non-lucid

Woke up around 5:45 AM and decided to try taking a sore throat lozenge with menthol to see if it affected dreams. I also thought about attempting a WILD. However, I ended up dozing off too quickly. Also, the lozenge still hadn't fully dissolved by the time I woke up at 8:15 AM, so I don't think there was enough in my system to make an impact.

I'm home alone, so I think I can strip down to a tank top and panties while walking around the house. While I'm in the kitchen, I hear a noise from the entryway. I'm initially nervous because I'm not expecting anyone. I peek around a corner and see Lady Diana Spencer (from her Shy Di days before getting married). She seems to want to hang out like she's my big sister. I'm a little befuddled for a moment, not sure if I should point out to her that technically, she's dead. She also makes a reference to my upcoming wedding, but I can't remember if I'm engaged or not. I start wondering if maybe she means that I'll be marrying one of Charles's younger brothers. While Di gets comfortable, I am distracted by the sight of my winter boots near the doorway. They look like they've been worn in deep snow, and I feel I need to polish them before they get stained.

I woke up before Diana and I could really get talking. It would have been interesting to see what she had to say.

All that I can remember is that I was starting to chew on some steel cables (about 1/4 of an inch thick), and the more I chewed on it the more it became like normal chewing gum. I think there was gravel on the ground surrounded by trees. There was also a beautiful girl there. I can't remember her face but I remember it was very pretty.

There was another dream that I recorded in my dream journal. unfortunately my DJ is audio, so I couldn't make out anything that I was saying.

Supplement Dose: 3 York Peppermint Patties

#1 - Temporary Apartment [Non-Lucid]

This dream is sort of hard to remember because I was distracted for most of it, but I was at some new apartment with my parents that I think we were moving into, but only temporarily. We might have just been staying there for a bit, but it was only us (i.e., we weren't staying with someone). I remember that my mom was looking for my cat to feed him, and he was eventually found to be hiding under the coffee table in the living room, and I was kind of narrating this all to myself and making a log of it in my phone. I think I was also posting on DV somehow, but then I woke up, really horny for *cough* some reason.

#2 - Make Yourself At Home [Non-Lucid]

I was staying in some pretty big house, housesitting for the owners. My libido was running pretty strong in this dream. There were two dogs there that I was supposed to be looking after but I needed to get them out of the way, so I put them in the laundry room or something and closed the door, then spontaneously decided to masturbate on the kitchen floor. o.o I decided to have the lights off for it, but I think turning them off caused the dream to skip forward to the next scene. I vaguely remember the blackness and feeling myself on the floor for a second, but then my memory picks up again later where I had apparently invited J to come over and hang out with me there. While I was talking to him about something I had the random urge to look down at what I was wearing. If I remember correctly, I had on what appeared to be a small, fancy black dress skirt paired with a totally ordinary orange t-shirt. For some reason, this only increased my horniness. (I think it was the skirt that did it. >w<) Somehow, around this time the plot changed to be so that there was a family party going on at this house, which also contained a buffet restaurant in it now. I sampled a ton of different food which I felt and tasted completely, it was all pretty delicious, except for some guacamole at the end which is unfortunately the only one I vividly remember. X) I recall my cousin AB asking me about it, and I told her it wasn't very fresh anymore. Before that too, at some point, I was talking to my grandma about different foods I was looking for, and she told me to try to find some sausage but I told her I'd rather get some bacon. (Oh man, that would be great right about now....) Shortly after the guacamole thing, though, I woke up.

(i recall multiple dream fragments)
1) one other person and i are on a small raft in the ocean, the sun is setting and we paddle towards it, 2)it is night time, i wonder a urban area and find a area where there are 5 to 10 dog houses in the parking lot of a store i see a dog in one and a lady wearing a fur coat tells me "i don't want him growing up to be mean so don't harm him" in a slightly annoyed voice. 3) my triops hatch and i feed them as they swim in their tank. 4) my friend and i are in a school kitchen and they give up peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, as i eat it i taste the most offensive flavor i believe i have ever tasted, its like soap mold and skunk .they ask our opinion and i try to politely say it wasn't good but what i end up saying is "its ok" 5)there is a mechanical spider and a biological spider on the floor, the biological spider got stepped on and someone starts telling me about how "nothing is indestructible but machines."

Dream 1: I had almost become lucid because I dreamed that I had broken one of my teeth. I went to the dentist and I kept saying "This can't be real. I must be dreaming." I did a reality check, but it didn't work. I couldn't breathe through my nose. I was also fighting some war, too. Beyond frustrating.

