walkway..I have to walk a ways to get there. Whatever I came to pick up isn't there. Two guys (tall, lanky, grimy looking guys) are sitting at a table. One of them has dark blonde greasy hair and darker facial hair. They look like they are in jail, but the place isn't a jail. He says he has a letter for me. He holds it up. I wake up before I can grab it.

Morning of April 7, 2016. Thursday.



There is a backstory to my dream of having collected water from a shallow pond. I am not sure of the setting or its location. My sister Marilyn (half-sister on my mother’s side) is nearby and as she appeared before I moved to Florida in 1967. My family as they are now are also present at one point.

I look into the water and below the surface I see many implied one-celled animals (which you can only clearly see with a microscope in real life). Marilyn also looks on.

I see a glowing transparent centipede, swimming downwards (which puzzles me since I know centipedes are not aquatic), forming a moving staircase shape (like a mobile escalator) eventually going out of sight. The one-celled animals (mainly protozoa) swim down out of sight but are visible at other times.

Eventually, a small fish jumps up out of the “aquarium” which surprises Marilyn. I am somewhat surprised as well, because I thought I had gotten the water from a pond that was not deep enough to be suitable for fish. I am not sure where the fish is after the jump, perhaps on the floor. (A fish out of water represents the dreamer coming out of the dream and as a result, my dream shifts to the waking transition.)

Later, I am holding an antlion larva. Over time, I notice blood on the tip of one of my fingers. It seems that it had been biting me (even though they do not bite in my experience). However, it also seems to instead be the result of a hangnail. Still, I ask my sister whether or not antlions eat people.

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Again, a fish is a projection of the dream self in the dream state (and water represents sleep and the flow of thoughts in the dream state). The one-celled animals may be a reference to minor neuron activity or a subliminal association with other dreamers. An aquarium is a downsized focus on the dream state itself, representing the human mind on one level.

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The unlikely “phasing” centipede swimming in the water represents a shift in consciousness. In this case, as it swims deeper, it forms a symbolic staircase to link to the nonlinear events throughout my life and down into the depths of the unconscious. This is evident by the link to a version of the original childhood “Taboo” dream (sparsely recurring, no more than perhaps four times) and upon checking, I found markers and parallels. It has the same basic setup; that is, looking at an aquarium of (visible to the naked eye) one-celled animals, though this was in third grade in 1970, one version found to be on today’s date exactly forty-six years ago (and which appears to have been partially influenced by the movie “Jigsaw”, about a man finding a body submerged in a bathtub). I have not held antlion larva much since third grade. This ending element represents a typical waking transition because an adult antlion resembles a dragonfly, which is a flight symbol. The bloody finger may be an association with our youngest son’s hangnail. The reference to “eating people” is a reference to coalescence and the dream self merging into whole consciousness during the waking transition (especially the association with “lion” as a lion is often a form of the more aggressive emergent consciousness). Also, an antlion is shaped somewhat like a human thumb, where my youngest son’s hangnail was. The antlion’s mandibles may be an association with the hangnail itself.

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Other phasing staircase references (as the “water centipede” in this dream) can be found in dreams such as “Rocket Science?” (July 2, 1976), where a sheet of typing paper mysteriously “rolls” down from the ceiling (which represents the liminal state between sleeping and waking) and forms a staircase pattern or brief “escalator”. This focus greatly intensified that dream. A similar event occurs in “White Noise Staircase” (February 21, 2014). Identifying phasing staircases may be beneficial, since I believe that it may also be relevant to a deeper bond with the Source and wholeness, as a staircase is a link between sleeping, dreaming, and waking).

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A centipede may be a dream’s rendering of the human spinal cord. In water (as in this dream) it serves as both a reminder of the human physical form as such and immersion in the dream state via the staircase or escalator metaphor. On one level it is the energies of my unconscious awareness returning to the Source. In the first version of “Taboo” from 1970, it was more about “sea monkeys” (brine shrimp) on one level. These “sea monkeys” also represent the human spinal cord.

Tonight I was very tired and memories have been few...

I'm with a co-worker, he has a lot of work and also he does not know how to do some of the tasks, he asks me for help.

I'm with friends at a bar in which there are many people, in a moment I decide to go to another part of the bar and I see a table on which there are also many people. I meet a girlfriend I did not see a long time. At first I am ashamed to have to get close, but then I think better and we greeted cordially.

Starting to get exhausted from work again, so recall dropping.

