non-lucid

3-31-2016
I'm in an airport with family. The airport has a lot of elevators and is very crowded. I'm trying to sort out some kind of mix up with some paper work for my grandmother and people keep reading a brand name on my sweatshirt and thinking that is my name, others mistake me for my grandmother when I present her papers. At some point I'm not sorting out paper work or talking to airport workers and more and I've split off from my family. I notice a girl sitting on a marble ledge by a food court. She has short hair dyed various colors in some places. I remember seeing green and at least two other colors. I walk up to her and something to the effect of “hello cutie”. She says hi and ask me what kind of music I like. I tell her I like just about every type of music but country. She says something to the effect of “Come on you've got to do better then that. I'm not interested in guys who can't answer this question correctly.” I get annoyed thinking I don't want to deal with a girl who thinks like that so I start to get up to walk away. She stops me. Her challenge of the question apparently being a bluff. She kisses me and sits on top of me. At some point I find we are having sex but I don't remember taking my pants of or even pulling myself through my pants. As she's grinding on top of me we scoot a bit on the marble ledge into a spot slightly less in view of the bulk of the crowd. She says something like “oh this is so nice I can't believe I'm not paying for it.” I sort of laugh and say “Oh no charge, but if we get fined for public indecency you're welcome to pick up the bill.” I then realize we are still out in public sitting on that marble ledge. I suggest somewhere more secluded so we head into the women's bathroom. It's still pretty crowded in their and not very clean. We head over to the men's bathroom thinking it's probably empty compared to the women's bathroom. It was bigger but even more crowded and kids including girls that were in their with their fathers presumably. There were a couple of isles in there strange as it was so we hoped to find a place that was less in plane view.

Dream
I was playing a ball game with a bunch of people who are the same age as me, plus a couple teachers too. It was day time in my old primary school, though it seemed a little like a university and that fields were bigger. The ball game was a little odd, you basically grabbed a bunch of balls and you have a goal on each side (like soccer) but your way of scoring was usually dependent on your 'stats'. The stats were generic DnD style, str, dex, con, int, wis, cha. I think my brother or maybe a friend was playing too, and he had a very high strength stat so he would always punch the ball to score. Apparently this was the meta, but I had exceptionally high dex (like 18+ or something) so I was a kicker. There were 3 fields we played on, the first field I remember grabbing 6 balls and it was intense because there's a lot of balls to attack with and defend from. We migrated to the second field and this time I grabbed 5 balls for the game, it was still pretty intense. I remember my brother punching the ball and scoring, the power from it was intense. Eventually we migrated to the third field as school finished or something. The sun was setting a little bit, it was still bright out but the sky had an orange tinge. The amount of balls in this game wasn't really clear until later. I remember zipping about, I had the ball and was dribbling like a pro soccer player. At one point I think I'm vsing my brother and I just completely bypass him with a flip and some incredible dexterous foot maneuvers. I think I score a point, everyone is a little surprised at how effective my high dexterity stat was. I go to get the ball from the goal post, I scoop up 5 balls, they're all baseballs. 1 of them is 1/3 the size of the other normal ones, I thought this was weird. I wake up after that.

31/3/16
I know I had 2 or 3 big long dreams but I tossed around as I woke up and they flitted away :/
Fragment: Talking with Jamie

Dream 1: I was at the dinner table and a computer screen was there in front of me. My dad pointed this out to my sister who started hitting it and laughing.

Fragment: Something about Dylan

Fragment: Something about basketball

Preface:
Lack of sleep the whole week. After Easter I have been cleaning and focused on getting some extra things done around the house. As a result, I have been sleeping a lot later 11pm ish.

DR 1

I was in a bar/restaurant. I was with two other people that I don't know. I went to the bar and ordered Sambuca. (I have not tasted Sambuca in years, so this was a surprise.) During the course of the dream I frequented the bar, ordering 3 total after going to a dimly lit room (empty dance floor?).


DR 2
I was with a man. We were trying to escape something or someone. We could see the second floor of a loft from where we were standing. We saw a ladder and thought we could use it to get to the second floor.
The guy started climbing first and I helped him up. (Weird, because I am a lady and ladies are supposed to go first!!) When it was time to go up, I noticed the wooden ladder was kind of weak and seemed like it would break soon. I evenly spread my weight on both sides as I climbed. I almost reached the top when the ladder broke. It broke, but not before I could grab on to two thick wooden pegs at the base of the loft floor. So I'm dangling. I realize I am wearing heels, (pink ones) and I kick them off one by one. First, I try swinging my body and gaining momentum to make it up. That doesn't work. I finally just pull myself up and bring my right foot onto one of the pegs to climb up. The guy I helped never helps me. I make it up by myself. I wake up exhausted.