Dream 2: AGAIN, I almost became lucid, but the reality check failed. I dreamed that everynight I would go out and fly to try and go to some camp to help out with something (I think it was fighting a creature or something.) I ran out of my house and then onto the street. At first, I thought I wasn't going to fly. I started running and then I began to fly. It was a great feeling. I had trouble controlling it, though. I kept drifting and I couldn't really do much else besides float there. Some other people were flying as well, lol. I remember thinking of my fear of heights, but I didn't care.

07.10.2012

Nuke Building Infiltration (Non-lucid)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

This picture is from the Peace Walker game of Metal Gear Solid, but it's the only one that reminds me of the Nuke Building at the moment.

I'm going to focus on the environment and people in the dream, because I honestly don't know why I'm back to infiltration again.

I think I'm going to take Melanieb's advice on paying attention to your environments to make even the shortest dreams pretty long.

I remember standing at an enclosed section, and it's basically an almost perfect replica of the first floor of the Nuke building in Metal Gear Solid 1.

This means that in order for the environment to stay true to the original stage, I couldn't fire any weapons, otherwise the whole place explodes. Which explains why things were a little intense for me.

I had to pay attention to a lot of the guards' movements, sometimes even having to wait it out several times to make sure they didn't have to alter their patrol route.

And like the original stage, there were some floors that I had to be careful stepping on, because if I tried to run, it will make more noise than usual.

Those same floors had some ventilation paddings on them, so they would make that loud "clank clank clank" sound if I were to go over them. I think I was controling Naked Snake, not Solid Snake, because the outfit I/he was wearing was from MGS3, so it couldn't have been Solid Snake.

Hmm....I'm still having that doubt of whether or not I'm controlling someone in a video game, if it's me, or it's both me controlling and being that person simultaneously.

It felt weird for him to have that kind of outfit suited for jungle sneaking in a nuke building. The atmosphere had a slight yellow hue to it, and it was so apparent, it's like I was inhaling and exhaling energy.

The outfit was the generic one in MGS3, the same outfit used when Snake did the HALO jump

The common behaviors for me in this dream were being fearful, because I couldn't let an enemy fire a gun in a nuke building, and the other is a surprise.....I was still calm. I felt a neutrality from my emotions of fear and cautious nature, and I could feel and hear myself breathing for once.

It's just that all I focus on is sight and more specific sounds like gunfire, foot steps, or even people having a conversation, but never anything that I'm exhibiting like breathing, etc.

After I figured out the guards' movements, I think things fast forward a little bit.......literally. It was like watching a video clip on some kind of survival stimulation, it was crazy, I was so close to one of the guard's backs, that the only reason I could do that is if I knew this area inside and out.

I think this is why the dream itself fast forward like crazy.

I think the reason I had this dream, was probably because of my desire to meet my eternal self, or just to go to the Akashic Records again.

But what I don't understand is that if that were the case, and knowing that the Akashic Records can be acesses at any time, but because of the brain's mechanism of trying to define the "phenomenon" or "location," it seems it wants to make this information for me to obtain difficult than it should be.

I honestly am not the type for these infiltration missions, I mean sure I like sneaking games and all that, but if it were actually me on the battlefield or in a building, I would definitely need a guide, or do the analyzing of guard movement to even stand a chance.

Maybe it's not my subconscious' way of perceiving the confidentiality of the Akashic Records, maybe it's something my higher self/eternal self is trying to show me.

I know I have a few things to take care of that can affect my future right now, but these are mostly short term things that must be resolved, but again, none of which that are deserving for this type of dream environment to be manifested before me.

I could conclude that these dreams should teach me to not try to rush things that are dangerous and life-threatening such as the nuke building I was in. But even with something so obvious as that, there has to be more.....I can't just be in a nuke building, or whatever military building without some kind of reason.

And if that reason turns out just to be for the thrill or adventure, then I guess I need to change how I get that need met in my dreams.

I've also noticed something, but was too afraid to analyze. It's so obvious, but still, in my non-lucids, I'm usually always in some kind of infiltration.

Actually, let me rephrase that, nearly all sneaking missions, gunfire, killing, military, infiltration, etc. are all non-lucid states.

My lucid dreams are obviously geared towards real life environments like colleges, houses I've been to, etc., things related to the subconscious utilizing homologous variation to synch the piece together.