1) I was a student again and went to visit a friend at halls of residence. My wife was with me. We arrived at the halls and went to the shop another friend gave us bags of dirty clothes and asked us to give them to the other friend to wash. We walked to a phone box and phoned. He wasn't in, so we went up to visit someone else. There were a group of people there. I was looking through the wiring of the phone system and thinking how complicated it was. Then we phoned through to the original friend and got his girlfriend on the phone, she kept me hanging on for ages and wouldn't give me her flat number, eventually she gave me her floor number and said to phone when we got to the floor, I promised to be really quick and just hand over the clothers to be washed. I noticed the time and said to my wife that we had half an hour to do that, drive home, eat lunch then get to lectures.

I had an interview in the morning which I had a stressful dream about, I got the job though!
Not very detailed with this write-up because I left it quite late.

Dream 1 - Work stress
I was in some kind of competition to be a butler, like the one that happens in the Maid-Sama anime. I had to grab my clothes and get changed, but the person who was supposed to help me out completely fucked up. I couldn't find my shirt or anything and he was supposed have gotten it for me, I just got really stressed out because I was one of the last people to rush into the changing room and I was almost out of time.

Dream 2 - Jungle + pumpkins
From what I can remember there was some kind of competition (another one?) to do with a bunch of small groups getting together to collect certain items. We had a small wheeled tray which we put these items in, at first I was unenthusiastic about it because all the items would be compiled and shared between all the groups, so there wasn't actually a need for me to do anything. But I seem to get skeptical about this and also felt like it'd be a dick move to just leave it to my other group members to do the collecting. We're in a jungle-like area which opened up to a small grassy area with trees surrounding it. We have to get a pumpkin so we put that in the tray, but I notice that there's a giant slice of tomato (Like 1 metre long) in the tray. Gross, you just dumped the pumpkin on the giant tomato, now it's all slimy -.-... I move the pumpkin a bit so it's not on top anymore.

D₁-I was at my sisters TKD school watching people break cement plates (with their fingertips, heel kicks, etc.) whenever I decided it looked fun so I started screwing around and breaking some. There was this metal wall with parts of it had hollow cement plates so you could work on accuracy, thinking it'd be interesting to see if I could actually break the cement plates I started fingertip thrusting and bladder striking the plates out of their socket. The plates wouldn't break but would fly out and spin like crazy in the air. My sisters instructor asked me if I wanted to actually go to the class and I was feeling happy-go-lucky so I agreed. He started showing me how to stretch for a 180° round kick. He kept repeating, slow and steady, slow and steady.

Dream skip

D₂-I visited a church I went to as a child and started going to the youth group regularly (even though I'm in college). My friend's brother, Jacob, started to sit beside me whenever I came. One day (mind you this is all a dream) a girl started hanging all over him before our bible session started and he looked over at me with a *please help me she won't get off* kinda look. Feelin bad for the guy I walked over and said," Oh hey mind if I borrow him for a bit, his boyfriend texted me the other day and you know how catty he can get if he's given the silent treatment for too long." The girl scrunched her face up into the ugliest, snobbiest look a person could possibly make and got up out of his lap (she had previously straddled him). Jacob's face was bright pink the whole time.

6/4/16
Dream 1: I was studying this small model of a huge chinese temple/castle thing, it was extremely intricate and quite fascinating to look at. I saw that it was in the pantry, and I realised that it had come with some lollies and chocolates. These were all gone, however, so I stormed over to my brother and asked him if he had eaten them all. He said he had, and I got a bit mad at him.

Dream 2: I was at home after graduating from high school. My dad came in my room the day after and handed me a whole stack of pink flyers. He said they were related to the graduation so I picked one up and read it. It had a few photos of the graduation ceremony on it, but also it had a checklist about a dream contest. Intrigued, I looked at it and saw there were two streams, beginner and advanced. One was to recall at least 1 dream for 7 days in a row, the other was to have a dream about a particular place for 10 days in a row an on the last day or earlier get lucid.

Dream 3: I was on a train in a fancy carriage where a few friends and I were invited to the breakup party of Slice the Cake. I walked up to one of the members of the band and it turned out he was actually someone from the year below me in high school. He talked to me for a bit and then another member called for silence and then gave a speech.

Dream 4: I was playing Skyrim, somehow though I was out the back of my house carrying around an enchanted dragonbone sword which I had just got. I then was inside the game proper and looked around. I saw a long sloping hill to the right of me where I thought I needed to go, so I walked up there. About two thirds of the way up I saw a stone altar and a few guys around there. I charged in full of zeal and sliced them to bits, all under the watchful gaze of a giant who happened to be right near me. I sheathed my sword and looked around at the altar and the giant, then looked at the sky and saw these purple clouds moving across with sunbeams and crepuscular rays everywhere. It was quite beautiful.