[Comment]
I had a dream sign but it doesn't seem to relate to something happening in my waking state
so it must be symbolic of something. Trying to tell me something. Maybe that i'm trying to figure out the best possible route to take with my life

D1 - I am in a game world but it is all very primeval. The world is vast watery in texture, colosal dark shapes battle it out.
And I win and move on to the next world. All very very alien and abstract.

D2 - On holiday, in some lovely warm and sunny country, where it is warm all year round. I am in a villa, apparently we have stayed here many times before. And were privileged enough to stay in the best part of the main house. Quarters with large opulent black leather seating and animal skin rugs and large bedroom. The room is glass (dream sign).
I am walking down a thickly carpeted hallyway in the night when I see a familar woman approaching, she has long fair hair and wears a summer frock with a dark cardigan over her shoulders, white heeled shoes.

Spoiler for Sexually explicit:

We go to her bedroom and kiss on her bed. She is then under the covers and pulls them off from her. She wants me to pleasure her and I oblige. She then pulls me up to her and grabs me. I sit up and she starts sucking on me. We are interrupted by another woman I know. She is the womans partner and enquires if I want to be involved in a threesome. I feels it would be unfair to intrude and leave them to their privacy. I walk out of the room and wake up from the dream.

I was wearing a black suit. It was night, sky was full of stars and the moon was somewhat bigger than usually. It was in a catle of some kind, in a great hall where proms and balls happened. With other people from previous and current school we were descending down the stairs. Most of these people I haven't seen since a few years. One of the girls caught my attention - she had dark hair and dark complexion. It was a girl that I never really liked, and for some reason it has changed. She was wearing a red dress. She was smiling to me, I held her hand.

1) Sitting around a table. Very small portions of food. I complained to the woman sitting next to me and she agreed they were getting smaller. I asked for some more but just got a teaspoon of gravy added to the side of my plate. Bit of a theme here.

2) It was lunch time in a school canteen. The children were all rushing over to get their lunch. I had to serve so moved a serving table around and cleared all the rubbish off the top of it. Continuing the food theme.....

3) I was with a patient and noticed that he was interested in lucid dreaming, congratulated him and told him that I was interested as well but hadn't had a lucid dream yet

30/3/16:
Dream 1: I was playing a Dota game, it started off alright but our support was absolutely terrible, feeding and such and ending up abandoning. 4v5 we started to struggle, until their bloodseeker went absolutely insane nd started eating us up left right and centre. He killed all of us multiple times and the last time I just barely managed to get away to the fountain.

Fragment: I was on the internet doing something.

Dream 2: I took the train down to where the basketball stadium I normally play at was, however the whole area is sort of blocked off. I try to get through but can't really. I look through the window of the basketball stadium and see a few people inside playing, however I have a feeling that I'm not allowed to go in there. I wen back to the train station and met up with my brother who explained what was going on. He told me the Olympics were happening soon here and the Olympic village was being set up there. I asked him why they weren't using the Olympic village from 60 years ago but he said he didn't know why.

Dream 3: I was on a cliff with someone else, skimming rocks down the cliff to try and get them as far as possible. It was a bit like a science experiment so they all had to be about 1.8 kg to count. I think we each threw two rocks before we realised that though so I collected them and measured their weight. One of mine as 1.7 kg so it was ok, but the other was only like 0.9 kilos so it didn't count. I went to find another rock to throw and found a weird purple one but it weighed the right amount so I threw it anyway.

Fragment: Something about shaving and cutting my super long toenails.

Dream 4: I was at a different university campus at a computing tutorial. The tut was really hard and by the end I was completely lost and panicking. Everybody went outside and sat around and talked on a football field. After a little while though an alarm went off and security guards came to us. They started interrogating us, saying none of us would leave until someone fessed up, and eventually someone put their hand up and was handcuffed by them. I walked over and could hear them crying, until I got close enough to recognise it was my brother. I walked up to the guards and asked them what had happened, they told me that he had broken a gutter on the edge of a roof. I asked my brother why on earth he would do that and he said he saw it has hanging low and jumped up to grab it and it snapped due to his weight. I told the guards to let him go as he hadn't deliberately down anything wrong. I don't know if they actually let him go because of this or not, but I know we had to go the regular city campus next as we were no longer welcome at that previous campus.