I know that if I wanted a sneaking mission in a lucid state, it probably wouldn't work out because I'm not that creative as yet in the lucid state. I know I can use archetypes to easily manifest these types of dreams, but maybe I just don't want to do that in my lucids.

It would probably just feel like a waste, and I would only do it if I was bored.

Hm.....guess I should be aware of those differences.

And if I end up having bad recall, I'll just be grateful for what I do remember, and recall as much detail as I can in that confined snippet, and remember more based on that.

It's something I've done frequently, but it's just because I'm slacking off a bit because I'm being distracted in waking life a lot, at least in Canada.

I guess that's a good thing, because I'm supposed to be doing things here in the first place, otherwise the money for the trip wouldn't have been worth it, right?

I was on a river in a very small boat which seemed to have no motor about to go tubing with one of my good friends Tylor but instead i got out and was just walking the beach and the water felt really incredible against my legs. Then i woke up.

Signs of a Dream:
unknown whereabouts
properties of water were abnormal
boat wasn't even big enough to pull a tube without a motor (realized this, didn't seem important at the time since he already left)

In the middle of the day in a unknown location, some idiot was tricking a very beautiful foreign lady in to having sex with him at a park across the street from me and couple other acquaintances who i couldn't identify. She started taking her clothes off and when she got to her undergarments i suddenly appear over there telling her something so enlightening she stops what she is doing and tells the guy off. She seemed to have a new view of how nice a guy could truly be.

Signs of a dream:
teleporation
suddenly she was clothed again
there was no confrontation with the guy
i didn't know the park we were at

Date: 09/07/2012
Place: My bed
Time of getting into bed: 12.05am
Consumed 2 x Menthol sweets right before bed
B6 100mg before bed

Waking thoughts in black
Non lucid dreams in blue
Lucid dreams in red


Ok, so I am pretty tired, but not exhausted. I lay to sleep and feel the sleepy onset, but something keeps me awake. I feel a little weird, nothing major, but as I fall asleep I'm sure I have strange thoughts sliding through my head. My first reaction is that I'm catching myself as I start dreaming, which I often do when WILDing, but this should be NREM cycle. Eventually I sleep, and I'm woken every 5 minutes by a feeling of fear. I'm not sure why. At one point I open my eyes in fright with a sudden jump, and really feel like I'm having a nightmare - but I don't recall any dreams. Eventually I sleep for good.

Dream 1 - 2.23am
I am in a room, which is kind of dark, and I'm helping a vet. The vet is friendly, but I honestly don't recall weather they were male or female. There is a bed and a desk (bedroom?) but we are facing the desk. So the vet first brings out a dog. It is old and skinny, and very scared. For a bit in this dream there is someone else there, watching and at some points laughing, but they disappear. The vet has the dog tied up to the desk, and the dog looks scared, it's a wiry mutt, kind of like a large terrier. It's pretty ugly. It has big, brown eyes that are filled with sadness, and it stares up at me, silently begging me for help. I can't believe how skinny it is, we proceed to wash the dog, or at least cover it in something that drenches it. The vet tells me the dog will be ok. Then this is where it get's a little weird.Next, the vet brings out a horse. The horse is the size of a rabbit, but a fully formed adult horse in every way. It is clearly in pain, as it is about to give birth. It jumps onto the desk, and starts giving birth, and I can see the baby inside!!! The horse is brown and the baby is black and white. The baby seems to fly out easily, and I am given it to clean up while the vet sorts out the mother horse. I take it to the bed (which is apparently my bed) and lay it down. The horse is contained inside a balloon-like sack, filled with liquid. The vet shouts that I must get it out, as it can't get out itself. So I try to open the sack but it rolls around the bed, making it difficult. It is like a water balloon, and very slippery. Eventually I manage to rip one end and the liquid spurts out - it's water like consistency but it is really warm, and soaks everything, including me. There's a mirror just laying on the bed, with a heavy gold guilt frame, and this gets soaked too. My bed sheets are soaked, (they are purple and black silk) but despite all this, I am incredibly happy. I can't stop smiling and watching the water spurt everywhere. The vet kind of laughs, and says 'you'll have trouble sleeping in there tonight.' but I just don't care, I'm delighted.

What in the actual fuck. Lol. The most poignant part of this dream was the real warmth of the hot liquid, and the vivid feel of the horse in the sack. It suddenly dawned on me when writing this that it felt EXACTLY like the chick from yesterday's dream.