Dream 5: I was studying a map of some kind, where there was a small waterfront village. One house had a pier going off into the semi frozen river, whereas the other house's pier was sunken, however it had a giant fishing net dipped into the river to catch fish.

Dream 6: I created a pasta dish for the Queen, who turned out to really enjoy it and call it 'the Italian dish'. I was then hired as a cook for the queen, which was thrilling.

Dream 7: I met up with some old friends who are now all at different universities. One of them was at Monash and said it really overrated and there was no support there. Another said that all of the old universities were on the way down and newer ones like Swinburne and Deakin were soon going to rival the best American universities.

Dream 8: I was driving through the city with my brother and dad. We were planning some sort of heist and buying all of these plastic bag like things. WE ended up at a very tall building and my dad unveiled the plan. We were going to eat our way through all 17 storeys and then fly out from the top using the plastic things as capes. He went first, keeping just ahead of the guards as he made it to the top. I think for some reason though he didn't jump out, maybe he ran out of plastic bags, so he got escorted back down to try again. I think I tried to do it as well but I don't know how I went.

Dream 9: I was on a train I believe and I approached a guy and asked him if he wanted to buy a house. I had $2 million dollars and I needed $4 million for house, or something like that. He seemed a it skeptical, but as he had the required money I told him I would cover part of the cost if he let me stay were he had been renting previously. After some deliberation he agreed, happy to live in his own home, so we settled on he agreement. Later I went to where he previously was, and saw it was basically a large shed with another guy in there. He had guns and flags on the walls and was on a motorised scooter. I was starting to regret my decision but the guy said everything was fine and the roommate looked scary but was really fine.

Dream 10: I was playing Skyrim, my brother came up to me and was complaining about how I was in Morthal instead of Markarth, whingeing about how it wasn't even a real city and stuff like that.

I was on a roadside with someone. It was deep within a forest. I thought that I'm hungry and that next passing truck should have some food. A truck appeared quickly and with the other person we jumped on top of it. The driver was heading towards nearby city, we were talking with him on our way. The other passenger, which I can't quite recall have taken a laptop out of the truck trailer and thought about taking one of these, buying it before it reached destination. I looked at the screen and saw that it traces it's position, so he'd have to get to a shop anyway. We reached the town. I checked how many money I have on my bank account, and it showed over nine millions. I still thought that I'm poor and can't afford anything though.

D1 - Trying to make some financial transactions but have to cross stepping stones round the side of a dark lake to get to bank Oo
D2 - Again on a lake, a father is dressed in a crown and a dress, he is swimming just off a little island, with a house on it. His daughter is talking to him. Ok?
D3- At work new people are being shown around, I follow them through corridors, past water coolers and potted plants.
D4 -Looking after a new class, will they do as I say? or will there be a mutiny? it's a close call. but all goes ok despite my nerves being on edge.
D5 - Repeating dream
List of classes in a book. I'm being asked if I have signed up for a xmas performance number. I have to choose and practise as the last minute, as per usual.

Preface:
Bed around 11:30 pm. Went to yoga, was exhausted and my body was/still is aching. I notice on the days that I am super tired, I don't recall my dreams very well at all. And...many activities deter dream recall, I am noticing....

FRAGMENT
I was working on something with a group of people. It was harmonious, no turbulence. And it was actually a first person dream. That's all I can recall.

I dreamed I was at a school trying to find a way to reach the inside, all the doors were gated. I came up on this group of people trying to smuggle weapons inside the school. After i told them I would not help them, they started shooting. They shot at me, they shot at the building, they shot cars, and just went nuts shooting in the air. Everyone ran out of the school and thats when I woke up.

I go with my wife to the home of a famous Spanish politician who is now retired. There are many people in the house and they received us very well. We all sat around a table and my wife begins to tell her story when she was working in a construction company, she says to them issues of economy. Meanwhile, I'm eating, they have offered me a dish that I find delicious, I look at the ingredients that attract my attention, I think it takes peppers and some other ingredients that can not identify, I like it very much, the dish has a large amount of food, but I think I'm going to eat it all. Then I go out with the host outside the house, there is a large garden and have many animals, on the far side I see a group of young cows playing with some children, near me I see several dogs and cats. We go back into the house and my wife is still talking to several people, she is excited and she is crying because the topics that she talks about are important to her. I sit back down at the table and I eat again, this time is something sweet, a kind of chocolate cake stuffed with pistachios and I like a lot. They treat us very well and we are at ease, I think it's great that a person who is known publicly invite us to his home and also my wife can unburden telling her stories.