We got to the city campus where we had a computing workshop this time starting shortly. I knew it was on level 10 of the building, so I started going up the escalator but my brother said the elevator was faster so I hopped off after a few levels. Somehow I lost my brother and didn't know where the elevators where so I wandered back down to the ground floor to try and figure out where I was. I walked around to the other side of the building and then reentered up a short escalator. I ended up in a food market of some kind, and was about to leave but I saw some of my friends hanging around there. I asked them what they were doing and they said they were getting lunch from a make your own kebab place. Intrigued, I went over to them and saw you could pay to get a skewer, two slices of bread and all the meat you wanted. I saw it was only $10 so I decided to get it as well. I put one slice of break at the bottom of the skewer, leaving the other for the top like a burger, and then looked at all the different meats. I got some bacon, lamb, pork and this amazing looking smoked beef. I ate that and then went up the escalators again. I met up with my brother on level 9 somehow, and he told me to follow him to the room even though it was the floor below. We walked in and it was an arena in darkness with a woman giving a speech in Chinese there. We sat down and it turned out to be next to a friend from high school. I asked her if this was the right place and she said no, so,, scolding my brother, I walked out and tried to get up to the next level.

Dream #2 today. I was w/ friends & family by a beach w/ a cool outdoor eating area where we were eating Chinese food hibachi style. For some reason I was being married off to some old Chinese guy which I wasn't looking forward to. But an old boyfriend from my childhood was there & we managed to sneak off together & get away from those people. It was a very vivid & memorable dream... My first husband was a Chinese chef & I worked in the industry & still have a great fondness for Chinese food & both of my sons worked also in the industry in there teens.

Dream#1 today~ I was at this strange abstract birthday party w/ some ppl I know & some I didn't. My friends & I were trying to cheat to not participate in some sick party gift game... The object was to give some of your organs, yes body parts, as gifts to a child for his birthday. Then we went to an after party for adults & ppl were drinking & getting wasted so that triggered me to get away from the dream. I quit drinking almost 2 yrs ago just as a lifestyle choice which in turn gave me more vivid dreams like I had had when I was younger.

I was in a huge library, there were many people sitting near tables and reading. Someone came closer and gave me an "Underground admittance". I took an elevator and quickly arrived in a dark cavern room built over with wood. Some parts of it were lit. As soon as I left the elevator, everybody rushed inside it to get to the surface. Only I and manager of this level stayed. He was a black man, wearing a green uniform. When he saw me, he said "Welcome to the underground level! We are surrounded by endless darkness, and as you can see, only this wooden construction protects us from perilous danger!"

I wandered around the cavern, wondering what's going on. In one place I looked in between wood beams, staring at the strange blackness. I moved somewhere else, and between the beams I saw a beautiful tropical beach at sunset. Another look - and another beach. There were dangerously looking storm clouds gathering upon it. I called the manager and asked "Are our brains generating these beautiful landscapes as a way to deal with this unusual darkness?" He looked a bit surprised and said "I'm not certainly sure, but it is possible."

A sudden earthquake occured, lights in previously lit area turned off. Manager shouted in panic when he realized that we were stranded down there. I tried to open an evacuation shaft, but a chandelier almost fallen on my head. I tried again and opened it, only to discover that no human is able to climb up through it. He said with hope "They are preparing to save us... they really are!" I said "You know what? They really do, because I expect it, and in lucid dreams, expectations and belief are the most important factors!" I didn't even noticed that I'm back in my house and that the man turned into one of my classmates.

We talked for a while in my kitchen. We both wanted to go to toilet, instead of it we both peed there. Suddenly he turned and shouted "Oh shit! Grandma!". We ran to another room, I held the door so nobody could enter. It was my parents' bedroom, but only mother was sleeping. Suddenly I heard a shout "Hey! What are you doing!?" - it was my father going back from toilet. I tried to explain "I thought it was grandma!" to which he replied "How could she get here?"

I left him and went to toilet, thinking if this is a crazy dream that could become lucid, but I woke up soon.

Not much time for dreams lately, RL is kicking my ass a bit. Here's a dream about horses, because why not?