Dream 2 - 4.11am
I am writing a story, on small pieces of paper. I think it is aimed at young children. (This is what I do for a living.) The story is about 2 little boys, who cross a road, and one dies. As I get to the end of the story, my real dad walks in. Bearing in mind I haven't seen my real dad since I was about 14, I'm 25 now. He was an abusive father, who caused me a lot of issues growing up. I hardly EVER dream about him. He walks in, clearly angry, but I ignore him as this is usual for him. He does this thing that he used to do, which is strut around the room shaking his head in anger, and glancing at me every so often with a weird look in his eyes. I know this is not good, but I pretend not to see him and carry on writing. He starts saying something about people not listening to him, and he's been doing everything and I think he's talking about my mum. He lays his head on the desk in the room (I am in a bedroom, I'm laying on the bed) and then suddenly, he walks in the room again. So, there are now 2 of him. The one that has just walked in is carrying a frozen chicken, and a bottle of something, and a balloon that has not yet been inflated. He sets these things down and looks at us both. He then tells us that we better get up quick, cos we're going to play a trick on mum! He starts putting the chicken inside the balloon. I really don't want to join in, but I can't say no. My dad that was already in the room, looks like he's pissed off at the other version of himself, but also agrees to help.

Dream 3 - 9.47

I tried to WILD, and started feeling results. For me, I don't get noticable SP or HH, just a rush as I transition. I felt the rush several times, and when I finally started getting dream images forming around me, my partner decided to roll over and hit me in the face. I RC'd just to make sure, but I was awake. Annoying. I went to sleep.

I was very bad at writing this dream down, I was so tired I kept saying 'I'll write it in a minute...I'll remember,' then fell back to sleep. I did wake 5 minutes later and write it down, but I lost most of the dream. I normally do this in later morning dreams, I have to learn not to.

I'm at R's house. R is a very close friend. Just a friend. For some reason I am there to say goodbye, like I am leaving town or something. It is a bit sad but not too much. And then R says he is at work and will be home soon, that I should meet him at his place. I make my way to his place, and suddenly realise I am completely naked. I am trying to find my way through a hotel-like building, or block of flats. The doors are all black with ornate details, and I'm struggling to find where I need to be. Two girls pass by and start laughing at me because I'm naked. I'm a little embarrassed, but ignore them. They won't go away, so I look down and now I'm wearing a dressing gown. It's purple, but I don't care I'm just happy I'm covered! The girls eventually leave. I finally get to the room and have some trouble messing around with the key, but I do get in in the end. There is no one inside. Now I'm sure this is the same dream, but it doesn't relate to the beginning, I just sort of find myself in a garden somewhere else, fully dressed. I am sat at a garden table, with my friend I's son on my lap. His son is talking like an adult, and asking me what words mean. He asks me what bank means, I tell him. Then he asks me what house means, I tell him. This goes on for a little while. I is hanging around the background somewhere.

Dream 4 - 11.51
We are in a room, is is pretty dim and I remember very red. We is me, R and I, as well as my friend D. We are watching a screen, and it's a bit like an interactive game. We throw baby toys at this screen, to kill a monster. It's very fun. One of my friends has to leave for an important meeting, I tell him to stay, because it's so fun. He resists, but eventually reluctantly agrees to miss his important meeting. The game plays recordings it took of us earlier without us knowing, we find this hilarious and laugh a lot.

There is another dream after, but I forgot it almost instantly.

i was in a wood building with tons of rooms then a bunch of dudes went in and started holding people hostage so i looked in all the rooms and people where tied up then i got to the closet and my freind calvin was tied up and this guy had a knife to his throat and he said go away or ill kill him and calvin was crying but i didnt care and i wanted to wake up so i pulled out a gun and shot my self and i woke up.

Non-dream Dream

Fragment 1:

I am at an herbal medicine shop and I want to purchase magnesium supplements. I sit down with DGS, a guy from my bowling league, and some lady I don't know. DGS tells me that my vitamin B6 levels are too high from jacking off (he used a phrase I have never heard of to describe this but somehow I knew he meant jacking off).

Fragment 2: Hiking dream

Date: 07/10/2012

I don't really know where to start exactly, since I'm writing this way past the time I wrote it down and I only have some notes...

I was in my friend's Jeep (Jere) and we were coming back from some place. I'm not really sure where, but for some reason we started talking about the fact that I had some clean clothes at my grandmothers. He had taken me home, and I had gone to meet up with my mom.