I'm in a messy house with a lot of clutters and white walls. My mother is bringing something back from somewhere. She parks the care and there's a trailer linked to it. She brought in two horses; a grey one with a spanish built, a lipizzan maybe, with a wavy mane and tail; and a alezan one, with a roughter built, more quarter-horse. The second one is a bit bovine, and do nothing more that grazing a bit. The grey one is something else. As soon as we have him in his pasture, he find a patch of bare dirt and rolls around in it, overing himself with the bright orange soil. I pick up a brush and call him. He trot up to me, head held high, and stop in front of me. I start to brush out the dirt, the sky turning dark but the light not changing. It's a long process but it's not tedious; it's almost meditative, and both the exercise and the body warm of the horse warn off the cold of the night. I lean against it's back to take a breather, tucking my arms under my chin and looking out to the pasture. The smell of horse is strong but pleasant, and his skin is slighting shaking each time my breath touch it, as if it was a fly. I can barely see the other horse; the light around us seem to stop a few paces away.

At my dads there is this old highschool building thats been there for like 200 years. For some reason its abandoned and a bunch of teenagers are loitering there just kinda being mischievious. I'm walking around the school whenever I notice a girl with blond hair and bright blue eyes following me. I start running she's getting closer and closer still. Somehow I'm now wearing skates and I'm flying down the hallway. She cries out," Wait Katelyn, let me see your face! I'm dead! You went here with my descendants!" I fly into a window AWAY from her. The last thing I remember is seeing a browser pop-up and one of my friends's picture is up there. And he's got long blonde hair like when he was in high school.

Woke lots last night but too tired to write dreams down, so forgot most of them.

A very depressing dream

1) In the lounge of an old stately home with big windows. it was dark and foggy outside, we had to go outside to look for the dog. We were chasing around moorland. Then an old 'friend' appeared who used to bully me at school, he started to make fun of me, he was trying to get me to buy a really tacky loking old mirror with plastic on it I think as a present for someone, and I refused and he made fun of me even more. Then I was in the kitchen of my childhood home, there was a pile of presents on the table, I opened the ones from my mother to me. They were obviously very expensive, I think she had bought them in the shop of the stately home we had just been in. I didn't like them though, then started to feel very depressed and angry with myself that I didn't appreciate her presents. About now I think my parents mentionned that they had booked a weekend away for themselves for Easter and started telling me how marvellous it was, and I was jealous. I thought that killing myself would be the only way out, but decided that I didn't agree with suicide. A half empty plate of food landed on the kitchen table, I asked if dinner was being served, my mother told told me yes and I needed to go and get some, she poured herself another glass of wine and walked off. I went to the dining room, my whole family including grandparents were sitting around the table and had almost finished without even inviting me, there was no plae mat or cutlery in my place. I started to get some food but my brother and a friend had started clearing up and moved everything before I could get much food. I followed them to the kitchen but still couldn't get at the food a they were all crowding around so I gave up.
This was the saddest dream I can ever remember. I woke up feeling very depressed and suicidal, then realised that this was real life and that I am actually quite happy.

29/3/16:
Dream 1: I went to a window near the back of my house and saw an owl outside, looking at me with big yellow eyes. I marvelled at this as I had never seen an owl IRL before. I then noticed my cat was next to me, hissing and spitting at the window. The owl and the cat got up as close as they could to the window and starting taunting each other. Somehow the cat got out though, and the owl was no more. My brother came and asked me what was going on but I told him to go back as he didn't want to see what was going on.

Dream 2: There was a gun which shot backwards, a sawn of shotgun which sprayed pellets everywhere out the back end of the gun, so a guy was going around tricking people into thinking they were safe before he shot them.

Dream 3: I was at a high school, not my own, in class. I was on my computer and playing a game, something star wars related I think. The bell rang and class ended so I ran outside to get to my locker. I passed a cafeteria and then got to my locker only to realise I had left my computer and books and stuff in the classroom. I decided to get the rest of my stuff from my locker first before going back for that. While at the lockers I bumped into a friend discussing with some other people how he had royal/noble blood. His mum was related to the second most powerful family in Malaysia, however they were under threat of attack from the most powerful family so they had to defend themselves. Their house there had an extendable spiral wall to protect them at night, which he gave a demonstration of at his locker, pulling out a wooden spiral fence around it that grew and grew. I went bac to the classroom to get my stuff, passing someone I knew on the way, only to find there was an after school art class going on in that room. I went inside and saw my stuff was still there, so I began packing it away but the art teacher stopped me. She tried to get me to join in with their activities, making a big balloon sack thing, so I went along with it a bit before just packing my stuff away and getting out of there.