After meeting up with my mom, I was waiting in line or something of the sort. I know I was standing at least , and there was my mother, me, my sister, and some weird little girl who had to be around the age of 7. I don't know who or why she was there, or at least I definitely don't remember. My sister was somehow on really good terms with my mother all of a sudden (Had a lot of recent family issues that have made her non-existent in the family...) and we were talking about me going up to the shop to get some more tattoo work done. My sister was saying that she was planning on getting some new work done, and that we should schedule together. I told her I couldn't, because I already had a date scheduled, which happened to be the next day (in the dream world I guess). Anyways, we got to the shop, and it was really late. The shop would've been usually closed, but for some reason it was open. G had greeted us, and instead of her usual dark brown/black hair that she has, it was really bright blonde with a red streak... kinda weird. I had told my mom something about why they were the best in town or something, and I had asked Gina why they were open so late. Turns out D had apparently gone out swimming all day and closed shop, and decided to open it later and keep it open a little later.. She had asked if I would like to see the sketch of what she had come up with for some idea. The idea apparently was an elephant. I can't remember the exact details of it, but I do know it was definitely an elephant. While she was talking to me about the idea and such, I sort of spaced out and I had checked my email via my phone at some point..

Well, the first thing I remember is that I was in my basement setting up this huge flatscreen tv. Once I had finished setting it up, lo and behold... there was my dear old Sega Genesis!!! I couldn't believe it. In real life my parents sold it and my Dreamcast one time I was gone and made me, let's just say, REALLY ANGRY!!! So I was pretty pleased to see it there. Now why I didn't do an RC I don't know. But nevertheless, I was so excited I invited all my friends over for a big night of playing the original Sonic the Hedgehog. We were up pretty much all night playing it but the wierd thing was that it was multiplayer. Now if I remember correctly that game didn't have multiplayer. I seemed to recognize this in the dream as well. Yet another time I should of done an RC. Oh well. Still a cool dream.

This dream was peculiar in that it was a movie, but I knew this in the dream.

*real life* So yesterday I was bored and flipped on the tv to see if anything was on. I scrolled through the channels and found War of the Worlds. I had never seen the new version so I decided to watch it. Anyways, I never finished the whole thing so I guess my brain was trying to finish it for me. How kind, too bad it has to be a little jerk when it comes to letting me remember to do an RC!

*dream* So I was watching War of the Worlds in my dream. It wasn't like I was watching it on a tv though, it was ALL I could see, almost like I was there just being an observer. Anyways, in the dream there was a group of people all hiding in the basement of this warehouse type area. It was kind of like a horror movie because it was kind of dark and everything was just in a state of ruin. You know what I'm talking about. So these people were all hiding down there. They saw this refridgerator and just felt the need to open it for some reason. I remember thinking... "Oh, of course some nasty bag of body parts is going to be in there". Well, whaddaya know, as soon as they opened it blood squirted everywhere and some dude's head fell out. I remember laughing at how they acted all surprised when it seemed so obvious that would happen.

So anyways, they quickly closed the fridge again. Then this dog came out of nowhere and started barking. The wierd thing was it had on a gas mask. As it was barking all the people got worried because it might alert all the alien things to thier presence. Well sure enough another alien guy came around the corner and shouted to the rest of them where everyone was. The mose strange thing though... the alien guy was actually just a regular human with this gas mask thing on. So the aliens are all a ctually people??? My brain has a wierd way of completing movies. Anyways, that is all I remember.

(Thanks for the wierd movie brain, now if you would be so kind as to not destroy my efforts to do an RC in a dream!!)

So I was back at the CAP Encampment. We were all at this lake in the mountains. I apparently owned a boat and had brought it along. Then I left, leaving my buddies in charge of my boat. I remember in the dream hoping that they didn't damage my boat and would be able to get it back on the trailer safely. Then I got a radio message from my senior officer informing me that we had to evacuate. I passed the word along onto everyone else and we all started running down the mountain back to the base camp.

I came really close to doing an RC in the dream because as I was going down the mountain, it got really steep. So steep that I was basically just sliding down the side. The wierd part was I couldn't really feel anything. You would think going over all those rocks and stuff would hurt but I never really felt any of it. But silly me, never did the RC because I was so caught up in the moment.

So anyways, we finally made it back to base and reported in. As soon as we did this they told us we were going to evacuate AGAIN!. We all packed up the tents and stuff and began running down the mountain again. I never did find out if my boat was ok because I then woke up.